CMI

CF was getting from bad to worse. I really really don't like the new lecturer leh.. really, the lecturer plays a very big part. Now i can't really focus that well. Argh.. i don't want to score low low leh.. how ar.. can anyone teach me?

Wasted 3 hours plus today coz i don't really pay attention in class.. wondered why i attended it in the 1st place. But after the break, decided to do my own reading instead.. whaha.. if not really very wasted le. But i'm really glad with myself.. with another half a semester to go, i've only skipped 3 classes.. whaha.. compared to last year, it was so much different. Starts to appreciate what the lecturer is talking about, and then discovered that a lot more i don't know. LOL.. and i discovered something else.. that is, i don't really need to know what i don't know. They just memorize the format, do a few past year question, and get really to score at least a second lower. It is the case, face it. The brain is merely use to remember how the answer looks like.. not to think. In any case, the exam hall doesn't allow the time to think.

Why am i so anxious? Becoz the lectures will be ending at the end of feb.. 3 more months.. confirm not enough time le lor.. and i don't like to da bao again.. slows me down so much that i felt that i'm already lagging.

Was out for supper yesterday night when i asked wm what was there to do nowadays. Other than the "recently" popular ktv and crubbing.. but then.. i lost interest in all of them.. wondered what people of this age group are doing. Should be all busy earning income that it doesn't pose a problem. Which reminds me how irrelevant i am.. sigh.. i have a choice, i had it, but i don't want it. And then i discussed about how come some people made it happended. Like those in MLM.. they drive cars le.. and i still taking bus. I agreed that we all can, and opportunity is plentiful. But, would you risk it? We are, ultimately, different in personality.. why do some people gamble and the rest don't?

I don't know.. i'm just so bored till they asked me, "why don't you go get a job?" Ya lor.. since i at home also online, watch tv and nua... might as well relieve my bordem and as well as get some cash.. but then again, i don't really know if i can cope when i start to study. So the best way is, to start studying, hopefully i won't feel so bored and it might let me feel less guilty.

And.. the more you know, the more you don't know.. it's definately not all that was conveyed.. coz a lot of sensitive issues, if not i'll start bombing people le.. haha.. actually i just want to keep some of the thoughts to myself, of the people whom i missed, and of the memory lane just to me..

Chwee Kuey

Expected.. ok i really give up le. I don't know what to say, but i ate 14 chwee kuey at dinner today.. haha.. ate until so full lor.. think my stomach's going to explode.

But another thing exploded instead. My scale was tipped yet again.. so lousy lor.

First time i crub until i buay song 1.. which means, i'm don't think the utility is there anymore.. i'm not surprised that this was the last time i crubbed.. The coming bash? LOL.. i don't think i'd be going.. stay home eat chwee kuey better lor.

Was at OO today.. very fun for the 1st part, coz retro night, then a lot of songs came out before 1.30am.. except "can't take my eyes off you". So after that, i got nothing to look forward to. Crubbing became boring, tiring, and i'm hungry. Felt very pek chek coz very uncomfortable.. want to go home but nobody wants.. i'm not oblidge, yet walking away isn't an option. I admit, it was fun with the nice music and the toopid dance moves.. but.. not everything is nice forever de lor.. when its time to let go, it should be.

Finally understands that things should be done just nice, just like flying kite. Pull to tight, the string will break, let go too much, the kite will drop.. so, crub until too late will pek chek, but go off too early will sian.

Maybe i was wrong to let go just like that, but i couldn't stand "taunting" that was meant to be a joke. There are times when joking is inappropriate. "jian hao jiu shou" ba.. And the worst part is wasting 45 mins... things cannot be overdone.. Although certain things are hard to see, but they are easily felt. It was obvious.. and i don't like to be held responsible for things that are done on goodwill. I don't kiam anything to anyone lor. But still, having certain words out meant that i wasn't really that equipped.. but it was really better than all previous attempts to keep my temper under control.

But i think it shall no longer be of importance anymore.. coz i think i ban crubbing le. Maybe till end of exams. Really very waste time lor.. and money too.

When the show at 5.20pm finishes, i shall be staying in school for studying le.. though i still dare not venture too much.. haha.. but just a bit already very "suay" le.

Haiz.. lousy day.. very lousy.. next time i cook chwee kuay for people to eat le.

Overturned

On my way to class this afternoon, i heard a loud bang behind me. I turned round and saw a truck overturned.. wondered whether the driver was ok or not. Must be the slippery ground. I thought only bike will buang.. even truck also.

Rain was heavy today, just the same as yesterday. Hope that tomorrow won't be raining wor.. need to go out.. haha.. and won't be attending band.. again.

Yesterday heard something regarding this never ending maplestory.. sometimes i feel, it became a stage where virtuality and reality was no longer distinguished. I thought this whole thing was supposed be an extension of whatever we actually had.. but more than once i've heard that this wasn't the case. But i don't think i have the rights to comment.. coz whatever it is, it's one's on free will. For whatever that happened, i don't think i'll like it happen on myself, yet, i don't think i'll even let it happen in the 1st place.

Nowadays, chwee kuay are selling like hotcakes. Haha.. i think maybe very nice to eat ba.. but don't know why i like to look for trouble. Another failed outcome i forsee.. hahaa.. i don't want to organise le la.. wei se me everytime me do 1.. bu yao tui wo qu si lei.. haha.. nevermind.. see what's the outcome tomorrow.

Here are 2 pictures which i took yesterday..

Nice ambience, poor service. I like the mixer jugs, i like the ice container made of glass, i like the lights, i like the coldness, but i dislike the service of the staff. So be it.

Forgone band tomorrow for the chwee kuay dinner.. whahaa.. felt so bad coz been skipping band practices nowadays... so guilty leh.

Nua

In the end, i didn't get to MOS. JH got 30 free tix wor.. ahaha.. and that the queue was very very very long he said. I was at holland v amidst of a bday chill out. Haha.. i don't know, but this bar here is getting from bad to worse.

As i said, service is very bad.. really cmi, and i wondered, what is the 10% for. So the vodka was $168 inclusive of 4 mixers. (please check the price of absolut in NTUC.. we exclude DFS for the moment) Very expensive wor..

Anyway, MOS had a long long queue, in the end had to return to home base.. but ok la.. coz i pok le.. wallet got less than $20.. haha.. maybe don't have enough to take cab home.

Tends to get tired easily nowadays.. i slept at 4am for the past few days and woke up after 11am.. ar.. i had enough le.. but i think, i might not be able to wake up that early later.. haha.. sigh.. i very nua hor?

Hao wu liao..

I want to go zouk out! 9th dec wor.. and its just 2 weeks away. But i know, most likely, i'll end up nua-ing at home. Maybe i'll decide next week.

Yesterday at LBO, got 1 student put her recorder in front to record the lecture.. whahaa.. and then mr ram discovered it. He forbid us to record his lecture.. and suddenly he became very unhappy. Wahaha.. don't know how come he so particular about it.. maybe study too much law le, must protect his intellectual property.

After school, stayed to revise a bit on LBO, and finally dug out a lot of rubbish regarding companies and partnerships, incorp v unincorp and a lot more. Didn't know why, been trying very hard to concentrate this year le.. i don't want to da bao anymore.

Strangely, though not very certain, i don't even feel that i did fail before. It seems to be so expected.. so expected.. the only difference was, i won't get to graduate next july. Well, everything just get a little bit used to. Like the coming increment for gst, like there won't be chinablack anymore, like there will be no more memo jazz.. like every other things as well, just get use to it lor.. just take it that i spent 3 years in jc ba. But got people come and tell me, "you still young leh".. siao ah? my time not time meh? i young so what?.. but now cannot le.. i old liao. And before i realise, i don't enjoy doing a lot of things that i used to like. A change definately, but still a lot more before i'm settled. Maybe along the way ba..

Yesterday went adam road there eat the big prawn noodles for supper, coz got transport.. whahaa.. but i don't like prawn noodles.. still prefer ba chor mee. But very funny.. the price are according to the size of the prawns. So there was this ba kut noodles.. and next to it was, small prawn - $4, medium prawn - $5.. lol.. where got prawn la.

Wednesday's CF was postponed.. argh.. which means it'll take a week more to complete.. so it was time wasted today, spent them all sleeping, watching tv and playing PSP. Thursday will be another free day... wow.. but it's OMGIF.. i hate fridays! I hate morning classes! Tomorrow will be joining the welfarians to celebrate miss sim's bday.. nov like a lot of babies hor?

And after all the bdays, it'll be the festive seasons! All the ads kind of made it very festive wor.. haha.. Of all, i think i like xmas the most.. haha.. of coz, CNY is tempting with their red packets.. but i like gifts more.. bcoz there's a added element of thought in it mah.. haha.. ok la.. at least i thought. But then, i didn't work this year.. so maybe won't be santa le lor.. but i felt so guilty.. haha.. see how bah. And then, it'll be xmas alone again.. wahha.. it always won't get it to the awwish festival de lor.. haiz.. haha..

Suddenly like a lot of crubbings coming up again.. lol.. if i went along, this week i would have crubbed thrice. LOL.. jh was at mambo when he messaged.. too bad la.. i nua until don't know what.. just woke up at 9pm for dinner.. lol. Then they said tomorrow go MOS.. wahh.. i think maybe not.. really no money.. but see how.. see how much i spend tomorrow. Saturday was at Dbl O.. lol.. this time siao liao la.. pok until siao.

Was msn-ing when the topic was suddenly initial.. so there was this person with an initial of KFC.. whahaha.. got GST or not huh? LOL.. and then all the vulgarities all come out.. got knn, kns, ccb, pcc... whahaaaa... if they kena that kind of initial.. very suay lor..

A very long entry, coz i was suddenly very bored.. hao wu liao ar..

Riding Home

Oooh.. my school is under construction wor. Heard they say that there's going to be escalators! Finally they are going to do something about the toopid lifts. But the poor bamboo at the bamboo court. They are all taken down. Poor panda got no leaves to eat liao..

And the completion date was thought to be next year.. wahahahaa.. and so that means i get to use them! LOL.. well, what to do? Who asked me to fail.

While on my way home, i saw joe outside chatting with his friend.. so as usual, i said hi to him.. then he asked me whether i want to take a ride home. LOL.. so good, can save bus fare. I pillion rode again.. and i think the helmet is too heavy for my head. (head always very light coz not much content) Aiya.. forgot to take a picture of myself.. hah. Starting to think that my 6260 camera sucks. Really cmi lor.. the picture always blur blur 1. My dad already using N73.. Halfway through, it started raining.. haha.. now then i realise, riding bike really quite uncomfortable.. got the exhaust from cars, rain, wind, leaves, branches and whatever that was thrown at.. haha.. next time must wear space suit then can ride le.

But.. it's cheap. LOL.. gave up the idea of learning bike le.. coz heard a lot of my friends buang.. and saw some myself too.

Been packing my notes and getting ready to chiong studies le.. haha.. don't know can maintain or not. It runs in the family, we are too easily contented. (at least in the academic arena) Was packing my desk too.. haha.. too long never use them.

Not been sleeping well these days, still recovering from overnight mj.. argh.. i got to put a halt to overnight mahjong le.. lose money is not a very big issue (we had caps on losses^^).. but losing weight is! Had been eating 2 meals per day coz of irregular sleeping hours. Maybe i really "slim" down le.. argh.. must really do something about it.

I think i really frozen le.. cham liao.. how come i don't feel anything much these days? Maybe spent too much time in El Nath le.. haha.. Seldom maple nowadays coz kind of boring le.. even though they've got a new map.

LOL.. someone revive me... please?

Was in sis's room when i saw this poor pooh that got his head stuck.. wahahahaa! So i took a pic with my 6260.

Poor Pooh..

TGIS

Nice weather these days huh? Haha.. no rain and lots of sun. It seems cloudy these days, but it never rained.

Was walking home after the mj session this afternoon, and passed by "my mother school" (wo de mu xiao) WSS. I thought they were going to pull down the main building, but after so many months le, still can see it. Just in case they decide to take it down later, i took a pic of it.

Whitley Secondary, as seen on the overhead bridge. 4 years of memories, plentiful.

Oh ya, by the way, the school "moved" to toa payoh le.. some ulu spot, and some ulu building. Thankfully, they didn't change the school uniform. It was rumored that they are going to change it to checkered since 1999. But now, it still seems to be the same, just that the school badge (or crest) moved to the collar.. somemore, it was embroidered.. which means they cannot take off the identity and hiong into arcarde le.. haha.

My JC on the other hand, changed its uniform totally, from the cold storage staff uniform to some assembly line worker uniform..

Really, it just keeps moving. I didn't like changes anyway. Even stamps also increased from 23 cents to 25 cents. Not sure whether it is triggered by the GST hike.. But one thing for sure, school fees is going to increase for me. 2% is quite a lot for 2k.. kns why did i fail? Haha.. But then hor, i rather pay for GST than service charge lor. No service, and charge somemore.. and guess what? They expect tips somemore! Tips? ki si la.. haha.. especially when the change of $2 is in 10 and 20 cents.

Been very motivated these days, haven't been skipping lessons. Total for this year, is 1st lecture for FI and lecture 5 & 6 for LBO. 3 lessons only! Probably because most of them are in the afternoon. I regretted skipping class, becoz while studying, i really don't understand. Already mid November.. time to stop nua-ing. A lot of things i didn't want to be bothered. Marketing still my greatest worry.. coz it's a SS mod.

A very free saturday for me.. coz no need to go band pract! Wahahaaa... so happy today~

Saw no evil~

Saw no evil.. omg.. i actually didn't want to blog about it.. but then again.. omg.. i couldn't believe my eyes. Think i can excuse toto/4D for the next one month.

What happened was that, while walking out from zouk, we saw this lady here.. and then, the so called 'accessory' was falling.. omg.. in actual fact, it was her skirt that dropped. Did it dropped or did she took it off i don't really know. Thankfully, her top was long enough that it covered her barely..

Was actually shocked. I tought when someone took the side mirror of a car off though collision was quite shocking.. i guess i was wrong.

Realised that crubbing wasn't for me much more.. it was actually quite boring nowadays. Wondered why.. maybe 23 made the difference.

Altough this time round, there were more people i knew.. but then, there's still shortfall somewhere. And most disappointing of all was, the song that i yearned for didn't came out.. and so pek chek, left before 3am. So many, yet none came out.. it was definately on purpose.. argh.. i hate the DJs.

Looking for a day to "retire".. perhaps after bash. Contemplating whether to go 'zouk out' or not.. haha.... maybe yes, maybe no. Got quite tired of night life and drinking. It just don't make any difference anymore, thanks to my bday session..

Blog was migrated to the new beta, and yet discovered the difference. The only thing was, logging in was a hassle.

Been gearing for the coming exams.. though xmas was coming too. I don't know.. been so poor that i couldn't afford anything better.. but then, this isn't the time for working.

CF got a new lecturer.. and i spent most of my time trying very hard to deduce what was on the notes, coz not much was said.. when she talked about WACC, the whole class was wondering what it meant.. sigh.. please don't let me fail CF.

OG (Kuula) lunch today... but in the end, only Eu turned up..(less OGLs).. wahhaa.. nevermind.. planned for another official outing next week.. hopefully it'll turn out well.

And here, wanted to apologised to someone for not extending the 'invitation'.. =X Really very sorry~

Slightly Better

Finally feeling a bit better from the flu/sore throat bug. Had been drinking loads of honey lemon.. aww~ kind of like that.

But still lack the energy to do a lot of things. Still, went "shopping" after class at TP. Got the binder that i needed to organise my notes, and got my contact lense done too. Suddenly entertained the thought of getting lasik done. Getting a new supply of contact lense is quite irritating.. i don't know.. coz this lady at the shop there is making me quite uncomfortable. Haha.. i don't know.. but i think the service cmi. No wondered they keep saying that the service sector cmi. Now then i felt it. Ok lor. Since they not really keen.. then next time i go find other people le.

But not really been pissed la.. i don't even really care.. haha.. just wondering, why business can still survive.. really very curious leh. For, if they keep it that way, they are certaintly not the only supplier.. and then my dad made me realise.. i ain't the only customer too.. duh. No wonder.

Today was having MSM again.. and again, this mr Q is making me really bored.. especially his way of teaching the theory... he niam niam niam.. until i don't what he niaming.. so had to read it myself while he niam. Haha.. quite difficult to focus though. So during break time, i took a breather, was on my way to the foodcourt for some supply of sweet when i saw a few familar faces... and i ended chatting.. haha.. ok.. luckily they kept "chasing" me back to my LT.. but still, i was away for almost an hour.

Oh ya.. fixed my laptop's keyboard le.. yay~ Haha.. i've broken some of them while trying to clear the darn milk tea spill. Ok.. at least it looked proper now.. haha.. only the letter 's' couldn't be nicely done.. - -

And then i thought i saw something. And then it was so weird a feeling.. like.. like.. feeling of nothing.. i don't know. But maybe was awkard ba.. as in.. what do you want me to do? Sigh.. spare me la.. wo hen lei le.. blame it on myself lor.. i shouldn't wander so much..

Burned

Slept the whole day away.. lol, and i didn't have the mood to attend band pract. Heard that a few of them did not go as well.. lol.. why huh? Coz rain too heavy le, very nice to sleep is it? I was uncertain whether i can make it or not.. the weather plus my cold.. it makes one feverish. In the end, i slept through.. so they've comfirmed, the concert will be on 11th feb.. lol.. hoped that i'll be able to deliver.

That time when i said i wanted to be out of SWE, part of it was, i wanted to ran away.. becoz certain things have evolved till the point where it gets so awkard.. Till now, i still wouldn't know how to react. Indifferent? Or different. Perhaps the best is to run.

Of coz, that was the least of my concern. Just that i joined back SWE (now SNCO) doesn't mean i knew how. I just hope it won't happen. As if i could get over and done with, i couldn't understand why.. oh.. just why? It stills give me an awkard feeling.. and i won't be surprised if it shall last an entire lifetime.

They said, "it's a matter of choice." You chose what you want to be, and then i think if i could, i would already be enlightened. Well, and such irony can be found for someone taking faith. I just don't understand leh.. or maybe, i refused to understand... coz they didn't work out according my logic..

Well, i guess the fever had burned my brain cells le.. so much nonsense. My saturday didn't get burned.. my brain got.

I think i need a new environment again.. but been "grounded" for work, coz they thought i failed coz i work too much.. lol.. maybe partly ba. So what's new? SNCO for one.. but it's actually quite old.. just a change of name. Ar.. i also don't know la.. i won't be having much time to be bothered too..

Just that this school is starting to piss me le. It's been so crowded from the benches to the library, i can't really find a proper place to study. And i've realise, i can't study with too many people.. i tend to get distracted easily.

History repeats again, lol.. and in order to do well, really, some things had to be done. And of coz, this means less of outing.. sian.

So this morning, xy extended the "invitation" to dbl o.. and to think i actually didn't want to go. Well, i guess, slowly overgrown this kind of nightlife le. Stopped seeking, for, afterall, it shall be the same isn't it?

Just yesterday, i've packed my notes into 5 big stacks.. That shall be my minimum requirement. Kind of difficult to keep it going i guess.. certaintly need a lot more than that.

Kind of getting restricted in what i blog.. lol.. and blogs always get into all sorts of trouble..

Ill-ish

My sore throat evolved into a flu le. I don't like this ill-ish feeling. Do anything also no energy.. not to mention eating. With the blocked nose, things are tasteless, and it had to pass through my swollen throat.. makes everything even more sian.

Getting poorer these days.. and (un)luckily, i'm ill.. so need to hide at home.

Still got to go for band pract tomorrow.. well, kind of a mixed feeling. I dread the feeling of getting my saturdays burned (well, i didn't exclude the others who contributed their time too).. and it's at evening at boonlay.. the timing is neither here nor there.. and the distance.. omg.. i think i got so "brainless" once i boarded the bus/train that i don't really notice what happened around me.

Long ride tends to render my time useless these days, i have nothing much to think about, and songs are the usual ones.. listen until sian le.

Not Interested

My sore throat still haven't cleared, don't know want to go steamboat tomorrow or not. Suddenly, i seems to lose interest in everything. Kind of boring the same thing happens over and over and over again.

Of coz, i'm concerned with studies.. but only concerened and nothing else.

Not particularly delighted or sad.. and i thought i've set foot on an "indifference curve". Sigh.. i've been so numb nowadays till i didn't know what had hit me. I don't wish for things to happen, and i have no preference for things to remain they way they are.. or rather, they don't really matter.

Coffee or Tea? - Another Matter of Choice

Meant to tire myself a bit more before going to rest.. hopefully still well enough for CF tomorrow.

LBO alone meant that i went for break alone too.. lol.. very sad hor? Haha. Options are plenty.. but i guess, i just want to be alone for quite a while. So today they delivered another cake.. taste like chocolate cake with blueberry cream or something like that.. or was that the blackforest cake? Taste quite nice.. aww~

Was drinking the usual milk tea and then i began to wondered.. why sometimes i chose coffee over tea? Okok.. i know i was too bo liao le.. but then again, i was alone leh.. nobody to talk to.. so let my mind wander a bit lor. And it has got nothing to do with the amount of caffeine needed.. i liked coffee as much as tea.. well, the cold water there wasn't in consideration.. i got my own water supply.. lol.. so it was just up to this 2 choices every break time? Nope~ In fact, there are 4 choices. Either coffee, tea, both (in one cup) or none. But even though with such "abundance" of choice, the moment i reached the front of the queue, i knew what i wanted.. and it was only the last second that i've decided..

Such simple things couldn't require more brain. But empirical results shows that the probability of drinking coffee or tea is completely random.. but means that, i didn't have any particular preference between those 2. I've yet to realise the reason why, and i don't intend to find out.. haha.. coz this is really too bo liao le... and sorry to let you all read my nonsense.. haha.. but i just can't help it.

Well, the same couldn't be said for 52 and 74. For one, i can't board both.. and the other, i can't be not boarding any.. but now, things seems to be different. If 74 comes 1st, i would give it a miss.. but the moment 52 appears, i'll board it.. i'm just so inconsistent.

But choices as they are, no matter how small, affects what is going to happen next. Forgot where i read it.. but, "the summation of our choices made us what we are today".

In the Rain

Attended LBO today, and thought it was going to be a 3.5 hour session.. but luckily, i anticipated wrongly. The early dismissal seems to be a great idea, and bus 52 came as swiftly. Boarded the bus, found a seat and starts listening to my iPod. Just one stop before i alight, it started to drizzle and then while walking back from the bus stop, it started raining quite heavily. Was really caught this time.. how i destest that feeling.. that rain water was pouring down.. and i was drenched. I thought it wouldn't turn out to be so bad so quickly, but it did. What was strange was that soap bubbles starts emerging from my sandals! LOL.. i wondered what happened.. couldn't run coz i was afraid that i slip on my own sandals.

For all that happened, i think, the timing was totally wrong. But maybe things are just the way they are.

Felt a sore throat coming up.. sigh.. actually it already did. I think the rain made it worst.. and thanks to the late nights, i felt really sick now. It's been a long time since i last feel ill.. sigh.

Well, i couldn't blame anyone.. coz was so engrossed in PSP that my toopid sis bought. Somehow, my engine had cooled.. sigh.. hoped that i'll resume studying soon.

SNCO Way to Go!

This weekend was somehow different, especially from SNCO. Attended SNCO band practice with our guest conductor, Mr Jacomo~ LOL.. well, i didn't know who he was, and heard that he's from portugal.. and is NUS's conductor.. hmm.. not too sure also. I've been detached from the band world since i graduated from JC.

Was really nervous.. and i can't perform under stress. Thankfully, before i stepped in, i heard the familiar sound of the horn.. and wasn't the one from kj.. the moment i heard it, i knew, it was from the pioneer horn player.. mr zw. Oh ya.. and he brought along another horn player too. Well, i was so delighted! Haha.. for most of the practices, i've been alone.. no one to "guide" me in the event that i miscounted.. (i usually count wrongly.. - -) And so i don't know why, was so full of confidence. LOL.. support was definately there.. so glad. Was playing better than usual, even i was surprised. I guess, the whole band was really focused at that point in time.. Really impressive work by SNCO!

For the 1st time since WMC 2001.. they (we/me) finally picked themselves up.

I shall work harder too!

Band aside, rush home after practice from boonlay and then home.. then to punggol for the weekend mahjong camp.. i don't know, but it seems, luck wasn't bad.. not bad at all~ In total, won $20+ .. haha.. and the more spectacular stuffs.. i got 7 flower the moment i got my tiles.. lol. But as usual, that kind of attention will induce people to play fast rather than big. So in the end, didn't win that round. = =

Played till around 7am.. and still couldn't sleep. Finally fell asleep at 8am.. Woke up 3 hours later to another one of my "nightmare".. and i was feeling down for a while.. lol.. maybe coz i only slept for 3 hours.. haha.. not really bcoz of the dream ba.

And stayed till dinner, as usual, due to my greedy nature, dinner turned out to be a feast again. Hahaha.. Full, but tired. Stayed to watch the Scorpion king.. lol.. nice!

Ar.. so tired.. and before i realised, my weekend was gone again, but what really made my week was how SNCO have moved from the "burden" of SWE.. haha.. really, i'm so excited!

GQ and the Chocolate Factory

A sense of dejavu. I wanted much to get over and done with, but, i think time isn't what i can control.

Realised that there are a lot that i couldn't confront, and i don't intend to. I think for now, this is, perhaps of "instinct".

And i've been wondering, why should i settle for less? I've been asking for too much i know, and there are so many who can.. and yet why not?

Feeling rather vexed these few days.. especially of things happening at the "chocolate factory". Village chief always tell me, 1 people means 1 problem (if they give problem that is).. and the more people at the chocolate factory, the more problem they create. Wrong orders, unsuccessful quotation, and so on. But, many came from the same village, and somehow or rather, indebted to them, so whatever happens, still must carry on.. But, for the others, especially the yaya papaya "manager".. i don't really understand what they are thinking! Age of 50+, with 2 kids still schooling, still want to make the village chief worry. (and in turn make my blood boil!) I would be childish if i say i wanted to go to the chocolate factory and learn the ways of making chocolate just to chase that papaya away.

I'm a worker too, of coz i don't always agree with my manager, but at least, i don't join the rest to degrade her. And here this papaya dare to comment that, "it's pointless even if the pay is high, if one doesn't enjoy the work".. NB.. i say, damn you!

In the industry of the chocolate, where people don't have their own plantations, cost price is the same, chocolate is the same. Orders are made to customer's specifications (wrong orders means lost of materials lor..) and the only way one could compete is through price. (and perhaps a bit of service) Coupled with falling demand, perhaps, the factory is facing a lot of challenges. Workload might be the same, but the profit margin have lowered.. survival is at stake. And here is this papaya, who don't really care (of coz lor.. i can understand his bo chup attitude). And i think he said before, "aiya.. if really tio pok then go wash toilet lor.." Huh.. ya right.

Too bad, nobody can take over his place.. (at this moment) "manager" mah.. and he's only a few years behind in experience compared to the village chief in this industry. Who can replace him? not to mention giving him the boot. And the useless me didn't even learn any bit. Haiz.. seeing that people troubling over these things, i also very pek chek..

And still a lot more... i guess it never ends. Perhaps, the best way of helping is to do well in exams.. sounds cliche huh? Sometimes i wondered, maybe it doesn't lies with what i didn't have.. but rather, what i had.

I could never complain enough, and plus, i don't know why, in months of october to late november, there is this very pek chek feeling with me.. if i happen to piss anyone off, i'm sorry.. really couldn't help it. (well, at least i'm being true huh..) Of coz, the only season that can bring back everything, xmas! Haha..

I have plans to stay out of trouble.. exams (not xmas in this case) are coming pretty SOON. And i really don't understand why would anyone settle for something less. Of coz there are other things i might yearn for.. but i guess, i don't have to energy to spare.

Blogging is just one way of de-stressing, making sure that i'm still sane to carry on...

Just finished a bit on CF, and wondered is Fisher Separation Theory works for me too. Maybe not changing FI to afternoon lesson afterall, i don't really have $50 to spare.. and it's just another 4 months - 16 or so lessons to go.. so bo bian lor. If really late.. then sit in front lor.. haha.. well.. at least easier to concentrate. It works especially well for CF and FI.

Oh ya.. today at the carpark in school... i saw this orange Lamborghini! WAH... our school all ah sia or ah sia kia ar? Wah wah wah~ fierce.. whaha.. so surprising.. especially when a car is somehow a depreciating asset..

So now, why should i settle for something less? But i don't really have interest in car now and the zhnging (becoz i don't own one)... i mean other things. Now, at least things became clearer, so are my goals. Maybe a few alterations in habit.. hopefully i can succeed. After all, C0 and C1, the latter must be the more important one..

Preparing..

Shutting down my engine le.. Time to really let it cool, before the final exams. I need to conserve my energy le.

Sis's coming home soon ^^ haha.. means i got to shut vios's engine too. Conserve petrol, wash car.. perhaps pump petrol too. Been too cold these few days, and i think the engine also cold until cannot start properly le. No matter what.. got to do up the vios le.. sis coming home.. haha.. and time to return the vehicle to the rightful owner.

Everyday i drove seems to be a rainy day.. and i'm slowly getting used to the car le.. haha.. finally the breaking isn't that hard, and i can keep to lanes le.. maybe try to go to school early once more? LOL.. i find the morning peak most challenging.. especially the part from bukit timah to clementi road.. haha.. but sometimes, really, it depends on luck too.

Vios aside. Think it's time to change my lifestyle again. Won't be working le.. eski is full now.. and mapling also seems to be boring.. (as all games eventually will).. perhaps it's the best time to study... haha.. and ya.. a new month coming soon.. perhaps a new start lor.

Looking for places to study.. maybe the library. School is getting very crowded. Carpark also no place.. haha.. school so small still take in so many students.. - -

Which means.. end of crubbings.. ya. I have no mood to crub le.

Oh.. and maybe start sleeping early too.

Few days ago, was rather surprised.. in fact very very surprise. Wondered what was going on.. but then again.. hmm.. we shall see...

Slept too Much

Slept too much again, and i couldn't sleep at night. Was rather siao these few days.. or i don't really know.

Sadly, didn't get to work, and i mean really jobless. This kind of freedom, isn't what many people wanted? Ya.. but without money, what is there to do..

And band pract as usual, is boring. Went boonlay yesterday and then had brass sectional. 2 trombones, 3 trumpets and 2 horns. .whoa.. finally saw a larger brass section. But i don't know why.. (i'm contributing to it too..) that people don't attend band practice, and then in the end struggle in front of the conductor.. and waste everybody's time.. But then again, some things come with practice, and others, however much done, won't change anything. All pieces seems alright.. except the startrek.. Full of weird change of intonation and high notes.. i think it'll drain all my energy..

Still felt happy being able to accomplish some things on my own.. but as always, it's screwed when everything is put together.

On my way home, and it rains again! Why does the weather suddenly change? One month it's all haze, and the next, it's all rain.. And then was saw an accident.. a car long pia.. and blocked one of the lanes. Must be drive too fast le.. but i guess the driver is ok. Too dark to see anything too..

Wondering what i'm doing too. Sometimes i don't really understand myself.

I'm At Home

Friday night.. and.. i'm at home! Just because i'm broked le.. haha.. conspiracy everywhere.. haha.. for the D-day on december.. whahaaa... And i'm "training" for it..

Nowadays, been so weird that most of my friends that saw me says, "eh, heard that you club a lot recently ar.." LOL.. soon.. soon i will "keep mountain" le..

Very tired today.. slept very late last night coz weather was too good le.. haha.. so in the end, couldn't sleep.. slept at three plus, and woke up at seven..

Darn tired and still want to ride on vios.. haha.. in the end, i missed 3 points in a row. Was late, and i missed the liquidity gap analysis! ARGH.. sian leh.. just 10 minutes also don't want to wait.. must be the school beside us.. so many vehicles.. okok.. my driving skills have deteriorated greatly..

And very sad. lunch time want to find people eat also can't.. haha... so sad case meh? But i could have gone home.. but promised to stay le.. so stay lor.. attend bazaar meeting with SCS, and haha.. wo hai shi hen li hai de.. lol.. 2 years not cover de lor.. but i just don't want to intervene ba. I expired le..

So lunch at foodcourt.. eh.. but can't find something nice. Ate jap food.. but the uncle so good.. give me so large serving until i almost choked.. - -

Said i wanted to study, in the end, i think i talked a lot more.. lol.. also good la.. do some catching up.

And don't know for what reason, got involved in CV as well.. wahahaa.. so funny leh, the ic.. got horse de wor.. whaha.. I guess, i'm just too free le.. just hope i get a job soon. SIAN.

I'm so hungry now... didn't have my dinner.. and reached home just. And this channel 8 keep showing the chicken rice.. 0 0.. lol.. i think i go cook noodles le... haha..

It Was Nothing

As if it was nothing.

But someone agrees with me too.. i wasn't the only one. But should i be happy about it? I really do not know. Something which i said that was obvious was even clearer.. yet, will it be nearer? Actually, i shouldn't be concerned at all.. or i would have conceded.

I've already tired to conceal. But... but but but.. hah.. well.. it doesn't concerns me..

Found that most things are inversed.

So cold these days.. i thought i got frostbitten.. nice weather to sleep though.. (provided i didn't get caught in the rain la..)

And darn.. got to go school tomorrow morning... argh~! Can i just change it to the afternoon lecture?