Time to Rest

I couldn't believe it.. spent the whole day at home sleeping! Having a total of 14 hrs of sleep today.. i must have been very tired working for a whole month.. haha.. finally a time for me to rest.

Last Day of Work Again

Eh.. This 1 is for Miss Sim:

9th of February - Went NYDC with the excos, both new and old of the welfare department. (That is, JJ, ML, GQ, Alvin, Alan and Miss Sim XX) Chosen the one at Orchard, and seems that i couldn't get away from that place even on an 'off' day.

Intended to use the $60 voucher from my birthday to treat the incoming welfare exco.. but coz that ml got don't know what discount card or something like that, then we can't use it.. argh~ so till now, the voucher is still with me.. haiz. In the end, we split the bill among the old exco.. haha.. as a gesture of appreciation for their Parker Pens.. aww~

And then.. it was KTV again! Hahaa.. but then, i realised my singing really very er xin.. haha.. so seldom K nowadays..

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Back to 26th of Feb:

Last day of work! Went straight to work from BT's place coz 'camped' for mj the night before.. had a special 'guest' to join us for mj.. and in the end, i lost $10 + playing 10 - 20 cents.. waaah.. very unlucky i guess.. or rather, our guest is very pro..

But still it was a great game! Haha.. only very tiring coz went to work the day before and had to go the work the following day.. arh..

At the workplace.. everyone seems to be in a very bad mood.. though a lot of 'fishes'.. but still it wasn't enough to please the fishermen.. Sure looks scary.. and a lot of conflicts at Five-Two.. luckily i'm at Five-Seven.. so today.. the Elder Sis butter everyone in sight.. waah.. but i was spared.. haha.. maybe becoz it was my last day of work..

From the end of sales till now.. i didn't cash in any from my brand.. all was done while i was away.. so it was as if they no need my services.. and hence i've decided to take a break.. And maybe perhaps.. my duty there was to kio sai.... followed customers to the carpark 2 times today.. and i didn't sell anything at all!

Feeling very tired now.. coz was too free these few days.. plus saw a lot of things.. then my brain did me some 'great services' again.. haiz.. time to watch tv and sleep soon.. studies shall wait till monday morning.. Didn't intend to go for classes tomorrow.. well.. to the rest, good luck for mocks!

Another Thursday!

Waah.. haha.. it's been a while. Wasn't something that i could abuse anymore.. maybe time. Maybe age. I'm just glad that i made it thus 'far'..

I like Thursday! My only 'off' day.. and i could 'catch up' with everybody.. of coz.. TS too! Many hours of TS.. and all of them have leveled up!... argh.. haha.. now i'm lousy.. kept losing.... and speaking of TS.. think i forgot to add to my want list.. haha.. that is TS Table.. (a bit weird.. coz it means table soccer table.. haha).. the issue: space.. haha.. maybe get it when i set up my own family?

The joke of the day: Anaconda.. waahahaa.. joked about it and its eggs.. waahahaa... we are just plain 'evil'.

Went Holland V with ex vp Geoff.. that place.. i still don't know whats the name.. hahaa.. But the Erdinger is good! i mean, it was a reasonable price.. $13.50 for a pint.. or rather, for 2 pints coz of 1 for 1.. waaaah! Alcoholic me? I do agree to a certain extent.. but so long as i don't abuse.. and exercise 'mind over matter'.. its great to chill out once in a while.. of coz, i realised the 'economic implications' and the health hazards. So no worries.. lol.. i know what i'm not getting into.

So the trio JJ, Ml and JW went to BT's place for a 'tudy camp' plus mj session.. haha.. tempted to go.. but i want to be less wilful.. haha.. so i held till sat.. haha.. no any better... but then it shall be enough already.

Anyway, said a lot.. and rack up lots of past.. and i just want to summarized.. what we are today.. is just due to the chain of events.. so long as something or nothing happens.. we can be sure, it will definately affect out future.. no matter what.. so now, i must tread carefully..

Maybe Really

Maybe really is the case? .. i had enough 'therories' already..

But today was a great day.. though a bit guilty for not attending lectures. They cost $50 per lessons.. and i just earned $42 per day. hmm.. the OC seems to be quite a lot.

Rather fed up last night because was asked to stand in at the taka counter today.. didn't quite like that place.. haha.. i still prefer cp. Though a bit strict at cp, i really had lots of friends there.. as i said, they are the so-called colleagues.. it seems, there are more of a friend to me.

Saw some familiar faces at taka.. haha.. and it really off sets the previous night's mood.

Went 'shopping' today during lunch.. or rather, dinner.. was already 6 pm when i set off.. so i 'thwang' until 7.30pm.. haha.. and i bought a bag! Finally.. i can see my 'work' being actualize. But it doesn't come cheap.. at 5 day's worth of work.. and my list just keeps adding.

Buying can be addictive.. and now on my list (not in any order) : laptop (hopefully an i-book.. but i'm having second thoughts.. maybe just a 'normal' notebook will do.) , i-pod nano, lego train set, BMW 3 series, LV wallet, a new desktop, plus a lot more books and other stuffs.. haha.. of all, the 3 series seems impossible.. but now i feel like getting a car.

In order to support my inflated dream.. even the $800 'bonus' doesn't seems to be enough. So i had to find a job.. or even hold a career. So now i'm lobbying outside MLM.. haha.. friends beware! but then again.. hard selling doesn't suit me.. well, maybe take it as another learning experience? Haha.. considering the 'free' sales lessons they are offering.. i think it's worth it!

But put that on hold 1st.. my exams comes 1st. So today i told my colleague.. i wanted to end my 'contract' 2 days eariler.. that means my last day of work will be this Sunday.. no wonder i'm so delighted!

Didn't know what happen.. seems like trying a lot of new different ways to look at things.. and in ways that doesn't support my principles.. but i just want to explore. Maybe .. just maybe, there might be another path.

Up And Running..

Finally! Got my comp up and running... which spells trouble. And for me, it's been another rollercoaster ride. I don't know.. maybe i'm just too tired.

Things i forbid myself, i couldn't help. Or maybe was the wilful self again? It seems: i know no limits. And before any other things else starts.. something has to end.

Totally disappointed in myself. I thought i knew a lot.. but it seems i only know enough to harm myself.. just 4 days ago, it was so much different. Was full of myself.. even though was defeated in TS.. and got the motivation to study.. and i really did revision. But it just seems so different now.. perhaps i was expecting too much.

Left 9 more days to go.. before my 'contract' expires.. and i shall be glad.

It's been a hectic month. Worked all day.. but had built such a great rapport with my so-called colleagues.. and had been receiving lunch and dinner treats from my supervisor. I should be happy.. and i though i was.

Had been thinking.. perhaps a bit too much, on the past.. from distant to recent.. And i saw a familiar pattern.. haiz.. things just keeps repeating so long as i am who i was. Thought going to work on full throttle would somehow keep me busy, somehow make me immune, somehow much me realise something. I only realise, it doesn't perform all these tasks.

I've ran out of ways to reformat this hardisk of mine..

And then came my comp again.. haha.. i'm just very foolish. Kept insisting on my way.. even though it could ruin me. It is the same as always.. the same as always.

But then again... i will continue to find other means.. perhaps more user friendly ways. It isn't my choice.. or rather, do i have a choice in the 1st place?

Mocks coming.. i said i wanted to take.. and i only had 3 days before the commence of the the 1st paper.. maybe after all, i won't turn up at all.

Whatever.

Come Friday

Everyone is talking about friday. The school kids will get back their 'o' levels result, and even though i've gotten my results ages ago, i can't help but feel anxious. The reason: the toto 10 million draw opens on friday!

So today at my workplace, i placed 'some' bets on quick pick.. sure it was quick, but the numbers don't turn out nice though. A lot of numbers to check.. i do hope to win.. and when i win, i'll quit my job and get my ipod. But it isn't easy. 8 million combination.. and anyone else could win it with a 50 cents quick pick.. the more people buy, the more the prize is shared among. But at least this is something for me to hope. And maybe for all others who had bought.

Workaholic these days.. worked overtime till 11 plus at night. The time of the year where all the sales end, wagon being kept, gondola being set up. Though i have nothing to keep, nothing to set up, i stayed according to my own will.. i guess i'm just plain dumb. I won't get OT pay since my manager knew i need not stay.. i also don't know. Work seems the only thing in my life now.

Maybe was some bad luck or what.. got a cut on my palm while trying to keep a ladder. And it was a deep cut.. plus the skin was dangling.. and haiz.. just didn't concentrate for a moment and this sort of thing happen.

Marketing tomorrow.. supposed to have a 'test' tomorrow.. but i didn't have the time to study.. don't know whether to go or not.. maybe should study and see how? I sort of 'missed' school.. and of coz, TS too.. haha.. Thankfully, i'll be in school the whole toopid day.. coz FI shifted to the 7 pm slot.. and full day in school means no rest for me. And come friday, i'll slog through at work again... and the whole cycle starts before i can 'enjoy' my 'break' on the coming thursday.. haiz.

Butter!

I don't know.. it seems i'm about to lose myself.

Feeling very tired these days.. lack of sleep, lack of time, lack of energy. Work has taken its toll. And i know that this shouldn't be what i'm asking for.. yet it seems, i can't stop myself anymore. Days ago, my manager came toCP.. sort of to get her consignment PO.. but it's been a long time since she showed any 'concern'.. i thought she had left me there to rot.. haha.. to we promoters, what we asked for is support from the office, in terms of stocks, leave and so on.. but more often than not, we are taken for granted.. just because our job isn't specialize.. we are treated like da bian, ma yi, and so on..

So today, our department supervisor kena the butter by the floor manager.. said something nasty.. and i think they have something against her. Just because her pay is high, they want to make things difficult.. so today, saw something rather disturbing..

Past 2 days, didn't fork out a cent for my lunch.. i got treated.. 1st by ah pek, and then by my supervisor.. and they really treat.. my meal cost $17!! when my supervisor treat me and a fellow promoter.. waaah.. we all so paiseh.. so don't blame me for sideing her.. haha.. my brain is washed.

So the past 2 days, skipped all lessons.. coz i was too tired to wake up.. and then thinking of going to work after school makes me more sian.. but then, i felt very guilty.. argh!.. so stressed till all the pimples come out.

My manager asked me if i need someone to share my work.. and for no reason, i said no need.. how stupid.. i could study for the mocks.. argh.. i don't know.. i don't know.. just another 21 days to the end.. i do hope i'll make it.

It's Luck!

Hmmm.. my luck is weird nowadays. But it's not bad already. Maybe taking a break from my bad karma? Hoped my vacation doesn't end so soon.

Today i received a red packet at my work place today~ Waahaaa.. finally.. and it wasn't from my boss.. it was from a fellow promoter. I'm so touched.. so actually money isn't everything.. but it was something that people find it hard to part with.. especially for lowly paid jobs like us. And after that, it doesn't matter if the sale was zero for a saturday.

But it was really zero.. and i had to left early. Woke up early, work early, and then left early. Was out in Orchard Road by 6.30pm.. and there was a crowd waiting for Chingay to start.. sort of reminds me of someone.. anyway, it's getting grey.

Reached Don's place at around 7.30pm.. and actually didn't stayed for long.. coz got to work tomorrow.. but then it was very fun.. haha.. coz the ex excos getting together.. it was blissful! Well.. it could be better if everyone turns up? Haha.. but that will do.

Am i Dumb Or What?

Thursday - 02 feb: Went school for a full day.. and the night before, we had an agreement, those who came after 9.30am would have to treat the whole group lunch.. and for once, all came so early.. haha.. so it really works huh.

Went FI after such a long break.. and i don't catch any ball at all.. wondering what is the lecturer teaching.. getting worried about my results.. haiz. But was really looking forward to Thursday.. coz it was the only day where i get my 'off'.. and also the only day where i could stay in school and see my friends... of coz not forgetting Table Soccer (TS) !.. but then, the whole world knew of the 'cheat code'.. so it was getting boring waiting for a chance..

And then after a full day in school, met up with wm and anni to jam.. after about half a year.. we got together to 'practice' again.. but then we were very lousy.. compared to the band next room.. haha.. so we made up a lot of excuses and jokes to cover ourselves. Before we left, the uncle gave us 3 packets of drinks.. said it was 'complimentary'.. hahaa.. then we were wondering.. maybe he gave us drinks so as to 'beg' us not to go back again? .. lol. Finally wm agreed to let go of drumming.. haha.. so we are now looking for a drummer.. we are having 2 guitarist.. so should be alright.

While on the way home.. saw someone from my secondary school.. wanted to avoid alighting at the same busstop, i went to wm's place for a short visit.. and at the sam time bai nian.. at around 11pm = =. But it wasn't my intention.. but still, his mom gave me a red packet.. haha.. so pai seh.. lol.

Friday - 03 Feb: Slept till late noon.. before having a 'haircut' and going to bt's place for gathering. And then it was a mistake to cut my hair.. as always. I now looked koo koo again.. haha.. but then wait till my work 'contract' ends.. i should be going to have a botak head.. lol.

Reached bt's place by cab.. the journey is very long by bus.. so had to 'invest' a bit.. afterall, the gathering at bt's place was to 'bai nian'.. or in english, to gamble. Overall, think i had won some.. or maybe i lost some? haha.. i don't really know.. but then it was very fun! Small win at mahjong too.. haha.. so i rather play mj then blackjack.

Think it was becoz i seldom see the people in school nowadays.. or maybe i don't know.. but it's great to hang out with friends (and i mean a lot of them) once in a while.. and sometimes, having them for support really comforts a lot. Saw almost the whole of welfare department get together.. with the different years taking part.. ohh.. haha.. today we also celebrated our newly elected Head of Welfare's birthday.. so good to have so many people celebrate birthday with.

So played mj till 1.30am.. argh.. and then we left for home. Special thanks to Mr salty for sponsoring the cab fare, and also those who 'unwillingly contrubuted' to his wallet.. hahaa..

So i did went home today, never stay at bt's place.. haha.. though i'm wilful.. and i know it, i guess i've slowly beginning to realise something. Maybe then, there are some things that never change. But then these few days.. i don't know what happened.. it was arrogance and aggression taking over.. hopefully these things don't become a part of me..

But then, i wondered.. how come people like to tripod.. haiz.. and those kena tripod-ed chose to believe too.. a great 'survival' strategy.. but then it was only for the way up during work.. towards friends.. where else can we go? But then again.. some people are just like that, and will never change.. by telling them the facts, i'm actually being seen as no manners.. what the? I do agree.. i said things in a crude and sarcastic way.. my fault too.. haha.. aiya.. to each of their own ba.. don't come and disturb my life.

Seeing things i don't want to see.. and choosing to ignore.. or maybe forget.. or maybe it just don't matter anymore? Sometimes i really feel very shitty over certain things the are actually very simple and worthless.. but to me, it meant a lot.. not the kind where outsiders can understand easily.. and not only that, they have no rights to intervene.. but still people want to pull and others want to push.. it was black, then white, then black again, and then white again.. till the whole area became grey.

Haha.. the whole entry shifted the whole focus.. LOL.. i was too stressed up over exams, work and all other smaller and greater things. And for the don't know how many times.. Not that i don't want to quit.. i'm just being stubborn.. held to my so called principles.. just because my manager can't find anyone to take over.. so i assumed responsibility.. haha.. am i dumb or what?

Guess i'm just dumb.

Where is the Time?

Who says i couldn't sell? Haha.. just because i was sick doesn't mean that they can ride over.. just because i was doing part-time doesn't mean that my job isn't important. And just because.. doesn't give them to treat me as an ant. (something that i learnt from the ah pek.. muahaa).. anyway, closed some sales today.. especially on a very very very quiet day like wednesday.. the sale is going to be over pretty soon.. those looking for bedlinen should act quick.. or else had to wait till GSS.. which is half a year away.. me myself? I don't want to make my house look good.. the only thing i want is an ipod.. haha.. especially gian since my cousin showed me.. and i think... i should need one.. if not i kept listening to the same song over and over and over again. Currently playing 'love in the first degree' and 'creep'.. haha.. i think i got to need more than that.. especially the exams are coming.

Today at the selling floor: it was very very boring. As expected.. another quiet day.. and quieter days ahead.. haha.. one of my colleague was transfered to Taka.. so i was more bored than ever.. haha.. and then the whole world seems to work the morning shift.. so it was super quiet at 8pm. But today i saw something that i shouldn't see.. argh.. my eyes!

Then it was to MOS again.. with my working attire.. hahaa.. i looked so weird.. and then it was with the usual ones plus ismond. Told myself to cut down, especailly when the bah kua burned my throat.. but it seems behaving that way isn't the right way.. since i was already at the club. Nevertheless.. i didn't really drink a lot.. which i'm really glad.

And don't know for what reason.. the wilful self wasn't there today.. maybe because of work commitments.. or maybe my brain have grown. Whatever the case.. i still knows what comes first. Time is short, especially when something is round the corner.. (i mean exams.. in case you all think too much).. and looking at my schedule.. it seems.. i have no time for other things. In total i have 4 weeks.. meaning i have 1 week for each topic.. how can that be? Argh.. i want to break free. But then again.. i'm in a heavy debt.. so had to cleared it 1st..

Anyway.. i think they all ki siao already la.. maybe new year lost too much money.. want to kah people who go late for marketing tomorrow.. so now the time is 3.30am.. in another 4 hour's time, i should be waking up.. if not i'll treat the whole witizens lunch.. hopefully i'll wake up in time tomorrow.. haiz.. still having full day lessons.. plus.. jamming tomorrow! Argh.. i don't have enough time.. i don't have enough time.. i don't have enough time.. but then again.. time seems to pass so smoothly these days.. which of coz, i'm glad!