Am i Dumb Or What?

Thursday - 02 feb: Went school for a full day.. and the night before, we had an agreement, those who came after 9.30am would have to treat the whole group lunch.. and for once, all came so early.. haha.. so it really works huh.

Went FI after such a long break.. and i don't catch any ball at all.. wondering what is the lecturer teaching.. getting worried about my results.. haiz. But was really looking forward to Thursday.. coz it was the only day where i get my 'off'.. and also the only day where i could stay in school and see my friends... of coz not forgetting Table Soccer (TS) !.. but then, the whole world knew of the 'cheat code'.. so it was getting boring waiting for a chance..

And then after a full day in school, met up with wm and anni to jam.. after about half a year.. we got together to 'practice' again.. but then we were very lousy.. compared to the band next room.. haha.. so we made up a lot of excuses and jokes to cover ourselves. Before we left, the uncle gave us 3 packets of drinks.. said it was 'complimentary'.. hahaa.. then we were wondering.. maybe he gave us drinks so as to 'beg' us not to go back again? .. lol. Finally wm agreed to let go of drumming.. haha.. so we are now looking for a drummer.. we are having 2 guitarist.. so should be alright.

While on the way home.. saw someone from my secondary school.. wanted to avoid alighting at the same busstop, i went to wm's place for a short visit.. and at the sam time bai nian.. at around 11pm = =. But it wasn't my intention.. but still, his mom gave me a red packet.. haha.. so pai seh.. lol.

Friday - 03 Feb: Slept till late noon.. before having a 'haircut' and going to bt's place for gathering. And then it was a mistake to cut my hair.. as always. I now looked koo koo again.. haha.. but then wait till my work 'contract' ends.. i should be going to have a botak head.. lol.

Reached bt's place by cab.. the journey is very long by bus.. so had to 'invest' a bit.. afterall, the gathering at bt's place was to 'bai nian'.. or in english, to gamble. Overall, think i had won some.. or maybe i lost some? haha.. i don't really know.. but then it was very fun! Small win at mahjong too.. haha.. so i rather play mj then blackjack.

Think it was becoz i seldom see the people in school nowadays.. or maybe i don't know.. but it's great to hang out with friends (and i mean a lot of them) once in a while.. and sometimes, having them for support really comforts a lot. Saw almost the whole of welfare department get together.. with the different years taking part.. ohh.. haha.. today we also celebrated our newly elected Head of Welfare's birthday.. so good to have so many people celebrate birthday with.

So played mj till 1.30am.. argh.. and then we left for home. Special thanks to Mr salty for sponsoring the cab fare, and also those who 'unwillingly contrubuted' to his wallet.. hahaa..

So i did went home today, never stay at bt's place.. haha.. though i'm wilful.. and i know it, i guess i've slowly beginning to realise something. Maybe then, there are some things that never change. But then these few days.. i don't know what happened.. it was arrogance and aggression taking over.. hopefully these things don't become a part of me..

But then, i wondered.. how come people like to tripod.. haiz.. and those kena tripod-ed chose to believe too.. a great 'survival' strategy.. but then it was only for the way up during work.. towards friends.. where else can we go? But then again.. some people are just like that, and will never change.. by telling them the facts, i'm actually being seen as no manners.. what the? I do agree.. i said things in a crude and sarcastic way.. my fault too.. haha.. aiya.. to each of their own ba.. don't come and disturb my life.

Seeing things i don't want to see.. and choosing to ignore.. or maybe forget.. or maybe it just don't matter anymore? Sometimes i really feel very shitty over certain things the are actually very simple and worthless.. but to me, it meant a lot.. not the kind where outsiders can understand easily.. and not only that, they have no rights to intervene.. but still people want to pull and others want to push.. it was black, then white, then black again, and then white again.. till the whole area became grey.

Haha.. the whole entry shifted the whole focus.. LOL.. i was too stressed up over exams, work and all other smaller and greater things. And for the don't know how many times.. Not that i don't want to quit.. i'm just being stubborn.. held to my so called principles.. just because my manager can't find anyone to take over.. so i assumed responsibility.. haha.. am i dumb or what?

Guess i'm just dumb.