Another Start

Aww.. i missed the first day of the year!

Had been busy trying to be busy.. haha.. and so much more things left to do. The things that i really hate.. Going to band practices.. i don't have the time and won't have the time.. i know its all up to time management.. just take it that i don't know how to manage my time.

Yesterday was at bt's place (again) .. and i kena tricked.. say what new year's 'feast'.. haha.. in the end mahjong was their aim.. and to make matters worst, i lost quite a bit.. haha.. no luck on the 1st day of 2006.. hmm.. will it be a bad start?

So played until 3 am and i wanted to sleep.. better to end the bad luck day early.. but they all not sleepy.. coz they slept the whole afternoon while i was at work. No wonder.. so we end up chit-chatting.. and we are watching closely on something.. something very weird.

2006 - i went to 'review' my 'notebook'.. and saw how much things have changed. It still shows that i haven't found a place to settle down. Either that or i'm unable to adapt to changes.. yet. Was really awed by what actually happened a year ago. So happening that i thought that at some point, my heart was going to sink into my stomach.. but these are events that shape me.. to now of who i am. Quite drastic.. but it was quite a learning experience.

And maybe still have a long way to go.. i won't say what i'll be.. because i believed that we react differently to different stituations at different time. Maybe it was all planned. And so.. actually we really are shaped by our beliefs.. so long as we believe.. it might just happen. Hmm.. how about the ang pow toto draw for a start? haha..

Was at the selling floor for 4 days now.. and lots and lots and lots and lots .. ( i can't stress how many there are.. ) of 'kids' there working part time.. is the economy really that bad? And so made a few friends of such.. 1987 or so.. it was.. waah.. finally they are all growing up.. haha. I didn't have any younger siblings so i won't understand what they are thinking.. but it was so much different.. only 4 years difference. And so i was busy chatting with every promoter around me, coz i was too bored.. But then i didn't want to talk to 'kids'.. they really don't know how high the sky is and how thick the ground is.. haha.. and its up to them to learn. And so i talked to those auntie and uncle level.. and they thinks that i also don't know how high the sky is.. haha.. that i agree.. it is always the case. It really comes with age.

Sometimes things are so real that blogging it just makes me want to think that it was that way.. so i better avoid the 'realism' point of view.. haha.. i will ignore .. and already i can feel the difference. And i believed what the kinu uncle told me.. he said for whatever good things done, one will surely benefit from it.. haha.. coz i told him i was stupid to go around selling other brands. Maybe he said that so that i could continue to help him sell more? Hahaa.. but it's ok. I really don't mind. He does give me treats sometimes.. out from his own pocket.. haha ..and our age difference is around 20 years..

So i now have 3 jobs pending.. 3 different brands.. but i shall not forsake.. coz really won't look nice.. thought the pay is higher and commission is included.. but still, i can't.. not now.. maybe wait till i stop working there for another year. So i am now trying to find 'replacements' for them.. haha.. and now it became my burden... ar.. me and my stupid mouth.

Anyway, saw a lot more that made me very tired.. because i see so many people trying to use money to buy the whole world.. And just like what they said.. our mood all depends on the customers we served. One lousy customer will spoil our day.. and it takes so many 'good' customers to bring our mood back. But i'm different.. just one dinosaur will kill my day. Hahaa.. and speaking of dinos.. that day i served one.. till i almost want to bang the wall.. haha.. but it was fun.

Maybe for us part timers, holding a job equals to more income for every other things.. so it seems nothing.. we don't care much.. but for those working for long.. they took things seriously. So serious that i was always in their firing range. I can understand.. they need to feed their family. Their income is their family's expenditure.. and my income is my own. That's the difference..

And so i asked for it.. wanted to work on the holidays. No double pay nothing. And i knew it from the start. But just it wasn't 'festive' anymore, i don't feel the need to celebrate. Rather than to hide at home.. might as well work towards my own ipod. Maybe a few more years, it'll just get boring.

I was doing a few laps to punggol these few days.. coz the other two welfare excos were stationed there. Poor bt had to be the lightbulb for them.. but still not enough. That jj still asked me to join them (again again) just now... haha.. i think my dad is really unhappy with me already.. had been either very late home or not home at all (i was at bt's place).. but then, i think my house is giving me my arthritic problems.. coz i got better at bt's house.. whaha..

So we talked about almost everything.. was discussing whether 2 person keeping 2 same tiles will discard it.. and haha.. we link it everywhere.. but i don't want to be the 'bomb hand'.. i don't mind throwing.. really.. just don't make me pay.

Was 2 am now.. still have to attend band practice tomorrow.. arrrrhh.. tomorrow is a holiday! And i didn't have my holiday yet. It was either work or band. Band concert coming up on the 8th of Jan at Tampines.. and that my manager still wants me to work 5 days a week! I was only thinking of 3 day week the most.. and it does crashes with my studies a lot.. i need to study already. Actually i really did. But it wasn't effective at all.

Start of 2006 had been great. And i'm glad that there are always so many 'pillars' to guide me through so much. Thankful to some.. and some only. And i will remember. And as always, there is only more of everything when we move up.. and the more we might lose. But less time is taken to recover.

These are some thought and happenings for the past few days.. and i haven't finish.. but i need to sleep.. coz feeling hungry now, and still have to wake up 'early' to practice the scores.. argh.. and then it was all the way to the west side again tomorrow.. HAIZ.