Nothing Is Permanent Except Change

"the universal human yearning for something permanent, enduring, without shadow of change” - Willa Cather

But the fact is, changes are prevalent. Security will not last long... but without changes, everything will be so monotonous.. i'm still an optimist.. but now becoming a realist soon.. if people keeps showing their selfish nature.. Soon i'll learn it from them.. and till then, let's see who can be more selfish.. muahahaa. Still, compassion can revert all that... but it'll only happen in a state of adversity. Learning not to take things for granted.. and be less self-centered. Confident but not arrogant.

So i've decided on a change in my lifestyle.. need to catch up already.. if not i'll always be lagging.. Think i'll have to keep myself occupied. Stayed back after school to study and found that i can only comprehend 1.5 pages of my econs after staring at it for 2 hours.. It's so tough. And that is only for econs.. think my maths is a goner.. and IR.. i will have to skip it once again this Wednesday.. 2 times in a row.. total i skipped 3 - 4 IR lectures... hahaha... time to panic..

Still have a lot of things pending.. a lot of things yet to buy.. that includes a powerstrip, which i lost during the bazaar, a 256 RAM... and so on.. And also quite a number of things to do.. That includes studying. I need someone to guide me. I'm lost.. in academic. Didn't want the medicine nonsense to bother me.. so.. i'll KIV it. I guess, first priority is still studies.. it was already bad enough not to get into local university.. and the same type of problem again.. though in a lighter degree. Nothing will rekindle that feel for now. I'm determined. Of course, i'll still enjoy life.. felt so happy today.. at least i've achieved something.

Was actually looking forward to Tuesday .. coz someone was accompanying me to study.. but now it depends.. well, kind of understand it.. all the way from Hougang to Clementi just to study.. =.=" .. coz there's no lessons tomorrow.. kind of disappointed. I'll hold on... letting go everytime when there's problem.. that shouldn't be.. wouldn't want the feeling of regret anymore. Not now. The indecisive nature has to be kept in check.

And i don't want to lock my fate that soon..at least not with this.. Erm.. don't ask me what's my decision.. i don't know. Libra and Virgo sure don't match.. (it was an excuse) Who knows what will happen in the future? Might be something very interesting.. maybe something else.. Still, studies first....^^

Jedi and Warlord... they are not natural enemies... hahaha.. now i finally understood.

Must sleep early today (but it is already 1.20am) and try to reach school early tomorrow to book seats.. coz don't know why Serene kept coming late for stats and hence ismond is always earlier. And even when i've booked the seats, she'll missed it... coz Serene is not around? haha.. maybe she didn't expect? Nevermind.. this time round i'll make sure to let her know.