I Still Despise

Sis came home today, and so i told her what happened to her vios. As expected, i won't get to drive anymore.. haiz.. tio banned le. Haha.. might as well.

See what 1 stupid lzb can do. Sian la.. don't know how to drive then don't drive la.. kns.. don't know how to drive, drive MPV somemore. Didn't see, still want to accuse people. DAMN. (don't get me wrong, i don't have anything against women drivers.. but the fact remains that this bugger didn't check her side mirrors while moving.)

I really can't believe this, this lady from the admin actually opened her mouth to seek payment from me. And when i refused to pay, she sort of threaten to seek legal advice. FOR ONE HUNDRED SINGAPORE DOLLARS, IS IT WORTH GOING TO COURT?????? imagine the legal fees, the court fees and all that.. siao ar? But already siao le.. i believe that people of this kind will go to that extend. Somemore this lady (or should i say auntie) is working lor.. $100 repairs cannot afford? Need to fight it out with a student meh? No compassion at all! Huh? Whats more.. she already got witnesses ready! I don't believe in making a mountain out of a molehill. Need to go till this extend meh? Ignoring whose's fault it is, (we might never know.. she'll insist that she's right, and i won't admit i was in the wrong).. but the things that the auntie did makes me despise still. I think i feel like puking le lor.

No, it won't end me condemning her for as long as there is greviences. But i'm not so lowdown such that i'll go scratch her vehicle.

And which reminds me.. the school admin can consider installing a few security camera at the carpark or not? When the accident happened, i don't have any passenger as witness. Like that very luggi de leh. We pay so much in our school fees not for the marble floor de lor.. and then still have to spend even more money to employ clearners and equipment to polish the marble floor until i can see my face with it lor. And it is also not for building a bamboo garden so that they are destroy to make way for escalators. (which eventually the final year students might not get to use) I WANT SECURITY CAMERAS IN OUR SCHOOL!

Yes, i resent. For i felt that this was really illogical. Afterall, the person who made all these happened is part of the organisation. Who else can i blame?

After all that, i've been overly defensive in driving coz i don't want to incur anymore expenses for the moment. LOL.. perhaps i should take bus for the moment ba. Sometimes things need time to cool. So be it.

Been clearing debts, and still had a few more to clear. Didn't want to go bash, coz pok liao.. and also said that i wanted to cut down, might as well.

Yesterday was dicussing statistics with my chem engine friend, and then discovered, the similarities in both modules. But i think i need a pure maths student to answer my question.

Been starting on revision, but felt that the pace was way too slow. But from next week onwards, i should be staying in school after class to study. LOL.. yupz, i'll be free for dinner in school.

Finally, the student portal notified us of the change in FI class. From friday to saturday! KNS.. how can they do that? (well, actually i kind of liked the idea.. whaha.. but i just want to niao the school for their bad service) LOL.. imagine those who had to work on saturdays.. friday is weekday and saturday is a weekend. Don't they know the difference? Weekend is very precious de wor. Lousy service.. huh! But my fridays are now freed. LOL.. thurs and fri... wahaha.. and after class on sat, i'll go boonlay for band.

Cleared some doubts, and then realised what i knew was true. Have not been making any comments becoz it doesn't concern me. And i felt that, whatever choice we make, we must be able to stand by it. Ignoring how others will be affected, so long as one is satisfied, it won't seems to matter. BUT, if you can't take the criticism for your actions, then i believe, it might be a wrong decision afterall. (where will you be satisfied?) Most of the time, it involves balancing a lot of things...

But still i must say, regardless of how things turned out, it doesn't concern me. I'm too busy clearing my debts! LOL. But disappointed afterall.. haha.. coz i didn't expect things to turned out this way.

Xmas soon, so i thought it might help people who might want to send mye xmas presents by preparing a wishlist..

In order of preference:
1) Security Cameras in SIM
2) Winning numbers for 4D
3) A second upper for my degree

LOL.. these are all so intangible..

As xmas approaches, the year is coming to an end. Another new year, another set of unrealised resolution. Time to say byebye to this lousy 2006.

I Despise

When it comes to this, what i can say is, some people are really hard to handle. And most likely, if your skin is as thick as an elephant's hide, or if there is any bullet proofing, there isn't much one can't do.

I really can't imagine, how on earth did people like this exist.

Ok.. on the other side, how on earth did people like me exist?

LOL.. a bad bad 2006.. Can really feel that when one is suay, qi jiao eh bian gong guey.

Of coz, everything comes with experience..and i'm really short of it. Just may it be a learning experience for me. Still had a few more issues to handle.

I just want to get over and done with.. but i can't imagine why people can be so scheming.. and just for a $100! Need to go to such an extend meh? Is pride only worth $100? I don't know.. some people are just like that.. should i call it a disgrace?.. and to think that this kind of people came from the admin side.. huh!

Who's at fault isn't important anymore.. it depends on how many "witnesses" you can find.. you tell me.. who will help a student? They are ultimately the "lowest form of life" in this institution. Even the cleaner uncle wants to tripod the ruiling..

Grievances i had. Unfairness. And when you discover the right don't always win, there must be some other formulas for calculating. I guess, the best is suck thumb ba.

And i also discovered the power of $100. Yes. For some people, it is worth fighting for, (even if their income around 1.8k per month).. even to the extent of seeking legal advice. And even going all out to push the blame away. And i can't imagine what some people will do next. Complain to MP? Sue until the supereme court? Just to get the $100 back? I despise this kind of people. Money do wonders. And today i really saw how wonderful it is. Despise and condemn this kind of people.

What's more wonderful was that some people can secure witness lor.. huh! Take it that i'm inexperience ba.. and then i blame the institution again.. why don't they install security camera? HUH? I rather have less snacks and coffee lor.. i rather not have escalator. I rather have less study bench. I rather have chosen NOT TO start my schooling experience here. I rather not.

I wondered, since money is so powerful, why can't it shut the trap of some idiotic people? And they still want to say feng liang hua.. nb la.

All i want this xmas is peace. Damn all those who spoilt my xmas. I should start buying some "xiao ren" to hit le.

Down on Luck

Not need to wait for a few days to get broker. I already did.

Can't imagine my luck was really so bad until that i lost $35 in a single mahjong game. Ya.. lost $5 on the table, the other $30 lost to the parking fine. Hah.. for a $2 coupon, i had to pay $30. WTH.. what on earth am i thinking?

Argh.. i really really no mood le.. so down on luck.. haiz.. nothing seems to be right. I think the best is to hide at home for the moment until my luck turns better.

No, after all, i didn't go zouk out, and i was $35 poorer on 9th of dec.

Suay until the 4D also don't want to open the car license plate.. haha.. and when it did, it was 1 number wrong. Sian.. how to cover? I need to cover $260 now lor..

But still had to move ba.. but for once, i felt that getting in a streak of bad luck is worse than the feeling of a breakup.. wahahahaaa... (ok la.. not really, but still as bad.)

Like that hor.. teach me how to choose to be happy? Haha... hei se you mo ar? But then again, had to recover fast.. festive season leh.. hahaaa.. "this the season to be "folly", la la la la la.. "

Darn.. even the birds also want to chap 1 leg.. as if luck not bad enough, still want to poo on the vios.. waaaah.. spare me la.

Actually just reached home not long ago. Eyes very dry coz was wearing contact lenses for a long long time le. Somemore had to play mj from 11pm till 5am. (the parking fine was clocked at 12am.. suay hor?) Strain on eyes.. haha.. and i don't like driving in the dark. Makes it really difficult to see. But still, sent both my collegues home.. as well as practice my driving. Now i understand why some of my friends offered to drive me back le.. out of sheer goodwill ^^

Was driving until we went "holland".. whahahaa... i don't really recognise the route.. hahaa.. so turned and u-turned.. spent a bit extra time, but still managed to reach destination.. whahaa.. i must admit.. i'm really lousy at these. But what shocked me was that i accidentally reached a placed which i said i didn't want to go... whahaa...already programmed le? No la.. i think is just plain "bad" luck..

I think i'm in a "trance" like state for the past few days.. can't really focus on whatever things i do... haiz.. ze me ban?

Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

But these few days, i realised, relatives around me starts to treat me quite differently le. As in, they don't really fuss around when things happened.. Not that that didn't care, but i guess, i'm old enough to take care of things myself le. Had to be personally "liable". But i'm really glad they do provide some clues as in where to go next and what i should do. Really leh.. i'm at a lost if they left me there.

Like what i've learnt thomas said today, "when difficulty arises, it's an opportunity to grow and be stronger" LOL..yupz. But hor, strong also no use leh.. if suay feed bird also become chicken (direct translation).. haha.

Hair still wet.. so i blog a bit more..

Band was sianz again. Coz we did mononoke again! Argh.. then hor, i dread going band early leh.. coz they always want to chute pattern de.. this time got to sing song again! And i don't know how to sing with action.. ahaha.. sian leh.. so old le still got to do this kind of thing. - - And hor.. that wl very bad.. haha.. don't think i don't know ar.. kept laughing at me.. -_-

Concert coming soon, and the band still a bit weak leh.. as if burdened with a heavy load like that.. i don't know about the others, but i'm sure sian.. coz shit happens.

Ok la.. hoped that concert will be a successful one ba..

Haiz.. hoped that my bad luck will go away soon.. haiz...

Is this Considered an Accident?

Haiz.. never thought that it would happen to me.. haiz.. the already broke me will be "broker" in another few days.

While getting ready to go school this afternoon, i already felt uneasy. Not deja vu, but something was really not right. Left home a little bit earlier, something unusual.. i should have known by then.

Drove to school, and everything seems alright.. but at the carpark, it was a wrong decision made. I said wrong decision doesn't mean i was in the wrong.. just that i didn't take into account what wrong the other party might do.

Let the picture say the thousand word ba..

1. i was behind the white car when the driver suddenly moved to the opposite lane.

2. No hazard lights, no break lights, nothing or whatsoever from the white car, i moved forward.

3. While moving.. i suddenly realised that the white car was actually doing a reverse parking.

4. And as it does, my lane was cut off.. couldn't get out of the way.



And what was damn horrifying was that even after impact, the driver didn't realise that she had a collision. OMG.. perhaps driving instructor never teach them to use side mirror. I was so damn pek chek.. argh.. spoilt my whole afternoon.

It was raining when i assessed the damage.. thought it was just a scratch. But when break time came, i realised there was actually a dent.. nb.. this time siao liao lor.. pocket going to get burnt again.

Everything also got its 1st time.. sigh.. and i never got into this kind of shit before.. so a bit lost. Didn't really know what to do.. claim insurance? Report police? Or make the other driver pay? Or pay for it myself?

Afterall, i saw, i wasn't at fault. Fault was that she didn't use her side mirror. Ok.. maybe my fault was that i didn't horn before the accident. Sigh. I shall use the horn indiscriminately from now on.

Drove to amk to the garage to get the whole quote.. and it came to $230 after discount. Coz got a dent le.. then more expensive. Come monday, need to meet up with the driver to settle. Hope to get partial settlement.. i don't think anyone will bear full responsibility, especially when it comes to money matter.

Argh..how come so suay? Today not friday 13th leh.. is 8th.



Some "minor" scratches.. haiz.

Still have to account it to my sis... confirm tio bomb de.. but no choice ba.. who ask me so suay? Maybe go buy 4D wor.

Accident i agree.. but minor 1.. luckily no one was hurt.. haha.. carpark leh.. how to injure anyone?

"Tactical Mission"

Was on a "mission" yesterday.. well, actually, only me and the other need not be tactical. So for tactical missions, i wasn't supposed to blog.. but since the cover has been blown.. i guess it does not matter anymore.. haha.

Zouk was the target point and by the time we reached, it was around 11.30pm.. the local uni just had their last paper.. so it wasn't suprise to see lots of people. But then, it was a bit too much. Thought it was xmas or what.. the queue for velvet extended till the underground carpark there.. so after a while of queuing, we decided to change location to MOS.

On comparison, it was much quieter... maybe a bit too quiet. Perhaps the place too big le? Haha.. so empty and eerie till the multi storey carpark also got the dry ice.. Well, $20 for cover, and so many rooms to enter, i guess, it might be worth it ba.

But i was wrong.. was it me or was it the place, i don't really know. Had this feeling of leaving once i stepped inside. The music was right, but the crowd and price was wrong.

And then one by one, the section got mowed down by their respective "RSM". Muahhaha.. luckily i no need to do this kind of thing.. doesn't feel good to do things behind someone's back. LOL.. cover was blown because someone smsed the location.. didn't they know that smses are subjected to RSM's check? Haha.. don't they know how to encrypt?

Very weird, the prices of the drinks seems to varied greatly, and they said it was because of the content.. -_- Siao ar.. as if i really believe? What got 40% and 42% de? Simi sai? Kind of hate place like this.. damn expensive.. and a bottle of martell cost $209 (inclusive of 2 jugs mixer)... and their 1 for 1.. they said, they don't know.. must watch the tv... = =

It the end, it was more like a chilling session. But when 1 for 1 came.. we whacked until we seh.. 3 person, 4 jugs, in 30 mins. Hahaha.. the fastest ever, and i guess i really waste money le..

And then.. the crowd at the dance floor was even weirder. A lot of auntie lor.. wahahahaa.. no wonder zion was so empty. And got auntie still nevermind.. kns lor, they keep making eye contact.. wa lao eh.. er xin. Either that, got quite a number of trans too.. wa lao eh.. if not, its ah diong..haha.. no wonder lo. No wonder our school bash can sercure that place.. and then i start to believe the "curse".. maybe it'll come true again.

Once again, i spent my time rotting at home. Cycling trip at ECP today was somehow cancelled.. lol.. weather so bad, later skid ar.

Paint the Car White

Not a very happening afternoon i had, but couldn't say so for my evening. Weather was too good to go to school, so i hid a home.. i know i said i wouldn't want to miss any lessons anymore.. but class test is different leh.. I've checked before skipping.. ultra vires today for LBO.. safe to miss.

Was sleeping through my eveing when my phone finally woke me up.. someone was in trouble.. yah.. a friend of mine got his car splashed with paint. So we went to make a police report. Found out that is was a serial vandal.. (lol.. something like serial killer like that)so the police jie jie took some pictures of the car for record and after that, we went to get the car cleaned.. DIY style.

Perhaps a mistake? But i doubt any car cleaning would want to remove that kind of mess for $3. Bo bian, we clean it ourselves. Very difficult to get it off, but it does come off.. thankfully, if not, really going to curse and swear le. (anyway, we did curse and swear.. haha..) Wondered why would anyone do this kind of thing.. but then again, "one kind of grain feed hundred kinds of people".

But i think is some people eyes red.. but my friend also la.. of all places, go and park at the private house there.. infront of some ah sia car.. haha.. and that car also kena. It was a Lotus Elise~! Wah! Ah sia leh.. but my friend's car was a Honda Jazz leh.. =_=.. maybe the vandal cock eye.. see car must paint. NB..

We wasted 2 hours getting the paint off, and that excludes washing the car.. argh.. i do until very pek chek lor.. curse and swear until don't know like what. And finally when we got it done, it was 12am le.. Zzz.. but still had to fill my stomach.. wahaha.. for the time and effort put in washing, i got a treat ^^

Then after supper, we went for a spin.. and i was the pilot. Went all the way to zion (zouk there) and then visited a few places where the nightlife was supposed to be.. but was rather empty coz it was a tuesday night.. haha.. the roads were empty, except for the hordes of taxis. LOL.. and in the middle of the night, they drive like very funny like that.. or should i say, aimless? Can't even anticipate what they are going to do next. Wanted to visit more places, but it was out of the way.. and it was nearing 2 am.. still have a medical appointment at TTSH tomorrow morning.. sigh..

Still felt that i was missing something.. coz monday didn't get to have my western food at botak jones there.. kns.. closed on monday.. and then, went to bugis for cq steamboat instead.. - - It was the 3rd steamboat in the last 3 weeks.. whaha.. i don't believe i can't get fat. So far so good.. but i want it to be better.

Yesterday i finally get to play DOTA! Wahaha.. no wonder so many of them got stucked. Fun leh.. though bo liao. But played LAN game with friends very fun.. very funny also.. whahaa.. and i discovered dy alan had more talents. His CS and DOTA all very li hai.. and i sux at lan games.. haha..

My Saturday

Went out "early" in the morning to school to move the desks. Well.. i just go as a worker.. haha.

Saw some things that wasn't very comfortable, a lot of bombs and missiles flying around.. thankfully the target wasn't me. But instead, got so minor cuts from the desks.. haa.. Zzz.

Went megabites for lunch, but it turned out to be minorbites.. the chicken chop hor, small until it makes the plate so big. Where is the megabites with mega servings?

Then went arcade to burn some time before going band. I got so addicted to driving games these days, lol.. and so i played Initial-D 3..but it's in jap, so i dunno what to select, anyhow select lor.. = = But still, got to "drive" my dream car, Honda Integra.. but hor, like very slow like that leh.. and i lost in the 2nd stage.. haha.. lousy.

Band was, the usual few.. actually better le la.. just that i asked for a lot. Hah.. didn't play for 3 weeks le, then also didn't bring my "wife" there.. so bo bian, find the "mistress" lor.. But kept playing buang notes, and seh.. they played mononoke hime again.. sian.

On the way back, got an arrow.. was asked to be the stage manager for the concert or not.. wahahaa.. very sud title hor? But actually is count chairs count stand de..lol.. declined, but as it always go, arrow couldn't be siamed de.. might as well.. accumulate more good karma ba.

Saturday FI!

Attended the afternoon FI.. and then the lecturer announced something devasting. Our lessons will be moved to SATURDAY! Omg.. i guess, i was the only one who was smiling away.. wahahaha.

Already burning my saturdays off with band commitments which changes time often, (3.30pm, 4pm, 7pm) my mornings is left with nuaing.. couldn't go out and can't do much too. Now since i got to pass by clementi on my trip to boonlay.. might as well stop by school right? Wahahaha.. somemore can study.. i think this is the best change le. LOL.. what is it in changes these days?.. like everybody is blogging about it, tv is talking about it, and even my FI lecturer talks about it. Well i guess, we are all trying to define who we are at this period of time ba.. so a bit volatile lor. (in terms of behaviour..) Haha.. i don't even know how to dress to reflect my age.. dress to formal, like not student like that.. (more like going crubbing)dress too simple, like poly kids like that.. whaha..

So today FI lecturer said something that makes me agree even more. He said, "change is something you'll get used to." Ya lor.. get use, adapt and hopefully all is well. And furthermore, who says all changes are bad?

Hhaa.. i can kept going on and on and on.. and i start my nonsense le.

But now i don't know whether to choose morning or afternoon de.. coz hor, morning i can't wake up that early.. haha.. might as well take this opportunity to swap class to the afternoon w/o paying.. coz their fault ma, i can't attend sat morning, so HAD TO give me noon de right? Haha.. heng i never paid to switch class.

Will be going school tomorrow morning to move the desks for the coming bazaar.. whaha.. how come i still so kpo ar? Coz i "advisor" leh.. whaha.. retired exco still got title de. But the reason for going down is to help jw the ic. Coz he did helped me the other time to get my friend in the bazaar.. haha. Hopefully everything goes well, end well before 3.30pm.. coz got to go band ler.. but hor.. i didn't practice playing on the horn.. confirm tio bua de.. sigh..

Dec 1st came so fast.. and i already started revision le..when the 5.20pm show finishes, i'll stay in school to mug.. i got to get my grades le.. if not, this year would be wasted wor.

Might as well. Need to start focusing on other things le.

Coffee

My cousins just got themselves a Cocker Spaniel. (actually i think got a few months le ba.. ) So while they were overseas, the puppy couldn't go, and sadly, it wasn't allowed at the chocolate factory too. So this puppy went to stayed with my grandparents.. Oh ya.. btw, his name is "Coffee".. hahaa.. so cute lor.

Yesterday, sis wanted to play with the puppy, so seeked permission from my uncle to bring it over to our place for a while. Haha... grandpa came along to watch over it, just in case we need help.. and actually, we really do..

"Coffee" was so energetic lor.. ran round and round me.. he didn't get tired, i did. 1st time he saw me, and i think he was quite sociable. Only sometimes he tends to bark at me for no apparent reason. Well, i wasn't his owner, so didn't understand him.. haha.. but he sure is very playful.

A new environment for him, and so he had to mark his "new territory" with his scent.. ya.. by pissing on my floor.. whaha.. and as if it wasn't enough, he pooped as well.. >.<

When it was time to send him home, he didn't want to go.. lol.. and i think i heard grandpa calling him "kopi".. whahaha.. the hokkien version of coffee.. lol.. but finally it got to go back.. and well before my dad came home too. Didn't know how he will react seeing the poo on the floor.

And then, this was taken from my hp.. - _ - duh.. it didn't have night vision.. oh.. it did, but i forgot to on it.. haaha..



LOL.. i got so interested in wanting to train a dog that i thought i would get a dog myself.. hah.. but no.. i don't have the time and money for them.. keep hamsters better ^^

CMI

CF was getting from bad to worse. I really really don't like the new lecturer leh.. really, the lecturer plays a very big part. Now i can't really focus that well. Argh.. i don't want to score low low leh.. how ar.. can anyone teach me?

Wasted 3 hours plus today coz i don't really pay attention in class.. wondered why i attended it in the 1st place. But after the break, decided to do my own reading instead.. whaha.. if not really very wasted le. But i'm really glad with myself.. with another half a semester to go, i've only skipped 3 classes.. whaha.. compared to last year, it was so much different. Starts to appreciate what the lecturer is talking about, and then discovered that a lot more i don't know. LOL.. and i discovered something else.. that is, i don't really need to know what i don't know. They just memorize the format, do a few past year question, and get really to score at least a second lower. It is the case, face it. The brain is merely use to remember how the answer looks like.. not to think. In any case, the exam hall doesn't allow the time to think.

Why am i so anxious? Becoz the lectures will be ending at the end of feb.. 3 more months.. confirm not enough time le lor.. and i don't like to da bao again.. slows me down so much that i felt that i'm already lagging.

Was out for supper yesterday night when i asked wm what was there to do nowadays. Other than the "recently" popular ktv and crubbing.. but then.. i lost interest in all of them.. wondered what people of this age group are doing. Should be all busy earning income that it doesn't pose a problem. Which reminds me how irrelevant i am.. sigh.. i have a choice, i had it, but i don't want it. And then i discussed about how come some people made it happended. Like those in MLM.. they drive cars le.. and i still taking bus. I agreed that we all can, and opportunity is plentiful. But, would you risk it? We are, ultimately, different in personality.. why do some people gamble and the rest don't?

I don't know.. i'm just so bored till they asked me, "why don't you go get a job?" Ya lor.. since i at home also online, watch tv and nua... might as well relieve my bordem and as well as get some cash.. but then again, i don't really know if i can cope when i start to study. So the best way is, to start studying, hopefully i won't feel so bored and it might let me feel less guilty.

And.. the more you know, the more you don't know.. it's definately not all that was conveyed.. coz a lot of sensitive issues, if not i'll start bombing people le.. haha.. actually i just want to keep some of the thoughts to myself, of the people whom i missed, and of the memory lane just to me..

Chwee Kuey

Expected.. ok i really give up le. I don't know what to say, but i ate 14 chwee kuey at dinner today.. haha.. ate until so full lor.. think my stomach's going to explode.

But another thing exploded instead. My scale was tipped yet again.. so lousy lor.

First time i crub until i buay song 1.. which means, i'm don't think the utility is there anymore.. i'm not surprised that this was the last time i crubbed.. The coming bash? LOL.. i don't think i'd be going.. stay home eat chwee kuey better lor.

Was at OO today.. very fun for the 1st part, coz retro night, then a lot of songs came out before 1.30am.. except "can't take my eyes off you". So after that, i got nothing to look forward to. Crubbing became boring, tiring, and i'm hungry. Felt very pek chek coz very uncomfortable.. want to go home but nobody wants.. i'm not oblidge, yet walking away isn't an option. I admit, it was fun with the nice music and the toopid dance moves.. but.. not everything is nice forever de lor.. when its time to let go, it should be.

Finally understands that things should be done just nice, just like flying kite. Pull to tight, the string will break, let go too much, the kite will drop.. so, crub until too late will pek chek, but go off too early will sian.

Maybe i was wrong to let go just like that, but i couldn't stand "taunting" that was meant to be a joke. There are times when joking is inappropriate. "jian hao jiu shou" ba.. And the worst part is wasting 45 mins... things cannot be overdone.. Although certain things are hard to see, but they are easily felt. It was obvious.. and i don't like to be held responsible for things that are done on goodwill. I don't kiam anything to anyone lor. But still, having certain words out meant that i wasn't really that equipped.. but it was really better than all previous attempts to keep my temper under control.

But i think it shall no longer be of importance anymore.. coz i think i ban crubbing le. Maybe till end of exams. Really very waste time lor.. and money too.

When the show at 5.20pm finishes, i shall be staying in school for studying le.. though i still dare not venture too much.. haha.. but just a bit already very "suay" le.

Haiz.. lousy day.. very lousy.. next time i cook chwee kuay for people to eat le.

Overturned

On my way to class this afternoon, i heard a loud bang behind me. I turned round and saw a truck overturned.. wondered whether the driver was ok or not. Must be the slippery ground. I thought only bike will buang.. even truck also.

Rain was heavy today, just the same as yesterday. Hope that tomorrow won't be raining wor.. need to go out.. haha.. and won't be attending band.. again.

Yesterday heard something regarding this never ending maplestory.. sometimes i feel, it became a stage where virtuality and reality was no longer distinguished. I thought this whole thing was supposed be an extension of whatever we actually had.. but more than once i've heard that this wasn't the case. But i don't think i have the rights to comment.. coz whatever it is, it's one's on free will. For whatever that happened, i don't think i'll like it happen on myself, yet, i don't think i'll even let it happen in the 1st place.

Nowadays, chwee kuay are selling like hotcakes. Haha.. i think maybe very nice to eat ba.. but don't know why i like to look for trouble. Another failed outcome i forsee.. hahaa.. i don't want to organise le la.. wei se me everytime me do 1.. bu yao tui wo qu si lei.. haha.. nevermind.. see what's the outcome tomorrow.

Here are 2 pictures which i took yesterday..

Nice ambience, poor service. I like the mixer jugs, i like the ice container made of glass, i like the lights, i like the coldness, but i dislike the service of the staff. So be it.

Forgone band tomorrow for the chwee kuay dinner.. whahaa.. felt so bad coz been skipping band practices nowadays... so guilty leh.

Nua

In the end, i didn't get to MOS. JH got 30 free tix wor.. ahaha.. and that the queue was very very very long he said. I was at holland v amidst of a bday chill out. Haha.. i don't know, but this bar here is getting from bad to worse.

As i said, service is very bad.. really cmi, and i wondered, what is the 10% for. So the vodka was $168 inclusive of 4 mixers. (please check the price of absolut in NTUC.. we exclude DFS for the moment) Very expensive wor..

Anyway, MOS had a long long queue, in the end had to return to home base.. but ok la.. coz i pok le.. wallet got less than $20.. haha.. maybe don't have enough to take cab home.

Tends to get tired easily nowadays.. i slept at 4am for the past few days and woke up after 11am.. ar.. i had enough le.. but i think, i might not be able to wake up that early later.. haha.. sigh.. i very nua hor?

Hao wu liao..

I want to go zouk out! 9th dec wor.. and its just 2 weeks away. But i know, most likely, i'll end up nua-ing at home. Maybe i'll decide next week.

Yesterday at LBO, got 1 student put her recorder in front to record the lecture.. whahaa.. and then mr ram discovered it. He forbid us to record his lecture.. and suddenly he became very unhappy. Wahaha.. don't know how come he so particular about it.. maybe study too much law le, must protect his intellectual property.

After school, stayed to revise a bit on LBO, and finally dug out a lot of rubbish regarding companies and partnerships, incorp v unincorp and a lot more. Didn't know why, been trying very hard to concentrate this year le.. i don't want to da bao anymore.

Strangely, though not very certain, i don't even feel that i did fail before. It seems to be so expected.. so expected.. the only difference was, i won't get to graduate next july. Well, everything just get a little bit used to. Like the coming increment for gst, like there won't be chinablack anymore, like there will be no more memo jazz.. like every other things as well, just get use to it lor.. just take it that i spent 3 years in jc ba. But got people come and tell me, "you still young leh".. siao ah? my time not time meh? i young so what?.. but now cannot le.. i old liao. And before i realise, i don't enjoy doing a lot of things that i used to like. A change definately, but still a lot more before i'm settled. Maybe along the way ba..

Yesterday went adam road there eat the big prawn noodles for supper, coz got transport.. whahaa.. but i don't like prawn noodles.. still prefer ba chor mee. But very funny.. the price are according to the size of the prawns. So there was this ba kut noodles.. and next to it was, small prawn - $4, medium prawn - $5.. lol.. where got prawn la.

Wednesday's CF was postponed.. argh.. which means it'll take a week more to complete.. so it was time wasted today, spent them all sleeping, watching tv and playing PSP. Thursday will be another free day... wow.. but it's OMGIF.. i hate fridays! I hate morning classes! Tomorrow will be joining the welfarians to celebrate miss sim's bday.. nov like a lot of babies hor?

And after all the bdays, it'll be the festive seasons! All the ads kind of made it very festive wor.. haha.. Of all, i think i like xmas the most.. haha.. of coz, CNY is tempting with their red packets.. but i like gifts more.. bcoz there's a added element of thought in it mah.. haha.. ok la.. at least i thought. But then, i didn't work this year.. so maybe won't be santa le lor.. but i felt so guilty.. haha.. see how bah. And then, it'll be xmas alone again.. wahha.. it always won't get it to the awwish festival de lor.. haiz.. haha..

Suddenly like a lot of crubbings coming up again.. lol.. if i went along, this week i would have crubbed thrice. LOL.. jh was at mambo when he messaged.. too bad la.. i nua until don't know what.. just woke up at 9pm for dinner.. lol. Then they said tomorrow go MOS.. wahh.. i think maybe not.. really no money.. but see how.. see how much i spend tomorrow. Saturday was at Dbl O.. lol.. this time siao liao la.. pok until siao.

Was msn-ing when the topic was suddenly initial.. so there was this person with an initial of KFC.. whahaha.. got GST or not huh? LOL.. and then all the vulgarities all come out.. got knn, kns, ccb, pcc... whahaaaa... if they kena that kind of initial.. very suay lor..

A very long entry, coz i was suddenly very bored.. hao wu liao ar..

Riding Home

Oooh.. my school is under construction wor. Heard they say that there's going to be escalators! Finally they are going to do something about the toopid lifts. But the poor bamboo at the bamboo court. They are all taken down. Poor panda got no leaves to eat liao..

And the completion date was thought to be next year.. wahahahaa.. and so that means i get to use them! LOL.. well, what to do? Who asked me to fail.

While on my way home, i saw joe outside chatting with his friend.. so as usual, i said hi to him.. then he asked me whether i want to take a ride home. LOL.. so good, can save bus fare. I pillion rode again.. and i think the helmet is too heavy for my head. (head always very light coz not much content) Aiya.. forgot to take a picture of myself.. hah. Starting to think that my 6260 camera sucks. Really cmi lor.. the picture always blur blur 1. My dad already using N73.. Halfway through, it started raining.. haha.. now then i realise, riding bike really quite uncomfortable.. got the exhaust from cars, rain, wind, leaves, branches and whatever that was thrown at.. haha.. next time must wear space suit then can ride le.

But.. it's cheap. LOL.. gave up the idea of learning bike le.. coz heard a lot of my friends buang.. and saw some myself too.

Been packing my notes and getting ready to chiong studies le.. haha.. don't know can maintain or not. It runs in the family, we are too easily contented. (at least in the academic arena) Was packing my desk too.. haha.. too long never use them.

Not been sleeping well these days, still recovering from overnight mj.. argh.. i got to put a halt to overnight mahjong le.. lose money is not a very big issue (we had caps on losses^^).. but losing weight is! Had been eating 2 meals per day coz of irregular sleeping hours. Maybe i really "slim" down le.. argh.. must really do something about it.

I think i really frozen le.. cham liao.. how come i don't feel anything much these days? Maybe spent too much time in El Nath le.. haha.. Seldom maple nowadays coz kind of boring le.. even though they've got a new map.

LOL.. someone revive me... please?

Was in sis's room when i saw this poor pooh that got his head stuck.. wahahahaa! So i took a pic with my 6260.

Poor Pooh..

TGIS

Nice weather these days huh? Haha.. no rain and lots of sun. It seems cloudy these days, but it never rained.

Was walking home after the mj session this afternoon, and passed by "my mother school" (wo de mu xiao) WSS. I thought they were going to pull down the main building, but after so many months le, still can see it. Just in case they decide to take it down later, i took a pic of it.

Whitley Secondary, as seen on the overhead bridge. 4 years of memories, plentiful.

Oh ya, by the way, the school "moved" to toa payoh le.. some ulu spot, and some ulu building. Thankfully, they didn't change the school uniform. It was rumored that they are going to change it to checkered since 1999. But now, it still seems to be the same, just that the school badge (or crest) moved to the collar.. somemore, it was embroidered.. which means they cannot take off the identity and hiong into arcarde le.. haha.

My JC on the other hand, changed its uniform totally, from the cold storage staff uniform to some assembly line worker uniform..

Really, it just keeps moving. I didn't like changes anyway. Even stamps also increased from 23 cents to 25 cents. Not sure whether it is triggered by the GST hike.. But one thing for sure, school fees is going to increase for me. 2% is quite a lot for 2k.. kns why did i fail? Haha.. But then hor, i rather pay for GST than service charge lor. No service, and charge somemore.. and guess what? They expect tips somemore! Tips? ki si la.. haha.. especially when the change of $2 is in 10 and 20 cents.

Been very motivated these days, haven't been skipping lessons. Total for this year, is 1st lecture for FI and lecture 5 & 6 for LBO. 3 lessons only! Probably because most of them are in the afternoon. I regretted skipping class, becoz while studying, i really don't understand. Already mid November.. time to stop nua-ing. A lot of things i didn't want to be bothered. Marketing still my greatest worry.. coz it's a SS mod.

A very free saturday for me.. coz no need to go band pract! Wahahaaa... so happy today~

Saw no evil~

Saw no evil.. omg.. i actually didn't want to blog about it.. but then again.. omg.. i couldn't believe my eyes. Think i can excuse toto/4D for the next one month.

What happened was that, while walking out from zouk, we saw this lady here.. and then, the so called 'accessory' was falling.. omg.. in actual fact, it was her skirt that dropped. Did it dropped or did she took it off i don't really know. Thankfully, her top was long enough that it covered her barely..

Was actually shocked. I tought when someone took the side mirror of a car off though collision was quite shocking.. i guess i was wrong.

Realised that crubbing wasn't for me much more.. it was actually quite boring nowadays. Wondered why.. maybe 23 made the difference.

Altough this time round, there were more people i knew.. but then, there's still shortfall somewhere. And most disappointing of all was, the song that i yearned for didn't came out.. and so pek chek, left before 3am. So many, yet none came out.. it was definately on purpose.. argh.. i hate the DJs.

Looking for a day to "retire".. perhaps after bash. Contemplating whether to go 'zouk out' or not.. haha.... maybe yes, maybe no. Got quite tired of night life and drinking. It just don't make any difference anymore, thanks to my bday session..

Blog was migrated to the new beta, and yet discovered the difference. The only thing was, logging in was a hassle.

Been gearing for the coming exams.. though xmas was coming too. I don't know.. been so poor that i couldn't afford anything better.. but then, this isn't the time for working.

CF got a new lecturer.. and i spent most of my time trying very hard to deduce what was on the notes, coz not much was said.. when she talked about WACC, the whole class was wondering what it meant.. sigh.. please don't let me fail CF.

OG (Kuula) lunch today... but in the end, only Eu turned up..(less OGLs).. wahhaa.. nevermind.. planned for another official outing next week.. hopefully it'll turn out well.

And here, wanted to apologised to someone for not extending the 'invitation'.. =X Really very sorry~

Slightly Better

Finally feeling a bit better from the flu/sore throat bug. Had been drinking loads of honey lemon.. aww~ kind of like that.

But still lack the energy to do a lot of things. Still, went "shopping" after class at TP. Got the binder that i needed to organise my notes, and got my contact lense done too. Suddenly entertained the thought of getting lasik done. Getting a new supply of contact lense is quite irritating.. i don't know.. coz this lady at the shop there is making me quite uncomfortable. Haha.. i don't know.. but i think the service cmi. No wondered they keep saying that the service sector cmi. Now then i felt it. Ok lor. Since they not really keen.. then next time i go find other people le.

But not really been pissed la.. i don't even really care.. haha.. just wondering, why business can still survive.. really very curious leh. For, if they keep it that way, they are certaintly not the only supplier.. and then my dad made me realise.. i ain't the only customer too.. duh. No wonder.

Today was having MSM again.. and again, this mr Q is making me really bored.. especially his way of teaching the theory... he niam niam niam.. until i don't what he niaming.. so had to read it myself while he niam. Haha.. quite difficult to focus though. So during break time, i took a breather, was on my way to the foodcourt for some supply of sweet when i saw a few familar faces... and i ended chatting.. haha.. ok.. luckily they kept "chasing" me back to my LT.. but still, i was away for almost an hour.

Oh ya.. fixed my laptop's keyboard le.. yay~ Haha.. i've broken some of them while trying to clear the darn milk tea spill. Ok.. at least it looked proper now.. haha.. only the letter 's' couldn't be nicely done.. - -

And then i thought i saw something. And then it was so weird a feeling.. like.. like.. feeling of nothing.. i don't know. But maybe was awkard ba.. as in.. what do you want me to do? Sigh.. spare me la.. wo hen lei le.. blame it on myself lor.. i shouldn't wander so much..

Burned

Slept the whole day away.. lol, and i didn't have the mood to attend band pract. Heard that a few of them did not go as well.. lol.. why huh? Coz rain too heavy le, very nice to sleep is it? I was uncertain whether i can make it or not.. the weather plus my cold.. it makes one feverish. In the end, i slept through.. so they've comfirmed, the concert will be on 11th feb.. lol.. hoped that i'll be able to deliver.

That time when i said i wanted to be out of SWE, part of it was, i wanted to ran away.. becoz certain things have evolved till the point where it gets so awkard.. Till now, i still wouldn't know how to react. Indifferent? Or different. Perhaps the best is to run.

Of coz, that was the least of my concern. Just that i joined back SWE (now SNCO) doesn't mean i knew how. I just hope it won't happen. As if i could get over and done with, i couldn't understand why.. oh.. just why? It stills give me an awkard feeling.. and i won't be surprised if it shall last an entire lifetime.

They said, "it's a matter of choice." You chose what you want to be, and then i think if i could, i would already be enlightened. Well, and such irony can be found for someone taking faith. I just don't understand leh.. or maybe, i refused to understand... coz they didn't work out according my logic..

Well, i guess the fever had burned my brain cells le.. so much nonsense. My saturday didn't get burned.. my brain got.

I think i need a new environment again.. but been "grounded" for work, coz they thought i failed coz i work too much.. lol.. maybe partly ba. So what's new? SNCO for one.. but it's actually quite old.. just a change of name. Ar.. i also don't know la.. i won't be having much time to be bothered too..

Just that this school is starting to piss me le. It's been so crowded from the benches to the library, i can't really find a proper place to study. And i've realise, i can't study with too many people.. i tend to get distracted easily.

History repeats again, lol.. and in order to do well, really, some things had to be done. And of coz, this means less of outing.. sian.

So this morning, xy extended the "invitation" to dbl o.. and to think i actually didn't want to go. Well, i guess, slowly overgrown this kind of nightlife le. Stopped seeking, for, afterall, it shall be the same isn't it?

Just yesterday, i've packed my notes into 5 big stacks.. That shall be my minimum requirement. Kind of difficult to keep it going i guess.. certaintly need a lot more than that.

Kind of getting restricted in what i blog.. lol.. and blogs always get into all sorts of trouble..

Ill-ish

My sore throat evolved into a flu le. I don't like this ill-ish feeling. Do anything also no energy.. not to mention eating. With the blocked nose, things are tasteless, and it had to pass through my swollen throat.. makes everything even more sian.

Getting poorer these days.. and (un)luckily, i'm ill.. so need to hide at home.

Still got to go for band pract tomorrow.. well, kind of a mixed feeling. I dread the feeling of getting my saturdays burned (well, i didn't exclude the others who contributed their time too).. and it's at evening at boonlay.. the timing is neither here nor there.. and the distance.. omg.. i think i got so "brainless" once i boarded the bus/train that i don't really notice what happened around me.

Long ride tends to render my time useless these days, i have nothing much to think about, and songs are the usual ones.. listen until sian le.

Not Interested

My sore throat still haven't cleared, don't know want to go steamboat tomorrow or not. Suddenly, i seems to lose interest in everything. Kind of boring the same thing happens over and over and over again.

Of coz, i'm concerned with studies.. but only concerened and nothing else.

Not particularly delighted or sad.. and i thought i've set foot on an "indifference curve". Sigh.. i've been so numb nowadays till i didn't know what had hit me. I don't wish for things to happen, and i have no preference for things to remain they way they are.. or rather, they don't really matter.

Coffee or Tea? - Another Matter of Choice

Meant to tire myself a bit more before going to rest.. hopefully still well enough for CF tomorrow.

LBO alone meant that i went for break alone too.. lol.. very sad hor? Haha. Options are plenty.. but i guess, i just want to be alone for quite a while. So today they delivered another cake.. taste like chocolate cake with blueberry cream or something like that.. or was that the blackforest cake? Taste quite nice.. aww~

Was drinking the usual milk tea and then i began to wondered.. why sometimes i chose coffee over tea? Okok.. i know i was too bo liao le.. but then again, i was alone leh.. nobody to talk to.. so let my mind wander a bit lor. And it has got nothing to do with the amount of caffeine needed.. i liked coffee as much as tea.. well, the cold water there wasn't in consideration.. i got my own water supply.. lol.. so it was just up to this 2 choices every break time? Nope~ In fact, there are 4 choices. Either coffee, tea, both (in one cup) or none. But even though with such "abundance" of choice, the moment i reached the front of the queue, i knew what i wanted.. and it was only the last second that i've decided..

Such simple things couldn't require more brain. But empirical results shows that the probability of drinking coffee or tea is completely random.. but means that, i didn't have any particular preference between those 2. I've yet to realise the reason why, and i don't intend to find out.. haha.. coz this is really too bo liao le... and sorry to let you all read my nonsense.. haha.. but i just can't help it.

Well, the same couldn't be said for 52 and 74. For one, i can't board both.. and the other, i can't be not boarding any.. but now, things seems to be different. If 74 comes 1st, i would give it a miss.. but the moment 52 appears, i'll board it.. i'm just so inconsistent.

But choices as they are, no matter how small, affects what is going to happen next. Forgot where i read it.. but, "the summation of our choices made us what we are today".

In the Rain

Attended LBO today, and thought it was going to be a 3.5 hour session.. but luckily, i anticipated wrongly. The early dismissal seems to be a great idea, and bus 52 came as swiftly. Boarded the bus, found a seat and starts listening to my iPod. Just one stop before i alight, it started to drizzle and then while walking back from the bus stop, it started raining quite heavily. Was really caught this time.. how i destest that feeling.. that rain water was pouring down.. and i was drenched. I thought it wouldn't turn out to be so bad so quickly, but it did. What was strange was that soap bubbles starts emerging from my sandals! LOL.. i wondered what happened.. couldn't run coz i was afraid that i slip on my own sandals.

For all that happened, i think, the timing was totally wrong. But maybe things are just the way they are.

Felt a sore throat coming up.. sigh.. actually it already did. I think the rain made it worst.. and thanks to the late nights, i felt really sick now. It's been a long time since i last feel ill.. sigh.

Well, i couldn't blame anyone.. coz was so engrossed in PSP that my toopid sis bought. Somehow, my engine had cooled.. sigh.. hoped that i'll resume studying soon.

SNCO Way to Go!

This weekend was somehow different, especially from SNCO. Attended SNCO band practice with our guest conductor, Mr Jacomo~ LOL.. well, i didn't know who he was, and heard that he's from portugal.. and is NUS's conductor.. hmm.. not too sure also. I've been detached from the band world since i graduated from JC.

Was really nervous.. and i can't perform under stress. Thankfully, before i stepped in, i heard the familiar sound of the horn.. and wasn't the one from kj.. the moment i heard it, i knew, it was from the pioneer horn player.. mr zw. Oh ya.. and he brought along another horn player too. Well, i was so delighted! Haha.. for most of the practices, i've been alone.. no one to "guide" me in the event that i miscounted.. (i usually count wrongly.. - -) And so i don't know why, was so full of confidence. LOL.. support was definately there.. so glad. Was playing better than usual, even i was surprised. I guess, the whole band was really focused at that point in time.. Really impressive work by SNCO!

For the 1st time since WMC 2001.. they (we/me) finally picked themselves up.

I shall work harder too!

Band aside, rush home after practice from boonlay and then home.. then to punggol for the weekend mahjong camp.. i don't know, but it seems, luck wasn't bad.. not bad at all~ In total, won $20+ .. haha.. and the more spectacular stuffs.. i got 7 flower the moment i got my tiles.. lol. But as usual, that kind of attention will induce people to play fast rather than big. So in the end, didn't win that round. = =

Played till around 7am.. and still couldn't sleep. Finally fell asleep at 8am.. Woke up 3 hours later to another one of my "nightmare".. and i was feeling down for a while.. lol.. maybe coz i only slept for 3 hours.. haha.. not really bcoz of the dream ba.

And stayed till dinner, as usual, due to my greedy nature, dinner turned out to be a feast again. Hahaha.. Full, but tired. Stayed to watch the Scorpion king.. lol.. nice!

Ar.. so tired.. and before i realised, my weekend was gone again, but what really made my week was how SNCO have moved from the "burden" of SWE.. haha.. really, i'm so excited!

GQ and the Chocolate Factory

A sense of dejavu. I wanted much to get over and done with, but, i think time isn't what i can control.

Realised that there are a lot that i couldn't confront, and i don't intend to. I think for now, this is, perhaps of "instinct".

And i've been wondering, why should i settle for less? I've been asking for too much i know, and there are so many who can.. and yet why not?

Feeling rather vexed these few days.. especially of things happening at the "chocolate factory". Village chief always tell me, 1 people means 1 problem (if they give problem that is).. and the more people at the chocolate factory, the more problem they create. Wrong orders, unsuccessful quotation, and so on. But, many came from the same village, and somehow or rather, indebted to them, so whatever happens, still must carry on.. But, for the others, especially the yaya papaya "manager".. i don't really understand what they are thinking! Age of 50+, with 2 kids still schooling, still want to make the village chief worry. (and in turn make my blood boil!) I would be childish if i say i wanted to go to the chocolate factory and learn the ways of making chocolate just to chase that papaya away.

I'm a worker too, of coz i don't always agree with my manager, but at least, i don't join the rest to degrade her. And here this papaya dare to comment that, "it's pointless even if the pay is high, if one doesn't enjoy the work".. NB.. i say, damn you!

In the industry of the chocolate, where people don't have their own plantations, cost price is the same, chocolate is the same. Orders are made to customer's specifications (wrong orders means lost of materials lor..) and the only way one could compete is through price. (and perhaps a bit of service) Coupled with falling demand, perhaps, the factory is facing a lot of challenges. Workload might be the same, but the profit margin have lowered.. survival is at stake. And here is this papaya, who don't really care (of coz lor.. i can understand his bo chup attitude). And i think he said before, "aiya.. if really tio pok then go wash toilet lor.." Huh.. ya right.

Too bad, nobody can take over his place.. (at this moment) "manager" mah.. and he's only a few years behind in experience compared to the village chief in this industry. Who can replace him? not to mention giving him the boot. And the useless me didn't even learn any bit. Haiz.. seeing that people troubling over these things, i also very pek chek..

And still a lot more... i guess it never ends. Perhaps, the best way of helping is to do well in exams.. sounds cliche huh? Sometimes i wondered, maybe it doesn't lies with what i didn't have.. but rather, what i had.

I could never complain enough, and plus, i don't know why, in months of october to late november, there is this very pek chek feeling with me.. if i happen to piss anyone off, i'm sorry.. really couldn't help it. (well, at least i'm being true huh..) Of coz, the only season that can bring back everything, xmas! Haha..

I have plans to stay out of trouble.. exams (not xmas in this case) are coming pretty SOON. And i really don't understand why would anyone settle for something less. Of coz there are other things i might yearn for.. but i guess, i don't have to energy to spare.

Blogging is just one way of de-stressing, making sure that i'm still sane to carry on...

Just finished a bit on CF, and wondered is Fisher Separation Theory works for me too. Maybe not changing FI to afternoon lesson afterall, i don't really have $50 to spare.. and it's just another 4 months - 16 or so lessons to go.. so bo bian lor. If really late.. then sit in front lor.. haha.. well.. at least easier to concentrate. It works especially well for CF and FI.

Oh ya.. today at the carpark in school... i saw this orange Lamborghini! WAH... our school all ah sia or ah sia kia ar? Wah wah wah~ fierce.. whaha.. so surprising.. especially when a car is somehow a depreciating asset..

So now, why should i settle for something less? But i don't really have interest in car now and the zhnging (becoz i don't own one)... i mean other things. Now, at least things became clearer, so are my goals. Maybe a few alterations in habit.. hopefully i can succeed. After all, C0 and C1, the latter must be the more important one..

Preparing..

Shutting down my engine le.. Time to really let it cool, before the final exams. I need to conserve my energy le.

Sis's coming home soon ^^ haha.. means i got to shut vios's engine too. Conserve petrol, wash car.. perhaps pump petrol too. Been too cold these few days, and i think the engine also cold until cannot start properly le. No matter what.. got to do up the vios le.. sis coming home.. haha.. and time to return the vehicle to the rightful owner.

Everyday i drove seems to be a rainy day.. and i'm slowly getting used to the car le.. haha.. finally the breaking isn't that hard, and i can keep to lanes le.. maybe try to go to school early once more? LOL.. i find the morning peak most challenging.. especially the part from bukit timah to clementi road.. haha.. but sometimes, really, it depends on luck too.

Vios aside. Think it's time to change my lifestyle again. Won't be working le.. eski is full now.. and mapling also seems to be boring.. (as all games eventually will).. perhaps it's the best time to study... haha.. and ya.. a new month coming soon.. perhaps a new start lor.

Looking for places to study.. maybe the library. School is getting very crowded. Carpark also no place.. haha.. school so small still take in so many students.. - -

Which means.. end of crubbings.. ya. I have no mood to crub le.

Oh.. and maybe start sleeping early too.

Few days ago, was rather surprised.. in fact very very surprise. Wondered what was going on.. but then again.. hmm.. we shall see...

Slept too Much

Slept too much again, and i couldn't sleep at night. Was rather siao these few days.. or i don't really know.

Sadly, didn't get to work, and i mean really jobless. This kind of freedom, isn't what many people wanted? Ya.. but without money, what is there to do..

And band pract as usual, is boring. Went boonlay yesterday and then had brass sectional. 2 trombones, 3 trumpets and 2 horns. .whoa.. finally saw a larger brass section. But i don't know why.. (i'm contributing to it too..) that people don't attend band practice, and then in the end struggle in front of the conductor.. and waste everybody's time.. But then again, some things come with practice, and others, however much done, won't change anything. All pieces seems alright.. except the startrek.. Full of weird change of intonation and high notes.. i think it'll drain all my energy..

Still felt happy being able to accomplish some things on my own.. but as always, it's screwed when everything is put together.

On my way home, and it rains again! Why does the weather suddenly change? One month it's all haze, and the next, it's all rain.. And then was saw an accident.. a car long pia.. and blocked one of the lanes. Must be drive too fast le.. but i guess the driver is ok. Too dark to see anything too..

Wondering what i'm doing too. Sometimes i don't really understand myself.

I'm At Home

Friday night.. and.. i'm at home! Just because i'm broked le.. haha.. conspiracy everywhere.. haha.. for the D-day on december.. whahaaa... And i'm "training" for it..

Nowadays, been so weird that most of my friends that saw me says, "eh, heard that you club a lot recently ar.." LOL.. soon.. soon i will "keep mountain" le..

Very tired today.. slept very late last night coz weather was too good le.. haha.. so in the end, couldn't sleep.. slept at three plus, and woke up at seven..

Darn tired and still want to ride on vios.. haha.. in the end, i missed 3 points in a row. Was late, and i missed the liquidity gap analysis! ARGH.. sian leh.. just 10 minutes also don't want to wait.. must be the school beside us.. so many vehicles.. okok.. my driving skills have deteriorated greatly..

And very sad. lunch time want to find people eat also can't.. haha... so sad case meh? But i could have gone home.. but promised to stay le.. so stay lor.. attend bazaar meeting with SCS, and haha.. wo hai shi hen li hai de.. lol.. 2 years not cover de lor.. but i just don't want to intervene ba. I expired le..

So lunch at foodcourt.. eh.. but can't find something nice. Ate jap food.. but the uncle so good.. give me so large serving until i almost choked.. - -

Said i wanted to study, in the end, i think i talked a lot more.. lol.. also good la.. do some catching up.

And don't know for what reason, got involved in CV as well.. wahahaa.. so funny leh, the ic.. got horse de wor.. whaha.. I guess, i'm just too free le.. just hope i get a job soon. SIAN.

I'm so hungry now... didn't have my dinner.. and reached home just. And this channel 8 keep showing the chicken rice.. 0 0.. lol.. i think i go cook noodles le... haha..

It Was Nothing

As if it was nothing.

But someone agrees with me too.. i wasn't the only one. But should i be happy about it? I really do not know. Something which i said that was obvious was even clearer.. yet, will it be nearer? Actually, i shouldn't be concerned at all.. or i would have conceded.

I've already tired to conceal. But... but but but.. hah.. well.. it doesn't concerns me..

Found that most things are inversed.

So cold these days.. i thought i got frostbitten.. nice weather to sleep though.. (provided i didn't get caught in the rain la..)

And darn.. got to go school tomorrow morning... argh~! Can i just change it to the afternoon lecture?

It Was Rainning~

It was rainning yesterday. Used to like rainy days.. i liked the cool wind blowing, liked the sound of the rain pouring, and the dark clouds that hid the sun away. The only element i didn't like - lightning. Actually i'm quite scared of it.. don't know since when.

But yesterday.. it seems a bit too much.

Heavy downpour made vision blured. Being caught,, i didn't quite liked it.. the water on my skin kind of irritates me. And of coz, the slippery ground poses some hazards... the ground was muddy too..

I don't know.. is it just me or what? Had my perceptions of things been so wrong or was it that i've changed? Maybe it's still the same.. coz i've been watching the rain from the comfort of my home.. but being caught in one.. it just changes everything.

Yet it will stop.. no matter how (un)desirable it was.

But it isn't that bad.. if not, i'd have migrated to the deserts.

Was on my way home in vios when i got caught in the rain.. it was so heavy.. and really, i couldn't see.. avoided PIE coz there might be a possibility of so traffic incidents.. so was on dunearn road.. suddenly, all cars slowed down.. i think at some point in time, i was travelling 40km/h. Changing lanes was extremely difficult.. rear mirror see nothing, side mirror also see nothing.. so no choice.. see blind spot lor. Thankfully (or no thanks?), all vehicles slowed down.. and luckily for those at the bus stop too.. if not, i guess the water will just splash on them.

Reached home area.. and the rain was reduced to a drizzle.. so i chose a parking far away from the target practice of unfriendly neighbours (who aims at cars with their cigarette buds, tisssue paper - god knows what's the content.. and plastic bags..) and birds (which of coz have to shit....) But the moment i switched off the engine.. the downpour came again.. and lazy to find another spot nearer to shelter (i don't have umbrella).. i hid in the safety of vios.. but i wait and wait and wait.. then i gave up.. surrendered vios to the "range"..

Didn't know why.. but was at OO. Not many people came.. but this was 2 more than my worst. Actually i kind of dislike these places le.. was a year plus since "regular" crubbing.. and don't know how much cash went into the toilet bowl.. plus cover charge.. Ya.. drinks don't taste that good.. but some sweet tasting like misty.. lol.. actually it was more like dry ice..

Anyway.. i couldn't hold as well as i thought i would be. Yupz.. i was feeling "seh" or in english - high towards the later part.. hah... if i'm laughing for no apparent reason.. this is it. Ya.. i find crubbing has no meaning.. unless the meaning is numbing oneself. But that doesn't mean i will stop.. at least not now.. i have just one mission to complete.. hahahaa.. heard of "you shi you zhong"? lol.. yupz.. till then.. i shall reveal.

By the way.. november coming.. hmm.. a lot of birthdays hor? Haha.. sure got crubbing ba.. - -And ya.. i need to repay my "debts".. haha.. hopefully.. i'm still waiting for the job at Eski..

Still got a lot more to blog.. but i need to go for lunch le.. very hungry..

I Don't Know Wor..

I don't know wor.. sometimes things really buffled me so much. Perhaps it's just me.

Drove sis's vios to school.. whoa.. so fun.. lol.. and so fast. I think i just need 15 mins the most to reach (including parking..) Haha.. but i have problem keeping in lane.. lol.. i don't know.. this is so different from 1707... maybe a bit smaller.. so a lot of space left..

MSM was as usual, boring.. especially the theory part.. lol.. and i still didn't do my assignments.. - - Went SRC room after class to "sit in" for the bazaar meeting.. lol.. actually i just wanna play table tennis nia.. haha.. how i miss that place..

After meeting went clementi for dinner with the excos and comm.. and i blur like sotong.. haha.. drive until don't know where.. coz i missed the U-turned just at KAP.. so travelled till almost the route to bukit batok le.. haha.. too long never drive and i anyhow drive.. - -

Was at clementi for dinner.. too bad chicken rice sold out.. haha.. so tried the ba chor mee.. but i think thomson's 1 nicer ba.. lol.. and ordered rojak again.. whoa.. who knows.. sharon they all also ordered.. in the end, we got 2 plates of $3 you tiao rojak.. then alan ordered so many chwee kuay.. lol.. like feast like that lor.. - -

Happy today coz i received another belated bday present ^^ whahaa... so happy lor.. and thanks hor.. (you know who you all are.. ^^).. but hor.. still haven't received from the ex excos yet... haha.. maybe tio kop le?

But amist all.. still felt a bit down.. haiz.. sian ah~

Boring~

Sis went overseas for mission le.. oo.. so the vios is now under my "care" ^^

Supposed to be at boonlay for band practice.. but.... i think i spent an hour burning petrol. In the end, i didn't go.. haha..

Halloween comming soon! Hahaa... too bad leh.. no idea of what to dress up as.. LOL. If not.. then don't go le.. haha.. save money on costume..

Sian. Already nearing end of october.. study time le lor.. Was in school last friday, but got toopid admin.. hah.. so couldn't get in. Went library instead..and OMG.. library is sooo packed lor.. - - Siao de.. all so hardworking.. haha.. tried to change my FI to afternoon.. coz i really have problems waking up so early. See hows lor.. $50++ wor.. and i pok le..

Sigh.. really must study le la..

Pics @ Eski

Pics taken at Eski, sc's camera -


Group pic at xy's work place - Eski bar


Me after 2 pints of Erdinger Dark...


SC .. and me.. haha..


Biker Joe and me..


Zack and me.. i'm holding the bubblegum.. erm.. the other "glass" i don't know le.. haha..

I'm 23~!

Yeah.. another year.. haha.. and i'm supposed to be older le.

Yupz.. the only 2 times of the year where i'll do some reflection and maybe "refraction". The other time is during new year where all the resolution comes in.

Referred to the entries a year ago.. and time really flies. And of coz, it was a year of the abundance.

Haha.. but hopefully.. this would be a nicer year. (Lol.. as if new year was coming.. )

Today was a very hazy day.. and i got very lazy. Do anything also no strength.. haha.. even sleep also will choke. So bo bian.. i soaked myself in the aircon.. haha.. soak until blur i think.. kept sleeping and sleeping.. yupz.. LBO was missed again.. haha.. the ram want us to prepare a coardboard with our names and place it in front of our seat.. wahahaaa... so funny.. like some conference like that.. whahaa... so till now.. i wondered.. who will go prepare..

I did a lot of otot "celebrations".. wahaha.. or rather.. just gathering and nothing else.. lol.. i'm too old for bday cake le wor.. but still, dearest sis still got me a tiramisu last sunday ^^ Too bad the village chief always not at home these days.. so i chute pattern for him to see.. whaha.. how can don't give mom face? Lol.. she ordered pizza, fried chicken wings and asked my sis's friend along for this mini "celebration".. and dad came home just to clear the pizza nia.. = =

Another was with the kuulas.. though only 4 of them... but most are drinkers.. ^^ and sad to say.. i can't deny anymore.. i do drink a lot more these days.. haha.. bad hor? But that day was fun too.. i got my 1st pair of martell glass ball-bearing from the bottle we opened as my bday present.. whaaha.. it cost $138. (By i contribute $70 wor.. ) Haha..

Thanks to witizens for thier presents as well ^^ .. haha.. though is still under safekeep.

Thanks to SRC Excos 05/06 and seniors also.. i know some of them shared the present.. haha.. but i haven't receive it ^^ .. so don't really know what it was.. lol..

Thanks to my maple buddy straw for the cash item gift.. lol.. was so touched lor.. haha.. virtual friend also friend.. just that we don't know each other in real life.. haha.. thanks for the gift again!

LOL.. it's strange. Bday without any elaborate celebrations.. but i'm so happy~

Now i'm so awake.. haha.. just gluped down a can of coke and a cup of noodles.. lol.. my own bday "chang shou mian".. haha.. now lacking is a bday song.. lol... too bad 93.3 off bo lang at home le..

Btw, tomorrow's zouk outing is shelved for the moment.. lol.. and maybe going halloween?? Wahahaa... that day monday was actually quite keen le.. kept thinking what to dress as.. whahaa.. but maybe i don't dare.. lol.. see hows lor.. see if got idea and costume or not.. haha.. maybe get a few more of my friends go as well. lol. However.. might still be at zouk tomorrow.. whaha.. party party~

Sis's gg overseas this sat le.. so i get to drive her Vios ^^ For 1 whole week.. which means i no need to squeeze bus le.. yay~ But petrol prices is going up.. OPEC has cut their production a week ago.. sad... - -

Argh.. 1am le.. still awake.. haha..

Ok.. late le.. time to go play game.. haha.. what to do? Can't get to sleep wor.. lol..

Picture Time..

Hahaa.. check out the "good' food i had for the past 1 week~

No wonder i'm having digestive problems.. argh..

Long Session...

7 am.. guess what? I just got home.. as usual, i began my story telling.. 0.0

Saturday was supposed to be chilling... and then don't know why i ended up reaching home so "early" More worse.. mom saw me just got home. Of coz, going to 23, i guess she'll be tired of nagging me le..

Went 3 places altogether, and spent another $100 or so.. sad. No inflow and lots and lots of outflow. 1st thing 1st.. i was kena tua... i hate it when people make use of my trust.. and the reason i got so pissed is because i didn't foresee it.. and was almost dragged to join some direct sales scheme. I've said before.. i've nothing against them.. BUT FNB.. DON'T make use of me. My sis did that scheme and failed.. and as time goes by, this kind of scheme is like nothing to me. But on the outset, if something is planned to get me.. i seriously dislike. Simi i didn't see before? What can be more complicated than the selling floor? Even within there, people are going this scheme this and that. Thankfully, there are really friends that enlighten me.. Nevetheless, i do not wish to see a repeat.. i'll let go. Realised this was one way to get filthy rich, but i just don't want.. can or not har?

Ok.. enough of complain.. so was at eski.. whacked 2 pints (1 liters) of erdinger dark plus bubblegum (cocktail i think..) and spent around $30 plus.. - - But eski was alright la.. actually the night job in the previous entry was actually the eski.. so i now wait for opportunity to get employed lor..

After eski went eating prata.. curry was very very nice~ But bday boy treat.. - -

Changed location to neil road.. my friend's dad's pub.. whoa.. uncle was very nice~ Lowered price and unlimited mixer plus opportunity to test drink some... of all, the best was hennessy vintage - personal collection of the boss.. ^^And of coz.. when it comes to open bottle.. it was martell vsop again.. whahahaa... although i was shown cordon bleu.. wahaha.. too bad i leong la.. but was still the major shareholder of the vsop. So kena whacked again.. omg.. but still alright.. till i left that place.

They said go lor 18 to have supper.. omg.. already want to puke le still eat?? On the way, i was regulating my breathing.. hahaa.. i think the cabby got the scare.. coz i was really breathing deep.. and for a long long time, my tap was leaking again.. was reminded of some past incident. Yet time wasn't allowed for inverse. And so i left it where it was.

Reached lor 18 and went "yong he" for dou jiang you tiao.. haha.. but i opt of taiwan mee sua instead.. super nice~! And i liked it very much. However.. if not for the complexity of that place.. i think i'll go there often. While walking halfway, lol.. this is so funny lor.. my friend kena "pulled" away.. almost into the sea le.. haha.. so i tried to save him.. but also kena dragged.. whahaa.. so i faster run.. i mean.. 1 kena drownded is better than 2 mah.. haha.. but even though i was seh.. i still know what was considered "morally incorrect". I abide to my rules of this downward spiral game. A few days ago.. someone asked me, "why you like that?".. but frankly.. i wasn't bringing myself down.. but rather.. i took this opportunity to see the "ugly" side of society. But thankfully, i am what my parents are (almost).. so was rather glad that this kind of vicious cycle wasn't in our bloodline.

The complex place.. saw and heard a lot of complex story.. and of coz, i don't know la.. another of my friend don't know go seal simi deal.. made 1 uncle treat us 2 bottle tiger.. - - i was like cmi le lor.. especially after VSOP.. haha... and yet comes this.. haha... so it was storytelling by uncle.. and as some of the people there.. (or actually... everybody got their own sad story..).. but i can't help but felt touched.. but then again.. to shield myself.. i didn't want to care too much.. if i wanna go help everybody.. might as well go join some faith organisation or the lord of this land.

So the story goes on and on and on.. until i buay tahan liao.. was already 6 plus when we wanted to go.. - -.. kns... it was like.. i was drinking for 10 hours... (from 8pm till 6am).. and i hope that nothing of this sort was going to happen again.. especially after i've cleared my 23. Definately.

Amist all the intoxication, i seems to have gotten my answer.. but sad was, there isn't any solution.. haiz..

Yupz.. too bad it was my bday.. so bo bian lor.. ying chou lor.. after UI for 3 days... i can say i'm really sick of this kind of lifestyle..

But a few people that saw me says i've gained weight.. whaha... so happy lor ^^

Time to sleep le.. almost 8am after such a long entry.. my hair drying and again.. level was upped.. hahaha.. wedesday? I think should be alright.. unless "by their power combine".. arr.. now matter how steady also no use.. 1 against many.. what's the odd? Hhahaa..

Oh yah.. if anybody knows what happened to tag board.. do leave a comment...

For What?

I wonder how.. i wondered why.. lol.

Very tired but couldn't get to sleep. Digestive system not good, but i eat and eat and eat. Met both my aunt, grandma and cousins for lunch after FI. They wanted to go for international buffet - at Vienna.. haha.. a place which i 1st went with the excos. So it was a re-visit.. but i didn't eat as much.. nevertheless, i need not pay as well ^^ (oh ya.. they didn't know bday was coming.. haha.. and i didn't want celebration too.. haha..) Lunch was enjoyable.. and was home waiting for dinner at marche.

Was at marche and then i thought i was late.. so they came, and then saw my colleagues and some of the graduates too.. haha.. so qiao huh? But too bad, they couldn't give us a 12 pax table. Haha.. so fun to see so many friends again.. haha.. and what's best is, we didn't agree to meet.. just happen to see each other wor.. haha. But strangely, it was strange. But then i realised, certain things are better left ignored.

But of coz, dinner was very nice too~ I had soft shell crab (but i still prefer the sauce from sakae) and also pork chop.. nice! But then don't know why.. everything i ate doesn't seems to be hot enough.. all cold cold de.. and i mean really physically cold. Still, it was better than what i had for lunch.. ^^

Then was at marina eating the same ice-cream.. haha.. still as sweet. But this time they gave a lot more.. whahaa... but too sweet le la.. a bit cannot take it.

Then met with xy (again) for OO. Friday was like very sian de wor, and i discovered, the people there are auditors.. = = Erm... how come ar? Either auditors, sales or bankers. Seldom you will hear "waiters, bartenders, promoters".. how about editors, CEOs musicians and all that.. why ar? But was very glad.. saw warlords er ge ^^ finally after so long. Well, he didn't change at all.. and i think really didn't. But glad.. so extended "invitation" for next wednesday. Hopefully ba.

Strangely, less is more and more is even more. I totally don't understand. But i guess the best is not to understand... or even spare any thought for it.

At OO, saw my "seniors" as well.. they said they are from exexexco... chloe's batch.. - - and then said they organise FOC de.. "no wonder you looked so familiar.." eh? I don't know where i saw before lor.. totally no recollection. Hahaa.. but the guess that i'm from SIM was well done.

Consumed much less.. just not to waste myself just yet. I don't know, but i'm starting to get bored le... or rather sick of this kind of life. But i don't feel that time/life is wasted.. just money is wasted only.. and lots of it = = And of coz, "without regrets".. certain things done after "expiry" seems weird.

So against what i had been forbidden.. i have began my "search" for jobs.. i want flexible hours/days, and boring job scope so that i can nua my brain away.. haha.. hopefully less than 4 days per week. So now i had a recomendation for a night job.. if possible.. hopefully.

And which means, gaming has to be halted. And then 1 wondered why.. why spent so much time.. lol.. perhaps too bored already. So now got something to do (work), hopefully something new.

Time to go back to school work.. nb.. fail before le.. so what? CMI so what? Hahaa.. like that lor.. i don't think i'm as smart.. so take longer time lor.. and in the end, i'll still ask (if i had the chance to ask) myself.. "for what"?? I also don't know. Study so much.. for what? I don't know... enjoy so much.. for what? I also don't know. Blog so much.. for what? I also don't know.. fell like doing then do lor.. But as always, the more 1 does, the more risk is assumed. So might as well don't do anything? But cannot~ because people get bored.. then chute a lot a lot a lot of pattern.. in the end kena burned then ask.. for what? Lol.. i also don't know. (with no particular reference of any event.. lol.. just for example)

But i don't know la.. personality is hard to change.. I also know.. but then.. nevermind ba.

So like that lor.. haha.. for what i also don't know... just hope that i'll get a job soon. Pok le lor.. and better to cut down on maple and start mugging.. if not a lot of "for what" in the future.

Special thanks to those who got me present.. Deeply appreciated. (you know who you are.. cannot write everything out.. *names are ommited to protect their identities* haha.. bday everybody also have.. and i don't think there is anything to be liao bu qi... afterall, it's just another day.. so.. i won't be expecting anything much la.. haha.. i just want to be happy. That's all.

And i don't know how.. haha.. anybody who feel like going crubbing next wednesday.. just go.. i won't be opening bottle.. nothing to offer.. so didn't invite people.. ^^ But just come for crubbing lor.. and somemore is friend suggest de.. haha.. i call so many people i also paiseh...

I guess.. i just have to be able to support myself.. i don't know.. i just don't want to be dependent.. and of coz, i just want to be happy.

SOP

Today went to shop for clothes.. but spent hours walk and walk and walk.. and still cannot find..

And today follows the usual SOP. 1st thing is lao sai.. haha... as a result of an overdose yhr night before. Hahaha.. and i seh until i got into the sun lor.. woke up at 9am and seh until 12pm. Yupz.. lunch was nice today.. haha.. though my stomach like cannot make it le.. - -

So till now stomach still not good.. eat le like cannot digest.. somemore, after walking for so many hours, i bought 1 big glup.. haha.. and it makes matter worse.

And today went over to grandma's place to see how is she le.. she seems ok le.. so i'm less worried. Saw aunt there as well... so we chatted.. and i learnt so much from her.. haha.. of coz, she wants us to study well.. including the 3 cousins of mine.. lol.. well, all the best for the coming 'O's.. (you know who you are..)

Ok.. so i think i need to be plastic le.. haha.. it might come into good use... haha..

But still... argh...

Hahaha.. and today i got a quote from someone... "u know i know what we know.." whahaa... ya.. people nowadays got long antenna le.. hahaa.. but still... not really enough wor.. haha.. jia you ba.. haha..

Regrets?

4am plus.. i've been "awaken" to certain things. As from some time ago, i was still afraid.. i'm scared. Just because of the unknown.. i don't know.

And i thought, it wasn't real.. but i just don't want to.. for i fear.. what if, there isn't any tomorrow? Will there still be hope? Tomorrow is just an infinite.. yet today is always there. Why not today..? - because the assumption is that there is tomorrow.. but i don't know just how long can things last.

Certain thing just ain't measured by the duration.. but rather, the intensity of the events that happened.

I'm certainly not pessimisitic... i just don't wish to regret. Hopefully, everything turns out well from here on.

Actually, the entry is rather nonsensical.. as a result of crubbing session. Nevertheless, i still end up in zouk as a prelude to my bday "bash".. haha.. (actually i don't even know how many are aware that my bday is just 1 week away.. haha) So after tahing 3 jugs by 2 if us, it was down to opening of martell ^^ Haha.. of coz, there is a price to be paid. The record? $105 tab for the whole night.. the most i've racked up since my crubbing days.

Was rather fun to hear mambo music again.. haha.. but then again.. it seems a bit too much le.. till now, i'm still a bit seh.. haha.. but i need to "warm up" my engine again.. i've not been crubbing since school starts.. partly becoz i'm busy with school work, and also becoz i'm poor le.. haha.. so today was an exception..

But then, zouk was very very crowded today... and the age group seems different from us.. haha.. i don't know.. maybe i've "overgrown"? But don't know what happened.. while entering, saw 4 lambo going in as well.. .wah~~~~ all the ah sia all come le ah? Hahaha.. for me to drive 1 of those.. i think, i got to find a rich dad le.. haha.. kidding.

So don't know what happened also.. zouk was sooooooo crowded till we got no place to put the jugs.. = =.. somemore open bottle.. - -.... haha... well well.. too bad, i've got to pay for my share even though i got the "bday boy" immunity.. haha... sad.

Anyway.. i don't know.. my point is, to cherish whatever is presented.. yupz.. i rather not regret~ Or maybe.. should i seek for my bliss once more?

Fragile Life..

This afternoon while i was getting ready to go school, i received a sms.. it says one of my band mate's younger sis just passed away from a motor accident the day before... omg.. i really got a shock. Life, is just so fragile..

I just don't know..

And then, after one of my grandma got discharged from hospital, another grandma went in for the 2nd time. Mom says she looks thin.. sigh. I'm worried.. but nothing i can do.

Of coz, there are things which are not up to us. And of coz, by being indifferent can protect oneself.. but then again, if the feeling is indifferent.. i wonder.. is it just a mere existence?

MJ Camp

Another weekend gone just like that..

Saturday was band again.. sian was that it was at boonlay. So darn far lor.. imagine, 1 hour plus there and then another hour back home again. But yesterday went to bt's house for mj instead..

Was "on form" when i 1st sat at the table.. haha.. won 3 times 3 -4 tai in a row wor.. and then.. nightmare started. Haha.. ml won and won and won.. and was playing 20-40... = = So by the end of 2 rounds.. i've lost $10.. and ml? She won $33.. haha... fierce. 1 house clear 3 house lor..

So this morning breakfast was on her.. haha... carried on playing 2 rounds.. and then, it just got worse. Kena tio bao coz hiong too much le.. haha.. kns.. 1 game lost $12.80.. = = Was so suay lor.. that tile was "tested" before de.. and then jj just listen nia and i kena bomb..

So the rest of the game was just trying to prevent my drawer from drying.. whaha.. what's more sian was, everytime i listen for "ping hu", i'll kena flower... and if not, i'll be waiting for "ping hu zi mo" because of kalong.. haha.. sad leh.. and it happened not once.. i think got 5 - 6 times.. or even more..

All in all, 2 days lost $30... hahaa.. i might be better off crubbing? Hahaa.. but jj also very good la.. called KFC for dinner.. wahaha.. but i'm the "major shareholder" wor.. haha...

Got home not long ago.. found that dad got sick le.. he puked and had stomachache. Then grandma got hospitalised... - - How come eveyone got sick nowadays ar... A year ago, i also kena gastric flu.. puked and lao sai till don't know what. Just hoped that everyone got to be alright. Must really take care wor.. and me too. Last year didn't get to "celebrate" my bday coz of the gastric flu... so this year must be careful.

And 10 more days~!!! Wahahaa... can celebrate for 1 whole week.. ahhaa..

Siao Liao..

A few days back, my CF lecturer is trying to kill me with FST.. haha.. after listening for almost 2 hours of lecture (the other 1 hour went to dreamland, breaks and so on..), i still couldn't get what he was trying to teach. Not that he isn't good.. maybe just that i wanted to know too much. The seperation theory.. haha.. seperate what? Cannot tell lor.. maybe must go ask those pro in CF de liao.

Anyway, i'm going to ki siao le.. haiz.. don't tell me i'm going to study everything for 2 years again? Haha.. ya lor.. i'm being driven crazy by everyone. So bored.. and seems to me nowadays, i'm the most free de in the whole world. Friends are either attached or working.. which renders them busy. Me? Neither.. so this world is bored when you are not with the crowd. LOL.. so sian..

Shockingly, saw one of my secondary schoolmate's friendster profile... and omg.. she was married le.. lol.. so young lor.. i think is 22 ba.. scary lor.. maybe their family very rich ba.. so can marry so early. Me lei? Haven't even save enough for a car lor... not to mention house.. haha.. and i want a lot a lot of things.. i want to have nice things. But the problem is, not enough money. So? Got to study and score well, get good results, and maybe find a higher paying job based on the degree... lol.. sounds so "ping fan".. haha. But nowadays, the mr Ram keeps telling us, "you must make your investment worthwhile".. haha.. ya.. i don't know what changed him this year.. keeps nagging. Maybe it was becoz i scored 7 marks for my LBO then he kena butter? Hahaa.. sorry lah.. i try to score 70 this year can? Hahaa... try only.

Oh yah.. and a few days back, one of my school friend got very "sad".. haha.. coz her "bo lin" is still attached.. whaha.. and so qiao lor.. he purposely walk in front of us, cut our queue to see his gf.. omg.. i think my friend is heartbroken le.. but sadly, i couldn't find any "weapons" to hoot him.. haha.. then the toopid ah li very clever, say take fire extinguisher.. = = lol.. but compared to my 1st years.. i think i couldn't joke that much le.. don't know why.. maybe coz sian of my own lame jokes le ba.. haha.. or maybe really old le?

And 12 more days~!!! yeah~! Hahaha... so happy lor.. and glad to know people are going to celebrate for me.. ^^ Deeply appreciated. And of coz, i'll celerate it myself too.. whahaa.. by of coz.. going crubbing.. yeah.. or maybe pubbing? LOL.. undecided.. undecided.. maybe none of the above.. haha.. coz wanted to save some money ba.. see hows lor.

Haiz.. scared myself these few days with very weird dreams again.. haha.. omg.. i'm thinking so much again. It always happen.. But then again.. i don't know la.. it's so complicated. Hah..

1 am.. time to koon le.. tomorrow still got to go for morning lectures... haizz....

Hazy

*cough* *cough*... omg.. the haze is back again. And for this morning, the PSI was at 73.. =_=

Felt really uncomfortable wor.. sigh.. even after the morning rain, the air still "smells" the same to me.

Still having lecture in an hour's time.. well.. at least the air is "better" in there..

Opted for noon lecture becoz this week was supposed to be the week where the admins set up their stations outside lectures.. which means i couldn't crash lecture le lor.. haha.. no wonder my MSM class so empty yesterday. Now i know why every class seems so packed...

However, was curious to know if there are any classes on saturdays morning. Supposed to go for band practice at Boonlay.. so might as well set off from clementi after lectures. Well then.. see which module is up on saturday..

Time to go school liao.

Weekend Again

Made a blunder yesterday. Went for band practice a whole 3 hours earlier. Haha.. reached SCC and then realised nobody was there. Called Ed and then found out.. it only starts at 7pm.. = =

Luckily the weather was great.. very very windy.. and not much sunlight too. Was at Jurong West Street 76.. and i just got there from JP.. so i'm quite lazy to take the same bus back to jp again.. and there.. so ulu lor.. = =

So sian and didn't know what to do.. so tried to call for "help".. lol.. but to no avail ba. So i go around exploring the area. Walked for 10 mins and reached Gek Poh "shopping centre".. haha.. a 2 storey sc.. with 1 mac, 1 food court and then i think a few other retails.. haha.. and the only service escalator is undergoing upgrade.. so only got 1 stairs. Lol. Actually knew of this place a few years back.. so i actually really knew where i was going.. except the route was different.

Intended to walk all the way for 3 hours.. lol.. but think it's quite dumb to tire myself.. haha.. so went mac instead. Had my dinner early and finally.. got my FI notes out to revise. And the more i read, the more i discovered i didn't know.. haha.. i'm so confuse.. and so are the lectures. It seems.. after so many years of studying, everything just suddenly fuse together. FI, CF, POA.. lol.. and i regretted for not remembering what i've studied.

Reached before 7 and then i regretted once again for not making sure the time to reach. It was the 2nd combine with the strings and so the head suggested we do some "ice breakers"! Omg.. hahaa.. i thought i was in camp or what.. still got to play this kind of game.. hahaa... but it was more of a "get to know" session. So suay suay i kena arrowed.. lol.. i was there for 6 years le lor.. hhaa.. what's there to know? Anyway.. was suprised how much i've changed. Used to be like some of the younger kids.. when people ask me to "present" something, i used to hide, get paiseh and all those kind of things... haha.. but now is so different. So.. we do really grow up huh?

And for some of them.. they grew erm..! LOL.. so scary lor.. how come so long never see them, and they are like.. wow.. And also, the older members aren't coming anymore.. sigh.. haha.. and then i'm considered quite old there le.. = = Joined back in 1999 when i was 16, and now i'm 23.. haha.. but the majority of them still 16-18. = =

Got hungry again upon reaching home.. xy asked us to go support in eski.. haha.. but as usual... bo lang lei.. so i asked my buddy out for supper.. ate and then helped out with a composition.. lol.. so scary.. 1 whole night and i only came out with 8 bars of music.. haha... composing isn't that simple when there is no inspiration.. Haha.. not as if we were so free.. but it's for a module.. so bo bian lor..

Sleep at 6am, and then woke up at 10am.. so tired.. haiz.. that more or less concludes my weekend.. haha.. sundays is just about mapling.. lol.