Happy New Year! - to me, my flu and this P2 comp..

For no reason.. my comp went on strike again.. this time i really don't know what's wrong.. maybe the power supply unit blew again.. lol.. maybe motherboard? Or maybe the cable? So many posibilities.. and of coz.. the need to spend money again.

New Year's Eve.. and here i am blogging.. can't go out coz of the flu.. how boring to stay at home.. stuck with this P2 comp, with windows 98 OS.. lol... the year is 2005 liao lor.. Still haven't recovered from the flu coz of the weather.. had been rainning non stop. Haiz.. what an awful feeling!

What a way to get me start studying.. lol.. maybe i won't get it fixed soon. I mean.. well.. nevermind. School starting~! And i'm excited! So i guess.. my new year resolution.. to pass all my exams? Just a pass will do.. i think i really played too much ..haha.. hopefully the others will be able to score..

January - will be having wind band / chinese orchestra combine concert on the 23rd. My first "official" concert with SWE since WMC.. how much the band had changed... No longer as strong and confident.. Though i've made more friends there now, the feeling was no longer the same. Something seems to be missing.. Was contemplating whether to leave or not.. I really can't decide. This is our last link.. something which i hoped to preserve.. maybe i should take another long break.. and hope that everything will be alright when i return.. maybe they would have disband by then? Hopefully not.

So... it was a boring New Year's Eve for me, with only my flu and this P2 comp to accompany.. lol!

Aw-ful Day

i'm sick le... haiz.. for two days already.. and it could only get worse.. felt so awful.. spent most of my time sleeping. Wanted to study but then.. feels so weak.. can only online.. hahaa.. i dunno la.. it seems that i won't recover so soon.. i need another doctor... and of coz .. the placebo.

Saw all the chocolates.. ar.. wanted to eat but can't.. sore throat and flu.. haiz.. what a bad new year.. most likely i'll spent it at home. Really must study.. i don't want to repeat.. the feeling of regret.. i've promised myself.. but wait till i recover.. haiz..

Merry Christmas!!

So it was a xmas with 9th mei, 12th mei and deqi.. went to marche to have xmas dinner. Then saw 14th mei there with her friends .. actually i wanted to go to the airport one.. coz i really hate being in a crowd. But then again.. coz berry working at that area.. and for another reason also.. coz Serene already inside ... might as well join them.

After dinner we went out.. and it was .. !! hahaa... Had much fun playing .. lol.. Serene already left for home, coz she went off with her friends.. den we made a visit to her place after the countdown.. to give her a surprise!

Felt so strange trying to type out all the happennings.. hahaa... but i think i had my aww today.. even if it's a dream.. i'm willing to take the risk. But then.. i must think of that person less... i mean.. sometimes have to take things in my stride.. i dun want to put pressure on the existing vulnerable friendship.. get to know her better... and see how it goes.. if in the end we aren't together.. then we wasn't meant to be. Meanwhile... i'll treasure all the exsiting memories.. ^^.. What a great Xmas!

AWWWWW!!!!!

Every Monday and Tuesday sure got overdose... ar.... melt 1st then boil? Too bad the school term is coming to an end.. and i don't know what year two will be like. Maybe none of the class same.. after all, i'm on a different course... but think i better worry about this year 1st..

Was doing my forte in school again.. nuaing! And the worse part is, i'm getting better!... After lessons nua all the way till 4pm.. wahaha... coz jiu mei not feeling well then didn't attend school.. in the end left Ismond and 14th mei.. Not prepared for studying.. so me and 14th mei nua while Ismond tried to study. Ya.. think we wasted her time... coz kept talking and laughing.. haiyo... next time muz be serious le.. Study! ^^

AWWWWWW~

I think i gonna melt liao la... but then again.. i know it is just a dream.. haha.. but i prefer to wake up by myself. Think i can't contain it anymore... how stupid of me.. tried to deceive myself.. what placebo.. haiz..but all because of the burst bubble.. i think i won't go.. maybe i misunderstood.. maybe the bubble didn't burst.. but then again... maybe it is really a dream. No matter what it is.. will have to leave it and see how everything goes..

Went to KTV today.. sort of making up for yun's bday.. coz i spoilt her marche outing. But in the end, i forgot to pay her.. hahaha.. Yupz... i think of all those KTV "outings"... i liked this the best. ^^ Found another voice that has that particular tone.. erm.. just that i'm very happy lor... ^^ But today not my bday..wahahaha... oops. Keeping the details locked .. shhh... =p

Heard from jiu mei that she seems to be very sick... i dunno which sickness affect her most.. hmm... maybe the combination of both? Yupz.. jiu mei muz get well soon~

Had so much to blog.. but again... time to keep something for myself.

I Don't Want To Know!

How fast... the bubble burst... = ( Heard something which i don't wish to know. And to trust or not to trust... i don't know. It certainly affect me much. Should have stayed home instead. What is so interesting about my thoughts? Why do they have to dig out everything... Maybe they care.. maybe it is just plain entertainment... i don't wish to be the cast.

So the night ended.. i never planned to do anything anyway. Just feeling a bit disappointed... but couldn't show it. Knew it would happen.. that the bubble would burst someday.. but i didn't expect it to be so soon... how high it flew.... and that was how hard i fell.

Still wondering .... why do they have to tell me all that..? Let me continue to dream.. let me have that false hope that motivates... let me have the awww... let me be the ignorant one.. just let me... just...

Never knew that the effect could be so great.. perhaps there was a multiplier? I really don't know... maybe had to find a way.. hiding something again... shouldn't show it.. and think i got it... haiz is the final answer.

Yun's and Di's Bday Celebration~

Finally found the time and energy to blog.. been almost a week... Celebrate Yun's and Di's birthday yesterday.. Knew it was VERY early for them, especially 12th mei.. but the Warlords are so busy... hard to find a date where by everyone could come together.. Not to metion her marche "outing" also.. think i ruined that also? Especially when she asked someone to join us.. haiz...what have i done... But still, i think i liked Suntec's marche.. so nice.. so romantic.. but.. haha.. after that we went to the "sky garden" .. wahaha.. think i found another place.. too bad didn't have anyone to bring.. for another 2 years perhaps? Thought the oreo cake was going to be nice.. end up tasting so different.. i can't even taste the oreo .. huh! Won't buy from them again.. haha.. and the birthday celebration... think all of us got used to it? Can't feel the joyous mood anymore...

Actually today is quite different.. another reason for blogging.. the rest of them play missing today.. haha.. all dissapear from school.. in the end left Ismond and Ah li staying in school for lunch.. and for 3 person ... we still can't find a seat.. think all NP's fault.. haha. End up sitting along the 1st floor corridor.. and i told them.. if we really can't find a seat, then we'll have to sit by the roadside liao.. After lunch, the both of them wanted to study.. i've also prepared to study stats.. But that ah li... don't want to say her ar.. study halfway wanna pang seh.. go study wif her another friend.. if only i knew.. would have agreed to go to the library instead. Coz left we two there.. and got people smoke also.. library better... Next time perhaps?

KTV Again...

Another round of KTV today.. wahhaa.. this time really no voice liao... Went to one nearest to my home.. but that place was actually quite small. Service seems poor.. maybe the turnover of guests was too high.. and they actually wanted to charge us the standard price for 3.5 hours. But luckily they didn't ask us to leave at 10.30pm.. coz we were actually quite pissed off already. Had to look for the room ourselves, switch on everything by ourselves... and no one to serve the drinks.. Still prefer the one at cClementi.. think we every month went until the staff knew us.. haha.. Anyway, we left only at about 1 am.. haha.. till we got sick of singing.. Some other groups were singing very loudly.. so we "challenged" them.. picked all those songs we can whack.. haha.. Now really no voice liao..

Didn't have dinner so went to have supper.. think my friend "dai sai" or something.. the outcome all unfavorable.. First was the ktv.. then came supper. Though he had asked for chili, the stall owner didn't pay attention.. so we "request" again after she had prepared the noodles... think she got irritated ... and.. gave us two full spoonful of chili IN our noodles.. hahaha.. maybe someone didn't bathe.. haha.

Still having lessons tomorrow.. finally one which i don't need to wake up early..and the best part is, there's no need to look for seats. Suddenly i agreed with what someone had put on my tagboard.. to live my life with vigor. . lamenting over something that happened so long isn't worth it. Anyway, looking forward to the band performance next January. I'm lagging in everything now.. haha.. who cares? ^^