Last post of the year.. so must post a bit.. lots of happenings on the selling floor, but was too busy to update.. and soon it shall be forgotten.
Just reached home and soon i'll be off to punggol for a 'mini' new year count down.. hahaaa.. again. And my house is so far away.
2005 is a bitter sweet year, as all years are.
Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone~ really got to go.. haha..
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Ouch.
Ouch! My leg hurts again.. and what's worst.. still had to work as promoter. 8 hours non-stop standing.. actually not really.. haha.. i still have 1 hour break in between.. but that's because it's a no-pay break.. And so today i aggrieved my condition.. and haiz.. it's already been near to six years.. and i had to live with it for more to come.
By the time i reached home.. i couldn't bear the pain.. so had to remain motionless for some time.. arrh.. so painful. But it's ok.. coz i told my mom i'm a boi.. wahahaa.. but she seems worried again.. haiz.. i hate to see that.. they always like to 'chute' pattern one.. makes me very scared..
So no choice.. i very careful now.. got pain also must walk until like no pain.. and that makes it more painful.. arrr.. what a torture. Tomorrow still had to go work.. and saturday do stockcheck and monday band practice.. wahh.. i'm so busy. Still have welfare gathering and mj.. waah.. where to find time..
It was very boring at the selling floor today.. no one cut my sales at all.. just becoz i didn't have any. How sad.. and one whole day i only had one sales of my own and many of others.. haha.. and then maybe i should consider collecting commisions from other companies.. haha.. but today i forgot a lot of things i had learnt.. feels like a noob on the floor.. haha..
I really did a lot .. but still not enough.. the prices tells all. So i stand there help other promoters.. haha.. until other promoters asked me which side am i on.. of coz.. i'm on my own side. So long as i don't shortchange my company.. i feel that it is ok.. maybe i did it for goodwill.. but i don't expect any returns.. becoz we are competitors.. and really had no choice.. juz smile and be happy about it.
And then there are so many people to watch.. haha.. got dinos, hippos, bears, monkeys and all that.. haha.. it's so fun! Too bad my leg hurts.. if not i can go walk around and follow all the pretty ones... ahaahaa..
Today served a few aunties.. and a few mei meis.. haha.. and don't know why.. i seems to do better when facing aunties.. and when i face mei nu i paiseh.. then i say the wrong things, took bolster cover and say it was a pillow case.. and must let the mei nu correct me.. haha.. which makes me even more paiseh.. luckily it wasn't my counter.. wahahaa. i just go there zho luan nia.. Actually nope.. coz the counter beside me like war zone.. i only had 2 small fixtures while he had 7 bins! Lol.. just like those seen in clearence sales.. haha.. don't know who told me before.. sales must have a bin for customers to play with.. they like to mix things and search for those they wants.. like that then got satisfaction.. wahaha.. then i should have my tea break.. coz my job is to pack and help them find.. but since they like to search .. might as well. Too bad i didn't have any bins to play with this time round.. so i played with other promoter's bin... evil ar me.. haha..But i do get lots of sales there.. no need to open mouth one.. haha.. but too bad it wasn't my company..
So i climb here and there, move the stocks here and there.. until i cannot walk well.. and ouch again.. haiz.. sian ah.
By the time i reached home.. i couldn't bear the pain.. so had to remain motionless for some time.. arrh.. so painful. But it's ok.. coz i told my mom i'm a boi.. wahahaa.. but she seems worried again.. haiz.. i hate to see that.. they always like to 'chute' pattern one.. makes me very scared..
So no choice.. i very careful now.. got pain also must walk until like no pain.. and that makes it more painful.. arrr.. what a torture. Tomorrow still had to go work.. and saturday do stockcheck and monday band practice.. wahh.. i'm so busy. Still have welfare gathering and mj.. waah.. where to find time..
It was very boring at the selling floor today.. no one cut my sales at all.. just becoz i didn't have any. How sad.. and one whole day i only had one sales of my own and many of others.. haha.. and then maybe i should consider collecting commisions from other companies.. haha.. but today i forgot a lot of things i had learnt.. feels like a noob on the floor.. haha..
I really did a lot .. but still not enough.. the prices tells all. So i stand there help other promoters.. haha.. until other promoters asked me which side am i on.. of coz.. i'm on my own side. So long as i don't shortchange my company.. i feel that it is ok.. maybe i did it for goodwill.. but i don't expect any returns.. becoz we are competitors.. and really had no choice.. juz smile and be happy about it.
And then there are so many people to watch.. haha.. got dinos, hippos, bears, monkeys and all that.. haha.. it's so fun! Too bad my leg hurts.. if not i can go walk around and follow all the pretty ones... ahaahaa..
Today served a few aunties.. and a few mei meis.. haha.. and don't know why.. i seems to do better when facing aunties.. and when i face mei nu i paiseh.. then i say the wrong things, took bolster cover and say it was a pillow case.. and must let the mei nu correct me.. haha.. which makes me even more paiseh.. luckily it wasn't my counter.. wahahaa. i just go there zho luan nia.. Actually nope.. coz the counter beside me like war zone.. i only had 2 small fixtures while he had 7 bins! Lol.. just like those seen in clearence sales.. haha.. don't know who told me before.. sales must have a bin for customers to play with.. they like to mix things and search for those they wants.. like that then got satisfaction.. wahaha.. then i should have my tea break.. coz my job is to pack and help them find.. but since they like to search .. might as well. Too bad i didn't have any bins to play with this time round.. so i played with other promoter's bin... evil ar me.. haha..But i do get lots of sales there.. no need to open mouth one.. haha.. but too bad it wasn't my company..
So i climb here and there, move the stocks here and there.. until i cannot walk well.. and ouch again.. haiz.. sian ah.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
It Wasn't My Day
After such a long holiday, i was finally back in school again... kind of missed school and TS of coz..
Yesterday after school stayed back to get notes from Erica.. coz the toopid Admin don't want to answer my call.. and so in the end photocopied the whole stack of notes.. then stayed back to study a bit..
Met Erica at the Atrium, and saw Geoff and Gupta as well... now i know how come i didn't see the year ones in school.. they were having holidays! Argh.. and i don't have.. so i declared my own. Haaa.. And then geoff told me he was going thomson for prata after school.. and suddenly i !!.. haha.. it was so near my place! Wanted to join them but i though i was going down MIA again..
After geoff went off for class, stayed and chatted with gupta about the difference between zen and ipod.. though he asked a lot about camp D, i don't want to tell him.. wahaha.. want to pek him.. lol. But i think he made a very good salesman.. in the end he got me so tempted that i wanted to go and buy an ipod straightaway.. haha.. but coz it was still raining, i didn't.
Was in SRC room after that and soon the whole welfare seniors were there.. classes were over and we played TS for two games.. cheat code didn't work. Out of luck. After the welfarians left, geoff came and we played darts.. wahaha.. it was spectacular.. i mean not the way we threw it, but the stunts we did.. haha.. and so i joined them for prata after all..
After prata, went home for dinner.. and waah.. that vp very good.. haha.. gave me a ride home at first, now gave me a ride to UE square.. wahh..
Reached MIA about 8.30pm and there were a lot of guests.. someone's having a birthday celebration.. and they are also having promotions. Took out our 2/3 bottle of martell and start 'chilling'.. in the end, still fell for their trick.. coz they are very good at making one finish their bottle.. either they make u tah or they take ur bottle and tah.. either way, u lose. Haaha.. i thought i very zai one.. five - ten still ok.. and then they bring all the experts out.. sian. All level higher than me in any aspect. Didn't puke but was almost going to.. and that toopid waitress still wants me to order a jug of housepour.. haha.. i know when to stop one lor..
After that went supper with my friends and then took cab home.. thinking that we didn't spend too much on the 'outing', and that it was the most economical one that i ever had.. but then, i forgot to bring my bag home! It was still at the coffee shop.. hahahaa.. and the time when i discovered it was when i was about to alight.. so in the end made a detour back to MS to retrieve.. and my cab fare amounts to $30 even though i shared with my friends on the initial trip.. haha.. but luckily i still found my bag, and they were about to close.. haaha.. the auntie even joked about it.. saying it was a 'suspicious' item.. haha.. they don't dare to keep.. but inside was my beloved V2.. haha.. an antique. So $30 for $700? I think its worth it.
Never felt so happy in my life for being so stupid.
Yesterday after school stayed back to get notes from Erica.. coz the toopid Admin don't want to answer my call.. and so in the end photocopied the whole stack of notes.. then stayed back to study a bit..
Met Erica at the Atrium, and saw Geoff and Gupta as well... now i know how come i didn't see the year ones in school.. they were having holidays! Argh.. and i don't have.. so i declared my own. Haaa.. And then geoff told me he was going thomson for prata after school.. and suddenly i !!.. haha.. it was so near my place! Wanted to join them but i though i was going down MIA again..
After geoff went off for class, stayed and chatted with gupta about the difference between zen and ipod.. though he asked a lot about camp D, i don't want to tell him.. wahaha.. want to pek him.. lol. But i think he made a very good salesman.. in the end he got me so tempted that i wanted to go and buy an ipod straightaway.. haha.. but coz it was still raining, i didn't.
Was in SRC room after that and soon the whole welfare seniors were there.. classes were over and we played TS for two games.. cheat code didn't work. Out of luck. After the welfarians left, geoff came and we played darts.. wahaha.. it was spectacular.. i mean not the way we threw it, but the stunts we did.. haha.. and so i joined them for prata after all..
After prata, went home for dinner.. and waah.. that vp very good.. haha.. gave me a ride home at first, now gave me a ride to UE square.. wahh..
Reached MIA about 8.30pm and there were a lot of guests.. someone's having a birthday celebration.. and they are also having promotions. Took out our 2/3 bottle of martell and start 'chilling'.. in the end, still fell for their trick.. coz they are very good at making one finish their bottle.. either they make u tah or they take ur bottle and tah.. either way, u lose. Haaha.. i thought i very zai one.. five - ten still ok.. and then they bring all the experts out.. sian. All level higher than me in any aspect. Didn't puke but was almost going to.. and that toopid waitress still wants me to order a jug of housepour.. haha.. i know when to stop one lor..
After that went supper with my friends and then took cab home.. thinking that we didn't spend too much on the 'outing', and that it was the most economical one that i ever had.. but then, i forgot to bring my bag home! It was still at the coffee shop.. hahahaa.. and the time when i discovered it was when i was about to alight.. so in the end made a detour back to MS to retrieve.. and my cab fare amounts to $30 even though i shared with my friends on the initial trip.. haha.. but luckily i still found my bag, and they were about to close.. haaha.. the auntie even joked about it.. saying it was a 'suspicious' item.. haha.. they don't dare to keep.. but inside was my beloved V2.. haha.. an antique. So $30 for $700? I think its worth it.
Never felt so happy in my life for being so stupid.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Boxing Day!
I almost thought today was a Sunday.. coz of band practice and all that.. today at band my buddy pang seh me.. but i not scared.. muahaha.. coz i did practice for an hour .. (for the past one week) But i already resign to what was to be thrown at me.. suprisingly i can hoot all the notes.. though with a lot of misses.. and he thought i don't know the notes. Hey hey.. i really know my stuffs ok..
So today he exploded.. not me this time.. haha.. but i guess it was the 'U-FO' and trumpets.. they all trying to funny. So everyone had a bad start this morning becoz of an explosion. But then came some sweetness.. aww.. haha.. coz got the girl santa give out chocolates.. and i guess it was crushed inside my bag already.. oops..
So i went off quite late this morning. .skipped my breakfast in the process and then band was from morning 10am till 2pm.. and by the time i reached home, it was already 3 plus.. and mom didn't cook.. so had to go out to da bao again.. after eating straight away went to sleep.. waahaa.. till 9pm!.. ar.. think will be a sleepness night again.
Think must be all the late nights these few days that made me tired. Luckily i had night rider with me.. and it was better than taking a cab. Haha.. for only $2.50, i got the whole bus to myself.. me and me alone.. together with the 2 LCD television and non-stop journey.. haha.. where to find? So i am starting to like night life.. those healthy ones of coz.. maybe supper or chilling out..
And before i knew it, xmas was over! And time for new year.. and sadly, i'll be working.. ahaha.. and i asked for it. Hmm.. might as well.. if not i'll end up spending a lot.. Now saving to buy an ipod.. seems a bit wasteful.. haiz.. but it's cool.. and then i saw my sis using T9.. and i also want it too!.. $600+ she said.. argh.. and then a laptop to replace my lousy computer.. and another $2k.. ahhaa.. maybe i'll just work till exams.. and wah.. confirm fail one.
And then i discover my english becoming more and more broken (?).. must be that i read too much of that blog.. and soon maybe other things will follow too.. haha.
Monday night.. was going through my work and then i discovered.. my POA assignment not done! arrr.. cham liao.. i'll have nightmares today again.. hahaa
So today he exploded.. not me this time.. haha.. but i guess it was the 'U-FO' and trumpets.. they all trying to funny. So everyone had a bad start this morning becoz of an explosion. But then came some sweetness.. aww.. haha.. coz got the girl santa give out chocolates.. and i guess it was crushed inside my bag already.. oops..
So i went off quite late this morning. .skipped my breakfast in the process and then band was from morning 10am till 2pm.. and by the time i reached home, it was already 3 plus.. and mom didn't cook.. so had to go out to da bao again.. after eating straight away went to sleep.. waahaa.. till 9pm!.. ar.. think will be a sleepness night again.
Think must be all the late nights these few days that made me tired. Luckily i had night rider with me.. and it was better than taking a cab. Haha.. for only $2.50, i got the whole bus to myself.. me and me alone.. together with the 2 LCD television and non-stop journey.. haha.. where to find? So i am starting to like night life.. those healthy ones of coz.. maybe supper or chilling out..
And before i knew it, xmas was over! And time for new year.. and sadly, i'll be working.. ahaha.. and i asked for it. Hmm.. might as well.. if not i'll end up spending a lot.. Now saving to buy an ipod.. seems a bit wasteful.. haiz.. but it's cool.. and then i saw my sis using T9.. and i also want it too!.. $600+ she said.. argh.. and then a laptop to replace my lousy computer.. and another $2k.. ahhaa.. maybe i'll just work till exams.. and wah.. confirm fail one.
And then i discover my english becoming more and more broken (?).. must be that i read too much of that blog.. and soon maybe other things will follow too.. haha.
Monday night.. was going through my work and then i discovered.. my POA assignment not done! arrr.. cham liao.. i'll have nightmares today again.. hahaa
I'm so bright~
Xmas day.. full of deco and lights~ but can't imagine being one of the lighbulbs.. i think the ultimate lightbulb award for 2005 goes to me.. = =
So back from ktv.. and a lock lock 1 somemore.. haha.. no choice.. budget.. but in the end spent more than k box.. $20 per person.. but for a holiday.. i think its worth it.
Today went cousin's house for xmas feast.. aww.. haha.. turkey, sushi and a lot more! Free flow of soft drinks.. And then went to play basketball with them.. and injured my thumb.. ahhh.. guess i'm too old.
Hahaa.. and then old lady's birthday.. and guess what? hahaa.. i shall not expose.. but really .. its quite funny.. haha.
Just some of my nonsense.. i wondered when it'll end.
So back from ktv.. and a lock lock 1 somemore.. haha.. no choice.. budget.. but in the end spent more than k box.. $20 per person.. but for a holiday.. i think its worth it.
Today went cousin's house for xmas feast.. aww.. haha.. turkey, sushi and a lot more! Free flow of soft drinks.. And then went to play basketball with them.. and injured my thumb.. ahhh.. guess i'm too old.
Hahaa.. and then old lady's birthday.. and guess what? hahaa.. i shall not expose.. but really .. its quite funny.. haha.
Just some of my nonsense.. i wondered when it'll end.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
On The First Day Of Christmas..
On the first day of xmas.. i got another lousy dream! Must be darn free to dream so much.. now its just 9 am in the morning.. and the weather is so cold. It snowed yesterday night.. and i got frighten awake by my own dream. It just seems so real again. What a lousy way to begin a holiday.
It snowed so heavily that i thought i could freeze just by standing on the floor..
Received a 'gift' from the santarina (i really don't know how to spell.. and there isn't a spelling on the dictionary.. anyway, it means the gal santa..) from dbl o.. actually it was from carlsberg.. a key chain with a led on it.. Nice~ And it comes in red and green... (not orange and green).. And then at 12 am, the stranger beside me actually wished me merry xmas~ The whole place was like.. so happening.. and at least for once, everybody is counting according to the DJ's timing.. not like some orchard road celebration where xmas occurs like our kallang wave.. one moment you hear one side shouting merry xmas.. then 2 - 3 mins later you hear the same thing again.. haha.. i guess their watch are not in tune huh?
Speaking of in tune.. i still have to go band practice tomorrow~!! ARGH~ Hated it now totally.. and i don't have the time to practice.. coz had to go to my cousin mj's house (not mahjong lar..) for a celebration with my relatives~ Haha.. time to bully the kids again. Year after year i told myself that i would buy a gift for them.. but year after year i didn't.. till now all the kids grew up.. and they no longer are fascinated by xmas presents.
Really.. blogging a lot more now.. haha.. i don't even know why. 3 entries per day.. haha.. maybe i really got so much to blog.. i think there's still more to come when i return from my cousin's place and maybe from MIA.. i don't know.. wm and his gf wants to k.. and they need a lightbulb.. haiz.. haha.. maybe for the 2005 most brightest award (bright as in lightbulb.. not clever) should go to me.. everywhere i go i seems to be the lightbulb.. especially so in Welfare department. And not the only group.. Haiz..
Anyway, blogged so much in advance becoz i won't have time after tomorrow.. a lot more things coming up in January.. i've got work, band concert, Camp D of SRC, and my studies to take care of.. what a busy 2006.
i just love the lights~! They are soo awww~
Some of the xmas decos that i took with my 6260
The gift from Carlsberg.. Nice~
Equipped with a powerful led to shine at anyone who obstructs me at the floor!
It snowed so heavily that i thought i could freeze just by standing on the floor..
Received a 'gift' from the santarina (i really don't know how to spell.. and there isn't a spelling on the dictionary.. anyway, it means the gal santa..) from dbl o.. actually it was from carlsberg.. a key chain with a led on it.. Nice~ And it comes in red and green... (not orange and green).. And then at 12 am, the stranger beside me actually wished me merry xmas~ The whole place was like.. so happening.. and at least for once, everybody is counting according to the DJ's timing.. not like some orchard road celebration where xmas occurs like our kallang wave.. one moment you hear one side shouting merry xmas.. then 2 - 3 mins later you hear the same thing again.. haha.. i guess their watch are not in tune huh?
Speaking of in tune.. i still have to go band practice tomorrow~!! ARGH~ Hated it now totally.. and i don't have the time to practice.. coz had to go to my cousin mj's house (not mahjong lar..) for a celebration with my relatives~ Haha.. time to bully the kids again. Year after year i told myself that i would buy a gift for them.. but year after year i didn't.. till now all the kids grew up.. and they no longer are fascinated by xmas presents.
Really.. blogging a lot more now.. haha.. i don't even know why. 3 entries per day.. haha.. maybe i really got so much to blog.. i think there's still more to come when i return from my cousin's place and maybe from MIA.. i don't know.. wm and his gf wants to k.. and they need a lightbulb.. haiz.. haha.. maybe for the 2005 most brightest award (bright as in lightbulb.. not clever) should go to me.. everywhere i go i seems to be the lightbulb.. especially so in Welfare department. And not the only group.. Haiz..
Anyway, blogged so much in advance becoz i won't have time after tomorrow.. a lot more things coming up in January.. i've got work, band concert, Camp D of SRC, and my studies to take care of.. what a busy 2006.
i just love the lights~! They are soo awww~
Some of the xmas decos that i took with my 6260
The gift from Carlsberg.. Nice~
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Equipped with a powerful led to shine at anyone who obstructs me at the floor!
Jungle Bells~
And then... merry xmas~!!! Hahaa.. it was a special day after all..
Went to Dbl O with JJSG.. haha.. a few missing links here and there.. but hey.. it was fun! Jamie Yeo was there~!!! WAH! My sp look alike.. haha.. actually not really.. but almost the same.. So Jamie wished us merry christmas.. and then i melted.. haha.. actually no.. it takes a lot more aww to melt me.. haha.
Then came their 'Santa' and the girl 'Santa'.. haha.. don't know how to spell.. but they were dancing on the bartop!.. waaah~!!.. i think the guys all just stand there gong gong watch lor.. haha.. me? Also watched.. haha.. coz i'm a guy too.. but i don't find it very interesting for long..
Whether is it that i didn't drink enough or my level super darn high.. i just can't get the feeling of being drunk. Maybe my liver really spoilt.. oh no! But crubbing is nice.. and you see those on the high high platform dance the 'ah beng' dance.. wahaha.. it was very interesting.. i want to learn also.. haha.. so must crub more and more.
No issue.. coz i will be working.. but definately need to cut down on the consumption of alcohol.. coz the show says drink too much will . . . . wahahaa.. that's for you to find out. So after this year.. i shall go drinking no more than 1 times a week.. really. Really?
So went home early.. it was very very crowded there.. and i'm starting to get bored.. so left with jy since we lived near each other.. reached home around 2.30 am and then i got hungry.. so cooked instant noodles.. haha.. my favorite.. haha.. maybe next time when i live alone can cook it the whole time.. coz i don't know how to cook other things..
Actually it was a normal xmas.. but then it was special.. as all holidays are. Happy Holidays!
Went to Dbl O with JJSG.. haha.. a few missing links here and there.. but hey.. it was fun! Jamie Yeo was there~!!! WAH! My sp look alike.. haha.. actually not really.. but almost the same.. So Jamie wished us merry christmas.. and then i melted.. haha.. actually no.. it takes a lot more aww to melt me.. haha.
Then came their 'Santa' and the girl 'Santa'.. haha.. don't know how to spell.. but they were dancing on the bartop!.. waaah~!!.. i think the guys all just stand there gong gong watch lor.. haha.. me? Also watched.. haha.. coz i'm a guy too.. but i don't find it very interesting for long..
Whether is it that i didn't drink enough or my level super darn high.. i just can't get the feeling of being drunk. Maybe my liver really spoilt.. oh no! But crubbing is nice.. and you see those on the high high platform dance the 'ah beng' dance.. wahaha.. it was very interesting.. i want to learn also.. haha.. so must crub more and more.
No issue.. coz i will be working.. but definately need to cut down on the consumption of alcohol.. coz the show says drink too much will . . . . wahahaa.. that's for you to find out. So after this year.. i shall go drinking no more than 1 times a week.. really. Really?
So went home early.. it was very very crowded there.. and i'm starting to get bored.. so left with jy since we lived near each other.. reached home around 2.30 am and then i got hungry.. so cooked instant noodles.. haha.. my favorite.. haha.. maybe next time when i live alone can cook it the whole time.. coz i don't know how to cook other things..
Actually it was a normal xmas.. but then it was special.. as all holidays are. Happy Holidays!
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Xmas Eve
Rain = snow? It rains so much that the weather is cold.. kinda liked it. Just thankful that i didn't venture too far out.. Anyway, meeting JJSG for countdown party later.. haiz.. my poor liver.. haha..
Today the discovery channel showed the 'makings of a hangover' again.. haha.. scared i didn't catch the message is it?.. yep.. i got it. Even if i have the will, i won't have the way. My wallet is empty.. Think i've spent 2 months of my savings in just a week.. and i don't even see anything tangible. Haiz.. so when my manager called and asked me to work during new year's day, i agreed.. all the more better. I don't think i have any program on that day.
So i was actually not really keen to work.. $5.50 per hour seems too little to feed my liver.. haha.. so i asked.. and it became $6! ^^ hahaa.. now i seems to be the 'higher' paid on the selling floor.. and that excludes my incentive of a flat $100 per month! Muahahaa.. no wonder no body wants to study. If not for SRC, i would have worked since last june.. and maybe by now my pay would be $6.50 per hour. All for standing around.. haha.. selling my time only.
The only other worries.. my studies.. really can't catch up.. haiz.. i tried to hit to the notes during these few days but the things just won't sink in.. the only thing sinking was something else. And to make matters worst, i had a bad dream last night.. not a big deal, i'm already so old.. but it seems so real.. and it really frightens me. Must be the horror shows that i watched last night.. haiz..
And then having band practice on boxing day.. haiz... even holidays also must practice.. the instructor scared i didn't practice.. haha.. which i didn't.. until just now.. Wow.. no wonder they all seems so pro.. coz they did it for 3 months.. while i only saw it for 3 weeks. I can always go off and take it as nothing has happened.. i have no obligations.. just puzzeled why i kept going back over and over again.. must be my toopid character.
Listen to a lot more stories.. and i think i'm not a problem solver. And they just transfered their burden to me.. haiz.. maybe i should start collecting fees.. then i won't have so much burden. I guess it happens to all .. and a lot of things.. really.. is beyond our control and understanding. Thinking only makes one unhappy.. haha.. maybe smarter.. but its a waste of time. Too bad i had too much time to waste. Might as well go to the selling floor and think down there right? Got pay somemore.. haha.
A lot more surprises for this festive season.. as it always been.. a lot or warmth amist the cool weather and care within the cold blooded.. oops!.. haha.. I think my xmas wish is going to come true.. i can smell it.. haha.. and my wish is - to own a laptop. And then i can invite friends to come to my house to play LAN games.. my old comp is giving me lots of problems.. all because of the faulty aligment of the chassis.. from knowing nothing to now, i'm thankful for my NS buddy who taught me how to assemble a computer.. it is, actually very easy.. if only one knows how. As always the case. But now, i'm tired.. i don't want to do CPR on it everytime it gives way.. i'm really sick and tired of it.. 3 years plus since it 'developed' this .. and i think its not 'chio'.. i want a all black colour cpu.. if not i'll opt for a notebook instead.
Didn't get any gifts, cards chocolates or whatever.. coz no money.. haha.. so my friends.. i shall make up for it next christmas ba.. maybe double the present or what..
Today the discovery channel showed the 'makings of a hangover' again.. haha.. scared i didn't catch the message is it?.. yep.. i got it. Even if i have the will, i won't have the way. My wallet is empty.. Think i've spent 2 months of my savings in just a week.. and i don't even see anything tangible. Haiz.. so when my manager called and asked me to work during new year's day, i agreed.. all the more better. I don't think i have any program on that day.
So i was actually not really keen to work.. $5.50 per hour seems too little to feed my liver.. haha.. so i asked.. and it became $6! ^^ hahaa.. now i seems to be the 'higher' paid on the selling floor.. and that excludes my incentive of a flat $100 per month! Muahahaa.. no wonder no body wants to study. If not for SRC, i would have worked since last june.. and maybe by now my pay would be $6.50 per hour. All for standing around.. haha.. selling my time only.
The only other worries.. my studies.. really can't catch up.. haiz.. i tried to hit to the notes during these few days but the things just won't sink in.. the only thing sinking was something else. And to make matters worst, i had a bad dream last night.. not a big deal, i'm already so old.. but it seems so real.. and it really frightens me. Must be the horror shows that i watched last night.. haiz..
And then having band practice on boxing day.. haiz... even holidays also must practice.. the instructor scared i didn't practice.. haha.. which i didn't.. until just now.. Wow.. no wonder they all seems so pro.. coz they did it for 3 months.. while i only saw it for 3 weeks. I can always go off and take it as nothing has happened.. i have no obligations.. just puzzeled why i kept going back over and over again.. must be my toopid character.
Listen to a lot more stories.. and i think i'm not a problem solver. And they just transfered their burden to me.. haiz.. maybe i should start collecting fees.. then i won't have so much burden. I guess it happens to all .. and a lot of things.. really.. is beyond our control and understanding. Thinking only makes one unhappy.. haha.. maybe smarter.. but its a waste of time. Too bad i had too much time to waste. Might as well go to the selling floor and think down there right? Got pay somemore.. haha.
A lot more surprises for this festive season.. as it always been.. a lot or warmth amist the cool weather and care within the cold blooded.. oops!.. haha.. I think my xmas wish is going to come true.. i can smell it.. haha.. and my wish is - to own a laptop. And then i can invite friends to come to my house to play LAN games.. my old comp is giving me lots of problems.. all because of the faulty aligment of the chassis.. from knowing nothing to now, i'm thankful for my NS buddy who taught me how to assemble a computer.. it is, actually very easy.. if only one knows how. As always the case. But now, i'm tired.. i don't want to do CPR on it everytime it gives way.. i'm really sick and tired of it.. 3 years plus since it 'developed' this .. and i think its not 'chio'.. i want a all black colour cpu.. if not i'll opt for a notebook instead.
Didn't get any gifts, cards chocolates or whatever.. coz no money.. haha.. so my friends.. i shall make up for it next christmas ba.. maybe double the present or what..
Friday, December 23, 2005
Santa Is Coming To Town~!
Blogging more and reading more blogs.. hmm.. my blog lacks of content, of direction.. just like myself. Maybe not really. It really does have a theme.. haha.. not from the novel of course.. though i haven't seen it yet.
Went blog tracking these days since the 'zhng my car' from mr brown.. haha.. and really found some 'treasures' within.. suprisingly, they even had a sort of 'community'.. just like the good old days of IRC. Though compared, my blog is nothing.. nothing at all.. not even winning 4D numbers.
Kept blogging all day.. something is very wrong. Because santa is coming to town. Just now went 'shopping' with my buddy coz he wanted to buy a xmas gift for his gf.. wondered why he cannot do things alone.. kept dragging me out from my home.. haha.. i want to save money..
Luckily he went to meet his gf after that.. if not we sure end up in MIA to finish up our martell.. and that shall be my 3rd time drinking in 5 days.. phew. Wonder how my liver is going to take all the alcohol i've driven into..
So the plan for tomorrow.. go dbl O for xmas countdown.. = = with my primary school friends.. haha.. i think i really had too much crubbings.. maybe i better stay at home.. maybe only. Arr.. need to get this habbit off.. haiz. Waste money and somemore bad for health.. haiz..
So wm told me.. he went zouk alone last xmas eve.. and i !! .. haha.. alone?!! that was very 'ke lian' lor.. see lar.. laugh at people too much.. now is my turn.. haha.. must be my bad karma again.. Give me the same situation.. i'll never ever go crubbing alone.. especially during xmas eve.. i rather stay at home nua.. Told him that i'll blog it.. and i did! Hahaa.. i'm evil!
Aiyo.. it seems so messy now.. very messy. And the best part is, i'm the only one in this mess!
And just, people want to go k on sunday.. argh.. at ktv pub somemore! Spare me the liquor please!!.. (spare me as in keep it away.. not give me.. haha.. ).. Talking about K.. just went to collect my k box card from cine.. haha. .and it was lost during last year's D & D.. to think they took 1 whole year to find it!.. all my points were.. i don't know.. didn't bothered to check also.. haha.. And now i got 2 k box cards.. supplementary card ar? But i don't go k box anymore.. too 'kiddy' for me.. ktv pub is the 'in' thing.. unless going with a crowd of none drinkers.. so party world or k box.. no difference.
Anyway.. now is already xmas eve.. don't know how to celebrate.. haha.. maybe for now.. merry xmas eve!
Went blog tracking these days since the 'zhng my car' from mr brown.. haha.. and really found some 'treasures' within.. suprisingly, they even had a sort of 'community'.. just like the good old days of IRC. Though compared, my blog is nothing.. nothing at all.. not even winning 4D numbers.
Kept blogging all day.. something is very wrong. Because santa is coming to town. Just now went 'shopping' with my buddy coz he wanted to buy a xmas gift for his gf.. wondered why he cannot do things alone.. kept dragging me out from my home.. haha.. i want to save money..
Luckily he went to meet his gf after that.. if not we sure end up in MIA to finish up our martell.. and that shall be my 3rd time drinking in 5 days.. phew. Wonder how my liver is going to take all the alcohol i've driven into..
So the plan for tomorrow.. go dbl O for xmas countdown.. = = with my primary school friends.. haha.. i think i really had too much crubbings.. maybe i better stay at home.. maybe only. Arr.. need to get this habbit off.. haiz. Waste money and somemore bad for health.. haiz..
So wm told me.. he went zouk alone last xmas eve.. and i !! .. haha.. alone?!! that was very 'ke lian' lor.. see lar.. laugh at people too much.. now is my turn.. haha.. must be my bad karma again.. Give me the same situation.. i'll never ever go crubbing alone.. especially during xmas eve.. i rather stay at home nua.. Told him that i'll blog it.. and i did! Hahaa.. i'm evil!
Aiyo.. it seems so messy now.. very messy. And the best part is, i'm the only one in this mess!
And just, people want to go k on sunday.. argh.. at ktv pub somemore! Spare me the liquor please!!.. (spare me as in keep it away.. not give me.. haha.. ).. Talking about K.. just went to collect my k box card from cine.. haha. .and it was lost during last year's D & D.. to think they took 1 whole year to find it!.. all my points were.. i don't know.. didn't bothered to check also.. haha.. And now i got 2 k box cards.. supplementary card ar? But i don't go k box anymore.. too 'kiddy' for me.. ktv pub is the 'in' thing.. unless going with a crowd of none drinkers.. so party world or k box.. no difference.
Anyway.. now is already xmas eve.. don't know how to celebrate.. haha.. maybe for now.. merry xmas eve!
Recap
2.30 pm on the 23rd - Its now raining.. wanting to go town, but the rain is stopping me. Now i'm sober and suddenly remembered something that i saw in zouk that day.. i never knew.. dinosaur can dance too! I almost puked at that instant.
Same day earlier - went school for the SRC gift exchange.. went late coz was at home trying out some msn games.. got one game don't know got cactus and monkey.. and the objective is to hit all the monkeys.. haha.. it got me addicted.. thankfully it is just a trial version.. so the 60 mins was used up, and uninstalling doesn't seems to clear the track.. unless i reformat my comp.. that's the only way i know.. i wondered where they installed the profile into..
So reached at 6pm instead of the 4.30pm agreed.. Still, not late for anything important... or so i thought. Anyway i heck care.. haha.. on the way saw a freshie from other department.. was a surprise.. since i don't really venture outside my own department.. haha.. Anyway, i didn't like the gift i picked.. wanted the one that ml bought.. was a magic don't what.. but i wanted to play with that.. too bad joanne picked it..
The day wasn't too great.. the presents aren't great, and the food cmi...
Rain is stopping.. time to go.. just hoped that i won't end up drinking tonight.. haiz.
Same day earlier - went school for the SRC gift exchange.. went late coz was at home trying out some msn games.. got one game don't know got cactus and monkey.. and the objective is to hit all the monkeys.. haha.. it got me addicted.. thankfully it is just a trial version.. so the 60 mins was used up, and uninstalling doesn't seems to clear the track.. unless i reformat my comp.. that's the only way i know.. i wondered where they installed the profile into..
So reached at 6pm instead of the 4.30pm agreed.. Still, not late for anything important... or so i thought. Anyway i heck care.. haha.. on the way saw a freshie from other department.. was a surprise.. since i don't really venture outside my own department.. haha.. Anyway, i didn't like the gift i picked.. wanted the one that ml bought.. was a magic don't what.. but i wanted to play with that.. too bad joanne picked it..
The day wasn't too great.. the presents aren't great, and the food cmi...
Rain is stopping.. time to go.. just hoped that i won't end up drinking tonight.. haiz.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Last 2 Days~!!!
Oh no~..2 more days before xmas.. and i don't have the aww yet.. haha.. guess it shall be the same as always.. home alone! Argh.. haha.. coz didn't get any presents for anybody.. so dared not venture too far out.. haha.. i'm really broke.. and i still owe wm $80.. haiz.. and i'm not working! Was it bliss? Hahaa.. well, at least i have the freedom to enjoy and not miss... especially the SRC highlight- D&D! Not really there to showcase, but it is time that i step down.. i will be thankful for it.
Up next, camp discovery... chosen the potential ones for camp just yesterday. Had our 2nd last excos meeting and, some things never change. All that was different was that we are more bonded.. the bond was what was unique.. hopefully it shall be the case next year.. for whatever shit that was gotten into, there will always be a way out.. haha.. sounds like an ah pek soon.
Just yesterday, was feeling the usual pain while walking.. it is starting to irritate me.. i can't imagine living with this for my entire life. No matter what, 6 years have already past.. and still going. I always wondered why.. and nobody seems to understand. It doesn't happen to everyone.. and even if it did, no one could. For they are not me.
So today i stayed home again.. just begining to feel very tired these days.. no energy to do anything, not even cpu can draw my attention. Maybe i've burn out.. i'm really tired.. really very tired. Tried a lot more times.. and yet i failed. Perhaps i'm stupid.. perhaps i'm foolish.. perhaps it really isn't worth the fuss. I need a good sleep.. and so long i don't dream of my POA lecturer, i shall be happy. ^^
Finally got my wednesdays free.. haha.. maybe its time to go help the village chief.. and learn a bit more.. if not i'm seems to be very free at home. Studies.. i guess i couldn't catch up anymore.. perhaps just concentrate on earning back my 7 k and try again next year? Haiz.. i'm so lost.
Just came across another blog.. very unique, very daring.. and i like the style.. just that maybe others will not like it.. so i better not put up the link. But i had a great laugh.
Just today, that toopid old lady made me aww so much that i almost forgot where i am.. haha.. well well, it really helps.. but i don't want to get stuck as always.. haha.. now i wondered.. why am i so stubborn? LOL.. nobody knows. And i want to know it too. So help was given.. maybe i should give her a present on the 'tsunami' day? i guess not.. coz i have no money.. even if i have, i'll give it to miss sim to buy 4D!.. haha.. j/k.
1.30 am now on the 23rd of Dec.. just outside, the air looks misty.. just like it was snowing already. And actually it did.. Used to dislike december.. and it didn't change at all. All the festive mood just wasn't there yet. It was, just another day of the month of the year. But now it looks aww-ish.. haha.. i love the light cooling air of the night.. though not 'fresh'.. but it'll do. Easily contented, easily angered.. and sometimes i don't even understand myself and let out a weak display.. i guess it is only human nature.
Nothing to do now, coz as usual slept during the 4pm to 9pm timeslot.. it renders me sleepless.. haha.. so now i think i should plan my new year resolution..
1. Cut down on drinking.
2. Pass all my papers.. (thats the minimum)
3. Find my aww. (dino and hippo are not entertained.. =X)
4. Clear my 3 lifetimes of bad karma.
5. Maybe hit 70kg at the end of 2006? (why not? i've gained 2 kg a month since last oct)
6. Work at the villagers' (official worker.. i don't want any special treatment)
For now, just these 6 will do.. the rest will just follow.
Up next, camp discovery... chosen the potential ones for camp just yesterday. Had our 2nd last excos meeting and, some things never change. All that was different was that we are more bonded.. the bond was what was unique.. hopefully it shall be the case next year.. for whatever shit that was gotten into, there will always be a way out.. haha.. sounds like an ah pek soon.
Just yesterday, was feeling the usual pain while walking.. it is starting to irritate me.. i can't imagine living with this for my entire life. No matter what, 6 years have already past.. and still going. I always wondered why.. and nobody seems to understand. It doesn't happen to everyone.. and even if it did, no one could. For they are not me.
So today i stayed home again.. just begining to feel very tired these days.. no energy to do anything, not even cpu can draw my attention. Maybe i've burn out.. i'm really tired.. really very tired. Tried a lot more times.. and yet i failed. Perhaps i'm stupid.. perhaps i'm foolish.. perhaps it really isn't worth the fuss. I need a good sleep.. and so long i don't dream of my POA lecturer, i shall be happy. ^^
Finally got my wednesdays free.. haha.. maybe its time to go help the village chief.. and learn a bit more.. if not i'm seems to be very free at home. Studies.. i guess i couldn't catch up anymore.. perhaps just concentrate on earning back my 7 k and try again next year? Haiz.. i'm so lost.
Just came across another blog.. very unique, very daring.. and i like the style.. just that maybe others will not like it.. so i better not put up the link. But i had a great laugh.
Just today, that toopid old lady made me aww so much that i almost forgot where i am.. haha.. well well, it really helps.. but i don't want to get stuck as always.. haha.. now i wondered.. why am i so stubborn? LOL.. nobody knows. And i want to know it too. So help was given.. maybe i should give her a present on the 'tsunami' day? i guess not.. coz i have no money.. even if i have, i'll give it to miss sim to buy 4D!.. haha.. j/k.
1.30 am now on the 23rd of Dec.. just outside, the air looks misty.. just like it was snowing already. And actually it did.. Used to dislike december.. and it didn't change at all. All the festive mood just wasn't there yet. It was, just another day of the month of the year. But now it looks aww-ish.. haha.. i love the light cooling air of the night.. though not 'fresh'.. but it'll do. Easily contented, easily angered.. and sometimes i don't even understand myself and let out a weak display.. i guess it is only human nature.
Nothing to do now, coz as usual slept during the 4pm to 9pm timeslot.. it renders me sleepless.. haha.. so now i think i should plan my new year resolution..
1. Cut down on drinking.
2. Pass all my papers.. (thats the minimum)
3. Find my aww. (dino and hippo are not entertained.. =X)
4. Clear my 3 lifetimes of bad karma.
5. Maybe hit 70kg at the end of 2006? (why not? i've gained 2 kg a month since last oct)
6. Work at the villagers' (official worker.. i don't want any special treatment)
For now, just these 6 will do.. the rest will just follow.
Zouk-ing
I just thought it sank.. and it did. As usual, back from some clubs or pubs.. seriously, i need to quit!.. Just watched "the makings of a hangover" from discovery channel.. and it scares me.. really.. But now, i don't feel it.. maybe in the future i shall regret.. i rather not.
Still the pillar of confidence for my future and i won't ruin it.. now older and should think better. Though not much experience.. yet, i shouldn't always compare.. i knew i did well in my own way and nobody shall.
Btw, i just dislike zouk very much.. its just so crowded.. and full of 'kids'.. actually i prefer a place to chill out.. like holland V or MIA.. equipped with K, pool and table soccer... all FOC, what more can i ask for? yet i really need to cut down.. don't really want to burden. but it seems.. i'll picked up a lot more.. just from the welfare chalet this aug, i've changed so much.. haiz.. i'm someone who dislike changes.. yet i've changed.. not for better but for worst.
Why can't i just stayed the way i was in the past? Was it because of things that changes or was it because my change that causes all these? I don't really.. it wasn't my kind of life..
4.30 am.. having Marketing lecture later.. the most: 3 hrs of sleep.. yet i will try.. yep.. if not people will nag again. haha.. thanks my friends!
Still the pillar of confidence for my future and i won't ruin it.. now older and should think better. Though not much experience.. yet, i shouldn't always compare.. i knew i did well in my own way and nobody shall.
Btw, i just dislike zouk very much.. its just so crowded.. and full of 'kids'.. actually i prefer a place to chill out.. like holland V or MIA.. equipped with K, pool and table soccer... all FOC, what more can i ask for? yet i really need to cut down.. don't really want to burden. but it seems.. i'll picked up a lot more.. just from the welfare chalet this aug, i've changed so much.. haiz.. i'm someone who dislike changes.. yet i've changed.. not for better but for worst.
Why can't i just stayed the way i was in the past? Was it because of things that changes or was it because my change that causes all these? I don't really.. it wasn't my kind of life..
4.30 am.. having Marketing lecture later.. the most: 3 hrs of sleep.. yet i will try.. yep.. if not people will nag again. haha.. thanks my friends!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
The Way It Is
As usual, back from MIA.. opened bottle.. coz was really expensive having jugs.. haha.. Nice place, and got to know a lot more new friends. .though all older than me.. haha.. but still friends.. haaha.. so it was another great day!
What worries me are my studies and health.. haven't been too good for the past year.. big worries.. but nothing much i can do.. haiz.. no wonder i so sad.. of coz i'll take ultra good care of myself.. still have to repay some 'debts'..
By all means, it wasn't up to me.. so its ok.. i don't really want to change anything.. just great if it remains the way it is..
What worries me are my studies and health.. haven't been too good for the past year.. big worries.. but nothing much i can do.. haiz.. no wonder i so sad.. of coz i'll take ultra good care of myself.. still have to repay some 'debts'..
By all means, it wasn't up to me.. so its ok.. i don't really want to change anything.. just great if it remains the way it is..
Monday, December 19, 2005
Ultra Long Weekend
After one full day of sleeping, i finally recovered and now back to 'reality'.. haha.. really had fun over the last weekends, all but only one. As expected, my band instructor really flared up.. haha.. was really 'scareded'.. haha.. but nevermind, it still doesn't spoil my mood.. haha..
Was sort of lucky.. haha.. won mahjong during the follow up 'battle' at bt's place.. and the 4D that we shared had won too.. though a consolation, it really brightens this 'festive' season.. haha.. yep.. great weekend that i had.. and maybe afterall, it is in choice.. who cares? haha.. having fun now is what i care..
15th Dec:
SIM bash and pageant day.. not really impressed.. was rather boring at the pageant.. i guess coz i wanted to play more than watch.. or maybe they have 'cheated' me of my feelings.. haha.. where are the bikini babes? Just kidding! Went in very very early.. and there wasn't much people.. so took some photos with the excos and some of the welfarians. All was done with my beloved Ixus V2 that served me till now.. got it with a $700+ price tag though for a 2.0 megapix that time.. so no choice had to make full use of it.. The warlords came late.. so was chatting with ah ma and sk.. the pageant came along and i got bored.. so i sat alone at the sofa there clearing all my smses.. haha.. its time too.. reaching over 1000+ stored smses.. and no option of mass delete.. lousy phone. Took some photos with a few more people.. some whom i didn't know.. but it was great to know more friends!..
Then it started.. shared 4 jugs with the warlords.. hmm.. and shared a bottle with the presd.. and also had some drinks with the year ones.. haha.. all very firece .. all use tah one.. siao ah.. haha.. but i got training de lor.. hahaa.. anyway, crubbing.. (yes.. spelt with the 'r') isn't that fierce than pubbing.. coz crubbing at least one can do workout on the dance floor, away from the liquor.. but pubbing cannot.. other than talking and going to the restroom, the rest is drinking..
When it ended, i stayed till the next morning before heading back home to rest for a while..
So it was fun.. i don't know but i was happy.. maybe it was the alcohol?
45% of the Excos!.. VP Geoff was missing from the pic all thanks to the poor aim of the camera man.. or rather becoz my lousy V2 didn't have night scope..
45% of Exos again.. wondered why only junior jasmine was in the pic.. where are the rest of the welfarians?
Oh yah.. here they are!
It is in fashion!
Hahaa.. what is sk doing?
Me with my seh face..
16th Dec:
Reached home at about 7 plus in the morning.. had a bath and slept till 10 plus before heading off to punggol for the welfare gathering.. Was at the advance party together with jw, miss sim and ml.. so we reached bt's place, had our lunch and started on mahjong.. yep.. it was very funny.. haha.. find it rather cute.. hahaha.. especially when it came from a non-noob.. haha..
Anyway, we played till 3 pm before setting off, the sun was too hot to do shopping.. went to don't know what shopping mall of that area by bus. That ml forgot to tap her ez link and we made fun.. saying she did it on purpose.. tried to divert the drivers attention by asking directions.. haha.. passed by a 4D booth and xx suggested we buy.. so we each gave a number.. so actually i didn't expect that it'll come out as a consolation prize.. coz as always, it's just for fun.. haha.. but we won.. haha.. all thanks to i-bet? not a lot.. but still some winnings..bought a lot of stuffs and then elder jasmine (sorry ar.. haha.. we had a junior jasmine now.. so had to differentiate.. haha..) came to give us a lift.. coz we gian peng gian sai, we alight at the wrong place.. even with a cab!.. Must be the bad karma.. haha.. so we walked for around 2 busstops..
Bought some xmas deco and started doing up the place.. it was nice! yep.. i like the xmas tree.. was done up nicely by miss sim.. well, i was in charge of cutting the tape.. so i have a part too! haha.. And soon the rest came.. was too busy walking around and playing that i actually didn't took notice of the things happenning... hopefully everyone had fun..
Always wanted to eat my own BBQ food.. but as always.. was too busy.. either busy cooking for other people or busy playing... maybe next time i shall organise my own.. yep, with me alone. It was starting to become a 'gambling den'.. Another mj table was delivered and soon we had 3 tables.. haha.. Soon most of them left and i stayed back again.. and again didn't sleep till it was morning.. and from 8 am till 1 pm, i had my actual rest in 2 days.. only to be woken up by them for lunch.. and then it was mj again.. haha..
Share the same bad luck with jj coz we all kept drawing the la sup huay.. haha.. and everytime there was a chance to win big, it was always broken by someone else.. it was a difficult game.. but ended up being the 'best' loser.. haha.. must be the 'first blood' that ml drew from us.. $3.20 from each just the first game.. haha.. and it occured too during the 2nd round.. she had all the luck that day.
Ended the game and we saw the pizza ad.. so we ordered and while waiting, did some exercises... needto get jj back into shape.. so after exercising and eating, they wanted to continue.. but i had told mum that i'll be having dinner at home, so i left and return home to have dinner and my bath. Msned a while before leaving for bt's place again with my instrument.. by the time i reached, it was already 12 midnight.
The Xmas tree! All done within the $1.40 budget.. hahaa.. all thanks to our miss sim..
3 good man - part 1
3 good man - part 2
3 good man - part 3
Oh great! it was already snowing!.. no lar.. just some condensation from my poor V2 lense.. but hey, who needs advanced camera effects?
I never saw myself sleeping till now.. haha.. looks as good too..muahaha.. just kidding!
After a hard day, time for workout.. ! Me and jj doing the funny things.. haha
but i still think that bt is funnier.. hahaa
17th Dec:
The rest were sleeping already when i reached.. and so we began the game.. another 1.5 rounds and it was almost 6 plus.. haha.. we had a slow game coz i was slow.. and kept making lame jokes to keep myself awake.. so in the end i won the most.. muahaha.. suddenly had the luck.. didn't know where i got it from.. for one whole day i was losing and suddenly i kept winning.. hmm..
The game ended early and i stayed till it was time to go for band practice at boonlay.. left early and took a stroll to the mrt station.. the weather was great and the air was cool.. i kinda liked it.. and enjoyed it along the way.. was really very seh.. coz wanted to alight at outrum park but end up in potong pasir.. haha. .that mrt recording had to change soon.. haha.. so i was late in the end.
Was found out by my instructor that i haven't been practicing.. and so he singled me and my colleague out and did some 'spectacular' stuns in front of the whole band.. haha.. the worst day i had in all my band life.. was annoyed but maybe i was really too tired, i couldn't care more. So in the end he gave up on us.. haha.. normally i can still rely on my colleague, but he too didn't slept the night before.. he was on duty.. and me? mahjong.. haha.. what a shame.
Reached home around 3 pm and was darn tired.. so took to my bed and then i ended my weekend.. was supposed to celebrate di's birthday.. i knew i was to go.. but i slept through.. felt very bad, coz she prepared our share.. haiz.. guilty again..
So i slept and woke up to reply some smses and phone calls before sleeping again.. in total i think i slept 18 hours.. so by the time i woke up, it was already monday.. hahaa.. and i knew i would miss LBO again.. haiz.
A super long weekend.. but it was the greatest one ever..
Was sort of lucky.. haha.. won mahjong during the follow up 'battle' at bt's place.. and the 4D that we shared had won too.. though a consolation, it really brightens this 'festive' season.. haha.. yep.. great weekend that i had.. and maybe afterall, it is in choice.. who cares? haha.. having fun now is what i care..
15th Dec:
SIM bash and pageant day.. not really impressed.. was rather boring at the pageant.. i guess coz i wanted to play more than watch.. or maybe they have 'cheated' me of my feelings.. haha.. where are the bikini babes? Just kidding! Went in very very early.. and there wasn't much people.. so took some photos with the excos and some of the welfarians. All was done with my beloved Ixus V2 that served me till now.. got it with a $700+ price tag though for a 2.0 megapix that time.. so no choice had to make full use of it.. The warlords came late.. so was chatting with ah ma and sk.. the pageant came along and i got bored.. so i sat alone at the sofa there clearing all my smses.. haha.. its time too.. reaching over 1000+ stored smses.. and no option of mass delete.. lousy phone. Took some photos with a few more people.. some whom i didn't know.. but it was great to know more friends!..
Then it started.. shared 4 jugs with the warlords.. hmm.. and shared a bottle with the presd.. and also had some drinks with the year ones.. haha.. all very firece .. all use tah one.. siao ah.. haha.. but i got training de lor.. hahaa.. anyway, crubbing.. (yes.. spelt with the 'r') isn't that fierce than pubbing.. coz crubbing at least one can do workout on the dance floor, away from the liquor.. but pubbing cannot.. other than talking and going to the restroom, the rest is drinking..
When it ended, i stayed till the next morning before heading back home to rest for a while..
So it was fun.. i don't know but i was happy.. maybe it was the alcohol?
45% of the Excos!.. VP Geoff was missing from the pic all thanks to the poor aim of the camera man.. or rather becoz my lousy V2 didn't have night scope..
45% of Exos again.. wondered why only junior jasmine was in the pic.. where are the rest of the welfarians?
Oh yah.. here they are!
It is in fashion!
Hahaa.. what is sk doing?
Me with my seh face..
16th Dec:
Reached home at about 7 plus in the morning.. had a bath and slept till 10 plus before heading off to punggol for the welfare gathering.. Was at the advance party together with jw, miss sim and ml.. so we reached bt's place, had our lunch and started on mahjong.. yep.. it was very funny.. haha.. find it rather cute.. hahaha.. especially when it came from a non-noob.. haha..
Anyway, we played till 3 pm before setting off, the sun was too hot to do shopping.. went to don't know what shopping mall of that area by bus. That ml forgot to tap her ez link and we made fun.. saying she did it on purpose.. tried to divert the drivers attention by asking directions.. haha.. passed by a 4D booth and xx suggested we buy.. so we each gave a number.. so actually i didn't expect that it'll come out as a consolation prize.. coz as always, it's just for fun.. haha.. but we won.. haha.. all thanks to i-bet? not a lot.. but still some winnings..bought a lot of stuffs and then elder jasmine (sorry ar.. haha.. we had a junior jasmine now.. so had to differentiate.. haha..) came to give us a lift.. coz we gian peng gian sai, we alight at the wrong place.. even with a cab!.. Must be the bad karma.. haha.. so we walked for around 2 busstops..
Bought some xmas deco and started doing up the place.. it was nice! yep.. i like the xmas tree.. was done up nicely by miss sim.. well, i was in charge of cutting the tape.. so i have a part too! haha.. And soon the rest came.. was too busy walking around and playing that i actually didn't took notice of the things happenning... hopefully everyone had fun..
Always wanted to eat my own BBQ food.. but as always.. was too busy.. either busy cooking for other people or busy playing... maybe next time i shall organise my own.. yep, with me alone. It was starting to become a 'gambling den'.. Another mj table was delivered and soon we had 3 tables.. haha.. Soon most of them left and i stayed back again.. and again didn't sleep till it was morning.. and from 8 am till 1 pm, i had my actual rest in 2 days.. only to be woken up by them for lunch.. and then it was mj again.. haha..
Share the same bad luck with jj coz we all kept drawing the la sup huay.. haha.. and everytime there was a chance to win big, it was always broken by someone else.. it was a difficult game.. but ended up being the 'best' loser.. haha.. must be the 'first blood' that ml drew from us.. $3.20 from each just the first game.. haha.. and it occured too during the 2nd round.. she had all the luck that day.
Ended the game and we saw the pizza ad.. so we ordered and while waiting, did some exercises... needto get jj back into shape.. so after exercising and eating, they wanted to continue.. but i had told mum that i'll be having dinner at home, so i left and return home to have dinner and my bath. Msned a while before leaving for bt's place again with my instrument.. by the time i reached, it was already 12 midnight.
The Xmas tree! All done within the $1.40 budget.. hahaa.. all thanks to our miss sim..
3 good man - part 1
3 good man - part 2
3 good man - part 3
Oh great! it was already snowing!.. no lar.. just some condensation from my poor V2 lense.. but hey, who needs advanced camera effects?
I never saw myself sleeping till now.. haha.. looks as good too..muahaha.. just kidding!
After a hard day, time for workout.. ! Me and jj doing the funny things.. haha
but i still think that bt is funnier.. hahaa
17th Dec:
The rest were sleeping already when i reached.. and so we began the game.. another 1.5 rounds and it was almost 6 plus.. haha.. we had a slow game coz i was slow.. and kept making lame jokes to keep myself awake.. so in the end i won the most.. muahaha.. suddenly had the luck.. didn't know where i got it from.. for one whole day i was losing and suddenly i kept winning.. hmm..
The game ended early and i stayed till it was time to go for band practice at boonlay.. left early and took a stroll to the mrt station.. the weather was great and the air was cool.. i kinda liked it.. and enjoyed it along the way.. was really very seh.. coz wanted to alight at outrum park but end up in potong pasir.. haha. .that mrt recording had to change soon.. haha.. so i was late in the end.
Was found out by my instructor that i haven't been practicing.. and so he singled me and my colleague out and did some 'spectacular' stuns in front of the whole band.. haha.. the worst day i had in all my band life.. was annoyed but maybe i was really too tired, i couldn't care more. So in the end he gave up on us.. haha.. normally i can still rely on my colleague, but he too didn't slept the night before.. he was on duty.. and me? mahjong.. haha.. what a shame.
Reached home around 3 pm and was darn tired.. so took to my bed and then i ended my weekend.. was supposed to celebrate di's birthday.. i knew i was to go.. but i slept through.. felt very bad, coz she prepared our share.. haiz.. guilty again..
So i slept and woke up to reply some smses and phone calls before sleeping again.. in total i think i slept 18 hours.. so by the time i woke up, it was already monday.. hahaa.. and i knew i would miss LBO again.. haiz.
A super long weekend.. but it was the greatest one ever..
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Just Another Touchdown
Whoo.. back from the Welfare gathering.. And wasn't done yet.. haha.. they all ki siao liao la.. all wanted to mj until the sun goes up.. argh..
So now i'm back just to get my instrument and have my dinner + bathe before joining back the mj table again.. hahaa.. didn't have much luck.. haha.. but its ok..
The only thing dreadful - band practice tomorrow!.. now i totally absolutely regret re joining.. as if i owe them anything.. how dare anyone command me!.. hahaa.. don't care yet had to go.. becoz i promised.. suae lor.. haha
So still in a very 'seh' mode... didn't sleep much yesterday too, only slept in the morning at 8am and then woke up before 1 pm.. haha.. and tonight.. i guess i can't rest enough again.. And i thought i was doing FOC again.. haiz.. time to go back to punggol for my mj.. ah.. wish me luck!
So now i'm back just to get my instrument and have my dinner + bathe before joining back the mj table again.. hahaa.. didn't have much luck.. haha.. but its ok..
The only thing dreadful - band practice tomorrow!.. now i totally absolutely regret re joining.. as if i owe them anything.. how dare anyone command me!.. hahaa.. don't care yet had to go.. becoz i promised.. suae lor.. haha
So still in a very 'seh' mode... didn't sleep much yesterday too, only slept in the morning at 8am and then woke up before 1 pm.. haha.. and tonight.. i guess i can't rest enough again.. And i thought i was doing FOC again.. haiz.. time to go back to punggol for my mj.. ah.. wish me luck!
Friday, December 16, 2005
Back From China Black
Finally back home! It was a long and tiring night.. yet i had fun!.. haha.. and i almost thought. The only disappointment.. no bikinis! Where is it that they promised? Hahaha.. anyway i'm not very interested.. was partically bored.. so actually stood at the seats and took photos instead. And i thought it was my birthday.. haha.
But i think the projects did it well.. at least i had fun! haha.. no matter the MC cmi or what.. so long as i'm happy, nothing else matters.
But was really tired.. coz slept at 4 am the night before, and went to lessons the next morning only to be stunned.. so in the end didn't attend after all.. well, my mission number 2 - to collect my bag which i left it in school since monday.. hahaa... what kind of student i am?
I don't know.. just want to say, i enjoyed the bash.. just maybe really tired.. can't think well now also coz didn't sleep for 1 whole night, provided must prepare to go to BT house in the afternoon to 'set up'.. the only thing i set up should be its bed.. haha..
Shall leave the rest till when i get back.. a lot more things and maybe some pictures.
But i think the projects did it well.. at least i had fun! haha.. no matter the MC cmi or what.. so long as i'm happy, nothing else matters.
But was really tired.. coz slept at 4 am the night before, and went to lessons the next morning only to be stunned.. so in the end didn't attend after all.. well, my mission number 2 - to collect my bag which i left it in school since monday.. hahaa... what kind of student i am?
I don't know.. just want to say, i enjoyed the bash.. just maybe really tired.. can't think well now also coz didn't sleep for 1 whole night, provided must prepare to go to BT house in the afternoon to 'set up'.. the only thing i set up should be its bed.. haha..
Shall leave the rest till when i get back.. a lot more things and maybe some pictures.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Another Depressing Entry
Felt a tremendous pain at my joints.. it seems to be another of those arthritic flare ups. Finding difficulity getting around in the house.. not to mention getting to school. As it happens.. was missing from POA again.. guess i should be having nightmares of Mr Balwant soon.. haha.. With the pain, tonight will be another sleepness night.
If the flare up doesn't subside, i won't be able to make it to Bash.. If it really does happen, might as well. Have been drinking way too much.. It wasn't like that in the past. I guess the chalet that time have opened the path.. Sometimes i just wondered, what had really happened to me. I should be happy.. if not happier. But the more was said, the greater the distance was laid. I'm already trying... trying to bring back the balance. If things were to change overnight, it might just frighten me. Not that i'm glad at the way things were, but maybe relieved that even if it were, and no matter what i do, it just continues. At least i won't have to worry about what to do. It just gets attracted to the ending intended.
Reality bites.. so yesterday just met up with my senior for a drink. Someone that i lost touch over my years after Secondary. Heard a lot of stories.. and was actually quite worried. After the passing of another senior just last year, it got me worried about some of the people that were once closed to me. And we talked about a lot.. from our secondary days till now.. it seems so much have changed. No longer were we just kids.. After going through, people will change. And i dislike change... yet it is all inveitable.. especially at this age. Still schooling.. after that still have to work.. and that will change us too.. Used to have things my way.. but the dust isn't settled.. wait till i'm older.. maybe i could just find the stability i'm looking for then. And so i chatted with my senior.. a lot of things really caught me by surprise. Never could i imagine it then. And not even now i can feel it.. just because it doesn't occur to me personally. No amount of words i say could change anything, because i as an SLE won't understand.. not with my personality even if the same occurs to me. I just wish that everyone is well.. especially when the festive season is just round the corner.
Just werid that we usually don't follow what we preached.. it is always too easy to say than to put it into action. And the worst part is.. it seems very hypocritical. Everyone is the same.
Now it seems that problems either make or break you.. as it goes, it is either double or nothing.
What a depressing entry.. just couldn't help it. The shock is really building up.. had to find ways to discharge... So now for a more 'serious' entry.. my stupid phone is giving me problems.. The LED has finally decided to take a break.. hahaa.. that means its time to change the phone.
Lol.. think the entries these days are really depressing.. will get depression if overdosed. Sometimes i don't even understand what i'm typing.. it all goes with the way my feelings go. And then i have a conclusion. (or such that i suppose) Logical and emotional at the wrong time. And so i know... i might just change.. okok.. i'm trying.. just give me some more time.
If the flare up doesn't subside, i won't be able to make it to Bash.. If it really does happen, might as well. Have been drinking way too much.. It wasn't like that in the past. I guess the chalet that time have opened the path.. Sometimes i just wondered, what had really happened to me. I should be happy.. if not happier. But the more was said, the greater the distance was laid. I'm already trying... trying to bring back the balance. If things were to change overnight, it might just frighten me. Not that i'm glad at the way things were, but maybe relieved that even if it were, and no matter what i do, it just continues. At least i won't have to worry about what to do. It just gets attracted to the ending intended.
Reality bites.. so yesterday just met up with my senior for a drink. Someone that i lost touch over my years after Secondary. Heard a lot of stories.. and was actually quite worried. After the passing of another senior just last year, it got me worried about some of the people that were once closed to me. And we talked about a lot.. from our secondary days till now.. it seems so much have changed. No longer were we just kids.. After going through, people will change. And i dislike change... yet it is all inveitable.. especially at this age. Still schooling.. after that still have to work.. and that will change us too.. Used to have things my way.. but the dust isn't settled.. wait till i'm older.. maybe i could just find the stability i'm looking for then. And so i chatted with my senior.. a lot of things really caught me by surprise. Never could i imagine it then. And not even now i can feel it.. just because it doesn't occur to me personally. No amount of words i say could change anything, because i as an SLE won't understand.. not with my personality even if the same occurs to me. I just wish that everyone is well.. especially when the festive season is just round the corner.
Just werid that we usually don't follow what we preached.. it is always too easy to say than to put it into action. And the worst part is.. it seems very hypocritical. Everyone is the same.
Now it seems that problems either make or break you.. as it goes, it is either double or nothing.
What a depressing entry.. just couldn't help it. The shock is really building up.. had to find ways to discharge... So now for a more 'serious' entry.. my stupid phone is giving me problems.. The LED has finally decided to take a break.. hahaa.. that means its time to change the phone.
Lol.. think the entries these days are really depressing.. will get depression if overdosed. Sometimes i don't even understand what i'm typing.. it all goes with the way my feelings go. And then i have a conclusion. (or such that i suppose) Logical and emotional at the wrong time. And so i know... i might just change.. okok.. i'm trying.. just give me some more time.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Knowing All
Knowledge is power.. and knowledge is burden. The more i know, the more i don't know. Thought my patch was rough.. but every time shocking things came looking for me. What am i suppose to do? I can't forget.. yet i don't want to remember.. and it isn't of my direct link.. why did i and why didn't i?
I asked for what i want in my life, yet i didn't realise what life itself wants from me.
If i can, i'll not. But i can't. And what if i did? It still won't. I just don't want to know. Ignoring isn't enough.
Another venue, another day, another person, another time.
Well it wasn't without credit.. i saw the 'ultimate' experts in TS.. and wow!.. haha.. guess i was too enclosed in my own world of TS.. And of coz.. what a place to K.. All my well wishes shall be to. But then my world darkens once more.. i'm just too young to comprehen the workings.. and when i do.. if i do, i will.
just in case anyone is wondering,.. i'm not having a bad patch in life.. nope.. i mean the usual patch is there.. haha.. but maybe just too emotional. And i am thinking.. i'm a thinker. And it is not up to me. Sure there is a choice. .i saw an online story about choices.. we all can choose to be positive. . but can we really? Of coz.. the story says so. Yet how many is strong willed enough to do it? Few perhaps.
Seriously considering whether to post this or not.. coz i know it won't reflect well. I'm not trying to self destruct.. i never will. For what i think ever since i played mj.. even if the tiles are lousy, there is still way to play.. and who knows? One might just win the game that way.
I asked for what i want in my life, yet i didn't realise what life itself wants from me.
If i can, i'll not. But i can't. And what if i did? It still won't. I just don't want to know. Ignoring isn't enough.
Another venue, another day, another person, another time.
Well it wasn't without credit.. i saw the 'ultimate' experts in TS.. and wow!.. haha.. guess i was too enclosed in my own world of TS.. And of coz.. what a place to K.. All my well wishes shall be to. But then my world darkens once more.. i'm just too young to comprehen the workings.. and when i do.. if i do, i will.
just in case anyone is wondering,.. i'm not having a bad patch in life.. nope.. i mean the usual patch is there.. haha.. but maybe just too emotional. And i am thinking.. i'm a thinker. And it is not up to me. Sure there is a choice. .i saw an online story about choices.. we all can choose to be positive. . but can we really? Of coz.. the story says so. Yet how many is strong willed enough to do it? Few perhaps.
Seriously considering whether to post this or not.. coz i know it won't reflect well. I'm not trying to self destruct.. i never will. For what i think ever since i played mj.. even if the tiles are lousy, there is still way to play.. and who knows? One might just win the game that way.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
The Cycle of A Week
Back home from dinner with the villagers (4 + 1). Storm was over as it will eventually, and this is my village. No matter what, this is where i belong. So we went to have our dinner at the usual place.. no transport required! Me and my big mouth.. picked the ma la steamboat again.. and it was so oily and red that i don't know if the food was cooked or not.. but it wasn't as nice as the one in bugis after CV.
Yesterday went to sasa's birthday celebration.. was at Yishun.. but went quite late coz of common friends were few... and it includes my cousin. So met jh and went there together.. by the time, the food were almost finished.. so after she cut her cake, we went to look for things to eat at the 'Bazaar' there.. So i ate a lot yesterday.
Around 1 - 1.5 Kg more before hitting my target. I already did the previous.. from the lowest till now, it was all within 2 months. Haha.. all thanks to mr geoff that gave me the 'tips'.. Egg whites! Switched to protein intake.. though not weight gainers.. it was 'deemed' the more 'natural' way.. at least it was all effort. So while i continue to swell, it is time to find something else to do.
Unfortunately, i've decided to shelve the podcast project.. it was all my wishfull thinking that it was easy.. but the 1st step alone wasn't that easy at all.. $500 + for an ipod.. and still had to find ways to upload it to the net.. i guess i have better things to do. And the thing is that i find the massive space of ipod too wasteful for me.. i only listen to 1 track at a time until it rots.. haha.. like now, i'm listening to Jay's coral sea (3 who hi... muahahaaa.. direct translation..).. nice song with nice lyrics.. too bad my singing sucks.. if not can duet with vv jie at ktv pub again.. haha.
Was at band practice the whole morning.. i wasn't alone anymore.. joined by a fellow colleauge.. so today the instructor was angry.. the second time i saw it.. haiz.. i think i know why.. because the concert was in 3 week's time. It puzzled me.. it seems the whole world likes 8th of January.. i've got concert, wedding dinner, and camp discovery... divide myself into 3 parts?
Muscially sad but was quite fun.. coz everyone was smiling because they had players. After band, went to have lunch at JP. And then my senior called... at least i know everything was alright. But nobody wants to help out at WSS.. sadly.
I don't quite like sundays.. coz i had to get ready for school on mondays. And i don't like to attend LBO.. coz the lecturer likes to call us to answer question.. becoz i don't know, thats why i won't want to answer.. haha.. ill prepared. Yes. Now approaching the 3rd week of December.. and i'm neither here nor there in my studies.. time to catch up... Especially FI.. i don't even have the notes!.. haha..
Boring sundays.. i hate it! Now now.. something more like it coming my way.. haha.. Bash on Thursday.. and maybe follow up by Holland V on friday? Waaah!.. oops.. think i miscalculated.. 16th is reserved for MJ and welfare xmas celebration!.. hahaa.. Wow.. next week seems interesting enough.. as long as i can last till LBO amd POA are finished. Still need to do some xmas shopping.. muahaha.. hmm.. quite a lot more to get for this year.. i'm going broke!
Yesterday went to sasa's birthday celebration.. was at Yishun.. but went quite late coz of common friends were few... and it includes my cousin. So met jh and went there together.. by the time, the food were almost finished.. so after she cut her cake, we went to look for things to eat at the 'Bazaar' there.. So i ate a lot yesterday.
Around 1 - 1.5 Kg more before hitting my target. I already did the previous.. from the lowest till now, it was all within 2 months. Haha.. all thanks to mr geoff that gave me the 'tips'.. Egg whites! Switched to protein intake.. though not weight gainers.. it was 'deemed' the more 'natural' way.. at least it was all effort. So while i continue to swell, it is time to find something else to do.
Unfortunately, i've decided to shelve the podcast project.. it was all my wishfull thinking that it was easy.. but the 1st step alone wasn't that easy at all.. $500 + for an ipod.. and still had to find ways to upload it to the net.. i guess i have better things to do. And the thing is that i find the massive space of ipod too wasteful for me.. i only listen to 1 track at a time until it rots.. haha.. like now, i'm listening to Jay's coral sea (3 who hi... muahahaaa.. direct translation..).. nice song with nice lyrics.. too bad my singing sucks.. if not can duet with vv jie at ktv pub again.. haha.
Was at band practice the whole morning.. i wasn't alone anymore.. joined by a fellow colleauge.. so today the instructor was angry.. the second time i saw it.. haiz.. i think i know why.. because the concert was in 3 week's time. It puzzled me.. it seems the whole world likes 8th of January.. i've got concert, wedding dinner, and camp discovery... divide myself into 3 parts?
Muscially sad but was quite fun.. coz everyone was smiling because they had players. After band, went to have lunch at JP. And then my senior called... at least i know everything was alright. But nobody wants to help out at WSS.. sadly.
I don't quite like sundays.. coz i had to get ready for school on mondays. And i don't like to attend LBO.. coz the lecturer likes to call us to answer question.. becoz i don't know, thats why i won't want to answer.. haha.. ill prepared. Yes. Now approaching the 3rd week of December.. and i'm neither here nor there in my studies.. time to catch up... Especially FI.. i don't even have the notes!.. haha..
Boring sundays.. i hate it! Now now.. something more like it coming my way.. haha.. Bash on Thursday.. and maybe follow up by Holland V on friday? Waaah!.. oops.. think i miscalculated.. 16th is reserved for MJ and welfare xmas celebration!.. hahaa.. Wow.. next week seems interesting enough.. as long as i can last till LBO amd POA are finished. Still need to do some xmas shopping.. muahaha.. hmm.. quite a lot more to get for this year.. i'm going broke!
Saturday, December 10, 2005
I knew Too Much..
2 days, 2 pints each.. and 'disgraced' myself at home ground trying to catch something gross and uncatchable wif my bare hands.. Not one in the right mind would.. and the outcome? Level up.. just like the maple story.
If this keeps on.. i guess thats it.
Yesterday was at Holland V.. nice place though.. peaceful and all.. just as what the channel 8 drama portrays... nice... and more importantly.. its some sort of a budget airline for me.. so today tried to 'balance' yeterday's budget with a luxury. So went to alley with someone rather unexpected.. and more unexpectally, discovered much more.. yet as the code of conduct, it doesn't permit divulgence..
Well.. what can i say.. it always is the least expected.. and sometimes.. i rather not know much.. it becomes my burden and sort of how i look at others. But then again.. if trust is given, it shall be observed.
But at least i gained insights into a lot of things which, at my age i won't be able to experience it 1st hand.. so we are just learning from each other..
9th Dec:
SRC day bowling.. i'm not a bowler.. and of coz.. 'cleaning the drain' is my speciality.. haha.. well, in the name of fun and src.. just went along with it.. And i don't quite enjoy the feeling of not hitting the pins.. yet it was fun when it does.. so instead, i hit to the pints.. haha.
Anyway, it was something out of formality i suppose. .coz as what i experience, response is weak.. and it can sometimes dishearten. Yet as such, it is an opportunity to 'level up'.
Anyway (again = =), had been spending a lot.. time to cut down and maybe return to selling bed linen..
If this keeps on.. i guess thats it.
Yesterday was at Holland V.. nice place though.. peaceful and all.. just as what the channel 8 drama portrays... nice... and more importantly.. its some sort of a budget airline for me.. so today tried to 'balance' yeterday's budget with a luxury. So went to alley with someone rather unexpected.. and more unexpectally, discovered much more.. yet as the code of conduct, it doesn't permit divulgence..
Well.. what can i say.. it always is the least expected.. and sometimes.. i rather not know much.. it becomes my burden and sort of how i look at others. But then again.. if trust is given, it shall be observed.
But at least i gained insights into a lot of things which, at my age i won't be able to experience it 1st hand.. so we are just learning from each other..
9th Dec:
SRC day bowling.. i'm not a bowler.. and of coz.. 'cleaning the drain' is my speciality.. haha.. well, in the name of fun and src.. just went along with it.. And i don't quite enjoy the feeling of not hitting the pins.. yet it was fun when it does.. so instead, i hit to the pints.. haha.
Anyway, it was something out of formality i suppose. .coz as what i experience, response is weak.. and it can sometimes dishearten. Yet as such, it is an opportunity to 'level up'.
Anyway (again = =), had been spending a lot.. time to cut down and maybe return to selling bed linen..
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Some Thoughts...
I always think that parents are just being naggy when they say that i must brush my teeth.. 10 odd years later, i finally discover the reason. I mean.. when things happen at that moment in time, i won't be able to get it.. not at my level of understanding then. Wait till i grow up then.
How much the planet has changed.. and i wonder why.. which rule does it follow? I guess too much pop songs and channel 8 + U drama has made up too much of an actor on this stage of life. But 1 thing.. the local script really cmi.. haha.. the final episode of 'the mermaid' almost made want to bang the wall. Haha.. and that show renamed 'the mermaid'.. it only revolves around the mermaid.. or so i percieve.. maybe thats the only cast i took notice of in the whole show.. haha..
That day jade told me that every songs seems to be your song when you are down.. and then, it made me laugh.. coz i was thinking of the song 'xi shua shua' by the 'flower group'.. hahhaa.. and how about the pig song? lol.. My two weeks at home, i watched the tv all day long.. coz msn got nobody to chat with. Everyone is in school.. haha.. and then i saw lamb chops play along!. .waahaa.. that toopid puppet show.. but their jokes are very funny.. and its a very lame lamb..
And i thought only lambs know how to crack jokes.. And it haappened that day that my mum was telling me the kfc offer.. she said that theres a burger, chopstick and fries or don't know what.. yep.. she said chopstick instead of drumstick.. it made me blur.. haha.. since when did kfc serve things that require 1 to use chopstick? hahaa.. fried noodles?.. lol.
I'm just starting to love my wednesdays.. haha.. too bad thursday is my full day. Most probably i won't be going to school.. i hope not.. coz the exams are starting to worry me. And that sp always says it as though our mission here was to study.. erm.. haha.. i think i agree.. and i almost forgot. And two weeks at home.. i did my studying.. hahaha.. till i almost forgot how to write.
Since don't know when crubbing (yep.. spelt with the r) became the focus. Was it the liquor? Was it the songs? Was it the erm.. xiao mei meis? hahaa.. but it sure drained my pocket. Haha.. and all kept telling me that liquor is bad for health.. i know.. i know.. i'm not trying to kill myself with liquor. But i think it has become a problem and maybe an addiction.. i'm not sure. It all started since that welfare chalet.. i used to anti-liquor.. now i only know how to empty liquor. Hahaa.. think need to enlist help to help me kick this habbit.. but difficult.. coz tt wm always kay siao come my place here say eat supper.. then went to 7-11 grab some beer and proceed to some void deck to drink.. hahaa.. at the age of 22, we are behaving like ah zeks.. hhaa..
At this age, i think i still won't understand, or refuse to understand. Maybe when someday i get some health problems than i'll regret.. but hey.. life is still great.. so must enjoy while it last. Another 1.5 years and i'll be in the workforce.. and then, it isn't about having fun.. coz after all i might return to the village stall.. i yearn a peaceful life.. slow and without conflict.. my utopia. But then.. with the villagers.. i don't think there is any chance of crubbing or that sort.. maybe pubing or what..
Things just keeps changing.. and nothing ever stops.. the keys are plenty and the paths many. One wrong move and thats the end. I hate changes yet i can't help. haha.. like i used to hate crubbings.. drinkings.. gamblings.. and now? haiz.. i must be jinxed.. haha... well well.. at least i don't smoke? haha.. not for now.. not forever i hope.(FYI, hope is just something say say only. No matter you hope or don't hope, things have it ways around..) The one pharses that one passes is just like a checkpoint. Maybe for this phase we shared the same route.. yet going through different checkpoints, our route changes.. and maybe thats how things are. But 'sadly', i still have my buddy alongside.. hahaa.. i guess 7-11 still can earn a lot more from us.. haiz.
As i was saying.. the pop songs are too destructive to listen to.. lyrics are either too true or too lame.. (eg the mai- ya - hi.. argh.. even my dad is singing it.. ) so i turned back to the 'bright' side of band world! (oops.. that is the name of one of my instructors company..)..haha.. and one song really make me very happy. The 7th Night of July. Not because of the 7th month lar.. choy~!.. but coz i've got the melody!.. hahaa.. for all i know, i've been playing 'bom tat bom tat' and counter melody (CS).. haha.. finally. But only for a while.. and the toopid woodwinds and trumpets come in to spoil my show. Haha.. the horn is not a melody instrument.. but its a pure brass instrument. Not like some woodwinds that isn't made of wood and still dare to call themselves the woodwinds.. muahaha.. the only thing 'woody' about that is they reed.. almost 99% of metal.. well for all i know, i despise the woodwinds.. haha.. they always like to 'bully' in numbers.. yet can't do without them.. haha..
Band will be fun when i'm at the top.. i don't like to be stituations that i'm stuck.. especially when i don't know how to read the score or when i can't pitch the notes. Yet as i gained more experience, i can sight-read faster, pitch with a wider range and be happy about it. But during those days when i'm in trouble.. it makes me want to quit.. i have my ups and downs there.. and time when i skipped band coz i'm afriad to face the music.. literally.. haha.. but i still return.. and it only gets better.. i guess everything just played out already on a smaller scale. The final checkpoint will always be what i'm looking for.
I don't know why people keep doubting my capabilities.. do i look like a weakling? haha.. please.. what you can't do, didn't do doesn't mean i can't.. and of coz, what you can i might not.. but at least i don't doubt.. Anyway, the song of my blog is starting to irritate me.. and by 2006 i'll revamp my blog.. still think of the title... xiao hei's world? wiwiplanet? the witizens? or what.. haha.. maybe something that will shock the world..
As to the question of ipod vs zen, i think ipod might have won.. haha.. and maybe this week or next week i'll get it.. just as a xmas present for myself. hhahaa. . 18 days to xmas.. and i'm still waiting for my aww. . . haha.. awww..
How much the planet has changed.. and i wonder why.. which rule does it follow? I guess too much pop songs and channel 8 + U drama has made up too much of an actor on this stage of life. But 1 thing.. the local script really cmi.. haha.. the final episode of 'the mermaid' almost made want to bang the wall. Haha.. and that show renamed 'the mermaid'.. it only revolves around the mermaid.. or so i percieve.. maybe thats the only cast i took notice of in the whole show.. haha..
That day jade told me that every songs seems to be your song when you are down.. and then, it made me laugh.. coz i was thinking of the song 'xi shua shua' by the 'flower group'.. hahhaa.. and how about the pig song? lol.. My two weeks at home, i watched the tv all day long.. coz msn got nobody to chat with. Everyone is in school.. haha.. and then i saw lamb chops play along!. .waahaa.. that toopid puppet show.. but their jokes are very funny.. and its a very lame lamb..
And i thought only lambs know how to crack jokes.. And it haappened that day that my mum was telling me the kfc offer.. she said that theres a burger, chopstick and fries or don't know what.. yep.. she said chopstick instead of drumstick.. it made me blur.. haha.. since when did kfc serve things that require 1 to use chopstick? hahaa.. fried noodles?.. lol.
I'm just starting to love my wednesdays.. haha.. too bad thursday is my full day. Most probably i won't be going to school.. i hope not.. coz the exams are starting to worry me. And that sp always says it as though our mission here was to study.. erm.. haha.. i think i agree.. and i almost forgot. And two weeks at home.. i did my studying.. hahaha.. till i almost forgot how to write.
Since don't know when crubbing (yep.. spelt with the r) became the focus. Was it the liquor? Was it the songs? Was it the erm.. xiao mei meis? hahaa.. but it sure drained my pocket. Haha.. and all kept telling me that liquor is bad for health.. i know.. i know.. i'm not trying to kill myself with liquor. But i think it has become a problem and maybe an addiction.. i'm not sure. It all started since that welfare chalet.. i used to anti-liquor.. now i only know how to empty liquor. Hahaa.. think need to enlist help to help me kick this habbit.. but difficult.. coz tt wm always kay siao come my place here say eat supper.. then went to 7-11 grab some beer and proceed to some void deck to drink.. hahaa.. at the age of 22, we are behaving like ah zeks.. hhaa..
At this age, i think i still won't understand, or refuse to understand. Maybe when someday i get some health problems than i'll regret.. but hey.. life is still great.. so must enjoy while it last. Another 1.5 years and i'll be in the workforce.. and then, it isn't about having fun.. coz after all i might return to the village stall.. i yearn a peaceful life.. slow and without conflict.. my utopia. But then.. with the villagers.. i don't think there is any chance of crubbing or that sort.. maybe pubing or what..
Things just keeps changing.. and nothing ever stops.. the keys are plenty and the paths many. One wrong move and thats the end. I hate changes yet i can't help. haha.. like i used to hate crubbings.. drinkings.. gamblings.. and now? haiz.. i must be jinxed.. haha... well well.. at least i don't smoke? haha.. not for now.. not forever i hope.(FYI, hope is just something say say only. No matter you hope or don't hope, things have it ways around..) The one pharses that one passes is just like a checkpoint. Maybe for this phase we shared the same route.. yet going through different checkpoints, our route changes.. and maybe thats how things are. But 'sadly', i still have my buddy alongside.. hahaa.. i guess 7-11 still can earn a lot more from us.. haiz.
As i was saying.. the pop songs are too destructive to listen to.. lyrics are either too true or too lame.. (eg the mai- ya - hi.. argh.. even my dad is singing it.. ) so i turned back to the 'bright' side of band world! (oops.. that is the name of one of my instructors company..)..haha.. and one song really make me very happy. The 7th Night of July. Not because of the 7th month lar.. choy~!.. but coz i've got the melody!.. hahaa.. for all i know, i've been playing 'bom tat bom tat' and counter melody (CS).. haha.. finally. But only for a while.. and the toopid woodwinds and trumpets come in to spoil my show. Haha.. the horn is not a melody instrument.. but its a pure brass instrument. Not like some woodwinds that isn't made of wood and still dare to call themselves the woodwinds.. muahaha.. the only thing 'woody' about that is they reed.. almost 99% of metal.. well for all i know, i despise the woodwinds.. haha.. they always like to 'bully' in numbers.. yet can't do without them.. haha..
Band will be fun when i'm at the top.. i don't like to be stituations that i'm stuck.. especially when i don't know how to read the score or when i can't pitch the notes. Yet as i gained more experience, i can sight-read faster, pitch with a wider range and be happy about it. But during those days when i'm in trouble.. it makes me want to quit.. i have my ups and downs there.. and time when i skipped band coz i'm afriad to face the music.. literally.. haha.. but i still return.. and it only gets better.. i guess everything just played out already on a smaller scale. The final checkpoint will always be what i'm looking for.
I don't know why people keep doubting my capabilities.. do i look like a weakling? haha.. please.. what you can't do, didn't do doesn't mean i can't.. and of coz, what you can i might not.. but at least i don't doubt.. Anyway, the song of my blog is starting to irritate me.. and by 2006 i'll revamp my blog.. still think of the title... xiao hei's world? wiwiplanet? the witizens? or what.. haha.. maybe something that will shock the world..
As to the question of ipod vs zen, i think ipod might have won.. haha.. and maybe this week or next week i'll get it.. just as a xmas present for myself. hhahaa. . 18 days to xmas.. and i'm still waiting for my aww. . . haha.. awww..
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
If It Were That Simple
If things were just simple.. then there wouldn't be a mess, and no one needs to pay attention. But things unfortunately are not simple.. Too bad i'm so stubborn.
Suddenly my blog is against me.. and soon.. maybe next year, this will no longer be 'the notebook'.. maybe change it to 'textbook' or whatever book. Maybe .. i don't know. Trying to act serious but i know i can't.. because i tried so hard.. i end up trying harder to be myself.
Anyway, my blog is no weapon to inflict damage.. not even to myself. I think i know.. i always knew.. yet just too stubborn to. As always. Sometimes it is just way beyond.. coz i'm stubborn. It is me and my characteristic.. and i've been given.
If not thinking means it doesn't exists.. then all the more better.. maybe thats the first miracle i wish to see on the xmas.. haha..
On the 6th day of December:
I thought the chapter says 'Tragedy'.. haha.. how sad huh.. somethings just need to be spoken.
And then i went back to school after 2 weeks of holiday.. because the only lecturer i fear in SIM is my accounts lecturer.. haha.. i don't want to dream of him in the night again.. lol. Still pondering whether to get ipod or zen. . i have no income pratically.. and all i know is to play TS (table soccer) in school.. now better still .. they have a dart board in SRC room!.. haha.. though with only 1 dart.. stayed in school after lessons and rot inside the room.. i will miss it when i step down.. muahahaa.. SIM seems a bit more 'quiet' without uncle tat..
i guess i'm back.. hahaaa.. with better jokes i guess..
Suddenly my blog is against me.. and soon.. maybe next year, this will no longer be 'the notebook'.. maybe change it to 'textbook' or whatever book. Maybe .. i don't know. Trying to act serious but i know i can't.. because i tried so hard.. i end up trying harder to be myself.
Anyway, my blog is no weapon to inflict damage.. not even to myself. I think i know.. i always knew.. yet just too stubborn to. As always. Sometimes it is just way beyond.. coz i'm stubborn. It is me and my characteristic.. and i've been given.
If not thinking means it doesn't exists.. then all the more better.. maybe thats the first miracle i wish to see on the xmas.. haha..
On the 6th day of December:
I thought the chapter says 'Tragedy'.. haha.. how sad huh.. somethings just need to be spoken.
And then i went back to school after 2 weeks of holiday.. because the only lecturer i fear in SIM is my accounts lecturer.. haha.. i don't want to dream of him in the night again.. lol. Still pondering whether to get ipod or zen. . i have no income pratically.. and all i know is to play TS (table soccer) in school.. now better still .. they have a dart board in SRC room!.. haha.. though with only 1 dart.. stayed in school after lessons and rot inside the room.. i will miss it when i step down.. muahahaa.. SIM seems a bit more 'quiet' without uncle tat..
i guess i'm back.. hahaaa.. with better jokes i guess..
Long Vacation
Great.. another day slacking at home again. Don't ask me why.. i also don't know. Maybe just having my 'long vacation'. Well.. but seems that i'm more tired than before.. and that had more pimples growing.. argh.. the super giant.. at the same places everytime.. haiz..
I think i really have bad karma.. went to band on sunday and stepped on a cactus.. and the torn got embedded in my foot..and had to pull it out when i reach.. coz was running late already.. well..really suay.
Things are retuning.. maybe. Just the pimples and my suay-ness.. discussed a lot with people.. and still wondering whether to get an i-pod or zen.. haha.. get i-pod can do podcast.. get zen cannot.. that is called zencast? ar.. lame.
Some things are just beyond me. Another day wasted.
I think i really have bad karma.. went to band on sunday and stepped on a cactus.. and the torn got embedded in my foot..and had to pull it out when i reach.. coz was running late already.. well..really suay.
Things are retuning.. maybe. Just the pimples and my suay-ness.. discussed a lot with people.. and still wondering whether to get an i-pod or zen.. haha.. get i-pod can do podcast.. get zen cannot.. that is called zencast? ar.. lame.
Some things are just beyond me. Another day wasted.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
All The ....
11pm. Band practice was so - so.. not much new faces though.. and the usual ones were boring.. Only one 'new' player caught my attention.. very hyper.. kept laughing over nothing.. Well.. couldn't say i played badly today.. haha.. coz i have no braces already. As usual. .the only french horn there.. anything will turn solo.. and the pieces were all written such that i'm playing a totally different part... Quite surprised that the instructor knew my name.. oh great.. i won't be able to escape anymore. Concert coming soon.. January i heard.. and shall be playing 4 pieces minimum.. another 'mini' concert i guess.. but might as well..
I need practices.. and maybe will get back to wss alumni when i feel like it.. coz i don't want to care.. i only take orders from those who give me salary.. and NO ONE can tell me what to or what not to do.. that includes SRC. Getting quite fed up already. Why am i doing things for others? Especially the freggies.. and all the last minute things..Don't be surprised if i have to work LAST MINUTE. Soon? Think i'm going crazy sooner. I'm rebellious. And strangely enough.. why everyone thinks they have done a lot? Argh.. i give up. 2 more months to go and then i'll have enough of this. Knew i couldn't last that long.. hahaa.. just like last year.. disappeared after bazaar.. and this year is no exception. Hahaa.. and anyway, i'm just using the blog to vent my frustrations.. haha.. again. Check my last year entry about bazaar.. lol..
Very tired now.. still have to watch the stupid show.. hahaa.. and maybe get more bowlers for SRC day.. haiz.. who still bowl these days? I mean for leisure.. if not sher and miss sim will humtum me.. hahaa.. haiz.. no wonder nobody interested. At $8 .. i think its expensive.. but then again.. in the name of SRC.. have to do this. For the last time i hope.
I need practices.. and maybe will get back to wss alumni when i feel like it.. coz i don't want to care.. i only take orders from those who give me salary.. and NO ONE can tell me what to or what not to do.. that includes SRC. Getting quite fed up already. Why am i doing things for others? Especially the freggies.. and all the last minute things..Don't be surprised if i have to work LAST MINUTE. Soon? Think i'm going crazy sooner. I'm rebellious. And strangely enough.. why everyone thinks they have done a lot? Argh.. i give up. 2 more months to go and then i'll have enough of this. Knew i couldn't last that long.. hahaa.. just like last year.. disappeared after bazaar.. and this year is no exception. Hahaa.. and anyway, i'm just using the blog to vent my frustrations.. haha.. again. Check my last year entry about bazaar.. lol..
Very tired now.. still have to watch the stupid show.. hahaa.. and maybe get more bowlers for SRC day.. haiz.. who still bowl these days? I mean for leisure.. if not sher and miss sim will humtum me.. hahaa.. haiz.. no wonder nobody interested. At $8 .. i think its expensive.. but then again.. in the name of SRC.. have to do this. For the last time i hope.
Sunday Morning
Woke up at 5 am.. coz slept at 9 plus last night. Time to resume my band practices.. Going to meet up with some of the band members for breakfast at Boonlay Mac.. haha.. so early in the morning.. *yawn. Maybe i woke up a bit too early.. feeling tired now.
Just 2 days ago, had a very strange dream.. dreamt of my accounts lecturer, the botak head.. muahahaa.. i wonder why.. must be too stressed of school work.. kept reminding myself of the tests and assignments that i owed.. haha.. and my poa lecturer likes to 'threaten' us with the admin.. haha.. so think after being 'reminded' that i wasn't in school for almost 2 weeks, guilt got the better of me.
On the 4th day of December:
Band practice as usual.. not confindent.. but who cares? hahaa.. I finally found a programme to keep myself busy. The village head was asking me to do the payslip and no choice had to use scanner to scan the village 'logo'.. haha.. so installed the scanner .. old one that still uses parallel port instead of USB... heng arh.. coz i ran out of USB ports already.. and the dumb computer refuses to recognise what i plugged in. Plug and Play? I think should be Plug and Pray that it works.. haha..so now my printer isn't recognised, my hp isn't recognised, my thumbdrive isn't recognised.. and soon i think it won't recognise me. And so while installing the software, i came across this programme that can covert my essays into word documents!.. so i very free, took out my JC econs notes that i intended to pass to my great grandsons and tired it. The only thing i'm not pleased is that it fails to recognise my handwritting.. what the.. hahaa.. really that bad? So spent my time converting all my notes into word documents.. and maybe finally i found a way to safely dispose all my notes.
I'm running late.. time for band.. shall update again.
Just 2 days ago, had a very strange dream.. dreamt of my accounts lecturer, the botak head.. muahahaa.. i wonder why.. must be too stressed of school work.. kept reminding myself of the tests and assignments that i owed.. haha.. and my poa lecturer likes to 'threaten' us with the admin.. haha.. so think after being 'reminded' that i wasn't in school for almost 2 weeks, guilt got the better of me.
On the 4th day of December:
Band practice as usual.. not confindent.. but who cares? hahaa.. I finally found a programme to keep myself busy. The village head was asking me to do the payslip and no choice had to use scanner to scan the village 'logo'.. haha.. so installed the scanner .. old one that still uses parallel port instead of USB... heng arh.. coz i ran out of USB ports already.. and the dumb computer refuses to recognise what i plugged in. Plug and Play? I think should be Plug and Pray that it works.. haha..so now my printer isn't recognised, my hp isn't recognised, my thumbdrive isn't recognised.. and soon i think it won't recognise me. And so while installing the software, i came across this programme that can covert my essays into word documents!.. so i very free, took out my JC econs notes that i intended to pass to my great grandsons and tired it. The only thing i'm not pleased is that it fails to recognise my handwritting.. what the.. hahaa.. really that bad? So spent my time converting all my notes into word documents.. and maybe finally i found a way to safely dispose all my notes.
I'm running late.. time for band.. shall update again.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Nights Out
3.30am - same day: Back from not zouk but double O.. argh.. the queue was too long.. all filled with ah peks and 'kids'.. i wonder what they are trying to show.. reached rather late also.. thats why couldn't get in.. oh well.. sa ve some cash on the drinks.. but wasted some on the cab. Hahaa..really a lot of kids.. guess must be the end of the exams.. whole planet rush to see the 'newly' rennovated zouk with the fountain in front of the toilet.. hahaa.. what did i say they were kids? Their dressing.. haha.. saw 1 xiao mei mei wearing jeans and t-shirt.. cartoons.. and over-sized somemore.. i had been through there, but that was a few years before. I mean.. if you want to wear lock, then must lock all the way.. cannot half half.. what jeans and large size t-shirt? hahaha.. zek ark ar me.. haha.. well, they kept me amused for 45 mins before i couldn't stand the queue.. and so a change of plan.. towards double O.
Took cab from zouk to MS.. (not maple story lar..).. i guess the cab driver must be really annoyed.. hahaa.. earned about $3 for all the effort.. and not yet midnight.. at first we saw him not intending to start his meter.. and his plot? To start when it was midnight.. but in the end we 'suan-ned' him on his vehicle... hahhaaa.. and i guess he saw through our unkind gesture.. hahaa.. so he very buay song lor.. haha.. but who cares? hahaaa.. for the 2nd time of the night, i getting evil.. hahaa.. well well.. i guess evil people are worth more..
Reach and argh again.. queue was also very long.. and couldn't stand it.. so piad more for the express lane.. $10 more for a house pour? haiz.. bad karma.. haha.. but it was also very crowded inside.. a different crowd though.. i thought i was at Holland or what.. haha..
So just to get back at the disappointment at zouk, buddy and me decided to tah while we can.. haha.. just nice it was one for one.. and for this time, i tried the Illusion.. and i think it really do have some kick.. nice but expensive.. haha.. and then vodka redbull plus one jug vodka ribeana.. all within 15 mins.. or so.. and then went to the packed dance floor.. think i paid to see comedy more.. haha.. saw 1 of my senior look alike trying to know some ladies.. he was all alone.. and hahaa.. we all joked at his own 'programme'.. and whats more.. he cmi.. hahaha.. and the sencond comedy was a project superstar look alike dancing like erm.. i also don't know.. kept knocking at me.. please lor.. i'm a guy... hahaa..
Well .. though without restrain anymore, still have to exercise my 'code of coduct'.. mission plan was to enjoy retro music.. but in the end it switched to drinking.. but never was it for anything else.. i could if i wanted .. haha.. confirm better than cmi. But.. i guess some things just never change.. maybe for now still. Not even with the 'influence'.
Though not as fun, but i knew what i wanted .. maybe for now. Freedom is fun though and can be addictive.. coz i saw how my buddy was tied down.. and how one's action changes.. what can i say? But i willing to give it up.. just waiting for the special someone who is willing to. You gain some and you lose some.. not now perhaps.. i have no rights.. and i shouldn't too.. was foolish in the past.. thinking that all is in the thoughts. if one was determined enough, everything will turn out well. Not so as i've seen.. maybe i'm still inexperienced. Well.. better to hurt someone distance than to endure everything close by. Slowly i'll learn. I'm not immature.. if there is a feeling.. it'll transends everything.. and it'll change everything.. love changes everything.. and maybe all i need was time. Time to realise.. time to let people realise.
Yet i couldn't care much more.. i'm great the way i am.. for one shouldn't stop. For too long that is. And I've learnt.. no need to be re-taught.. and there isn't need to enforce. Just too well for me.. i get what is. Never for once did i think too much.. just helping people to realise their thoughts and actions.. instinct is without thinking. Maybe my brain will be bigger with all my 'logic' and trash. haha..
15th Dec SRC bash.. my card tells me that i'll be drinking a lot on that day.. so i've started on my 'intensive' training.. haha.. actually no. I don't like that feeling either.. just trying to humor everyone.. including myself perhaps.. but then again.. if i can survive that day, it shall be great.
4 am now, and i've gained another kg!.. i hoped it's not from the drinks i had.. hahaa.. so i'm just 2 kg away from my target.. hahaa.. and 1 more month to go.. woo hoo! (erm.. not the SIMs 2 that woo hoo lar.. ) Find it so bored to go to school these days.. it serves no purpose.. for me that is.. $50 per lessons? Hahaa.. well.. too bad for myself.. i paid it myself. All except for $200 that i still owe my dad.. hahaa.. i need time to really think it through.. is it really for me? I've been away from school for almost one week plus now.. and if i absent from classes later, (i think i will.. P=(0.9)) then i shall be back next monday.. and it is only shall.. hahaa.. i really need to think.
The december 'festive' season ... festive = aww.. hahaa.. and i'm sure its somewhere in the corner.. if not somewhere over the rainbow? haha.. Things are all chained together.. thats why we have a 'chain of event'.. so if one screwed up one part, then the whole thing is screwed. If that part is done right, it is just the minimum requirement. So for everything done wrong, it goes through the 'multiplier'.. and the right things are for granted.. Enough of my 'logic'.. i think i shall be a thinker instead. One of the Excos once said that being one can bring unhappiness.. ya.. i totally agree.. yet i need someone to challenge my 'intellegence'.. (not my school work lar.. ).. i need both.
So someone mature? hahaa... but i can only exercise logic before romance. Instinct still rules.. and instincts are bad.. haha.. so for this december i await my 'xmas' story.
Took cab from zouk to MS.. (not maple story lar..).. i guess the cab driver must be really annoyed.. hahaa.. earned about $3 for all the effort.. and not yet midnight.. at first we saw him not intending to start his meter.. and his plot? To start when it was midnight.. but in the end we 'suan-ned' him on his vehicle... hahhaaa.. and i guess he saw through our unkind gesture.. hahaa.. so he very buay song lor.. haha.. but who cares? hahaaa.. for the 2nd time of the night, i getting evil.. hahaa.. well well.. i guess evil people are worth more..
Reach and argh again.. queue was also very long.. and couldn't stand it.. so piad more for the express lane.. $10 more for a house pour? haiz.. bad karma.. haha.. but it was also very crowded inside.. a different crowd though.. i thought i was at Holland or what.. haha..
So just to get back at the disappointment at zouk, buddy and me decided to tah while we can.. haha.. just nice it was one for one.. and for this time, i tried the Illusion.. and i think it really do have some kick.. nice but expensive.. haha.. and then vodka redbull plus one jug vodka ribeana.. all within 15 mins.. or so.. and then went to the packed dance floor.. think i paid to see comedy more.. haha.. saw 1 of my senior look alike trying to know some ladies.. he was all alone.. and hahaa.. we all joked at his own 'programme'.. and whats more.. he cmi.. hahaha.. and the sencond comedy was a project superstar look alike dancing like erm.. i also don't know.. kept knocking at me.. please lor.. i'm a guy... hahaa..
Well .. though without restrain anymore, still have to exercise my 'code of coduct'.. mission plan was to enjoy retro music.. but in the end it switched to drinking.. but never was it for anything else.. i could if i wanted .. haha.. confirm better than cmi. But.. i guess some things just never change.. maybe for now still. Not even with the 'influence'.
Though not as fun, but i knew what i wanted .. maybe for now. Freedom is fun though and can be addictive.. coz i saw how my buddy was tied down.. and how one's action changes.. what can i say? But i willing to give it up.. just waiting for the special someone who is willing to. You gain some and you lose some.. not now perhaps.. i have no rights.. and i shouldn't too.. was foolish in the past.. thinking that all is in the thoughts. if one was determined enough, everything will turn out well. Not so as i've seen.. maybe i'm still inexperienced. Well.. better to hurt someone distance than to endure everything close by. Slowly i'll learn. I'm not immature.. if there is a feeling.. it'll transends everything.. and it'll change everything.. love changes everything.. and maybe all i need was time. Time to realise.. time to let people realise.
Yet i couldn't care much more.. i'm great the way i am.. for one shouldn't stop. For too long that is. And I've learnt.. no need to be re-taught.. and there isn't need to enforce. Just too well for me.. i get what is. Never for once did i think too much.. just helping people to realise their thoughts and actions.. instinct is without thinking. Maybe my brain will be bigger with all my 'logic' and trash. haha..
15th Dec SRC bash.. my card tells me that i'll be drinking a lot on that day.. so i've started on my 'intensive' training.. haha.. actually no. I don't like that feeling either.. just trying to humor everyone.. including myself perhaps.. but then again.. if i can survive that day, it shall be great.
4 am now, and i've gained another kg!.. i hoped it's not from the drinks i had.. hahaa.. so i'm just 2 kg away from my target.. hahaa.. and 1 more month to go.. woo hoo! (erm.. not the SIMs 2 that woo hoo lar.. ) Find it so bored to go to school these days.. it serves no purpose.. for me that is.. $50 per lessons? Hahaa.. well.. too bad for myself.. i paid it myself. All except for $200 that i still owe my dad.. hahaa.. i need time to really think it through.. is it really for me? I've been away from school for almost one week plus now.. and if i absent from classes later, (i think i will.. P=(0.9)) then i shall be back next monday.. and it is only shall.. hahaa.. i really need to think.
The december 'festive' season ... festive = aww.. hahaa.. and i'm sure its somewhere in the corner.. if not somewhere over the rainbow? haha.. Things are all chained together.. thats why we have a 'chain of event'.. so if one screwed up one part, then the whole thing is screwed. If that part is done right, it is just the minimum requirement. So for everything done wrong, it goes through the 'multiplier'.. and the right things are for granted.. Enough of my 'logic'.. i think i shall be a thinker instead. One of the Excos once said that being one can bring unhappiness.. ya.. i totally agree.. yet i need someone to challenge my 'intellegence'.. (not my school work lar.. ).. i need both.
So someone mature? hahaa... but i can only exercise logic before romance. Instinct still rules.. and instincts are bad.. haha.. so for this december i await my 'xmas' story.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Finding Fun
10 pm.. boring wednesday with nothing to do.. i've cleaned my bass and my french horn.. argh.. very dirty.. all the valves are stuck.. and the slides too. I've neglected it. haha.. maybe i've really got over it.. but performing isn't without credit.. i've screwed up some solos during the years and also have done well when i shouldn't. haha.. that is.. - skill. Anyways.. haha.. now adding s into speech thanks to mr brown.. haha.. and my toopid friend kept repeating it in front of me.. haha..
Of coz, getting influenced by the people around.. haha.. like 'seriously', 'anyway' and 'by the way'.. hahaa.. i'm so influenced.
SRC giving 'problems' again.. i can never rest well.. i guess most don't understand why i put so much.. not a lot.. but more than usual... It is my responsibility. Well.. just a few more months..
Lots more coming up.. and the whole world seems to realise something a bit late.. no, not the sky is falling.. but something unspoken. ANYWAY, hahaa.. see.. going out now.. haha.. coz today is Wendesday!.. where can i go at this hour? I've changed.. yep.. i know.. too bad then. If i disappear from school tomorrow, i might have overslept.. haha.. haiz.. think i've compensated way too much.
Of coz, getting influenced by the people around.. haha.. like 'seriously', 'anyway' and 'by the way'.. hahaa.. i'm so influenced.
SRC giving 'problems' again.. i can never rest well.. i guess most don't understand why i put so much.. not a lot.. but more than usual... It is my responsibility. Well.. just a few more months..
Lots more coming up.. and the whole world seems to realise something a bit late.. no, not the sky is falling.. but something unspoken. ANYWAY, hahaa.. see.. going out now.. haha.. coz today is Wendesday!.. where can i go at this hour? I've changed.. yep.. i know.. too bad then. If i disappear from school tomorrow, i might have overslept.. haha.. haiz.. think i've compensated way too much.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Slacking At Home Again..
Felt quite guilty already.. haha.. had been rotting at home for the whole day. My forte.. disappearing from tests and mock exams.. hahaa.. well, not really that.. just really too tired already. Had been sleeping at around 4am everyday.. makes me very very very tired. And other things else.. still have to do assignments, study test and all that.. where do i get the strength?
But my whole day at home haven't yield anything.. i'm bored. And i have nothing much to play with. I need to do a podcast!.. hahaa.. that shall be my 'newest' hobby.. still finding that one thing i can excel in.. but seems not. Jack of some trades.. master of not even one! .. how can? LOL.. and i've tried so much that others don't.. don't really understand. Whats my line? Maybe i should go learn some magic? hahaa.. crap.
Almost forgot that i won't be needing to go school tomorrow.. haha.. great~.. another free day at home! Maybe i should clean my instrument.. they had been sitting there since my last performance.. so long that i have forgotten when. I shall rejoin them.. haha.. had been 'avoiding'.. well.. SRC too much to do already.. So it shall be back to SWE every sunday.. at Boonlay.. argh.. so far away from home with a 5kg baggage that is bulky.. why i don't have my own car? haha.. 5 more years i guess.
So my Sunday is gone~.. almost half of it.. band practice from 9am - 1pm.. by the time i reached home already 4pm!.. haha.. And my friday is reserved for jamming.. with a band that has no name yet.. yawn~ But can't blame.. haha.. we are all noob. A drumer who is a trumpeter, a guitarist who is also a trumpeter and a bassist (thats me!) who is a horn player.. hahaa.. no wonder we are still so lousy. And we don't practice!.. hahaa... Monday, Tuesday and Thursday is devoted to my beloved SIM.. haha.. so not free.. then i left only Wednesday and Saturday.. and i'm still so bored.. don't know why i can't stand nua-ing much more.. times have changed.
Finding things to fill in my slots.. maybe i should do some 'part-time'.. FOC though.. hahaa.. well.. time to take to the ropes. And a frail one somemore.. but.. i'll have to try..
December - a festive season? Hmm.. still have to work that out. Well.. should be full of bliss.. but seems i missed that again this year.. hahaa.. not fated that is. Festive or not really depends on what will happen the following days.. but i'll be busy though.. haha.. all the way from 9th.. haha.. but i'll have fun... till i forget my own name.
Just last Saturday went to Sentosa to have fun.. really very happy.. wonder why the planet is so sun-allgegic.. All will melt under the sun.. i used to melt too.. but now i enjoyed the outdoors.. haha.. the beach and all.. and i'll love to cycle.. someone please organise.. haha.. it should fun. So that day after the sun we all went to play CS.. hahaa.. and i forgot how to play.. lol. So only had the role of being 'killed'.. and i lost my old CS cd.. hmm.. time to get another copy.
I don't detest my phase.. yet i don't like. Hahaha.. i have no preference anymore. For whatever i did it always slides to the role of my chapter. Whatever is futile. So i now sit and watch my own story. Expect nothing and nothing will hurt. Enjoy while i can.. perhaps when i really can't at least i knew i had before.
I think i shouldn't club that much.. haha.. but will be going clubbing with my NS-tied cousin as soon as he book out from camp. Went to meet him that day at Yishun MRT station to get back my pathetic 2.0 pix camera. Was suprised at how fit he became.. haha.. and now.. i really look an old man in a child's body.. hahaa. I shall really go work something out of my ribs.. muahahaa..
Too much to do till i spent my time thinking of what to do.. what can i do?
But my whole day at home haven't yield anything.. i'm bored. And i have nothing much to play with. I need to do a podcast!.. hahaa.. that shall be my 'newest' hobby.. still finding that one thing i can excel in.. but seems not. Jack of some trades.. master of not even one! .. how can? LOL.. and i've tried so much that others don't.. don't really understand. Whats my line? Maybe i should go learn some magic? hahaa.. crap.
Almost forgot that i won't be needing to go school tomorrow.. haha.. great~.. another free day at home! Maybe i should clean my instrument.. they had been sitting there since my last performance.. so long that i have forgotten when. I shall rejoin them.. haha.. had been 'avoiding'.. well.. SRC too much to do already.. So it shall be back to SWE every sunday.. at Boonlay.. argh.. so far away from home with a 5kg baggage that is bulky.. why i don't have my own car? haha.. 5 more years i guess.
So my Sunday is gone~.. almost half of it.. band practice from 9am - 1pm.. by the time i reached home already 4pm!.. haha.. And my friday is reserved for jamming.. with a band that has no name yet.. yawn~ But can't blame.. haha.. we are all noob. A drumer who is a trumpeter, a guitarist who is also a trumpeter and a bassist (thats me!) who is a horn player.. hahaa.. no wonder we are still so lousy. And we don't practice!.. hahaa... Monday, Tuesday and Thursday is devoted to my beloved SIM.. haha.. so not free.. then i left only Wednesday and Saturday.. and i'm still so bored.. don't know why i can't stand nua-ing much more.. times have changed.
Finding things to fill in my slots.. maybe i should do some 'part-time'.. FOC though.. hahaa.. well.. time to take to the ropes. And a frail one somemore.. but.. i'll have to try..
December - a festive season? Hmm.. still have to work that out. Well.. should be full of bliss.. but seems i missed that again this year.. hahaa.. not fated that is. Festive or not really depends on what will happen the following days.. but i'll be busy though.. haha.. all the way from 9th.. haha.. but i'll have fun... till i forget my own name.
Just last Saturday went to Sentosa to have fun.. really very happy.. wonder why the planet is so sun-allgegic.. All will melt under the sun.. i used to melt too.. but now i enjoyed the outdoors.. haha.. the beach and all.. and i'll love to cycle.. someone please organise.. haha.. it should fun. So that day after the sun we all went to play CS.. hahaa.. and i forgot how to play.. lol. So only had the role of being 'killed'.. and i lost my old CS cd.. hmm.. time to get another copy.
I don't detest my phase.. yet i don't like. Hahaha.. i have no preference anymore. For whatever i did it always slides to the role of my chapter. Whatever is futile. So i now sit and watch my own story. Expect nothing and nothing will hurt. Enjoy while i can.. perhaps when i really can't at least i knew i had before.
I think i shouldn't club that much.. haha.. but will be going clubbing with my NS-tied cousin as soon as he book out from camp. Went to meet him that day at Yishun MRT station to get back my pathetic 2.0 pix camera. Was suprised at how fit he became.. haha.. and now.. i really look an old man in a child's body.. hahaa. I shall really go work something out of my ribs.. muahahaa..
Too much to do till i spent my time thinking of what to do.. what can i do?
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Home
Its 4am in the morning.. juz got home from no long ago.. went for beer, supper and a lot of chatting. I shall oversleep tomorrow.. Going sentosa with some of the 'trainers' to train 'dogs'.. haha..
Will be quite fun i guess.. And fun is what i'm needing.. Maybe if theres an ipod or what, i'll be happier. Intending to do a podcast too.. haha.. following the craze .. copycats.. haha.. but it shall keep me busy. But i'll be busy anyway. Not enough time to study.. really not enough. But still, i'll want an ipod for xmas~ please take note. ^^
So things are just 'fated'.. (not farted).. and things that usually bothers you won't in the future.. and maybe i really tried too hard.. haha.. maybe after the beer and all, it finally unblocked my mental block. Not so soon though, i just don't want to wallow in self-pity. I'm not inferior at all.. haha..
Actually i've done up a xmas wish list. I want a keyboard, an i-book, an ipod or mp3 player that i can do podcast with, a LCD monitor.. so far that's all. All are expensive items.. and i can't afford it just yet.. wait till i get my salary.. or santa to give me.. haha.
Had to reach Habour front at 10am later.. and i'll still awake.. had to digest my supper a bit before sleeping.. haha.. guess my 'weight gaining' exercise had yielded some results.. till now had gained around 2 kg or so.. another 3 to hit my target. Now having 4 eggs per day.. too few but i don't know.. i've ran out of ways to cook it. A rather difficult way to gain.. pace is rather slow.. but i still don't want to take weight gainners.. ahahaa.. must do it the 'original' way.. so a long long way i go.. but the future is bright!
Had a few topics to cover on the proposed podcast.. haha.. think it'll be sooo interesting... to me that is. Who cares if it interest others? A matter of choice for all others. Not my problem anyway.. haha.
Woah.. bash coming soon.. 15th Dec 2005.. and tickets priced at $12 for SRC members.. i think i can buy at least one more.. see whoever wants it. Looking forward.. yeah!
Will be quite fun i guess.. And fun is what i'm needing.. Maybe if theres an ipod or what, i'll be happier. Intending to do a podcast too.. haha.. following the craze .. copycats.. haha.. but it shall keep me busy. But i'll be busy anyway. Not enough time to study.. really not enough. But still, i'll want an ipod for xmas~ please take note. ^^
So things are just 'fated'.. (not farted).. and things that usually bothers you won't in the future.. and maybe i really tried too hard.. haha.. maybe after the beer and all, it finally unblocked my mental block. Not so soon though, i just don't want to wallow in self-pity. I'm not inferior at all.. haha..
Actually i've done up a xmas wish list. I want a keyboard, an i-book, an ipod or mp3 player that i can do podcast with, a LCD monitor.. so far that's all. All are expensive items.. and i can't afford it just yet.. wait till i get my salary.. or santa to give me.. haha.
Had to reach Habour front at 10am later.. and i'll still awake.. had to digest my supper a bit before sleeping.. haha.. guess my 'weight gaining' exercise had yielded some results.. till now had gained around 2 kg or so.. another 3 to hit my target. Now having 4 eggs per day.. too few but i don't know.. i've ran out of ways to cook it. A rather difficult way to gain.. pace is rather slow.. but i still don't want to take weight gainners.. ahahaa.. must do it the 'original' way.. so a long long way i go.. but the future is bright!
Had a few topics to cover on the proposed podcast.. haha.. think it'll be sooo interesting... to me that is. Who cares if it interest others? A matter of choice for all others. Not my problem anyway.. haha.
Woah.. bash coming soon.. 15th Dec 2005.. and tickets priced at $12 for SRC members.. i think i can buy at least one more.. see whoever wants it. Looking forward.. yeah!
Friday, November 25, 2005
Will It Ever Happen?
And i really skipped my classes.. but who cares? But ended up in school anyway to show support for the talentime contest. And i nearly dropped my jaws. Wondered why i've played an instrument for so long and yet couldn't be as splendid as them. Really must go face the wall soon.. haha.
Today's weather is so warm that i almost melted. But now there is thunder and maybe lightnings. How fast thing changes. On the 'bright' side.. (though its 3.30am now, and i'm blogging in total darkness..) the weather will be cool enough for me to sleep well. Had been sleeping late these few days.. 4am or so. This can't carry on..
Was back home late after Talentime coz went to have 'supper' with JJ and ML.. well.. i'm playing the 'lughtbulb' again.. hahaa.. after that we went to play pool. JJ suggested CS.. but i don't want to get 'killed'.. so better choose pool instead. Ended early .. but not early enough.. no busses for me at Clementi. Tried to be smart.. so took 154 to HCJC there to ambush other buses.. but it was already 12.50am.. so had no choice but to take cab home. So i ate a lot today.. reached home and found 2 hard-boiled eggs! haha.. and working towards my goal.. will be hitting my 'target' before xmas if everythng goes well.. i don't want to get another gastric flu.. i might just die from the shock i get from losing weight.
Rather depressed over some things that ain't important to anyone except me.. so i had to face it alone. And the best part is how not to show it. I did badly.. and its showing.. (not my beer belly of coz.. ) But i know i would be alright.. just that i hope for it to be sooner.
Today's weather is so warm that i almost melted. But now there is thunder and maybe lightnings. How fast thing changes. On the 'bright' side.. (though its 3.30am now, and i'm blogging in total darkness..) the weather will be cool enough for me to sleep well. Had been sleeping late these few days.. 4am or so. This can't carry on..
Was back home late after Talentime coz went to have 'supper' with JJ and ML.. well.. i'm playing the 'lughtbulb' again.. hahaa.. after that we went to play pool. JJ suggested CS.. but i don't want to get 'killed'.. so better choose pool instead. Ended early .. but not early enough.. no busses for me at Clementi. Tried to be smart.. so took 154 to HCJC there to ambush other buses.. but it was already 12.50am.. so had no choice but to take cab home. So i ate a lot today.. reached home and found 2 hard-boiled eggs! haha.. and working towards my goal.. will be hitting my 'target' before xmas if everythng goes well.. i don't want to get another gastric flu.. i might just die from the shock i get from losing weight.
Rather depressed over some things that ain't important to anyone except me.. so i had to face it alone. And the best part is how not to show it. I did badly.. and its showing.. (not my beer belly of coz.. ) But i know i would be alright.. just that i hope for it to be sooner.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
The Traffic Jam
Almost a month more to xmas.. and it seems the same to me always. What can i look forward to? Presents? Cards? Chocolates? But all i want for xmas is..
Not my two front teeth of coz.. i still had them. Not for the removal of my braces of coz.. they were gone a few months ago. Not for my studies.. yet. Still a few more months till exams.. Not for money.. yet.. My manager just asked me to get ready to work again..plus i got extra 'income'.. Not for band or whatever.. i don't really care now.. and actually i just want to not know.
Feels like getting stuck in a traffic jam on a rainy day.. knew the outcome would be late and yet panic and woes are common... It's been that.. and anger soon sets in. At the one driver, other road users and every other passangers.. not once did the fingers point on oneself. And if one could set off early, even if there was, one could easily ride over. And the best part is.. for all that jam, one can't even see what was happening.. how long was the jam and so on.. the great unknown was what strikes fear. Handicapped.. not being able to turn back.. and for some, the chose to stay on even there was an exit.. not quite the correct one.. but it was at least definate. More fuel wasted, but at least it'll get somewhere for the moment.. Not like those that are stuck and still PRETEND they are driving..arrr.. So much for traffic jams.. hahaa..
If i continued more, i guess people will complain. Comprehension they said.. hahaa.. and i agree. The Jade Eagle that 'pretend' not to be in LBO on monday once told me that.. and i think she's the only one. But i always envy her.. maybe all i want for xmas is a shorter antenna.
I really really am drained these days.. trying to be someone. Just that someone that i used to be.
Went TTSH (Mr Tan Hospital) for my check-ups on Arthritis.. as usual.. but my doctor shorten the gap of next visit from one year to six months coz i've been 'attacked' again.. haiz. History likes to repeat it seems. And bad enough, i had to do blood test today - on a syringe! Shadows .. haha.. coz my first bloodtest was done by a doctor in A&E on a syringe.. and as you all know, they are quite 'in a hurry' to save lifes.. haha.. so it was very painful. Other factors include a 'grumpy' nurse.. haa.. Well, i can understand why.. having to deal with blood and urine samples ain't a fun job.. But due to my overwhelming bloodtest experience, i'm very 'hao lian'.. muahahaa. 6 years under my belt.. who can compare? Actually not a thing to be proud of though.. haha.. By the way, i saw a lot of young people there who also got arthritis at a young age.. and what is so shocking was, they are all very pretty!.. hahaa.. at least some life in a place that was usually full of old people and erm.. .. .erm . . nurses. Well, i grateful to them.. haha.. Actually what shocked me was that they seems proud to get that arthritis.. hmm.. one even said 'so and so will be so shocked to hear that i got arthritis.. ' erm.. ya.. shocked at how a patient could be sooo happy.. = =
2.30am now.. couldn't finish studying marketing.. so decided to skip classes tomorrow. Yeah! But will be in school still.. maybe for FI.. maybe not.. but will be there for Talentime.. coz i've promised.. seems bias .. but no. Its an alternative for me. And i need to have some other things to occupy me.. Hold on to it while it can. And i can continue to be very happy.. especially for this xmas.. a season to be folly.. haha..
All the best to all my friends taking test tomorrow.
From paragraphs 1 and 2
Q1. What did GQoo want for xmas? (2 marks)
Q2.Why did the blogger not worried about other things? (3 marks)
From paragraph 3
Q3. What was the outcome of the traffic jam? (1 mark)
Q4. What are the alternative(s) suggested to evade the jam? (2 marks)
Q5. How did some people cope with the jam? (3 marks)
From paragraph 4
Q.6 Who is Jade Eagle? (4 marks)
Q.7 What is the most prominent feature of Jade Eagle? (2 marks)
From paragraph 6
Q.8 What was the new feature that the blogger saw in this hospital? (1 mark)
From paragraph 7 and 8
Q.9 What was the actual real reason for skipping lectures? (4 marks)
Q.10 What was the paper that was supposed to be tested? (1 mark)
From all:
Write down the meaning(s) of the word/pharse as they are used in this entry. (5 marks)
LBO
antenna
someone
'attacked'
Shadows
Summary:
Write a summary of not more than 120 words on what the traffic jam actually means.
(20 marks)
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Not my two front teeth of coz.. i still had them. Not for the removal of my braces of coz.. they were gone a few months ago. Not for my studies.. yet. Still a few more months till exams.. Not for money.. yet.. My manager just asked me to get ready to work again..plus i got extra 'income'.. Not for band or whatever.. i don't really care now.. and actually i just want to not know.
Feels like getting stuck in a traffic jam on a rainy day.. knew the outcome would be late and yet panic and woes are common... It's been that.. and anger soon sets in. At the one driver, other road users and every other passangers.. not once did the fingers point on oneself. And if one could set off early, even if there was, one could easily ride over. And the best part is.. for all that jam, one can't even see what was happening.. how long was the jam and so on.. the great unknown was what strikes fear. Handicapped.. not being able to turn back.. and for some, the chose to stay on even there was an exit.. not quite the correct one.. but it was at least definate. More fuel wasted, but at least it'll get somewhere for the moment.. Not like those that are stuck and still PRETEND they are driving..arrr.. So much for traffic jams.. hahaa..
If i continued more, i guess people will complain. Comprehension they said.. hahaa.. and i agree. The Jade Eagle that 'pretend' not to be in LBO on monday once told me that.. and i think she's the only one. But i always envy her.. maybe all i want for xmas is a shorter antenna.
I really really am drained these days.. trying to be someone. Just that someone that i used to be.
Went TTSH (Mr Tan Hospital) for my check-ups on Arthritis.. as usual.. but my doctor shorten the gap of next visit from one year to six months coz i've been 'attacked' again.. haiz. History likes to repeat it seems. And bad enough, i had to do blood test today - on a syringe! Shadows .. haha.. coz my first bloodtest was done by a doctor in A&E on a syringe.. and as you all know, they are quite 'in a hurry' to save lifes.. haha.. so it was very painful. Other factors include a 'grumpy' nurse.. haa.. Well, i can understand why.. having to deal with blood and urine samples ain't a fun job.. But due to my overwhelming bloodtest experience, i'm very 'hao lian'.. muahahaa. 6 years under my belt.. who can compare? Actually not a thing to be proud of though.. haha.. By the way, i saw a lot of young people there who also got arthritis at a young age.. and what is so shocking was, they are all very pretty!.. hahaa.. at least some life in a place that was usually full of old people and erm.. .. .erm . . nurses. Well, i grateful to them.. haha.. Actually what shocked me was that they seems proud to get that arthritis.. hmm.. one even said 'so and so will be so shocked to hear that i got arthritis.. ' erm.. ya.. shocked at how a patient could be sooo happy.. = =
2.30am now.. couldn't finish studying marketing.. so decided to skip classes tomorrow. Yeah! But will be in school still.. maybe for FI.. maybe not.. but will be there for Talentime.. coz i've promised.. seems bias .. but no. Its an alternative for me. And i need to have some other things to occupy me.. Hold on to it while it can. And i can continue to be very happy.. especially for this xmas.. a season to be folly.. haha..
All the best to all my friends taking test tomorrow.
From paragraphs 1 and 2
Q1. What did GQoo want for xmas? (2 marks)
Q2.Why did the blogger not worried about other things? (3 marks)
From paragraph 3
Q3. What was the outcome of the traffic jam? (1 mark)
Q4. What are the alternative(s) suggested to evade the jam? (2 marks)
Q5. How did some people cope with the jam? (3 marks)
From paragraph 4
Q.6 Who is Jade Eagle? (4 marks)
Q.7 What is the most prominent feature of Jade Eagle? (2 marks)
From paragraph 6
Q.8 What was the new feature that the blogger saw in this hospital? (1 mark)
From paragraph 7 and 8
Q.9 What was the actual real reason for skipping lectures? (4 marks)
Q.10 What was the paper that was supposed to be tested? (1 mark)
From all:
Write down the meaning(s) of the word/pharse as they are used in this entry. (5 marks)
LBO
antenna
someone
'attacked'
Shadows
Summary:
Write a summary of not more than 120 words on what the traffic jam actually means.
(20 marks)
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Monday, November 21, 2005
Another Chapter Still?
Yupz.. following my own story.. just waiting for it to unfold.
Whole world is playing maple.. that was like.. decades ago.. haha.. when i let go, they picked up.. not fated huh? Till i got bored.. maybe i should reopen my account again. Not so soon.. haha. I'm busy not doing anything.
Up on my list to keep me fully occupied..weight gaining! Or mass? It's ok.. so long as i see an increase.. fats i'm also ok with it.. haha..
Next up, studies.. again. I'm not letting this bug me again.. had a bad experience last year.. and i don't have much money to sponsor for re-takes. Not being someone i'm not.. just someone that i should be.
Whole world is playing maple.. that was like.. decades ago.. haha.. when i let go, they picked up.. not fated huh? Till i got bored.. maybe i should reopen my account again. Not so soon.. haha. I'm busy not doing anything.
Up on my list to keep me fully occupied..weight gaining! Or mass? It's ok.. so long as i see an increase.. fats i'm also ok with it.. haha..
Next up, studies.. again. I'm not letting this bug me again.. had a bad experience last year.. and i don't have much money to sponsor for re-takes. Not being someone i'm not.. just someone that i should be.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Weirdo
Had been weird for a week.. i know, maybe i lost my way. Couldn't see.. And won't be seeing.
Jokes a rarity.. i really want to know.. What can i be that wasn't me. Drastically.. but surely.
Time to put in much more effort in my school work. Started on my revision.. well.. at least on cashflows. Cashflows problem.. Direct method seems harder than Indirect.. How ironic. Just in case i forget.. the reason why 350 - 110 + 65 = 305 => 415 (110+65) of cash outflows initially minus the depreciation of 110 that is included.. equals 305!.. to think i spent 2 days to think through it.. i know i'm stupid.. and also the accounts lecturer said an accountant cannot be too logical.. maybe i'm using logic too much.. not that i'm a very logical person.. just that i don't wish to accept things they way they are.. i question and question.. and then.. i forget what i was questioning.
Such was the way of my life. And now some things are going to change.. Maybe that's why it's call the growing process. But sometimes a painful process..
No worries.. i won't. When others don't, i shouldn't too.
Jokes a rarity.. i really want to know.. What can i be that wasn't me. Drastically.. but surely.
Time to put in much more effort in my school work. Started on my revision.. well.. at least on cashflows. Cashflows problem.. Direct method seems harder than Indirect.. How ironic. Just in case i forget.. the reason why 350 - 110 + 65 = 305 => 415 (110+65) of cash outflows initially minus the depreciation of 110 that is included.. equals 305!.. to think i spent 2 days to think through it.. i know i'm stupid.. and also the accounts lecturer said an accountant cannot be too logical.. maybe i'm using logic too much.. not that i'm a very logical person.. just that i don't wish to accept things they way they are.. i question and question.. and then.. i forget what i was questioning.
Such was the way of my life. And now some things are going to change.. Maybe that's why it's call the growing process. But sometimes a painful process..
No worries.. i won't. When others don't, i shouldn't too.
Monday, November 14, 2005
Time To Come
Just the day before.. thought i could overcome.. yet just as i was going to, it overcame me. Trying to hard to be somebody that i wasn't.. and i wasn't that somebody. Said i would ignore.. yet i didn't as much.. it still doesn't cure me.
Another placebo another time.. but i've run out of time.. and pills.
Everyone could do as they please.. why can't i? Why should i shoulder any responsibility? It was, at one's will. So long as i ignore, it doesn't matter.. i don't care and i don't want to care. Say what, do what.. whatever.. who cares? Ungrateful? Definately!.. Just doen't want such a patch to spoil my life.. i still have much greater things to acomplish..i wondered what. Time to move on again.. i had enough stops.
UC - Maybe it was a mistake itself. Not a mistake in introducing.. but a mistake of being around. If you care, you will be affected. If you don't, you will not. Yet this to me seems minor.. for i don't really give a damn. If i could, i would. As long as i gain while others don't.
For a moment, i really thought of going part time.. seems to me to be a greener pasture. If i suddenly disappear from classes.. maybe that's where i go... haha.
I really began to understand.. so long as one doesn't care, nothing would affect that person.. not even if the sky is falling down.
I don't really have the mood to joke these days.
Another placebo another time.. but i've run out of time.. and pills.
Everyone could do as they please.. why can't i? Why should i shoulder any responsibility? It was, at one's will. So long as i ignore, it doesn't matter.. i don't care and i don't want to care. Say what, do what.. whatever.. who cares? Ungrateful? Definately!.. Just doen't want such a patch to spoil my life.. i still have much greater things to acomplish..i wondered what. Time to move on again.. i had enough stops.
UC - Maybe it was a mistake itself. Not a mistake in introducing.. but a mistake of being around. If you care, you will be affected. If you don't, you will not. Yet this to me seems minor.. for i don't really give a damn. If i could, i would. As long as i gain while others don't.
For a moment, i really thought of going part time.. seems to me to be a greener pasture. If i suddenly disappear from classes.. maybe that's where i go... haha.
I really began to understand.. so long as one doesn't care, nothing would affect that person.. not even if the sky is falling down.
I don't really have the mood to joke these days.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
All Over.
Ooo.. finally the events are all over.. finally to be free from SRC.. erm.. not quite it seems. Upcoming - Camp D! .. argh.. my time again. Haha.. UC wasn't that bad at all.. though it seems to have a lot of communications break down.. but it seems that we are not the only ones. Even the management of the sentosa also have this problem.. as the same as SIM. Well.. one more people, one more trouble.
More or less, i know what i should not do.. i don't know.. i don't know.. whatever i do or not do will give me the same undesired result. And i really find no point.. i mean.. i don't know... really don't know. And if not knowing is the answer, then i prefer not to know.
Don't even know what i'm blogging.. haha.. maybe just that i don't want people to know.
UC yesterday.. spent the whole day in the sun trying to be a 'dog'... haha.. had some fun.. coz i chose not to know.. and to ignore. If i can ignore my whole life, i guess i would be happier. Anyway.. got sunburned.. haha.. wondered if dogs will get sunburn.. haha..
Be afraid.. be very afraid.. no reason for me to go anymore. It's not longer with me.. or it hasn't been in the first place. I still don't understand.. why am i doing so much for. Maybe it was just another fantasy.. guess it shall take me some time to wake up.
More or less, i know what i should not do.. i don't know.. i don't know.. whatever i do or not do will give me the same undesired result. And i really find no point.. i mean.. i don't know... really don't know. And if not knowing is the answer, then i prefer not to know.
Don't even know what i'm blogging.. haha.. maybe just that i don't want people to know.
UC yesterday.. spent the whole day in the sun trying to be a 'dog'... haha.. had some fun.. coz i chose not to know.. and to ignore. If i can ignore my whole life, i guess i would be happier. Anyway.. got sunburned.. haha.. wondered if dogs will get sunburn.. haha..
Be afraid.. be very afraid.. no reason for me to go anymore. It's not longer with me.. or it hasn't been in the first place. I still don't understand.. why am i doing so much for. Maybe it was just another fantasy.. guess it shall take me some time to wake up.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Am I Going To Be Alright?
Seems i don't quite care about myself anymore.. and i really don't want to care. Yet i'm not intending to self destruct the button isn't ready.. i'm not that dumb.. and also, there are too many people that i've footprints on..
200+ posts since a year plus ago.. looking through, i've really change quite a bit. In terms of thinking and the way i treated other people.. I thought i could be immune after so many years of thinking... yet, some things never change. When it comes to this, i'm always at a lost.. it seems that i still couldn't control. I'm not childish.. ( neither am i skinny.. = =) things just happens at the wrong time.. that's all. Yet, the right things are always ignored, and the wrong doings amplified. Me, Myself and I.. whatever i did was wrong.. so why do? Might as well leave it to time to dispose. Sure i will regret, i know i will. But will she?
The sudden strong feelings came back to bug me again.. it seems to be a vicious cycle.. and its very difficult to live. Being too sensitive in a senseless world can kill. And its killing me.. not softly enough though. And people as they always were. Too bad there isn't any mountains in here for me to be a hermit.. or else i rather be one.. If not i train so hard to be a loner for what?
Got enough of myself recently.. for what do i degrade myself for? Lameness.. guess it shouldn't be my image.. and too bad for the rest.. maybe they all can rejoice.. jokes are history.
Too immerse in my own happenings that i totally gave up on SRC for the whole period.. grab a hold of myself.. maybe.. i need someone to hold me.. tightly. Yet it all were just wishes.. maybe the path already parted. So finally came the last event for Welfare department.. Ultimatum Challenge.. all credits go to ML should it be a success.. and all the blame shall be on me should it fails. Was supposed to be the over-all in-charged for this.. yet i bail out.. perfering to agonise myself.. till now. Too late it seems.. and it shall be the event later.. one can only hope as always.
Now trying to find all things to divert my attention.. from eating to playing games.. and of coz, my newly aquired - two of the '4 great evils'... gambling and drinking. I'm not trying to self destruct.. just that it came a time that i unlocked them.. and got stuck. Obessesion it seems.. yet looking around, i'm later than the rest.. haha.. maybe i'm younger.. maybe i'm trying to be stubborn not to conform.. yet it happens. And it spells trouble. Health problems it seems.. still haven't recovered from the whole night mahjong session it seems.. and of coz i have intention to cut down on the 'hobbies'.. Frequently joked about my goal to collect the 4.. haha.. yet i won't.. it'll be against my moral.. and also unfair to the special someone.. that is if i happen to get attached.. guess it won't be so soon.. hahaa.. sadness. I have intention to settle down by the age of 28.. very young for guys.. yet i want my life to unfold as soon as possible.. and of coz, having the intention to earn lots of money.. haha.. and maybe continue to dream on.
And finally to the topic of work.. i could if i wanted.. and i really doesn't want to work.. not because i'm lazy, not because i'm well to do.. but it isn't value for money. Even if it isn't in terms of money, it can seriously disrupt one's studies.. if so.. might as well quit school to work full time and take it as one's 'career'. School fees cost more than what one can earn in a month.. maybe two or three.. what's the point? But really.. some people do have financial difficulties.. so.. i just don't know.. the line is too blured for me to see.
200+ posts since a year plus ago.. looking through, i've really change quite a bit. In terms of thinking and the way i treated other people.. I thought i could be immune after so many years of thinking... yet, some things never change. When it comes to this, i'm always at a lost.. it seems that i still couldn't control. I'm not childish.. ( neither am i skinny.. = =) things just happens at the wrong time.. that's all. Yet, the right things are always ignored, and the wrong doings amplified. Me, Myself and I.. whatever i did was wrong.. so why do? Might as well leave it to time to dispose. Sure i will regret, i know i will. But will she?
The sudden strong feelings came back to bug me again.. it seems to be a vicious cycle.. and its very difficult to live. Being too sensitive in a senseless world can kill. And its killing me.. not softly enough though. And people as they always were. Too bad there isn't any mountains in here for me to be a hermit.. or else i rather be one.. If not i train so hard to be a loner for what?
Got enough of myself recently.. for what do i degrade myself for? Lameness.. guess it shouldn't be my image.. and too bad for the rest.. maybe they all can rejoice.. jokes are history.
Too immerse in my own happenings that i totally gave up on SRC for the whole period.. grab a hold of myself.. maybe.. i need someone to hold me.. tightly. Yet it all were just wishes.. maybe the path already parted. So finally came the last event for Welfare department.. Ultimatum Challenge.. all credits go to ML should it be a success.. and all the blame shall be on me should it fails. Was supposed to be the over-all in-charged for this.. yet i bail out.. perfering to agonise myself.. till now. Too late it seems.. and it shall be the event later.. one can only hope as always.
Now trying to find all things to divert my attention.. from eating to playing games.. and of coz, my newly aquired - two of the '4 great evils'... gambling and drinking. I'm not trying to self destruct.. just that it came a time that i unlocked them.. and got stuck. Obessesion it seems.. yet looking around, i'm later than the rest.. haha.. maybe i'm younger.. maybe i'm trying to be stubborn not to conform.. yet it happens. And it spells trouble. Health problems it seems.. still haven't recovered from the whole night mahjong session it seems.. and of coz i have intention to cut down on the 'hobbies'.. Frequently joked about my goal to collect the 4.. haha.. yet i won't.. it'll be against my moral.. and also unfair to the special someone.. that is if i happen to get attached.. guess it won't be so soon.. hahaa.. sadness. I have intention to settle down by the age of 28.. very young for guys.. yet i want my life to unfold as soon as possible.. and of coz, having the intention to earn lots of money.. haha.. and maybe continue to dream on.
And finally to the topic of work.. i could if i wanted.. and i really doesn't want to work.. not because i'm lazy, not because i'm well to do.. but it isn't value for money. Even if it isn't in terms of money, it can seriously disrupt one's studies.. if so.. might as well quit school to work full time and take it as one's 'career'. School fees cost more than what one can earn in a month.. maybe two or three.. what's the point? But really.. some people do have financial difficulties.. so.. i just don't know.. the line is too blured for me to see.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Double or Nothing?
Maybe Life is just double or nothing.. so much for my happy ending.. i don't wish to think.
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Uneventful Weekend
Went to update my passport yesterday.. and i had 149 people infront of me!.. just like everyone.. all came to renew/ change photos.. What i dislike is the noise that little kids make. Not that i don't like children.. just that one must learn how to behave in the public.. Anyway, i thought they were going to JB.. thats why i updated my passport.. but no one seems to say anything, and i don't bothered to ask.. thats why stayed at home to have a boring afternoon. Anyway if anyone asked, i guess i would still choose to nua at home.. haha.. think i getting very lazy.
My handphone seems to be spoilt these days.. maybe water got inside.. haha.. it didn't ring for quite some time now... and somewhat it became more of a photo album for me.. So a boring saturday.. spent most of my time packing my room. Things are getting less, but my room seems more messy. Reason being that i've thrown away my wardrobe, my bed and my desk.. haha.. all that could keep things nice and tidy.. but i find them bulky. Time to clear up, and get ready to study.
It seems that the school term had made me lost track of time.. heard something about new year that i began to realise that 2005 is going to end.. haaha.. finally.. i don't know and i don't to know.
One thing that i dread.. going back to band practices.. haha... my passion, my burden. I'm rusty now.. not to mention my horn. And to make the matter worse, i'm the only one there.. ar.. i hate responsibility.. and i tend to panic when i'm alone.. never to let me have solo again.. not to mention concerto. Think i won't get this chance in my life. Actually it really depends on the level of confidence. How you are, measured to the rest. If you feel great, you will be too.. But under SWE, the pressure is too great. All of them had sections... and i'm the only one in the section.. sadness.
Anyway, looking forward to schooling.. didn't spend time to catch up, but i understand what they are teaching.. all except FI.. Must really find time to study..
My handphone seems to be spoilt these days.. maybe water got inside.. haha.. it didn't ring for quite some time now... and somewhat it became more of a photo album for me.. So a boring saturday.. spent most of my time packing my room. Things are getting less, but my room seems more messy. Reason being that i've thrown away my wardrobe, my bed and my desk.. haha.. all that could keep things nice and tidy.. but i find them bulky. Time to clear up, and get ready to study.
It seems that the school term had made me lost track of time.. heard something about new year that i began to realise that 2005 is going to end.. haaha.. finally.. i don't know and i don't to know.
One thing that i dread.. going back to band practices.. haha... my passion, my burden. I'm rusty now.. not to mention my horn. And to make the matter worse, i'm the only one there.. ar.. i hate responsibility.. and i tend to panic when i'm alone.. never to let me have solo again.. not to mention concerto. Think i won't get this chance in my life. Actually it really depends on the level of confidence. How you are, measured to the rest. If you feel great, you will be too.. But under SWE, the pressure is too great. All of them had sections... and i'm the only one in the section.. sadness.
Anyway, looking forward to schooling.. didn't spend time to catch up, but i understand what they are teaching.. all except FI.. Must really find time to study..
Friday, November 04, 2005
I'm Bored...
Ar.. holiday too long.. i'm going to go crazy.. So envy of those that are happy go lucky.. haha.. no worries. Maybe they really don't think.. that much that is. I know it is a choice, but i just want to choose that way. Looking through my msn log, then i realised how much things change.. bit by bit, slowly but definately.
Recovered 2 kgs.. had been trying very very hard to gain weight.. i know i'm very light.. please don't remind me.. Anyway, i'm hungry again. Maybe i could comfort myself.. at least i won't turn into a dino.
UC coming.. not at the least worried.. the other that i'm worried.. seems it doesn't bothers anyone. Maybe i should just go off and disapper somewhere. Running away i guess.. its programmed.
ARGH!!.. so bored!
Recovered 2 kgs.. had been trying very very hard to gain weight.. i know i'm very light.. please don't remind me.. Anyway, i'm hungry again. Maybe i could comfort myself.. at least i won't turn into a dino.
UC coming.. not at the least worried.. the other that i'm worried.. seems it doesn't bothers anyone. Maybe i should just go off and disapper somewhere. Running away i guess.. its programmed.
ARGH!!.. so bored!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
For The Better Or The Worse?
Finally i got better.. but i felt worse.
After about too weeks, i can now eat freely. Felt so ill that i lost 4kgs over past 2 weeks.. When can i regain back? Haha.. spent so much effort to gain 2kgs in 2 months.. and its all over in 2 weeks. Maybe things are like that.. it seems so unimportant when you had it.
Some things are driving me crazy.. really really agitated at some things.. just hoped that thngs might get better.
The school i'm in.. it seems that it is getting worse since the status.. i wondered.. how come the students now react so 'unprofessionally'? A bunch of rich kids that are spoilt enough to do 'catwalk' along the corridor.. kind of irritates me. And people who left their rubbish on the tables.. What is this?
Think i'm really too stressed up. Time to prepare for exams...
After about too weeks, i can now eat freely. Felt so ill that i lost 4kgs over past 2 weeks.. When can i regain back? Haha.. spent so much effort to gain 2kgs in 2 months.. and its all over in 2 weeks. Maybe things are like that.. it seems so unimportant when you had it.
Some things are driving me crazy.. really really agitated at some things.. just hoped that thngs might get better.
The school i'm in.. it seems that it is getting worse since the status.. i wondered.. how come the students now react so 'unprofessionally'? A bunch of rich kids that are spoilt enough to do 'catwalk' along the corridor.. kind of irritates me. And people who left their rubbish on the tables.. What is this?
Think i'm really too stressed up. Time to prepare for exams...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Nobody Knows..
I hoped not.. but something is very wrong with me.. had be unwell for 1 week.. yet i refused to see the doc.. haiz.. when will i ever change?
Back from zouk.. really quite disappointed of myself.. guess i shall not drink anymore.. time to be decent. Seriously, i think i've done enough damage to myself. Time to control and 'grow'.
Time for another time have forsaken me.. for i seems to halt at the past. Finally time to move, yet i got stuck again. I know i must grow, for my parents are getting old. I don't wish to worry them.. neither my future spouse.
Drunk again.. already not much left in my stomach, and i puked.. haha.. and i felt really hungry..
Will have marketing lecture tomorrow.. i think i shall not make it.. maybe i should try for the afternoon shift.. hopefully the irritating admin won't come to disturb again. Shit those who make it happened.. haha..
If i don't get to attend, it's all their fault.. Anyway, i haven't complete my assignment.. Not much point to attend. I've already missed much of my lecture.. and i think i might repeat all again.. haha.
I know i will be ok even though it seems i'm against the odds.. i just know it.. and i really hoped that friends will br alright too.. sort of saddens me to see them it such stituation.
Perhaps time might tell.. perhaps it takes a lifetime to tell.. until then, who knows?
Back from zouk.. really quite disappointed of myself.. guess i shall not drink anymore.. time to be decent. Seriously, i think i've done enough damage to myself. Time to control and 'grow'.
Time for another time have forsaken me.. for i seems to halt at the past. Finally time to move, yet i got stuck again. I know i must grow, for my parents are getting old. I don't wish to worry them.. neither my future spouse.
Drunk again.. already not much left in my stomach, and i puked.. haha.. and i felt really hungry..
Will have marketing lecture tomorrow.. i think i shall not make it.. maybe i should try for the afternoon shift.. hopefully the irritating admin won't come to disturb again. Shit those who make it happened.. haha..
If i don't get to attend, it's all their fault.. Anyway, i haven't complete my assignment.. Not much point to attend. I've already missed much of my lecture.. and i think i might repeat all again.. haha.
I know i will be ok even though it seems i'm against the odds.. i just know it.. and i really hoped that friends will br alright too.. sort of saddens me to see them it such stituation.
Perhaps time might tell.. perhaps it takes a lifetime to tell.. until then, who knows?
Saturday, October 22, 2005
O O again..
I really don't understand.. must one be bad in order to achieve their goals? For all the things done, it shall be taken for granted. For all the things not, it is a desire. Maybe the attraction comes from the desire. But.. i don't really wish to enter that path.. i on't have much more 5 years. For some, i wanted much to forget.. and others, i very much want to remember. I don't really wish to end up with a dinosaur (coz we really almost always end up with someone that we don''t really liked... haha..
Perhaps.. advantage is to be taken... haiz. But then again, nature isn't what that can be changed.. As it goes.. the tiger never change its stripes.. or was it leopard? haha.. kidding... however much i wished for things to happen, i can only wait. And wish.. i've used up my wishes just for that.
Just got back from OO (2 Os.. that means double O lar..)... really kind of high. But really very much want to control.. i know, for one, i must know turn to the dark side based on the excuse that i'm on a high.. and i despise. Advantage shall not be taken of. (actually i don't really control what i'm blogging..) A lot of nonsense.
For all, it shall never be a route of asphalt.. troubles, difficulties and such. I'm willing to endure.. why can't someone? Always knew that giving is more 'painful' than getting.. (assuming getting from a non dino..)Yet, i rather give, for i want the bliss to showers that someone.. I don't ask for regconition.. yet, why must it hurt? Is it just so that there is care? I don't agree in testing (on humans that is.. ), yet the assurance comes from it. But it really hurts.. real deep. Letting go isn't an option.. for i shall be encapsulated once again. Noble as it sounds.. people are 'lettiing go' of people whom they cared.. And the crap that ' as long as you are happy'..
Perhaps i'm really out of control (today).. yet i'm trying to.. for whatever reason that i'm not matured enough.. it really pierces. And for whatever other reason, i really have no choice. Seeing people around me facing problems, it seems i'm not that only one. But i do really wish that bliss shall follow for a few of my friends.. seeing people getting agonised by the lack of bliss, i really don't know how to help.. i'm lacking too.
Seems the whole village uncover the truth.. cept the few whose antenna fell off.. I wish to deny, yet i can't affirm.
Anyway, i've decide to start early on my studies.. i'm really lacking.. yet i lack much more in non- academic stuffs.. when shall it be? When i enter the dark side?
Perhaps.. advantage is to be taken... haiz. But then again, nature isn't what that can be changed.. As it goes.. the tiger never change its stripes.. or was it leopard? haha.. kidding... however much i wished for things to happen, i can only wait. And wish.. i've used up my wishes just for that.
Just got back from OO (2 Os.. that means double O lar..)... really kind of high. But really very much want to control.. i know, for one, i must know turn to the dark side based on the excuse that i'm on a high.. and i despise. Advantage shall not be taken of. (actually i don't really control what i'm blogging..) A lot of nonsense.
For all, it shall never be a route of asphalt.. troubles, difficulties and such. I'm willing to endure.. why can't someone? Always knew that giving is more 'painful' than getting.. (assuming getting from a non dino..)Yet, i rather give, for i want the bliss to showers that someone.. I don't ask for regconition.. yet, why must it hurt? Is it just so that there is care? I don't agree in testing (on humans that is.. ), yet the assurance comes from it. But it really hurts.. real deep. Letting go isn't an option.. for i shall be encapsulated once again. Noble as it sounds.. people are 'lettiing go' of people whom they cared.. And the crap that ' as long as you are happy'..
Perhaps i'm really out of control (today).. yet i'm trying to.. for whatever reason that i'm not matured enough.. it really pierces. And for whatever other reason, i really have no choice. Seeing people around me facing problems, it seems i'm not that only one. But i do really wish that bliss shall follow for a few of my friends.. seeing people getting agonised by the lack of bliss, i really don't know how to help.. i'm lacking too.
Seems the whole village uncover the truth.. cept the few whose antenna fell off.. I wish to deny, yet i can't affirm.
Anyway, i've decide to start early on my studies.. i'm really lacking.. yet i lack much more in non- academic stuffs.. when shall it be? When i enter the dark side?
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Happy or Sad Birthday?
Ohh.. thought what had happened.. i've missed the important day of my life.. sadness.
A lot of happenings the past few days.. i was too weak to blog.. and to find the roots for my illness.. i don't know where to look.
Was getting ready to mj at BT's house last sunday.. but it rainned very very heavily.. supposed to reach around 1 but ended up 1 hour late. I still got drenched even with an umberella. So sat down and continued the game.. halfway through, i developed a slight fever.. took some medicine and continued till it was time to go for buffet.
Ate a lot.. and a lot.. and think i over ate.. but it used to be perfectly alright.. but i was a bit bloated that day. Went Eski the 'Chill' again.. thought i wasn't going again.. yet i was back. And we played some games where the loser had to stand in the 'freezer' of -4 to -10 degrees for 3 - 5 minutes.. i wasn't the ultimate loser though..
And it rained whole day..
Went to school monday morning late coz as usual overslept.. but was feeling weird. The weather was cold and i was still having a slight fever.. but saw xiao pok pok on the bus at around nine.. haha.. thought i was the lastest late comer at SIM.. but someone could actually par me on this.. Halfway through, ask the wiwis if they wanna Mac for breakfast.. so i reached school around break time just to realise that we are going through tutorial.. as usual, i don't go for tutorial.. so my mission was to somewhat deliver breakfast.. so finding myself rather 'useless', went to SRC room to do some packing up.. Especially the CV stuffs.. coz ml helped in packing the bazaar stuffs.. so i must at least 'repay' some of my debts.. haha.. anyway, i just stuff everything in the welfare cupboard..=X
Went home and felt very tired for not doing anything.. had a "great" dinner coz mom says it is for my birthday.. a "san lao hor fun".. another food to add onto my banned list. Ate and went to bed coz wasn't feeling right..
Halfway through, woke up coz felt uneasy.. till it was morning.. very excited coz it was my birthday.. but was rather worried coz i've developed a fever of 38.5 degrees.. in the end had no choice but to stay at home.. a right choice.. coz i vomitted very heavily.. till it hurts my lungs.. i thought i was pregnant! haha.. kidding.. so when jj asked me how, i told him that it was a girl.. and he says can matchmake his boy.. whahaa..
It was a truly unforgettable birthday.. totally without celebration.. but felt very touched from the smses and msges friends have sent.. haha.. or else i'll be really really sad.. of coz, the best of all.. i got my one and only birthday song that day. ^^
A lot of happenings the past few days.. i was too weak to blog.. and to find the roots for my illness.. i don't know where to look.
Was getting ready to mj at BT's house last sunday.. but it rainned very very heavily.. supposed to reach around 1 but ended up 1 hour late. I still got drenched even with an umberella. So sat down and continued the game.. halfway through, i developed a slight fever.. took some medicine and continued till it was time to go for buffet.
Ate a lot.. and a lot.. and think i over ate.. but it used to be perfectly alright.. but i was a bit bloated that day. Went Eski the 'Chill' again.. thought i wasn't going again.. yet i was back. And we played some games where the loser had to stand in the 'freezer' of -4 to -10 degrees for 3 - 5 minutes.. i wasn't the ultimate loser though..
And it rained whole day..
Went to school monday morning late coz as usual overslept.. but was feeling weird. The weather was cold and i was still having a slight fever.. but saw xiao pok pok on the bus at around nine.. haha.. thought i was the lastest late comer at SIM.. but someone could actually par me on this.. Halfway through, ask the wiwis if they wanna Mac for breakfast.. so i reached school around break time just to realise that we are going through tutorial.. as usual, i don't go for tutorial.. so my mission was to somewhat deliver breakfast.. so finding myself rather 'useless', went to SRC room to do some packing up.. Especially the CV stuffs.. coz ml helped in packing the bazaar stuffs.. so i must at least 'repay' some of my debts.. haha.. anyway, i just stuff everything in the welfare cupboard..=X
Went home and felt very tired for not doing anything.. had a "great" dinner coz mom says it is for my birthday.. a "san lao hor fun".. another food to add onto my banned list. Ate and went to bed coz wasn't feeling right..
Halfway through, woke up coz felt uneasy.. till it was morning.. very excited coz it was my birthday.. but was rather worried coz i've developed a fever of 38.5 degrees.. in the end had no choice but to stay at home.. a right choice.. coz i vomitted very heavily.. till it hurts my lungs.. i thought i was pregnant! haha.. kidding.. so when jj asked me how, i told him that it was a girl.. and he says can matchmake his boy.. whahaa..
It was a truly unforgettable birthday.. totally without celebration.. but felt very touched from the smses and msges friends have sent.. haha.. or else i'll be really really sad.. of coz, the best of all.. i got my one and only birthday song that day. ^^
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