It appears that i might be going for the 1st halloween this coming weekend.
It could be more exciting if i had the time to browse around for props and such.. but sadly, my work schedule never allow for such. In the end, most are DIY and refurbish from used materials from the CF. Might also borrow something from pakki too.. lol..
Work never allowed for time to diy.. had been busier these few days coz was making full use of my time at work. During my free time, i'll arrange the inventory (at the same time learn to recognise some of them) or get to writing my own "procedure and instruction manual". I guess the only way to make a difference is to make a difference. Been at the counter quite a bit more.. and learning a lot more. As usual, customers bypass me, and sometimes tio suan by the CF's staff. Occasionally i did manage to serve a few customers.. even those regular customers. All i need is time.
Very tired and exhausted. Others are not helping at all.. coz it is convenient to just delegate tasks to the hq at CF... while they chit chat. Shake head ar.. and they still say the newspaper vendor job doesn't fill their requirements. Sure the job at CF is tough.. but the pay is quite high for a blue collar. No peanuts, yet monkeys.
In anycase, let them be. I need to strive and excel.. so someday things might change.
Already changing is the entry of 7 new competitors. All result of the supplier that wanted to saturate the market. 15 is the proposed target for the next 3 years.. i don't know if there is still place for the CF at this pace. SG is really very competitive.. it is always easier from another point, coz things are always murky. At least, there are some things for me to start building on. No time eecc and nua liao lo. Time is running out.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Sometimes
Don't know what to make out of it.. felt as if being shot somehow.
Though i was reminded, i just can't help it. Maybe i'm willing to try.. maybe not.. i don't know.
Sis went US again, and kuti chia was in my care again. Been a week since i warmed the R1's engine, so i took it to boonlay for band pract. Since Hini, SCC had been quite crowded.. till there wasn't place to park. In the end i made a detour to the block quite a distance away. Luckily parking is free on sundays.. so long as i don't 'accidentally' park in the season parking lot.
Again, brasses are lacking players.. but it was quite a good sectionals. My colleague joined back, and the horn section double in size. Had the chance to play the alex 130 that cost 16k! Whoa.. it sounded really good, and the higher range didn't have much ohms. A very good horn IMO, and the 130 was just the beginning. Just too bad i didn't have much intention to upgrade anymore.. if not, it really would have been another breakthrough.
Pract ended slightly earlier, and with kuti chia, i reached home just 30+ mins later. Did managed to catch a bit of "十万火急" before going out to da bao kfc for dinner. Fell asleep 20 mins after dinner.. was really too tired le.
My work issue is really taking a toll on me, and sometimes i run, sometimes i hide.. and sometimes i'm sick of it.. but all i really want is to get it right.. all i need is time.
Though i was reminded, i just can't help it. Maybe i'm willing to try.. maybe not.. i don't know.
Sis went US again, and kuti chia was in my care again. Been a week since i warmed the R1's engine, so i took it to boonlay for band pract. Since Hini, SCC had been quite crowded.. till there wasn't place to park. In the end i made a detour to the block quite a distance away. Luckily parking is free on sundays.. so long as i don't 'accidentally' park in the season parking lot.
Again, brasses are lacking players.. but it was quite a good sectionals. My colleague joined back, and the horn section double in size. Had the chance to play the alex 130 that cost 16k! Whoa.. it sounded really good, and the higher range didn't have much ohms. A very good horn IMO, and the 130 was just the beginning. Just too bad i didn't have much intention to upgrade anymore.. if not, it really would have been another breakthrough.
Pract ended slightly earlier, and with kuti chia, i reached home just 30+ mins later. Did managed to catch a bit of "十万火急" before going out to da bao kfc for dinner. Fell asleep 20 mins after dinner.. was really too tired le.
My work issue is really taking a toll on me, and sometimes i run, sometimes i hide.. and sometimes i'm sick of it.. but all i really want is to get it right.. all i need is time.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Another Bad Day
Was really trying to find a space at work just to sit down and study.. coz i really wanted to improve on my product knowledge. Today seems to be quite a quiet day, so i thought i could disapper somewhere and continue my studies till i was called upon. Choosen an empty space above the shelves, which i always refer as the "2nd floor" and placed my netbook there. From there, i could see the whole CF.. from the front till the workbench. The only thing bad was that it was very warm.
The only bad thing.. or so i thought. Halfway, the outside worker came in. The van was damaged in an accident and so we had to take over some of the production. So i went to the "1st floor" to help out. Then i heard something being knocked over.. and it was my netbook. The netbook survived the fall, coz it landed on its side, but the usb network card was damaged. Already i tried to place it out of the way, out people, less it get stolen.. yet it just couldn't avoid mishap.
Very sian, coz it seems that there isn't a place for me in the whole CF. I don't even have a permanent place to sit. To think i'm the son of the vader.. how ironic. Now i really looked like a foreign worker.
A kid at the canteen asked my why my clothes were covered in grease.. and i wanted to tell him that it was becoz i didn't study. I didn't, coz i knew i did.
These are just some of the other things that keep accumulating. Just as i had tweeted, 冰冻三尺,非一日之寒. It didn't just occur overnight, and it wasn't just a single event that made it so.
There is a limit to endurance, and to lower it even more is to be reminded how indifferent i should be.
Things are the same, it is easy to quit, yet, if it were so, i would have cleared my sundays. Now that it was further extended to 3 pm..
Sigh.
The only bad thing.. or so i thought. Halfway, the outside worker came in. The van was damaged in an accident and so we had to take over some of the production. So i went to the "1st floor" to help out. Then i heard something being knocked over.. and it was my netbook. The netbook survived the fall, coz it landed on its side, but the usb network card was damaged. Already i tried to place it out of the way, out people, less it get stolen.. yet it just couldn't avoid mishap.
Very sian, coz it seems that there isn't a place for me in the whole CF. I don't even have a permanent place to sit. To think i'm the son of the vader.. how ironic. Now i really looked like a foreign worker.
A kid at the canteen asked my why my clothes were covered in grease.. and i wanted to tell him that it was becoz i didn't study. I didn't, coz i knew i did.
These are just some of the other things that keep accumulating. Just as i had tweeted, 冰冻三尺,非一日之寒. It didn't just occur overnight, and it wasn't just a single event that made it so.
There is a limit to endurance, and to lower it even more is to be reminded how indifferent i should be.
Things are the same, it is easy to quit, yet, if it were so, i would have cleared my sundays. Now that it was further extended to 3 pm..
Sigh.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Blue
The euphoria eroded just a day later.
Yesterday was a bad day. Woke up with a sore throat and was feeling very dizzy. Then got splashed by the hydraulic oil when cutting it. Knew it before hand that it contained quite a bit of oil, and i've been cutting it slowly.. yet it happened. I guess the best way is to drain it before hand.
I guess i must have looked very inexperienced. I hate it when people give me the smirk. Just becoz they know, and i don't. Sigh. The collar is blue, and so is my mood.
Well, it only took half a day. It is difficult to not think, but thinking alone doesn't do anything.
Today was a slightly better day.. so long as i give up the ohms.
Tired, but at least my throat was better. Also, tdbp had a mission complete. Was glad.
Yesterday was a bad day. Woke up with a sore throat and was feeling very dizzy. Then got splashed by the hydraulic oil when cutting it. Knew it before hand that it contained quite a bit of oil, and i've been cutting it slowly.. yet it happened. I guess the best way is to drain it before hand.
I guess i must have looked very inexperienced. I hate it when people give me the smirk. Just becoz they know, and i don't. Sigh. The collar is blue, and so is my mood.
Well, it only took half a day. It is difficult to not think, but thinking alone doesn't do anything.
Today was a slightly better day.. so long as i give up the ohms.
Tired, but at least my throat was better. Also, tdbp had a mission complete. Was glad.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Memorable
Indeed.
As usual, went dinning with family.. and since i'm working, it was my treat. Opted for a set dinner, and though it looks expensive (and was really so), the servings were all quite small. It didn't taste as good as it looked, and wasn't really worth it.
Mini de wor.. it was the same size as the spoon.
Had my fill and was off to st james for the usual bday celebration with my sim buddies. Had a bottle of martell left over from the last time, and then opened another one. After crubbing for so long, it was the 1st time our bottle tio kop.. was almost half full.. and really, it was a very sian feeling. Think i should have locked it with a chain or something like that. Haiz.. what to do, i was careless. Don't want to say too much liao.. maybe nobody teach them not to become thief.
In the end, another bottle was opened, and for 'revenge', it was really "tah tah tah" (tah 3 times). I think i met a very "formidable foe".. coz the level was really high. Respectable wor. The others too.. really after we all started working, we all get tired easily. Really thank them all for coming. ^^
Cake and Martell.
Forgot what time i left, coz it was almost 5am when i reached home. Intended to wake up at 10am in the morning for band practice but overslept. Bailed when no cab came after 10 mins, and also, as usual, it was time to clear all the alcohol in me. So i went home instead. Received a call, and in the end had to go for pract again. Reached and i almost puked after the ride.. think i still a bit seh. Yet, i still could play the horn.. haha.. PUI! (playing under influence). Sighted the 2 pieces and they are all quite manageable. Finally a piece choosen, and time to work toward the concert.
Met up with my buddy for dinner, and had quite a sumptuous dinner at sakae. Ordered like very huat like that, and tried quite a few new stuffs on the menu. The pepper beef was especially nice, but the curry udon wasn't. Ate quite a lot coz had skipped lunch.
Woah..
Of coz, the usual well wishes and smses that made my day even more.
All the usual stuffs, yet it was the usuals that was memorable.
As usual, went dinning with family.. and since i'm working, it was my treat. Opted for a set dinner, and though it looks expensive (and was really so), the servings were all quite small. It didn't taste as good as it looked, and wasn't really worth it.
Mini de wor.. it was the same size as the spoon.
Had my fill and was off to st james for the usual bday celebration with my sim buddies. Had a bottle of martell left over from the last time, and then opened another one. After crubbing for so long, it was the 1st time our bottle tio kop.. was almost half full.. and really, it was a very sian feeling. Think i should have locked it with a chain or something like that. Haiz.. what to do, i was careless. Don't want to say too much liao.. maybe nobody teach them not to become thief.
In the end, another bottle was opened, and for 'revenge', it was really "tah tah tah" (tah 3 times). I think i met a very "formidable foe".. coz the level was really high. Respectable wor. The others too.. really after we all started working, we all get tired easily. Really thank them all for coming. ^^
Cake and Martell.
Forgot what time i left, coz it was almost 5am when i reached home. Intended to wake up at 10am in the morning for band practice but overslept. Bailed when no cab came after 10 mins, and also, as usual, it was time to clear all the alcohol in me. So i went home instead. Received a call, and in the end had to go for pract again. Reached and i almost puked after the ride.. think i still a bit seh. Yet, i still could play the horn.. haha.. PUI! (playing under influence). Sighted the 2 pieces and they are all quite manageable. Finally a piece choosen, and time to work toward the concert.
Met up with my buddy for dinner, and had quite a sumptuous dinner at sakae. Ordered like very huat like that, and tried quite a few new stuffs on the menu. The pepper beef was especially nice, but the curry udon wasn't. Ate quite a lot coz had skipped lunch.
Woah..
Of coz, the usual well wishes and smses that made my day even more.
All the usual stuffs, yet it was the usuals that was memorable.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
A few more days to 26
Been sleeping over at grandma's place for the past 4 days coz grandpa went overseas.
Had not been sleeping well (as expected), but it's alright. I've been 'fed' quite a lot these few days. For breakfast this morning for instance, there was a bowl of oats, 1 mug of cereal, and 4 slices of bread with tuna. And really, i could use quite of bit of the extra energy.
Been quite busy at work these few days making "pipes" (which are actually hyraulic hoses), and the current task took use almost 2 days. It had nothing to do with the size of order.. just that there are really not a lot of them willing to help. For the past 2 days, my shirt was soaked in sweat most of the time. It was really very tiring.. for each pipe weighs around 30kgs or so.. and there are quite a few dozens of them. By the end of the 2 days, my hand almost turned jelly.
And i lost weight yet again..
Very fed up.. coz i can't find a reason to commit myself fully. I'm getting impatient.. but, i didn't have the experience. And experience can't be rushed.
Vader asked me if i still remembered what i've studied in school.. and i told him i've forgotten most. And being in that kind of environment, my english is getting from bad to worse.
In anycase, i don't see much of those like myself in this line.. and there must be a very good reason why.
Meanwhile, i've made my idle funds work a bit. The market is rallying again, and however greedy i am, i didn't put all eggs in one basket. It is easy to lament at the unrealised profits not made.. but what if it turned out the other way? I'm sure i'd be glad. I've done whatever i could. And maybe the only thing i could have done better is picking the ratio of the counters.
So the effect of diversifying is also diversifying away some of the unrealised profits, just as it did so with the amount of risk. (suddenly i missed the banking modules). And i just came across some of the US stocks.. they really do move a lot and either ways. 30 times if i'm not wrong.
A few more days to 26.. and i'm still acting like a kid at times.
Had not been sleeping well (as expected), but it's alright. I've been 'fed' quite a lot these few days. For breakfast this morning for instance, there was a bowl of oats, 1 mug of cereal, and 4 slices of bread with tuna. And really, i could use quite of bit of the extra energy.
Been quite busy at work these few days making "pipes" (which are actually hyraulic hoses), and the current task took use almost 2 days. It had nothing to do with the size of order.. just that there are really not a lot of them willing to help. For the past 2 days, my shirt was soaked in sweat most of the time. It was really very tiring.. for each pipe weighs around 30kgs or so.. and there are quite a few dozens of them. By the end of the 2 days, my hand almost turned jelly.
And i lost weight yet again..
Very fed up.. coz i can't find a reason to commit myself fully. I'm getting impatient.. but, i didn't have the experience. And experience can't be rushed.
Vader asked me if i still remembered what i've studied in school.. and i told him i've forgotten most. And being in that kind of environment, my english is getting from bad to worse.
In anycase, i don't see much of those like myself in this line.. and there must be a very good reason why.
Meanwhile, i've made my idle funds work a bit. The market is rallying again, and however greedy i am, i didn't put all eggs in one basket. It is easy to lament at the unrealised profits not made.. but what if it turned out the other way? I'm sure i'd be glad. I've done whatever i could. And maybe the only thing i could have done better is picking the ratio of the counters.
So the effect of diversifying is also diversifying away some of the unrealised profits, just as it did so with the amount of risk. (suddenly i missed the banking modules). And i just came across some of the US stocks.. they really do move a lot and either ways. 30 times if i'm not wrong.
A few more days to 26.. and i'm still acting like a kid at times.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
111009
Staying over at grandma's house for a week coz grandpa went overseas.
Finally i can put my $15/mth mobile broadband into good use. My initial plan to double it up with a duo sim card failed coz that BB had its own gprs system. Even more sian was that it refuse to take in the mobile broadband sim card, which had unlimited connection. So in the end, i was stuck with an additional contract for 2 years.. while my BB had only 1 GB of data to spend.
So now i'm using the mobile broadband on my netbook, and blogging coz i really had nothing much to do. Spent quite a few moments going through some of the specs of some inventories, and got headache. There is really too much to know, and really, i'm still more interested in finance than engineering. Well, what to do? I might be living on the expectations, and as a result, the level of interest fluctuates greatly for the past month or so.
Performed some dangerous "stuns" to vent my frustrations at the fact that it is a fact. And really, it is slowly consuming me.
I don't know what is it that prevented me from letting it go.. perhaps it was my education. It felt like a mockery thus far, of all my effort (if any) till what am i today. Seriously, i know this is not what i've set out to be. I couldn't have care less of the scope and the nature, but now, i wished i can enjoy what i do.
A new found 'aggression' to speed things up.. however slow it might be.
Been losing interest in the coming band performance coz of the level of participation. The week before already showed how time could be wasted (travelling already took the bulk of it), and seriously, nothing was accomplished at all. This week, the same happened.. but was pre-emped. Of all, only one could make it.. and just like the week before, nothing can be done with missing parts. This is especially so for chamber music.. It might just be the thing needed to drive people away.
Anyway, just take it as another day for me to rest. The hands-on 6 days work is taking a serious toll on me.
Finally i can put my $15/mth mobile broadband into good use. My initial plan to double it up with a duo sim card failed coz that BB had its own gprs system. Even more sian was that it refuse to take in the mobile broadband sim card, which had unlimited connection. So in the end, i was stuck with an additional contract for 2 years.. while my BB had only 1 GB of data to spend.
So now i'm using the mobile broadband on my netbook, and blogging coz i really had nothing much to do. Spent quite a few moments going through some of the specs of some inventories, and got headache. There is really too much to know, and really, i'm still more interested in finance than engineering. Well, what to do? I might be living on the expectations, and as a result, the level of interest fluctuates greatly for the past month or so.
Performed some dangerous "stuns" to vent my frustrations at the fact that it is a fact. And really, it is slowly consuming me.
I don't know what is it that prevented me from letting it go.. perhaps it was my education. It felt like a mockery thus far, of all my effort (if any) till what am i today. Seriously, i know this is not what i've set out to be. I couldn't have care less of the scope and the nature, but now, i wished i can enjoy what i do.
A new found 'aggression' to speed things up.. however slow it might be.
Been losing interest in the coming band performance coz of the level of participation. The week before already showed how time could be wasted (travelling already took the bulk of it), and seriously, nothing was accomplished at all. This week, the same happened.. but was pre-emped. Of all, only one could make it.. and just like the week before, nothing can be done with missing parts. This is especially so for chamber music.. It might just be the thing needed to drive people away.
Anyway, just take it as another day for me to rest. The hands-on 6 days work is taking a serious toll on me.
Friday, October 02, 2009
The Way it is (2)
After resting for a week, i'm finally back to work.
Prior, i attended some sort of a conference with the vader the day before, and it was really tiring. 7 hours of 'lectures' is really tiring.. plus the food is really cmi.. haha.. makes me wonder if they are sincere or not.
Anyway, i was just there to 'see see look look' and then i realised my well was really too narrow.
All i had was was the lqbz albb experience i had for the past 10 months.. and between engineering and finance, something must have gone very wrong during my decision making process.
Sometimes it isn't so much of the job, but really the people there.
Knowing something is of no use politically. Letting everybody know is.. even if there is no credit involved. The more got dragon and got tiger, the better it is.
Didn't want to say anymore.. this is going to be a vicious cycle.
Prior, i attended some sort of a conference with the vader the day before, and it was really tiring. 7 hours of 'lectures' is really tiring.. plus the food is really cmi.. haha.. makes me wonder if they are sincere or not.
Anyway, i was just there to 'see see look look' and then i realised my well was really too narrow.
All i had was was the lqbz albb experience i had for the past 10 months.. and between engineering and finance, something must have gone very wrong during my decision making process.
Sometimes it isn't so much of the job, but really the people there.
Knowing something is of no use politically. Letting everybody know is.. even if there is no credit involved. The more got dragon and got tiger, the better it is.
Didn't want to say anymore.. this is going to be a vicious cycle.
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