My Saturday

Went out "early" in the morning to school to move the desks. Well.. i just go as a worker.. haha.

Saw some things that wasn't very comfortable, a lot of bombs and missiles flying around.. thankfully the target wasn't me. But instead, got so minor cuts from the desks.. haa.. Zzz.

Went megabites for lunch, but it turned out to be minorbites.. the chicken chop hor, small until it makes the plate so big. Where is the megabites with mega servings?

Then went arcade to burn some time before going band. I got so addicted to driving games these days, lol.. and so i played Initial-D 3..but it's in jap, so i dunno what to select, anyhow select lor.. = = But still, got to "drive" my dream car, Honda Integra.. but hor, like very slow like that leh.. and i lost in the 2nd stage.. haha.. lousy.

Band was, the usual few.. actually better le la.. just that i asked for a lot. Hah.. didn't play for 3 weeks le, then also didn't bring my "wife" there.. so bo bian, find the "mistress" lor.. But kept playing buang notes, and seh.. they played mononoke hime again.. sian.

On the way back, got an arrow.. was asked to be the stage manager for the concert or not.. wahahaa.. very sud title hor? But actually is count chairs count stand de..lol.. declined, but as it always go, arrow couldn't be siamed de.. might as well.. accumulate more good karma ba.

I'm At Home

Friday night.. and.. i'm at home! Just because i'm broked le.. haha.. conspiracy everywhere.. haha.. for the D-day on december.. whahaaa... And i'm "training" for it..

Nowadays, been so weird that most of my friends that saw me says, "eh, heard that you club a lot recently ar.." LOL.. soon.. soon i will "keep mountain" le..

Very tired today.. slept very late last night coz weather was too good le.. haha.. so in the end, couldn't sleep.. slept at three plus, and woke up at seven..

Darn tired and still want to ride on vios.. haha.. in the end, i missed 3 points in a row. Was late, and i missed the liquidity gap analysis! ARGH.. sian leh.. just 10 minutes also don't want to wait.. must be the school beside us.. so many vehicles.. okok.. my driving skills have deteriorated greatly..

And very sad. lunch time want to find people eat also can't.. haha... so sad case meh? But i could have gone home.. but promised to stay le.. so stay lor.. attend bazaar meeting with SCS, and haha.. wo hai shi hen li hai de.. lol.. 2 years not cover de lor.. but i just don't want to intervene ba. I expired le..

So lunch at foodcourt.. eh.. but can't find something nice. Ate jap food.. but the uncle so good.. give me so large serving until i almost choked.. - -

Said i wanted to study, in the end, i think i talked a lot more.. lol.. also good la.. do some catching up.

And don't know for what reason, got involved in CV as well.. wahahaa.. so funny leh, the ic.. got horse de wor.. whaha.. I guess, i'm just too free le.. just hope i get a job soon. SIAN.

I'm so hungry now... didn't have my dinner.. and reached home just. And this channel 8 keep showing the chicken rice.. 0 0.. lol.. i think i go cook noodles le... haha..

My Day?

Wahahahaha.. see this: VvVvVvV! (V is revived)

Yeah! My laptop's keyboard recovered! i didn't do anything to it leh.. Wahahaa... which made me even happier!

And then it was just so simple... to make one happy, just take away what he has.. and then return to him sometime later.. and he'll be happy! (by the way, it can be as simple as getting a botak head and then growing back the hair.. whahaa..) Same as what happend.. i was limping during my sec 4 days becoz of arthritis... but got better as i go along.. so right now.. even i can't do sports without inflicting pain on my joints, i'm still glad.. imagine not being able to walk properly? Lol. .thankful that i still can run.. (in case need to run away from disaster or what.. hahah..)

Whoa.. and today marks the 2nd day of my lessons.. LBO (which is a repeat module).. and i was so bored there.. coz there isn't anyone i know.. sigh.. and also, i knew what the lecturer was going to teach, and most of the answer to his question.. = = But still attended it nevertheless... thanks to friends who refused to leave me alone to nua at home. I guess i need a lot of push to really make this year work.

Perhaps a bit far.. but i hoped to get at least 4 uppers for this year.. i know my essay writing isn't that good.. coz sometimes friends complained that they don't know what i'm blogging.. hah... but then again, those are repeat modules leh.. haha.. 2 years of experience.. and still cannot score?

Thankful that i didn't pass.. or else i'll graduate with a 3rd... and.. what's the point? Things happened and they happened. The only way to go is forward.. lol.. took me sooooooo long to understand..maybe i'm older.. that's why wiser? (i'm trying to imply that my bday is coming leh..need-list will be out soon... lol.)

Luckily JJ was attending LBO with me today.. or else i'll be like a sad loner.. which i used to mock of.. haha... now my bad karma leh.. haha.. maybe i go crash lessons? Anyway, LBO will soon see people leaving.. just like IR. The reason being, they always start will very hard to digest terms.. and scare the hell out of we poor students.. Degree course isn't 'o' levels.. a lot more knowledge is needed.. Thankfully again, i got 1 year headstart .. whahaha.. how can i not score? Hope to keep it up.. got people to study with me le.. haha.. different topics can ask different people.. and hope everyone do well.

After LBO was at the SSC's bazaar.. and wondering how the got the same vendors.. lol.. they reaped what the previous bazaar committee has sowed. Sad was, how shabby it was presented.. impressed was they got all the vendors coming in with such short notice. Hah.. but, who the * care? LOL.. SRC kena bullied.. but then again, chance was presented.. yet the stituation doesn't allow. Haha.. so next time let SSC organise bazaar loh. Welfare can close and koon le.

But i don't think the school is being fair la.. but as always, fighting with authority means lose.. so don't ever try.. at least not at the moment? Haha.. E-99 isn't the way to get things going lor.

So regardless of "na yi gen chong's" bazaar, i still tour to do my own shopping.. haha.. and i finally bought a DVD R+ (and found out a bit more from the vendor the difference between +, -, +/-.. and also asked whether got * or / or not.. whaha.. and i went to get my chiong ink from another vendor.. said i looked familiar.. and i said, "of coz.. i was the organising comm the previous year." LOL.. so chatted with them.. which they told me that business was slower than the "Enchanted Gardens" .. LOL.. Of coz lah! SRC do bazzar is confirm pass 1 leh.. Last year was the best so far. Everything was right.. EXCEPT the tmd stage and the tmd shitty things those tmd clubs and outside company want tmd do.. kns. Made me tah 1 sai form our boss's boss. NB lah.. Hah. Ok.. venting complete ^^

So i told the vendor that i treat my laptop drink milktea, and i asked and see whether they got any lobangs for repairs.. (since they're in this industry).. and they recommand a pc clinic for me.. haha.. what's best is that they recommand a better one.. a pc hospital for me if the clinic fails.. lol~ So grateful to them.. and now it seems.. we showed our sincerity the other time they were here.. and then now i got help ^^.. of coz i bought half a dozen of ink cart for a discount.. heh... so happy today.

Waited until i starved to bones for the bazaar meeting to be over.. (i tried not to get involved).. haha.. my presence was only for moral support.. unless they decided that i'm there to demoralize them.. haha.. but i kept my words to bare minimum.. lol.. For now, i need to learn another lesson.. that is, to let go. Having power to control is very addicitive.. lol... and being 1 year of exco, it's quite difficult to get rid of the habbit.. lol.. so let go i did. I spent most of my time chatting.. whaha..

Went clementi with the welfare family to eat and eat and eat. I'm gaining weight yet again.. the next thing is to train le.. haha.. so long as i can discipline myself. Nice was the food there... though a bit full.. haha... after dinner, went arcade to play photohunt and time crisis 2.. whaha.. the newer crisis too expensive le.. lol..so played the old 1 for 1/3 of the price and got so much credit that we played until the hand ache... haha.. i don't play arcade much de.. by the way. Was like a few years since i last stepped into one.. maybe that was during my army days while i chiong initial D 1? Haha.. i still have my honda integra card with me wor.. lol.. zhng until nice nice de..

So a lot more games evolved using decks of cards as part of the games... imagine playing Magic the gathering on a computer screen.. that's how it's like. A game caught me was the 3 kingdoms.. i've always been interested.. and whoa.. is a bit like 3 guo online.. but now is single player with cards as troops.. whoa.. haha.. i'd like to try is someday.. (maybe next year when i start to earn money)

That day was having a "village" discussion.. and we talked about the prices of houses after seeing the mark lee's advertisment.. so i asked.. how much does a condo cost? My sis replied, "oh.. about 500k"... O_o.. i asked, "in mesos?".. haha... 500k leh.. and her friend lives in 1..!! How to get 500k lor.. even if i earn 2k a month, saved 1.5k.. i'll only get 18k a year... 500k.. erm.. that'll take .. erm.. forever? Whahaha.. somemore i still got to get a car leh.. which will take me almost 30 years to complete.. assuming i can save that much. I doubt it.. haha.. given my addiction to alcohol.. i guess i can't.. lol. So if i start work from next year.. at the age of 23.. i'll only be able to realise my proposed dream at 53. Hahahaha~ that is, i assume to remain single.. lol.. 500k leh.. imagine how many bottles of martell 1 can open?

Enough of day dreaming.. lol.. so today was sharp contrast to yesterday.. lol.. i'm soooo happy lor.. hahaa... hopefully.. no shit happens tomorrow? I don't want another ride.. lol.

Tomorrow is wednesday.. still thinking whether to go mambo or not.. aiyo aiyo oh aiyo aiyo oh oh~

1st Bazaar Meeting (06)

1st Bazaar meeting.. and don't know why i was there.. haha.. seriously, i'm beginning to wonder why i'm doing all these. Maybe coz i'm too bo liao le.. but perhaps, i still intend to push my profile higher.. of coz, it comes with more crubbing buddies.. whaha.. and tomorrow.. might be going mambo again~ Or maybe not.. perhaps go chill with dy at holland V?

Heh.. today's meeting ended in 30 minutes time.. coz a lot had to go off early. Alright la.. i've been bazaar ic before.. haha.. not easy lor. But i don't care.. "would you sacrifice people for event?". Haha.. but i believe, both can be achieved. Depends a lot on, "tian shi, di li and ren he".. or in ang mor.. erm.. i don't know.. luck?

This year's theme is splendid ^^ whaha.. i like. But to make it close to the theme.. erm.. might be difficult.. but, all the best to them la.. haha.. i kind of had enough of bazaar le.

So was rather late for meeting.. then i decide to take my sis's vios for a ride.. and my.. i'm so raw lor.. haha.. drive until i almost got motion sickness.. whahaaa. Sis's away in bangkok for tour.. shun bian clear leave.. haha.. envious leh.. i can't, coz "i heard a rumor".. results might be out tomorrow? OMG! I'm just anticipating.. whether i'm failing 3 or 2. Wahahaa.. or maybe like what "someone" said (i'm not supposed to disclose on my blog.. =_=) "maybe someone wrote my no.?" wahhahaaa... hopefully.. whahaa.. but it don't work this way leh.. coz i'm supposed to write the person's number.

Meeting as i said.. was quite "horrific".. coz they don't seems to have a clear direction.. and nothing could be done too.. haha.. coz admin's instruction isn't out. Nevermind.. they have ample time. As i stress.. SUCCESS is subjective. Success for vendors (good sales), success in organising (no cock ups during the events), success in fostering friendships and realising one's potential.. and so on.. haha.. okok.. nagging again.. hah.

Ended early and i stayed to talk to dy alan.. go src room nua.. wah~ how i miss the aircon there.. and of coz, the amenities there... aww. Sigh.. my time is over le.. so sad.

5.30 pm.. and time to pilot home.. and tmd.. i have nothing against taxis.. but then hor.. some of them drove so violently till i really very pek chek.. and again.. ate before i set off.. so got motion sickness again.. haha.. after 1 whole year of bus taking.. finally can revise a bit of driving... sigh.. why can't i afford a car on my own? Sigh.. and bike.. just saw another friend of mine buang his bike.. = = woah.. don't want to take the risk.. hah.. not now.

And i almost forgot.. my sp's bday is tomorrow~ ^^ Don't think she got time to read my blog anymore.. haha.. but, "happy bday.. and yi ding yao xin fu wor".

Haven't been drinking for quite a while le.. haha.. and i'm looking forward to chill..but.. nobody go zouk with me.. haa.. alone sian de lor.. haha.. nevermind.. confirm got beer-ing session le.. ^^

For All That Was Missed

Too much to blog.. coz was really wondering what was the purpose of blogging..

SRC:
27th Aug - Was at the 1st official Welfare Department outing.. actully reached a day earlier to play mj with Karen, Jasmine, Ml and JJ.. but it turned out.. was really a bad experience. Not with the people, but with myself. Had too much.. way beyond my capabilities.. Definately i could refuse. I know yet i carried on. Perhaps still immature in my thinking. And thankfully for Karen, Jasmine and Ml.. or i wouldn't know what.

Went to work on the following day, tired but a promise kept.. but then.. saw 2 other promoters from our company.. haha.. and i knew it was time for me to 'get lost'... actually we were all 'fighting' to go home.. seriously, no one wanted to work.. haha.. but in the end i won. So went back to the chalet.. got changed, and got dunked and dipped 22 times in the sea. (Hey.. i not the 9 pcs nuggets ok? Even if so, no one would dip it so many times lor.. ) Not really irritated.. coz in the name of fun.. haha.. but i juz don't like the feeling of having sand in my pocket.

Ran around like i'm still very young.. haha.. till Witizens arrived. President of the Wi-Wong-Wong Club is also there.. haha.. those are the nonsense we all had to keep life interesting in school. (Perhaps a bit childish.. haha..) Thought of going home.. but then again.. it wasn't always easy to meet up. So ended up in BT's house for mj sesson again. Didn't win coz BT is really good at guarding.. haha.. and i had no luck. Play some games on his PS.. and i liked one of the games.. sort of like monopoly, yet was far more interesting.. So didn't sleep for 2 days.. tired, but was really happy.

Bazaar:
Not really glad.. time was too short.. and things were rather messy and unorganised. And i really don't know why.. i wasn't the one doing it.. yet..

On the bright side, the comm was really great. Very efficient.. till i didn't have the time to react. Was that type who always wait for the last second.. haiz.. Preparations still in progress.. i shall leave my comments till then.

Work:
3rd Sept - thought it was my last day of work.. but then, my 'contract' was extended.. seriously, i needed the money.. reason being i no longer took allowance from my parents nowadays.. and i hoped i could continue that way.. but SRC seems to take up too much of my time.. and i had to pay for part of the school fees too.. haiz.. 'thankfully', my sales manager asked me to work another 2 days.. for less than a hundred dollars.

School:
Got results.. not really sad coz i've expected.. but wasn't too happy also. Juz passed for most of the subjects.. nothing to celebrate. Looking at others results, they are much better. Juz because we played too much.. and slack too much. Character or peer influence? I dared not conclude. one thing for sure, i rather give up results for the memories and jokes. Rarely do you get the chance to laugh at something. Joke of the year goes to 'small black'... haha.. Well.. what to do? Just have to work double hard.. and maybe play double hard.. i will get this round back.

Bands:
3 bands.. of which, all 3 are inactive. Me that is. I still liked the noname jamming band... haha.. but becoz of work commitments, couldn't make time for it. Was the comm for SWE horn section.. ( i think they really ran out of players.. ) Still waiting for the right time to return.. WSS alumni too.. 5 more days.. and i shall be free. Vengence.. hahaa.. not really.. juz wanted to get back at lost time.

So much for all that was missed.. though i ommitted more.. but i guess i'll juz blog on.

Last Day

Last day of bazaar~!! Wahahahaha.. tired but glad. What is over doesn't matter anymore. But i really have to say, it really tipped my scales back when so many people were around to wrap up everything, even people not in the committee. Think i went too far somehow.. resorted to sacarsm instead of being firm.. haha.. i'm not born to lead, but to follow. Since everything is over, i want to forget this episode soon.. haha.. bad memories shouldn't stay.. I'm back! hahaha..

So happening today.. early in the morning, Karen, Jasmine and me went to get our free breakfast-Yogurt Ice Cream! Should have asked the vendor in the first day. The first cup i had was chocolate chips cookie with banana!? Thought it wouldn't taste nice coz i don't like to eat bananas.. =.=" But it turned out to be the opposite. I think it is because of professional help.. haha.. that stall owner help me to choose. Then i "kay kiang", .. afternoon went to mix one orange with kiwi.. and jiu mei kept making fun.. say what orange and green.. really that funny huh? Ya.. and jiu mei takes after my ah ma liao.. they always have the same taste, same temperament, and don't what think else.. can be scary wif 2 x ah ma or 2 x jiu mei.. hard to fight ... Now that the cold war is over, they can combine forces.. Better not offened them. And don't know why someone still want to fight with me on Friday.. Wrong day.. and i'm too tired to fight..

Spent a lot today at the bazaar.. maybe coz today is the last day.. maybe coz the business is poor for the vendors.. altogether i ate one chicken pie, one beef pie, three mini egg tarts and one saussage.. haha.. those are my breakfast, lunch and dinner.. Skipping lunch these few days.. so had to eat somehow or rather.. if not i'll be reduced to bones.. lol.

Went to watch talentime finals today.. wasn't as great as the semi-finals.. but actually was there to hear president of SRC to sing . But end up got stuck.. coz some of the contestants were really good.. all except.. opps.. bad karma.. haha.. but it was damn funny.. hahaha. I should say..he's very confident!

And when bazaar is over.. i'll think of my medicine.. saw someone during talentime today.. no wonder i stood back that time. He was still with her.. and he, is my college friend. And he knows about my intention too.. got me stalled and backed off.. i don't like competition.. and especially so with a friend. But, is it really true that once the feeling is lost, it couldn't be recovered anymore? i don't know.. but i saw her these 3 days during the bazaar.. coz i was too free.. kept walking around. Thought i was immune.. but i felt something.. seems like some glowing splint.. but i know it would get replaced soon by my placebo. It was meant to be this way.. Push, pull or whatever.. i'm lost.. can't the signal be clearer? I'm drifting... haiz..

So... everything is over! Want to thank my seniors, especially Karen, Jasmine, Grance and Ziming.. not forgetting.. the bazaar committee and welfarians from other department!

1st Day

(Censored)-didn't want to have bad karma..

So the first day, vendors trying new stunts her and there. I see magical desks.. suddenly they can move about, and have different formations. And i looked like and idiot carrying the desks and chairs all the way from 2.14 as and when vendors "requested" for it. First thing in the morning.. one complained that the location was not right. That was because they were very imaginative.. i won't find excuse for them. Next, the other complained that the desk wasn't the one stated when we were collecting our rental. That i won't find excuse for myself. I was too imaginative. The rest were complains that business isn't too good. For that, i didn't choose the date.. i wasn't my fault. But i knew they were coming in.. so i do have a part.. haha... pamphlets was late.. coz i dragged.. banner wasn't provided/included coz the FEW balloons were more important. And what else? all wanted to change booths.. haha.. or should i say, their products doesn't sell in SIM bah.. put the booth at the bus stop also no one wants to buy. Once again, the few very committed turned up early in the morning to help.. but still, i can see.. the disappointment displayed by ah gong.. if was enough to touch me.. but it wasn't solid to move that bear.. (coz he had more mass? hahaha.. he fit leh.. can move 5 desks at one go..) But at this stage, i can't give up. I can only bomb my blog.. and hope that things will be better for the next day. And the next day, i'll find myself bombing my blog again...

Learnt a lot during this period. And got to find out things are done due to a thing called reason. It is this reason that people like to question. Question a lot.. but work little.. and i don't feel like entertaining these people.. even if i told them, they would tell me a very wonderful soloution.. too wonderful.. coz they only use their mouth, not their hands.. or was it my hands they are using? I have less faith in people now.. too realistic and too competitive. Two more days.. and i'll be free! And for people who are already freed, there is nothing to be joyous of.

Maybe the only consolation i get for the day is that, the cold war between my two friends had ended after a month... Hahaa.. ^^

Still seeking my medicine.. and always something that happens.. double "push" effect.. haha... and no "pulling".. push somemore and i'll fall into the sea lor.. and seems that the placebo is working.... argh.. i don't want... what is happening? Hope i can sleep well tonight.. and wake up late tomorrow morning.. i need my rest.

What will happen?

Finally had the time to blog.. What a busy week. Moving desks, buying table cloth and all..But glad that the Bazaar is taking shape - thanks to the excos and also the bazaar committee. I'm almost drained.. but filled with anticipation for the bazaar, and also the period after that. Studies should come first... SHOULD.. haha.. i'm still bothered by some things. But now i'm very tired.. just finished finalsing the details for the Bazaar. Well... after all these while.. the only thing i can say is.. me and my itchy hand.. haha.

Ya.. today is another busy day. Went to Clementi after school with 14th mei and BT to look for table cloth. And it alwyas prove the point. Problems will surface when you actually start doing it. First, the width was fixed. Next, we couldn't find the colour we wanted. Then something more amusing.. the shop didn't have enough cloth for us.. what else could happen? But in the end still got it done.. luckily they were there with me.. if not, a indecisive person like me will stand there the whole day wondering what to do.. hahha. I guess the worst part is that we paid $199 for the cloths.

After that, i went back to school to meet the vendor (hopefully that is the last one) . Was early.. so "nua" in one corner, trying to waste my time. But Ming Li and Edmund they all saw me.. haha.. and they were on their way to watch the semi finals for talentime.. and since i had time to spare, i went with them.. Was really impressed by some of the contestants. Luckily didn't take part.. haha.. if not sure get eliminated one..

Finally got everything done today. Got home before 6pm .. was about to bathe when someone called. Someone whom i've done wrong to a few years ago. Then, it was time to go out again.. but everyting is alright now, except maybe .. hmm..

I don't know why.. nowadays i'm devoid of feelings. Not that i can't feel.. but just that i don't want it to overwhelm me. So i guess, it was suppressed.. but better than to let it all out and hurt people and myself in this process. I don't know.. seems to me that life is getting far too serious. People will do things only if it benefits them.. Reality bites. The survival of the fittest.. and all these while througout childhood, we have been trained. Just that we didn't know... till the day when something happpend, and we began to wonder why. And when we realised, it is when it hurts. I sure got a few things locked.. few had the key(s).. not me.

Guess had to keep my momentum going.. for at least after the Bazaar. Had to remain at the best of mood. Shouldn't be affected.. at least not now. Everything else can wait. As i said, problems will surface on that day... just wait and see.. but hopefully, the committee will be able to glide through. Maybe i should turn to faith again.. whoa.. another long story.. i'm very tired.

Baza-AR

Missing lectures here and there.. what is happenning.. 15 more days.. can't wait for it to be over. Had to find time for my studies.. coz i'm lagging .. ya.. lagging... l a g g i n g. Also had been skipping band practices.. Concert coming soon.. wah wah ... overloaded.

I'm sooo Tired

Wah~ so much to blog but no energy to do it.. i'm so tired.. but at least Bazaar is taking shape ^^ Thanks to everyone! Finally understand why things are done in certain ways.. but i'm too tired.. time to sleep. Zzz

W O R R I E D ~

What a weird timing.. Anyway, i stil have the bazaar to worry about.. and i think my seniors are even more worried.. Coz they have to answer to someone else.. Though, it doesn't give me the excuse not to deliever. But after that, i guess it is time for studies. Though i should need my dose of "medication".. i think i can't wait of it to appear. Time is limited.. and it is rather irritating to keep asking for a medicine to drop from the sky. Since the one i found doesn't suit me, i'll have to wait lo.. who knows how long? But it shouldn't affect my studies.. Maybe it will.. lol.. nonsense again..

Bazaar bazaar.. really want to thank our seniors for helping us with the bulk, especially the Ex-cos. Felt very bad about it.. but the things i can do are rather limited. There will be a meeting later .. but rather disappointed.. the date that i choose is ALWAYS wrong. My fault huh..haha.. nah.. just don't want people to feel bad about not being able to attened. I believe that they have genuine reasons.. they have their freedom too..and they don't need to explain to me too.. just that i'm asking for help. I have no rights to question.. just me and my itchy hand.

I'm so tired and hungry ... it's already 0435 now.. and i didn't take my dinner just now.. Just couldn't get to sleep again. The mosquitoe is bugging me... and also there are too many things on my mind. Where should i go from here onwards? I'm lost..

Sunday isn't that Sunny

Haiz.. Sunday and i still have to work for the bazaar lor.. went to Woodlands after band practice. From Tampines to my home and then to Woodlands again. Nobody asked me to.. i think i over commit le.. Went in search of vendors selling non-fashion related stuffs.. wonder how to get them.. sell toys? or flowers? How to find the market in SIM... Don't know what they are thinking.. In the end i'm still responsible to the vendors.. They sure complain if they have no business.. now like i'm going to "ta" everything huh.. and hor.. and hor.. today i'm celebrating my birthday leh!!.. sad la.. who ask me so slow in doing things..

Luckily Serene was there to lead the way.. seldom go that far north nowadays.. haha.. So we set off to ask a few vendors.. well, what can i say.. some people are just not easy to get along with.. haha.. i hope they meant nothing personal.. so in the end we only got 3 more vendors.. with 1 confirm coming and the other two considering. Next in task - collect all the rental by end of this month. Poor jiu mei.. haiz.. poor everyone..

Then morning band practice was still ok.. except i think i'm lacking in endurence.. btw, the principal player is back. I'm relieve of my duty.. need to work harder.. stress.. haha. Then me and my stupid idea.. tried a new route on the way home.. then took me so long to reach. Band practice ended at 1.30pm and i reached home about 2 hours later. No wonder i'm in a bad mood..

So that mood lasted all day.. even when i'm going to celebrate my birthday with my family.. Until i see.. my tiramisu birthday cake!! hahaha.. i just love chocolates ^^

S T R E S S -

Haiz.. i'm so stress.. me and my fate huh? Or izzit my itchy hand again? Shouldn't have drawn that lot in the first place.. Since i already did, what is there to do? Ooo.. can't wait for the bazaar to be over.. have a feeling of being sandwiched all around. No one is at fault.. and i'm not using this to target anyone.. Guess everyone is anxious about the Bazaar. Management, vendors and all of us. Now having more and more pimples and grey hair.. haha. Still have not taken my school work and band into account. And there are other things too.. like family and friends.. I don't lack time. Just lacking in motivation. Should have taken the med to motivate me.. hahaa.. what nonsense..

Will be going to Tampines for band practice again. Hopefully i won't screw up anything.. I'm used to doing things by 'feel' rather then 'skill'. Which means i'm depending on luck most of the time.. how unprofessional.

The coming monday will be so special to me.. yet i think it was ruined before it came.. I'm still being childish.. Constantly reading the first chapter over and over again.. yet, so much have changed. Guess this is the process of growing up.. What is left are just memories and not feelings. It wouldn't surface again. And this is where the chapter concludes. Love shouldn't become hate. Even if it does, there are no longer any feelings towards. After so much, i began to wonder.. why it took me so much time and energy.. Actually, i've already started writting the next chapter.. and no matter how it turns out, it will still be my story. It is just a matter of choice.. to close or not to close.

2nd MGM

Had a bad scare just now.. was asked to give an update of the bazaar to the whole SRC during MGM. Haha.. knew i couldn't, but had to anyway. Wasn't pessimistic.. just that i'm not up to it .. yet. So it won't fail next time? Ya.. coz the 2IC is going.. haha.. Not my cup of tea leh.. The moment i took over the mic, feel like wanting to sing a song.. haha.. but didn't want to scare the rest.. lol. Guess the only time i won't panic holding a mic is when at KTV..

Called some vendors for the bazaar today and didn't get good respond from them.. Realised that they are people who wanted to do business while we are the ones just wanting to have fun.. But, charging them $60 for 3 days is like giving them an opportunity to earn a huge profit.. yet they still want to complain this, complain that.. In theory, everything is assumed.. lol .. but in practical, everything can go wrong.. I'm not pessimistic, just stating the facts.. I'm just finding fault with my optimism..

No job liao.. sob.. and i missed my IR lecture.. another $50 gone.. ( jiu mei calculated it for me). Two more days to my POB test.. and i haven't started studying.. especially since it is going to be essay based. Think i will burn the mid night oil tonight.. wah..

I'm Immune!

Saw my last medicine so many times today.. wahaha.. didn't want to take it.. but don't know why it came wandering in front of me... Guess i'm immune. A good thing.. so many medicine to choose from.. one i'm immune.. the other i'm allergic.. there might be a third...

Forgot to update an entry yesterday.. was the second bazaar meeting .. but it turned out to be a total flop.. Didn't prepare well enough for it.. didn't get the info i needed.. most importantly.. didn't call off the meeting when i knew that it will be a waste of time. All my fault.. but it won't happen again. At least i hope. Things we discussed couldn't be realised.. Only towards the end, did we managed to get some work done.. what will be the next step? Thought through some during today's maths lecture.. It WON'T fail again.

Bazaar Argh...

Woke up rather early today, so end up reaching school very early also... think my record ever since i started schooling at SIM. Again, auntie refused to sit with us.. chose to have "er ren shi jie" with her friend.. Halfway through, jiu mei was feeling unwell.. didn't cross my mind that it would be that serious... but after seeing her, it was like she was so pale lor.. but luckily she's alright.

Then came the long awaited SRC Welfare meeting.. didn't prepare for anything lor.. then suay suay kena ic for bazaar. Argh.. jiu mei was hoping that i'll get it, so that i could zap someone.. haha.. juz kidding.. anyway, didn't expect it, so was quite lost. Hmm.. think i will be busy for a while...