A sense of dejavu. I wanted much to get over and done with, but, i think time isn't what i can control.
Realised that there are a lot that i couldn't confront, and i don't intend to. I think for now, this is, perhaps of "instinct".
And i've been wondering, why should i settle for less? I've been asking for too much i know, and there are so many who can.. and yet why not?
Feeling rather vexed these few days.. especially of things happening at the "chocolate factory". Village chief always tell me, 1 people means 1 problem (if they give problem that is).. and the more people at the chocolate factory, the more problem they create. Wrong orders, unsuccessful quotation, and so on. But, many came from the same village, and somehow or rather, indebted to them, so whatever happens, still must carry on.. But, for the others, especially the yaya papaya "manager".. i don't really understand what they are thinking! Age of 50+, with 2 kids still schooling, still want to make the village chief worry. (and in turn make my blood boil!) I would be childish if i say i wanted to go to the chocolate factory and learn the ways of making chocolate just to chase that papaya away.
I'm a worker too, of coz i don't always agree with my manager, but at least, i don't join the rest to degrade her. And here this papaya dare to comment that, "it's pointless even if the pay is high, if one doesn't enjoy the work".. NB.. i say, damn you!
In the industry of the chocolate, where people don't have their own plantations, cost price is the same, chocolate is the same. Orders are made to customer's specifications (wrong orders means lost of materials lor..) and the only way one could compete is through price. (and perhaps a bit of service) Coupled with falling demand, perhaps, the factory is facing a lot of challenges. Workload might be the same, but the profit margin have lowered.. survival is at stake. And here is this papaya, who don't really care (of coz lor.. i can understand his bo chup attitude). And i think he said before, "aiya.. if really tio pok then go wash toilet lor.." Huh.. ya right.
Too bad, nobody can take over his place.. (at this moment) "manager" mah.. and he's only a few years behind in experience compared to the village chief in this industry. Who can replace him? not to mention giving him the boot. And the useless me didn't even learn any bit. Haiz.. seeing that people troubling over these things, i also very pek chek..
And still a lot more... i guess it never ends. Perhaps, the best way of helping is to do well in exams.. sounds cliche huh? Sometimes i wondered, maybe it doesn't lies with what i didn't have.. but rather, what i had.
I could never complain enough, and plus, i don't know why, in months of october to late november, there is this very pek chek feeling with me.. if i happen to piss anyone off, i'm sorry.. really couldn't help it. (well, at least i'm being true huh..) Of coz, the only season that can bring back everything, xmas! Haha..
I have plans to stay out of trouble.. exams (not xmas in this case) are coming pretty SOON. And i really don't understand why would anyone settle for something less. Of coz there are other things i might yearn for.. but i guess, i don't have to energy to spare.
Blogging is just one way of de-stressing, making sure that i'm still sane to carry on...
Just finished a bit on CF, and wondered is Fisher Separation Theory works for me too. Maybe not changing FI to afternoon lesson afterall, i don't really have $50 to spare.. and it's just another 4 months - 16 or so lessons to go.. so bo bian lor. If really late.. then sit in front lor.. haha.. well.. at least easier to concentrate. It works especially well for CF and FI.
Oh ya.. today at the carpark in school... i saw this orange Lamborghini! WAH... our school all ah sia or ah sia kia ar? Wah wah wah~ fierce.. whaha.. so surprising.. especially when a car is somehow a depreciating asset..
So now, why should i settle for something less? But i don't really have interest in car now and the zhnging (becoz i don't own one)... i mean other things. Now, at least things became clearer, so are my goals. Maybe a few alterations in habit.. hopefully i can succeed. After all, C0 and C1, the latter must be the more important one..
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
Preparing..
Shutting down my engine le.. Time to really let it cool, before the final exams. I need to conserve my energy le.
Sis's coming home soon ^^ haha.. means i got to shut vios's engine too. Conserve petrol, wash car.. perhaps pump petrol too. Been too cold these few days, and i think the engine also cold until cannot start properly le. No matter what.. got to do up the vios le.. sis coming home.. haha.. and time to return the vehicle to the rightful owner.
Everyday i drove seems to be a rainy day.. and i'm slowly getting used to the car le.. haha.. finally the breaking isn't that hard, and i can keep to lanes le.. maybe try to go to school early once more? LOL.. i find the morning peak most challenging.. especially the part from bukit timah to clementi road.. haha.. but sometimes, really, it depends on luck too.
Vios aside. Think it's time to change my lifestyle again. Won't be working le.. eski is full now.. and mapling also seems to be boring.. (as all games eventually will).. perhaps it's the best time to study... haha.. and ya.. a new month coming soon.. perhaps a new start lor.
Looking for places to study.. maybe the library. School is getting very crowded. Carpark also no place.. haha.. school so small still take in so many students.. - -
Which means.. end of crubbings.. ya. I have no mood to crub le.
Oh.. and maybe start sleeping early too.
Few days ago, was rather surprised.. in fact very very surprise. Wondered what was going on.. but then again.. hmm.. we shall see...
Sis's coming home soon ^^ haha.. means i got to shut vios's engine too. Conserve petrol, wash car.. perhaps pump petrol too. Been too cold these few days, and i think the engine also cold until cannot start properly le. No matter what.. got to do up the vios le.. sis coming home.. haha.. and time to return the vehicle to the rightful owner.
Everyday i drove seems to be a rainy day.. and i'm slowly getting used to the car le.. haha.. finally the breaking isn't that hard, and i can keep to lanes le.. maybe try to go to school early once more? LOL.. i find the morning peak most challenging.. especially the part from bukit timah to clementi road.. haha.. but sometimes, really, it depends on luck too.
Vios aside. Think it's time to change my lifestyle again. Won't be working le.. eski is full now.. and mapling also seems to be boring.. (as all games eventually will).. perhaps it's the best time to study... haha.. and ya.. a new month coming soon.. perhaps a new start lor.
Looking for places to study.. maybe the library. School is getting very crowded. Carpark also no place.. haha.. school so small still take in so many students.. - -
Which means.. end of crubbings.. ya. I have no mood to crub le.
Oh.. and maybe start sleeping early too.
Few days ago, was rather surprised.. in fact very very surprise. Wondered what was going on.. but then again.. hmm.. we shall see...
Slept too Much
Slept too much again, and i couldn't sleep at night. Was rather siao these few days.. or i don't really know.
Sadly, didn't get to work, and i mean really jobless. This kind of freedom, isn't what many people wanted? Ya.. but without money, what is there to do..
And band pract as usual, is boring. Went boonlay yesterday and then had brass sectional. 2 trombones, 3 trumpets and 2 horns. .whoa.. finally saw a larger brass section. But i don't know why.. (i'm contributing to it too..) that people don't attend band practice, and then in the end struggle in front of the conductor.. and waste everybody's time.. But then again, some things come with practice, and others, however much done, won't change anything. All pieces seems alright.. except the startrek.. Full of weird change of intonation and high notes.. i think it'll drain all my energy..
Still felt happy being able to accomplish some things on my own.. but as always, it's screwed when everything is put together.
On my way home, and it rains again! Why does the weather suddenly change? One month it's all haze, and the next, it's all rain.. And then was saw an accident.. a car long pia.. and blocked one of the lanes. Must be drive too fast le.. but i guess the driver is ok. Too dark to see anything too..
Wondering what i'm doing too. Sometimes i don't really understand myself.
Sadly, didn't get to work, and i mean really jobless. This kind of freedom, isn't what many people wanted? Ya.. but without money, what is there to do..
And band pract as usual, is boring. Went boonlay yesterday and then had brass sectional. 2 trombones, 3 trumpets and 2 horns. .whoa.. finally saw a larger brass section. But i don't know why.. (i'm contributing to it too..) that people don't attend band practice, and then in the end struggle in front of the conductor.. and waste everybody's time.. But then again, some things come with practice, and others, however much done, won't change anything. All pieces seems alright.. except the startrek.. Full of weird change of intonation and high notes.. i think it'll drain all my energy..
Still felt happy being able to accomplish some things on my own.. but as always, it's screwed when everything is put together.
On my way home, and it rains again! Why does the weather suddenly change? One month it's all haze, and the next, it's all rain.. And then was saw an accident.. a car long pia.. and blocked one of the lanes. Must be drive too fast le.. but i guess the driver is ok. Too dark to see anything too..
Wondering what i'm doing too. Sometimes i don't really understand myself.
Friday, October 27, 2006
I'm At Home
Friday night.. and.. i'm at home! Just because i'm broked le.. haha.. conspiracy everywhere.. haha.. for the D-day on december.. whahaaa... And i'm "training" for it..
Nowadays, been so weird that most of my friends that saw me says, "eh, heard that you club a lot recently ar.." LOL.. soon.. soon i will "keep mountain" le..
Very tired today.. slept very late last night coz weather was too good le.. haha.. so in the end, couldn't sleep.. slept at three plus, and woke up at seven..
Darn tired and still want to ride on vios.. haha.. in the end, i missed 3 points in a row. Was late, and i missed the liquidity gap analysis! ARGH.. sian leh.. just 10 minutes also don't want to wait.. must be the school beside us.. so many vehicles.. okok.. my driving skills have deteriorated greatly..
And very sad. lunch time want to find people eat also can't.. haha... so sad case meh? But i could have gone home.. but promised to stay le.. so stay lor.. attend bazaar meeting with SCS, and haha.. wo hai shi hen li hai de.. lol.. 2 years not cover de lor.. but i just don't want to intervene ba. I expired le..
So lunch at foodcourt.. eh.. but can't find something nice. Ate jap food.. but the uncle so good.. give me so large serving until i almost choked.. - -
Said i wanted to study, in the end, i think i talked a lot more.. lol.. also good la.. do some catching up.
And don't know for what reason, got involved in CV as well.. wahahaa.. so funny leh, the ic.. got horse de wor.. whaha.. I guess, i'm just too free le.. just hope i get a job soon. SIAN.
I'm so hungry now... didn't have my dinner.. and reached home just. And this channel 8 keep showing the chicken rice.. 0 0.. lol.. i think i go cook noodles le... haha..
Nowadays, been so weird that most of my friends that saw me says, "eh, heard that you club a lot recently ar.." LOL.. soon.. soon i will "keep mountain" le..
Very tired today.. slept very late last night coz weather was too good le.. haha.. so in the end, couldn't sleep.. slept at three plus, and woke up at seven..
Darn tired and still want to ride on vios.. haha.. in the end, i missed 3 points in a row. Was late, and i missed the liquidity gap analysis! ARGH.. sian leh.. just 10 minutes also don't want to wait.. must be the school beside us.. so many vehicles.. okok.. my driving skills have deteriorated greatly..
And very sad. lunch time want to find people eat also can't.. haha... so sad case meh? But i could have gone home.. but promised to stay le.. so stay lor.. attend bazaar meeting with SCS, and haha.. wo hai shi hen li hai de.. lol.. 2 years not cover de lor.. but i just don't want to intervene ba. I expired le..
So lunch at foodcourt.. eh.. but can't find something nice. Ate jap food.. but the uncle so good.. give me so large serving until i almost choked.. - -
Said i wanted to study, in the end, i think i talked a lot more.. lol.. also good la.. do some catching up.
And don't know for what reason, got involved in CV as well.. wahahaa.. so funny leh, the ic.. got horse de wor.. whaha.. I guess, i'm just too free le.. just hope i get a job soon. SIAN.
I'm so hungry now... didn't have my dinner.. and reached home just. And this channel 8 keep showing the chicken rice.. 0 0.. lol.. i think i go cook noodles le... haha..
It Was Nothing
As if it was nothing.
But someone agrees with me too.. i wasn't the only one. But should i be happy about it? I really do not know. Something which i said that was obvious was even clearer.. yet, will it be nearer? Actually, i shouldn't be concerned at all.. or i would have conceded.
I've already tired to conceal. But... but but but.. hah.. well.. it doesn't concerns me..
Found that most things are inversed.
So cold these days.. i thought i got frostbitten.. nice weather to sleep though.. (provided i didn't get caught in the rain la..)
And darn.. got to go school tomorrow morning... argh~! Can i just change it to the afternoon lecture?
But someone agrees with me too.. i wasn't the only one. But should i be happy about it? I really do not know. Something which i said that was obvious was even clearer.. yet, will it be nearer? Actually, i shouldn't be concerned at all.. or i would have conceded.
I've already tired to conceal. But... but but but.. hah.. well.. it doesn't concerns me..
Found that most things are inversed.
So cold these days.. i thought i got frostbitten.. nice weather to sleep though.. (provided i didn't get caught in the rain la..)
And darn.. got to go school tomorrow morning... argh~! Can i just change it to the afternoon lecture?
Thursday, October 26, 2006
It Was Rainning~
It was rainning yesterday. Used to like rainy days.. i liked the cool wind blowing, liked the sound of the rain pouring, and the dark clouds that hid the sun away. The only element i didn't like - lightning. Actually i'm quite scared of it.. don't know since when.
But yesterday.. it seems a bit too much.
Heavy downpour made vision blured. Being caught,, i didn't quite liked it.. the water on my skin kind of irritates me. And of coz, the slippery ground poses some hazards... the ground was muddy too..
I don't know.. is it just me or what? Had my perceptions of things been so wrong or was it that i've changed? Maybe it's still the same.. coz i've been watching the rain from the comfort of my home.. but being caught in one.. it just changes everything.
Yet it will stop.. no matter how (un)desirable it was.
But it isn't that bad.. if not, i'd have migrated to the deserts.
Was on my way home in vios when i got caught in the rain.. it was so heavy.. and really, i couldn't see.. avoided PIE coz there might be a possibility of so traffic incidents.. so was on dunearn road.. suddenly, all cars slowed down.. i think at some point in time, i was travelling 40km/h. Changing lanes was extremely difficult.. rear mirror see nothing, side mirror also see nothing.. so no choice.. see blind spot lor. Thankfully (or no thanks?), all vehicles slowed down.. and luckily for those at the bus stop too.. if not, i guess the water will just splash on them.
Reached home area.. and the rain was reduced to a drizzle.. so i chose a parking far away from the target practice of unfriendly neighbours (who aims at cars with their cigarette buds, tisssue paper - god knows what's the content.. and plastic bags..) and birds (which of coz have to shit....) But the moment i switched off the engine.. the downpour came again.. and lazy to find another spot nearer to shelter (i don't have umbrella).. i hid in the safety of vios.. but i wait and wait and wait.. then i gave up.. surrendered vios to the "range"..
Didn't know why.. but was at OO. Not many people came.. but this was 2 more than my worst. Actually i kind of dislike these places le.. was a year plus since "regular" crubbing.. and don't know how much cash went into the toilet bowl.. plus cover charge.. Ya.. drinks don't taste that good.. but some sweet tasting like misty.. lol.. actually it was more like dry ice..
Anyway.. i couldn't hold as well as i thought i would be. Yupz.. i was feeling "seh" or in english - high towards the later part.. hah... if i'm laughing for no apparent reason.. this is it. Ya.. i find crubbing has no meaning.. unless the meaning is numbing oneself. But that doesn't mean i will stop.. at least not now.. i have just one mission to complete.. hahahaa.. heard of "you shi you zhong"? lol.. yupz.. till then.. i shall reveal.
By the way.. november coming.. hmm.. a lot of birthdays hor? Haha.. sure got crubbing ba.. - -And ya.. i need to repay my "debts".. haha.. hopefully.. i'm still waiting for the job at Eski..
Still got a lot more to blog.. but i need to go for lunch le.. very hungry..
But yesterday.. it seems a bit too much.
Heavy downpour made vision blured. Being caught,, i didn't quite liked it.. the water on my skin kind of irritates me. And of coz, the slippery ground poses some hazards... the ground was muddy too..
I don't know.. is it just me or what? Had my perceptions of things been so wrong or was it that i've changed? Maybe it's still the same.. coz i've been watching the rain from the comfort of my home.. but being caught in one.. it just changes everything.
Yet it will stop.. no matter how (un)desirable it was.
But it isn't that bad.. if not, i'd have migrated to the deserts.
Was on my way home in vios when i got caught in the rain.. it was so heavy.. and really, i couldn't see.. avoided PIE coz there might be a possibility of so traffic incidents.. so was on dunearn road.. suddenly, all cars slowed down.. i think at some point in time, i was travelling 40km/h. Changing lanes was extremely difficult.. rear mirror see nothing, side mirror also see nothing.. so no choice.. see blind spot lor. Thankfully (or no thanks?), all vehicles slowed down.. and luckily for those at the bus stop too.. if not, i guess the water will just splash on them.
Reached home area.. and the rain was reduced to a drizzle.. so i chose a parking far away from the target practice of unfriendly neighbours (who aims at cars with their cigarette buds, tisssue paper - god knows what's the content.. and plastic bags..) and birds (which of coz have to shit....) But the moment i switched off the engine.. the downpour came again.. and lazy to find another spot nearer to shelter (i don't have umbrella).. i hid in the safety of vios.. but i wait and wait and wait.. then i gave up.. surrendered vios to the "range"..
Didn't know why.. but was at OO. Not many people came.. but this was 2 more than my worst. Actually i kind of dislike these places le.. was a year plus since "regular" crubbing.. and don't know how much cash went into the toilet bowl.. plus cover charge.. Ya.. drinks don't taste that good.. but some sweet tasting like misty.. lol.. actually it was more like dry ice..
Anyway.. i couldn't hold as well as i thought i would be. Yupz.. i was feeling "seh" or in english - high towards the later part.. hah... if i'm laughing for no apparent reason.. this is it. Ya.. i find crubbing has no meaning.. unless the meaning is numbing oneself. But that doesn't mean i will stop.. at least not now.. i have just one mission to complete.. hahahaa.. heard of "you shi you zhong"? lol.. yupz.. till then.. i shall reveal.
By the way.. november coming.. hmm.. a lot of birthdays hor? Haha.. sure got crubbing ba.. - -And ya.. i need to repay my "debts".. haha.. hopefully.. i'm still waiting for the job at Eski..
Still got a lot more to blog.. but i need to go for lunch le.. very hungry..
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I Don't Know Wor..
I don't know wor.. sometimes things really buffled me so much. Perhaps it's just me.
Drove sis's vios to school.. whoa.. so fun.. lol.. and so fast. I think i just need 15 mins the most to reach (including parking..) Haha.. but i have problem keeping in lane.. lol.. i don't know.. this is so different from 1707... maybe a bit smaller.. so a lot of space left..
MSM was as usual, boring.. especially the theory part.. lol.. and i still didn't do my assignments.. - - Went SRC room after class to "sit in" for the bazaar meeting.. lol.. actually i just wanna play table tennis nia.. haha.. how i miss that place..
After meeting went clementi for dinner with the excos and comm.. and i blur like sotong.. haha.. drive until don't know where.. coz i missed the U-turned just at KAP.. so travelled till almost the route to bukit batok le.. haha.. too long never drive and i anyhow drive.. - -
Was at clementi for dinner.. too bad chicken rice sold out.. haha.. so tried the ba chor mee.. but i think thomson's 1 nicer ba.. lol.. and ordered rojak again.. whoa.. who knows.. sharon they all also ordered.. in the end, we got 2 plates of $3 you tiao rojak.. then alan ordered so many chwee kuay.. lol.. like feast like that lor.. - -
Happy today coz i received another belated bday present ^^ whahaa... so happy lor.. and thanks hor.. (you know who you all are.. ^^).. but hor.. still haven't received from the ex excos yet... haha.. maybe tio kop le?
But amist all.. still felt a bit down.. haiz.. sian ah~
Drove sis's vios to school.. whoa.. so fun.. lol.. and so fast. I think i just need 15 mins the most to reach (including parking..) Haha.. but i have problem keeping in lane.. lol.. i don't know.. this is so different from 1707... maybe a bit smaller.. so a lot of space left..
MSM was as usual, boring.. especially the theory part.. lol.. and i still didn't do my assignments.. - - Went SRC room after class to "sit in" for the bazaar meeting.. lol.. actually i just wanna play table tennis nia.. haha.. how i miss that place..
After meeting went clementi for dinner with the excos and comm.. and i blur like sotong.. haha.. drive until don't know where.. coz i missed the U-turned just at KAP.. so travelled till almost the route to bukit batok le.. haha.. too long never drive and i anyhow drive.. - -
Was at clementi for dinner.. too bad chicken rice sold out.. haha.. so tried the ba chor mee.. but i think thomson's 1 nicer ba.. lol.. and ordered rojak again.. whoa.. who knows.. sharon they all also ordered.. in the end, we got 2 plates of $3 you tiao rojak.. then alan ordered so many chwee kuay.. lol.. like feast like that lor.. - -
Happy today coz i received another belated bday present ^^ whahaa... so happy lor.. and thanks hor.. (you know who you all are.. ^^).. but hor.. still haven't received from the ex excos yet... haha.. maybe tio kop le?
But amist all.. still felt a bit down.. haiz.. sian ah~
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Boring~
Sis went overseas for mission le.. oo.. so the vios is now under my "care" ^^
Supposed to be at boonlay for band practice.. but.... i think i spent an hour burning petrol. In the end, i didn't go.. haha..
Halloween comming soon! Hahaa... too bad leh.. no idea of what to dress up as.. LOL. If not.. then don't go le.. haha.. save money on costume..
Sian. Already nearing end of october.. study time le lor.. Was in school last friday, but got toopid admin.. hah.. so couldn't get in. Went library instead..and OMG.. library is sooo packed lor.. - - Siao de.. all so hardworking.. haha.. tried to change my FI to afternoon.. coz i really have problems waking up so early. See hows lor.. $50++ wor.. and i pok le..
Sigh.. really must study le la..
Supposed to be at boonlay for band practice.. but.... i think i spent an hour burning petrol. In the end, i didn't go.. haha..
Halloween comming soon! Hahaa... too bad leh.. no idea of what to dress up as.. LOL. If not.. then don't go le.. haha.. save money on costume..
Sian. Already nearing end of october.. study time le lor.. Was in school last friday, but got toopid admin.. hah.. so couldn't get in. Went library instead..and OMG.. library is sooo packed lor.. - - Siao de.. all so hardworking.. haha.. tried to change my FI to afternoon.. coz i really have problems waking up so early. See hows lor.. $50++ wor.. and i pok le..
Sigh.. really must study le la..
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Pics @ Eski
Pics taken at Eski, sc's camera -
Group pic at xy's work place - Eski bar
Me after 2 pints of Erdinger Dark...
SC .. and me.. haha..
Biker Joe and me..
Zack and me.. i'm holding the bubblegum.. erm.. the other "glass" i don't know le.. haha..
Group pic at xy's work place - Eski bar
Me after 2 pints of Erdinger Dark...
SC .. and me.. haha..
Biker Joe and me..
Zack and me.. i'm holding the bubblegum.. erm.. the other "glass" i don't know le.. haha..
I'm 23~!
Yeah.. another year.. haha.. and i'm supposed to be older le.
Yupz.. the only 2 times of the year where i'll do some reflection and maybe "refraction". The other time is during new year where all the resolution comes in.
Referred to the entries a year ago.. and time really flies. And of coz, it was a year of the abundance.
Haha.. but hopefully.. this would be a nicer year. (Lol.. as if new year was coming.. )
Today was a very hazy day.. and i got very lazy. Do anything also no strength.. haha.. even sleep also will choke. So bo bian.. i soaked myself in the aircon.. haha.. soak until blur i think.. kept sleeping and sleeping.. yupz.. LBO was missed again.. haha.. the ram want us to prepare a coardboard with our names and place it in front of our seat.. wahahaaa... so funny.. like some conference like that.. whahaa... so till now.. i wondered.. who will go prepare..
I did a lot of otot "celebrations".. wahaha.. or rather.. just gathering and nothing else.. lol.. i'm too old for bday cake le wor.. but still, dearest sis still got me a tiramisu last sunday ^^ Too bad the village chief always not at home these days.. so i chute pattern for him to see.. whaha.. how can don't give mom face? Lol.. she ordered pizza, fried chicken wings and asked my sis's friend along for this mini "celebration".. and dad came home just to clear the pizza nia.. = =
Another was with the kuulas.. though only 4 of them... but most are drinkers.. ^^ and sad to say.. i can't deny anymore.. i do drink a lot more these days.. haha.. bad hor? But that day was fun too.. i got my 1st pair of martell glass ball-bearing from the bottle we opened as my bday present.. whaaha.. it cost $138. (By i contribute $70 wor.. ) Haha..
Thanks to witizens for thier presents as well ^^ .. haha.. though is still under safekeep.
Thanks to SRC Excos 05/06 and seniors also.. i know some of them shared the present.. haha.. but i haven't receive it ^^ .. so don't really know what it was.. lol..
Thanks to my maple buddy straw for the cash item gift.. lol.. was so touched lor.. haha.. virtual friend also friend.. just that we don't know each other in real life.. haha.. thanks for the gift again!
LOL.. it's strange. Bday without any elaborate celebrations.. but i'm so happy~
Now i'm so awake.. haha.. just gluped down a can of coke and a cup of noodles.. lol.. my own bday "chang shou mian".. haha.. now lacking is a bday song.. lol... too bad 93.3 off bo lang at home le..
Btw, tomorrow's zouk outing is shelved for the moment.. lol.. and maybe going halloween?? Wahahaa... that day monday was actually quite keen le.. kept thinking what to dress as.. whahaa.. but maybe i don't dare.. lol.. see hows lor.. see if got idea and costume or not.. haha.. maybe get a few more of my friends go as well. lol. However.. might still be at zouk tomorrow.. whaha.. party party~
Sis's gg overseas this sat le.. so i get to drive her Vios ^^ For 1 whole week.. which means i no need to squeeze bus le.. yay~ But petrol prices is going up.. OPEC has cut their production a week ago.. sad... - -
Argh.. 1am le.. still awake.. haha..
Ok.. late le.. time to go play game.. haha.. what to do? Can't get to sleep wor.. lol..
Yupz.. the only 2 times of the year where i'll do some reflection and maybe "refraction". The other time is during new year where all the resolution comes in.
Referred to the entries a year ago.. and time really flies. And of coz, it was a year of the abundance.
Haha.. but hopefully.. this would be a nicer year. (Lol.. as if new year was coming.. )
Today was a very hazy day.. and i got very lazy. Do anything also no strength.. haha.. even sleep also will choke. So bo bian.. i soaked myself in the aircon.. haha.. soak until blur i think.. kept sleeping and sleeping.. yupz.. LBO was missed again.. haha.. the ram want us to prepare a coardboard with our names and place it in front of our seat.. wahahaaa... so funny.. like some conference like that.. whahaa... so till now.. i wondered.. who will go prepare..
I did a lot of otot "celebrations".. wahaha.. or rather.. just gathering and nothing else.. lol.. i'm too old for bday cake le wor.. but still, dearest sis still got me a tiramisu last sunday ^^ Too bad the village chief always not at home these days.. so i chute pattern for him to see.. whaha.. how can don't give mom face? Lol.. she ordered pizza, fried chicken wings and asked my sis's friend along for this mini "celebration".. and dad came home just to clear the pizza nia.. = =
Another was with the kuulas.. though only 4 of them... but most are drinkers.. ^^ and sad to say.. i can't deny anymore.. i do drink a lot more these days.. haha.. bad hor? But that day was fun too.. i got my 1st pair of martell glass ball-bearing from the bottle we opened as my bday present.. whaaha.. it cost $138. (By i contribute $70 wor.. ) Haha..
Thanks to witizens for thier presents as well ^^ .. haha.. though is still under safekeep.
Thanks to SRC Excos 05/06 and seniors also.. i know some of them shared the present.. haha.. but i haven't receive it ^^ .. so don't really know what it was.. lol..
Thanks to my maple buddy straw for the cash item gift.. lol.. was so touched lor.. haha.. virtual friend also friend.. just that we don't know each other in real life.. haha.. thanks for the gift again!
LOL.. it's strange. Bday without any elaborate celebrations.. but i'm so happy~
Now i'm so awake.. haha.. just gluped down a can of coke and a cup of noodles.. lol.. my own bday "chang shou mian".. haha.. now lacking is a bday song.. lol... too bad 93.3 off bo lang at home le..
Btw, tomorrow's zouk outing is shelved for the moment.. lol.. and maybe going halloween?? Wahahaa... that day monday was actually quite keen le.. kept thinking what to dress as.. whahaa.. but maybe i don't dare.. lol.. see hows lor.. see if got idea and costume or not.. haha.. maybe get a few more of my friends go as well. lol. However.. might still be at zouk tomorrow.. whaha.. party party~
Sis's gg overseas this sat le.. so i get to drive her Vios ^^ For 1 whole week.. which means i no need to squeeze bus le.. yay~ But petrol prices is going up.. OPEC has cut their production a week ago.. sad... - -
Argh.. 1am le.. still awake.. haha..
Ok.. late le.. time to go play game.. haha.. what to do? Can't get to sleep wor.. lol..
Monday, October 16, 2006
Picture Time..
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Hahaa.. check out the "good' food i had for the past 1 week~
No wonder i'm having digestive problems.. argh..
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Long Session...
7 am.. guess what? I just got home.. as usual, i began my story telling.. 0.0
Saturday was supposed to be chilling... and then don't know why i ended up reaching home so "early" More worse.. mom saw me just got home. Of coz, going to 23, i guess she'll be tired of nagging me le..
Went 3 places altogether, and spent another $100 or so.. sad. No inflow and lots and lots of outflow. 1st thing 1st.. i was kena tua... i hate it when people make use of my trust.. and the reason i got so pissed is because i didn't foresee it.. and was almost dragged to join some direct sales scheme. I've said before.. i've nothing against them.. BUT FNB.. DON'T make use of me. My sis did that scheme and failed.. and as time goes by, this kind of scheme is like nothing to me. But on the outset, if something is planned to get me.. i seriously dislike. Simi i didn't see before? What can be more complicated than the selling floor? Even within there, people are going this scheme this and that. Thankfully, there are really friends that enlighten me.. Nevetheless, i do not wish to see a repeat.. i'll let go. Realised this was one way to get filthy rich, but i just don't want.. can or not har?
Ok.. enough of complain.. so was at eski.. whacked 2 pints (1 liters) of erdinger dark plus bubblegum (cocktail i think..) and spent around $30 plus.. - - But eski was alright la.. actually the night job in the previous entry was actually the eski.. so i now wait for opportunity to get employed lor..
After eski went eating prata.. curry was very very nice~ But bday boy treat.. - -
Changed location to neil road.. my friend's dad's pub.. whoa.. uncle was very nice~ Lowered price and unlimited mixer plus opportunity to test drink some... of all, the best was hennessy vintage - personal collection of the boss.. ^^And of coz.. when it comes to open bottle.. it was martell vsop again.. whahahaa... although i was shown cordon bleu.. wahaha.. too bad i leong la.. but was still the major shareholder of the vsop. So kena whacked again.. omg.. but still alright.. till i left that place.
They said go lor 18 to have supper.. omg.. already want to puke le still eat?? On the way, i was regulating my breathing.. hahaa.. i think the cabby got the scare.. coz i was really breathing deep.. and for a long long time, my tap was leaking again.. was reminded of some past incident. Yet time wasn't allowed for inverse. And so i left it where it was.
Reached lor 18 and went "yong he" for dou jiang you tiao.. haha.. but i opt of taiwan mee sua instead.. super nice~! And i liked it very much. However.. if not for the complexity of that place.. i think i'll go there often. While walking halfway, lol.. this is so funny lor.. my friend kena "pulled" away.. almost into the sea le.. haha.. so i tried to save him.. but also kena dragged.. whahaa.. so i faster run.. i mean.. 1 kena drownded is better than 2 mah.. haha.. but even though i was seh.. i still know what was considered "morally incorrect". I abide to my rules of this downward spiral game. A few days ago.. someone asked me, "why you like that?".. but frankly.. i wasn't bringing myself down.. but rather.. i took this opportunity to see the "ugly" side of society. But thankfully, i am what my parents are (almost).. so was rather glad that this kind of vicious cycle wasn't in our bloodline.
The complex place.. saw and heard a lot of complex story.. and of coz, i don't know la.. another of my friend don't know go seal simi deal.. made 1 uncle treat us 2 bottle tiger.. - - i was like cmi le lor.. especially after VSOP.. haha... and yet comes this.. haha... so it was storytelling by uncle.. and as some of the people there.. (or actually... everybody got their own sad story..).. but i can't help but felt touched.. but then again.. to shield myself.. i didn't want to care too much.. if i wanna go help everybody.. might as well go join some faith organisation or the lord of this land.
So the story goes on and on and on.. until i buay tahan liao.. was already 6 plus when we wanted to go.. - -.. kns... it was like.. i was drinking for 10 hours... (from 8pm till 6am).. and i hope that nothing of this sort was going to happen again.. especially after i've cleared my 23. Definately.
Amist all the intoxication, i seems to have gotten my answer.. but sad was, there isn't any solution.. haiz..
Yupz.. too bad it was my bday.. so bo bian lor.. ying chou lor.. after UI for 3 days... i can say i'm really sick of this kind of lifestyle..
But a few people that saw me says i've gained weight.. whaha... so happy lor ^^
Time to sleep le.. almost 8am after such a long entry.. my hair drying and again.. level was upped.. hahaha.. wedesday? I think should be alright.. unless "by their power combine".. arr.. now matter how steady also no use.. 1 against many.. what's the odd? Hhahaa..
Oh yah.. if anybody knows what happened to tag board.. do leave a comment...
Saturday was supposed to be chilling... and then don't know why i ended up reaching home so "early" More worse.. mom saw me just got home. Of coz, going to 23, i guess she'll be tired of nagging me le..
Went 3 places altogether, and spent another $100 or so.. sad. No inflow and lots and lots of outflow. 1st thing 1st.. i was kena tua... i hate it when people make use of my trust.. and the reason i got so pissed is because i didn't foresee it.. and was almost dragged to join some direct sales scheme. I've said before.. i've nothing against them.. BUT FNB.. DON'T make use of me. My sis did that scheme and failed.. and as time goes by, this kind of scheme is like nothing to me. But on the outset, if something is planned to get me.. i seriously dislike. Simi i didn't see before? What can be more complicated than the selling floor? Even within there, people are going this scheme this and that. Thankfully, there are really friends that enlighten me.. Nevetheless, i do not wish to see a repeat.. i'll let go. Realised this was one way to get filthy rich, but i just don't want.. can or not har?
Ok.. enough of complain.. so was at eski.. whacked 2 pints (1 liters) of erdinger dark plus bubblegum (cocktail i think..) and spent around $30 plus.. - - But eski was alright la.. actually the night job in the previous entry was actually the eski.. so i now wait for opportunity to get employed lor..
After eski went eating prata.. curry was very very nice~ But bday boy treat.. - -
Changed location to neil road.. my friend's dad's pub.. whoa.. uncle was very nice~ Lowered price and unlimited mixer plus opportunity to test drink some... of all, the best was hennessy vintage - personal collection of the boss.. ^^And of coz.. when it comes to open bottle.. it was martell vsop again.. whahahaa... although i was shown cordon bleu.. wahaha.. too bad i leong la.. but was still the major shareholder of the vsop. So kena whacked again.. omg.. but still alright.. till i left that place.
They said go lor 18 to have supper.. omg.. already want to puke le still eat?? On the way, i was regulating my breathing.. hahaa.. i think the cabby got the scare.. coz i was really breathing deep.. and for a long long time, my tap was leaking again.. was reminded of some past incident. Yet time wasn't allowed for inverse. And so i left it where it was.
Reached lor 18 and went "yong he" for dou jiang you tiao.. haha.. but i opt of taiwan mee sua instead.. super nice~! And i liked it very much. However.. if not for the complexity of that place.. i think i'll go there often. While walking halfway, lol.. this is so funny lor.. my friend kena "pulled" away.. almost into the sea le.. haha.. so i tried to save him.. but also kena dragged.. whahaa.. so i faster run.. i mean.. 1 kena drownded is better than 2 mah.. haha.. but even though i was seh.. i still know what was considered "morally incorrect". I abide to my rules of this downward spiral game. A few days ago.. someone asked me, "why you like that?".. but frankly.. i wasn't bringing myself down.. but rather.. i took this opportunity to see the "ugly" side of society. But thankfully, i am what my parents are (almost).. so was rather glad that this kind of vicious cycle wasn't in our bloodline.
The complex place.. saw and heard a lot of complex story.. and of coz, i don't know la.. another of my friend don't know go seal simi deal.. made 1 uncle treat us 2 bottle tiger.. - - i was like cmi le lor.. especially after VSOP.. haha... and yet comes this.. haha... so it was storytelling by uncle.. and as some of the people there.. (or actually... everybody got their own sad story..).. but i can't help but felt touched.. but then again.. to shield myself.. i didn't want to care too much.. if i wanna go help everybody.. might as well go join some faith organisation or the lord of this land.
So the story goes on and on and on.. until i buay tahan liao.. was already 6 plus when we wanted to go.. - -.. kns... it was like.. i was drinking for 10 hours... (from 8pm till 6am).. and i hope that nothing of this sort was going to happen again.. especially after i've cleared my 23. Definately.
Amist all the intoxication, i seems to have gotten my answer.. but sad was, there isn't any solution.. haiz..
Yupz.. too bad it was my bday.. so bo bian lor.. ying chou lor.. after UI for 3 days... i can say i'm really sick of this kind of lifestyle..
But a few people that saw me says i've gained weight.. whaha... so happy lor ^^
Time to sleep le.. almost 8am after such a long entry.. my hair drying and again.. level was upped.. hahaha.. wedesday? I think should be alright.. unless "by their power combine".. arr.. now matter how steady also no use.. 1 against many.. what's the odd? Hhahaa..
Oh yah.. if anybody knows what happened to tag board.. do leave a comment...
Saturday, October 14, 2006
For What?
I wonder how.. i wondered why.. lol.
Very tired but couldn't get to sleep. Digestive system not good, but i eat and eat and eat. Met both my aunt, grandma and cousins for lunch after FI. They wanted to go for international buffet - at Vienna.. haha.. a place which i 1st went with the excos. So it was a re-visit.. but i didn't eat as much.. nevertheless, i need not pay as well ^^ (oh ya.. they didn't know bday was coming.. haha.. and i didn't want celebration too.. haha..) Lunch was enjoyable.. and was home waiting for dinner at marche.
Was at marche and then i thought i was late.. so they came, and then saw my colleagues and some of the graduates too.. haha.. so qiao huh? But too bad, they couldn't give us a 12 pax table. Haha.. so fun to see so many friends again.. haha.. and what's best is, we didn't agree to meet.. just happen to see each other wor.. haha. But strangely, it was strange. But then i realised, certain things are better left ignored.
But of coz, dinner was very nice too~ I had soft shell crab (but i still prefer the sauce from sakae) and also pork chop.. nice! But then don't know why.. everything i ate doesn't seems to be hot enough.. all cold cold de.. and i mean really physically cold. Still, it was better than what i had for lunch.. ^^
Then was at marina eating the same ice-cream.. haha.. still as sweet. But this time they gave a lot more.. whahaa... but too sweet le la.. a bit cannot take it.
Then met with xy (again) for OO. Friday was like very sian de wor, and i discovered, the people there are auditors.. = = Erm... how come ar? Either auditors, sales or bankers. Seldom you will hear "waiters, bartenders, promoters".. how about editors, CEOs musicians and all that.. why ar? But was very glad.. saw warlords er ge ^^ finally after so long. Well, he didn't change at all.. and i think really didn't. But glad.. so extended "invitation" for next wednesday. Hopefully ba.
Strangely, less is more and more is even more. I totally don't understand. But i guess the best is not to understand... or even spare any thought for it.
At OO, saw my "seniors" as well.. they said they are from exexexco... chloe's batch.. - - and then said they organise FOC de.. "no wonder you looked so familiar.." eh? I don't know where i saw before lor.. totally no recollection. Hahaa.. but the guess that i'm from SIM was well done.
Consumed much less.. just not to waste myself just yet. I don't know, but i'm starting to get bored le... or rather sick of this kind of life. But i don't feel that time/life is wasted.. just money is wasted only.. and lots of it = = And of coz, "without regrets".. certain things done after "expiry" seems weird.
So against what i had been forbidden.. i have began my "search" for jobs.. i want flexible hours/days, and boring job scope so that i can nua my brain away.. haha.. hopefully less than 4 days per week. So now i had a recomendation for a night job.. if possible.. hopefully.
And which means, gaming has to be halted. And then 1 wondered why.. why spent so much time.. lol.. perhaps too bored already. So now got something to do (work), hopefully something new.
Time to go back to school work.. nb.. fail before le.. so what? CMI so what? Hahaa.. like that lor.. i don't think i'm as smart.. so take longer time lor.. and in the end, i'll still ask (if i had the chance to ask) myself.. "for what"?? I also don't know. Study so much.. for what? I don't know... enjoy so much.. for what? I also don't know. Blog so much.. for what? I also don't know.. fell like doing then do lor.. But as always, the more 1 does, the more risk is assumed. So might as well don't do anything? But cannot~ because people get bored.. then chute a lot a lot a lot of pattern.. in the end kena burned then ask.. for what? Lol.. i also don't know. (with no particular reference of any event.. lol.. just for example)
But i don't know la.. personality is hard to change.. I also know.. but then.. nevermind ba.
So like that lor.. haha.. for what i also don't know... just hope that i'll get a job soon. Pok le lor.. and better to cut down on maple and start mugging.. if not a lot of "for what" in the future.
Special thanks to those who got me present.. Deeply appreciated. (you know who you are.. cannot write everything out.. *names are ommited to protect their identities* haha.. bday everybody also have.. and i don't think there is anything to be liao bu qi... afterall, it's just another day.. so.. i won't be expecting anything much la.. haha.. i just want to be happy. That's all.
And i don't know how.. haha.. anybody who feel like going crubbing next wednesday.. just go.. i won't be opening bottle.. nothing to offer.. so didn't invite people.. ^^ But just come for crubbing lor.. and somemore is friend suggest de.. haha.. i call so many people i also paiseh...
I guess.. i just have to be able to support myself.. i don't know.. i just don't want to be dependent.. and of coz, i just want to be happy.
Very tired but couldn't get to sleep. Digestive system not good, but i eat and eat and eat. Met both my aunt, grandma and cousins for lunch after FI. They wanted to go for international buffet - at Vienna.. haha.. a place which i 1st went with the excos. So it was a re-visit.. but i didn't eat as much.. nevertheless, i need not pay as well ^^ (oh ya.. they didn't know bday was coming.. haha.. and i didn't want celebration too.. haha..) Lunch was enjoyable.. and was home waiting for dinner at marche.
Was at marche and then i thought i was late.. so they came, and then saw my colleagues and some of the graduates too.. haha.. so qiao huh? But too bad, they couldn't give us a 12 pax table. Haha.. so fun to see so many friends again.. haha.. and what's best is, we didn't agree to meet.. just happen to see each other wor.. haha. But strangely, it was strange. But then i realised, certain things are better left ignored.
But of coz, dinner was very nice too~ I had soft shell crab (but i still prefer the sauce from sakae) and also pork chop.. nice! But then don't know why.. everything i ate doesn't seems to be hot enough.. all cold cold de.. and i mean really physically cold. Still, it was better than what i had for lunch.. ^^
Then was at marina eating the same ice-cream.. haha.. still as sweet. But this time they gave a lot more.. whahaa... but too sweet le la.. a bit cannot take it.
Then met with xy (again) for OO. Friday was like very sian de wor, and i discovered, the people there are auditors.. = = Erm... how come ar? Either auditors, sales or bankers. Seldom you will hear "waiters, bartenders, promoters".. how about editors, CEOs musicians and all that.. why ar? But was very glad.. saw warlords er ge ^^ finally after so long. Well, he didn't change at all.. and i think really didn't. But glad.. so extended "invitation" for next wednesday. Hopefully ba.
Strangely, less is more and more is even more. I totally don't understand. But i guess the best is not to understand... or even spare any thought for it.
At OO, saw my "seniors" as well.. they said they are from exexexco... chloe's batch.. - - and then said they organise FOC de.. "no wonder you looked so familiar.." eh? I don't know where i saw before lor.. totally no recollection. Hahaa.. but the guess that i'm from SIM was well done.
Consumed much less.. just not to waste myself just yet. I don't know, but i'm starting to get bored le... or rather sick of this kind of life. But i don't feel that time/life is wasted.. just money is wasted only.. and lots of it = = And of coz, "without regrets".. certain things done after "expiry" seems weird.
So against what i had been forbidden.. i have began my "search" for jobs.. i want flexible hours/days, and boring job scope so that i can nua my brain away.. haha.. hopefully less than 4 days per week. So now i had a recomendation for a night job.. if possible.. hopefully.
And which means, gaming has to be halted. And then 1 wondered why.. why spent so much time.. lol.. perhaps too bored already. So now got something to do (work), hopefully something new.
Time to go back to school work.. nb.. fail before le.. so what? CMI so what? Hahaa.. like that lor.. i don't think i'm as smart.. so take longer time lor.. and in the end, i'll still ask (if i had the chance to ask) myself.. "for what"?? I also don't know. Study so much.. for what? I don't know... enjoy so much.. for what? I also don't know. Blog so much.. for what? I also don't know.. fell like doing then do lor.. But as always, the more 1 does, the more risk is assumed. So might as well don't do anything? But cannot~ because people get bored.. then chute a lot a lot a lot of pattern.. in the end kena burned then ask.. for what? Lol.. i also don't know. (with no particular reference of any event.. lol.. just for example)
But i don't know la.. personality is hard to change.. I also know.. but then.. nevermind ba.
So like that lor.. haha.. for what i also don't know... just hope that i'll get a job soon. Pok le lor.. and better to cut down on maple and start mugging.. if not a lot of "for what" in the future.
Special thanks to those who got me present.. Deeply appreciated. (you know who you are.. cannot write everything out.. *names are ommited to protect their identities* haha.. bday everybody also have.. and i don't think there is anything to be liao bu qi... afterall, it's just another day.. so.. i won't be expecting anything much la.. haha.. i just want to be happy. That's all.
And i don't know how.. haha.. anybody who feel like going crubbing next wednesday.. just go.. i won't be opening bottle.. nothing to offer.. so didn't invite people.. ^^ But just come for crubbing lor.. and somemore is friend suggest de.. haha.. i call so many people i also paiseh...
I guess.. i just have to be able to support myself.. i don't know.. i just don't want to be dependent.. and of coz, i just want to be happy.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
SOP
Today went to shop for clothes.. but spent hours walk and walk and walk.. and still cannot find..
And today follows the usual SOP. 1st thing is lao sai.. haha... as a result of an overdose yhr night before. Hahaha.. and i seh until i got into the sun lor.. woke up at 9am and seh until 12pm. Yupz.. lunch was nice today.. haha.. though my stomach like cannot make it le.. - -
So till now stomach still not good.. eat le like cannot digest.. somemore, after walking for so many hours, i bought 1 big glup.. haha.. and it makes matter worse.
And today went over to grandma's place to see how is she le.. she seems ok le.. so i'm less worried. Saw aunt there as well... so we chatted.. and i learnt so much from her.. haha.. of coz, she wants us to study well.. including the 3 cousins of mine.. lol.. well, all the best for the coming 'O's.. (you know who you are..)
Ok.. so i think i need to be plastic le.. haha.. it might come into good use... haha..
But still... argh...
Hahaha.. and today i got a quote from someone... "u know i know what we know.." whahaa... ya.. people nowadays got long antenna le.. hahaa.. but still... not really enough wor.. haha.. jia you ba.. haha..
And today follows the usual SOP. 1st thing is lao sai.. haha... as a result of an overdose yhr night before. Hahaha.. and i seh until i got into the sun lor.. woke up at 9am and seh until 12pm. Yupz.. lunch was nice today.. haha.. though my stomach like cannot make it le.. - -
So till now stomach still not good.. eat le like cannot digest.. somemore, after walking for so many hours, i bought 1 big glup.. haha.. and it makes matter worse.
And today went over to grandma's place to see how is she le.. she seems ok le.. so i'm less worried. Saw aunt there as well... so we chatted.. and i learnt so much from her.. haha.. of coz, she wants us to study well.. including the 3 cousins of mine.. lol.. well, all the best for the coming 'O's.. (you know who you are..)
Ok.. so i think i need to be plastic le.. haha.. it might come into good use... haha..
But still... argh...
Hahaha.. and today i got a quote from someone... "u know i know what we know.." whahaa... ya.. people nowadays got long antenna le.. hahaa.. but still... not really enough wor.. haha.. jia you ba.. haha..
Regrets?
4am plus.. i've been "awaken" to certain things. As from some time ago, i was still afraid.. i'm scared. Just because of the unknown.. i don't know.
And i thought, it wasn't real.. but i just don't want to.. for i fear.. what if, there isn't any tomorrow? Will there still be hope? Tomorrow is just an infinite.. yet today is always there. Why not today..? - because the assumption is that there is tomorrow.. but i don't know just how long can things last.
Certain thing just ain't measured by the duration.. but rather, the intensity of the events that happened.
I'm certainly not pessimisitic... i just don't wish to regret. Hopefully, everything turns out well from here on.
Actually, the entry is rather nonsensical.. as a result of crubbing session. Nevertheless, i still end up in zouk as a prelude to my bday "bash".. haha.. (actually i don't even know how many are aware that my bday is just 1 week away.. haha) So after tahing 3 jugs by 2 if us, it was down to opening of martell ^^ Haha.. of coz, there is a price to be paid. The record? $105 tab for the whole night.. the most i've racked up since my crubbing days.
Was rather fun to hear mambo music again.. haha.. but then again.. it seems a bit too much le.. till now, i'm still a bit seh.. haha.. but i need to "warm up" my engine again.. i've not been crubbing since school starts.. partly becoz i'm busy with school work, and also becoz i'm poor le.. haha.. so today was an exception..
But then, zouk was very very crowded today... and the age group seems different from us.. haha.. i don't know.. maybe i've "overgrown"? But don't know what happened.. while entering, saw 4 lambo going in as well.. .wah~~~~ all the ah sia all come le ah? Hahaha.. for me to drive 1 of those.. i think, i got to find a rich dad le.. haha.. kidding.
So don't know what happened also.. zouk was sooooooo crowded till we got no place to put the jugs.. = =.. somemore open bottle.. - -.... haha... well well.. too bad, i've got to pay for my share even though i got the "bday boy" immunity.. haha... sad.
Anyway.. i don't know.. my point is, to cherish whatever is presented.. yupz.. i rather not regret~ Or maybe.. should i seek for my bliss once more?
And i thought, it wasn't real.. but i just don't want to.. for i fear.. what if, there isn't any tomorrow? Will there still be hope? Tomorrow is just an infinite.. yet today is always there. Why not today..? - because the assumption is that there is tomorrow.. but i don't know just how long can things last.
Certain thing just ain't measured by the duration.. but rather, the intensity of the events that happened.
I'm certainly not pessimisitic... i just don't wish to regret. Hopefully, everything turns out well from here on.
Actually, the entry is rather nonsensical.. as a result of crubbing session. Nevertheless, i still end up in zouk as a prelude to my bday "bash".. haha.. (actually i don't even know how many are aware that my bday is just 1 week away.. haha) So after tahing 3 jugs by 2 if us, it was down to opening of martell ^^ Haha.. of coz, there is a price to be paid. The record? $105 tab for the whole night.. the most i've racked up since my crubbing days.
Was rather fun to hear mambo music again.. haha.. but then again.. it seems a bit too much le.. till now, i'm still a bit seh.. haha.. but i need to "warm up" my engine again.. i've not been crubbing since school starts.. partly becoz i'm busy with school work, and also becoz i'm poor le.. haha.. so today was an exception..
But then, zouk was very very crowded today... and the age group seems different from us.. haha.. i don't know.. maybe i've "overgrown"? But don't know what happened.. while entering, saw 4 lambo going in as well.. .wah~~~~ all the ah sia all come le ah? Hahaha.. for me to drive 1 of those.. i think, i got to find a rich dad le.. haha.. kidding.
So don't know what happened also.. zouk was sooooooo crowded till we got no place to put the jugs.. = =.. somemore open bottle.. - -.... haha... well well.. too bad, i've got to pay for my share even though i got the "bday boy" immunity.. haha... sad.
Anyway.. i don't know.. my point is, to cherish whatever is presented.. yupz.. i rather not regret~ Or maybe.. should i seek for my bliss once more?
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Fragile Life..
This afternoon while i was getting ready to go school, i received a sms.. it says one of my band mate's younger sis just passed away from a motor accident the day before... omg.. i really got a shock. Life, is just so fragile..
I just don't know..
And then, after one of my grandma got discharged from hospital, another grandma went in for the 2nd time. Mom says she looks thin.. sigh. I'm worried.. but nothing i can do.
Of coz, there are things which are not up to us. And of coz, by being indifferent can protect oneself.. but then again, if the feeling is indifferent.. i wonder.. is it just a mere existence?
I just don't know..
And then, after one of my grandma got discharged from hospital, another grandma went in for the 2nd time. Mom says she looks thin.. sigh. I'm worried.. but nothing i can do.
Of coz, there are things which are not up to us. And of coz, by being indifferent can protect oneself.. but then again, if the feeling is indifferent.. i wonder.. is it just a mere existence?
Sunday, October 08, 2006
MJ Camp
Another weekend gone just like that..
Saturday was band again.. sian was that it was at boonlay. So darn far lor.. imagine, 1 hour plus there and then another hour back home again. But yesterday went to bt's house for mj instead..
Was "on form" when i 1st sat at the table.. haha.. won 3 times 3 -4 tai in a row wor.. and then.. nightmare started. Haha.. ml won and won and won.. and was playing 20-40... = = So by the end of 2 rounds.. i've lost $10.. and ml? She won $33.. haha... fierce. 1 house clear 3 house lor..
So this morning breakfast was on her.. haha... carried on playing 2 rounds.. and then, it just got worse. Kena tio bao coz hiong too much le.. haha.. kns.. 1 game lost $12.80.. = = Was so suay lor.. that tile was "tested" before de.. and then jj just listen nia and i kena bomb..
So the rest of the game was just trying to prevent my drawer from drying.. whaha.. what's more sian was, everytime i listen for "ping hu", i'll kena flower... and if not, i'll be waiting for "ping hu zi mo" because of kalong.. haha.. sad leh.. and it happened not once.. i think got 5 - 6 times.. or even more..
All in all, 2 days lost $30... hahaa.. i might be better off crubbing? Hahaa.. but jj also very good la.. called KFC for dinner.. wahaha.. but i'm the "major shareholder" wor.. haha...
Got home not long ago.. found that dad got sick le.. he puked and had stomachache. Then grandma got hospitalised... - - How come eveyone got sick nowadays ar... A year ago, i also kena gastric flu.. puked and lao sai till don't know what. Just hoped that everyone got to be alright. Must really take care wor.. and me too. Last year didn't get to "celebrate" my bday coz of the gastric flu... so this year must be careful.
And 10 more days~!!! Wahahaa... can celebrate for 1 whole week.. ahhaa..
Saturday was band again.. sian was that it was at boonlay. So darn far lor.. imagine, 1 hour plus there and then another hour back home again. But yesterday went to bt's house for mj instead..
Was "on form" when i 1st sat at the table.. haha.. won 3 times 3 -4 tai in a row wor.. and then.. nightmare started. Haha.. ml won and won and won.. and was playing 20-40... = = So by the end of 2 rounds.. i've lost $10.. and ml? She won $33.. haha... fierce. 1 house clear 3 house lor..
So this morning breakfast was on her.. haha... carried on playing 2 rounds.. and then, it just got worse. Kena tio bao coz hiong too much le.. haha.. kns.. 1 game lost $12.80.. = = Was so suay lor.. that tile was "tested" before de.. and then jj just listen nia and i kena bomb..
So the rest of the game was just trying to prevent my drawer from drying.. whaha.. what's more sian was, everytime i listen for "ping hu", i'll kena flower... and if not, i'll be waiting for "ping hu zi mo" because of kalong.. haha.. sad leh.. and it happened not once.. i think got 5 - 6 times.. or even more..
All in all, 2 days lost $30... hahaa.. i might be better off crubbing? Hahaa.. but jj also very good la.. called KFC for dinner.. wahaha.. but i'm the "major shareholder" wor.. haha...
Got home not long ago.. found that dad got sick le.. he puked and had stomachache. Then grandma got hospitalised... - - How come eveyone got sick nowadays ar... A year ago, i also kena gastric flu.. puked and lao sai till don't know what. Just hoped that everyone got to be alright. Must really take care wor.. and me too. Last year didn't get to "celebrate" my bday coz of the gastric flu... so this year must be careful.
And 10 more days~!!! Wahahaa... can celebrate for 1 whole week.. ahhaa..
Friday, October 06, 2006
Siao Liao..
A few days back, my CF lecturer is trying to kill me with FST.. haha.. after listening for almost 2 hours of lecture (the other 1 hour went to dreamland, breaks and so on..), i still couldn't get what he was trying to teach. Not that he isn't good.. maybe just that i wanted to know too much. The seperation theory.. haha.. seperate what? Cannot tell lor.. maybe must go ask those pro in CF de liao.
Anyway, i'm going to ki siao le.. haiz.. don't tell me i'm going to study everything for 2 years again? Haha.. ya lor.. i'm being driven crazy by everyone. So bored.. and seems to me nowadays, i'm the most free de in the whole world. Friends are either attached or working.. which renders them busy. Me? Neither.. so this world is bored when you are not with the crowd. LOL.. so sian..
Shockingly, saw one of my secondary schoolmate's friendster profile... and omg.. she was married le.. lol.. so young lor.. i think is 22 ba.. scary lor.. maybe their family very rich ba.. so can marry so early. Me lei? Haven't even save enough for a car lor... not to mention house.. haha.. and i want a lot a lot of things.. i want to have nice things. But the problem is, not enough money. So? Got to study and score well, get good results, and maybe find a higher paying job based on the degree... lol.. sounds so "ping fan".. haha. But nowadays, the mr Ram keeps telling us, "you must make your investment worthwhile".. haha.. ya.. i don't know what changed him this year.. keeps nagging. Maybe it was becoz i scored 7 marks for my LBO then he kena butter? Hahaa.. sorry lah.. i try to score 70 this year can? Hahaa... try only.
Oh yah.. and a few days back, one of my school friend got very "sad".. haha.. coz her "bo lin" is still attached.. whaha.. and so qiao lor.. he purposely walk in front of us, cut our queue to see his gf.. omg.. i think my friend is heartbroken le.. but sadly, i couldn't find any "weapons" to hoot him.. haha.. then the toopid ah li very clever, say take fire extinguisher.. = = lol.. but compared to my 1st years.. i think i couldn't joke that much le.. don't know why.. maybe coz sian of my own lame jokes le ba.. haha.. or maybe really old le?
And 12 more days~!!! yeah~! Hahaha... so happy lor.. and glad to know people are going to celebrate for me.. ^^ Deeply appreciated. And of coz, i'll celerate it myself too.. whahaa.. by of coz.. going crubbing.. yeah.. or maybe pubbing? LOL.. undecided.. undecided.. maybe none of the above.. haha.. coz wanted to save some money ba.. see hows lor.
Haiz.. scared myself these few days with very weird dreams again.. haha.. omg.. i'm thinking so much again. It always happen.. But then again.. i don't know la.. it's so complicated. Hah..
1 am.. time to koon le.. tomorrow still got to go for morning lectures... haizz....
Anyway, i'm going to ki siao le.. haiz.. don't tell me i'm going to study everything for 2 years again? Haha.. ya lor.. i'm being driven crazy by everyone. So bored.. and seems to me nowadays, i'm the most free de in the whole world. Friends are either attached or working.. which renders them busy. Me? Neither.. so this world is bored when you are not with the crowd. LOL.. so sian..
Shockingly, saw one of my secondary schoolmate's friendster profile... and omg.. she was married le.. lol.. so young lor.. i think is 22 ba.. scary lor.. maybe their family very rich ba.. so can marry so early. Me lei? Haven't even save enough for a car lor... not to mention house.. haha.. and i want a lot a lot of things.. i want to have nice things. But the problem is, not enough money. So? Got to study and score well, get good results, and maybe find a higher paying job based on the degree... lol.. sounds so "ping fan".. haha. But nowadays, the mr Ram keeps telling us, "you must make your investment worthwhile".. haha.. ya.. i don't know what changed him this year.. keeps nagging. Maybe it was becoz i scored 7 marks for my LBO then he kena butter? Hahaa.. sorry lah.. i try to score 70 this year can? Hahaa... try only.
Oh yah.. and a few days back, one of my school friend got very "sad".. haha.. coz her "bo lin" is still attached.. whaha.. and so qiao lor.. he purposely walk in front of us, cut our queue to see his gf.. omg.. i think my friend is heartbroken le.. but sadly, i couldn't find any "weapons" to hoot him.. haha.. then the toopid ah li very clever, say take fire extinguisher.. = = lol.. but compared to my 1st years.. i think i couldn't joke that much le.. don't know why.. maybe coz sian of my own lame jokes le ba.. haha.. or maybe really old le?
And 12 more days~!!! yeah~! Hahaha... so happy lor.. and glad to know people are going to celebrate for me.. ^^ Deeply appreciated. And of coz, i'll celerate it myself too.. whahaa.. by of coz.. going crubbing.. yeah.. or maybe pubbing? LOL.. undecided.. undecided.. maybe none of the above.. haha.. coz wanted to save some money ba.. see hows lor.
Haiz.. scared myself these few days with very weird dreams again.. haha.. omg.. i'm thinking so much again. It always happen.. But then again.. i don't know la.. it's so complicated. Hah..
1 am.. time to koon le.. tomorrow still got to go for morning lectures... haizz....
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Hazy
*cough* *cough*... omg.. the haze is back again. And for this morning, the PSI was at 73.. =_=
Felt really uncomfortable wor.. sigh.. even after the morning rain, the air still "smells" the same to me.
Still having lecture in an hour's time.. well.. at least the air is "better" in there..
Opted for noon lecture becoz this week was supposed to be the week where the admins set up their stations outside lectures.. which means i couldn't crash lecture le lor.. haha.. no wonder my MSM class so empty yesterday. Now i know why every class seems so packed...
However, was curious to know if there are any classes on saturdays morning. Supposed to go for band practice at Boonlay.. so might as well set off from clementi after lectures. Well then.. see which module is up on saturday..
Time to go school liao.
Felt really uncomfortable wor.. sigh.. even after the morning rain, the air still "smells" the same to me.
Still having lecture in an hour's time.. well.. at least the air is "better" in there..
Opted for noon lecture becoz this week was supposed to be the week where the admins set up their stations outside lectures.. which means i couldn't crash lecture le lor.. haha.. no wonder my MSM class so empty yesterday. Now i know why every class seems so packed...
However, was curious to know if there are any classes on saturdays morning. Supposed to go for band practice at Boonlay.. so might as well set off from clementi after lectures. Well then.. see which module is up on saturday..
Time to go school liao.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Weekend Again
Made a blunder yesterday. Went for band practice a whole 3 hours earlier. Haha.. reached SCC and then realised nobody was there. Called Ed and then found out.. it only starts at 7pm.. = =
Luckily the weather was great.. very very windy.. and not much sunlight too. Was at Jurong West Street 76.. and i just got there from JP.. so i'm quite lazy to take the same bus back to jp again.. and there.. so ulu lor.. = =
So sian and didn't know what to do.. so tried to call for "help".. lol.. but to no avail ba. So i go around exploring the area. Walked for 10 mins and reached Gek Poh "shopping centre".. haha.. a 2 storey sc.. with 1 mac, 1 food court and then i think a few other retails.. haha.. and the only service escalator is undergoing upgrade.. so only got 1 stairs. Lol. Actually knew of this place a few years back.. so i actually really knew where i was going.. except the route was different.
Intended to walk all the way for 3 hours.. lol.. but think it's quite dumb to tire myself.. haha.. so went mac instead. Had my dinner early and finally.. got my FI notes out to revise. And the more i read, the more i discovered i didn't know.. haha.. i'm so confuse.. and so are the lectures. It seems.. after so many years of studying, everything just suddenly fuse together. FI, CF, POA.. lol.. and i regretted for not remembering what i've studied.
Reached before 7 and then i regretted once again for not making sure the time to reach. It was the 2nd combine with the strings and so the head suggested we do some "ice breakers"! Omg.. hahaa.. i thought i was in camp or what.. still got to play this kind of game.. hahaa... but it was more of a "get to know" session. So suay suay i kena arrowed.. lol.. i was there for 6 years le lor.. hhaa.. what's there to know? Anyway.. was suprised how much i've changed. Used to be like some of the younger kids.. when people ask me to "present" something, i used to hide, get paiseh and all those kind of things... haha.. but now is so different. So.. we do really grow up huh?
And for some of them.. they grew erm..! LOL.. so scary lor.. how come so long never see them, and they are like.. wow.. And also, the older members aren't coming anymore.. sigh.. haha.. and then i'm considered quite old there le.. = = Joined back in 1999 when i was 16, and now i'm 23.. haha.. but the majority of them still 16-18. = =
Got hungry again upon reaching home.. xy asked us to go support in eski.. haha.. but as usual... bo lang lei.. so i asked my buddy out for supper.. ate and then helped out with a composition.. lol.. so scary.. 1 whole night and i only came out with 8 bars of music.. haha... composing isn't that simple when there is no inspiration.. Haha.. not as if we were so free.. but it's for a module.. so bo bian lor..
Sleep at 6am, and then woke up at 10am.. so tired.. haiz.. that more or less concludes my weekend.. haha.. sundays is just about mapling.. lol.
Luckily the weather was great.. very very windy.. and not much sunlight too. Was at Jurong West Street 76.. and i just got there from JP.. so i'm quite lazy to take the same bus back to jp again.. and there.. so ulu lor.. = =
So sian and didn't know what to do.. so tried to call for "help".. lol.. but to no avail ba. So i go around exploring the area. Walked for 10 mins and reached Gek Poh "shopping centre".. haha.. a 2 storey sc.. with 1 mac, 1 food court and then i think a few other retails.. haha.. and the only service escalator is undergoing upgrade.. so only got 1 stairs. Lol. Actually knew of this place a few years back.. so i actually really knew where i was going.. except the route was different.
Intended to walk all the way for 3 hours.. lol.. but think it's quite dumb to tire myself.. haha.. so went mac instead. Had my dinner early and finally.. got my FI notes out to revise. And the more i read, the more i discovered i didn't know.. haha.. i'm so confuse.. and so are the lectures. It seems.. after so many years of studying, everything just suddenly fuse together. FI, CF, POA.. lol.. and i regretted for not remembering what i've studied.
Reached before 7 and then i regretted once again for not making sure the time to reach. It was the 2nd combine with the strings and so the head suggested we do some "ice breakers"! Omg.. hahaa.. i thought i was in camp or what.. still got to play this kind of game.. hahaa... but it was more of a "get to know" session. So suay suay i kena arrowed.. lol.. i was there for 6 years le lor.. hhaa.. what's there to know? Anyway.. was suprised how much i've changed. Used to be like some of the younger kids.. when people ask me to "present" something, i used to hide, get paiseh and all those kind of things... haha.. but now is so different. So.. we do really grow up huh?
And for some of them.. they grew erm..! LOL.. so scary lor.. how come so long never see them, and they are like.. wow.. And also, the older members aren't coming anymore.. sigh.. haha.. and then i'm considered quite old there le.. = = Joined back in 1999 when i was 16, and now i'm 23.. haha.. but the majority of them still 16-18. = =
Got hungry again upon reaching home.. xy asked us to go support in eski.. haha.. but as usual... bo lang lei.. so i asked my buddy out for supper.. ate and then helped out with a composition.. lol.. so scary.. 1 whole night and i only came out with 8 bars of music.. haha... composing isn't that simple when there is no inspiration.. Haha.. not as if we were so free.. but it's for a module.. so bo bian lor..
Sleep at 6am, and then woke up at 10am.. so tired.. haiz.. that more or less concludes my weekend.. haha.. sundays is just about mapling.. lol.
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