I am, What I am.

Full was i, and happy i was.

I said it moves in tandem, and it did.

Band today, and it was my latest... i actually was so tired that i overtook the afternoon nap.. haha. It was, partly becoz of friday's lecture. FR was ok, though lecturer chute power.. whaha.. coz we showed that we didn't really revised. However, the killer came from IM.. i now know why i was so tired every friday.. whaha.. not becoz of 2 lectures back to back.. but really, it was becoz me trying to understand what my IM lecturer is trying to teach.. lol.. sad to say, i did burn a lot of brain cells just to try to understand.

Other than that, i was being indulgent - in everything else. Wilful i was, yet to a lesser degree.. for i would most likely to forgo band practice. Yet.. i was glad i didn't give up. Was so much delighted. Was so happy... lol.. i also didn't know why.. perhaps i was being what i was.. i recognised myself, and i be myself. Of coz after 24 years, i already knew much of me.. lol.. and in the aspect of band, i know nerve was never a forte. LOL.. as usual, think too much and then was trying too hard to fine tune.. haha.. that was me. Perhaps, i was reminded of how ignorant i was in my sec school days.. haha.. especially when they played "dance of yao".. awww... i was reminded of so much.

Had an haircut, DIY-ed.. whahahaa.. pro hor? LOL.. and no, i wasn't being called for reservice.. and yes, i've gained weight.. that was what i was trying for the past 2 weeks.

Oh ya.. today saw so many friends..lol.. at Boonlay, saw miss xx wor.. whahahaa... so qiao right? Then saw the rest from the band.. in the train, saw bernard also.. wah.. haha... qiao right?

Today was one of my friend's bday.. lol.. nov is always "dangerous".. whaha.. so many of them having bday wor.. lol.. so as usual, was at dbl wor.. and as usual, tah lor.. strange was, after so long, it hasn't dropped. Yet today, met someone really very irritating.. ya.. some people are just soooooooooo "imm zim".. i really don't understand leh... dopod so what? and was so irritated when people tried to say, "mine is dopod leh.. what phone you use?" zzz.. eh.. got money to buy, no money to repair ar? LOL.. mei you du liang. Anyway, i was reminded of one shewish woman.. whahaa.. sometimes, they like to eat 99 lor.. siao.. and when it was them who is at fault.. zzz.. siao. I just don't understand lor. Let and let be.. so poor then don't take dopod la! Nokia not nice meh? Ericsson cmi meh? Hao lian shem me? $1300 very big hor? Can just buy some people's character. LOL.. ok la.. $1300 still a lot.. lol.. that bugger that buang my car wanted to go court over $100.. whahahaaaa... damn stupid.. and sometimes, i wondered, what is that for. With reference to a similar case reported on the ST a month ago, another bugger went court over a sum of few hundered dollars.. in the end, it cost 12k for legal fees.... what are they thinking? Right or not, it doesn't have to go to that extend lor. I admit, i will give in.. for i would not want to downgrade myself to their level.. i would never. I am what i am. I would rather be stupid than to be "imm zim". No wonder.. hah.. no wonder there is no equality. There are people out there, wanting equality and also comparitive advantage.. ha.. i really have nothing to say.. just that, don't come out and harm me can le. Leave me alone hor..

I am being bias.. most are. Hah.. so much that if you charge them 10 cents more, they will go court case with you.. need to xiang bu kai meh? This world so "evil" ar? So much that no one can make mistake? Sigh.. sadly, there are such.. and as i've said, if so, then don't hao lian la. Ha.. i've be using my hp for more than 2 years, and i now carry a less than $50 fm tuner instead of an ipod... lol.. i am poor leh, so i carry lousy things. It was my mistake to drive my sis's car.. whahaha.. and hor, that bugger that was that one who crashed into my car, was actaully driving an SUV.. hah.. don't have such a big head hor, then don't wear such a big hat la.. if driving a big car caused you not to see your side mirrors, then for heaven's sake!, ride a bike la... you know, er ren xian gao zhuang one lor.. and if you cannot hold you dopod or whatever pod in your had properly, for god sake, put in your pocket la!.. don't .. really don't come out and harm people lor.. LOL.

Zzz.. so much happy i was initially.. althought the recent matter doesn't concern me, i just felt it was unreasonable lor.. of coz, there are much more people as such out there.. believe me.. maybe you are one of them. Anyway, anything, whatever, just don't come find me can le.. don't show how much you are really worth to me.. be it $1300 or $100.. i don't care. Afterall, life should be priceless.. just as the mastercard ad.

Anyway, i've said, i move in tandem.. with much.. hahaa.. be it good or bad, happy or sad. Strangely, i was ok leh.. hahaha.. wow.. maybe just for now, maybe for more.. i just isn't what i used to be.

Was home at 4.30am.. and went to da bao ba chor mee.. whahaa.. very hungry leh.. how to gain weight like that? 12 hours without food wor.. LOL.. so happy to have a 24 hour ba chor mee store outside.. wahaha.. i just love it! Was so full and so satisfied.. and then it was sunday again! Wah.. haha.. time just pass like that leh.. already almost 2 years lo.. and my extension for the final year is almost halfway.. wahahaha.. i'm couldn't be much happier!

On the train back, i've learnt quite a lot from my band colleagues.. even those that are younger than me.. yupz.. they had such drive.. for every moment in their life, nothing was wasted.. yet, it all depend on the wants in one's life. Nothing is unreacheable.. just how badly you want it. Of coz, i wouldn't want people to compensate me just becoz my phone was knocked off by others. All in all, i am with such little ambition that i currently isn't moving much.. but who knows? Someday, perhaps one day, perhaps never, i might just move so much.. haha.. but who knows? I a, just glad that i am what i am, for all flaws, for all praises, i am, what i am.

Of coz, i recognised this is much of the rollarcoaster ride wor.. and to be certain that i wouldn't lament more than i should, i will ride it up, and never doubt myself.. that is, for now.