Holland V~

Back from holland v.. and it took me.. 12 minutes the most by bus.. whaha.. save money on transport leh.. so good.

But then, wasted on the drink.. coz order to much le.. then cannot finish. Drink up and i'll merlion lor. Perhaps coz we ate too much le.. western at clementi, followed by 2 servings of finger food at baydens.. eat until i want to pok zha (explode). .and somemore the beer keep forcing the food up.. i don't want to waste food lor (thru puking).. so for the 1st time.. i never finish my 2 pints.. and from here onwards.. i think.. i don't like beer le.. haha... maybe quit beering?

It was fun going chill out with dy.. as with other buddies. Under "influence".. can really talk about everything under the sun.. and of coz, integrity counts.. haha.. whatever said on the beering table must not be conveyed to others.. lol..

Sigh.. i'm getting a headache now.. so sian.. haha.. maybe bathe le.. then go start a "new" blog.. called my journal.. transferring some of my stories online.. whaha.. then i can destroy my books le.. but then, it shall be "hidden".. lol.

1st Bazaar Meeting (06)

1st Bazaar meeting.. and don't know why i was there.. haha.. seriously, i'm beginning to wonder why i'm doing all these. Maybe coz i'm too bo liao le.. but perhaps, i still intend to push my profile higher.. of coz, it comes with more crubbing buddies.. whaha.. and tomorrow.. might be going mambo again~ Or maybe not.. perhaps go chill with dy at holland V?

Heh.. today's meeting ended in 30 minutes time.. coz a lot had to go off early. Alright la.. i've been bazaar ic before.. haha.. not easy lor. But i don't care.. "would you sacrifice people for event?". Haha.. but i believe, both can be achieved. Depends a lot on, "tian shi, di li and ren he".. or in ang mor.. erm.. i don't know.. luck?

This year's theme is splendid ^^ whaha.. i like. But to make it close to the theme.. erm.. might be difficult.. but, all the best to them la.. haha.. i kind of had enough of bazaar le.

So was rather late for meeting.. then i decide to take my sis's vios for a ride.. and my.. i'm so raw lor.. haha.. drive until i almost got motion sickness.. whahaaa. Sis's away in bangkok for tour.. shun bian clear leave.. haha.. envious leh.. i can't, coz "i heard a rumor".. results might be out tomorrow? OMG! I'm just anticipating.. whether i'm failing 3 or 2. Wahahaa.. or maybe like what "someone" said (i'm not supposed to disclose on my blog.. =_=) "maybe someone wrote my no.?" wahhahaaa... hopefully.. whahaa.. but it don't work this way leh.. coz i'm supposed to write the person's number.

Meeting as i said.. was quite "horrific".. coz they don't seems to have a clear direction.. and nothing could be done too.. haha.. coz admin's instruction isn't out. Nevermind.. they have ample time. As i stress.. SUCCESS is subjective. Success for vendors (good sales), success in organising (no cock ups during the events), success in fostering friendships and realising one's potential.. and so on.. haha.. okok.. nagging again.. hah.

Ended early and i stayed to talk to dy alan.. go src room nua.. wah~ how i miss the aircon there.. and of coz, the amenities there... aww. Sigh.. my time is over le.. so sad.

5.30 pm.. and time to pilot home.. and tmd.. i have nothing against taxis.. but then hor.. some of them drove so violently till i really very pek chek.. and again.. ate before i set off.. so got motion sickness again.. haha.. after 1 whole year of bus taking.. finally can revise a bit of driving... sigh.. why can't i afford a car on my own? Sigh.. and bike.. just saw another friend of mine buang his bike.. = = woah.. don't want to take the risk.. hah.. not now.

And i almost forgot.. my sp's bday is tomorrow~ ^^ Don't think she got time to read my blog anymore.. haha.. but, "happy bday.. and yi ding yao xin fu wor".

Haven't been drinking for quite a while le.. haha.. and i'm looking forward to chill..but.. nobody go zouk with me.. haa.. alone sian de lor.. haha.. nevermind.. confirm got beer-ing session le.. ^^

Double Complain

Double was alright nia leh.. but then.. maybe the housepour was too diluted or maybe my alcohol meter spoilt le. In the end, 3 of us went.. sigh.. how come everytime like that 1? Maybe organiser cmi bah.. wahhaaa.. luckily i'm not the organiser. Tried to mobilise.. but then, haha.. i guess it was no better.

Double O was alright for 3.. because i ended up spending as much as when i was zouking.. = =.. the difference is, i drank more.. a lot a lot more.. in total: Shared - 3 jugs housepours, individual - 3 shots and 2 cocktails.. - -machiam i go there 10 weeks never drink water like that.. haha.. eh eh.. really have to cut my crubbing le lah.. everyday drink like that.. liver will spoil 1 lor..

Speaking of organising.. it isn't easy as it seems.. even with the own bday. Not to mention organising other's bday. People are weird. Invitation was sent.. yet they don't like to reply.. What the heck was happening? Handphone got water inside? Whatever i did was solely out of goodwill.. goodwill of helping the excos.. goodwill of letting those who felt left out to join in this extended family.. why treat me like da bian? Nah beh! As if i feel important like that.. i can't wait to fade off lor..

Of coz, some who replied.. thanks a million.. made my work so much easier.

SO NEXT TIME.. don't complain if people never asked. Some things just takes once to forfeit.

And i didn't message some.. coz.. i don't know.. maybe i forgot.. pardon me.. but note: this coming saturday (2nd of sept) will be welfare department BBQ.. all welfarians are "invited".. guests are welcomed as well.. so long as you all pay for the expenses.. anyway, i'm not the organiser, and i don't care about the attendence.. lol. for, it will benefit you all, not me.. haha.... come if you all want.. for all the stars in the universe i care.

Wahaha.. another time i need to vent my anger le.. coz something just pent up not long ago.. i don't like to organise.. i really don't. And i hate free loaders as much as i hated organising. Or should i say, some people are just being unappreciative. Not that i'll receive anything.. i don't even get a bday gift lor...

And then, my bday is nearing ^^ Whahaa.. i want.. i want.. i want lots of things. The problem is.. how to get them. = = I don't really feel like organising a "bash" lor.. coz i don't want to be hospitalised for overdose of alcohol.. the best is, not to dig it myself. But then i really want to get lots of presents lor.. if those who received from me got the heart.. hahaha.. but i won't be expecting.. haha.. expectations brings disappointment.. anything other is a bonus.

Expectations.. we all have.. and as i said.. it changes with the change of status... and i really got quite scared in the past.. sigh. Well.. i need to learn lor.. haha.. as if i was born flawless like that.. haiz.. give and take ba.. it takes time for mastery.

Enough of my nonsense.. haha.. i think my hair is dry enough for me to sleep.. and again.. poor pluto.. hahaa..

Pluto Declassified

Before the Double O.. must really take some time to feel sad for our pluto, which used to be in the solar system.

Since Thursday, Pluto had been stripped of its status of a planet, meaning that it's just now like the rest of the star.. well well.. at least it got itself a nice name by itself right? Lol.

"Pluto, a planet since 1930, got the boot because it didn't meet the new rules, which say a planet not only must orbit the sun and be large enough to assume a nearly round shape, but must "clear the neighborhood around its orbit." That disqualifies Pluto, whose oblong orbit overlaps Neptune's, downsizing the solar system to eight planets from the traditional nine." - yahoo news.

So.. tonight i shall tah for pluto! hahaa.. *edited*

Nothing

Luckily didn't get to drink again today.. yesterday's free flow was so much till i lao sai today.. as with most crubbing sessions.

Kind of dislike that feeling.. whaha.. i think i enjoyed supper more leh. I'm on a weight gaining spree. But not having much appetite today.. i don't know why.. maybe coz i lao sai.. = = Still met up with buddy to have supper.. whaha.. though didn't eat as much as last time.. $5.10 only.. wahaha..

Sian.. thinking of the double o tomorrow.. i think i feel like lao sai-ing le. Haiz.. and not one wants to go also.. haha.. i think of going also sian. Wondered what happened.. coz a year ago.. crubbing or clubbing was an absolut(e) no-no for me. I kind of dislike clubbers.. but that was a year ago.. "thanks" to someone that actually ko-ed me and hence i began my "training".. whaha.. definately enjoy that kind of artifical high.. coz really.. sadness are found naturally in its abundance. So we need to balance it out.. whaha..

Actually i don't know what happened.. but i guess it's time to do some things while we were young.. so long it doesn't harm the body too much.. I don't deny that drinking, smoking and sleeping late is bad for health.. but it's only once.. haha.. but results are going to be out soon.. whaha.. so please please.. spare me from ALL clubbing sessions.. i think i need to focus le. I THINK only.

Actually nothing much to blog.. just waiting for my hair to dry before going to sleep..

A "Special Request"

1. What is the best nickname you ever had?
-Orange and Green, GQoo also not bad..

2. Which way of suicide would you choose?
-Siao ah?? life is precious leh.. suicide for what?

3. Rate your social life from 1 to 10.
-1 year ago or now? 5.. i can be sociable.. i can be an introvert too..

4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
-Can you find me anyone who's not in love?

5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
-Why not?

6. Will you die for the one you love?
-No. If the one i love loves me, i guess she won't want me to die because of her.. similarly, i don't want the one i loved to die for me.. live on, and i shall be happy enough.

7. Do you think love hurts?
-Very.

8. What is the best thing about love?
-Hmm.. the awwish feeling?

9. What is the worst thing about love?
-It can be agonising at times..

10. Will you wait for someone you love?
-Used to. No longer.. wait must also wait for someone who can reciprocate.. if not, i think it's best to move on.

11. What song best describes your love life at the moment?
-Love in the First Degree. "coz i'm guity.. of love in the 1st degree.."

(hey... where's question 12?)

13. Have you talked to the person you love for the past 24 hours?
-Why not?

14. Do you keep memories?
Sadly, yes. Happily, yes too.

15. Is love always on your side or the opposite?
-It changes sides..

16. Are you sick of love?
-I'm love sick

17. Are you sick of the the question of love?
-Yah.

18. What are you going to do tomorrow
-Maybe crubbing at double o?

19. What do you want so badly now?
-Have lunch and watch tv.. happy like anything. Maybe Maple or play Audition? Haha.. still need to visit the doctor wor.. think my throat is swollen.

20. What's the song that you last downloaded?
-假装

21. How much do you love music?
-Alright lor.. if i don't like.. then i won't be in any band le.

22. Do you play an instrument?
-An instrument? LOL.. I played the Fhorn lor.. plus part time trumpet, guitar and bass.

23. What movie did you last watch?
-Forgot the title.. but i think is "April Snow"? Haha.. 1 year never go to the movies le.. Crubbing is taxing my wallet. But right now i want to watch "the breakup".

24. Do you believe in love forever?
-No longer. But i hopes it doesn't die off before me?

25. What's in your mind now?
-What's in my packet lunch.

26. What song is in your mind now?
-Say already la.. "Love in the First Degree"

27. Five people to do this:
Do if you wanna to.. anyway i don't read blog much.. whaha.. not good to know too much you know? Lol.. but please tag me if you do.

Zouk in Lion City?

Back from Zouk Singapore! Haha.. thought i was in Zouk Spain or something like that.. wahhaaa.. so happening, so happy!

Happy in the sense that we got to met people from different countries.. After the Germans, its time for spain and france ^^

Don't really know how it happened.. but maybe it was triggered by a photo taking incident... so in the end left the 3 of us with the (i don't really know.. what are the people of spain called?) Spanish?

It was so fun! I don't mean getting things done differently.. I still abide by my beliefs.. so i crub with "integrity".. hahaa.. but even with toopid principles like mine.. i still enjoyed it very much! They are so different from us.. culture and all that.. and kind of showing respect for each other.. haha.... *edited*.. we might be the "embassador" of this lion city!

Anyway, they offered us their cigarettes.. marlboro (imported).. whaha.. i'm so honored. Theirs is red the.. the "warmest" of the 4.. and then we wipped out our "menthol light".. whahaa.. so paiseh.. like no kick to them.. and the one of them just tear away the filter.. = =.. asked me to try somemore.. wahaha.. in the end, i just got a mouthful of tobacco leaves.. lol! And not only cigarettes.. we seem to have unlimited supply of whiskey coke.. wahhaa.. (btw, i'n not stingy leh..i'm a student! hahaha..) so in the end, they completed 12+ jugs of the whiskey.. whahaa.. li hai! Told them that i eat rice 1.. cannot tahan so much liquor.. whaha.. Europeans are so warming indeed~

Btw, we took quite a number of pictures.. so i assumed we are friends already? Hahahaa.. oh yah.. they taught me a few sentences in spainsh.. "tu areas me armigo".. supposed to mean "you are my friend".. (pardon me if i got it wrong.. whaha.. i have totally no idea!) Although i hardly understands their english (and they politely apologised for it).. most of the time i just nod my head or shake my head.. depending on their tone.. whahaa.. think i must pick up spanish le.. lol~

Pictures will be up as soon as i received ^^

Warlords gathering.. and i got so worried.. lol. I thought there might be some knots.. but then realised, i've cleared. Beginning spelt the end.. not vice versa. Anyway, my super duper long antenna is picking up signals elsewhere.. whahahaa.. and of coz, i wished for the best!

So glad that some things are settled.. i still have a few very urgent things to look at.. Hopefully, i shall come out unscathed.

One shouldn't be too envious.. for everything is an opportunity cost. All is in economics. Of coz, comparative advantage is another thing.. we are not created equal wor. If needing an explanations.. maybe one should look at "karma". I don't know.. it's belief after all..

And so much more to blog.. i can already hear the bird sing at 5.30am. They say early bird catches the worm.. i say early bird make the most irritating noise.. lol.. just kidding.

Before zouk, was at Marina South having steamboat with the freshies... wondering what a year 3 ah peh doing there? Hahaa.. i want to extend my contact list for my future job.. of coz, there's some rumors.. but i zai 1.. won't be poisoned so easily.. (hopefully?)

So at zouk.. whenever i burped, i can taste the durian ice cream.. - -.. haha..

Overall a nice day + night.. but come morning.. i need to settle some things once and for all.. life is just too beautiful a the moment to be wasted.. ^^ Hoped that i'm blessed enough.

(Note: as i know.. there are different "readers" around.. it won't be too nice to put things as there were.. so i did a bit of coding.. but then, do not try to encode without the proper "password".. if it was meant to be let know.. i shall do it in person.. thanks a lot~)

Durian da you yuan~

Had a backache.. Yesterday was with sis cleaning up the vios.. haha.. took the opportunity to polish my driving.. its been a while since i last drove. The car wash was just opposite my block.. and so i was the pilot that day.. haha.. couldn't understand why the acceleration couldn't make it.. haha.. till i got to the carpark.. then i realised.. i forgot to release the handbreak.. whahaa.. well.. i really do have STM.. maybe next time i forgot which is the accelerator and which is the break liao.. haha..

Got a call from dq.. IT fair coming.. but can't work.. lol.. coz got a bday celebration coming on that weekend.. haha... 21st bday is more important than work.. at least for now.

Wanted to go for supper.. but think not le.. coz grandpa just brought a bag of small small durians over... ahaha.. really very small.. Lol.. but couldn't eat too much...if not i'll be plague by pimples again.


Durian looks big hor.. haha.. but they're slightly larger than my fist nia... lol..

Sian of rotting at home le.. sigh.. i wanna go out~

Lost in Emotions

I'm really sick le.. that's why i'm blogging on a saturday night! Argh.. Supposed to be at zouk already lor.. sigh..

Other than being sick, i think i tio poison le.. sigh.. been having a series of weird dreams.. is it just because everything is starting to settle down? Perhaps i wanted to too.. 2 whole months of events, outings, happenings, and maybe some da bian also... and finally, these all will come to an end.

But, people all around me are scaring me.. it's not what you see is what you get. People change with situation.. and with status too. (that includes myself) It isn't easy at all.. and i'm not really confident. Must really purge my poison out soon.. lost my placebo long ago, and no longer worked for me..

Lost in emotions.. woah.. (missed this song on mambo) Hah..

School really really is reopening soon leh.. i want to start schooling and maybe work real hard for the coming year le.. Although still got involved in SRC.. but i think i'll make more friends.. lol.. as i told some of the freshies.. must join src.. then know more people and extend the circle.. so if i happen to work in sales, i can start calling all of them.. lol.. Impressive work on Friday.. coz much more people signed up for welfare.. special thanks to Johnson and Syl. Haha.. of coz i got do work 1 lor.. haha.. if not, how come they will sigh up? Projects on the other hand, need no promotions.. (so they actually no need sales).. why get so many people? End up having too many choices to make.. coz all are too good le.. haha.. Sometimes, no choice is the best choice.

OOh.. so excited.. haha.. met so many new friends last friday, some who went for the camp.. Of coz, this batch is different.. and being older (and of coz wiser) There are some who chose to challenge.. (haven't they learnt? Challenging the authority have implications.. refer to.. erm.. haha.. camps) The thing is, there is a thing call grudge. If not, why do you think the people of the middle east still enter war these days? Check history please.. as Kah Beng (my IR lecturer) says, "it dates back to 2000 years ago..." whaha.. SO PLEASE .. don't be so eager to show off your intelligence lor.. i'm not stupid by the way, and i'm not inflexible.. but i have to repeat again.. things happen for a reason.. and if you don't know the reason.. don't act smart. Hah. Try doing that to your boss next time.. and i wonder what hell-ish kind of life will one get.

People these days are so rude.. mei li mao! Hahaa.. Smarter i agree, but really no manners. Oh yah.. was about to be tipped off my scale when i just lun.. haha.. "noobs bring you down to their level and beat you with experience.." whaha.. for what should i degrade myself? Just pretend i didn't hear lor.. haha.. i'm ok de.. since after that, who will remember who said what? But then again, i'm human also.. so nevertheless, will feel agitated ba.. for the moment only.

Haiz.. so sian.. blogging on a saturday night.. haha... when i'm supposed to be out.. And i'm still being doubtful about some things.. couldn't sleep.. argh..

Sigh..

In school leh.. so sian.. so sian.. haha. Testing out the wireless.. whaha.. CMI leh.

I'm so bored now.. at holding area.. but evening le.. no people le.. haha.. but i got do job 1 leh.. so many joined welfare.. hahaa... then everyone happy liao lo.. ^^

Mapled till 3rd job le.. wahaha.. took me so long.. 5 months in total. But when school reopens, i think i can only mug.. not maple. Haha..

Results will be out soon.. sigh.

Haiz.. 1 more hour before i can call it a day.. so sian ah~!!!

Tomorrow going crubbing at zouk.. haha.. $12 only leh.. but now feeling not too good.. a bit feverish.. weather too bad le la.. and still must stay in this freezer..

Sunday sentosa outing.. LOL.. they said OG 10 organise de.. wow.. but then.. might not be going afterall.. coz feverish le.. the sun will increase my temperature more wor...

So happening till i don't know what happened.. been blocking part of my antenna for quite some time le.. so hows? I also don't know what to do.. or what? Haiz.. ignoring too much le.. sigh.

Sigh.. school's starting soon.. sigh.. sigh..

While Mapling..

Yesterday while mapling late at night, met a very very old maple friend.. and then chatted so much. Came to realise how much maple resembles our actual lives, our personality, integrity and feelings.

Though even as we all know.. afterall, it's just another game.. but, its just so relevant.

Not intending to think so much, haha.. but it's alright to give it some thoughts. From what i know.. many who quit maple couldn't take the attitudes of others.. which we always point to the kids. But i think, many are young adults, who still couldn't differentiate virtual and reality.

Still i got lots of fun seeing the real kids type and spam.. haha.. it's just so childish..


LOL~ LOL! look for gf must see name 1 ah? Hahaa.. and the face part even funnier.. in maple, most character looks the same lor.. lol! Next time must choose address also la.. haha.. kids are so funny.

And being in a virtual world doesn't mean that we can act as if we have no integrity. Nevermind what happended, it doesn't happen to me anyway, lest those who thinks they know and can read me so well to think that something drastic happened to me.. i'm ok -thanks for "worrying".

Yesterday, stepped in school once again.. sigh. Saw pl and sl at 1st floor, so told them to go visit the going to be SRC members.. actually only me was supposed to be there to so called "pursuade" them to join welfare department.. Erm.. actually i bo zho kang la.. i just sit there and chit chat nia.. haha.. coz saw lawrance there also, OGL of OG6. Venise was there too with her OG. Strangly, didn't see any of my freshies.. haha..

Think i won't get to see them in welfare too.. lol.. all chose projects leh. Then boss asked how come bo lang join welfare.. haha.. i also don't know what to say.. but i believe, freshies should make their own choice ba.. i already said what i could.. (organiser of Bash might not have time to enjoy bash.. so on.. ) Haha.. but still this batch is so much different. But then again, it's the excos who'll do the slotting.. hahaa.. i washed hands de.

So after that, went for dys outings.. lol.. sort of impromtu. Wanted to test my guts to sing hall.. haha.. but then i realised.. hall is for those who can de.. or those who thinks they can. Hahaa.. it's so much different.. Even different from KTV pubs.. coz in ktv pubs, it's either i was tipsy or the other tables were drunk.. so anything sounds alright. Haha.. but hall is not. It's so open.. until i got no place to hide. Can't imagine what will it be in LT.. somemore so many of them looking.. haha.. But my point is.. since its the "final" year (okok.. i will continue to my 4th in SIM =_=).. must really try out all the things le.. if not no chance le.. where to find such experience? Unless it's project superstar la.. haha.. but in that case, most likely to appear in "never say die".

Sang for a while before someone came and sit in the hall.. sian 1/2. .coz must take turns liao.. haha.. scareded coz they looked fierce (as in looked very zai in singing like that..) but then.. lol.. just alright nia.. haha.. so sang some duets.. some cmi.. coz cannot match.. haha.. don't know why.. but some sounds nice! Especially the "chuang wai"... lol.. maybe warmed up le.. that's why different?

Ended at 11pm.. so before us, the other table sang "cai hong tian tang".. very very nice! (i mean the song la..).. but it's so high that i dare not attempt.. especially so in hall.. haha.. but as the last song, we chose "feng" to complete the sequence.. although not in order la.. but it's so fun.. too bad the other table don't seems to get the joke.. lol..

Ok.. came to realise.. my singing got from bad to worse.. coz someone made me realise sometime ago, that my "pi yin" very heavy.. lol.. made me noticed it so much that i don't know what to do.. haha.. so how? Maybe go do music productions instead lor.. haha.. kidding.

All that Happened (pondering..)

Pondering pondering.. lol. Changes are so prevalent. My hair grew to almost my pre-botak days.. and i've gained weight yet again! Now my face looks a bit puffed.. haha.. no wonder my collegues asked me not to gain any more weight.

Since the beginning of the holidays, i think i've gained 2 - 3 kgs.. don't know should be glad or not.. ahaha.. it's expensive to maintain a constantly hungry me. Perhaps, i'll lose weight when school reopens.

Got a call from DY.. said welfare no people join.. lol.. so sad wor. Coz all want to organise chiongster event mah.. hah.. all the leaders there.. lead what? No matter.. SRC doesn't bother me much. Of coz i do hope that there will be more people.. as it goes, "single and available, and ready to mingle!" LOL.

So much freedom on hand.. that i've abused it much last week. Been off from home a few days, and tah-ing non-stop. And still.. might be going zouk this thurs and/or sat.. lol.. scary. Really need a pull off these clubs.. perhaps after this week.

Still got to check out Jac's dad's pub.. haha.. affordable bottles.. cheaper than dbl o. Got such good lobangs.. will the chiongsters of kuula miss? Before i know it.. they already plan to make me tah until i doh on my bday. Scared-ed. We got 1 train on neat 1.. (scary), 1 who can take 2 pints beer and still ok 1.. (frightening..) and another who gets high but will not puke.. (!!).. lastly.. another who specialised on cocktails.. (omg).. plus a lot more who can drink but never declare. So i said, i lock myself at home.. haha.. but it's still early.. 2 more months away.. Heh.. maybe i should get ready my wishlish le.. so people can start saving for my presents.. muahahaa!

Been wondering.. how come only people come and collect money for present.. and how come i don't receive 1? Isn't this also supposed to be a vicious cycle?.. LOL.. maybe must open bottle and invite then can collect presents ba.. lol.. but then again.. if i go open.. then i must be inviting people to tah me.. lol.. let me think 1st ba.

Enough of day dreaming.. time to face what is coming... and the next thing is, the release of results.. whaha.. i listening for 3 "bai ban". I know.. failing is stupid.. but i know it won't happen ever again.

Hopefully, the path will finally lead me somewhere.

Yet all these are nothing.. there are lots more shit on the way.. lol.. just keep reminding myself.. not to get too emotional. LOL.. things shall be accepted the way they are. (and i suddenly find myself nothing to blog.. lol.. not much emotional thoughts..) just like it the way it is now.. of coz, i'm open to more joyous things. It's either up or down.. turning upside down is not recommended. Sadly, my antenna still works pretty well.. haha..

Yet.. i do get pissed when people don't have integrity.. lol.. and that day someone act seh.. and then declared he was actually sober in the end.. i flared up.. whahaa.. don't know why.. i'm not trying to make him tah until he toh.. (i'm not the one who challenges him anyway..) but something like being deceived.. especially when you really thought he was going to CMI le.. and you tried to make the stituation better.. in the end.. to discover that SOMEONE WAS ACTUALLY ACTING! NB.. hahaa... but i got no bad blood la.. i just blog.. to make it a point, i dislike people without integrity. Sort of misplaced trust. And i actually told that person i really damn buay song.. haha.. in the end, it was quite bad la.. on his part that is. For me.. i say liao i ok. If i don't say.. i'm not ok.. haha..

Integrity people.. Integrity. However Honesty is also an issue here.. One was without integrity by being honest?? Simi sai..

Perhaps i was being harsh.. but made it a point that, E-99 is not acceptable at all.

Super long entry coz i'm super bored. (and hungry too..)

Sleepless

Renewed my Islander card.. which means, more sentosa visits! Haha.. went Sentosa yesterday for OG outing.. but sadly, not many came.. haha.. saturday is so valuable nowadays. So in the end, only the 8 of us were there.. and not much we can do.. lol.

Tanning seems to be the only reason we were there.. too long never get in touch of the sun, and i'm turning white. Lol.. maybe sometime next week, i'll go there again to follow up.

After sentosa, it was down to lakeside for zach's bday.. wah.. the $700 buffet was splendid! Lol.. had so much coz we didn't take our lunch at sentosa. But took great care not to have too much.. coz the "chiongsters of Kuula" were there.. any miscalucation would mean puking.. haha.. thankfully, the target was the bday boy.. haha.

So zach was made to tah tah tah~ and of coz, the merlion appeared once again on the post national day celebration.

Nice apartment near lakeside.. it was very very very windy! Whole day can feel the wind blowing.. so nice.. so aww. But then, nobody to aww with.. haha.. all the freshies and xiao mei mei.. lol..

Didn't get KO-ed last night, and didn't sleep as well.. trained well during all the FOCs and Camp D.. =_=.

A bit scattered on my thoughts.. coz still didn't get enough sleep.. lol..

Super Supper

Just got home.. haha.. intended for supper, but ended up going to my friend's house.. for vodka.. =_=

Now i've tried Absolut Orange, Blackcurrent and the disgusting grapefruit.. haha.. and i think Orange with coke is nice! ^^ Blackcurrent is not bad too.. tasted like sweets.. maybe a bit like cough drops.. lol. But grapefruit really cmi.. haha..

Under the influence, and most will be happy like anything! Of coz, must moderate drinking.. to really "enjoy" it..

Together with yesterday, it'll be my 3rd consecutive night drinking.. for the week. Thankfully, i can rest today.. haha... coz saturday will be zach's bday.. and then as expected with the "Chiongsters of Kuula", it'll be a night of KO-ing.

Went Prata House for pratas like night.. and don't know what happened.. we ordered so much food! 2 of us only.. we've got - 2 mutton soups, 1 mutton curry, 3 egg pratas, 1 onion prata and 1 mushroom cheese prata.. wahaha... fierce. In the end, we ate until cannot take it.. and the mushroom cheese came last.. so wm left the crust untouched.. =_=.. pizza hut ah?


Some of the food we all had... some only.. my VGA hp camera cannot capture wide angle 1.. haha..

Then went to wm's house to jam in the middle of the night! Whaha.. nice! Played "here without you".. nice.. except we didn't have enough players.. sigh.

Slept at 6am.. the 4th consecutive night sleeping past 4am.. and i'm very tired le..

Now waiting for my lunch to digest before going to sleep..

NDP @ Mambo

Happy birthday Singapore~ Wahaha.. and what better ways to celebrate? Nope, fireworks are not "in" anymore.. lol.. from my place i saw it, till it was blocked by the new taller buildings.. nah.. they too, won't la. Yes, they are nice.. but how much can it remain on your mind? LOL.. for once, i've broke free from the "tradition".. so it was all the way to zouk on national day.

Well done to sher, for getting a table at zouk on this day.. haha.. his connection thick thick 1 ok? Kidding.. but i'm glad to have a place to chill, something like a two in one.. chilling + crubbing.
But then again, this wasn't the Warlords, neither were they the Kuulas.. haha.. so i cannot pian as much alcohol to drink.. lol. Sad.

Went with xx, xy, geoff, allan and sher.. and of coz, their friends too. Too bad only 6 of us, 2 girls, 2 of them driving, and left me and sher.. haha.. cannot drink as much as the usual. 1 for 1 and we got only a jug for the table.. which was, confirm not enough for me.. haha..though xy kop her friend's shot for me.. still not enough.. haha. Before the 1 for 1 was done, we ordered 2 illusions each.. nb.. supposed to be 1 each. . (1 for 1).. then she thought order 2... then 2 for 2 lor.. became 4.. =_= Cleared it at 1 go.. whaha.. and then can feel a bit tired le.. maybe i'm only weak to beer.. hahaa...

Mambo night was super fun.. non that i went was as fun as this.. perhaps it was a PH, all the zai people are free enough to go.. best was, the cover was only $20! And ladies got free entry! LOL.. so good right? But still spent some on the drinks..

Was a very happening night.. halfway, the DJ played "stand up for singapore".. whaha.. simi lai eh.. nb.. you never hear them play "we wish you a merry xmas" on xmas eve right? Whaha.. then the whole dance floor booed.. I saw a merlion in zouk as well~ (*hint *hint) ^^ It was really national day special..

In the end, left me, geoff and xy.. and then it was dance floor in and out.. of coz, i got the song i wanted in the end.. whaha.. so, i'm happy like anything.

Geoff introduced us to his friends.. they are.. Germans! WOW.. so sud! Whahaa.. impressed. And of coz, they are fun to be with.

For so long, never dance until like that.. whaha.. perhaps played too much AuditionSEA till gian le.. whahaa.. i think, most of us are happy like anything tonight.. one of the best crubbing experienced i ever had.. lol.

Of coz, thanks to geoff for the ride!

Tah~ Tah~ Tah~

Heh. .finished beering with some new faces - xw, xy, gp and me gq. Lol.. plus a few of gp's friend.. and we had our hoegaarden at Alley Bar.. Eu says she had 20% from the management.. but it was 1 for 1.. so nevermind ba.. A magnum for $20 and it was 2 mug.

Still remembered the other time i went with sher to Rouge Outdoor (just beside.. anyway, they belonged to the same chain.. lol..) and ordered 2 magnum for $40.. lol.. now it's $10 for 1!

Very tired now.. met shini at Coffee toast (another version of ah kun roti.. haha..) and had a dialogue for 1 1/2 hours.. gained much insights into things.. and then i realised, we had all grown stronger. Not physically.. but had the courage to move. Came to realised a lot of things.. haha.. yupz.. some might say i blame it on the others.. but nope. All that has gone is gone. Though some things are permenant.. but what can i do? Thinking doesn't make me feel anything more or less.. neither do i blame myself. Shit happens and when it came, feeling guilty doesn't make anyone feel better.

Of coz, i do not have the heart of steel, neither am i devoid of emotions. Shit still stinks, and perhaps, getting used to is a better option. Of coz it involves the cleaning up as well. I've brought myself quite low, perhaps just to relish the moment things turned for the better. This isn't supposed to be the way though.

And each to its own. Different beliefs.. and of coz, different "interest". Used to questioned my sis why she likes to club so much.. wahaha.. and then now i realised.. coz i was unlocked.. and hence it's time to enjoy~ Sadly, i still can't find the key to lock back the alcohol crave.. or should i say, the addiction? Lol.. slowly things start, and slowly things changes.. it's unhealthy.. yet other people are also doing it.. so.. why should i stop?

Just don't let me unlock more things.

I'm still learning, hopefully leading a better life.. as now i always say, "one life.." this is the only opportunity.. the only one.

So a lot of "big reasons" i've learned.. and it shall serve me well.. haha.. after that, it was down do CP again! Haha.. i was free for a moment and i went to bedlinen department for "visiting" ... wahaaha.. so great to see them there.. especially as a customer.. No conflict = no misunderstanding. Of coz again.. some people just wants to crash their 8 characters.. what can i do? LOL! Cannot means cannot la..i don't want to try and i don't care.

Yupz.. after that met gp and then went alley bar to chill.. whaha.. tah tah tah~


1 magnum = 1 pint = about 500ml (500cc) or 0.5 liters

Thinking of learning how to ride bike.. but i'm a coward.. wahaha.. but i can't afford a car~ Argh.. so ma fan lor.. everytime go out till midnight also ma fan.. must have own transport.. haha.. but i'm afraid of getting hurt.. (i mean really serious that kind..).. aiyah.. don't know la.. still thinking.. maybe not.. coz my parents will definately object.. lol.. the helmet already no place to hide le.. haha.. how to learn?

Well.. as always, i'm open to suggestions!

Xiao Bao Steamboat

Went steamboat last night with the usual few, plus a lot more ^^ Haha.. actually was expecting more leh.. but wl and hj couldn't make it.. but it was nice enough.

Didn't eat that much.. coz didn't know why, it was much crowded on a weekday like that. Perhaps, the chong qing steamboat have gained their popularity by word of mouth? Certain that many still doesn't know.. coz when i asked my og for a steamboat outing.. they only know about tian tian steamboat.

But hor, you ask them about tah-ing and chill out, they know.. =_= Haha.. all the ah siao drinkers.. so li hai~ So today, will be going to meet some, perhaps more i hoped, for chill out again.. siao liao.. i'm broked le.

Meeting someone from SWE, or rather i don't know what is it called now.. apparently, the band have undergone another change again. From SSB to SWE.. now i don't know .. maybe SCO? Wahhaa.. still the same.. without support of the members.. how can it even move? But as promised, i'll be there.. i will. Heard that there will be a concert on jan next year.. Alright.. shall see how it goes? Means ALL my saturdays will be burned.. whahaa.. so sian.

After the steamboat, it was KTV again, the usual practice.. haha.. but got a lot more people joining! Like zx, justina, xx, alan and sher~ Though more people = sing less, but it was more fun! And of coz the usual few sang the usual songs.. lol..

Rained when we came out at 2 am.. then shared cab with zx.. the cab driver.. lol.. a bit cmi leh.. but nevermind.. lol.. i got home safely.

Tired coz mapled last night.. haha.. suddenly wanted to level up.. been on the shelves for too long, till my guild people all upgraded themselves.. wahaa.. nice though.. coz all their level are higher.. guild getting stronger .. whoa.

Sentosa outing with kuulas this saturday, zach's birthday following that.. he suggested clubbing.. erm.. maybe not le.. coz i'll be crubbing on National Day.. wahhaa.. $28!

Lol.. suddenly realised that today is national day's eve.. then my mom asked me, "you not going to celebrate meh?" Wahaha.. nope. Not celebrate.. i only go chill.. haha.. okok.. must really get back to studies after this saturday le.. been playing full time since the end of exams.. haiz..

Kuula MJ

8am~ and i'm home again. Went to play mj the night before.. and as expected.. i lost again! $7.. what the.. how come i keep losing huh? And it was with 10 - 20 lor.. imagine when they say they wanted 20 - 40? The worst part being, i kept losing $6-$10 everytime i went for mj.. no matter where, no matter who.

No lor.. i don't have inferior skills.. maybe lousy luck. Whaha.. everytime got people "zhi mo" gor tai.. which is, $3.20 per game.. and i never got the chance to win so big.. haha.. so suay. But mj-ing with the kuulas are so fun! Haha.. though all quite seasoned.. and then their luck is so good lor.. haha.. so too bad for me la.. only thing is, the place is a bit far.. cck, well, punggol too.. haha.. got any thomson, bishan or amk 1 or not?

And of coz after mj, we still have time for a bit of chilling.. wahhaa.. which is, since the beginning of the week, my 4th time drinking.. =_=.. but, liquor is on the house! ^^ Not for beer though.. haha..

Alcohol is nice when people can bond.. alcohol is dangerous when they lose themselves. 2 ways to go about.. either moderate drinking, or moderate temperament. Not with the kuulas though.. haha.. we don't have "L" plate. Not now.. lol.

So went home when the alcohol in blood is diluted.. coz one of them is riding.. and once again for 4 or so years, i'm a pillion rider again.. might as well get used to it.. coz the rider lives very near my place.. bike somemore.. wahaha.. go school or outing all no need to think le.. lol! Nope.. kidding.. i won't trouble people 1..

But still, it feels great to be home in such a short time.. so glad.

Now i'm just waiting for my breakfast before going to sleep.. lol.

Another Weekend

Back from Sentosa.. Costa Sands got a new upgrade since camp D! Nicely done were the toilets and the showers.. so nice!

Was at a birthday BBQ.. yesterday.. and i think the organising thing is very troublesome! Haha.. but i appreciate their attendence. Nope.. it wasn't my birthday.. and i don't think i'll like to organise my own! Haha.. but it feels somewhat like finding problems to deal with.

I didn't ask for recognition, but neither do i enjoyed criticism. On the outset, it was out of goodwill.. sheer goodwill, nothing much.

But as we all learnt (we as in the Excos of 05/06).. you cannot please every single one.. and i knew.. so it was more of a anger control rather than troubleshooting. When overcame, no suggestion or constructive critcism would reach me.. hahaa.. something i got to take a grasp on soon.

Knew that was what, and that would be what.. but still i fell prey.. whaha.. it is just too difficult to take control.

Very messy.. real messy.. haha.. a lot of things happened and i do have my ups and down for the day.

Yesterday, went out in the afternoon to get presents for the birthday boys~.. all 4 of them.. =_=.. haha.. went orchard with ML (the other "organiser") to get some clothes for them. Went to 4 different shops, and don't know why, i ended up choosing what i liked.. whaha.. and i bought a top too.. again. As if i'm on a belated GSS.. that starts on August. While choosing for their presents, i had the chance to try out the tops myself.. whaha.. of which, it was the first time i wore a purple polo tee.. =_=

Eventually got what we hoped they will liked and then i was off to SIM for the audit/interview. Reached and then i felt so nervous.. whahaa.. so long never buay zai liao.. but it was only for a while.. coz all 3 of them are don't know what big shots of other Uni as well. But i was lucky.. i wanted to gain more exposure.. and i got. And of coz, how can i forget to raise some problems i faced in school? Most notebly of the lack of space during the may-june period.. haha.. hopefully, it'll help.

The interview ended at 5pm.. wanted to find space to store my jeans and shoe before going down to sentosa.. and then!!.. and then!! my locker was broken lor =_= Very pek chek.. coz my bag was damn heavy.. but bo bian bah.. bo bian. Then the evening crowd.. wah lao eh.. me with a heavy bag.. haiz.. bad day.

Rushed to IMM to get something.. and also another lock. Then the queue at the Giant mart says express counter.. but then, a temp staff was there.. ok nevermind.. everybody got to start somewhere... slow i still can take it.. though i a bit pek chek.. then hors.. she says, "can you go to the customer service to get some large plastic bags for your items?".. wah lao.. so pissed that i say nevermind and i just carried the things on my hand.. with my heavy bag.

Waited for the bus for very long.. and then it was the pm peak.. argh.. heavy bag, no plastic bag and no seats.. what the? Reached JE finally and start to upload all the things for the BBQ. And then i thought it would all be over.. haha.. but it wasn't.. already damn pissed and still got people want to play punk.. i can let go at anytime.. but i didn't want to. E-99? i only allow 98. Or rather, i can tolerate 98.. whaha.. already a bliss for all. Just don't wanna have the vicious cycle.

So it was just another gathering afterall .. and what i liked most is, the chill out time! When we played those orientation games.. it was so funny! whaha.. i wanted to puke lor.. laugh until want to puke. And for a long long time.. i never enjoy this much.. haha.. must really thank those who made it happened.

But then after that, something happened.. haiz.. too much bad blood huh? It was more of a H2H talk.. but if want to say, or want to listen.. must can really take it de wor.. if not, then stay away. Its not for the faint hearted.

Say too much le.. and i actually got quite sick of saying things all over again. What was is just another memory.. and memory, is for life. Things cannot be forgotten.. yet they shouldn't be a burden.. but even if you see other people's burden.. you have no right whatsoever to judge that person.. becoz, you don't feel the way they feel.. or maybe, they just haven't learnt to let go.. yet. So give time..

Drank a bit yesterday.. and i kept chocking.. haha.. now i'm starting to dislike the taste.. so yucks.. haha.. and i got high very fast.. think my level dropped le.. haha.. so sad.

Another Perspective

"Consulted" my deck of Tarot cards for some insights and begin to see things from a different perspective. I'm just lost.. and needed some suggestions.

It was me v logic. No logical answers seems logical to me. But then again.. haha.. its not so much of making something happen. I fear such stunts.

But nevermind.. the best is to keep myself occupied! And i'm so occupied this week! Wah.. all the way since break camp.. i never really had a good rest. It was like going out once every 2 days.. here and there.. either supper, beer, or just a nua-ing session.

Intended to nua at home, but then got 1 kuula called to meet me for dinner at Thomson ^^ Of coz i go! At thomson i sure fong pei dao di 1.. hahaa.. so long as i don't need to take bus can le. Then went TP (thomson plaza) to have some snacks.. ah kun loti.. with ice cream! Whahaa.. life is about have good food and nice friends to talk cock sing song and play mahjiong. That explains the KTVs and the mahjiong sessions.

Woah.. and then the Kuulas got more outings! Wahhaa.. all booking 9th aug.. oops.. but too bad la.. got to go mambo.. haha.. well.. but sc's house got XO leh! =_= But nevermind.. their liquor is unlimited de.. haha.. and after yesterday's level up.. i'm still not going to quit.. heh.

Another outing to Sentosa.. haiz.. my arm so skinny.. and i got no 6 pack.. only 1 beer belly.. wahaha.. how to go Sentosa like that? But the kuulas are all so excited! Haha.. and a lot of internal jokes ba.. but then again.. don't anyone wear bikinis... wahaha.. later my nose bleed..

Kidding.. (as in, my nose won't bleed....) but i can already confirm 1 that will wear.. =_=

Friday also going to sentosa.. this time round for some birthday celebration.. so good hor? Got people rally 20+ people to celebrate! Whahaa.. my bday was sianz last year.. coz i got gastric flu.. then stay at home.. bday got bad karma to clear de.. serious. BBQ leh.. but hors.. i think will be another drinking session bah.. omg.. i'm becoming jiu gui le la...

Level 4!

Congratulations on reaching level 4! Wahahaaa... i went to throw money into the toilet bowl again.. haiz.

Yesterday was just like any other day.. (and the day before too..).. hah.. and so it was a day for drinking as well.. (maybe today at mambo too? wahahaa.. all the chiongster siao..) If that's the case, i would be making a chain of 3 liao lo.. haha.. though i miss the music much.. but i guess, must really limit myself le.. it's either my liver break, or my wallet.. or both?

Maybe my level dropped? Maybe.. or maybe the 1 for 1 is too tempting for us to resist? Haha.. 1/2 of my visits i cmi.. haha.. toopid beer. Oh.. so went clementi early to have dinner with a friend while waiting for my buddy to come.. then have hokkien mee again.. (prelude to the puking as always) Had a lot more food here and there.. and i think the hokkien mee isn't oily enough.. haha...

Next we moved on to Holland V.. my favortite hangout.. coz of the happy hour.. whahaa.. drink like nobody's business.. 1 for 1 Erdinger only $13 lor. At Liquid kitchen.. you'll get $18 for 1 pint, no 1 for 1.. the promotion is buy 2 get 1 free.. so its $36 for 3.. Wahaha.. 3!!! 3 pints = 1.5 liters! Siao ah? I drink coke also never drink until so fierce.. haha..

Yah.. so it was bayden again.. nice place, nice erdinger.. got a lot of ang mors.. and got pretty girls too.. haha.. those eat potatoes 1.. lol! And so we had a pint each.. (not to forget it was 1 for 1..).. and then my friend all ki siao le.. all want to tah tah tah.. but i wasn't trained for beer.. lol.. out of the 4 times of puking, 2 times are purely contributed to beer.. haha..

Coz we wanted to go Walas to chill a bit.. listen to the live band there mah.. so bo bian all chiong finish 2 pints in 1 hour! Ki siao ah.. haha.. i tah finish and i already know i got the L (loser) on my forhead.. wahah.. but i don't care la.. coz i saw what overdose of alcohol can do just recently.. and i have no wish to repeat that feat.. so L or no L.. so be it.

Moved on to Walas.. ordered the chicken wings.. haha.. so dry 1.. so ate a bit before the Erdinger wants to come out.. =_=. Natural reaction is not to catch the puke with your bare hands!.. (i did it once at the Mac outside my place before) but rather, go to the nearest toilet bowl to empty.. haha.. I know when it was coming.. and i know i couldn't let my mind win over my body.. haha.. it just felt so terrible.. it just felt so L. Puked a total of 2 times at walas.. got a lot of hokkien mee i can see.. wahhaaa.. but couldn't find the chicken wings~.. Puked until i was vommitting water.. luckily didn't have blood.. haha... i thought i was going to puke my whole stomach out. Such a long time where i didn't have such a feeling.. it was awful.

But i really liked wala wala there.. ^^ So we did some songs request.. (i was ok after puking)... and we requested Creep - by radiohead. ^^ Super nice.. and the audience there all clapped.. for the good performance.. and also the song well choosen ba.. haha.

It was time to go.. to siam midnight fare mah.. so going back, but had to sent another seh friend home 1st. It was way beyond my place (and my buddy's).. but halfway, i felt Erdinger coming again.. so i alighted first.. haha.. another L on my forehead.. =_= Super thanks!.. for sending my friend all the way home before making a return trip back. Was at the sidewalk when i puked again.. = =.. Another L! Hahaaa.. i never felt so xin ku before lor.. and the best is.. it was accomplished by just 2 pints! What the?

Think i should stay away from beer? Hahaa.. i prefer Martell and Black Lable wor.. whaha.. Absolut and nail polishes stand 1 side.. whahaa... But then, it was a good night on the whole. And i don't mind chilling out again.. but don't tah with me le.. i want to have control..

Moving Where?

I think.. its time to get moving. It isn't easy for the past year.. not for me. It's like making a mountain out of a molehill.. hah.. but then again.. we have to experience it before we know. So for those out there who never experience anything.. you have no right to judge me. Nope.. in any case, no one has the right to. My life, my way.

For you all f**kers out there.. don't let me hear anything about me. I seriously get pissed like that. TMD.. if i say you, how will you feel? Better don't let me know. I can say.. i don't mind losing a friend like that.

But then again, your life, your way.. just don't create grief for me can le.. intentionally or just becoz of F up personality.. i don't care.

Haha.. enough of the F word.. lol.. time to move on.

Lol.. the past year.. really cmi for me.. and now i've gotta pay for my cmi personality. 1.7K to retake.. and a lot more of problems.. haiz.. now i begin to wonder.. is it worth?

But then.. it really changes one's perception of things.. and finally, i can find some space to grow.. the shadow is just too much of a burden to me.. and so i let go eventually.

Bloggers are story tellers.. lol.. i agree.. and they showed what they wanted people to see.. yet again, who ask you all to come by? Hahaa.. i never advertise wor.. aiyah.. see liao forget can le... that's all i asked for.