Was a rather busy week.. from morning till evening, assignments kept coming in, and OTed till i clock a 14 hour work day. 14 hour.. i could have work 2 days elsewhere.. that is, with a 1.5 hours lunch break.
Work until whole body turned jelly, and i had taken ill for the past 2 days or so. Hated it when i had a runny nose.. coz my hands were too dirty to do anything about it.
Sometimes, i find it hard not to compare. Is it really worth sacrificing everything for? There are things kept only within the village, and coz work and home no longer had the distinction, i find it hard to be profession about this. This really is kind of depressing. The sole reason that binds me to the co. is the village bond.. and should anything happen (again), i will sure quit.
"Give a Man a Fish, Feed Him For a Day. Teach a Man to Fish, Feed Him For a Lifetime." It was said that i am being trained.. and as a bonus, i was given the fishing rod too.. plus, the pond was there as well. But, the rod is faulty, and the pond, god knows how many fishes are left..
After 20 years, the men are weary.. and the equipment are faulty. Some staffs nua nua, while others think they sud sud. A very disorganised small co, and to have any potential to move on, things had to change. Either its the mentality, or the staff. Also, due to negligence or wear and tear, most of the equipment are coming apart.. the vehicles, the machines and all. Its just like fighting war with unorganised troops and blunt weapons. Defeat is definite.
My allegiance, as i said, works on a bond only. I would give everything, could go all out. Even if it means working 16 hours a day, even burning all my saturdays, i still will fight on. Yet, i will never tolerate any disturbance to the village.
Yet, the work load for the past 2 weeks were really very heavy.. non-stop till the body ache never got time to heal. And as usual, anger and frustration sets in, coz i don't understand how come people can reap what others sow.. while conveniently convincing themselves that they are the ones that are doing all the sowing. IMO, actual reaping off people. And work doesn't stop there. It spilled over to home..
I need to be convinced. Coz i'm not the only one being affected. Seeing what was sent to my msn in the middle of night really makes me wonder what all these i'm doing is for really.
I think i had said enough.. while i don't know how things will develop, things shouldn't be too bad.
Yesterday was our co. year end dinner. It was very nice to see all the staffs and their families coming together. And the vader being the boss isn't stingy too. We had quite a sumptous dinner, with roast pig, sea cucumber, sharks fin, abalone and lobsters.. i can see that some of the staffs are really happy. And they are the ones that will stay and give. Saw and felt, and i'll remember. Said i would post pics of the dinner here.. but i guess i won't.
Dinner was heavy, and waited till 1 am before turning in for the day.. woke up rather early on a sunday coz was having an item for MG at boonlay. In the end i was late also.. haha.. still didn't breakthrough.
Thought the performance was rather short.. and i think the audience also didn't realise that it would be so short. But after the performance, heard from some of them that it was kind of nice.. and it was so motivating. I guess this serves the purpose, and just a simple piece will do.
And so, the weekend is short.. before i realise, its already over.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
大地回春夏秋冬
Woke up as early on a sunday and went morning gongyo at boonlay with sis.
After mg, went mac at gek poh for breakfast. The cappuccino was nice.. well, at least better than their normal coffee. Their normal coffee really buay lim.. so had to part with a dollar to get the 'upgrade'. Sis was so nice as to give me a treat =)
The BB went flat. It was very inconvenient without my hp, and more so without a BB. I've taken it to be my organiser, my watch, my dictionary, my street directory, my newspaper, my msn, my iris, my web browser, my mp3 player, my camera, my torchlight..
Our band director arranged a cny piece "大地回春" for us to try, and i thought it sound quite unique.. in a nice way i mean. For a band so small in size, and able to diversify the sound, it is no easy task. Of coz, the melody line sounded a bit thin without doubling. We can do more with more players of coz. As to where to get the players, it is for the management to decide. As a member, of coz i hoped to have a larger band to play in.. but even if they decided on the contrary, i'll still do my best, and hope for the best.
Next week, and we might have a performance after mg.. i wondered how will the members feel. Hopefully it will bring them joy.. for this is what really matters.
After mg, went mac at gek poh for breakfast. The cappuccino was nice.. well, at least better than their normal coffee. Their normal coffee really buay lim.. so had to part with a dollar to get the 'upgrade'. Sis was so nice as to give me a treat =)
The BB went flat. It was very inconvenient without my hp, and more so without a BB. I've taken it to be my organiser, my watch, my dictionary, my street directory, my newspaper, my msn, my iris, my web browser, my mp3 player, my camera, my torchlight..
Our band director arranged a cny piece "大地回春" for us to try, and i thought it sound quite unique.. in a nice way i mean. For a band so small in size, and able to diversify the sound, it is no easy task. Of coz, the melody line sounded a bit thin without doubling. We can do more with more players of coz. As to where to get the players, it is for the management to decide. As a member, of coz i hoped to have a larger band to play in.. but even if they decided on the contrary, i'll still do my best, and hope for the best.
Next week, and we might have a performance after mg.. i wondered how will the members feel. Hopefully it will bring them joy.. for this is what really matters.
Electric Dream
The past week was really busy at work. Consignment to rush, plus a shortage of staff at the CF ended up with me taking the bulk of the production. I wondered what is wrong with the allocation.. perhaps the rest are "untouchables", or perhaps they have some form of immunity. In the end, it was always the few that got arrowed.
Suan le. I know i did my part. The rest of the nua bugs and alien i'll wait till the time is right. I've seen, and i know. I will remember. I will make it right if i have the chance.
Work till my body ache every single day. Couldn't get quality sleep and ended up having nightmares consecutively.
Nightmare 1:
Of ah tiang driving me around to places. (Erm.. i don't know how to classify this, but i woke up feeling as if i had lost something dear)
Nightmare 2:
Of death and funeral. (This one is quite scary.. really)
Nightmare 3:
Of running to a destination, yet was helpless coz i lost my way. Asked for direction from a kin, but was being denied. (Helpless.. even in my dream)
Are these dreams related? Or just random thoughts by day, and nightmares by night?
Suan le. I know i did my part. The rest of the nua bugs and alien i'll wait till the time is right. I've seen, and i know. I will remember. I will make it right if i have the chance.
Work till my body ache every single day. Couldn't get quality sleep and ended up having nightmares consecutively.
Nightmare 1:
Of ah tiang driving me around to places. (Erm.. i don't know how to classify this, but i woke up feeling as if i had lost something dear)
Nightmare 2:
Of death and funeral. (This one is quite scary.. really)
Nightmare 3:
Of running to a destination, yet was helpless coz i lost my way. Asked for direction from a kin, but was being denied. (Helpless.. even in my dream)
Are these dreams related? Or just random thoughts by day, and nightmares by night?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I am Tired. Really.
Things happened at the co. these days, and was something not worth cheering for.
The internal strife started again, and in front of outsiders and customers, a conflict ensues.
I wondered why they just can't get the act together, and perhaps some are really from outer space. It was fault at both sides, and in the end the 'punishment' was meted on me.
It all started from a cmi inventory management, which in theory could be one of the best. Yet as the world is, nothing is foreseeable. With a 'just in time' method, there bound to be 'out of stock' situations. It all translates to lost sales and time wasting. Either we didn't had the goods to supply, or we had to waste strength to modify and reuse. This is super inefficient, considering the size of the co. Yet, some just don't understand.. what we studied is always in ideal conditions.. the rest is up for the individual to decide. To be rigid is to lose the war.. coz never will one battle be the same. Variables are just too many to permutate.
Sometimes, the way some people do things are just too difficult for me to fathom. And to work with them takes much of my energy away. I spent much of my time boiling my blood in a pressure cooker coz a full-scale confrontation will only make the source more resilient to change. Maybe someday i'll just explode like what my colleague did.
Yet, the real source was inefficient time management. There were too much to be done, either through assuming too many duties or wasting too much time doing unnecessary things. In the end there wasn't time to go through. All procedures are in place, yet it was not bothered. Either that, or there is isn't 'enough time'.
I think the vader thinks i had too much time on hand.. lol.. or there isn't really anyone else to delegate the task to. Hence, i ended up with one more duty, on top of a lot of other lqbz things to do.
I'm tired not really becoz of the things i need to do at work.. though they are really physically and mentally tiring. The real reason is that this co. is so messy that it is always very pek cek to work in. Internally, people don't get along, people not wanting to do their tasks, and a lot of other weird things going on. Plus external factors of increased competition and some customers coming in with their own stocks, i wonder really where this is taking me to. I just don't see it, and really is quite stress to be in.
Already steps are in for improvement, and the newest was the plan to introduce dot max printers.. LOL.. though other biz had been using it for aeons. Well, at least it was better than typewriters i supposed. Wanted to use laser printer (we already had one there), but there was concern that the ink will be too expensive in the long run.. but the paper itself is more expensive.. which is of coz. It won't be a surprise if i had to source for a dot max printers one of these days.
Implemented some stock management on my side, and slowly the introduction of stock cards.. that is after i've done counting the physical stock (once again) and print out the cards, plus updating and all that.. on top of making pipes and attending to customers and computer troubleshooting, sweeping the floor, ordering stocks, plus other misc things. There isn't a lot really, only an average of 10 hours of work everyday for 6 days. And i wonder why i am so tired.
There is an option, that is to computerised everything from top down. Yet it is very expensive and not really that flexible to suit the needs of the co. In that case, there will be an overview of stocks from the stores to the mobile. Actually there are inventory systems out there, everywhere. Just that ours are too unique.. till it was sometimes very complicated. To diy is just too time consuming for me.. coz i'm a finance student.
Anyway, my name card is WIP, and i chose not to put any title on it.. my experience is still not worthy of my post, and my degree is not worthy of my job. To not make a mockery, it shall be the same as the rest of them.
I guess this was a move to pre-emp me from taking leave to study.. lol.. i had plans to go on no-pay leave to study something. This is to make this new knowledge applicable to the co. while at the same time perhaps create diversification from the core biz that is facing increasing competiton.
I'm still fortunate now, that there is still time for me to try.. wait a few more years when everything is more or less settled, then the risk will be too high.
The internal strife started again, and in front of outsiders and customers, a conflict ensues.
I wondered why they just can't get the act together, and perhaps some are really from outer space. It was fault at both sides, and in the end the 'punishment' was meted on me.
It all started from a cmi inventory management, which in theory could be one of the best. Yet as the world is, nothing is foreseeable. With a 'just in time' method, there bound to be 'out of stock' situations. It all translates to lost sales and time wasting. Either we didn't had the goods to supply, or we had to waste strength to modify and reuse. This is super inefficient, considering the size of the co. Yet, some just don't understand.. what we studied is always in ideal conditions.. the rest is up for the individual to decide. To be rigid is to lose the war.. coz never will one battle be the same. Variables are just too many to permutate.
Sometimes, the way some people do things are just too difficult for me to fathom. And to work with them takes much of my energy away. I spent much of my time boiling my blood in a pressure cooker coz a full-scale confrontation will only make the source more resilient to change. Maybe someday i'll just explode like what my colleague did.
Yet, the real source was inefficient time management. There were too much to be done, either through assuming too many duties or wasting too much time doing unnecessary things. In the end there wasn't time to go through. All procedures are in place, yet it was not bothered. Either that, or there is isn't 'enough time'.
I think the vader thinks i had too much time on hand.. lol.. or there isn't really anyone else to delegate the task to. Hence, i ended up with one more duty, on top of a lot of other lqbz things to do.
I'm tired not really becoz of the things i need to do at work.. though they are really physically and mentally tiring. The real reason is that this co. is so messy that it is always very pek cek to work in. Internally, people don't get along, people not wanting to do their tasks, and a lot of other weird things going on. Plus external factors of increased competition and some customers coming in with their own stocks, i wonder really where this is taking me to. I just don't see it, and really is quite stress to be in.
Already steps are in for improvement, and the newest was the plan to introduce dot max printers.. LOL.. though other biz had been using it for aeons. Well, at least it was better than typewriters i supposed. Wanted to use laser printer (we already had one there), but there was concern that the ink will be too expensive in the long run.. but the paper itself is more expensive.. which is of coz. It won't be a surprise if i had to source for a dot max printers one of these days.
Implemented some stock management on my side, and slowly the introduction of stock cards.. that is after i've done counting the physical stock (once again) and print out the cards, plus updating and all that.. on top of making pipes and attending to customers and computer troubleshooting, sweeping the floor, ordering stocks, plus other misc things. There isn't a lot really, only an average of 10 hours of work everyday for 6 days. And i wonder why i am so tired.
There is an option, that is to computerised everything from top down. Yet it is very expensive and not really that flexible to suit the needs of the co. In that case, there will be an overview of stocks from the stores to the mobile. Actually there are inventory systems out there, everywhere. Just that ours are too unique.. till it was sometimes very complicated. To diy is just too time consuming for me.. coz i'm a finance student.
Anyway, my name card is WIP, and i chose not to put any title on it.. my experience is still not worthy of my post, and my degree is not worthy of my job. To not make a mockery, it shall be the same as the rest of them.
I guess this was a move to pre-emp me from taking leave to study.. lol.. i had plans to go on no-pay leave to study something. This is to make this new knowledge applicable to the co. while at the same time perhaps create diversification from the core biz that is facing increasing competiton.
I'm still fortunate now, that there is still time for me to try.. wait a few more years when everything is more or less settled, then the risk will be too high.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Walk Walk
Woke up way before i was supposed to on a sunday. My bio clock was more or less set.
Very much wanted to stay home, but in the end decided to go for band pract. The brasses have improved overall, and it was all to the credit of playing intensively during last week. Well, a bit too intensively i guess.. coz we started pract at 11 while the performance was at 3 plus.
I still liked the 179 more than my 190. The 179 was easier to control and pitch, but the tone colour was quite limited. My 190 was still quite difficult even after 10 years.
Nice pieces they tried for the pract, and it was quite like secondary school days.
I still feel that practices are important.. especially to practice together. Disliked playing alone.. coz i can always do that at home. A rushed performance holds no meaning at all. Last minute preparation always makes me very tired. Well, perhaps the word "no" and "stagnant" cannot be justified at all. I am just frustrated at how things kept repeating.
And i know.
Alighted at kovan and began to search for a particular fast food joint.. sadly, the heartland mall was too small, and i couldn't find what i wanted.
Travelled on NEA and alighted at serangoon.. only to discover it was as barren. By the time, it was already 2pm.. and my stomach was conditioned to be fed before this time. I took for granted that there should be a huge shopping mall at every mrt station.. lol.. and i ended up walking quite a bit trying to find something to eat.
Found, and settled down with a book after lunch. After i started working, i couldn't find time to read.. at least not leisurely. Was meeting my buddy for coffee at 4, and so had a bit of time for some sort of adventure.
In the past, i would have to walk around trying to find my bearings. Now with the BB's GPS, i only need to switch it on once a while to check for the shortest route and general direction. It wasn't trying to find my way than getting there in the shortest time. Use to walk around quite often during my secondary school days, most of the time from bishan to kim keat, but no longer since arthritis. I do enjoy the tranquility of walking alone.. but maybe not in this weather. In the end, i only used 30 mins to reach bishan... lol.. and with time to spare to visit the library.
My friend was late, as usual, and i ended up in the library reading... actually i was only trying to go somewhere with air-con after the walk. Borrowed a book on some subjects which i never took during my uni days.. and perhaps, i was trying to see what interest me these days. And which are of use to me in the future.
A very tired sunday.. but at least it was kind of delighting.
Very much wanted to stay home, but in the end decided to go for band pract. The brasses have improved overall, and it was all to the credit of playing intensively during last week. Well, a bit too intensively i guess.. coz we started pract at 11 while the performance was at 3 plus.
I still liked the 179 more than my 190. The 179 was easier to control and pitch, but the tone colour was quite limited. My 190 was still quite difficult even after 10 years.
Nice pieces they tried for the pract, and it was quite like secondary school days.
I still feel that practices are important.. especially to practice together. Disliked playing alone.. coz i can always do that at home. A rushed performance holds no meaning at all. Last minute preparation always makes me very tired. Well, perhaps the word "no" and "stagnant" cannot be justified at all. I am just frustrated at how things kept repeating.
And i know.
Alighted at kovan and began to search for a particular fast food joint.. sadly, the heartland mall was too small, and i couldn't find what i wanted.
Travelled on NEA and alighted at serangoon.. only to discover it was as barren. By the time, it was already 2pm.. and my stomach was conditioned to be fed before this time. I took for granted that there should be a huge shopping mall at every mrt station.. lol.. and i ended up walking quite a bit trying to find something to eat.
Found, and settled down with a book after lunch. After i started working, i couldn't find time to read.. at least not leisurely. Was meeting my buddy for coffee at 4, and so had a bit of time for some sort of adventure.
In the past, i would have to walk around trying to find my bearings. Now with the BB's GPS, i only need to switch it on once a while to check for the shortest route and general direction. It wasn't trying to find my way than getting there in the shortest time. Use to walk around quite often during my secondary school days, most of the time from bishan to kim keat, but no longer since arthritis. I do enjoy the tranquility of walking alone.. but maybe not in this weather. In the end, i only used 30 mins to reach bishan... lol.. and with time to spare to visit the library.
My friend was late, as usual, and i ended up in the library reading... actually i was only trying to go somewhere with air-con after the walk. Borrowed a book on some subjects which i never took during my uni days.. and perhaps, i was trying to see what interest me these days. And which are of use to me in the future.
A very tired sunday.. but at least it was kind of delighting.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Another First
Just a week into 2010, and history repeats.
No wonder 2nd master was so pek chek. Some just failed to learn, however much they learn. Maybe learn wrongly le..
Work took the center stage in 2009, and most likely to be so in 2010.
It's gonna to be a good good year for the CF, coz there are plans for technological updates. For one, the invoice would be printed instead of typed. The typewriter might be the 1st to go.
My aim is to computerised all inventory and cashsales into one whole management system. Heard from the 'manager' that we were quoted 40k for the whole system. LOL. 40k. I might as well use it to open another satellite. IMO, they think we are cabbage. But that was way before my time. There are quite a few readily available in the market, and during my NSF time, i was already the system to manage ammo supplies. So it isn't something impossible.. just that in the end, how much will it cost.
There is just too much that i think i can do.. lol.. but in fact i know i can't. Yet it won't hurt to try.. even some eventually did. Afterall, setbacks can be devastating at times. Once bitten, twice shy.
Been trying to influence the staffs into picking up some basic computer skills.. afterall, this is the "digital age".. and even the phones are getting smarter.. what more we humans. Regardless the age, i believe they will gain from this. I know many are keen to learn, just that they don't have the opportunity to. And as we age, somehow we are less bulletproof, and so we don't ask. So i teach, and i troubleshoot. Maybe i have talent in teaching? LOL.. who knows. I learn to work, and i work to learn. To learn more about myself somehow, and to use this knowledge to generate something of value.
Work is taking much of my energy, time and thoughts away till i don't have space. I'm trying to make space, but it seems very difficult. Contemplating on giving up quite a few things that seems stagnant coz i don't really like fighting trenched warfare. Talk about sgreans having no drive. LOL. And which was the system that taught us?
Anyway, i don't even know where i belong. Seeing the sentosa countdown clip, i began to wonder where all these interesting things came from. Not us definitely. We are a boring bunch, coz we have to work all day to earn that bit so that we can fully pay for a 99 year lease flat that is now competitively fought for by a lot of people from places that have bigger places than us. And when we have competition, guess where the competition eventually filters to?
Pui. Lol.. i think i might need some of those dolls that my friends are having.
I want to study.. but don't know what to study. Coz i know even if i study, i still won't have drive.. lol.. and it would be a super waste of money coz it is very expensive to study. Plus, 99% of what we studied is not even applicable in work. It helps us to get the job, not retain. And with all sorts of degree and institution coming up, there is no distinction anymore. Where is the point lei? D0n't say i no drive hor.. i no money to buy expensive cert, that's why i no drive.
Anyway, i still hope to start something for 2010, however less space i have. Let this be another first.. unlike the "goal 2010".. which i think would be the last.
No wonder 2nd master was so pek chek. Some just failed to learn, however much they learn. Maybe learn wrongly le..
Work took the center stage in 2009, and most likely to be so in 2010.
It's gonna to be a good good year for the CF, coz there are plans for technological updates. For one, the invoice would be printed instead of typed. The typewriter might be the 1st to go.
My aim is to computerised all inventory and cashsales into one whole management system. Heard from the 'manager' that we were quoted 40k for the whole system. LOL. 40k. I might as well use it to open another satellite. IMO, they think we are cabbage. But that was way before my time. There are quite a few readily available in the market, and during my NSF time, i was already the system to manage ammo supplies. So it isn't something impossible.. just that in the end, how much will it cost.
There is just too much that i think i can do.. lol.. but in fact i know i can't. Yet it won't hurt to try.. even some eventually did. Afterall, setbacks can be devastating at times. Once bitten, twice shy.
Been trying to influence the staffs into picking up some basic computer skills.. afterall, this is the "digital age".. and even the phones are getting smarter.. what more we humans. Regardless the age, i believe they will gain from this. I know many are keen to learn, just that they don't have the opportunity to. And as we age, somehow we are less bulletproof, and so we don't ask. So i teach, and i troubleshoot. Maybe i have talent in teaching? LOL.. who knows. I learn to work, and i work to learn. To learn more about myself somehow, and to use this knowledge to generate something of value.
Work is taking much of my energy, time and thoughts away till i don't have space. I'm trying to make space, but it seems very difficult. Contemplating on giving up quite a few things that seems stagnant coz i don't really like fighting trenched warfare. Talk about sgreans having no drive. LOL. And which was the system that taught us?
Anyway, i don't even know where i belong. Seeing the sentosa countdown clip, i began to wonder where all these interesting things came from. Not us definitely. We are a boring bunch, coz we have to work all day to earn that bit so that we can fully pay for a 99 year lease flat that is now competitively fought for by a lot of people from places that have bigger places than us. And when we have competition, guess where the competition eventually filters to?
Pui. Lol.. i think i might need some of those dolls that my friends are having.
I want to study.. but don't know what to study. Coz i know even if i study, i still won't have drive.. lol.. and it would be a super waste of money coz it is very expensive to study. Plus, 99% of what we studied is not even applicable in work. It helps us to get the job, not retain. And with all sorts of degree and institution coming up, there is no distinction anymore. Where is the point lei? D0n't say i no drive hor.. i no money to buy expensive cert, that's why i no drive.
Anyway, i still hope to start something for 2010, however less space i have. Let this be another first.. unlike the "goal 2010".. which i think would be the last.
Sunday, January 03, 2010
1st of 2010
The first entry of 2010, and already it was something not worth cheering for.
First performance of the year, and i failed to deliver. Wondered what went wrong.. perhaps a lot.. and i don't want to find excuses for myself. I'm just so disappointed.
In the end, there was a bass part, in fact, 2 of them playing. So much for worrying about something else.
Had 3 servings of coffee from morning till lunch, and it was really a bit too much.
2010 came, and was time to put down my resolution.
Not here this year.
Days ago, i was doing a personality test online, and the result i got was very much consistent with what was happening around me. No wonder.
Hopefully the rest of 2010 won't be as bad.
First performance of the year, and i failed to deliver. Wondered what went wrong.. perhaps a lot.. and i don't want to find excuses for myself. I'm just so disappointed.
In the end, there was a bass part, in fact, 2 of them playing. So much for worrying about something else.
Had 3 servings of coffee from morning till lunch, and it was really a bit too much.
2010 came, and was time to put down my resolution.
Not here this year.
Days ago, i was doing a personality test online, and the result i got was very much consistent with what was happening around me. No wonder.
Hopefully the rest of 2010 won't be as bad.
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