OBG

I think i OBG for sleeping right after eating that bcm.. in the end, the reflux came back. Disliked it when i couldn't enjoy eating anything.

Was at CQ steamboat on friday, but didn't eat as much as i used to.. and it didn't taste as nice as it used to be.. plus, it now cost more and more, from $12 to $15 and to $18. Price is also part of my utility curve.

Wondered what happened to the used-to-be very nice train station of the west side.. nowadays, it get quite messy during the book out time, then conglomerate here and there also. I still prefer the trip back.. at least i need not siam the crowd.

Pract was, only 6 of us, but each a different instrument. It was quite unique sounding, and we've got all range covered. Did scales on "i recommend", just as the sec school days, but with a better reach of the higher octave. It's been quite a while since i started playing on the horn.. to be exact, almost 12 years. Certain things are already programmed, and without realizing, it just occur naturally. But of coz, there are certain other things which didn't.. and really, practice makes permanent. If practice on the wrong thing, it will make the wrong thing permanent.

It was not as interesting as compared to playing scores, but with the number we got, i think it can sound very bad playing any written piece. A time for us to really look at the fundamentals and work on the skills we lack.

And what is lacking in my horn playing is the intonation between each note. The horn, like some of the other brass instrument (except the tbone) doesn't have a perfect pitch. There are some innate "flaws" which the instrument tends to sound out on certain notes. There are compensation to be made, but sometimes too much, and sometimes too little. And when there are other things to take note of, it can be difficult to keep a perfect pitch on a imperfect instrument. So when it gets "programmed", it can be taken off the equation. Some of the string players got very good intonation regardless which scale they are on.. and it seems to occur to them naturally. Who knows how many years they've trained on these.

I started late on horn playing, and taught by my seniors who were not professionals too. I don't mean to undermine them (i'm actually very grateful to all my seniors who taught me), but that is what our system can offer us. And being in a school that doesn't focus on the band, we didn't get the additional training require. I guess the reason why some of the national orch still need external players is that we didn't start from young (that's why we really lose out). My parents are not inclined to music, and so my actual "training" began when i was 12.. it was already very late. And then the quality of training also wasn't that good. When i moved on to jc, it got worse.. i actually switched instrument to fill the gap.. then i lost touch during my NS days due to working shifts and braces and also their refusal to grant me a chance to play in the first place (which thankfully they didn't.. hahaa.. i think i gained more being a SA).

Now i can't learn as well le.. as shown by my declining grades.. haha.. and i wonder how am i going to catch up. I don't mean to go pro, but i hoped to be able to deliver when called upon, and to keep up just not to hinder the rest of the group.

Thankful for all these challenges and disappointing stunts and also the chance to be exposed to orch music. It made me want to learn (for the moment) and re-learn. Perhaps what i need most is how to overcome the nerve factor. Even though i don't get 750k for a medal, i still can get kan cheong when i got some exposed parts to play.

Well.. it seems i like to niam a lot about pract these days.. lol.

Randomness

Even though so, i'll have this numbing pain now and then. Equity premium puzzle ar? Also felt numbness in one of my toes.. lol.. frostbite in sg?

It was tiring trying to catch every single match of the euro, but i'm happy to be able to. Nice was the match when a 12-men Italy vs a 9-men France.. lol.. i think i laugh until want to peng le. There seems to be much conspircy theory going on.. as with everything else.. don't know what happened to people these days.. maybe they think they are too smart and everyone is out to chop their cabbage head ba. Then there was the midnight supper of consecutive bcm.. eat until i scared le lor. Pakki was also part of the euro craze.. and his bio clock is almost like that of mine le.

Installed FF7 (Final Fantasy VII) for the PC again.. lol.. it was released in 1997 wor.. ahahaha.. 10 years ago. I still remembered i first played it in 1998. I was sec 3 then.. and then i just played for a day before i need to go for OBS camp. The game was so revolutionary that i kept thinking of going home during OBS. Then the PC was super lousy.. the graphics card also CMI. 10 years on, i had a better comp and OS.. and actually it was 'too good' le.. hahaa.. it actually cannot support such an old game wor. LOL.. technology - it prevents you from going backwards.

2005, they released the movie "Advent Children" based on FF7. The graphics was so nice lor... you can see for yourself..


1997 FF7, Tifa and Cloud (as in the game)


1997 FF7, Aries and Tifa (as in a cutscene)


2005 AC, Tifa.. see the difference? LOL..

Maybe 10 years on, they might do another remake.. till then, who knows?

Goose Chase

Too tired that i fell ill. Was chasing goose for the whole eveing yesterday, as if like on a sg tour like that.

Went Sg Warehouse at paya lebar to collect something for pakki. 1st time there, but i didn't miss the bus stop. The collection was processed rather soon too, and the people there were very polite.. and i thought that i can get my errands done soon.


Pakki's food reserve.. lol.. people stock up on rice, he stock up on dog biscuits.

Went from paya lebar to hougang.. and it took me just 20 minutes. Couldn't find the Haha crab shop at hougang wor.. they moved house le! OMG... wasted trip leh.. very pek chek lor.. They also quite pro lor.. move liao webpage also never update. Anyway, they also got a blog.. and seriously, people like to niam about keeping hermit crab is wrong.. if that is so wrong, then don't keep any other animals lor.. then might as well close down the zoo hor.. then cannot keep livestocks also right? Siao de.. all kinds of bo liao people only know how to niam only. Yes.. this is really very subjective.. but keeping pets is not the same as torturing them. However, i am not a supporter of painted shell.. nor am i agreeable in keeping them in a small small plastic fish tank (that sells $70+ without the crabs?). It's just the way how the traders want to get their points across. Surely, given what you can get at the pet store within budget, it is inadequate. It is the same everywhere.. and i see kids buying them just like buying toy like that - Coloured sands and all (i don't think the kids or their parents even know if they need salt water and a humid habitat). Seriously, i'm not a naturist.. and i don't really care about what the traders are trying to do. I'm just, a hobbyist (just like
me playing in bands.. i never intend to go professional or semi pro.. that's why i didn't have my horn grading till now).

Anyway, got to go PM buy the crab feed le.. my venti crab is completing its molting soon.. and it's almost done with eating its own exo le. Sigh.. got to run around again.


Molting done, with some exo unfinished. LOL.. 1st time see surface molt. (crab, don't die please~~~)

West to East

From west to east, but still as far, if not further. Was late with the same reason as last friday.. sigh.. something is not right leh.. (as usual). Intended to take cab, and from my place to tampines cost around $14 the last time. Now with the higher fare and peak surcharge, it seems scary. I flagged an empty cab, but it didn't stop.. lol.. why ar? business too good liao hor? But luckily it didn't stop.. coz the bus came. Took bus all the way north and waited for 969. 九六九,等很久.. sian.

The trip was rather fast.. maybe 10-15 mins.. but it took me 30 minutes to reach the 969 bus stop. And then from tampines need to take bus again. Other than buses coming at long intervals, i wondered why i need to take 3 buses to reach a given destination.

I still got a lousy tone today coz my throat was still having the burning sensation. Lousy tone i don't like lor.. makes me sound lousy. And then don't know from where, after cny smog, came the haze again. Tell me how to recover like that lor.

Orchestra sounded scary after cny.. suddenly can hear 2 different tempo at one point.. very very scary lor. If concert day like that.. don't know what to say liao. Scary. Tunning is a problem too.. (including myself).. argh.. don't want to shoot le.. lol.. later bad karma. Already very bad karma shooting people when the mic isn't off.. ahahahaa.. then the section beside could hear.. lol.. bad karma liao.

On the way home after a very late dinner, was irritated by what i saw on train. Ugly singaporeans. And maybe coz i bad karma, i alighted at the wrong station.. ahahahaa.. don't know where i left my brain.. maybe still at ICA.

Concert on 9th march, prelims on 4th and 10th march. Sandwiched. Really no mood liao lo.

Missed

Don't know what seems wrong.. i've been feeling not alright for the past few weeks. Feeling weak and no appetite.. maybe it's the post cny syndrom. For the 1st time, i missed my friday FR coz i wasn't feeling well. Walked to the bus stop but decided to visit the GP instead. Sadly, my GP isn't open for business.. heard that he might be retiring.. so i went home just after 30 minutes of leaving home. I don't like the feeling of missing the FR lecture.. it leaves me rather empty. The coming friday will be the last FR lecture.. hopefully i can catch up with the rest.. if not, really must ask and ask le. Like what my lecturer said, "it will be an insult to the people doing consol out there if you can do it just by reading notes..." I already knew how difficult it is. Hopefully, i will go into this line someday. The banking sector is not really the kind of life i pursue.

Came saturday, i missed orchestra practice. The kind of same feeling of missing lecture again.. but i felt that in order not to wear my health out, i should really rest. But things were left unsettled at SCC. Instruments were to be moved to HQ, and sorry, i wasn't there to help. Thanks to all who were there to help send my instrument and files over. I'll recover soon and be back at the next practice.

The sort of feeling of missing something that could otherwise be done was quite frustrating. And this feeling kept repeating itself since J2. Kind of helpless against such, yet perhaps not the cause.

Was out today and my schoolmates said that i've lost weight. Quite very true, and as confirmed by the bathroom scale. Haiz. Maybe if this keeps on, i might become a bag of bones by the time the exams are over.

Everytime i met up with my friends that have graduated, i really felt foolish for wasting a whole year of opportunities (coz i retained). I really wanted to work, so that i could reap what i sow. Ya.. those working will agree that working sucks.. but then.. total finacial independence is what i aimed for. Though i stopped receiving allowance and paid for my school feels, some of the bills and insurance are not paid by me.. so finacial independence is what i seek.. and finally financial freedom in the not very far future. Living on passive income is perphaps one of the common goals of the common people.. but it is by no means easy (considering the kind of life i yearn for after retiring, and the age i might decide to retire). CPF is IMO just to make sure that people can be indepedent financially, not really freed. Of coz, if i'm the sole winner for the coming 10 mil toto angbao draw, it'll be a different story... in my dreams ba.. lol.

Still not recovered fully.. but at least a bit better.. better than it getting worse.. and just in time, coz i need to be studying soon.. 1 year is already too much.

In Orchestra Today,

i sounded bad. Especially so during waltz of the flower. Maybe the flower waited for 2 weeks, and hence withered? And not only i think that i sounded quite bad... that is, quite bad le.

My tone was bad, counting was bad. The only excuse i could think of was maybe i haven't recovered.. lol.. actually i also don't have the strength to be disappointed too much. Also, the whole orchestra sounded weird too.. maybe coz there were less people around.. and as usual, the lowest brass was again, the horn. The we only had 1 cello and 1 bassoon.. no double bass, no tuba, no nothing.

And then there was something difficult to say.. lol.. anyway, it wasn't my idea.. so i decided not to say. In the end, the one who wanted to say also didn't say, coz it was really difficult to say. LOL.. no idea what i'm talking about right? LOL.. it isn't anything bad.. just a minor change of certain order.

Bo form today i guess.

Actually was quite recovering from the flu + cough + fever + headache le.. but then i studied through the night on thurdays becoz i thought there was going to be a class test the following day. But then.. lecturer say no test wor. I thought 100% sure got test lor.. coz he said that cannot owe after cny... lol.. i guess the cny mood really affects a lot of people wor. And so after 1 whole night of midnight oil, my throat burns again.. and it got worst when it rained on friday. Weather really fierce these days lor.. how to recover like that? And i lost weight at quite a scary pace.. already almost 2kgs gone like that.. lol.. when will i reach my 'optimum' weight?

Then in class on friday, a group of int students sat beside me.. i usually had nothing against them, just that sometimes they talk a lot and make some weird noises that i haven't heard before... other than that, their enthu participation in class doesn't quite bother me, not to mention that they usually fill the front few rows. (now i guess i know why they sit so near le.. coz end of lessons must get lecturer to sign ma..) Anyway, this particular group was really very mei li mao. Lecturer was passing the notes around, and this bugger sitting beside me don't even bothered to pass it to me.. why, i transparent ar? Wa lao eh lor.. i was so damn angry.. even if not enough also didn't bother to let me know. AND, it wasn't 1 time.. it was 2 times lor. And i didn't know got 2 sets of notes until the lecturer ask us to change some of the figures.. then i found out i didn't have... KNS.. this group really no manners de. In the end i still got to go to the front to get.. and then hor, they swarm towards the front as if Jay came to our LT like that.. omg.. can't stand them. Next time i better find some seats far far away from these people.

And then this pakki is beginning to act as if he is king le.. ahahahaa.. he actually slept on my bed lor. Don't since when he discovered that my bed is nicer than his.. hahahaaa.. and that is a bad thing.. coz when he wakes up, he will come and 'disturb' me until i wake up.. if not he will bark until someone attends to him.. really king wor.

5 more days to cny, and i couldn't find any cny clothes i liked.. wahhaa.. but i don't want to wear 'old' clothes leh.. lol.. i really no flair in buying clothes lor.. hahaa.. but i got flair in eating, and at the same time not putting on weight.. lol.. so when i recover, i want to eat all the ba kua i can, and drink all the cold drinks i want.. hahaha... seriously, i had quite enough of the 2 daily cans of liang teh at room temperature le. Maybe like what they suggest.. fight poison with poison? lol.. then maybe i really no need to go get my angbaos le..

Long Time No Sick

Its been a while since i last fell ill. Maybe too long never ill, hence this time it lasted quite a while. Coughing and having flu.. plus stomach getting weak also... already almost 2 weeks le, and non of the liang teh and cough drops seems to help. I guess, it must have been the late nights and irregular eating hours. My bio clock seems to be in a mess these days. Quite irritated lo.. plus cny coming soon, and i don't want to miss any of the good food.

Semester ending soon, and i am still clueless of IM.. ahahahaa... wonder what i've been doing.. sigh.. and now feeling so illish, i also won't know whether got time to study for friday's FR test or not.

Almost 15 years living in this estate - from industrial estate to the so-called 'villa' after the upgrading.. and finally there is going to be a train station! Yay~ Hahaa.. and i think is 2 of them! Yay yay~ one of them which is due to complete next year, is near one of the top JC in sg.. and the other, although that station is set to bear the name of my neighbourhood, will be near the 'up the lorry' hub.. if i'm not wrong. LOL.. 塞翁失马 leh... but then again, this newer line will be completed 2020~ lol.. by that time, i might have my own car le. If they really can improve the whole public transport system, maybe i can consider. Just imagine this lor.. from central to west need 1.5 hours.. if i drive, the most is 0.5 hours.. who will want to take some bus that seems more intent on bringing passangers on a sight-seeing ride? Just last friday, IM lesson ended half hour early.. and the naive me thought that i could reach home at least 30 mins earlier, if not more.. but who knows? Stupid buses took a whole half hour to reach, and then like every busstop is packed with half hours' worth of sardines. In the end i reached home LATER than usual... LOL.. It seems strange.. during the non-peak hour, the frequency of the bus is 38 mins! and during peak hours, you can't even get on the bus.. no wonder la.. no wonder the road is so packed with private cars.

Market is volatile these days.. and some say that it's a good time to enter.. IMO, the economy doesn't seems too strong... well, if the strategy is to hold long term, then maybe can invest lo.. provided there is no need of the cash in the near future. There is opportunity cost involved.. and learnt from IM, the best strategy for liquid traders is to hold long term.. which means that, if you don't have superior information - either through extensive research or whatever (by the way, insider trading is illegal.. but then again, the law of large numbers will always win... so who has the most money wins lor), holding long term should be relatively safe. If not, i see no difference from betting big/small. Too bad i didn't major in econmics.. lol.. because they are always right.. for whatever that happened, they always have a reason... 马后炮 i think.. hahaa... And then as if the FIs are not busy with the fallout of the subprime crisis.. there is another pro involved in a trading fraud. The amount surpasses that of the famous nick leeson.. an amount totalling 7 billion. LOL.. 7 billion leh.. is he pro or what? Amazing.

Sigh.. sick liao not a very nice feeling.. like everything also no strength to do.. wondered will the flu bug pass on to the critters at home or not? Hahaa.. 9 days into the molting, grande should be doing well ba.. so are the rest. Even bacon is doing well.. seems like he gained weight again. I on the other hand, have been losing weight.. sigh.. do hope i can recover soon.

Too Much COFFEE!

Wondering how come.. i actually start to miss school already.

A few days back, while practically the whole of SIM is busy mugging for mocks, i chose mahjong instead. And for that "mistake", i suffered the worst losses in a single game.. lol.. should be memorable. LOL, and for the 1st time, i hosted mj game at home.. lol.. and i lost with home advantage.. zz.

Even if i won, winnings in the end was transferred to the cab driver.. lol.. but i malu again, coz my 'zha hu' tendency is quite high, haiz.. eyes don't know see what.. and i 'tio bao' again.. for the 3rd time in history.. lol.. and i already realised how stubborn i am.. but why? When people hiong, they don't tio, and when i hiong, confirm become the cannon hand.. haa..

For these few days, i didn't touch any books at all.. i really got to go somewhere to start studying, if not, da bao again.. tio bao is $12.80, da bao is $7000.. lol.. must really study le.

Been stressed over ham and bacon (my hamsters) coz one is too active, while the other is very lazy. Keep waking me up in the middle of the night and early in the morning.. argh.. also, been upgrading their living quarters, until my mom keeps nagging. Today, i made another trip to the local pet stall, and discovered that i can place order for items not on sale there.. wah.. so nice. Modified the old cage (DIY style) to cater to the use of a higher quality waterbottle.. lol.. (the waterbottle cost $4 plus.. =_=)..

Today, i received a sms from wss alumni band.. erm, i won't be joining.. coz till now, things haven't changed much. Weak in playing can be improved by practicing.. yet a flawed management, practice can only make permanent. I don't wish to say anymore.. just take it that i'm petty. But i'm such, for i'm ungenerous with certain things. Sometimes, i liked to be left alone.. haha.. don't bother me too othen. But things change with the change of status. LOL.. it seems that i'm the one bothering other.


I actually regretted a lot of things, and certain things are harder to change then they seems.

Having quite a backache these few days.. until my head got a bit giddy.. zzz.. what is happening.. but even as i complain, it seems that people have their own share of problem.. perhaps, faith might provide the comfort.

Sleepness coz i downed 1 cup of tea and 1 cup of coffee during and after dinner.. argh.. now my brain is hyper active.. couldn't sleep, and had enough of attempting to study..

In the end, i watched whatever show that was shown on the tv screen.. and that includes "my date with a vampire 3".. omg.. what.. that weird show is back again.. zzz. Stock watched with dad again.. and saw the US market red red again.. hah.. i think quite a number of people got caught in the re-adjustment.. too much speculative activity liao lor.. see la... And then dad told me, a local ugrad moved from 70k profit to a 700k loss overnight.. wow.. how unpredictable. But i didn't see the news.. haha.. i only know got one 23 years old girl got her 200k illegal 4D winnings confiscated.. must be a very heart-wrenching feeling to lose so much.

Oh.. this week is holiday week for the schooling kids.. and this maple gave a lot of incentive for people to start playing continuously.. lol.. i already stopped regular mappling for quite a while. Starts to be rather quite meaningless to pursue certain things with real cash.. after all, i prefer things that are tangible. Doesn't mean that i'll quit.. just being less persistant, perhaps less stubborn.

It seems that things that i'm trying to cover are endless.. lol. A few days back, i got myself a haircut.. whahaa.. actually i think that its quite nice leh.. whaha.. well, compared to my botak head a year ago.. lol! I don't think i'll do that again.

Lenghty entry.. coz i don't get to go online that often.. my wireless router spoiled.. and got to take it to jurong for servicing.. well, sis volunteered for that, but it could only been done this weekend coz of her work commitment. But i realised that she's getting rather temperamental already.. haha.. i don't think i can wait till this weekend... lol. I can survive on cable connection.. but i think wireless is better.

There'll be a LBO mock at 8am. But it seems i didn't manage to attend any.. hahaha... really.. certain things are so difficult to change.. hahaha.. haiz..

Haiz.. oh why do i drink so much coffee.. ah kun coffee power sia.. hhahahaaa.... omg.. spare me..

Lost in Emotions

I'm really sick le.. that's why i'm blogging on a saturday night! Argh.. Supposed to be at zouk already lor.. sigh..

Other than being sick, i think i tio poison le.. sigh.. been having a series of weird dreams.. is it just because everything is starting to settle down? Perhaps i wanted to too.. 2 whole months of events, outings, happenings, and maybe some da bian also... and finally, these all will come to an end.

But, people all around me are scaring me.. it's not what you see is what you get. People change with situation.. and with status too. (that includes myself) It isn't easy at all.. and i'm not really confident. Must really purge my poison out soon.. lost my placebo long ago, and no longer worked for me..

Lost in emotions.. woah.. (missed this song on mambo) Hah..

School really really is reopening soon leh.. i want to start schooling and maybe work real hard for the coming year le.. Although still got involved in SRC.. but i think i'll make more friends.. lol.. as i told some of the freshies.. must join src.. then know more people and extend the circle.. so if i happen to work in sales, i can start calling all of them.. lol.. Impressive work on Friday.. coz much more people signed up for welfare.. special thanks to Johnson and Syl. Haha.. of coz i got do work 1 lor.. haha.. if not, how come they will sigh up? Projects on the other hand, need no promotions.. (so they actually no need sales).. why get so many people? End up having too many choices to make.. coz all are too good le.. haha.. Sometimes, no choice is the best choice.

OOh.. so excited.. haha.. met so many new friends last friday, some who went for the camp.. Of coz, this batch is different.. and being older (and of coz wiser) There are some who chose to challenge.. (haven't they learnt? Challenging the authority have implications.. refer to.. erm.. haha.. camps) The thing is, there is a thing call grudge. If not, why do you think the people of the middle east still enter war these days? Check history please.. as Kah Beng (my IR lecturer) says, "it dates back to 2000 years ago..." whaha.. SO PLEASE .. don't be so eager to show off your intelligence lor.. i'm not stupid by the way, and i'm not inflexible.. but i have to repeat again.. things happen for a reason.. and if you don't know the reason.. don't act smart. Hah. Try doing that to your boss next time.. and i wonder what hell-ish kind of life will one get.

People these days are so rude.. mei li mao! Hahaa.. Smarter i agree, but really no manners. Oh yah.. was about to be tipped off my scale when i just lun.. haha.. "noobs bring you down to their level and beat you with experience.." whaha.. for what should i degrade myself? Just pretend i didn't hear lor.. haha.. i'm ok de.. since after that, who will remember who said what? But then again, i'm human also.. so nevertheless, will feel agitated ba.. for the moment only.

Haiz.. so sian.. blogging on a saturday night.. haha... when i'm supposed to be out.. And i'm still being doubtful about some things.. couldn't sleep.. argh..

Is There Any Other Way?

I'd like to say KNS! Kns.. SIM didn't give out sticker today wor.. and my poor collection only got two sticker.. kns.

And today, Ah N's boss got whack by my sis.. ya.. she called and buttered him.. coz he didn't turn up today, and the things are left incomplete.. half-f job definately. And becoz my mom had settled the accounts the day before.. no wonder they don't feel the urgency.. and me didn't want to get involved, so i bo chup. But saw a change in my sis's attitude towards this sort of fish game. Ya.. i don't she intended to get eaten now onwards.. wow.. the air force really forces huh?

But i don't like the way she did things.. i mean.. no need to make until other's life is so difficult right? Of coz, it didn't mean i'll condone the sloppy job of these two men.. but there are other ways.. not fighting with fire. Coz i scared later Ah N put curse with his chant.. whahaa.. i still think that there are other ways..

It's already so full of shit.. i could do away with some of them. Maybe that i'm easily 'eaten'.. haha.. maybe i haven't been eaten till i got sick.. but i do have my temper too.. and for those few unlucky ones.. haha.. well. i'm human too.

Aiya.. hope everything goes well tomorrow. Sis is staying at home to fight a battle.. she'll win.. but i still don't like the way things were done.

Suan le la.. i don't wish to get involve.. haha.. bo chup ah~ Anyway, went marketing today.. thought i was alone.. but saw dq in class. Saw sp too.. haha.. but didn't talk too long.. coz her bf there.. lol.. later people get wrong idea wor. So attended marketing with dq.. and we both doze off.. it was so boring. Luckily the rest of the planet was at MA class next door.. if not i'll be so bored.. haha.. and after lesson, went to study lounge to find seats.. coz it was rainning.. but the school is so small.. sigh. And everyone is studying.. and so the TS is empty for today.. rare.

Will be having marketing tomorrow.. but i know i won't be alone.. haha.. no chance to ban ke lian le lah..

An Ultra Weird Day

Day 1/35: Today is a weird day. The weather is weird too.. so i was feeling weird all over. 1st day of everything and i almost fell ill. Practically having no sleep at all.. when i wanted to, i couldn't sleep.. and when i fell asleep, toopid mosquitoes woke me up. They seems to prefer to fly around the ears.. why can't they just shut up and suck my blood? Must they wake me up as well?.. toopid mosquitoes.

Was late for school today, again. And Mr Ram teach like machine gun.. 15 mins can teach 5 powerpoint slides. LBO for the 1st time seems ok for me.. haha.. but i noticed something, they always cover both sides.. sort of being indecisive.. i don't know.. maybe it was just me. But Law alone has many overlaps.. that's why people can get charged for 40+ counts.. now i know why.. but how to write essay like that? A lot to write, all in point forms only.

Megabites for lunch today.. and the fried rice cmi. Like stone like that.. no wonder it cost $2.50.. maybe the NP people eat finish all the tasty ones.. haha.. That day at work, ate a $5 plate of fried rice.. waaah.. never ate any fried rice that nice before.. i think is prawn paste or something like that.. haha.. and now i can't take my eyes off that $6 XO sauce fried rice. It was love in the first degree. So i was lost in emotion.. never gonna give it up and together forever we stay.. haha.. Maybe can blame it on the boogie... muahaha.. crap.

Going crazy over fried rice.. i'm so weird. Haha.. But it just gets too tiring to go to school.. plain lazy i guess.. Went to work after school and lunch.. and then i got there just in time.. haha.. i'm pro. Didn't want to rush.. took my time. And maybe i was just stubborn over certain things.. muahaha.. stubborn and indecisive.. these things doesn't go well together.

Reached the selling floor in a rather agitated mood.. haha.. and then i just spent the whole day cleaning my counter without making any sales. Not my brand.. but a lot of others... i can claim 3 - 4 sets of pay from the companies already. And so cleaned until i got bored climbing up and down.. then i went to fold the towels.. and before i knew it, it was time for dinner. Went with the xiao mei mei promoter.. but i think their thinking quite matured.. haha.. when i was their age, it seems i was very kiddy.. waahaha.. what was i thinking back then? Think i'm really lagging for a number of years.

9 pm, time to go.. but last minute got customer.. no choice had to serve.. so in the end OT till 9.30.. argh.. i don't have OT pay! Very tiring day.. and it will just be the first. And it seems my time isn't enough.. My only 'free' day is Thursday.. but i got full day lessons.. and then that wm wants to Jam on that day.. studio was booked.. and think i gonna butter him that day.. haha..

Saw the osim ihorse or dunno what.. haha.. it was damn funny.. and i don't know how the promoters are going to sell it. It just don't looked right to me. I mean.. what can it do? Just shake backside nia.. and you think one will get slim? Hahaa.. call me. I give the recepie for sliming. Anyway.. the name also sounds weird.. like ipod like that.. hahaaa.. some things are just weird.

I don't understand.. but i think i don't have to energy to find out. Found out some things.. but don't have to energy to confront it. I think just let it be and let me live.

For The Better Or The Worse?

Finally i got better.. but i felt worse.

After about too weeks, i can now eat freely. Felt so ill that i lost 4kgs over past 2 weeks.. When can i regain back? Haha.. spent so much effort to gain 2kgs in 2 months.. and its all over in 2 weeks. Maybe things are like that.. it seems so unimportant when you had it.

Some things are driving me crazy.. really really agitated at some things.. just hoped that thngs might get better.

The school i'm in.. it seems that it is getting worse since the status.. i wondered.. how come the students now react so 'unprofessionally'? A bunch of rich kids that are spoilt enough to do 'catwalk' along the corridor.. kind of irritates me. And people who left their rubbish on the tables.. What is this?

Think i'm really too stressed up. Time to prepare for exams...

Overdosed

Studied economics until gonna explode liao.. but then.. haha... econs.. it's so relevant. Suddenly i realised.. lol.. giffen goods doesn't really exist.. (Px increase -> Ddx increase).. how can it be? haha.. but then.. because of it.. i need so much time to study.. haha.. somethings are just like that.. non-existing but time consuming.. Identifying that.. maybe life would be so much better.. yet another contradiction.. if it doesn't exist in the first place.. how do we indentify it??... haha...

Attended Econs-UOL revision today.. and got scared by that "famous" amos.. coz most of the things he talked about.. i don't quite understand.. but then.. haha.. he too have a planet.. and what's more amazing.. he "invented" Zanana!.. haha... we only got the Witizens of the wiwiplanet.. maybe Wanana?... wahhaa... or Worange? But he mentioned something else that i found rather interesting.. competition exists because of dependency.. lol.. how true..

Didn't go school study today.. coz woke up early and went for the checkup... then was tired after i came back.. not really having health problems.. just want to make sure everything's clear (erm.. i'm innocent!!.. haha.. what are you thinking?) so i could concentrate on my studies.. did a blood and urine test.. erm.. the nurse wasn't really that "friendly".. everything was as if "OTOT".. coz i was the sole patient there.. haha.. but i'm a pro at waiting/nuaing.. coz i was trained at TTSH for almost 5 years now.. their waiting times.. haha.. almost always a few hours at least.. so my turn came.. and the doctor was actually quite suprised.. haha.. i went there only once.. and my medical history.. hmm.. quite a bit of it la.. haha.. most of them at TTSH.. When it was time to pay up, the nurse gave me a piece of paper.. i thought what.. later found out that it was the bill... $55.. lol.. write until like that.. i thought it was some prescription.. haha.. what to do? Went there twice only.. don't know how they do it also.. haha... but was not really that pleased with their service.. waiting for my report.. and will get it by next week i hope.. must learn to take care of myself 1st before others.. if not where to find that strength? Precaution is better than cure, anytime anyday.. and for people that are well... please cherish.. any problem that comes along will not be fun at all....

ooo... giving lectures.. haha... felt that strongly.. coz right now, there are lots of things i can't really do.. i could if i want to.. but then will have to bear with the repecussion.. like that time during welfare department outing.. haiz.. stupid games.. haha.. was getting better and then suddenly got worst.. and now i don't know i'll be happy with the current state.. of coz it's better now.. but not as before... haiz.. but .. life goes on.. erm.. exams too.. lol... a long long blog from a bored me.. basically to bore some bugs... don't make post 1 for the bug wor.. haha.. just kidding.. just a bit crazy from an overdose of econs.. hahaa..

Recovery

After 5 days of slacking.. i've almost recovered.. being sick doesn't feel nice at all.. still a bit feverish.. but guess the worst is over. Spent most of my time sleeping and eating.. haha.. oh great.. did someone metion that the exams are just 39 days away?? Damn.. i've wasted yet another 5 days.. argh.. what should i do? Hahaa.. it seems history has repeated itself once again.. but it was without the 7k price tag last time round.. haha.. oh shit.

Thursday today.. and there's gonna be lots of activities tomorrow.. and i actually don't feel like going.. don't know if i feel well enough.. Ex-co meeting at noon followed by stats revision in the evening.. still have to travel all the way to Changi after that.. hmm... i'm not too sure.. maybe i'll go on saturday instead? I need lots of rest now.. maybe just go school early to study.. need to hurry in my revisions.. ar...

Nice weather these few days.. and i woke up at 1 pm almost everyday.. haha.. slept more than 10 hours everyday.. didn't have those mosquitoes to irritate me.. hahaa.. spare me the trouble to look for them in the middle of the night.

Once again.. shall not be too personal in my blog.. lol.. mosquitoes are gone.. but bugs are still here.. wahhahaa..

New Year New Beginning

Whoa.. finally after 5 days.. the fever subsided.. but then.. had to make a trip the following day to Boonlay for band practice.. haha.. getting a bit bored there huh.. haha.. but..nevermind.. the concert's in 22 day's time.. and the best thing is.. i still don't know my parts! Haha.. how unprofessional.

These days had been quite dull "grounded" at home.. lol.. and can't join my friends outside for the countdown.. end up sms-ing till early morning.. a rather different way to welcome new year.. haha.. think my sms gonna exceed for this month too.. maybe a change of plan.. and maybe a change of phone?? But.. i want to keep the message..

After studying for two days.. only completed ONE topic of econs.. and it's just the first topic.. hahaa.. slow.. i need to study in school.. ar.. monday.. i can't wait.. but the library stinks... /.\

Should i repair my comp.. maybe not.. need to cut down on usage.. P2 should serve the required purpose.. Just that i can't play maplestory lei.. sian.. very sian.. hahaa..

Aw-ful Day

i'm sick le... haiz.. for two days already.. and it could only get worse.. felt so awful.. spent most of my time sleeping. Wanted to study but then.. feels so weak.. can only online.. hahaa.. i dunno la.. it seems that i won't recover so soon.. i need another doctor... and of coz .. the placebo.

Saw all the chocolates.. ar.. wanted to eat but can't.. sore throat and flu.. haiz.. what a bad new year.. most likely i'll spent it at home. Really must study.. i don't want to repeat.. the feeling of regret.. i've promised myself.. but wait till i recover.. haiz..

*Cough* - Part 2..

Wah wah... the conductor really ask us to play the scales... Then i don't know then anyhow humtam.. hahaha. The band is getting weak.. had been the way since our return from WMC in 2001. Those were the glorious days. But things will change..the only thing permanent is change. Had to adapt. I thought i was the only one sick there.. seems that some of them got the flu too.. bad weather ar

School tomorrow.. blood donation. Hmm.. there goes.. hahaha..

Why is everyone taking things personally??? Haiz...

*Cough*

It's been a long time since i've fallen ill. Always falling sick when the roller coaster is at the bottom.. haha.. maybe coz the immune system is weak when one is down. But most likely it is because of the weather. Nice weather.. but not when i'm down with flu, fever and a sore throat.

Went to school last Thursday for Bazaar meeting.. with the director somemore.. wah~ Don't know why they all so anxious about it. Especially the balloon part.. haha.. anyway, it rained while i was on my way home. As usual, didn't bring umbrella coz very "ti ki".. then yaya papaya walk in the rain. Then got fever at night liao.. haiz..

Wondered why people always like to take things personally.. just a mere comment.. and i don't think there is a need to resort to sarcasm. Ok .. maybe it was meant to draw blood. I don't care what others think. But i felt it and i don't like the feeling of it. No one was at fault.. but i perceived that someone is intending to declare war.. So be it.

Saturday night liao.. still not feeling ok.. so i guess.. i can't donate blood on Monday huh.. There goes my milo.. hahaha.. Still having sore throat.. then still have to go for band practice tomorrow.. long journey.. haiz.. maybe "bombah" on the way there..

Hmm.. forgot to memorize the major scales.. if the conductor asked me to play.. think that's it.. i'll be wasting time again.