Denial

First of all, an addition to my extended family.. and i've received an ungrade le.. really become uncle liao.. haha.. yupz.. my cousin have just given birth last month.. and congrats to them~ ^^

Nowsadays, the bull like very fierce wor.. hahaa.. NASDAQ keeps climbing, as with STI.. and there is so much record high over the week.. Oil, Gold and other metals.. only the USD is low. Too bad.. i pay fees using pounds.. not dollars.

Kind of irritated by my notes on IM.. like that how to score lei? I don't understand.. is this a sign to start reading elsewhere?

Been denial over a lot.. a lot a lot.. and a lot more... and i'm more confused than ever. Lots of excuses perhaps, just to cover that.. that which i knew. So i wonder how long can i keep denying.

Anyway, just finished some revision on IM, so de-stress a bit.. hahaa.. 1st chapter only and i'm already moving in such a paranoid state.. but it works nonetheless.

Sometimes i just feel so motivated, only to fall back after a while.. haha.. and so as they say, starting is difficult... carrying on is more difficult. I agree lor.. so i guess by the end of october, i'll be slacking away.

The month of october wor.. time to rejoice.. hahaaa.. nope, i don't mean the national day holiday or such.. but october is always special to me.

Even as i continue my studies, peer pressure is building.. haha.. not that they come and pressure me la.. but seeing them moving on to the working life, i felt so much oblige do so myself.. i guess i'm just being denial.

And of where shall i base my direction on? It will be inevitable to answer the 10-year series question the next year.. and right now, i still have no idea where i should be heading. Sure there is a general direction.. but is it really where i want to go?.. which i will be heading for perhaps the rest of my life? Perhaps i'm just being aimless here.. perhaps it was easier for others to find it.. maybe they are no different from me.. but this is some major decision to be made when it comes.. and i wouldn't want to go elsewhere only to realise what i wanted was only right in front.. So, is it only the destination and not the route taken? the outcome and not the process? And so.. as my age increase, the number of paths too.. sometimes having too much of a choice is not very tempting leh.. haha.. i'm just being denial.