Crying Out~!

Just finished watching "Crying Out Love In The Center Of The World" on scv.. This time round, it was the drama version.. seems like an extended version.. a bit slower in pace and more detailed.. but every moment of it was so aww-ing. Too bad i missed the first 2 episode.. but i've watched the movie version before on vcd. Very nice too.. and very sad also.. hmm.. maybe i getting old already.. not much emotions left.. blood getting colder.. haha.. just waiting for an embrace to thaw everything.

Now then i discovered, i didn't went to work yesterday.. and there isn't anyone to stand in for me. How blur can my manager be.. told her i won't be free already.. haiz.. so tomorrow had to work again. But i calculated.. at this rate i'm going.. i might get around $900 plus this month in total.. haha.. not much.. but decent for doing nothing.. the only opportunity cost is the 'depreciation' of my brain.. and maybe my weight also. Had lost around 1kg since last week.. haiz.. coz didn't have regular eating hours during work and also haven't been feeling well.

Having the runs these few days.. must be something wrong i ate? But i loved to eat.. haha.. so had to think of the consequences before eating.. Just yesterday, went to turf city to have dinner with the villagers.. and well.. it doesn't taste too good to me.. but so long as the village chief and his wife love it, i'm ok.. haha.. though me and my sis kept asking for a can of cola.. haha.. just like little kids. But we didn't get it in the end.. coz mum say no.. hmm.. what to do? Her birthday celebration.. so she had the final say.

Still thinking of what to get for her birthday.. maybe the promotion bedsheet set? Haha.. $99 for something worth $300+.. i think it's a worth buy! Haha.. but still must think properly.. coz we always end up buying things we don't really need during sales.. haha.. just like one customer that i served that day.. she was looking for a super single quilt cover (rare item).. but in the end she went to the cashier with 1 bolster, 2 pillows, 1 super single bedsheet set (with a single quilt cover) and 1 queen bedsheet set.. and notice that the super single quilt isn't on the list.. hahaa..

Working really consume a lot of time.. its just like selling time doing nothing constructive.. but for me.. maybe less time will generate more time. I don't know where's the logic.. but suddenly i don't spent so much time rotting.. and finally not falling asleep reading my notes. But still having difficulty catching up.. its really not the time to work.. and to think that i don't really need that extra cash.. i wondered what is this all about.

Concert coming soon.. and i practiced a bit at home.. and so today i self declare day off again.. actually nope.. coz had the runs again.. haha.. and i fear that it'll be like CV that time.. suddenly faint how? zx, hz, alan and the junior jj not there to drag me.. haha. .then i malu on my way to school.. so to play safe.. i stayed.

Already very guilty .. so did some studying at home.. since after xmas.. didn't have the time to rest coz of work.. so took time off and slow my pace a bit. Kind of rewarding.. haha.. and i got my haircut.. hah... by myself. Another miscue and my hair looks koo koo again.. as always.

So was having my evening nap when JJ called ... told me 2 of them not going for Camp D.. wondered why.. but going to put 2 replacement in.. and i think 1 more not going too.. and i wondered why again.. its FREE! and seems like a holiday chalet to me. The Excos now are all seasoned and well adapted to organising.. haha.. (sorry ah.. very confident.. haha.. ) Of coz.. after what we all weathered.. i guess it proves that nothing will knock us down.. yeah! But i heard that the ex excos aren't involved in this year's Camp D.. but it doesn't mean that we are not showing any respect.. it is earned.. not asked.. I still regard all my seniors as my seniors and friends. Regardless of what appointment i hold.. its only for a while.. i know it and never did i abuse it. But sometimes too many cooks spoil the soup. And not letting go isn't very nice.. haha.. so this 20th.. i'll be officially off duty.. yay! Maybe i'll still go back to the Bazaar to look see look see.. haha.. hmm.. maybe not? Haha.. i got so sick of it year after year.. see how it goes.

Also received call from wm.. asked me to accompany him eat dinner.. then i just woke up.. had a quick dinner at home 1st and then got ready to leave home.. suddenly he called and asked me 'you really want to eat or not?'.. then i knew it.. haha.. want to play pang seh again.. but i understand.. coz his gf asked him for dinner.. haha.

New year new objectives.. just hope that i can keep it going.. But its too early to tell. By the way, heard some wind sound.. haha.. and i find it very amusing.. it does affect me a bit.. but haiz.. what can i say? It isn't my mouth.. haha.. i'm too old to go to war.. and my mentality doesn't allow me.. so what do i say? Well.. just let it be.. haha.. i think i've cut my antenna off already.. already won't be feeling so much.. i just need to verify it. haha.. soon it'll tell.

Haiz.. 1 am now.. think i study another hour before sleeping.. still have to practice on my horn tomorrow morning.. coz rehearsal is on thursday.. argh.. i just need to endure through this week.. maybe this month.. nope.. maybe till after exams.. argh.. i'm so stressed..