For What?

I wonder how.. i wondered why.. lol.

Very tired but couldn't get to sleep. Digestive system not good, but i eat and eat and eat. Met both my aunt, grandma and cousins for lunch after FI. They wanted to go for international buffet - at Vienna.. haha.. a place which i 1st went with the excos. So it was a re-visit.. but i didn't eat as much.. nevertheless, i need not pay as well ^^ (oh ya.. they didn't know bday was coming.. haha.. and i didn't want celebration too.. haha..) Lunch was enjoyable.. and was home waiting for dinner at marche.

Was at marche and then i thought i was late.. so they came, and then saw my colleagues and some of the graduates too.. haha.. so qiao huh? But too bad, they couldn't give us a 12 pax table. Haha.. so fun to see so many friends again.. haha.. and what's best is, we didn't agree to meet.. just happen to see each other wor.. haha. But strangely, it was strange. But then i realised, certain things are better left ignored.

But of coz, dinner was very nice too~ I had soft shell crab (but i still prefer the sauce from sakae) and also pork chop.. nice! But then don't know why.. everything i ate doesn't seems to be hot enough.. all cold cold de.. and i mean really physically cold. Still, it was better than what i had for lunch.. ^^

Then was at marina eating the same ice-cream.. haha.. still as sweet. But this time they gave a lot more.. whahaa... but too sweet le la.. a bit cannot take it.

Then met with xy (again) for OO. Friday was like very sian de wor, and i discovered, the people there are auditors.. = = Erm... how come ar? Either auditors, sales or bankers. Seldom you will hear "waiters, bartenders, promoters".. how about editors, CEOs musicians and all that.. why ar? But was very glad.. saw warlords er ge ^^ finally after so long. Well, he didn't change at all.. and i think really didn't. But glad.. so extended "invitation" for next wednesday. Hopefully ba.

Strangely, less is more and more is even more. I totally don't understand. But i guess the best is not to understand... or even spare any thought for it.

At OO, saw my "seniors" as well.. they said they are from exexexco... chloe's batch.. - - and then said they organise FOC de.. "no wonder you looked so familiar.." eh? I don't know where i saw before lor.. totally no recollection. Hahaa.. but the guess that i'm from SIM was well done.

Consumed much less.. just not to waste myself just yet. I don't know, but i'm starting to get bored le... or rather sick of this kind of life. But i don't feel that time/life is wasted.. just money is wasted only.. and lots of it = = And of coz, "without regrets".. certain things done after "expiry" seems weird.

So against what i had been forbidden.. i have began my "search" for jobs.. i want flexible hours/days, and boring job scope so that i can nua my brain away.. haha.. hopefully less than 4 days per week. So now i had a recomendation for a night job.. if possible.. hopefully.

And which means, gaming has to be halted. And then 1 wondered why.. why spent so much time.. lol.. perhaps too bored already. So now got something to do (work), hopefully something new.

Time to go back to school work.. nb.. fail before le.. so what? CMI so what? Hahaa.. like that lor.. i don't think i'm as smart.. so take longer time lor.. and in the end, i'll still ask (if i had the chance to ask) myself.. "for what"?? I also don't know. Study so much.. for what? I don't know... enjoy so much.. for what? I also don't know. Blog so much.. for what? I also don't know.. fell like doing then do lor.. But as always, the more 1 does, the more risk is assumed. So might as well don't do anything? But cannot~ because people get bored.. then chute a lot a lot a lot of pattern.. in the end kena burned then ask.. for what? Lol.. i also don't know. (with no particular reference of any event.. lol.. just for example)

But i don't know la.. personality is hard to change.. I also know.. but then.. nevermind ba.

So like that lor.. haha.. for what i also don't know... just hope that i'll get a job soon. Pok le lor.. and better to cut down on maple and start mugging.. if not a lot of "for what" in the future.

Special thanks to those who got me present.. Deeply appreciated. (you know who you are.. cannot write everything out.. *names are ommited to protect their identities* haha.. bday everybody also have.. and i don't think there is anything to be liao bu qi... afterall, it's just another day.. so.. i won't be expecting anything much la.. haha.. i just want to be happy. That's all.

And i don't know how.. haha.. anybody who feel like going crubbing next wednesday.. just go.. i won't be opening bottle.. nothing to offer.. so didn't invite people.. ^^ But just come for crubbing lor.. and somemore is friend suggest de.. haha.. i call so many people i also paiseh...

I guess.. i just have to be able to support myself.. i don't know.. i just don't want to be dependent.. and of coz, i just want to be happy.