iPod, I Pok

Went IT fair yesterday (9th March) with only one objective - get an ipod nano. But before that, was supposed to accompany sh to giordano for an interview.. but the usual me.. was at home mapling till i was late.. haha.. so i told her that i'll go to suntec to get the pod 1st before going to meet her. Took 162 to suntec.. but it took an awful long time to reach.. and don't know what my empty head is thinking.. didn't alight at the stop as i thought that the bus is a loop service. In the end i found myself stranded at shenton way.. argh! And don't know what my empty head is thinking again.. didn't took a bus back but chose to walk instead. Under the burning sun at 2p.m., i was almost BBQed.



The legendary "Boon Tat" St... wahahahaaa!




Wanted to take the whole name - Esplanade - Theaters on the Bay, but couldn't coz my 6260 cannot zoom out, and if i move back anymore, i'll end up in the middle of the road!

So i walked at the way.. something like City Venture.. haha.. finally reached suntec after additional walking of 30 mins. And my.. it was not as crowded as i expect it to be.. but i'm suprised at how many staff there were... i think it's more than the crowd maybe? Haha.. so i spent hours walking around trying to find the apple booth or rather, an ipod.. but after hours.. i still couldn't find it. SH came to meet me after her interview.. and i told her i couldn't find the booth.. haha.. maybe i was dreaming or something? Until when i've decided to go, some purple t-shirts caught my eye.. and i can see the Apple logo on it! Finally.. haha.. and met SH's schoolmate.. she's also working there... so the comission goes to her.. but before that, we went to BK for a drink.. i was exhusted.. so while resting, discussed which 'size' to buy - 1GB, 2GB or 4GB.. but in the end settled on 1GB only.. for $268 (as advertised) includes $33 voucher and a silicone pack.. don't know where it comes from.. so i add another radio receiver for $88.. in total, $323. Before leaving BK, SH told me to beware of her friend.. she says women are very li hai in pushing sales.. haha.. okok.. i get the idea.. i was once a sales staff too.. At the booth, SH's friend told me there's a $20 cash-back if i pay with credit card.. = = If i have the ability, i'd have signed up for a card and get ipod nano FREE le.. haha.. yupz.. and thanks to Chloe who helped to check the price of the nano for me.. too bad i bought in impulse.. well.. refund?




Finally got it purchased, and burnt a hole in my wallet.. and made my heart sank to my stomach. And their plastic bag, pink in colour! OMG.. hahaa.. first it was purple, next pink.. what colour next?

Returned to home base (Thomson) to get my contact lense done finally.. All was done that day.. all except my POA revision.. so in the end i skipped POA mocks as well..



Mapling these few days.. now a level 24 noob.. and it was just days ago.. just discovered my blogs were also infested with adware.. please get your popups blocker up.. Changing the way which i post my pics.. using the programme offered instead of "hello".. but i don't know.. i don't like the idea.. haha.. excpect maybe all the pics are in one post.. maybe i'll find a better one.

Can't Believe This..

Look at the tiles i've got! And i didn't win that round.. argh!.. wasted!

Mapling!

Wasn't really studying these few days.. was actually mapling. >.<

But still, i won't be failing my prelims - reason being that i'll not be attending any papers.. haha.. oh no.. think i'm getting myself into deep trouble..

And i can find the mood to begin another blog.. waah.. and it's all about MS (MapleStory).. okok.. i know i'm still being childish.. haha.. but guess i'm just too bored. Went to my cupboard to find some games to install, but didn't have much online game.. and i'm actually quite tired of playing 3 Kingdoms.. and somemore didn't have the PS2 with me.. So all day long, i chased mushrooms, fly with ribbon pigs and battled snails.. and actually cleared the beginner stage within 2 days.

And then there goes my POA..

Have been drinking powdered milk in bid to maintain my weight.. working really burns my mass.. either that or it'll burn my wallet.. so no choice. But now i'm going on an 'intensive' 'weight gaining' programme.. maybe to increase by another 5 KGs? And now i got a new nick name.. - "gu ni ti".. meaning milk pig.. thanks to my dad huh! And while watching tv, i asked mom why they only advertised sliming programmes and not weight gainning.. and her answer was very logical - "coz it's easier for them to slim down than for me to gain weight".. hahaa.. no wonder.. lol!

Finally the last episode of the "Conquerer of West Chu" on Channel 55 - a drama about the conflict between the Hans and the Chus after the 7-states waring period. Wow.. and the ending sets me thinking yet again.. something about the prevailing stituation such that something happens.. and such was called 'fate'. And finally.. it actually can be very simple.. just simple.

Enjoyed the 'holidays' so much that i could smile in my sleep.. wahaha.. maybe simplicity is better. And on my list - MS , mahjong (mj), Table soccer (TS).. just these alone.. i'm more than satisfied. Hopefully i'll be contented.. if not i'll end up creating some new troubles for myself. Of coz.. almost forgot.. Crubbing with my friends! One with the Warlords and the other with some of the Exco.. hmm.. hopefully nobodys PS (pang seh).. amist all the exams.. i am still thinking of fun.. huh.. remarkable.. lol!

So Tired

Never felt so tired trying not to sleep.. the first time was during my JC days.. due to the 'overwhelming' school work.. or rather street soccer, haha.. i couldn't kept myself awake through the night.. but now in SIM too?

Was out studying the night at Bukit Batok Mac there.. set to complete POA revision plus a bit of FI.. so i brought the whole stack of POA notes and FI study guide.. but in the end.. i only completed 2 chapters out of the 22. Hahaa.. no wonder my bag seems heavy. Of coz i'm glad.. it beats watching tv at home.. haha..

It's been a week since i stepped out of my home.. and nothing much changed.. haha.. not as if new MRT lines are being built and Changi has a new terminal.. but then, it can be quite boring. Due to the stresses of the examinations, almost the whole planet is hibernating... so had to stay home and try to study as well.

And almost all went to the prelims.. all except me.. and i'm beginning to feel guilty.. guilty as a boy can be.. hahaa.. First it was my graphic card, next it was my sound card.. argh.. now no more mp3s.. should not have assembled my own CPU in the first place.. it's been almost 4 years.. and while it's still up and running.. i think it's time to change.. this CPU is too 'sensitive'.. just one knock can render it useless.. spent $900+ on this CPU, of which $200 on the stupid graphic card.. Time to tour sim lim soon.

Still feeling tired.. think i'm going back to sleep again..

Just as Expected

Just as expected....

Nothing much accomplished today at home as well.. hmm.. and didn't sleep well at all. For all i know, i won't be turning up for marketing paper tomorrow as well..

So the whole day, i packed my room and my computer.. think i got to change a graphic card soon.. kept giving me the same problems.

Band practice tomorrow.. but guess i won't be going for anything afterall.

To Go or Not To Go?

To go or not to go? (so many Os).. I've only prepared 1 eassys out of the 4.. and most likely if i go, i won't be seeing my scripts anymore..

They are trying to murder me it seems.. 2 essays in a row.. i rather work for another month! Things got postponed becoz of exams.. and it seems that always. There are always too many things, too little time during this period.. and when it's all over, there isn't anything to be done afterall.

So while i ponder.. just hope that i'll wake up early tomorrow for the 1st paper.

A Little Bit of This and That

Wah sian.. tio pang seh this morning.. waited till 11am till the collection was called off.. and then it spoilt all my plans for the day. Nevertheless.. completed marketing today.. and it'll be down to essay preparations later in the midnight.. and at this pace, i might just abandon LBO after all.

So it was none of mission completed after all.. maybe slacking at home. Seems that i can't do without my afternoon sleep.. not nap.. coz i can nap for 5 hours at one go.. And it was the TV and dinner that got me awake, other than the occasional ringing of my handphone.

Very lazy to attempt any essay.. haiz.. why do they like to put marketing and LBO together?

Was KPO-ing reading other blogs again.. and.. hmm.. i don't know what to say.. it was just too real.. such as it reflects upon life itself. I don't know.. it seems, i've asking for too much.

Some blogs are real scary.. the more you read, the more depressed you are.. haha.. now i understand.. but nowadays i seldom have any 'grey' entries.. either all are being used up, or i don't want to think about them.. either way, it saves readers from my misery? Haha.. As it goes.. a lot of things are 'bo bian' one.. the more one pursues, the more it eludes.. there is a point though.. and as such, it countinues.

And as time goes by .. (so slowly), it'll be a more difficult journey.. haha.. so i just want to play all i could.. of coz.. as all the aunties and uncles at CP told me, studies is still the top priority.. if not, i'll end up being a promoter all my life.. and that is sadness.. One of the lowest lifeforms.. and there is no coporate ladder to talk about.. yet, having been through, it's a great learning experience.. and it comes from learning from the elders.. not from work itself. Work is only tiring.

Really.. i've been asking for too much.. and failed to see a lot of things.. of coz, i can see dinosaurs.. haha.. how to miss those? Lol.. kidding.. and i think, things could get much worst when i insisted.. so why persist? Maybe i couldn't resist. And with such, i carry those with me as i moved on. It has became a 'burden'.. maybe till someday that i realised that it can be left someway on the path.. till someday.

Wahaha.. see what other's blog did to me? LOL.. all seems so pessimistic.. till i want to bang walls already.. anyway, it's just another boring entry.. haha.. well, at least it help to de-stress.. the prelims are killing me..

Right now, i'm thinking of only.. Erdinger! Muahahaa.. Time to prepare my Marketing essay.. sianz.

While Waiting....

'Contract' ended for 2 days since last Sunday. Have been sleeping 14 hours per day.. maybe i'm too tired.. or maybe i have nothing to do. Well.. this is the time where my brain works again.

A few more days before the mocks, and i've been trying to allocate time for the first 2 mods, LBO and Marketing. Going through the study guide these few days just to be sure of the requirements.. maybe.. just maybe after all i'll not turn up for the papers. Hah.

It's been thought.. but i don't care.

The only thing i'm looking forward to.. getting my ipod nano!

Something got stuck on my mind these days.. just like the contact lense that got 'embeded' in my brain.. haha.. and i couldn't get it off.. argh.. i hate that feeling.. maybe i haven't been keeping myself busy these days? For the past week, it was work and work and work and play and maybe a bit of schooling.. and now a sudden influx.. i think i have problems managing it.

Marketing seems difficult.. i couldn't understand the subject guide.. i think the author's english is worse than mine.. anyway, now to the last topic.. maybe i should study my notes after all.

Waiting to be on a 'mission' now.. going town soon to collect something, and also to submit my 'punch' card. I'm depending on my pay nowadays.. allowance is not allowed when i'm employed. The only thing, my CPF is almost empty.. haha.. well, for the moment.. So while i wait for my pay, it seems i've already spent 1/4 of it.. haha.. all in a few days' worth of effort.

No choice.. had to pay for my own studies.. 7k.. and had been drawing on past savings (S) and contribute it to investments (I).. oops.. i'm not taking econs this year.. haha.. cleared it just merely..

A lot of housekeeping to be done.. and of course.. to get a 'proper' haircut.. haha.. it's about time. Well, since i have nothing 'important' from March onwards other than the exams, i guess it's the best time. I shall activate the 'reset button'.

Since working, had been 'investing' in the pool.. haha.. the legal pool.. but then, had no luck.. oh great.. Wednesday seem to shift from Clubbing to 4D guessing.. haha.. all are Expenditure.. But then again, i'm too lazy even to walk to the nearest 7-11 to place a bet.

Even if i have the means, it'll invest in food.. haha.. weight gainning.. think i don't want to be a bag of bones.. and definately not the complimentary dinosaurs that comes with it.

Having the crave for Erdinger again.. muahhahaa..

Mock is knocking.. haiz.. sian ah!

Time to Rest

I couldn't believe it.. spent the whole day at home sleeping! Having a total of 14 hrs of sleep today.. i must have been very tired working for a whole month.. haha.. finally a time for me to rest.

Last Day of Work Again

Eh.. This 1 is for Miss Sim:

9th of February - Went NYDC with the excos, both new and old of the welfare department. (That is, JJ, ML, GQ, Alvin, Alan and Miss Sim XX) Chosen the one at Orchard, and seems that i couldn't get away from that place even on an 'off' day.

Intended to use the $60 voucher from my birthday to treat the incoming welfare exco.. but coz that ml got don't know what discount card or something like that, then we can't use it.. argh~ so till now, the voucher is still with me.. haiz. In the end, we split the bill among the old exco.. haha.. as a gesture of appreciation for their Parker Pens.. aww~

And then.. it was KTV again! Hahaa.. but then, i realised my singing really very er xin.. haha.. so seldom K nowadays..

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Back to 26th of Feb:

Last day of work! Went straight to work from BT's place coz 'camped' for mj the night before.. had a special 'guest' to join us for mj.. and in the end, i lost $10 + playing 10 - 20 cents.. waaah.. very unlucky i guess.. or rather, our guest is very pro..

But still it was a great game! Haha.. only very tiring coz went to work the day before and had to go the work the following day.. arh..

At the workplace.. everyone seems to be in a very bad mood.. though a lot of 'fishes'.. but still it wasn't enough to please the fishermen.. Sure looks scary.. and a lot of conflicts at Five-Two.. luckily i'm at Five-Seven.. so today.. the Elder Sis butter everyone in sight.. waah.. but i was spared.. haha.. maybe becoz it was my last day of work..

From the end of sales till now.. i didn't cash in any from my brand.. all was done while i was away.. so it was as if they no need my services.. and hence i've decided to take a break.. And maybe perhaps.. my duty there was to kio sai.... followed customers to the carpark 2 times today.. and i didn't sell anything at all!

Feeling very tired now.. coz was too free these few days.. plus saw a lot of things.. then my brain did me some 'great services' again.. haiz.. time to watch tv and sleep soon.. studies shall wait till monday morning.. Didn't intend to go for classes tomorrow.. well.. to the rest, good luck for mocks!

Another Thursday!

Waah.. haha.. it's been a while. Wasn't something that i could abuse anymore.. maybe time. Maybe age. I'm just glad that i made it thus 'far'..

I like Thursday! My only 'off' day.. and i could 'catch up' with everybody.. of coz.. TS too! Many hours of TS.. and all of them have leveled up!... argh.. haha.. now i'm lousy.. kept losing.... and speaking of TS.. think i forgot to add to my want list.. haha.. that is TS Table.. (a bit weird.. coz it means table soccer table.. haha).. the issue: space.. haha.. maybe get it when i set up my own family?

The joke of the day: Anaconda.. waahahaa.. joked about it and its eggs.. waahahaa... we are just plain 'evil'.

Went Holland V with ex vp Geoff.. that place.. i still don't know whats the name.. hahaa.. But the Erdinger is good! i mean, it was a reasonable price.. $13.50 for a pint.. or rather, for 2 pints coz of 1 for 1.. waaaah! Alcoholic me? I do agree to a certain extent.. but so long as i don't abuse.. and exercise 'mind over matter'.. its great to chill out once in a while.. of coz, i realised the 'economic implications' and the health hazards. So no worries.. lol.. i know what i'm not getting into.

So the trio JJ, Ml and JW went to BT's place for a 'tudy camp' plus mj session.. haha.. tempted to go.. but i want to be less wilful.. haha.. so i held till sat.. haha.. no any better... but then it shall be enough already.

Anyway, said a lot.. and rack up lots of past.. and i just want to summarized.. what we are today.. is just due to the chain of events.. so long as something or nothing happens.. we can be sure, it will definately affect out future.. no matter what.. so now, i must tread carefully..

Maybe Really

Maybe really is the case? .. i had enough 'therories' already..

But today was a great day.. though a bit guilty for not attending lectures. They cost $50 per lessons.. and i just earned $42 per day. hmm.. the OC seems to be quite a lot.

Rather fed up last night because was asked to stand in at the taka counter today.. didn't quite like that place.. haha.. i still prefer cp. Though a bit strict at cp, i really had lots of friends there.. as i said, they are the so-called colleagues.. it seems, there are more of a friend to me.

Saw some familiar faces at taka.. haha.. and it really off sets the previous night's mood.

Went 'shopping' today during lunch.. or rather, dinner.. was already 6 pm when i set off.. so i 'thwang' until 7.30pm.. haha.. and i bought a bag! Finally.. i can see my 'work' being actualize. But it doesn't come cheap.. at 5 day's worth of work.. and my list just keeps adding.

Buying can be addictive.. and now on my list (not in any order) : laptop (hopefully an i-book.. but i'm having second thoughts.. maybe just a 'normal' notebook will do.) , i-pod nano, lego train set, BMW 3 series, LV wallet, a new desktop, plus a lot more books and other stuffs.. haha.. of all, the 3 series seems impossible.. but now i feel like getting a car.

In order to support my inflated dream.. even the $800 'bonus' doesn't seems to be enough. So i had to find a job.. or even hold a career. So now i'm lobbying outside MLM.. haha.. friends beware! but then again.. hard selling doesn't suit me.. well, maybe take it as another learning experience? Haha.. considering the 'free' sales lessons they are offering.. i think it's worth it!

But put that on hold 1st.. my exams comes 1st. So today i told my colleague.. i wanted to end my 'contract' 2 days eariler.. that means my last day of work will be this Sunday.. no wonder i'm so delighted!

Didn't know what happen.. seems like trying a lot of new different ways to look at things.. and in ways that doesn't support my principles.. but i just want to explore. Maybe .. just maybe, there might be another path.

Up And Running..

Finally! Got my comp up and running... which spells trouble. And for me, it's been another rollercoaster ride. I don't know.. maybe i'm just too tired.

Things i forbid myself, i couldn't help. Or maybe was the wilful self again? It seems: i know no limits. And before any other things else starts.. something has to end.

Totally disappointed in myself. I thought i knew a lot.. but it seems i only know enough to harm myself.. just 4 days ago, it was so much different. Was full of myself.. even though was defeated in TS.. and got the motivation to study.. and i really did revision. But it just seems so different now.. perhaps i was expecting too much.

Left 9 more days to go.. before my 'contract' expires.. and i shall be glad.

It's been a hectic month. Worked all day.. but had built such a great rapport with my so-called colleagues.. and had been receiving lunch and dinner treats from my supervisor. I should be happy.. and i though i was.

Had been thinking.. perhaps a bit too much, on the past.. from distant to recent.. And i saw a familiar pattern.. haiz.. things just keeps repeating so long as i am who i was. Thought going to work on full throttle would somehow keep me busy, somehow make me immune, somehow much me realise something. I only realise, it doesn't perform all these tasks.

I've ran out of ways to reformat this hardisk of mine..

And then came my comp again.. haha.. i'm just very foolish. Kept insisting on my way.. even though it could ruin me. It is the same as always.. the same as always.

But then again... i will continue to find other means.. perhaps more user friendly ways. It isn't my choice.. or rather, do i have a choice in the 1st place?

Mocks coming.. i said i wanted to take.. and i only had 3 days before the commence of the the 1st paper.. maybe after all, i won't turn up at all.

Whatever.

Come Friday

Everyone is talking about friday. The school kids will get back their 'o' levels result, and even though i've gotten my results ages ago, i can't help but feel anxious. The reason: the toto 10 million draw opens on friday!

So today at my workplace, i placed 'some' bets on quick pick.. sure it was quick, but the numbers don't turn out nice though. A lot of numbers to check.. i do hope to win.. and when i win, i'll quit my job and get my ipod. But it isn't easy. 8 million combination.. and anyone else could win it with a 50 cents quick pick.. the more people buy, the more the prize is shared among. But at least this is something for me to hope. And maybe for all others who had bought.

Workaholic these days.. worked overtime till 11 plus at night. The time of the year where all the sales end, wagon being kept, gondola being set up. Though i have nothing to keep, nothing to set up, i stayed according to my own will.. i guess i'm just plain dumb. I won't get OT pay since my manager knew i need not stay.. i also don't know. Work seems the only thing in my life now.

Maybe was some bad luck or what.. got a cut on my palm while trying to keep a ladder. And it was a deep cut.. plus the skin was dangling.. and haiz.. just didn't concentrate for a moment and this sort of thing happen.

Marketing tomorrow.. supposed to have a 'test' tomorrow.. but i didn't have the time to study.. don't know whether to go or not.. maybe should study and see how? I sort of 'missed' school.. and of coz, TS too.. haha.. Thankfully, i'll be in school the whole toopid day.. coz FI shifted to the 7 pm slot.. and full day in school means no rest for me. And come friday, i'll slog through at work again... and the whole cycle starts before i can 'enjoy' my 'break' on the coming thursday.. haiz.

Butter!

I don't know.. it seems i'm about to lose myself.

Feeling very tired these days.. lack of sleep, lack of time, lack of energy. Work has taken its toll. And i know that this shouldn't be what i'm asking for.. yet it seems, i can't stop myself anymore. Days ago, my manager came toCP.. sort of to get her consignment PO.. but it's been a long time since she showed any 'concern'.. i thought she had left me there to rot.. haha.. to we promoters, what we asked for is support from the office, in terms of stocks, leave and so on.. but more often than not, we are taken for granted.. just because our job isn't specialize.. we are treated like da bian, ma yi, and so on..

So today, our department supervisor kena the butter by the floor manager.. said something nasty.. and i think they have something against her. Just because her pay is high, they want to make things difficult.. so today, saw something rather disturbing..

Past 2 days, didn't fork out a cent for my lunch.. i got treated.. 1st by ah pek, and then by my supervisor.. and they really treat.. my meal cost $17!! when my supervisor treat me and a fellow promoter.. waaah.. we all so paiseh.. so don't blame me for sideing her.. haha.. my brain is washed.

So the past 2 days, skipped all lessons.. coz i was too tired to wake up.. and then thinking of going to work after school makes me more sian.. but then, i felt very guilty.. argh!.. so stressed till all the pimples come out.

My manager asked me if i need someone to share my work.. and for no reason, i said no need.. how stupid.. i could study for the mocks.. argh.. i don't know.. i don't know.. just another 21 days to the end.. i do hope i'll make it.

It's Luck!

Hmmm.. my luck is weird nowadays. But it's not bad already. Maybe taking a break from my bad karma? Hoped my vacation doesn't end so soon.

Today i received a red packet at my work place today~ Waahaaa.. finally.. and it wasn't from my boss.. it was from a fellow promoter. I'm so touched.. so actually money isn't everything.. but it was something that people find it hard to part with.. especially for lowly paid jobs like us. And after that, it doesn't matter if the sale was zero for a saturday.

But it was really zero.. and i had to left early. Woke up early, work early, and then left early. Was out in Orchard Road by 6.30pm.. and there was a crowd waiting for Chingay to start.. sort of reminds me of someone.. anyway, it's getting grey.

Reached Don's place at around 7.30pm.. and actually didn't stayed for long.. coz got to work tomorrow.. but then it was very fun.. haha.. coz the ex excos getting together.. it was blissful! Well.. it could be better if everyone turns up? Haha.. but that will do.

Am i Dumb Or What?

Thursday - 02 feb: Went school for a full day.. and the night before, we had an agreement, those who came after 9.30am would have to treat the whole group lunch.. and for once, all came so early.. haha.. so it really works huh.

Went FI after such a long break.. and i don't catch any ball at all.. wondering what is the lecturer teaching.. getting worried about my results.. haiz. But was really looking forward to Thursday.. coz it was the only day where i get my 'off'.. and also the only day where i could stay in school and see my friends... of coz not forgetting Table Soccer (TS) !.. but then, the whole world knew of the 'cheat code'.. so it was getting boring waiting for a chance..

And then after a full day in school, met up with wm and anni to jam.. after about half a year.. we got together to 'practice' again.. but then we were very lousy.. compared to the band next room.. haha.. so we made up a lot of excuses and jokes to cover ourselves. Before we left, the uncle gave us 3 packets of drinks.. said it was 'complimentary'.. hahaa.. then we were wondering.. maybe he gave us drinks so as to 'beg' us not to go back again? .. lol. Finally wm agreed to let go of drumming.. haha.. so we are now looking for a drummer.. we are having 2 guitarist.. so should be alright.

While on the way home.. saw someone from my secondary school.. wanted to avoid alighting at the same busstop, i went to wm's place for a short visit.. and at the sam time bai nian.. at around 11pm = =. But it wasn't my intention.. but still, his mom gave me a red packet.. haha.. so pai seh.. lol.

Friday - 03 Feb: Slept till late noon.. before having a 'haircut' and going to bt's place for gathering. And then it was a mistake to cut my hair.. as always. I now looked koo koo again.. haha.. but then wait till my work 'contract' ends.. i should be going to have a botak head.. lol.

Reached bt's place by cab.. the journey is very long by bus.. so had to 'invest' a bit.. afterall, the gathering at bt's place was to 'bai nian'.. or in english, to gamble. Overall, think i had won some.. or maybe i lost some? haha.. i don't really know.. but then it was very fun! Small win at mahjong too.. haha.. so i rather play mj then blackjack.

Think it was becoz i seldom see the people in school nowadays.. or maybe i don't know.. but it's great to hang out with friends (and i mean a lot of them) once in a while.. and sometimes, having them for support really comforts a lot. Saw almost the whole of welfare department get together.. with the different years taking part.. ohh.. haha.. today we also celebrated our newly elected Head of Welfare's birthday.. so good to have so many people celebrate birthday with.

So played mj till 1.30am.. argh.. and then we left for home. Special thanks to Mr salty for sponsoring the cab fare, and also those who 'unwillingly contrubuted' to his wallet.. hahaa..

So i did went home today, never stay at bt's place.. haha.. though i'm wilful.. and i know it, i guess i've slowly beginning to realise something. Maybe then, there are some things that never change. But then these few days.. i don't know what happened.. it was arrogance and aggression taking over.. hopefully these things don't become a part of me..

But then, i wondered.. how come people like to tripod.. haiz.. and those kena tripod-ed chose to believe too.. a great 'survival' strategy.. but then it was only for the way up during work.. towards friends.. where else can we go? But then again.. some people are just like that, and will never change.. by telling them the facts, i'm actually being seen as no manners.. what the? I do agree.. i said things in a crude and sarcastic way.. my fault too.. haha.. aiya.. to each of their own ba.. don't come and disturb my life.

Seeing things i don't want to see.. and choosing to ignore.. or maybe forget.. or maybe it just don't matter anymore? Sometimes i really feel very shitty over certain things the are actually very simple and worthless.. but to me, it meant a lot.. not the kind where outsiders can understand easily.. and not only that, they have no rights to intervene.. but still people want to pull and others want to push.. it was black, then white, then black again, and then white again.. till the whole area became grey.

Haha.. the whole entry shifted the whole focus.. LOL.. i was too stressed up over exams, work and all other smaller and greater things. And for the don't know how many times.. Not that i don't want to quit.. i'm just being stubborn.. held to my so called principles.. just because my manager can't find anyone to take over.. so i assumed responsibility.. haha.. am i dumb or what?

Guess i'm just dumb.

Where is the Time?

Who says i couldn't sell? Haha.. just because i was sick doesn't mean that they can ride over.. just because i was doing part-time doesn't mean that my job isn't important. And just because.. doesn't give them to treat me as an ant. (something that i learnt from the ah pek.. muahaa).. anyway, closed some sales today.. especially on a very very very quiet day like wednesday.. the sale is going to be over pretty soon.. those looking for bedlinen should act quick.. or else had to wait till GSS.. which is half a year away.. me myself? I don't want to make my house look good.. the only thing i want is an ipod.. haha.. especially gian since my cousin showed me.. and i think... i should need one.. if not i kept listening to the same song over and over and over again. Currently playing 'love in the first degree' and 'creep'.. haha.. i think i got to need more than that.. especially the exams are coming.

Today at the selling floor: it was very very boring. As expected.. another quiet day.. and quieter days ahead.. haha.. one of my colleague was transfered to Taka.. so i was more bored than ever.. haha.. and then the whole world seems to work the morning shift.. so it was super quiet at 8pm. But today i saw something that i shouldn't see.. argh.. my eyes!

Then it was to MOS again.. with my working attire.. hahaa.. i looked so weird.. and then it was with the usual ones plus ismond. Told myself to cut down, especailly when the bah kua burned my throat.. but it seems behaving that way isn't the right way.. since i was already at the club. Nevertheless.. i didn't really drink a lot.. which i'm really glad.

And don't know for what reason.. the wilful self wasn't there today.. maybe because of work commitments.. or maybe my brain have grown. Whatever the case.. i still knows what comes first. Time is short, especially when something is round the corner.. (i mean exams.. in case you all think too much).. and looking at my schedule.. it seems.. i have no time for other things. In total i have 4 weeks.. meaning i have 1 week for each topic.. how can that be? Argh.. i want to break free. But then again.. i'm in a heavy debt.. so had to cleared it 1st..

Anyway.. i think they all ki siao already la.. maybe new year lost too much money.. want to kah people who go late for marketing tomorrow.. so now the time is 3.30am.. in another 4 hour's time, i should be waking up.. if not i'll treat the whole witizens lunch.. hopefully i'll wake up in time tomorrow.. haiz.. still having full day lessons.. plus.. jamming tomorrow! Argh.. i don't have enough time.. i don't have enough time.. i don't have enough time.. but then again.. time seems to pass so smoothly these days.. which of coz, i'm glad!

Miscued?

I was totally wrong.. argh.. nobody at all.. but still, i was right to an extend... No sales at all... i'm just too ill to promote. But really not nice to throw MC while at work. Ah.. i don't know.. just my stubborn old self again.

Another 'year', and i'm still as i am. Haha.. and yesterday saw type B, haaaha.. erm.. i don't know.. can't really classify people just into 4 'major' blood groups you know? Hahaa.. actually it should be 3.. 'O' is not a type.. it stands for no blood type i think. Luckily i have.. muahaaa..

Anyway, just craping around.. i shall go 'bi guan' already. It's february officially.. and think of it, it's time to be 'serious' in other things.. think i shouldn't be online that often.. but of coz, i'm looking for chilling out sessions.. waah.. alright then, all the best to all for the coming mocks!

CNY 2006

3rd day of CNY tomorrow.. and i've got to go work again.. sianz.. and think i muz have eaten too much bah kua.. now having a sore throat.. plus fever.. slept through the whole day without doing much.. didn't eat much also.. it's an agony to be ill.

Not really looking forward to the month of february coz having a full working schedule.. plus the coming mocks.. so my schedule for the coming week might be, work on tuesday, work plus clubbing on wednesday, full day in school and jamming after that.. and welfare gathering at bt's place on friday, then working on saturday and then to SRC ex president's place and then work on sunday again. Where is the time to study? My february is full.... well, maybe except on 14th? Hahaa.. coz nobody date me.

But then its ok.. right now i just want my sore throat to get better .. if not i won't be able to sell a thing tomorrow.. haha.. and then looking forward to my february incentive.. waah.. confirm rice bucket!

It seems CNY getting boring year after year, but only almost once a year where i get to meet my relatives.. and especially the kids, they seems to grow extremely fast.. And for this year, it seems special. The ban on gambling was lifted for the first time.. and for that, we could play mahjong. Dad uses my 'name' to get approval from her mom.. and it was as if only me who wanted to play.. but in the end i played with my grandpa and uncle plus my cousin.. they are so li hai! They can tell the tiles we are waiting.. so in the end i lost $1.60, and my cousin lost $6.10.. haha.. our generation are still not ready to take them on.

So it was to my mom's side.. and there turned from a wine drinking to alcohol tah-ing.. And me always seems to be out of place.. haha.. i was with the elder generation again.. haha.. like a bit mismatch.. but we all, my mom, dad, 2 uncles and 2 aunts finished the whole bottle of jw.. 43%.. waah.. haha.. so fierce ah they all.. but all are great drinkers.. haha.. no wonder.. no wonder.. ah.. and then my throat starts to hurt.. dad says coz my whiskey neat goes down too quickly.. haha.. and i refuse to believe.. youngsters are like that.. they don't listen until it happens to them..

Thinking of going back to work on a PH makes me more ill.. haiz.. imagine all the people that are free to go shopping.. it shall be a busy day tomorrow.

Eve of CNY!

Happy CNY to all! Gong Xi Gong Xi~ Of coz i won't wish you all luck in mahjong.. coz if you all got luck that means i end up losing.. haha..

Was working on the eve of CNY.. surprisingly.. still have some customers shopping at the 11th hour. No wonder i have to work today. And today, we served customers that did return or exchange.. and one of my customer.. didn't know his own bed size.. took the wrong size and then open everything up.. argh~ And the most absurd thing is that he bought the set 1 whole month ago... and i'm not pleased at all. Coz i had to fold everything back so that i can sell.. but then again.. it was mission impossible for my level.. haha.. so i just chuck everything into my keepstock. That was not only all that i saw. A lot of other brands also got same problems.. and some of them are faults of the promoters. So i saw a lot of complains today.. all last minute then took out their bedsheets.. all don't need to wash before use.. eee.. so la sup!

And then i did something else.. customer came to look for a matching bolster case. Took one that cost $29 for her coz the colour matches her description.. but she said was too expensive.. and in the end, closed the sale for one whole set, 4 pillowcases, 2 bolstercases, and 1 flat sheet.. haha.. in total about $200.. all beacuse she was looking for a matching bolstercase!.. muahaha.. i guess i'm just too bad to not to stop her from buying things that she wasn't looking for.. haha..

So had a bit of fun here and there.. everyone was in a CNY mood.. almost everyone except those promoters who kena butter.. lunch time was bad.. all the stall closes early, or didn't open at all.. all except the fast food.. so it was very crowded.. and then i wondered.. how come the lowest paid jobs get all the sai? See.. paid lowly.. yet had to work on holidays..

Left at 5.30pm... and by the time i reached home, my extended family had already finish their reunion 'dinner'.. or was it lunch.. arrr.. in the end i sat on the table, with the whole steamboat to myself.. hahaa.. ultimate sadness.

So the other day, i saw the promoter got a red packet from her sales rep.. arh.. where is mine? haha.. hopefully i'll get it when i 'kai gong' on chu san.. if not then i go on strike.. haha. And the worst part is.. the whole world is having holidays except us! On my... it's going to be very crowded.. haha.. sian.

Anyway, my manager credited my pay to the bank already.. or rather, it was debit bank.. aiya.. don't know la.. accounting is based on principles, not logic. Haha.. so it was $900+ .. almost hit $1k! and it was without incentive yet.. and it was to debit my bank together with next months' pay.. waaah! If that's the case.. i think it should hit $1k plus.. yay! .. sadly, it was all used to finance my exams.. RELC took it away from me.. sad. But i already felt like giving up the job.. exam is just round the corner.. and i haven't really started.. and i'm so tired.. haizzzzzz~

Next up, collecting red packets! But not really keen.. coz it'll be as boring.. haha.. i wonder why.. all the seasons seems unseasoned to me.. what am i lacking? Anyway, just collect all .... and see if i can squeeze an ipod or mp3 player out of it.. but as usual, i only know how to say.. actually i don't want to do things out of impulse... i need more time to consider..

I think i must not start drinking .. especially during this CNY.. if not i'll start again.. must control.. but maybe bring something to bt's place.. see what is my budget.. haha.. anyway.. looking forward to welfare gathering on the 3rd and ex excos gathering on the 4th.. waahh.. i'm drained to the max.

Off Day Also Long Day..

Oh where oh where can my baby be.. haha.. my current nick, chosen this because i like the song very much.. though the lyrics a bit erm.. haha..

trying not to have too much in fluctuations in things i do.. anyway there won't be much changes too.. having a busy month coming.. already tried out 1 week of such schedule.. didn't like it at all. Work 6 days, 'rest' 1 day.. which was my full school day.. Not having enough sleep these days too.. but it don't really matter, to anyone, anymore. (lyrics lai de la..) Because sometimes sleep just ain't enough. Trying hard to earn back my $1.8k of exams fee.. and in the process neglected my studies. I don't know.. hearing from my friends at SMU and NTU.. they seems to graduate with a merit. 2nd upper is impossible.. i don't really get it.. what is the motive behind all these studying? I mean... i'm not very smart, and i don't like to study.. Just a few months more before the actual exams.. i'm really panic.. and nothing much i can do. Not now.. till i finished my assignments.

Thanks to all who kept asked my to study.. all the helping hand pulling me.. especially my 'seniors' in SIM.. guess they really saw and knew the importance of our existence in SIM. Had to push myself.. i want to take the mock exams this year.. but i only had 3 free days before the start of mocks. And i can see it mocking at me again. Making a mockery of the mocks.. haha..

Skipped FI again after SRC current welfare Excos meeting.. and stayed in SRC room to play RISK with JJ, ML and Alan. Haha.. we were playing 'base' misson .. so had to get rid of the opponents' base and he'll be out of the game.. so on my 1st turn, i guessed the base.. and won.. the game left 3 active players.. didn't want anyone to be left out.. so switched to non-mission based.. and all our strategy are so wrong.. haha.. so we played diplomats.. i guess using mouth is easier to using luck and dice.. haha. Won't be taking my RISK set home anymore.. give it to SRC.. coz no one at home to play with me.. If they want, i still have the 'game of life', 'hotel' and so on..

Anyway, went 'shopping' yesterday with ismond and yuying after their lessons.. think i'm so familiar with the job scope of promoters.. haha.. i almost can know what they are going to say. Went so many places to learn what they 'usually' says.. don't get me wrong.. i don't intend to stay cp for long.. as in.. maybe not long.. haaha.. i don't know.. maybe really after exams start to work at the villagers'. Saw what was like a food fair at taka square.. but then not much samples. Haha.. i think i like the food fair at Expo more.. in the end i still couldn't find the clothes i want.. haiz.. wear old clothes to bai nian i guess.. haha..

Met up with wm after that for jamming.. he also couldn't find.. so we spent some time searching.. and was late for jamming.. tried to contact anni that we'll be late.. but no one answered... reached there and she said she lost her phone.. so we didn't jam after all.. coz i think with that kind of mood.. nothing can be done. Went on a search.. from kopitiam to SMU.. and then.. and then.. the phone was in her locker! Argh~!!! hahaa.. i almost went crazy.. haha.. but i can understand the feeling of losing something that wasn't lost.

With some much 'spare' time left after finding the phone, was brought to paulaner's at cityhall there.. saw some familiar faces.. but i don't know who.. haha.. just reciprocate the 'hi' back. Had beer again.. this time just took 1 pint.. it was a chilling out session.. not chionging session.. and had the sausages there.. it was very nice! and very expensive too.. haha.. $22 for a pan.. ah.. haha.. in the end we each spent about $25.. ahh.. it was so expensive. But a nice place to bring the special someone if there is any.. haha.. got 'live' band somemore.. though they played type one.. haha..

After that went Thomson.. which is home to me la.. haha.. had supper and left for home. I think my karma must be very bad.. coz i forgot to take my bag when we left. Haha.. i mean, i could always walk back from home when i discover.. haha.. but the feeling of losing something that wasn't lost.. haha.. luckily it too me around 3 minutes to realised that something was amiss.. haha.. it was the 2nd time already.. i think i'm getting blur by the day.. how can people forget to take bags home 1..

It was afterall, another long day for me. Finally an 'off' day for me.. and i think it is better this way.. haha.. if not nuaing at home really waste a lot of time.. used to like it.. but then.. time to see the world! haha.. working later at Taka today.. come visit me! lol.. just kidding.. haha.. work.. haiz..... muahaaa~

Day 2

Day 2/35: Today her majesty of a neighbouring country came to robinson's.. haha.. and we all got the honour to serve her. She had a lot of bodyguards and practically can't really get too near. So my only 2 sales were from them.. total of about $800. Also saw the female airforce major of our country.. waah.. maybe the only one? I think there are about 8 - 10 followers + bodyguards.. and maybe the whole family came along too..

Overall the day was great.. except for a few ungrateful customers. Not my customer somemore.. haiz.. and ordered me around.. didn't like it at all.

Short of time, i don't know.. maybe really had to quit my job soon. Haiz.. time to go again.

An Ultra Weird Day

Day 1/35: Today is a weird day. The weather is weird too.. so i was feeling weird all over. 1st day of everything and i almost fell ill. Practically having no sleep at all.. when i wanted to, i couldn't sleep.. and when i fell asleep, toopid mosquitoes woke me up. They seems to prefer to fly around the ears.. why can't they just shut up and suck my blood? Must they wake me up as well?.. toopid mosquitoes.

Was late for school today, again. And Mr Ram teach like machine gun.. 15 mins can teach 5 powerpoint slides. LBO for the 1st time seems ok for me.. haha.. but i noticed something, they always cover both sides.. sort of being indecisive.. i don't know.. maybe it was just me. But Law alone has many overlaps.. that's why people can get charged for 40+ counts.. now i know why.. but how to write essay like that? A lot to write, all in point forms only.

Megabites for lunch today.. and the fried rice cmi. Like stone like that.. no wonder it cost $2.50.. maybe the NP people eat finish all the tasty ones.. haha.. That day at work, ate a $5 plate of fried rice.. waaah.. never ate any fried rice that nice before.. i think is prawn paste or something like that.. haha.. and now i can't take my eyes off that $6 XO sauce fried rice. It was love in the first degree. So i was lost in emotion.. never gonna give it up and together forever we stay.. haha.. Maybe can blame it on the boogie... muahaha.. crap.

Going crazy over fried rice.. i'm so weird. Haha.. But it just gets too tiring to go to school.. plain lazy i guess.. Went to work after school and lunch.. and then i got there just in time.. haha.. i'm pro. Didn't want to rush.. took my time. And maybe i was just stubborn over certain things.. muahaha.. stubborn and indecisive.. these things doesn't go well together.

Reached the selling floor in a rather agitated mood.. haha.. and then i just spent the whole day cleaning my counter without making any sales. Not my brand.. but a lot of others... i can claim 3 - 4 sets of pay from the companies already. And so cleaned until i got bored climbing up and down.. then i went to fold the towels.. and before i knew it, it was time for dinner. Went with the xiao mei mei promoter.. but i think their thinking quite matured.. haha.. when i was their age, it seems i was very kiddy.. waahaha.. what was i thinking back then? Think i'm really lagging for a number of years.

9 pm, time to go.. but last minute got customer.. no choice had to serve.. so in the end OT till 9.30.. argh.. i don't have OT pay! Very tiring day.. and it will just be the first. And it seems my time isn't enough.. My only 'free' day is Thursday.. but i got full day lessons.. and then that wm wants to Jam on that day.. studio was booked.. and think i gonna butter him that day.. haha..

Saw the osim ihorse or dunno what.. haha.. it was damn funny.. and i don't know how the promoters are going to sell it. It just don't looked right to me. I mean.. what can it do? Just shake backside nia.. and you think one will get slim? Hahaa.. call me. I give the recepie for sliming. Anyway.. the name also sounds weird.. like ipod like that.. hahaaa.. some things are just weird.

I don't understand.. but i think i don't have to energy to find out. Found out some things.. but don't have to energy to confront it. I think just let it be and let me live.

Cream of SRC

Camp D with the cream of the cake or whatever.. haha..

A Long Day

Finally had the energy to blog.. The past weekend seems to test my limit of endurance.. And especially so on my mood. So much things that were last minute and if it was in the past, i would have 'exploded'.. but realised that nothing extra i do would change anything..

Back to Friday 20th - Dinner and Dance for SRC. Was rather excited.. but then early in the morning, my manager smsed me to asked about the stocks in CP. Was rather annoyed.. coz this means that i'm supposed to be working that day... and she made a mistake again. She forgot to take down the days which i'm not free.. i guess i have reminded her 3 times or more.. but then.. in the end, there was no one to stand in at the last minute.. so no choice, had to go. And it pratically spoilt my whole plans for D&D. Within 1 hour, i had to made plans for the day..

And my plan is? Not to have any plans. Haha.. not really.. but there was nothing much i could do. I didn't want to bring a bag to D&D.. coz guys don't bring bags.. and so i couldn't bring my blazer along.. and i couldn't bring any extra shirt along.. the most i could do is to bring a tie.. haha.. so i put everything in my pocket and then set off to work. And my pocket looked so bulky.. i had my handphone, wallet, and my digi camera.. haha.. and i was at the selling floor with all that.

Was a very very moody day at the floor.. hahah... i don't care whether i sold anything.. when it was time to go D&D, i don't feel like going.. was tired being angry the whole day.. my attire was messy.. i had no time to change at home and everything was just so messed up. But do i have a choice? I guess not.

And then i gave up. I think not many can get my name right. D&D committee, even the SIM Admin.. the spelling was wrong.. wrong.. and wrong. The gift from my parents was trampled upon. And i think the objective of the day was to handover and then finish the whole wayang thing. Getting too agitated to keep things in check.

I couldn't say much about this year's D&D.. the atmosphere was weird.. partly becoz my group of friends wasn't there.. and maybe the things earlier as well. But then, the food was great! Haahaa.. i think so long as there is good food, there'll be good mood. Not a lot of food.. but it'll do. I had enough of over-eating.

Took a lot of photos.. but not as much.. haha.. coz i think my clothes were too simple.. so had to keep a 'low profile'.. haha.. and i think those from welfare are still the best! Haha.. they didn't know anything, didn't sense anything.. but being with them was great. And was delighted with the token of appreciation they handed to us.. it was a pair of parker pen and mech pencil.. and with our names engraved on it! Hahah.. and it was correct!.. haha.. and so every other things else don't really bother me anymore. All thanks to the Newly appointed Welfare Excos Alvin, Xiaoxuan and Alan. So i could take another disappointment. And in the end.. i was right.. the old excos were a group of people with very diverse personality.. and the chionging session with them was cancelled.

Went with SRC as a whole instead.. haha.. and most opted for MOS.. i had never been there before and was keen to see.. but it was so crowded and warm both inside and outside.. and the drinks were expensive. $49 for a jug.. But with a difference from Zouk.. you can choose the room you like and stay in there. But in the end we stick to retro.. and then i really wondered.. why MOS not Zouk? Haha.. but it was a nice experience.. And i guess it was a nice place to play hide and seek.

Time to leave and went to have supper with some of them.. and by 5am, most were sleepy.. and many left. Chatted till 6 plus.. and set off to work again.. in the same attire. Hahaha.. i didn't sleep and bathe for a day... reached CP rather early and then rot at the Mac there.. stone a bit before going to the floor at 9.30am.

It was a special day for the AIA people.. they were given gift vouchers as a bonus or reward or something like that... and also they have additional 5% discount.. plus 5% rebate if they are cardholder.. and so before the departmental stall was opened, i saw a long queue outside. Haha.. and i got scared.. so many people? I don't want to serve.. i was very very tired.. was without sleep for the whole night.. and then there was a crowd outside.. argh! So i heard the announcement that the stall was opened.. and haha.. guess how long the first customer took to reach level 4? It was 7 minutes.. It was fast.. and soon the rest followed.. and i couldn't stone anymore.

A very long day for me. Almost fell asleep standing.. and was having lunch with my eyes closed. Haha.. i think i could eat without sitting and still fall asleep. But sales was good on weekends.. it was closed at 1.4k for me.

The best part came at 6pm.. coz i got to go home. Wanted to take a cab, but it was rainning and the queue was very very very very long.. haha.. no choice, took MRT instead. And reached home about 7 plus. Forgo my dinner and went straight to bed.. slept all the way till this morning.. haha.. and so i need time to upload photos.. juz 'collect' from me when i'm online.

And now it was 6 day working week for me.. unless i find a replacement.. if not i could never leave.. hahaa.. sian.


The "12 EX-pillars" of SRC.. it has been a great year!


My "Boss" JJ for the past year


The 3 Ex-Excos of Welfare..


Incoming and outgoing Excos


My SP~ haha.. ok.. luckily we don't look compatible.. haha.. juz kidding!


The New SRC President~


The 'old birds' of SRC Welfare.. haha.. and i'm the youngest! ^^ My face looked red.. coz we juz finish toasting.. haha.. good blood circulation i think..


Erm.. hahaa.. i think i can't do without my big nose.. haha..


Changing location to MOS~.. haha.. this seat is quite high.. i wonder why.. who's behind?


The background looks very giddy..

Missing School

It seems that it happens every Thursday.. everytime when there is a lack of momemtum, i tend to oversleep... haha.. then it seems that i'm blogging rubbish the night before. Was saying on how the motivation came back.. and this is what happens. Hahaa.. I guess i was too tired after the work day.. but i missed school again! Argh.. $50 per lesson.. haha.. and then i invested my 1.8k in there too.. ar.. stress.

SRC D&D.. haha.. i still can't find the thing to wear.. and actually tomorrow isn't my day. So i guess just a simple 'outfit' will do. Not really looking forward.. Coz it will be at merchant court again.. haha.. that place where i got my gastric flu. Haha.. and the initial plan to go MOS will be scraped i guess.. coz the excos are no chiongster.. then i guess tomorrow shall be boring. If that's the case.. then i will be 20 days without liquor in my blood.. haha.. which is, a good thing in fact. And anyway, don't think i will want to stay awake for so long..have to work morning shift on Saturday. 9.30am must reach they say.. haha.. and only for AIA staffs.. wow... it shall be a 'big' event.

So today i spent the whole day rotting at home.. watched mythbusters on discovery channel. Haha.. the myth they attempted all seems so bo liao.. hahaa.. and i don't know why i continued watching.. maybe i wanted to see how they attempt to do things differently.. Elaborated things.

Me too.. do things as such that there was no need for it in fact. Things that i could just buy.. yet i wanted to do things my way as always.. and everytime it doesn't end up well. Till now, the best was my mouthpiece pouch.. haha.. and i liked it very much. Too bad i won't have any use if i'm going to sell away my horn.

Almost 2 am now.. and another day closer to the exams.

A Life Full Of Regrets

The list is out~ haha.. The new Head of Welfare will be Alvin, and the two Deputy Heads will be Xiaoxuan and Alan. Congrats! And i thought with that i would have no more worries and problems.. but who knows.. haha.. the last thing that bothered me is what to wear to Dinner and Dance.. haha.. in the end i still couldn't make up my mind. Went shopping with JJ and ML yesterday.. and we ended up going on an eating spree instead of looking for the clothes to choose.. ahh.. And soon my $20 were gone just like that.. haha.. but i just love to eat.

Today is Jay's birthday!.. haha.. on the 18th also.. haaha.. so here i wish him happy birthday!

Went to work today after a week's "break".. was actually quite busy with SRC stuffs.. And it started off badly.. Only had a sale of $99.. haha.. it was bad.. coz people cut my sale right under my nose.. and i lost that sale of $229.. arh.. too bad huh.. no manners.. haha.. but still, i'm happy. I don't know how long this mood will last.. and i don't know how much i can trust myself.. but then again, let the days count itself. I'm tired of counting them.

Talked to the promoters on the selling floor as usual.. and today i never got butter.. haha.. but it was boring.. Can learn a lot of things today.. and then it sets me thinking again.. haha.. but then again, i notice people don't usually like thinker.. coz they are too quiet and seems to be 'out of this world'.. haha.. ( i learnt during the interview).. i think people prefer those who talked a lot.. but i find them very noisy at times. It just proves that i'm weird.

On the way back, and was listening to Class 95 Love Songs.... and the songs suddenly made me wanna fall in love.. but to love or to be loved? I guess not everything can be balanced by the Libran Scales. But to love again, i'm not afraid. Memories are not feelings.. there is a distinction, just like power and rights. Haha.. i think i'm blogging nonsense.. my cake has 3 candles.. lol!

A few days ago during the Exco interview, what our VP Geoff says really sets me thinking.. he said something like, 'doing the right thing at the right time leads to regret'.. or something like that.. couldn't remember and my england not as powderful as him.. haha.. but come to think of it.. that means everything we do, no matter right or wrong leads to regrets.. which can be quite true. It just says that everything we did has an opportunity cost.. hmm.. and so, since it might just as well leads to regrets, the key is to find the thing to do with the least regret.. It really doesn't mean to stop everything.. nothing is worth it. It is after all a game of living.

Suddenly had the motivation to do lots of things.. hahaa.. if not when i'm used to being lazy, i will never start again. So.. 1 month to the mocks? No Problem! Haha.. even when i'll be working 6 days a week from 1 - 9 starting next month.. i will get the mocks done.. no matter the result. I just do my best and of coz hope for the best.

Just Touching On It

So much details that i had forgotten most of it. The highlights of the past weekend was Camp Discovery.. it all went well.. very smooth.. until it became "camp recovery" on the third day... but still on the whole, it was very nicely done. Haha.. i never knew the Excos would manage that.. perhaps we had all learnt something during the past 1 year. But still, we are short of perfect, as all human are.. and as such, people getting injured and so on.

I had a great time at Costa Sand Resort at Sentosa.. though i didn't really sleep well on the first day and didn't want to endure the same 'torture' on the 2nd day of the camp by opting not to sleep. All of us excos are tasked to select the next batch of elites and hopefully can bring SRC to greater heights.. But i think i shall fade into the background after handing over. Put a lot more into SRC than the previous year and also putting a lot more money into my studies.. so had to study. Anyway, Camp D sort of summarise my duties as a Deputy Head of Welfare 05/06. Great memories, buddies and colleague.. in all, it was a great learning experience beyond the LT can offer us. Shall leave the rest of my "debrief" till the day i step down.. which is 3 more days.. ORD Loh!

Today was the interview for the excos.. saw and heard a lot .. almost 7 hours of non-stop action.. sad to say, some had to make way for others.. not that they are weaker.. just maybe the other was more suitable.. it was, afterall up to themselves.. 7 hours is a lot.. and i think i need another good sleep after last night's 13 hour sleep.. haha..

Went to school finally after a week 'break'.. intended to reach early.. so i set of early. But the bus came late and then there was a jam at PIE.. what to do? I can plan until 'swee swee' but just cannot avoid the chain of events.. haha.. i think i should switch back to taking 74 someday and hope that NP students won't not overcrowd the bus. And i though being late was bad enough.. i reached to realise that there was a LBO test.. ahaha.. didn't know at all and so as usual didn't study.. and so i just wrote nonsense in order to pass time.. but then in the end don't know why i handed in the script.. haha.. i think Mr Ram would get a heart attack after seeing it.. lol..

Exams are coming.. after handing over, i should be geared up and ready to go.. but still had to clear 1 more month of work in order to earn back the 1.8k paid to RELC.. i will do my best.. and hopefully everyone will get good results.

Over Zzz

Ar........ i overslept today! haiz.. missed marketing again.. again and again. Haiz..

And then the weather was so cold today.. i wonder how long will the rain last.

Was getting ready for the camp tomorrow when i discovered all my shirts are still on the clothesline.. argh.. and still had to go early to RELC tomorrow.. if not i won't have the time.. camp D is this weekend.. and Saturday is the last day.. but then again.. haha.. even if i missed the deadline, it'll still be ok.. haha.. well, better not.

So tomorrow's plan: Wake up early to go to RELC to be the first few to pay up.. then i won't have to queue. Then rush to school before 11.30am to load up with Don to sentosa.. before 1pm that is. Sounds easy.. but it's not.. Coz i am just too lazy.. hopefully my clothes will be aired dried tomorrow morning.

Had been raining non stop for quite some time.. and a lot of people are falling sick.. must drink lots of water. Coz still have to work non-stop .. just like the rain. So had to take care.. i don't understand.. haha.. but i guess there isn't a need to think. Had been putting away lots of things until i became forgetful.. at least forgetting isn't running away.. if i could just maintain the way it is, keeping myself busy, keeping everything as plain as water, i won't experience much happiness.. but at least i know i will never touch sadness.. Not now. I know i'm not even equipped to face everything thrown at me.. so there isn't right or wrong.. just have or don't have.

Next stop, Chinese New Year!.. all the mj sessions.. muahaha.. looking forward.. but i don't like to play cards.. haha.. coz cards is just by luck.. and my luck is bad these days.. so muz play mj.. at least still have a 50% chance of not losing. But then again, will be very busy.. can't really played through the night.. coz will be working on the 3rd day of CNY.. haha.. might as well.. i'd love to see a lot of people on the selling floor.

Wonder whether CNY have any resolution or not.. haha.. coz i think i missed some. If there is, the first thing is not to be late for classes.. and definately not to over sleep.. haha..

Anyway, i'll be off these days on an 'overseas' trip.. haha.. actually just to Sentosa.. it would be fun.. but could be more happening... if only the weather is alright. But i guess we are jinxed.. it was raining on FOD, FOC and Camp D is no suprise.. haha.. so i got ready to be drenched.. maybe just catch a cold or something like that in the process and missed LBO as well.. haha.. that's my motive.. there will be a test coming soon.. haiz.. help me..

Oreo And Milo

One more day to camp discovery.. looking forward.. coz it will be our last project. And it shall embed in my memory. And i think it shall be fun! Rain? No fear.. i only fear lightning. More or less i've got all the things ready... and looking through, i thought i was going off for a chalet.. lol.

Meanwhile at the selling floor: Today got a lot of butter.. coz the bright orange sticker was pasted in front and my counter was dusty.. haha.. but i think that's because there isn't much customer.. so they just want to do something to entertain themselves. So it was a busy day.. climbed up and down to clean the shelves, re-pasted all the stickers.. and i still find it very boring. No customers at all! All waiting for the members' night.. luckily i won't be working this
weekend.. haha.. let them handle the crowd. Made a few more friends today.. i guess the number never stops.. they just come and go.. come and go..

A few week didn't chiong.. and suddenly didn't have the crave for it.. luckily i'm not addicted.. if not i'll have a hole in my pocket.. RELC is going to burn a hole soon.. and i think i won't be able to cover the 2K within these 2 months.. have to shelf my ipod and laptop dream for now. Parents not going to sponsor me with the school fees anymore.. so it's up to me.. how sad.. all 'income' went to my school fees.. So where got money to buy beer? Hahaa... Now i need money to buy food.. had lost 2kg coz of irregular eating habits.. haiz.. if anyone wants to lose weight, try being on a selling floor.. i mean those big big floor.. not counter.. that one will make people gain weight instead.

It rained all day again... and it rained after work. Even with an umbrella, i was drenched.. the ground was flooded and dinosaurs (with umbrellas) were running.. so they splash the water here and there.. how horrible! Luckily my shoes are water resistant... haha.. It's so cold these days.. and stepping on the floor is just like stepping on ice... maybe when it rained more, i can start ice skating.

Now i beginning to like Oreo more.. haha.. i also like Milo.. i want my Milo.. haha..

Raining All Day Long

Rainning non-stop.. and i got drenched non-stop. These few days while it rainned, i had to work.. sometimes i really think that i'm really dumb. For all the things undone, there isn't spare capacity. And just now, eddie asked me whether if i want to take part in NDP.. haha.. i would like to.. but i know i won't have the time to commit. So i didn't agree.. though i would like to try someday.

Learning new things and revising the old at the floor these few days. And i couldn't care much more, anymore. Somewhat becoming much happier without the burden.. and nothing really worries me now. So long as i don't commit, i have no worries.. i have no responsibility, and i could be much happier. The 3 bolster case had taught me much.. haha..

And then i got an offer for my french horn.. my beloved that accompany me through all the concert since 1999, WMC of 2001 till now. Can't bear to let go.. yet i don't wish to hold on. It had become my burden somehow. I like it.. yet at the same time hate it. The offer is at $1.5k.. much much less when i bought it.. but the amount does not matter as much as the sentimental value.. but if the offer is fixed, i will sell.. and then no longer will i be a french horn player.. haha..

2 more months before the mocks.. and i haven't started. The msn list getting less and less people..guess most of them are starting they revision already.. and i'm only starting on the lectures itself. I don't regret skipping lessons.. i knew what was the outcome then.. i will not reap what i did not sow..


M & Ms! I thought they only melts in your mounth? This melts in my heart.. aww..


Taken Opposite my workplace.. aww.. they looked so nice!

Concert Day

Concert day on the 8th! Finally it was all over. Was such a long long day for me.. Woke up early in the morning, with a nice weather... but today i'm on morning shift. First time for me at Takashimaya.. and so was very blur.. haha.. i knew they had some sort of greetings for the customers.. but it was so.. weird. More of self entertaining. Perhaps becoz there were no shoppers there.. most probably due to the morning rain and maybe even the MRT drill.. Thankfully i took bus to work.. if not sure got affected. Halfway, saw wm boarding the bus and he was on his way to meet bl. Sunday morning.. should be church services.

When i got down.. the rain was much more heavier.. and so got drenched.. then i start to wonder.. why do i promise to work just for 3 hours.. i could have been sleeping in this nice weather instead of getting all wet. But was still alright.. i don't really regret. Reached the selling floor at 9.30 am and starts to blur.. haha.. what people do, i just follow.

After 3 hours, left for home.. and rested a while before going off to Tampines for concert. Totally no feeling at all.. i don't know why.. perhaps because i knew i didn't put any effort.. so i have no worries of playing wrong notes.. it has become a regular item. No burden at all.. or so i thought. Yet after the concert, me and wl were laughing all the way.. coz we knew we didn't commit.. and nothing 'spectacular' happened.. so we got though this time round.. sort of relieved.. haha..

But i really like the people there.. not all though but some are really close friends since i stepped in during the winter of 1999. And then the circle just expands.. though some of them have already 'disappear'.. but it was at least fun. So today we made fun of a sec 2 trombone player.. haha.. he was so cute and small sized that we always call him ah boy.. and then today he wore a very loose pants.. then my 'evil' colleague went to pull down his pants.. hahaa.. bad karma ah.. coz there were so many xiao mei mei of his age.. wondered how he felt. We were all laughing at the sudden joke that came that no one actually took notice of ah boy's feeling.. so bad ah..

But he seems ok after that.. just trying to take 'revenge' now and then.. haha.. and then there was Oreo cookies given by the tbone section.. aww.. haha.. so nice of them.. then it was concert time. It was good.. or so said by the conductor.. but i know it what it was. Somewhat better.. but not enough.. perhaps that was good enough.

So i went home with one less burden.. and had cleared most things for my work.. now left my greatest worry.. haiz.. haha.. i shouldn't say.. becoz i only say.. and won't do.. anyway.. so great was a day like this.. though it rained whole day.. i had fun and enjoyed myself.. and to top it up, had supper with denise and eddie at yishun S11. What a great day!


My noodles!.. the 'leaf' seems to be the main course.. haha


The colour looks so aww-ish.. though i don't really like pink..

Day Before Concert

Oh great.. skipped Alumni band and went SWE instead. Tomorrow will be concert day, and now then i realised that a few of them are in SWE too.. spies! Hahaa.. so they can return to WSS to report of my whereabouts. Today's rehearsal was one of my best so far.. didn't really practice and without much support too.. But then didn't incur the wrath of the conductor.. so i guess should be alright.. haha. Its been bothering me too much.. thankfully it'll be over tomorrow.

And then my manager wants to stunt me again.. asked me to work 3 hours tomorrow.. haha.. at Taka somemore.. haha.. so had to wake up early for the morning shift. Argh.. can't sleep early today coz had my usual nap in the afternoon.. and somemore just got back no long ago and having my supper.. so had to wait another 2 hours.. if not i'll have a tummy.

Suddenly see the light everywhere.. haha.. just maybe i'm running out of time. And the theory of the chain of events work. So this is one of the important link too.. and i've let it corrode too much. Time to salvage.. haha.

And so i think my 'evil' manager wants me to work for her till i old.. coz a lot of her promoters quit after getting 'played out' by her.. and then all the evil things come if you are not on the same side.. haha.. but for me.. i think the most is work till end of feb.. i need to study.. (i know i've been only saying.. but then.. nevermind..) Still trying to find the spark to start my engine.. but i guess it's still frozen somewhere.

Still trying to find jay's mtv.. but can't.. and then i saw the part two of the mtv on SCV.. under another song of another singer.. waaah! So there was a plot.. haha.. sort of like links like that. I remembered that windstruck also had that sort of link..Speaking of scv.. was so busy working noon shift that i've missed a lot of the jap show... arh.. then no aww for me.. haha. And scv going to show type B bf.. haha.. wanted to watch that time.. but no one was free.. or they have watched it already.. so finally had the chance to watch without having to go to cinema alone.. haha..

Suddenly felt very excited about camp D.. Coz finally we are better prepared and also this time round is on a smaller scale.. Free of Charge somemore! 12 - 24.. that means one exco to 2 freshies.. haha.. it's peanuts! last time was 12 - 160+ + with some excos falling sick and was further complicated by GMs and OGLs.. so.. i'm prepare to enjoy myself this coming weekend. And i think.. we'll be going KM8 to chill out during the 1st or 2nd night officially. Haha.. knew some freshies 'escaped' from last FOC.. closed one eye.. haha.. but now.. heh.. it's official.

And now i know i'm always being willful. Knew that i would be tired if i didn't sleep.. yet i did it because i want to. Haha.. now slowly beginning to understand.. should have some degree of control.. like sleep, eat and all that.. even studies too. ( i know i know.. i only say but never do rite.. ) Still wanting to have it my way. When i get sick of it, i'll pass it over.. soon i guess.

Next week will be another busy week. It'll be work, school and SRC.. but at least i know i'd have fun. And maybe make my ice melt a bit. Haha..

Tomorrow's concert, not fully prepared.. and given off my 2 tickets to someone else.. haha.. i had no use for them anymore. But finally got the feel of warmth when the 3 bands combined.. haha.. and we are supposed to be the main focus.. but seems weak.. but i don't know.. maybe after this i'll sell away my instrument.. and 'retire'.. haha.. but i know i won't bear to let go. Such were the typical me. Even if i sold my instrument, they'll still provide me with the 'house' instrument.. No escape whatsoever.. ah. .but i prefer to join the trumpet section.. haha.. well.. it's worth considering.. but i know wss will try to 'force' me back.. that's why i hate to go back.

Well.. all the best to me and all the 3 bands on the stage tomorrow!

OTOT

OT today coz need to shift bins.. Since the festive season, the staff revert to their old ways again.. and then i heard something else.. but i don't wish to know. Don't want to get too involved in 'politics' on the floor. I have enough of my own problems. I follow and work and take pay. That's all.

Saw some familiar faces today. It was quite a shock.. and it really awwed me to see they finally got together.. haha.. all best wishes to my secondary classmates! It was already a shock to see people at the workplace.. but just the night before, i saw someone in my dreams.. it was so weird.. and it scares me.. where does the idea come from? It all seems so real.. can even sms in dreams! Hahaaa..

Was raining the whole day.. got better these few days, except for the pimples again.. must be the stress from the coming concert.. and then, band rehearsal again tomorrow before the concert.. and .. and.. nevermind.

As Always

I think my stomach spoilt already. Kept having the runs every morning.. and my legs also spoilt. Everything also spoilt. Haiz. Still very tired as always. Didn't intend to go to school this morning because still not feeling well the day before.. but still did.. coz i panic. Soon i'll press the panic button. Mock exams just 2 months away and the finals a total of 4 months. Actually there is very very very little time left.. and then they bill me the examination fee.. Don't really know what to do with it.. Another 2 k drained. It seems weird.. when i paid the school fees myself, the more i won't want to study.. coz i don't need to answer to myself.. but when it was paid by the village chief, i had to answer to him.. so no choice really had to study... haiz.. why do they invent exams?

Finally the found the lost parcel.. heng arh.. if not the $500 worth of bed linen.. i won't know who will be responsible.. It shows something.. there are good people in this world! A big thanks to auntie kat for helping while i was away. So evil of me.. did a lot of 'shit' for people to pick.. Hahaa.. was very relieved.. next time i won't do that kind of sales again.. coz i put all my trust in my manager.. and then i got played out. And when customer comes, they look for me.. not my manager.. what's the point of staying then? I won't trust anymore.. But then.. haha.. as always.

And today had band practice all the way at tampines.. was too tired, so had a nap.. then was late, and it rained somemore.. what could be worse? So i took cab there again.. and again, it was $12.50.. haha.. but was caught in a jam.. haiz.. so boring. So today was so paiseh.. coz wasn't a good player.. kept playing wrong notes.. and the conductor like going to cry like that.. haha.. felt so guilty. Actually i don't want to play for them... but then they did not have enough players.. so asked me knowing that i couldn't attend practices.. and then now they sad coz i can't play well.. haha.. please.. And year after year.. i said that it'll be my last practice.. but in the end.. haha.. as always.

And then the other band tried to enforce.. hahaa.. hahaa.. to me.. i don't really care. If you want, please ask. Act as if i owe them.. i don't owe anyone. Don't make it such as my fault.. And of coz.. a lot more.. but i don't wish to say. Maybe just go back this saturday to see what pattern they going to 'chute'... where got people like that one.. practice from 8am to 6pm.. they think they superman lor.. haha.. crap. Anyway, i just dislike when they start all this rubbish... as always.

Crying Out~!

Just finished watching "Crying Out Love In The Center Of The World" on scv.. This time round, it was the drama version.. seems like an extended version.. a bit slower in pace and more detailed.. but every moment of it was so aww-ing. Too bad i missed the first 2 episode.. but i've watched the movie version before on vcd. Very nice too.. and very sad also.. hmm.. maybe i getting old already.. not much emotions left.. blood getting colder.. haha.. just waiting for an embrace to thaw everything.

Now then i discovered, i didn't went to work yesterday.. and there isn't anyone to stand in for me. How blur can my manager be.. told her i won't be free already.. haiz.. so tomorrow had to work again. But i calculated.. at this rate i'm going.. i might get around $900 plus this month in total.. haha.. not much.. but decent for doing nothing.. the only opportunity cost is the 'depreciation' of my brain.. and maybe my weight also. Had lost around 1kg since last week.. haiz.. coz didn't have regular eating hours during work and also haven't been feeling well.

Having the runs these few days.. must be something wrong i ate? But i loved to eat.. haha.. so had to think of the consequences before eating.. Just yesterday, went to turf city to have dinner with the villagers.. and well.. it doesn't taste too good to me.. but so long as the village chief and his wife love it, i'm ok.. haha.. though me and my sis kept asking for a can of cola.. haha.. just like little kids. But we didn't get it in the end.. coz mum say no.. hmm.. what to do? Her birthday celebration.. so she had the final say.

Still thinking of what to get for her birthday.. maybe the promotion bedsheet set? Haha.. $99 for something worth $300+.. i think it's a worth buy! Haha.. but still must think properly.. coz we always end up buying things we don't really need during sales.. haha.. just like one customer that i served that day.. she was looking for a super single quilt cover (rare item).. but in the end she went to the cashier with 1 bolster, 2 pillows, 1 super single bedsheet set (with a single quilt cover) and 1 queen bedsheet set.. and notice that the super single quilt isn't on the list.. hahaa..

Working really consume a lot of time.. its just like selling time doing nothing constructive.. but for me.. maybe less time will generate more time. I don't know where's the logic.. but suddenly i don't spent so much time rotting.. and finally not falling asleep reading my notes. But still having difficulty catching up.. its really not the time to work.. and to think that i don't really need that extra cash.. i wondered what is this all about.

Concert coming soon.. and i practiced a bit at home.. and so today i self declare day off again.. actually nope.. coz had the runs again.. haha.. and i fear that it'll be like CV that time.. suddenly faint how? zx, hz, alan and the junior jj not there to drag me.. haha. .then i malu on my way to school.. so to play safe.. i stayed.

Already very guilty .. so did some studying at home.. since after xmas.. didn't have the time to rest coz of work.. so took time off and slow my pace a bit. Kind of rewarding.. haha.. and i got my haircut.. hah... by myself. Another miscue and my hair looks koo koo again.. as always.

So was having my evening nap when JJ called ... told me 2 of them not going for Camp D.. wondered why.. but going to put 2 replacement in.. and i think 1 more not going too.. and i wondered why again.. its FREE! and seems like a holiday chalet to me. The Excos now are all seasoned and well adapted to organising.. haha.. (sorry ah.. very confident.. haha.. ) Of coz.. after what we all weathered.. i guess it proves that nothing will knock us down.. yeah! But i heard that the ex excos aren't involved in this year's Camp D.. but it doesn't mean that we are not showing any respect.. it is earned.. not asked.. I still regard all my seniors as my seniors and friends. Regardless of what appointment i hold.. its only for a while.. i know it and never did i abuse it. But sometimes too many cooks spoil the soup. And not letting go isn't very nice.. haha.. so this 20th.. i'll be officially off duty.. yay! Maybe i'll still go back to the Bazaar to look see look see.. haha.. hmm.. maybe not? Haha.. i got so sick of it year after year.. see how it goes.

Also received call from wm.. asked me to accompany him eat dinner.. then i just woke up.. had a quick dinner at home 1st and then got ready to leave home.. suddenly he called and asked me 'you really want to eat or not?'.. then i knew it.. haha.. want to play pang seh again.. but i understand.. coz his gf asked him for dinner.. haha.

New year new objectives.. just hope that i can keep it going.. But its too early to tell. By the way, heard some wind sound.. haha.. and i find it very amusing.. it does affect me a bit.. but haiz.. what can i say? It isn't my mouth.. haha.. i'm too old to go to war.. and my mentality doesn't allow me.. so what do i say? Well.. just let it be.. haha.. i think i've cut my antenna off already.. already won't be feeling so much.. i just need to verify it. haha.. soon it'll tell.

Haiz.. 1 am now.. think i study another hour before sleeping.. still have to practice on my horn tomorrow morning.. coz rehearsal is on thursday.. argh.. i just need to endure through this week.. maybe this month.. nope.. maybe till after exams.. argh.. i'm so stressed..

2nd Day

Back from band.. one moment i was alone.. the next moment the whole world was back.. and in total we had 5 horn players.. waahaha.. so today never kena aim.. what a happy day! And then band was dragged till 2 pm.. never had supper the day before and have not eaten much this morning.. so by the time they finished moving the instrument, it was already 3pm.. almost died of hunger.. and so no choice took cab home.. $12.50.. ahhaa.. coz new year was a sunday.. so they have the $1 extra for the 2nd day too.. but nevermind.. my stomach is more important. So long as i can maintain this weight.. it'll never go wrong.

Wondered what i was blogging last night.. haha.. it seems messy.. and part of it i don't even understand.. haha.. perhaps i was too tired. Still feeling very tired now.. as on everyday.. but i woke up early to read my scores.. i won't be so hardworking for my school work.. haha. And now then i remembered.. there'll be POA test tomorrow! And i don't even know what was happening.. haha..

But nevermind.. i think i really lag too much.. difficult to catch.. see how it goes..

Another Start

Aww.. i missed the first day of the year!

Had been busy trying to be busy.. haha.. and so much more things left to do. The things that i really hate.. Going to band practices.. i don't have the time and won't have the time.. i know its all up to time management.. just take it that i don't know how to manage my time.

Yesterday was at bt's place (again) .. and i kena tricked.. say what new year's 'feast'.. haha.. in the end mahjong was their aim.. and to make matters worst, i lost quite a bit.. haha.. no luck on the 1st day of 2006.. hmm.. will it be a bad start?

So played until 3 am and i wanted to sleep.. better to end the bad luck day early.. but they all not sleepy.. coz they slept the whole afternoon while i was at work. No wonder.. so we end up chit-chatting.. and we are watching closely on something.. something very weird.

2006 - i went to 'review' my 'notebook'.. and saw how much things have changed. It still shows that i haven't found a place to settle down. Either that or i'm unable to adapt to changes.. yet. Was really awed by what actually happened a year ago. So happening that i thought that at some point, my heart was going to sink into my stomach.. but these are events that shape me.. to now of who i am. Quite drastic.. but it was quite a learning experience.

And maybe still have a long way to go.. i won't say what i'll be.. because i believed that we react differently to different stituations at different time. Maybe it was all planned. And so.. actually we really are shaped by our beliefs.. so long as we believe.. it might just happen. Hmm.. how about the ang pow toto draw for a start? haha..

Was at the selling floor for 4 days now.. and lots and lots and lots and lots .. ( i can't stress how many there are.. ) of 'kids' there working part time.. is the economy really that bad? And so made a few friends of such.. 1987 or so.. it was.. waah.. finally they are all growing up.. haha. I didn't have any younger siblings so i won't understand what they are thinking.. but it was so much different.. only 4 years difference. And so i was busy chatting with every promoter around me, coz i was too bored.. But then i didn't want to talk to 'kids'.. they really don't know how high the sky is and how thick the ground is.. haha.. and its up to them to learn. And so i talked to those auntie and uncle level.. and they thinks that i also don't know how high the sky is.. haha.. that i agree.. it is always the case. It really comes with age.

Sometimes things are so real that blogging it just makes me want to think that it was that way.. so i better avoid the 'realism' point of view.. haha.. i will ignore .. and already i can feel the difference. And i believed what the kinu uncle told me.. he said for whatever good things done, one will surely benefit from it.. haha.. coz i told him i was stupid to go around selling other brands. Maybe he said that so that i could continue to help him sell more? Hahaa.. but it's ok. I really don't mind. He does give me treats sometimes.. out from his own pocket.. haha ..and our age difference is around 20 years..

So i now have 3 jobs pending.. 3 different brands.. but i shall not forsake.. coz really won't look nice.. thought the pay is higher and commission is included.. but still, i can't.. not now.. maybe wait till i stop working there for another year. So i am now trying to find 'replacements' for them.. haha.. and now it became my burden... ar.. me and my stupid mouth.

Anyway, saw a lot more that made me very tired.. because i see so many people trying to use money to buy the whole world.. And just like what they said.. our mood all depends on the customers we served. One lousy customer will spoil our day.. and it takes so many 'good' customers to bring our mood back. But i'm different.. just one dinosaur will kill my day. Hahaa.. and speaking of dinos.. that day i served one.. till i almost want to bang the wall.. haha.. but it was fun.

Maybe for us part timers, holding a job equals to more income for every other things.. so it seems nothing.. we don't care much.. but for those working for long.. they took things seriously. So serious that i was always in their firing range. I can understand.. they need to feed their family. Their income is their family's expenditure.. and my income is my own. That's the difference..

And so i asked for it.. wanted to work on the holidays. No double pay nothing. And i knew it from the start. But just it wasn't 'festive' anymore, i don't feel the need to celebrate. Rather than to hide at home.. might as well work towards my own ipod. Maybe a few more years, it'll just get boring.

I was doing a few laps to punggol these few days.. coz the other two welfare excos were stationed there. Poor bt had to be the lightbulb for them.. but still not enough. That jj still asked me to join them (again again) just now... haha.. i think my dad is really unhappy with me already.. had been either very late home or not home at all (i was at bt's place).. but then, i think my house is giving me my arthritic problems.. coz i got better at bt's house.. whaha..

So we talked about almost everything.. was discussing whether 2 person keeping 2 same tiles will discard it.. and haha.. we link it everywhere.. but i don't want to be the 'bomb hand'.. i don't mind throwing.. really.. just don't make me pay.

Was 2 am now.. still have to attend band practice tomorrow.. arrrrhh.. tomorrow is a holiday! And i didn't have my holiday yet. It was either work or band. Band concert coming up on the 8th of Jan at Tampines.. and that my manager still wants me to work 5 days a week! I was only thinking of 3 day week the most.. and it does crashes with my studies a lot.. i need to study already. Actually i really did. But it wasn't effective at all.

Start of 2006 had been great. And i'm glad that there are always so many 'pillars' to guide me through so much. Thankful to some.. and some only. And i will remember. And as always, there is only more of everything when we move up.. and the more we might lose. But less time is taken to recover.

These are some thought and happenings for the past few days.. and i haven't finish.. but i need to sleep.. coz feeling hungry now, and still have to wake up 'early' to practice the scores.. argh.. and then it was all the way to the west side again tomorrow.. HAIZ.