Lost in Emotions

I'm really sick le.. that's why i'm blogging on a saturday night! Argh.. Supposed to be at zouk already lor.. sigh..

Other than being sick, i think i tio poison le.. sigh.. been having a series of weird dreams.. is it just because everything is starting to settle down? Perhaps i wanted to too.. 2 whole months of events, outings, happenings, and maybe some da bian also... and finally, these all will come to an end.

But, people all around me are scaring me.. it's not what you see is what you get. People change with situation.. and with status too. (that includes myself) It isn't easy at all.. and i'm not really confident. Must really purge my poison out soon.. lost my placebo long ago, and no longer worked for me..

Lost in emotions.. woah.. (missed this song on mambo) Hah..

School really really is reopening soon leh.. i want to start schooling and maybe work real hard for the coming year le.. Although still got involved in SRC.. but i think i'll make more friends.. lol.. as i told some of the freshies.. must join src.. then know more people and extend the circle.. so if i happen to work in sales, i can start calling all of them.. lol.. Impressive work on Friday.. coz much more people signed up for welfare.. special thanks to Johnson and Syl. Haha.. of coz i got do work 1 lor.. haha.. if not, how come they will sigh up? Projects on the other hand, need no promotions.. (so they actually no need sales).. why get so many people? End up having too many choices to make.. coz all are too good le.. haha.. Sometimes, no choice is the best choice.

OOh.. so excited.. haha.. met so many new friends last friday, some who went for the camp.. Of coz, this batch is different.. and being older (and of coz wiser) There are some who chose to challenge.. (haven't they learnt? Challenging the authority have implications.. refer to.. erm.. haha.. camps) The thing is, there is a thing call grudge. If not, why do you think the people of the middle east still enter war these days? Check history please.. as Kah Beng (my IR lecturer) says, "it dates back to 2000 years ago..." whaha.. SO PLEASE .. don't be so eager to show off your intelligence lor.. i'm not stupid by the way, and i'm not inflexible.. but i have to repeat again.. things happen for a reason.. and if you don't know the reason.. don't act smart. Hah. Try doing that to your boss next time.. and i wonder what hell-ish kind of life will one get.

People these days are so rude.. mei li mao! Hahaa.. Smarter i agree, but really no manners. Oh yah.. was about to be tipped off my scale when i just lun.. haha.. "noobs bring you down to their level and beat you with experience.." whaha.. for what should i degrade myself? Just pretend i didn't hear lor.. haha.. i'm ok de.. since after that, who will remember who said what? But then again, i'm human also.. so nevertheless, will feel agitated ba.. for the moment only.

Haiz.. so sian.. blogging on a saturday night.. haha... when i'm supposed to be out.. And i'm still being doubtful about some things.. couldn't sleep.. argh..