Knowing All

Knowledge is power.. and knowledge is burden. The more i know, the more i don't know. Thought my patch was rough.. but every time shocking things came looking for me. What am i suppose to do? I can't forget.. yet i don't want to remember.. and it isn't of my direct link.. why did i and why didn't i?

I asked for what i want in my life, yet i didn't realise what life itself wants from me.

If i can, i'll not. But i can't. And what if i did? It still won't. I just don't want to know. Ignoring isn't enough.

Another venue, another day, another person, another time.

Well it wasn't without credit.. i saw the 'ultimate' experts in TS.. and wow!.. haha.. guess i was too enclosed in my own world of TS.. And of coz.. what a place to K.. All my well wishes shall be to. But then my world darkens once more.. i'm just too young to comprehen the workings.. and when i do.. if i do, i will.

just in case anyone is wondering,.. i'm not having a bad patch in life.. nope.. i mean the usual patch is there.. haha.. but maybe just too emotional. And i am thinking.. i'm a thinker. And it is not up to me. Sure there is a choice. .i saw an online story about choices.. we all can choose to be positive. . but can we really? Of coz.. the story says so. Yet how many is strong willed enough to do it? Few perhaps.

Seriously considering whether to post this or not.. coz i know it won't reflect well. I'm not trying to self destruct.. i never will. For what i think ever since i played mj.. even if the tiles are lousy, there is still way to play.. and who knows? One might just win the game that way.