Butter!

I don't know.. it seems i'm about to lose myself.

Feeling very tired these days.. lack of sleep, lack of time, lack of energy. Work has taken its toll. And i know that this shouldn't be what i'm asking for.. yet it seems, i can't stop myself anymore. Days ago, my manager came toCP.. sort of to get her consignment PO.. but it's been a long time since she showed any 'concern'.. i thought she had left me there to rot.. haha.. to we promoters, what we asked for is support from the office, in terms of stocks, leave and so on.. but more often than not, we are taken for granted.. just because our job isn't specialize.. we are treated like da bian, ma yi, and so on..

So today, our department supervisor kena the butter by the floor manager.. said something nasty.. and i think they have something against her. Just because her pay is high, they want to make things difficult.. so today, saw something rather disturbing..

Past 2 days, didn't fork out a cent for my lunch.. i got treated.. 1st by ah pek, and then by my supervisor.. and they really treat.. my meal cost $17!! when my supervisor treat me and a fellow promoter.. waaah.. we all so paiseh.. so don't blame me for sideing her.. haha.. my brain is washed.

So the past 2 days, skipped all lessons.. coz i was too tired to wake up.. and then thinking of going to work after school makes me more sian.. but then, i felt very guilty.. argh!.. so stressed till all the pimples come out.

My manager asked me if i need someone to share my work.. and for no reason, i said no need.. how stupid.. i could study for the mocks.. argh.. i don't know.. i don't know.. just another 21 days to the end.. i do hope i'll make it.