What will happen?

Finally had the time to blog.. What a busy week. Moving desks, buying table cloth and all..But glad that the Bazaar is taking shape - thanks to the excos and also the bazaar committee. I'm almost drained.. but filled with anticipation for the bazaar, and also the period after that. Studies should come first... SHOULD.. haha.. i'm still bothered by some things. But now i'm very tired.. just finished finalsing the details for the Bazaar. Well... after all these while.. the only thing i can say is.. me and my itchy hand.. haha.

Ya.. today is another busy day. Went to Clementi after school with 14th mei and BT to look for table cloth. And it alwyas prove the point. Problems will surface when you actually start doing it. First, the width was fixed. Next, we couldn't find the colour we wanted. Then something more amusing.. the shop didn't have enough cloth for us.. what else could happen? But in the end still got it done.. luckily they were there with me.. if not, a indecisive person like me will stand there the whole day wondering what to do.. hahha. I guess the worst part is that we paid $199 for the cloths.

After that, i went back to school to meet the vendor (hopefully that is the last one) . Was early.. so "nua" in one corner, trying to waste my time. But Ming Li and Edmund they all saw me.. haha.. and they were on their way to watch the semi finals for talentime.. and since i had time to spare, i went with them.. Was really impressed by some of the contestants. Luckily didn't take part.. haha.. if not sure get eliminated one..

Finally got everything done today. Got home before 6pm .. was about to bathe when someone called. Someone whom i've done wrong to a few years ago. Then, it was time to go out again.. but everyting is alright now, except maybe .. hmm..

I don't know why.. nowadays i'm devoid of feelings. Not that i can't feel.. but just that i don't want it to overwhelm me. So i guess, it was suppressed.. but better than to let it all out and hurt people and myself in this process. I don't know.. seems to me that life is getting far too serious. People will do things only if it benefits them.. Reality bites. The survival of the fittest.. and all these while througout childhood, we have been trained. Just that we didn't know... till the day when something happpend, and we began to wonder why. And when we realised, it is when it hurts. I sure got a few things locked.. few had the key(s).. not me.

Guess had to keep my momentum going.. for at least after the Bazaar. Had to remain at the best of mood. Shouldn't be affected.. at least not now. Everything else can wait. As i said, problems will surface on that day... just wait and see.. but hopefully, the committee will be able to glide through. Maybe i should turn to faith again.. whoa.. another long story.. i'm very tired.