99% Preparation...

They say its all 99% preparation and 1% moment. Perphaps i wasn't prepared enough. (or over prepared?) Sometimes think too much and in the end got it all wrong. Well, it happens elsewhere too.. but then, some people are just able to.. why not me?

After yesterday's practice, was quite demoralised by the screwed up solo.. Wasn't that i wasn't able to, but sometimes when it comes, it didn't come. I guess it was over prepared for "over the rainbow". Too much weightage on certain things le.. especially when the whole orchestra wasn't playing.. lol.. very stress de lor. Wanted very much to hand the solo over.. but nobody there to take.. what can i do? But then.. like this also not a long term solution wor. Sigh leh. Run also cannot, fight also don't know can or not.. lol.. think is play dota meh? Just quit game can le meh?

Disappointed with myself over "over the rainbow", but then was glad to hear some guidance, and some words of encouragement from the instructors.. hahaa.. 1st time hear praises wor.. hahaa..

Nice was the orchestra for the day. We had a lot of strings and of coz, our tuba is back.. very nice to have a base for support.. for once i didn't feel that the middle section is the support.. and for once it wasn't empty. But then.. pian pian i had to screw the solo up.. wahhaa.. felt so bad to waste all of their time lor.. my bad =(

Was actually much anticipating nutcracker to boost morale.. but then no time.. ahaha.. pract ended later, and went JP mac for late dinner. End up reaching home after 12am.

Let me see if i can achieve anything within this week.. if really can't.. haha.. maybe i can try harder to look for a replacement horn player le.. lol.

Poor Wor..

4 more lectures and it'll be time to prepare for mocks. Just paid nearly 1.6k for the papers alone.. and my bank got reduced by the same amount. All in all, i've spent around 5k more because i retained... and so this year i must really pass.. and attain a lower.. if not, the addtional time and money spent will all go down the drain le. Not as if i enjoyed being a student so much, especially when the cashflow is constantly bugging.. and there isn't any inflow since a long long time.. wondered when i'll go broke. Decided not to attend lectures given by the lecturers from UK.. partly coz i want to save the $50 per lesson.. and also coz i won't really have the time to ponder over the additional lecture materials.

And then the Bull is lao sai-ing.. almost can see the bear de head liao. Everyday seems like a new low (don't know whether the revised index had anything to do with it).. lol.. whoever said that the old STI would break 4k by the end of 2007 is a real genius. But who would have thought.. the lowering of rates due to the credit squeeze, rising fuel prices, shortage of food supply and so on would have flown into the inflation pool.. and then suddenly some agree that it might be worthwhile to realise their gains ASAP. When the BB unload, those retail go pick.. and the BB throw somemore.. and a bit more.. how not to get new lows like that? But then again, it's all a cycle.. and those with the cash to invest might see some new opportunity to kio some 'bargains'.. and especially when the FIs are in need of cash.

Now i really know what is 'leong'. LOL.. and my small small investment also shrink.. luckily my 2nd decision seems to be better.. lol.. at least something learnt.

Poor but at least can DOTA at home for free.. lol. Saved $2.50 per hour like that lor.. lol.. and save transport somemore.. hahaha.. Always dota with the usual few, but i still quite noob.. hahaha.. like what my colleague says, "must have talent one..".. lol..

No more pek chek liao.. lol.. coz i finally know what happend during the nutcracker suite le.. and i thought i was being stupid. But now upon closer 'inspection', the 3/4 was written to sound like 2/4... no wonder i got so confused.. lol.. Tchaikovsky too pro for me le la.. and it was the same case as in Pavane.. no wonder i always thought i couldn't count.. it just sounds different from what it seems to be. And i can be certain, the dance of yao will also have the same problem.. but nevermind.. at least nutcracker cracked liao.

Pakki seems to like to sleep in my room these days... lol.. maybe coz got other critters to accompany him? LOL.. Shifted the tall crab (s.rug) into the main tank to live with the others le.. so far so good.. just that the venti crab (L.rug) grew so large after molting that the tanks seems too small for it.. maybe 好吃好睡 wor..

Maybe financially poor now... but ain't so poor in other aspect.. lol.. just 6 more months to go, and maybe i may regret that i say i didn't want to be a student.

Pek Chek

Was very pek chek yesterday.. don't know why, maybe the journey to the west took me too much time. 1.5 hours there and another 1.5 hours back.. 3 hours leh. And then got there and still couldn't get things right. Sian. Same old problem, and i didn't want to say anymore.

I got short term memory though.. had a GG of dota after midnight on LAN, and then was quite happy le. And as if that wasn't enough to offset my pek chek, my small hermit crab came out of its molting! LOL.. and it got its full set of legs back. That is enough to make me happy lo.


Really the ISO tank, with the molting container shifted inside.


Top view.

LOL.. i still think that keeping crab is easier than keeping hamsters in the long run.. maybe cheaper also.. haha..

顺其自然

Got to know which rug the exo belonged to.. lol.. it was the old exo of L.rug. Heng ar.. it never kill my small crab.. haha.. Then i quickly seal off the molting area.. but 3 hours later, M.rug disappeared from the tank. (i sealed off the molting area le.. still got place to dig in meh?) Now i only know the location of 2 of them. Saw some digging movement in the molting area.. but one of them is missing.. (again). LOL.. this is definately a test of patience.. you never know when you'll see the crab again.. if ever. Maybe it died inside le i also don't know lor. But then again, sometimes must 顺其自然.. so i see how lor.. no need to wait also, coz also don't know wait for what.

Strange.. Strange

I hoped my s.rug doesn't tio owned. Found 2 crab legs on top of the molting area.. and i don't know is whose. Seems too big for the s.rug, and it's empty.. meaning that it is definately an empty exo.. but what is it doing outside? Strange.. strage... wondered if s.rug is still alive or not.. or maybe got murdered by L.rug? Read that some crabs will eat fresh molted crabs. Got so tempted to dig them out to find the truth.. but then again, digging them out means killing them. It's a crab eat crab world.. lol. That is one mystery that maybe time will tell.




Other mysteries, maybe time won't tell. A few days back, i saw a copy of CL (Creative Life) on my desk.. and it was addressed to me (by SSA). Strange.. strange. I never subscribed leh.. and last time our family subscribed (subsription already expired), it was under my mum's name.. Strange.. someone subscribed for me.. and paid for too. Eh.. like that how can? Didn't even know who to thank. Anyway, i appreciate the intention.

Saturday's orchestra practice was cold. Physically i mean. Got drenched in the rain, and the aircon was like in full blast.. Winds section as usual didn't have much people.. really wondered where all the winds player go to. It's true that orchestra don't need so many winds... but then again, bo lang eh see liao also cold lor.

Halfway through the pract, my rotary string broke, and i got to switch instrument. Luckily (or unluckily) my colleague didn't come.. so i got instrument to switch to. And strangely, i don't know how to count when playing in an orchestra. In the past i used to infer the tempo from others.. now with the strings, i really really can't feel. Difficult wor... then everytime tio shoot. Hahahaa... and the more i see the conductor, the more i got confused. Zzz... So saturday, i bao everything - from legend to nutcracker.. and i played until the sound pik che.. my endurance cmi.. Aww.. i still missed my secondary school days.. then was a full section and lots of bass for support. Lol.. complain also no use.. i still end up going for pract weekly.. lol.. and there is a school gathering next week, guess i won't be going le.. no horn parts then also difficult for them.. a lot of pieces also sound empty empty de... it just sound so strange.

A lot of strange strange things to start the year.. maybe 2008 is a year of mysteries.

Deprival

Spent another day of 2008 rushing assignments and tutorial questions. Now i really can kick myself for choosing this module. Deprived of sleep for almost 36 hours, and no.. i am not training for the impreza challenge.

But then again, having clear all the assignments, i can take a break for a week before the 31 consolidation questions are here to deprive my sleep again.

Met up with some of my friends for cq steamboat again.. whahaha.. i will never get bored eating cq steamboat.. and after that is DOTA again. Strangely, i was very lousy today.. lol.. and practically tio owned the whole 2 sets of game... haha.. i guess either i really very seh today, or really very lousy liao.

Having orchestra practice tomorrow.. still don't know whether will be going or not.. i think i can sleep until 5pm then wake up lor. And the thought of not practicing.. lol.. i guess my 2008 will be very busy lo.. busy but happy. ^^

First Entry of 2008~

New year le~ but nothing seems new to me.. especially my FR assignments.

Been very busy for the past 2 weeks coz of the need to rush my assignments. 1st time in my whole uni life that i'm so "willing" to do assignments and study for test. Slept no earlier than 6am for the past 2 days.. and i guess today won't be of any difference. Thankfully (and hopefully), i can take a break and "enjoy" the new year after friday's lessons. I can thank all the coffe i had to keep me awake after that.

And then the exams invoice came.. around SGD 1300.. lol.. super broke le.. and don't complain if you hear me complain.. i am really really broked. The exams timetable is out too.. super glad that the dates of the papers are evenly spread, and all are in the afternoon. My last paper should be before 6th june.

Just this morning (early morning i mean.. around 3am), i saw something strange in my ruggie's tank.. i saw something blue.. yupz.. the blue haha crab emerges from its molt! Which means... the conditions are right. I'm so happy.. haha.. effort (and money) not wasted after all. I held the blue haha crab by its shell, and i saw it's new exoskeleton (the crab's own shell).. it is now a bit purple in colour, and i think it sort of grew bigger le.. whahaa.. and as usual, with the blue haha crab around (the biggest of the 3, now even bigger), the settings in the tank got "tanked" around.


Molting means that the crab is shedding it's exoskeleton, which is the red part... like snake shedding its skin like that. The blue part is its home (or clothes if you like), and it doesn't grows, unlike that of the tortise. It came from dead snails and the crab doesn't grow it. It is NOT attached to the crab by any cells or whatsoever.. and the crab can choose to come entirely out from the blue shell if it chooses to (and get attacked most probably).. hope it clears some doubts. ^^ (in this case, the shell is blue in colour la.. i am still looking for a unpainted natural shell and hopes it moves into it some day)


LOL.. all camera shy.. L,rug with M.rug (large ruggie with medium ruggie.. zzz.. stupid me forgot to give them names.. ahahahahaa) anyway, the L.rug is slighty purple.. maybe the exo still new, haven't really harden yet.

Its been 3 weeks since i last saw the blue haha crab.. lol.. and i'm quite happy to see it still alive... whahahahaa.. too bad it missed both xmas and new year. Now only left the smallest crab (S.rug)in the molting area. It should be much more of a challenge for the small crab becoz it had some missing legs.. by right (i read online), it would be more "stressful" for them to grow new legs.. but i guess it should be alright. By the way, both smaller crabs had missing legs when i got them from the shop.. lol.. they are sold at $8 each leh.. so no QC. Haha's is different.. a lot of QC, plus i think the crabs are older (by looking at the size), so higher chance of survival.. but then again.. i wondered why the other crab died on the 1st day it came... =X

LOL.. so interesting.. only that the start up is ma fan (very ma fan).. coz i don't know anything about it.. now i know where to get the items le, and so very much easier.. even easier than keeping hamsters.. lol.. plus the small size means they don't really eat a lot also, plus they don't poo much also.. so not much of changing sand or whatsoever... so.. anyone interested to keep ruggues as pets/hobby? Hahaa..

Last Entry of 2007

Last day of 2007 liao~!

Overall a rather stable year, the only thing unstable is my cashflow.

Tried to overcome "everything" by my own means, even the living expenses.. but sometimes, even savings isn't quite enough. What to do lei? Who ask me to retain?

In the year of 2007:-
1) I retained in academics for the 1st time in my life
2) I got 7 pets (!), though 1 died just after a day due to PPS
3) I started "trading" in equity
5) I went for a tour after staying in sg for 6 years
6) My grandparents got interviewed by CNA after they took part in the Sliver Jubilee Ceremony at SSA HQ
7) Knots were untied, and i was glad
8) I gained 4kgs again

Anyway, it's again the time of the year where new resolutions are set and the old reviewed.

For 2007, i only had 3 resolutions - but i think all didn't turned out quite that well.. but at least i'm moving in the right direction. So for 2008, i try to set a more "realistic" target.

And my resolutions for 2008:-
1) get my desired grades for my degree
2) get to the weight that i desired
3) get a job, either in accounting, or maybe banking
4) improve in horn playing
5) cut down on some of my habits (drinking, nuaing etc..)

5 is, enough for now.. lol.. looking forward to 2008 wor.. and may 2008 be a great and peaceful year! Wishing all great health and happiness~

Merry Christmas 2007~

Merry merry xmas~

Nice to celebrate xmas, but the festive mood starts to fade. Still remembered the times where i looked forward to meet up with friends to go orchard to countdown.. (countdown for what i also don't know).. That was like, almost 10 years ago. LOL.. then suddenly, either the environment change, or i've grown old. I don't really like to crowd with the crowd le lo.. lol.. anyway, the crowd also changed much. Now i don't really dare to go town le.

Had quite a bit of festive food for the past 2 days.. and too much of good food didn't turn out that good afterall. Sigh.. i think i got quite scared of turkey, ham and log cake le. Of all festive food, i still prefer CNY ^^ coz got sharks' fin, abalone, ba kua and so on.. eat 1 whole week i also not sian.. in fact, i still prefer chicken wings to turkey wings.. haha.. see the turkey wing i scared sia.. so big!

Gift exchange proved to be the most headache part of the whole xmas.. seriously, what to get i also don't know lor.. i don't really do shopping de, and when i buy things for myself, i usually know what to get before i went, and my shopping lasted less than an hour. LOL.. but shopping for present.. hmm.. it's a skill that i haven't master.. and it just gets harder year after year.. lol.. coz the gifts then become common le... but then trying too much to be unconventional also very risky lor.. there is a reason why people don't give them ma.. haha.

LOL.. but xmas without gift is just like cny without angbao.. haha.. so no matter what, it still brings some festive mood to the day ba.. lol.. plus the xmas cards and all the food, it still feels like xmas.. just that i can do with more presents ^^

Yet Another PH

Saturday's pract was rather "empty".. don't know where the people all go to. The whole winds section was left with only the 7 of us, including the guest player - a very pro oboe player. That day was left without clarinets.. and hence actually quite a few of the pieces we can't do. Strings were also lacking of our concert master and his relatives. Was again, alone.. as with all the other brass instruments. That day only got 1 trumpet, 1 trombone, and 1 horn.

So actually i pangseh my pri school's gift exchange on saturday for orch pract.. a bit paiseh lo.. coz everytime clashes with them. It is a norm liao.. my saturday confirm not free one. The journey took on average 1 hour 15 mins (by public transport) and by the time i reach there, my mood is confirm quite bad one.. whahaha... maybe coz think about some unhappy things (too free le i guess). Then reach ssc is "chou lian" one.. wahhaa.. but i'm glad. Glad that after each practice, i can be happy. Happy that i didn't miscue my notes (sometimes), happy that i came out when i'm supposed to (or even when i'm not supposed to), and happy that i'm "improving" pract by pract. It just gives a satisfying feeling. Of coz.. there are times when i tio shoot by the conductor, then i very sian liao. I know that i can, given the 10 years in playing this instrument, yet sometimes there are just things that haven't been learnt. And then it was time for xmas again.. hahaa.. oh ya.. thanks for the "gifts" ar..

Quite beginning to dislike PH.. coz everytime people are having PH, then i'm not free le.. Wahhaha.. i am not supposed to appreciate PH now lor.. given my 1 day school week, and 1 day orchestra week.. who can qie me? Of coz, it came at a price la.. nothing to envy also.

Quite pek chek coz of how things are being fallen out of place.. sian lor.. so many things to do in such a short time.. especially that 28 FR question due on friday! OMG.. and then i got classes on friday from 12pm -6.30pm and then another class on saturday, plus my orch pract.. omg.. wondered how not to feel pek chek like that. And this rainy season.. good for sleeping only, if i want to run errands, then ho seh liao lo.

One word - sian. Lousy finale for 2007.. ahhaha

Then my critters also want to chute pattern. The hamster of mine trying to be escape artist.. and it created small hole on the plastic tank le. Soon i might need to do something about it. Then the 2nd ruggie went in the sandto join the blue haha.. zzz.. all don't want xmas present le ar?

Zzz.. faster 2008 ba..

Pre-PH Crubbing

Was backed from the pre-holiday zouk. Was super crowded lor.. didn't know why.. economy so good these days ar?

Queue was so long that even when i left at around 2am, the queue was still there.. lol.. open until 4 am ar? Didn't drink much, coz i had reflux again (sigh)... and another reason was, it wasn't my bday today.. it was yy's de.

Crowded until cannot move around.. very xin ku.. i don't like crowd too much leh.. like no place to move.. very sian 1 lor.. especially so was the xmas crowd at orchard.. scary leh. Nowadays economy very good liao i think. (actually i think not la.. but pay is increasing, what more can i say?)

Today was long time no see de long island tea again.. still didn't quite like the smell, and as always, the potent one. Didn't have my dinner coz i slept through my lunch.. haha.. and when i woke up, it was already 4pm. Had a super late lunch.. and was out by 8pm for the queue. Scary lor.. pre-holiday so crowded.. it didn't matter much to me whether it was PH or not.. everyday except fridays and saturdays seems like a PH to me.. haha.

Anyway, something happened there.. someone tired to eat my beancurd.. or was it my bones... yalar.. i bhb... haha just kidding. I actually asked my friends to "jiu wo".. not becoz the gal was clinging onto me, not becoz she was trying to lean on me.. (i don't really know what she wants..).. but i scared she want to puke on me.. haha.. maybe my face so horrible.. see liao want to puke. "Over-reacted" as usual.. wahahaha.. i don't like strangers to cling on me sia. Less say if they want to puke on me.

Another thing happened at the podium. I think one guy proposed to his fiancee.. wow.. so ro lor.. and then the whole crowd cheered and clapped. LOL.. and one of my alumni senior proposed during one of the band concert.. also quite ro la.. haha.. next time i should try something innovative.. maybe on the moon or something like that.. hahaa.. or maybe proposed during one of the AGM.. lol.. as if.

Went off "early" coz the music really cmi.. not much mambo leh.. a lot of xmas song though.. lol.. i don't feel xmas lor.. i only feel the very packed crowd.. bo xmas leh.. a bit sian.

And then while moving out, saw the bouncer escorting some people out.. i think is some incident of some sort.. and then after that, heard that the police came for check.. wah.. i crub for so long also never see before such scene.. only saw it on tv lor..

Didn't have the holiday mood, coz i think i'm on permanant holiday.. not much difference to me leh.. and then the whole world all busy work and such.. hahaa.. starting to feel guilty le.

And when cost of living increases, the bcm also increase 50 cents liao le.. in return, they give 1 prawn.. prawn de ba chor mee? Maybe should switch to eating ba chor teh.. better.. bo prawn de.

Anyway, looking forward to 2008 more.. 11 more days and i shall conclude 2007. Didn't quite like xmas le.. think of the crowd at orchard already sian 1/2. Also don't know what xmas gift to give people other than chocolates and such.. these items tio banned le.. lol.. how lei? $10 can buy what? haha.. erm.. buy $10 EPB voucher? LOL. Even A-cash card cost $10.70 le lor.. If i happen to give something weird, it must be that i'm trying too hard to stay away from chocolates le.

Happy Birthday to... Pakki!

Pakki is now 1 years old le ^^

Been with us for 8 months le (around 240 days). Now at around 7 kgs, it can hurt much when he stepped over us. (ya.. he now climbs on the sofa and jumps over us, sometimes missing his aim and landed on us) Poor mum carries this 7 kg pakki down for peeing every morning and evening.. lol.. some people don't like dogs, or are scared of them.. so cannot let him climb the stairs on his own.

He came to us as a surprise.. sis just gave us a hint of warning.. then the next thing i knew was to go downstairs to carry his "house" up. He was quite "shy" lor.. haha.. coz maybe he didn't know us that time. Then also looked quite sad, coz had to stay in cage whole day. The only thing he did other than eating and sleeping was 趴来趴去.. he lay down on one corner of the cage, and then changed to the other end.. lol.. maybe he was bored ba. In the end we named him "pakki" (short of pa lai pa ki..wahhaha..)

1 month in cage or so, he was let to roam in the kitchen.. and then another 2 months later, he was allowed to sleep outside at night. The cage was then kept, and the housebreaking streak broke. In the end he only will pee outside our house.. and that includes at the pet store.. haha..

I liked the way pakki wag its tail everytime i return home, even when he's sleeping.. (but he ignores me when he is eating.. = =) He and his seh face.. sometimes more seh than me lor. But still, very nice to see someone welcome you home.. even at 4am.

Somehow, i think he knows the time.. lol.. he knows when to wake my mum up, usually at 6am.. and he knows when it was time for him to go "gai gai" (walk walk) and dinner/breakfast.

And he is the only one in the house that we (all the villagers) must greet when we return home or say goodbye when we are going out.. hahaha.. even the village chief doesn't enjoy such privilege.

I think he won over all of us.. and already integrated into our family.. lol.. ya.. his surname is Tan, Pakki Tan. (or "Parky".. as my sis like to spell his name as, or "paggi" which my dad likes to call him.. whatever.. it all mean the same to us)

Pakki's Did you know......?

1) he was named "Rexy" initially
2) he was from Taiwan (his breed is from Germany)
3) he cost 1.1k in SGD
4) his first gift was a red dog collar
5) he got a cousin - a spaniel named "Coffee" (my cousin's dog)


Pakki @ 5 months old


Pakki at my comp chair.. lol.. i still like this pic best


After "haircut".. unique style.. lol.. got "skirting" de


On the sofa.. beside his fav newspaper


Act shy leh.. hahaa


Ninja.. haha.. he did it himself.. tried to take my t-shirt and in the end covered his whole mouth

Haha Saga

Revamped the ruggies' tank, and included a new substrate which i bought long ago.

The sand was rather moist with sea water and who knows what. So i washed it, and had to dry it to get rid of the chloramine (no longer chlorine) in it. Actually i don't even know whether it will get rid of the chloramine by drying or not.. haha.. blame it on my secondary chemistry teacher. Anyway, i supposed so..

Didn't quite drain the sand, and hence it took an awful long time to sun almost 5kgs of sand. In the end, i dug out an old oven and start "baking" sand.

Thought it would be simple, but ended up doing it for quite a while. I think next time i'll do it a different way.


"mud pie" anyone?

Luckily the effort is not wasted. (actually can choose not to wash the sand one.. don't know why my hand so itchy..) So this morning, i saw the blue haha crab dug itself in.. i supposed it's time for it to molt (change its outer skeleton, not the shell). Hoped it survives.. coz the death rate during the molting process is quite high.. anything wrong with the tank, and it'll die.. sort of like an check on whether the setup is right or not. If everything goes well, it'll take around a few weeks, if not months, i don't really know.. haha.. 1st time to see a molt. The worst part is not being able to check whether the crab had died or not (coz it is buried deep in the sand) and any attempt to dig it up will kill it.. = = So how? Wait until cny and if it is still in there.. if yes, then most likely is up the lorry liao.

The new setup of the tank, seperating C1 coral sands and C0 playsand. (coral sand cannot dig in, but it is easier to manage) Included DIY-ed ramp made from some left-over material of the door-gifts in the SRC room.. lol..


A reminder of how the tank looks.. on top i placed the original "starter kit" which was sold in the HM shop to contrast



The "main cast" of the whole "haha saga" while it is still free enough to climb "trees" (check out the string of crab poo in the pool =P)

Made it to the top...


And down the bottom


So i supposed i won't see the blue haha crab for xmas le? >.<

Additional Lecture

Was "late" for school on friday, but i didn't want to take cab to school.. perhaps it'll cost around $10 or so, but it'll only shorten the whole process by 15 minutes at the most. But no longer. No longer will it cost $10. Fares were raised, and my eyebrows too. It was rather interesting to see how a touting practice can evolved into a fare increase. However, i'm not against it, just that i might opt to be late more often. Inflation is at work here.

Went brewerkz on friday again, after thursday's XIPA. And then as always, i forgot my bag! Hahahaa.. this was the 3rd time lor.. and everytime was linked to LUI. Luckily yy reminded me lor.. haha.. if not i really left it there.. my precious crumpler, and my precious jacket.. and not so precious, yet important FR and IM lecture notes.. i wasn't even tispy lor.. only 1 pint leh.. i think i'm just blur at times la. Anyway, thanks to yy again.. haha.. if not saturday class i sure tio 1.

Saturday was a "full day", with additional FR lecture from 12pm - 5pm. The LT was without aircon, coz i think the change in schedule was not updated.. haha.. really can't fall asleep in that kind of condition. Anyway, i was paying attention.. and i actually can do the past year exam question.

Went scc for orch pract, and i was again, alone. Hahaa.. so no choice, soloed all the solo and then actually by the 2nd piece i already chwee le. Wahaha.. especially the 2nd was over the rainbow. It was all over le lor.

Then came the dance of yao.. hahaa.. and strangely, i anyhow play and yet it was said that i was right, just that a bit too soft. One against the many many many many strings players lor. I think the guest conductor really very nice lor.. lol.. but now i know why i kept playing wrong le la.. must be the past experience.. it does work against lor. Super tired lor.. but of coz, moving nearer to a better sounding orchestra. As in, the type of interpretation was really very well presented. LOL.. i really like it.

Then i really had a dream. I dreamt that i was dreaming. Hahaa.. sort of a reconciliation with some past events. Thoughts by day, dreams by night. LOL.. then i realised, i don't know how not to cycle.. i can't unlearn it afterall.

Away from Home

Pakki "ran away from home" just 2 days back.

I didn't know that, coz i was already asleep le. Sis came home and this pakki rushed out to chase 1 black cat maybe they both same colour than he like.. wahha).. zz.. and don't know since when he got so pro in climbing down the stairs, he was actually faster than my sis. In the end, he was found at the 9th floor, 3 floors down my unit. Think he stopped there because he never went there before ba.. mum only teach him how to take lift.. haha. Guess he was just being playful ba.. or did he really intend to run away from home?.. that i do not know.. anyway, he's back now.

Village chief was so worried that he might run away again that he kept giving him treats... lol.. no place is better than home right? I think must really teach him how to go home le.. if not next time ran away in the streets how?

Was out yesterday and i saw one maltese and its owner.. lol.. very cute lor.. i mean the maltese la (although the owner looks quite cute too).. haha.. next time must bring pakki along to make new friends le.. lol.

Sometimes i think this schnauzer is like cat like that lor.. at the void deck there, he ate the cat food left by residents when my mum isn't looking... then when he plays toy, he uses his paws to get the things rather than his jaw.. lol.. maybe he is a cat trapped in a dog's body. But 1 thing i don't understand.. why he likes to eat newspaper that much.. hahaha.. like that can become smarter meh? If so than i go eat my FR and IM lecture notes le.

one more week, and pakki will be officially 1 year old. Was thinking of getting him a bday present, maybe get a dog tag, then engrave our hp no. on it.. haha.. just in case he runs away again. Or maybe a GPS? LOL.

I have a Dream

"Have you ever thought about your future?"

Well, up till this stage, who never? I thought i think bloody too much.. but i met my match today. Yet the setting was more than i can take.. yes, i can discuss about my thoughts, how i want my life to be in the future, and what i may be planning to do to achieve it, whether i really do it or not. But, in a MMORPG? LOL.. scare the hell out of me lor. Strictly speaking, i don't even really know that person.. so how well will that person know me?

Rather 不爽 coz, i play game to relax de.. in the end got more stressed. LOL.. and what makes one think that we are without dreams? Even if it conforms to the view of society, it doesn't matter, nor is it more inferior. My point is, do not think that one is more superior than other just because of a "greater" dream. I say, who and what you are, determines what you want to dream of. Some people just want simple dreams, to have a nice family, stable job and good health. (that is maybe what most people want.. who doesn't?) Others might want to be millionaires or even multi so that they can have more wants from that want.. it all depends on the individual.

I am not being affected by what people want, rather, why should they bother with what i want? That bothers me. And what makes them think that i am wrong in pursuing my dream? I think i now have a new dream - knowing what these people really want to achieve by downplaying other people.

LOL.. almost 气死我了. Specific dream, or just a vauge one? It depends too. If i say i want to be a millionaire through winning the toto draw, you think i can forsee when i tio meh? Need to set deadline and have a specific plan? Incorporate the probability of winning somemore and give a definate answer as to when i can be one when i say that? Ok, there are a total of 8 million combinations from the toto draw and the probability of winning with a 50 cents quickpick is 1/8,000,000. Given that there are 2 draws per week, just over 100 draws per year, there is a chance of being a millionaire in just 5 years with a probability of 0.0000325625, (the method of calculation is still being contended - 1/8,000,000 x [(summation of 1-520)/520] assuming the prize is 1 million and the cost are sunk cost. Unrealistic it seems, that's why it is a dream.

And with regards to equity investment, i didn't say any strategy employed would guarantee a success.. neither am i ignorant of the bigger institution out there that have the abilities to. These are all what other, or even most people are doing.. just becoz that something written from some book doesn't mean that it is so. In my opinion, these are just opinions. I think, what is more important is, is that opinion really your opinion. In fact, if your opinion is right, it doesn't really matters.. for it will sail with the wind. Even auntie can do it based on common sense lor.

Don't say i think so much, becoz i didn't say anyone didn't think.. and there are people out there thinking way more lor.. so don't limit my thoughts. Yupz, all thoughts and nothing done equals nothing, i know that too. Knew that becoz i am slow.. so think more lor.

LOL.. a rather bad day becoz tio ka cheow me.. haha. Despite, maybe i'm not being concrete on my "plans".. therefore can tio ka cheow.. haha.. and it all happened in the MMORPG.. unbelievable.

As Usual

Friday 11/30:
School on friday was as usually as usual. And as usual, i dislike IM during tutorial. Wanted to skip lecture but my friend was telling me not to.. haha.. i guess i'm the bad influence. So attended the whole tutorial.. maybe only 1% of what was presented during the tutorial got in.. but i guess it beats sleeping at home.

Saturday 12/1:
December le.. and i'm in a festive mood. LOL.. looking forward to christmas, and especially so the christmas feast. I'm too old for presents le.. and if there is any present i want, i think it's too expensive lo.. and as usual, christmas may be as usual again.

And not as usual, i tried out service 199 to scc.. lol.. the frequency was not as high as 242, but plenty of space.. well, at least if i need to carry my baobei horn there, there is an option. Sis should be selling her vios away le.. means no more car for me to drive.. haha.. sad lo.. maybe just take cab all the way ba.

Orchestra practice was not as usual coz there came some guest players. Was surprised at how many of them there are.. especially when the whole strings section combined. Well.. it starts to look more and more like an orchestra.. just that our sitting arrangement looks weird.

It was great sounding, and lots of parts i didn't hear before. Didn't quite adapt to new conductors as usual, and i didn't like it when they get very expressive.. can't tell the points lor.. haha.. totally dislike when i got to listen to the cellos.. I can't feel the tempo lor.. too expressive le i guess.. haha.. blame it on my own incompetence. And then another one of my weak point.. syncopation. Sigh.. how lei?

Anyway, played nutcracker, and the melody repeats and repeats and repeats.. lol.. the 3/4 waltz tempo got embedded on my brain even when i went double o.. haha.. mambo in 3/4 timing. LOL..

Went off from boonlay SCC to MS and reached there in an hour. OO was more crowded than usual, guess because ntu had just finshed their exams.. lol.. no wonder the crowd looks different too. Then saw 1 ah zek dancing since i went in at around 11pm.. he dance for quite long and was climbing up and down the metal frames at the sound system there.. lol.. but then hor, i don't want to see ah zek dance lor.. haha..

Think too many times le.. until 1 for 1 also don't can 1 for 1 what.. haha.. long island they ban it.. then tequila also ban.. haha.. so in the end, illusion again.. but illusion also getting boring liao.

Was feeling quite sleepy coz of maple.. haha.. every morning got to wake up at 6am to maple.. whahaha.. and so by 2am, was already wanting to sleep le.. just that i'm too hungry to fall asleep. Reached home around 3am plus and i was without food for more than 11 hours le.. kept thinking of the ba chor mee.. hahaa.. Too bad i'm quite poor these days, so in the end can only afford to eat the 80 cents instant noodles. 10 minutes after the meal, i fell asleep. The usually insomnic me isn't so.

Sunday 12/2:
Woke up.. and that pakki has eaten my things... argh.. was home the day before and so left my things on the sofa.. he woke up at 6am and nobody to play with, so he took my things... zzz.. was really very angry lor.. but then, it didn't last long. My fault anyway.. so actually i told pakki i didn't want to talk to him.. haha.. but end up telling him again and again that i didn't want to talk to him.

As usual after every crubbing is ba tor tia de... don't know why.. system spoilt liao perhaps.. haha..

Was off to clementi forc the 3rd time in the week on 52 to meet up with some of my OG people. Oh well.. since the last chwee kuey, i said i didn't want to organise anymore outing le.. haha.. it isn't easy to coordinate 16 people ba.. I didn't say i want to make it an og outing.. haha.. just wanted to meet up with them to see how they are getting on in school lo.

9 turned up including the 2 ogls.. and got 2 put my aeroplane.. hahaa.. at least this time bo chwee kuey to eat lo.. haha.. went clementi botak jones eat.. i think hor, if christmas go botak eat i also happy liao lo.. was really surprised leh.. really surprised lor.. but happy at the same time.

After dinner went pooling.. but i think i very lousy la.. whahahaa.. sometimes i really want to do too many things at the same time le.. until everything also lousy. LOL.. till now, i don't know my forte lor.. horn playing isn't one of them.. yes i can play, but not as well as those good players.. play game also level not as high.. study also not as good... in other words, maybe jack of all trades.. but really master of none.

December already.. time to get ready to start studying.. haha.. year 1 i started in april, year 2 i started in march, and year 3 i started in january i think... this time must start at december lo.. only 2 lowers to go.. i think i should be able to.

Wake Up Call

For the 1st time, my lecturer chute pattern.. reason being, our last class test was badly done.. and he always had the impression that we are the "best" class. I guess he was very disappointed ba. Everything was actually fine.. until one bugger dare to sleep in his class.. haha.. pro leh. I don't even dare to sleep in class nowadays. Anyway, it was kind of a wake up call for us.. well, it beats being called by scammers.

So after that, i really did revise.. but just for a while.

Wondered why must there be a reminder of how much we really had.

Tragedy struck our national dragon boat team a few days back, and it seems really.. life is very fragile at times.. and in an instant, everything changes. I think i don't need to say much, coz already much was reported on the news. My condolence to relatives and friends of the victims.

Really to cherish those around more.. be it family, friends or pets.

Hello?

(in mandarin) "hello, i'm calling to do a survey... what kind of mobile phone are you using?"

Sounds familiar? If you read the ST (a week ago i think), this is a prelude to a scam. So before i read it on the ST (still a few more weeks before), i received such a call. No caller ID, and strange was, the caller didn't know my name, yet, they spoke to me in mandarin.. (in which clearly there is a strong accent from some country far away)as if i comfirm will understand, the speaker proceeded. So i wondered what the heck she (it was a lady caller) wanted, and i "entertained" her with the "survey".. the questions asked was very funny at certain point, because IMO, i don't think she really bothered with the answer i gave. I think she wasn't even taking note.. coz i anyhow answer 1.. haha.. and if she asked which telecom my hp was with, even if i answered "sunpage", i don't think she care too.

So after a few minutes, she concluded the survey and asked for my name.. then i said, "sorry, not convenient to give.." Suddenly, her tone changed.. and then she explained why she needed my name.. lol.. i think if i have given her any name, i would soon received a call telling me that i've won some lottery in some far away country. Then i would wonder why the caller knows me.

Just find that some people are very unscrupulous.. maybe i've wronged the caller.. maybe not. LOL.. and i'm quite certain that i've not. So in ST a week ago, one lady was conned SGD 61,000 by such calls.. imagine.. and reading through, found it quite unbelievable.. i mean, how can they be so evil? And the stories they've made up.. wow.. i think they can be script writters le.. and they all started with a survey...

Then the another story was being shown on channel 8 "frontline".. similar case, and a guy was conned off quite a bit.. i forgot the amount, but after the victim realised the scam, he stopped sending money over.. then after a few months, another caller posing as a police inspector offered the help him "recover" the amount scammed.. yes.. it involves more cash to be remitted to facilitate the "recovery process". You really think so? LOL.. unless it means recover their pockets.

They are just so evil.. took advantage of human nature to profit from it. Next time i sure kap their phone 1.. mei li mao jiu mei li mao.

More than more than Tired

Was actually preparing for friday's FR, and then i got a "shock".. lecturer was going to give us a class test.

Knew it was coming, but didn't prepare for it.. serve me right lor.. and in the end, was trying to squeeze everything out from my brain. Didn't have much left becoz of the pace we are going.. lol.. it was a rather bad experience. Well.. same as before, a very familiar feeling. Two week from now, i'm going to be called out in class liao.. haha.. coz i only did 1 out of 2.. and then the 1 question i attempted i didn't know how to do. Yet, i didn't siam the class test.. i think, not running away anymore is a good start wor. Btw, class test carries no weightage.. so nothing affected. I just didn't like the feeling of not knowing what to do (ignorance is NOT a bliss in this case) .. haha.. especially when i'm taking it alone.. lol.. nobody to "consult" leh.. haha. Test was over in 1.5 hours, but i think my brain expired by then. Then it was IM.. nothing moved, and then i was glad i was back in pace again..

Met up with my ex-schoolmates (they all graduated liao)for steamboat at chongqing.. super nice lor.. i think other than BBQ, the next best is steamboat le.. commercial 1 i mean.. house de too healthy until not tasty. But then, prices gone up again. In the past, it cost $10.. then after the GST thing they increased to $12.80.. then it was $13.80... lol.. chop cabbage head leh.. everything also increase.. zzzzzz

As usual, after cq steamboat, either is pa dota or pa dota.. ya, confirm go pa dota 1.. 101%. LOL.. and so, with the price hike everywhere, even LAN shop also increase 50 cents.. haha. Too long never played dota le.. like rust liao.. haha.. so play and play and play until 12mn.. luckily, still got direct bus.. if not got to go by 2.70 le.. ya.. the flag down also increase.

Very very tired these few days.. coz i've upgraded my hamster's wheel.. and it was making so much noise in the middle of the night.. lol... woke me up every so often.. but at least they are still up and running. 8 months old, and perhaps half of their lifespand.. most likely from 12-18 months.. but compared to the ruggies.. lol.. i don't know what to say.. 120-180 months! LOL.. most likely not in captivity ba.. well, at least they are now with me for a month le.. haha.. and i never dip them in water, so they didn't die lor.. (*hints)whahaha...

Sector Nua

As if under shock from AC.. it just moves from one end to another, and then back again.

It applies to ALL things currently, even the weather. It really takes a lot to keep on going, especially that beyond the "comfort zone".. or in other words, "sector nua".. whahahaa.. problem is, my sector is as big as the universe wor.. lol.. and it just keeps growing and contracting. LOL.. as if like sauna like that lor.. one moment great, the other moment dread.

Thankfully, nothing is permanent except change.. lol.. and it never lasted for long, whether good or bad.. well, it beats being monotonous.. i guess, this is just to contrast.

Last Saturday's orchestra practice was alright, and the horn section doubled in strength (from 1 to 2 that is).. haha. it was nice sounding, though somewhat lack of something. And till now, the two opposing reasons of being stayed much the same.. just that after FST, it doesn't matter much more. I guess, they are just seperate issues. Referring to what someone had said, "there are 101 reasons why the band is not doing well.. and it isn't just the skills of the players"..

Read on the XMRB.. and saw the map of the proposed "theme building".. aiyo.. very near my place leh.. lol.. so next time i "move house" also very near.. lol.. choy! (touchwood x3)

Should be like this at the moment ba.. haha.. bad drawing skill with MS paint.

It was said, all "activities" to be held indoors, and also, there will be light industries "sheltering" the building from public view.. lol.. and if only seeing is all that matters. Well, what to do? It is "convenient" here even without the train.. 30 mins by car to most parts of the island.. if by bus.. forget it.. lol.

Maybe take cab lor.. and then the cab is becoming more like buses.. at least in town. Need to wait for cab at the stand wor.. haha.. wondered if crubbing finish seh le still must go find a stand or not.. wahahahaa.. then don't know alight must alight at stand or not.. lol.. then hor, the difference between them and the bus is perhaps the meter le.. lol. All becoz of a few baa baa black sheep. Might as well la.. coz those sheep gave a bad impression to tourist lor.. anyway, i don't take cab to town.. the traffic jam already can make the meter jump a few dollars le.. haha.. i prefer the train.. but don't know why, these few days at ST forum, people like to complain about the aircon on the train.. lol.. maybe they came from north pole?

Hmm.. a lot of uncorrelated topics.. i also don't know how come. Perhaps i don't really care about much things le.. they don't matter anymore.. or they matter so much that i'm afraid? If its not, then it must be.

More than Tired

I've never imagined this... to think that i've actually went without sleep just for that piece of 5-page assignment. And i thought it was some imperial exam or what.. haha.. but no, just another piece of assignment.. one of rarity in my SIM days.

Well.. i had actually 4 weeks in advance.. whahaha.. i could have done it in anytime.. but the usual self, was at its usual. At least.. i've done it this time round. Was very encouraged by what lecturer said.. which is, "accountants have deadline..." and i guess, it really keeps me going. LOL.. more or less, i've got to zero in on my wants, my present goal, and my next.. yet, not yet, the one which entails everything.

As even in my semi-dazed state.. i attended lectures.. whahahaa.. and i almost fell asleep in front of the lecturer... whahaa.. i was seated at the 3rd row (scared cannot see the board).. lol.. but thankfully the z monster went away fast. Whacked loads of coffee but in the end was still tired.. guess the 7-hour assignment really kill much of my brain cells.. just like my other lecturer.. haha.. (i know, you know, we all know)

After school, went to meet up with my schoolmates.. and as usual, chilling again.. whahaaa.. and hor, really immune to beer liao le.. 2 pints and still alright leh... lol.. immune is not good wor.. haha.. coz of financial concern.

And so.. i present.. my vodka~

lol.. very cool bottle hor? I mean the bottle la..

But i didn't like vodka anyway.. hahaha..i just like the bottle wor.. but 1 litre of vodka leh.. i think if i drink finish, i'll drop 1 litre of tears.

Anyway, was without sleep for 30 over hours yesterday.. waahhaa.. almost half of the requirement of the Subaru Impreza Challenge.... just kidding la.. i'm not training for it.. and going without sleep for 70 over hours is just too much wor..

I think really must study hard le.. i want to have the choice to work where i want.. so, just another 6 months or so, and i shall, and i will (hopefully) get what i want.

Another Post..

LOL.. i think i too free le la.. hahaha.. actually no.. coz too lazy to upload pics, then upload liao got a lot of pics to post.. haha..

Pakki (my sis insist to call him parky.. and my dad everytime pronouced wrongly as "paggi".. -_-) is now 11 months old le.. and hor.. he is really really very naughty lor.. Nowadays, he likes to jump up to the sofa and sleep.. and not only that, he likes to dig on the spot where they intend to sleep.. so now, i guess my sofa is almost gone le. That dog hor.. very funny lor.. know how to jump up, but don't know how to jump down.. lol.. and when we ignored him, then he bark non-stop.. lol.. and not only that, he likes to sleep on my bed too.. zzz..

Think he is trying to assert his position as the alpha male.. so must 平起平坐 with us.. haha.. too bad la, his size too small, can't win de lor. After the age of 1, he will tone down and 认命 le. No la.. actually he is trying to test whether we are able to lead him or not.. if not, he'll lead.. (all i read from book one..)


very cute hor? Haha.. 人见人爱,车见车载!

A Fine Day

The weather finally cleared!

Fine weather today, and hence could find some place to go without carrying an umbrella.. becoz, 最美的不是下雨天.. whahaa.. i have nothing against rainy days, just that, it isn't as nice as in the past.

So today, went north to yishun to get some sand for my c.rugosus.. and hor, one uncle tried to "recommend" me another place to buy the sand.. wahahaa.. poaching? Anyway, i still got it from there.. $5 for almost 5kgs of sand.. lol.. and i saw some shells too.. so might as well get them too. Saw those individual de, and uncle sell at $2 each wor.. hmm.. a bit ex.. and then i saw those packet de.. also $2.. but for 1 packet! Hahaa.. sad to say, only 2/6 of them are suitable for the ruggies.. or maybe not? Hahaha.. if not, then i place order online liao.. lol.. ship all the way from USA!


Natural shells and natural sand.. whahahaa... i don't like coloured shell and coloured sands.. so didn't get from H*H*.. haha...

Still some more work to be done wor... got to boil the shells to kill any bacteria and also, got to wash the sand and bake them also.. hao mang ar.. After i've finished, maybe i will change the layout of the tank.

Currently, it look like this....


LOL.. and now i realised my tank is "too small" le.. yupz.. till i boil the shell and bake the sand, then see if the blue coloured shell comes off ba.. haha..

I am, What I am.

Full was i, and happy i was.

I said it moves in tandem, and it did.

Band today, and it was my latest... i actually was so tired that i overtook the afternoon nap.. haha. It was, partly becoz of friday's lecture. FR was ok, though lecturer chute power.. whaha.. coz we showed that we didn't really revised. However, the killer came from IM.. i now know why i was so tired every friday.. whaha.. not becoz of 2 lectures back to back.. but really, it was becoz me trying to understand what my IM lecturer is trying to teach.. lol.. sad to say, i did burn a lot of brain cells just to try to understand.

Other than that, i was being indulgent - in everything else. Wilful i was, yet to a lesser degree.. for i would most likely to forgo band practice. Yet.. i was glad i didn't give up. Was so much delighted. Was so happy... lol.. i also didn't know why.. perhaps i was being what i was.. i recognised myself, and i be myself. Of coz after 24 years, i already knew much of me.. lol.. and in the aspect of band, i know nerve was never a forte. LOL.. as usual, think too much and then was trying too hard to fine tune.. haha.. that was me. Perhaps, i was reminded of how ignorant i was in my sec school days.. haha.. especially when they played "dance of yao".. awww... i was reminded of so much.

Had an haircut, DIY-ed.. whahahaa.. pro hor? LOL.. and no, i wasn't being called for reservice.. and yes, i've gained weight.. that was what i was trying for the past 2 weeks.

Oh ya.. today saw so many friends..lol.. at Boonlay, saw miss xx wor.. whahahaa... so qiao right? Then saw the rest from the band.. in the train, saw bernard also.. wah.. haha... qiao right?

Today was one of my friend's bday.. lol.. nov is always "dangerous".. whaha.. so many of them having bday wor.. lol.. so as usual, was at dbl wor.. and as usual, tah lor.. strange was, after so long, it hasn't dropped. Yet today, met someone really very irritating.. ya.. some people are just soooooooooo "imm zim".. i really don't understand leh... dopod so what? and was so irritated when people tried to say, "mine is dopod leh.. what phone you use?" zzz.. eh.. got money to buy, no money to repair ar? LOL.. mei you du liang. Anyway, i was reminded of one shewish woman.. whahaa.. sometimes, they like to eat 99 lor.. siao.. and when it was them who is at fault.. zzz.. siao. I just don't understand lor. Let and let be.. so poor then don't take dopod la! Nokia not nice meh? Ericsson cmi meh? Hao lian shem me? $1300 very big hor? Can just buy some people's character. LOL.. ok la.. $1300 still a lot.. lol.. that bugger that buang my car wanted to go court over $100.. whahahaaaa... damn stupid.. and sometimes, i wondered, what is that for. With reference to a similar case reported on the ST a month ago, another bugger went court over a sum of few hundered dollars.. in the end, it cost 12k for legal fees.... what are they thinking? Right or not, it doesn't have to go to that extend lor. I admit, i will give in.. for i would not want to downgrade myself to their level.. i would never. I am what i am. I would rather be stupid than to be "imm zim". No wonder.. hah.. no wonder there is no equality. There are people out there, wanting equality and also comparitive advantage.. ha.. i really have nothing to say.. just that, don't come out and harm me can le. Leave me alone hor..

I am being bias.. most are. Hah.. so much that if you charge them 10 cents more, they will go court case with you.. need to xiang bu kai meh? This world so "evil" ar? So much that no one can make mistake? Sigh.. sadly, there are such.. and as i've said, if so, then don't hao lian la. Ha.. i've be using my hp for more than 2 years, and i now carry a less than $50 fm tuner instead of an ipod... lol.. i am poor leh, so i carry lousy things. It was my mistake to drive my sis's car.. whahaha.. and hor, that bugger that was that one who crashed into my car, was actaully driving an SUV.. hah.. don't have such a big head hor, then don't wear such a big hat la.. if driving a big car caused you not to see your side mirrors, then for heaven's sake!, ride a bike la... you know, er ren xian gao zhuang one lor.. and if you cannot hold you dopod or whatever pod in your had properly, for god sake, put in your pocket la!.. don't .. really don't come out and harm people lor.. LOL.

Zzz.. so much happy i was initially.. althought the recent matter doesn't concern me, i just felt it was unreasonable lor.. of coz, there are much more people as such out there.. believe me.. maybe you are one of them. Anyway, anything, whatever, just don't come find me can le.. don't show how much you are really worth to me.. be it $1300 or $100.. i don't care. Afterall, life should be priceless.. just as the mastercard ad.

Anyway, i've said, i move in tandem.. with much.. hahaa.. be it good or bad, happy or sad. Strangely, i was ok leh.. hahaha.. wow.. maybe just for now, maybe for more.. i just isn't what i used to be.

Was home at 4.30am.. and went to da bao ba chor mee.. whahaa.. very hungry leh.. how to gain weight like that? 12 hours without food wor.. LOL.. so happy to have a 24 hour ba chor mee store outside.. wahaha.. i just love it! Was so full and so satisfied.. and then it was sunday again! Wah.. haha.. time just pass like that leh.. already almost 2 years lo.. and my extension for the final year is almost halfway.. wahahaha.. i'm couldn't be much happier!

On the train back, i've learnt quite a lot from my band colleagues.. even those that are younger than me.. yupz.. they had such drive.. for every moment in their life, nothing was wasted.. yet, it all depend on the wants in one's life. Nothing is unreacheable.. just how badly you want it. Of coz, i wouldn't want people to compensate me just becoz my phone was knocked off by others. All in all, i am with such little ambition that i currently isn't moving much.. but who knows? Someday, perhaps one day, perhaps never, i might just move so much.. haha.. but who knows? I a, just glad that i am what i am, for all flaws, for all praises, i am, what i am.

Of coz, i recognised this is much of the rollarcoaster ride wor.. and to be certain that i wouldn't lament more than i should, i will ride it up, and never doubt myself.. that is, for now.

Reconcilement

Almost the end of october.. 8 more months till the final papers. Sad to say, i've skipped my 1st lesson of this sem.. not surprisingly, its IM. I also don't know.. seems to be in a daze these days.. perhaps of 2 consecutive nights "bad dreams". (no.. they are not considered nightmares.. just bad dreams)

Too much mystery these days.. and it doesn't even concern me.. haha..

Other than school work, also trying to make "some changes".. should be about a month or so le.. but still can't see much difference.. whahaha.. maybe not trying hard enough.. maybe i lag too much already.

Felt something strange these days.. perhaps the result of much inquisition.. and got a recoil of some sort.. and then it triggers so many things off.. i think i lost it somehow. The silencing, some excess realisation, and then it was that. Well.. at least its better already.. lol..

Was into "facebook" these days.. lol.. a bit lag also hor? Haha.. too lazy to set up account le.. anyway, was much into horoscopes and tarrots.. lol.. and sometimes, they are just so right.. makes me feel that at least someone, or something understands.. lol... but in reality, they just anyhow humtum in an ambiguous way.. just so that its more palatable. Somehow, seeing an exact word that can best describe.. i think i'm willing to be reconciled.. at least for now.

Sian

Saturday morning, and i'm already awake at 6am.

2 consecutive nights of similar dreams plus another source is enough to trigger..

And omission alone wasn't enough, it was once again shattered.. seriously, i didn't want to have anything to do with.. i know i will anyhow pick up anything.. but sigh.. this is not something i want to pick. Argh....... perhaps its a nightmare come true? I shouldn't have anything to do with.. i know.. but sometimes it isn't easy.

Wondering what purpose.. sigh. Hope it'll be over soon.

My Coenobita Rugosus (Ruggie)

Till now, they don't have a name.. haha.. and also, their gender is unknown.. lol.. so i also don't know what name to give them.. anyway, is it really important? They won't respond to their name lor.. haha..

The species of hermit crabs i have are Coenobita rugosus, also know as ruggie for short. They are land hermit.. meaning, they can drown in water.. lol.. heard of crabs drowning in water? And btw, you can't cook them for pepper crab la..

So here are the ruggies living in my tank:



The "original ha ha crab" .. haha.. also the 1st hermit that got here. (My birthday present from SNCO) The biggest of my tank and the one with all his limps intact.. plus he carries a painted shell and also.. cost the most.. (although i didn't pay for it la.. ^^v) Likes to climb the fake coconut tree now and then and IMO, seems to be suicidal after the death of his companion..



One of the two hermit i got from serangoon north (PM) for $8 each.. uses a natural shell (unpainted)and often hiding in the hut.. i didn't get to see him moving much.



The other hermit that i got from PM.. the smallest of the lot and seemingly the weakest.. i think if the water dish is too deep, he might just drown lor..



My tank setup. Consist of: 1 freshwater dish, 1 salt water dish, 1 shell food dish, 1 coconut hut, 1 hygrometer, extra shells, coral sands and of coz, the ruggies themselves.

For the Crab that Crossed the Rainbow Bridge

Just yesterday, one of the hermit changed its shell.. lol.. was quite surprised to see it, and it changed to a much "nicer" shell IMO.. haha.. sadly, it was a painted shell.. hmm.. i'm still against the idea of using painted shells coz the QC was rather bad.. there are paints coming off here and there lor.

The hermits are doing quite well.. although want to make sure that the habitat is suitable for them before doing much more.. lol.. and i don't know.. there is so much from PPS that they might just die like that.. already, 2 of the smaller ones had lost one of their legs at the pet store le.. so i got myself 2 paikah crabs.. but no worries.. if they pull through their 1st molting, they will have new legs le! That is, hopefully they can la.. its just so stressful for them that it might kill them.. lol.. never knew they get stressed up easily wor.. haha.

So yesterday was again at boonlay for band pract. Been away from band for a month and away from practicing the horn for as long. As usual, the initial burst of energy was quite strong.. lol.. so i played quite a few tunes at the basement there.. lol.. i like the echo sound there.. very nice.. and for once, i can reach the high Bb quite comfortably.. lol.. no lemonades this time.

Guess i played too much le.. and i got tired playing during the actual pract. Shocking was, the tone was quite weird.. i guess its becoz of the instrumentation ba.. the lowest brass was me and then only support by a double bass. Tuning was quite horrible too.. i don't know why.. just can't see to find a focus point.. nowhere to listen to.

And so many of them asked me how the crabs are doing.. aiyo.. i so paiseh lor.. tell them already one went up the lorry le.. zz. For the remaining 1 plus the other 2, i will try to do whatever i can lo... so.. only time will tell.

生日快乐~!

十月十八我生日这一天.. Yay~ and i'm another year older le.

Age seems to be "catching up" le.. haha.. and i'm still schooling.. a bit overage liao lo. LOL.. thankfully, i'll be graduating in the coming year, and ready to gain full financial independence. (meaning i can buy more expensive items such as cars and such.. lol.. and of coz, pay for my own insurance.. and other misc bills)

I can't deny, there is still much of a child in me.. haha.. i played a lot, and also seems to be condoning myself.. haha.. yet, quite a bit have changed. Of which, certain things that i indulged myself in, but without much justification. Slowly, these instances are becoming rare.. haha.. of coz, it took 24 years in the making wor.

Birthday was without much elaborated celebrations, but was really glad from all the well wishes.. awww.. so nice of you all.. xie xie ni men~ =) Amid, a tinge of warmth in those wishes, just nice for the ominous weather these days.

LOL.. and i had my "instant longevity noodles" just last night.. which was really cup noodles only.. haha.. of coz, year in year out, it was celebration in the village, or at least a sumptuous dinner with the villagers. This year, i prefer something simpler.. just a fare is already a lot.. lol.. can even save on the cake. No, i'm not trying to be pitiful here.. haha.. i'm actually quite happy this year.. just wanting to maybe quiet things down a bit lo.. really, its the mood that counts, not the mode.

I guess, feeling different is the signs of aging ba.. haha..

And so, i've compiled a list of other signs of aging.. IMO that is:

1) you drink kopi instead of kum zuwee (soft drinks)
2) you eat at kopitiam instead of mac (eat until sian le)
3) you watch 早安, 您 好! (or 黄金年华 if you are older.. hahaa..) instead of kids central
4) you play less computer games (relatively)
5) you stop having elaborated birthday parties (every year also almost the same leh.. haha..)
6) your number of presents decreases, but the value of each present increases (i prefer quality over quantity)
7) your hobbies get sophiscated (keeping hermits, stock watch etc..lol)
8) your spending increases
9) your number of pets decreases (up the lorry lo~)
10) your beer belly (if any) gets bigger....

Haha.. just kidding la.. but some of them are quite true though.. lol..

Argh.. so tomorrow is supposed to be a PH (my version of the calander).. but got to go school for lessons.. lol.. and worst still, IM tutorial leh.. hahaa.. i think i better get ready "other things" to do, if not, i'd be wasting time day-dreaming.

so.. 生日快乐, 我对自己说 ^^ hopefully another great year ahead!

New Hub

LOL.. been wanting to blog about this, but been forgetting.

A week ago, there is some news regarding the area near my home on the 2nd page of the ST.. and seriously, it wasn't any good news.. Ya.. see liao got quite BS also.. and maybe some already know.. and it was something that was to be sited near my home.

When people get new giant sized shoping mall hubs, guess what kind of hub we are being labelled? Up the lorry hub lor.. without trains. LOL.. sad leh.. when people are saying all these things about your "hometown".. of coz, there are a lot of other residents complaining.. (not protesting..).. it will affect housing price and also.. if let you live near the "dong dong chiang" place, you want meh?

I actually let this issue pass le.. until today when i took cab home.. lol.. the uncle kept bugging me with the topic.. lol.. spare me la.. haha.. mr brown also say, cabby also say, even my friend also say.. lol.

The NIMBY approach.. lol.. i rather bus stop or train station below my block.. lol.. i don't mind the sound.. hahaa.. i could use some train too.. lol.. and surprisingly, there isnt such line near my place... maybe one coming.. but the other side don't have.

These are just my opinion.. as such, it didn't really affect me much.. its quite interesting that such an ulu place made to the news these days.. lol. and its quite funny to see them on news.. so far yet so near.. lol.. just NIMBY will do.

All about Hermits (Hermit Crabs)

So that was it.. the crab really "up the lorry" liao.

After a few days of "intensive research", it isn't as easy as it seems after all.. which new "pets" comes new responsibility.. lol... and new spendings too.

Today went PM to get the stuffs.. lol.. knew of this place through some forums.. haha.. and i was quite surprised at the number of items they offered.. so many of which i have no knowledge on.. especially in the area of aquariumics (dont have this word).. lol.

Fortunately, the items didn't cost as much as i thought it would be.. my funds are tied down.. so didn't have much to spend too.. lol.. i got everything i needed, almost everything, plus companions for the painted shell crab.

With regards to painted shell, i seriously object the use of them.. it just seems so unnatural.. even more so when the shell is painted a happy face, and inside is a dead crab.. what the crap.. but the real issue is, it is not natural at all.. they are not clowns leh. As a result, i'm now doing shell hunting.. haha.. nope.. not collecting.. coz i know there isn't much to be found here.. maybe msia got..

Found a website selling shells online.. lol.. in USD somemore.. with the exchange rate in favour of SGD, i'm so tempted to place an order lor.. lol.. maybe wait and see how.. see if i can find any selling in sg. Checked PM's stock, the have small ones for the baby hermit.. for the larger ones, need to really find le..

Another issue is the drinking water for them.. they need BOTH sea and fresh water.. sea water does not equal to water + salt, neither do fresh water equal to tap water.. both required some processing.

Next is the sand.. i didn't know they have grades for them too.. (i never keep fish as pets before).. it refers to the grain size, and it affects the molting process of the crabs.

Then there is the humidity problem.. must mist them now and then, if not their gills will be too dry and they'll die.. ya.. they can't swim and can drown in water.. and they suffocate on land if humidity isn't there..

Food, is the simpliest.. they eat almost anything.. maybe whatever also.. haha. so far, no issue on that.

Right now, i'm just lacking the shells for them to change to.. coz good shells are hard to come by.. lol.. i had a lot when i was a kid.. collected them from msia and kept them for quite some time.. then threw them away as it was of no use anymore (during that time).. now, realised its importance.. but was too late. LOL.. but there is no reason to keep them just hoping that they will be use one day ma.. haha.. such a waste of space lor.

Anyway.. if no choice, then order online lor.. they cost $1 per piece, excluding shipping.

Ya.. still, this "new" hobby really opens up my mind.. lol.. at least when i go interview, i can say i keep hermit crabs as hobby.. lol.. (of coz, the others that i can't say are mj and crubbing.. lol)

So that is all about hermits for now.. will post pictures if they survive.. meanwhile, i'm still seaching for seashells (for sale).. tag me if please if you see one.. oh ya.. i finally know the price le for the crab le.. seriously, i'm very shocked... ya.. very.. i think the intention is there le .. so i will do whatever i can.

Thank You SNCO~

Thank you all.. see, the title also thank SNCO.. so if anyone free enough to search.. they might find.. haha..

Yupz, thanks to my band colleagues for the present they got for me.. haha.. haha.. hahaha.. ya.. it was "haha crabs".. lol. Seriously, they are just hermit crabs.. those small small ones..

LOL.. and i think i can really set up a pet shop soon.. lol.. so now, there are 9 members in the village le.. of which 4 of them belonged to me.. haha.. 4.. maybe 3.. sorry to say but, just now when i took a look at the hermit, one of them seems to be dead.. well, so i did a search and found that the hermit might be molting.. maybe only.. i give it a 20% chance of survival.. of coz, they can live up to 15 years.. but after the search, it seems that they die quite easily.. due to stress, crabitat and other reasons.. hmm.. i'm just quite noob in their crabitat.. so it might take some time for me to really know how.. i hoped they (or it) can last till then.

Of coz, i hoped it is just molting.. and the only way to tell is by smell.. (?).. if not, the thought of a pet dying is quite devestating lor (especially when it didn't have any name yet).. i mean, its just so different.. ya.. different to pest.

So after thanking, i'm quite sorry that the hermit might not make it le... maybe 2 more days and i'll get a confirmed answer.. but till then, i'll leave it where it is.

Still, a very big thank you.. ^^

最冷的是下雨天

Today's FR lecture was so enjoyable! LOL.. the lecturer was telling us so much stories and jokes that i counldn't stop laughing.. haha.. really very funny.. lol.. of coz, i also paid attention to lesson.

Then IM was so much of a contrast.. room was so cold.. maybe coz of the rain ba.. haha.. but really very cold 最美的不是下雨天。。最冷的是下雨天。。anyway, couldn't pay much attention in lecture.. lol.. maybe coz it was the 2nd part of a 6-hour lesson.. lol..

Saturday is a PH.. yay~ and the village plus the whole chocolate factory is going on a trip.. except me and schnauzer pakki.. haha.. so.. 明天就和它相依为命了..

Oh ya.. something i did was finally showing some results.. lol.. yalor.. only 2 weeks, but 2 weeks is quite and achievement wor.. maybe coz i really wanted.

Nowsadays.. really nothing to blog about.. hahaa.. "nothing" wor.. totally nothing.. so anyhow blog nonsense.

Seriously, this is so controversial.. haha.. but as much as i want to write, i think all is much of a facade.. not all, or all not. Ask me what's the use, i seriously don't know.

Anysways, nothing much to see also.. hahhaa.. i'm so tired to complain anymore.. haha..

Medical Review

After 11 months, i'm back to TTSH for the review of my arthritis again.

Some changes to the surroundings, and also the staff and equipment... plus, a new building just outside the MRT station.. lol.. it was still under construction the other time wor.

Don't know why, the hospital seems to be quite busy, with a lot of people.. and most of them are in wheelchairs. The department i went to was as crowded as well.. seems like more and more patients le.. but still, i'm one of the youngest around.. hahaha... how sad.

So today, the specialist told me something new after soooo many years.. that, it could affect my eyes.. wah.. i knew it could run to various places, but the eyes also? Hmm.. really don't know what to say.. lol..

Anyway, nothing much, just to update my doctor about my condition.. it had more or less been like that since the 2nd year.. so i don't expect much changes.. Well, i could be discharged after the next appointment, which is a year from now.. it all depends on the condition ba.

Might as well.. nothing much to be done le.

What Werkz?

Brewerkz.

Was at brewerks for chilling and dinning today.. and it was great food and nice brew all the way.

Though it was nothing much of fine dinning, the food and drinks are really nice.. and i think it won't be my last time there.

Was actually there for a little oktoberfest celebration.. plus my own october celebration.. hahaa.. seems like i've declared the whole of october as an excuse to indulge myself in good food and beer.

In fact, oktoberfest is already over la.. hahaha.. i just need an excuse.

Thought i could indulge very much, but in the end, i proved to be more rational that i think i am... haha.. i think really must enjoy the housebrew.. Wow.. and then i'm not done with the praises.. their services are just too good.. lol..

And same with starhub... totally very satisfied with the after service.. coz today i called customer service troubleshoot the scv box, and there are just so much they can do for their customers.. (although what they really did was to replace the box..).. but they offered to send someone over to replace it.. wahhh.. totally impressed.. and it works! But tomorrow might be going down to change it anyways, haha.. coz i didn't want to wait.. LOL..

And i can't say the same for my mp3 player.. totally nothing.. and nothing that lasts.. pui~ Hahahaa.. That didn't work.

So since yesterday, i've been a bit 呆呆的.. don't know why, just want to 放空.. just wondering why about a lot, a lot which i had no control over.. and then i know there is nothing anymore, and so 就呆呆的..

Well being 呆 also works.. and it works better than 胡思乱想.. hahaha.. my recovery rate is so fast these days.. just can shake away a lot of things.. lol..

Of coz, there are things that just keeps coming.. especially the arthritic pain.. lol.. don't know if it's because of the weather.. lol.. if so, when i graduate, i can go work as a Meteorologist le.. haha.. that who can only forecast rainy days.

Somehow, the rain make things seems gloomy leh.. haha.. don't know why.. lol.. but then after the good food and beer, i think i'm happy somehow.. lol.. at least there are still great things in this world.

Of coz, great things and great people too.. lol.. also great pets.. hahaa.... sometimes i just don't know what to say.. but this pakki really did a lot for this family le.. i'm so thankful that we didn't give him up.

Nothing Much

Just thought that i can be quite dumb at times.. and i don't even know how to start.

Anyway, nothing much.. just not feeling really good.. lol.. and i think i jinxed all the electrical appliances in my house le.. the newest addition, my new scv set top box... lol.. so in total, this year i've already caused the aircon, pc, oven, fridge and the scv box to be sent away.. haha.. whats next?

Of coz, things that can be solved with money (provided that i have them) isn't really worth brooding over.. other than the scv box, the rest are all old appliances that are due for replacement.. just that i'm suay enough to last touch it.. haha. So it was nothing much.

Ya.. nothing much left for me to jinx.

What a Surprise~!

Had an early bday celebrations this year, thanks to the dear warlords. ^^

Though it was really a very mini one, i really appreciate it.. and, it was a surprise.. for once, it wasn't anticipated.. and hence was really touched and happy.. haha.. thank you all once again. =)

Then was off to MOS coz of "provision for crubbing" already set aside.. but was very undecided.. haha.. coz i was actually quite tired already after a full day of lesson. Went in the end coz perhaps i was anticipating crubbing for that outing..

Went ahead and was actually joining my friend's friend, and they are opening bottle.. so complimentary entry (or was it paid for i also not sure).. so i ended up paying nothing. Was quite paiseh lor.. haha.. but it was the least expensive crubbing i've ever went.

And the verdict was, i don't think i like going crubbing there coz the main floor crowd was much older than i was.. so was rather out. Also i didn't like the service (if any).. i mean, people really paid a lot.. and i mean really a lot IMO.. and so felt like being shorted.. not a very good impression. LOL.. and i've also learnt something.. i can't really pour mixer well.. lol.. so i excuse pouring next time.. lol.

So this afternoon's lesson, i was a bit late.. ended up had to sit at the last few rows... haha.. and i saw one of the kuulas there.. lol.. so qiao right? And in the end, we all needed binoculars to see what was written on the white board.. lol.. and the person beside me (who isn't my friend) kept asking what was written.. lol.. i said i also couldn't see.. but that person kept asking.. very fan leh. Next time i should sit at the "1st class" sector le.. hahaa.. coz i don't think the LT is suitable for using whiteboards la.. their handwritting is just not big enough.

Late noon lesson was much more boring.. full of tutorial presentations.. and wasn't really that productive lor.. so was quite tired trying to guess what the lecturer is trying to teach us really..

Was very tired today.. really very tired.. no wonder i counldn't think well.

(names are omitted to protect their identity, and also to reduce the number of complains)

What Drives You?

Trying to find some tinder somewhere and i've discovered, conventional ones won't work. No wonder.

Tired yet insomnious.. perhaps the result of the coffee again.. perhaps other things. I don't know, but it was pulled somehow.. perhaps i don't know anything at all.. i never said i knew anyway. Of coz, it moves in tandem, perhaps of a lesser correlation. I don't need any reason as there isn't any.

These few days, nothing much have changed, only that the portfolio is finally in green.. transaction included. However, there is concern that fed might not lower their rates in the coming adjustment and hence there might be a "correction" soon, if not tomorrow.

Nonetheless, completed some tasks i've set.. and slowly but surely.

Surely, i need to watch "1 litre of tears" again.. or perhaps be reminded. No.. i don't mean washing eyeballs with tears, i can wash it with water well enough. I just felt that it was a very inspiring story.. ask what her misson was, and perhaps she never knew it while alive. How much had her story had inspired? I think there are many.

Pakki is approaching 10 months old.. lol.. and he is as cute as ever, perhaps naughtier. That day he was sleeping in my room while i'm doing some revision.. so i slept late. 6am, and i got a unpleasent morning call from pakki.. haha.. he had woken up and wanted to play.. so he put his face where my face was, and i tio stunned.. whahah.. i never set alarm leh. But i think dogs are just like kids.. their feelings are so real, so devoid of deceit. LOL.. of coz, they never study politics anyway. Heard that my cousin's dog, Coffee is back~! (Pakki is Coffee's cousin.. Tea is not) Hahaa.. finally all is well. I truly understand.. and those who say feelings can be diversified, i think they can go and be investment managers.

The "Lord of the Rings" is heavy at times, that which consumes when abused.. and letting go is not an easy task.. even setting foot out of the Shire is difficult.. but it can be done when it was decided to be done.. ya.. frodo did it. To those who understands.

(Pardon me for the lack of cohesion and mistakes.. lol.. i'm watching champions league while blogging.. haha...)

Denial

First of all, an addition to my extended family.. and i've received an ungrade le.. really become uncle liao.. haha.. yupz.. my cousin have just given birth last month.. and congrats to them~ ^^

Nowsadays, the bull like very fierce wor.. hahaa.. NASDAQ keeps climbing, as with STI.. and there is so much record high over the week.. Oil, Gold and other metals.. only the USD is low. Too bad.. i pay fees using pounds.. not dollars.

Kind of irritated by my notes on IM.. like that how to score lei? I don't understand.. is this a sign to start reading elsewhere?

Been denial over a lot.. a lot a lot.. and a lot more... and i'm more confused than ever. Lots of excuses perhaps, just to cover that.. that which i knew. So i wonder how long can i keep denying.

Anyway, just finished some revision on IM, so de-stress a bit.. hahaa.. 1st chapter only and i'm already moving in such a paranoid state.. but it works nonetheless.

Sometimes i just feel so motivated, only to fall back after a while.. haha.. and so as they say, starting is difficult... carrying on is more difficult. I agree lor.. so i guess by the end of october, i'll be slacking away.

The month of october wor.. time to rejoice.. hahaaa.. nope, i don't mean the national day holiday or such.. but october is always special to me.

Even as i continue my studies, peer pressure is building.. haha.. not that they come and pressure me la.. but seeing them moving on to the working life, i felt so much oblige do so myself.. i guess i'm just being denial.

And of where shall i base my direction on? It will be inevitable to answer the 10-year series question the next year.. and right now, i still have no idea where i should be heading. Sure there is a general direction.. but is it really where i want to go?.. which i will be heading for perhaps the rest of my life? Perhaps i'm just being aimless here.. perhaps it was easier for others to find it.. maybe they are no different from me.. but this is some major decision to be made when it comes.. and i wouldn't want to go elsewhere only to realise what i wanted was only right in front.. So, is it only the destination and not the route taken? the outcome and not the process? And so.. as my age increase, the number of paths too.. sometimes having too much of a choice is not very tempting leh.. haha.. i'm just being denial.