I'm a Singaporean by GQoo

National Day coming soon.. and i thought it would be great to join in the fun as well in the "i am singaporean" messages.

"I have a nickname that sounds like a drink, but i'm not in F&B. My mother tongue is chinese, but i prefer to speak singlish. I love to eat bar chor mee with tur kua, and i hate ba kut teh. I eat a lot but i don't get fat. I "contribute" most of my pocket money to the Prata man and i'm glad they've grown. I love beering, especially Erdinger. I hate Vodka because it smells like glue.. but i drank it anyway, because i always lose in 5-10. I'm from JC, which everybody believes is cannot make it. I still make it to a "local" Uni, but nah beh.. i pay adult bus fares.. I like to go crubbing, but i don't like the midnight cab fares. I love to K, but i can't sing. I play the F.Horn, but i'm not professional. I am the bassist in another band, but it is without a name. MJ is also my past time, only when i don't "tio bao". I am a mapler, but i don't say "CC Plz". I don't own a car, but i do have a license. I can drive the forklift, but i don't want to work in a warehouse. I served NS even though i got a PES C9L3. And i ORD-ed without any reduction in my NS liabilities. I haven't been to reservist ever since, and i hoped i don't need to. I served my country, and i loved it.. even thought i refused to take part as a performer in NDP this year. I loved my family even thought they liked to eat ba kut teh. I am a blogger, but i'm not famous. I hate it when my blog was mis-read. And i got more irritated when is was conveyed wrongly. But so long as i don't know.. i guess it's alright. I have a name that was often mis-pronouced, my name is Tan Geng Qin, and i'm a Singaporean! So say we all!... so say we all."

FOC ^^

The list is out ^^ Going for camp again after a year.. and everything seems familiar. Not too familiar i hope.

KUULA - the OG name.. wahahaha.. chim.

Nothing much to blog.. ^^

Forever

Who says nothing is forever? Sadly.

My New "Toy"

Spent hours with my new "toy".. aww.. so busy everyday trying to find something to delete.. whahaa.. and by the way, i've tried out the web cam.. it was so fun! Now seeking out more web cam users.. lol..


The Presario ^^


My Web Cam ^^

Oh ya.. discovered the great uses of Blue Tooth Technology. Sent photo to comp through blue tooth.. wahaha.. heard that printer also got blue tooth.. maybe mouse and keyboard too.. muahaha.. Next time, there won't be cables anymore.. all blue tooth.. maybe toilet flush also use blue tooth ba.. lol!

Work Day

Heh.. today was a work day for me. Yes.. i did say i didn't want to work for the holidays. But what harm will there be for a 1 - day event? LOL.. and to our surprise, the pay was good!

However, had to wake up early. Thankfully i went to sleep early the night before. Woke up at 5+ am to get ready. I had FOD to warm me up on the same week.. so waking up early isn't a problem for me..

Shared cab with a friend to marina.. but the lousy driver.. as if he did it in purpose.. we actually went to Farrer Road and then don't know to where.. i thought, there was a road called Thomson Road? The concluding fare was $13+ .. almost twice the amount if the driver didn't make a "mistake".. in my opinion, it there were so many "mistakes" that it seems impossible. If he wasn't the one dreaming, maybe it was me. So he said, "nevermind.. i know i took the wrong path.. you all just pay me $10 can liao..".. and in fact, we were paying for his "mistake".

So i went for the job without knowing what is was about. LOL.. i just heard, we are supposed to give out goodie bags.. and the quote i got was $60 for 7 hour. Hah.. and the while walking.. i realised something was weird.. i saw no. tag on a lot of people.. so i concluded that it was a morning jog of some sort.. but then as i went along.. i noticed that, there isn't any guy runners.. = =

It was in fact, an all ladies run... = = and i got a shock.. they are not the usual "fun" walkers.. not that of the BigWalk.. these are competitive runners. And their result? 30 mins or less for 5KM.. and less than an hour for 10KM. Wah..


The Event - ISHAPE Run'06.

The Flag Off for the 10 KM race.. okok.. i was standing very far.. lol.

Ofiicially an Official of the event.. ^^

And so, the whole event ended at around 2pm.. it was actually quite interesting to see how people worked.. and being through the SMRT Challenge as participants, and this as an "Official".. it was all great learning experience. Not to mention all events of SRC.

I can conclude. SRC really gives us a preview of what was going to happen.. and no 2 events are entirely the same. Same event will give different shit. Ask the Bazzar committee.. they will know. But i think.. the best part of today was, it was $20 more than what we had expected.. try to work that out.. and whoa.. haha..

Virus Alert!!

All msn messenger users take note: If you all receive any links that says something about posting some files of you and that user on the web, do clarify with the user.

Unsuspecting i was.. ok.. maybe i'm stupid.. sigh. The less then 5 hours old Presario tio virus.. lol.. strangely, virus are attracted to comps with anti virus.. lol..

So a bit sian la.. coz got to scan the laptop.. full of useless files.. but i don't know which are the useful ones. If not i sure reformat it de.. haha.. and then i wonder.. what will become of those hardwares inside?

Now i know the strengths of desktops. Too bad they still look quite bulky.. even without the 3 slot dvd drive.

I hate virus!

Yeah~!

Yeah~ i'm now using the Compaq Presario to blog.. muahahhaaa.. just beside my sis who is mapling.. = =

It was a rather rush decision, but what i said will be done. It's only a matter of time. Still getting use to using laptop.. still evaluating the AMD processor. Whether was it a gimmick, or whether the salesman can really talk well, i did asked about the difference before making a choice. After all, it's just another Apple and Creative question.

Ok.. so it cost me 1.4k for a 1.8 GHZ, 14" "brick".. but i rather pay less. LOL.. so it still left me with just enough to get the D820.

Well.. before i got numb from this 2.4kg of load, i'm already can't stand the heat emitted from this unit.. lol.. okok.. time to try out a bit more before blogging. I find it weird to type on this keyboard... lol..

I'm Not Only Stupid (I'm Stupid 3)

Okok.. today i'm not stupid anymore.. but then again, don't know why i tio.. This time round, they are looking for a guy with the FOD shirt named alan.. As it goes, they are looking for alan wong. But suay suay got 1 alan in my OG. And then my partner very quick witted and smart.. ask my OG alan to wear my shirt. = =".. tai li hai le.. Now i'm wasn't only stupid, i was naked as well.

And then one of them had a sister who came yesterday. So qiao.. same OGLs. No wonder when i said that i was stupid, he knew what i'm talking about. = ="

Today was great! Though started with a foul mood coz of insufficient sleep and the stupid traffic jam in almost every major road. Really very pek chek. But once assuming the role of OGL, things are different. So i say.. personality or what, you won't know its potential.

Maybe it has something to do with luck too. Depending on who is in your OG also. not to mention size. And hence, i salute my OGLs for Warlords. How can they manage an ice berg like us? LoL.. And perhaps, unity is the key to winning. No wonder we lost so many games yesterday.. hahaha.. ice not melted yet.

Didn't want to sell camp anymore.. coz they have hit the celling.. its up to the new batch le.. old birds old liao.. must go home and sleep early. All in all, i will have limited efforts in the club.

But maybe because of age.. maybe because of interest. Maybe because of influence, i'm thinking of joining YEN. LoL.. all because of the POEMS stock challenge. Wah.. but maybe not. I'm too old to be listed as a freshie.

Altogether a great day. I've learnt a lot.. and it really cheers me to see them acting so "noobishly".. haha.. getting to know new friends can sometimes be as difficult. No matter. The coming batch will still be on their own, nevermind the seniors. For, there will always be a line in my opinion.. and their world, is somehow different from mine. Don't really care if they remember or not.. so long as they move on from here, i guess we - Organisers, OGLs and GMs have done our job.. and of course, having fun in the process.

Going out for steamboat again.. wahahaa.. nice nice.. i want to grow fat.. but i'm stuck. Ok.. not really very fat.. maybe just 5 Kg more?

I'm Stupid 2

Oh great oh great.. i need a laptop. And fast! So much to do on the CPU on the move.. so much to do. Somehow, i began working on a stockcheck list.. and then i discover a grave mistake i did last year. Total stock was valued at twice the price. Now this time i got myself into deep trouble because i don't know how to use MS excel. Or should i say, i was rather careless. But then again, if i were to calculate using a calculator.. then why should i use a spread sheet. But something must be done for my mistake.. i wondered what. Perhaps maybe get a scolding or what lor..

Mom says no need to report.. but i still report to the village chief when he returned home.. maybe i thought i'm getting bullet proof le.. haiz.. but i just can't keep something like this a secret.. i study accounting.. and sales less cogs.. oh no.. i forsee a huge accounting problem.

Sigh.. when can i avoid silly mistakes like these? NS also the same.. dealt with inventory and got myself into trouble a few times.. now older liao still as stupid.

Wah lao.. still got contact list to do.. sian ah.. think i do tomorrow ba.. today is too "accident prone" day for me le..

I'm Stupid

Back from FOD. Thought it would be "easy".. haha.. but actually not really. See those sian face almost make me want to sian le. Especially those who never wanted to socialize. You can't do anything at all. But luckily as the day moves on.. some of the ice finally melted. Though some of them still freezes. But then again.. not that i don't care, but i rather save the forest.

So it came as a suprise that i took on a 30 people OG.. and it changes to 33 at some point in time.. lol.. i don't really understand. But the thing is.. if everybody speaks to the ant.. who can hear their name? Yet again, they came for the materials.. not for the orientation. Some really wanted to make more friends.. haha.. i can see, and i appreciate.

My partner xl is from YEN. And i can say.. i'm quite impressed. Hahaha.. and thankfully.. thankfully. Now i know.. YEN trained leaders too.

Oh ya.. by the way.. haha.. i'm stupid. Why? I got forfeited.. haha.. and then had to run round the grandhall shouting, "i'm stupid" I think i scared the OGLs from other groups. Hahaha.. strangely.. i'm not paiseh.. haha.. maybe i grow elephant hide le.

Overall nicely done for the excos~ Congrats! And congrats to us for having this keen eyes on
choosing.. ^^


Our FOD'06 shirt .. lol.. now i got so many colours le.. got yellow, red, grey, and now blue. LoL.. like maple bandana huh?

Glad that things are well. Although a bit disappointed at my performance.. but then.. it wasn't too bad.. haha.. so maybe tomorrow shall be better? And when FOC comes, it shall be all out. And perhaps, i'm not really that stupid?

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Someday

Saw an ad which looks quite interesting. "Someday, someone will end all wars.. why not your child?"

"Someday.. school kids will fight in the toilet.. why not your child?"

"Someday.. some video clip of some poly kids will be posted on the web.. why not your child?"

Hmm.. better not be my child...

"Someday, someone will score 1st class... why not my parents' child?"

Sigh.. i'm under performing.

Been practicing on the base guitar these days.. and the blisters got worst.. the strings are so much thicker than my acoustic guitar.. lol.. and the part is actually quite .. boring. Lol.. but i love the heavy base sound.. and playing some simple pieces with my mp3s.. lol. Too bad the rest of them are so busy with work.. no time to go studio to practice. And there is no need to.. haha.. too lousy already. Since the beginning some one year ago.. we're still as weak as usual. Actually, it was only during holidays that we are free enough..

Time flies.. it's already July. And i haven't started revision on my repeat mod. Read some things on FI.. already i feel very stress le. 6 modules? Think the next sem will be a weird one..

Money flies too.. flown away le.. lol.. who asked me not to work? Maybe i'm lazy.. maybe. Maybe i'll just like to enjoy this time where i still can afford not to work. 2 - 3 years later, it shall be full time working.. till then, where to find such long vacation?

As i was blogging.. dy xx msned me my partner to be for the FOD. Hmm.. hoped that she's more zai than me ba.. coz i noob. Haha.. actually no.. coz i want to slack. But come what may.. FOD is "nothing" compared to FOC. No worries though.. i not buay zai one.. whaha.. especially from the ex exco.. where got buay zai one? But then again.. a lot of ex excos will be there as OGL.. lol.. too many zai kah.. then relatively, i'll be buay zai le.. whahaa.. (that is, assuming the hierarchy system)

Thursday le.. tomorrow will be K-ing.. whaha.. so long never sing.. and maybe.. going for mj on friday night, followed by sat's morning FOD briefing, sat's night mj, sun's sherry's bday, sun's night WC.. whoa.. such a busy weekend..

Germany Out

LoL.. i changed my mind last minute after consulting the "expert" at home. Mom says, "where got semi finals so many goals 1?'.. and i'm glad i heed her advice. So in the end, it was, 1-1, 0-0 and 1-0.

At the start of the match, already can tell that the Italians are better. but why must it be 0-0? Whaha.. it's the lowest odds of them all.. so in the end, i've won enough to buy myself a few packets of sweets.. = ="" But at least, i've covered the last portugal lost ^^

Maybe today, i'll give back whatever i have to the pool again. Gambling is like this.. when you win, you'll bet again, hoping to win more. When you lose, you'll bet hoping to recoup the losses. So there is no end to it..

Thankfully, there isn't much more matches to go. Already i can feel the tiredness in me.. maybe i won't be watching tonight's match. And won't be betting too.. odds are too low to be of help. Maybe try HT-FT.. hhahaa.. this is better. 1X2 is pian qian 1.. and only serves as a hedge.. the best is guess the score. Won't be higher than 2-2 lor..

Sadly, Germany lost.. lol.. no need to pack bag though.. coz they are at home already. No.. coz there's still a 2nd runner up placing.. Now i don't know who to support already.. lol. Maybe Italy? Maybe France? Maybe Portugal? but i'd like to see portugal win the championship.. coz they got no stars.. lol.. must be fair mah.. lol.

Low Risk, Low Return

Using my brain now to predict the outcome of the match. Will it be Italy? Or will it be Germany? History stands in favour of the away team, with 2 wins and 2 draws. But what about home advantage and the big-small eyes refree? Lol.. this is hard.. the ball is round and my money is not.

Trying ways to beat the odds.. but it seems, the pools are backed by highly trained statisticians. But statistics are nothing but history. I don't really depend on percentage.. So long as you are heng.. even $1 can hit the toto jackpot. But then, i need money.. what better way then to get them through betting other than doing illegal things? Lol.. but then again.. it's so difficult to take the sides. Especially so after Brazil got knocked out.. tells me.. tells me.. how shall i "invest"?

Tonight match.. watching at a friend's house again.. lol.. watch alone = boring. Watch outside = expensive. Watch at friend's house is the best la. But to bring more "excitement" into my nua and boring world.. must bet "a bit".. if not, don't know to support who. Thinking of going for Germany or draw.. but it's so difficult. Odds are so low that it's not taking the risk. 2.3 for german win and 2.8 for a draw. But maybe i'll try something else... go for score.. higher pay offs.. and i'll try to arbitrage.. whahaa.. the difference is, the winnings are shared among the losses.. and then in the end, it'll be a small win, depending on how much is "invested". Caps at $100.. lol.. i'm poor.. haha.. Though illegal bookies might offer a better odds, 2.0 or so for a win or draw (for italy).. but hors... just now did i mention that "other than doing illegal things?" lol..

Okok.... maybe i'll ponder for a while.. lol.. before heading for the nearest station for "polling"..

Been really busy these few days.. picked up my bass guitar once again after a year.. whaha.. and then i got blisters almost instantly.. sigh. Now typing also hurts.. >.< .. especially on a heated keyboard of a laptop.

Speaking of laptop.. it's been a year as well.. thinking of buying one, but then that time, i was dissuaded.. i do agree, it's "useless" if the mobility is not ultilised. But then again, what i needed was not only the added option of mobility, but also the amount of space it'll save me.. Getting impatient and i can't wait for the com fair in sept or the july poly com sales.. Savings of $200 - $400 if i'm not wrong.. but what i needed was just another comp to "stand in" for this p4 of mine that shuts down periodically. Plus, if i keep on moving like what i'm doing now.. i'll surely need a laptop. But then, it'll be another $1400 - $1800 out of my reserves. Sian.

Going on to reserves.. maybe it's time to let idle cash work a bit. Think of a low risk low return Fixed D.. or maybe even insuracne pegged to unitrust. Or maybe even create a portfolio for shares? Maybe that'll be my "work" for this holiday.

Been nuaing too much at home.. but going out is too expensive for me. Crubbing, drinking, and mj-ing.. all in all, since the end of exams, $400 had been spent just like that.. without a trace. Maybe next time i should get something tangible.. for example, a laptop.

Things said would be done. The only thing is, when. Needed for it to generate enough motivation for me to act.. that's all.

Ok.. going out now to place bet.. but still don't know want to bet who.. maybe i'll go for draw.. But it's 0-0 (4.5), 1-1 (6.00), and 2-2 (17.00) plus hedge with a Germany win (2.30) of 3 times.. lol.. the worst outcome shall be, if Italy win.. then i'll lose all. LoL.. or if 0-0, i'll lose a bit. But i'm actually targeting a 2-2 draw.. whaha.. then i huat ah~ Hmm.. seems easy? Nope. Low risk, low return.

Luck-less

Tired after mj camp. Tired from losing. Lol.. Did a spectacular stunt.. tried to hiong but tio snipe.. then tio bao gor tai.. sigh.. really no luck means no luck. Cannot get flowers and plus must play "pong pong".. really lousy luck these few months. Luck only turned a bit better this afternoon.. after losing around $20+.. lol. And plus.. lost to sg pools to.. haiz. Really no luck huh?

And then maybe.. Success = (Luck + Skill)*Experience.

Brazil got knocked out.. Quite sad ba.. i thought they were going to dominate WC again.. but seems that history never fails to repeat. England also like that.. Brazil also like that.. Some things are just weird..

Haiz.. will it ever ceased?

Was on my way home today when i saw an accident.. it was quite bad.. seems and there were 2 ambulances at the scene. Ok.. i understand.. it's quite rare to see a car get crushed until don't know like what.. But hor~ the road only got 2 lanes leh. And hors.. the accident occupied 1 lane. That means left only 1 lane.. and hor.. as all will expect, there is quite a bad jam there.. 1 lane plus the kaypo people there.. I just don't get it. So nice to watch meh? People injured leh.. so nice to watch meh? Not all are like that though.. i'm not saying all.. luckily i wasn't in a hurry.. if not, i'll be damn pissed but those kaypo kia.. Think i got stuck for 20 minutes or so.. but it was time wasted for no reason. No.. not that time shall not be wasted to access the accident. They happen and no one can blame anyone. But to stop and hog the road to watch, that is unreasonable. More spectacularly (if there is such word or spelling.. lol) is that the opposite traffic was also jamed. For no reason. People can stop at the side of the lane just to watch!!??!... Okok.. maybe the reason was, people are just too excited to see something out of the ordinary. But that, does not justify for the time wasted. Just my luck anyway.

Irritated by things in my room that don't belong to me. Sigh.. didn't really have control over.

Too tired to really think of trivial things.. i must go to sleep le..

I Don't Understand...

Went school early.. never been that "early" before.. lol.. mission was to "clean up".. but in the end.. i think we just ts-ed all the way. Wahaha.. as usual, fun as usual.

Set off to united square for international buffet lunch.. and it was, wow at first. But then, as i tried the food, i think, merchant court is better ba.. haha.. but i don't like the feeling of having buffet.. eat too full and i start to blame myself for having no constrain..

After lunch.. gave bt a surprise "visit" at the punggol mansion.. for mj again. And don't know since when, luck is rotten for me. And it hasn't changed... i think i must hide for the time being le.

Today, i'm impressed. So much can be derrived. If i just say, i lost in mj.. maybe people will ask me, "you bankrupt ah?" If i say Germany won.. then maybe they'll ask, "you went to Germany to watch the match?" okok.. i know i know.. my fault hor? Sai! I'm just too tired to blog about irritants.. lol. (ok.. for those with ultra long antenna and if you think that i'm talking about you.. i suggest that you don't read. BECAUSE, most likely, i'm not.. for, 1) Blog shall not be used as a tool to attack people (or animals) 2) I will be damn stupid to write about those who will have access to this URL whether by word of mouth or sigh language)

Too tired to kp anymore. Real tired. Tomorrow still have to go for fod briefing.. lol.. tired. Better to rest well and early. Don't know what people will tell me tomorrow.. lol.. i'm waiting.

SianZ

Holidays without work is sian. Work le also sian. Study also sian. Lol.. nothing to do except to nua at home. My forte i guess.

Mapling too much until i want to puke le.. haha.. now what? It seems to have tons of unfinished business to clear before the end of exams. Suddenly, it all disappeared.

Especially sian was that wc took a short holidays.. match will only resume tomorrow.. and i might be out in town to watch a match.. finally! Hmm.. beer and all.. this is perhaps, the kind of life that i yearn for.

And just that, ex vp reminded me.. another wc tomorrow morning.. wahhaa.. world ts cup.. 9.30am sharp in SIM.. whaha.. but i might be late.. lol.. after so long.. finally get to touch ts again. Will be in school for the handing over of SRC.. lol.. how many times they want to hand over? Lol.. but on account of the free buffet lunch.. i'll be there definately! Heard from the current excos that they did not receive any invitation.. hmm.. then who are we going to hand over to? Maybe it's a facade? Whaha.. get us all back to clear up the SRC room.. just kidding..

Tomorrow will be a busy day.. woot~ (learn from sher 1.. whahaa..)

Sigh.. and other than sleeping, online and watching tv, i don't think i've been doing anything constructive. How wasteful of time. But i really don't know what to do.. and i don't feel like doing anything.. since when.. i think my brain freezes already.

Haiz.. really bored that bo liao things will appear in the entry.. lol.. better stop for today.

Wardrobe SOS

They say DIY (do it yourself) ... and i then i began to wonder.. DI why.. coz when it comes to me.. it becomes DIM (do it myself). And it's really dim..

All revolves round my toopid cupboard which was taken over from my sis. Mom doesn't like to throw things away.. and so, for her room, or rather for almost the entire house, there isn't a wall to spare. In my room, i had this computer desk, and another which was bought by grandma for the village chief. He didn't like it.. so it ended up in my room. My sis changed her bed and wardrobe.. so it ended up in my room.. sigh.. what else next? Not to mention the 3 towering bookshelves that was used to shelter most of the chief's newspaper cutting.. Now my room too, doesn't have any empty wall.

So what do i do with things that i didn't choose? I tried to mod it.. haha.. and almost always end up in disaster. This time was with the cupboard that turned mo peng.. whaha..


Before - After (sliming ad?)

It was initially brown in colour.. but i wanted black.. so a few days ago, i went to paint it black.. or so i thought? Lol.. it was a very bad experience with the black gloss paint.. i guess i'm not well trained enough. In the end, screwed up the doors... and tried to salvage it by scrapping it off... with a screwdriver! No wondered it got more screwed up~ lol.. and so the mo peng cupboard got very sad. And i got very pek chek.. everyday scrape with screwdriver.. until the almighty village chief suggested that i get a paint remover to "tia" the paint off.. so i set off early in the morning to get the paint remover, a scrapper, a new tin of non-gross paint.. (matt paint that is) and also a few brushes. All costing $23 at TP (thomson plazza).. sigh.. now the cupboard cost $36 liao..

Worked all day, and the paint remover worked like a charm.. lol.. by now, i think i can be a professional "painter" le.. lol.. of coz not like da vinci like that ba.. and by the time i completed this SOS.. it's already night time.. think i inhale too much fumes.. lol.. a bit headache le.. maybe sleep in the living room for a few days.

Lol.. other than mapling .. there are lot more things to do.. lol.. cannot everyday play.. if not no meaning in life le.. haha.. of coz, i'll still chiong lvl.. especially those who kpkb 1... lol.. try to train 1 warrior to lvl 63 without 2X.. no need to hao lian 1 lor.. can't stand it.

And then i disband the guild.. haha.. coz help needed at old guild.. lol.. and i still like it there ^^ GM is still as "irritating" as usual.. haha.. coz he don't want me to catch his level.. lol.. okok.. so today i "let him 1 horse".. wahhaa...

Been very tired these few days.. coz i think i've maple too much.. and last Sunday, went wm's house to watch wc.. I thought i was watching street fighter between holland and portugal. 20 cards in total i think.. whahaa.. and of which, 4 red.. 9 v 9 man.. whaahaaa.. too bad Holland lost.. their defend too cmi le.. Why it turned out that way? Lol.. coz the Netherlands whack Ronaldo until he cried.. whaha.. then the teamates want to revange.. so end up fighting.. lol..

Was at bishan watching both matches that day.. No wonder beckham was still in the england squard.. without him, there'll be no goal.. boring match.. haha.. So after that match, we got hungry.. wanted to call pizza h*t to order.. it was past midnight.. so it was supposed to be a Monday.. and there's promos on Monday.. but the operator says they considered it a Sunday.. What the.. then what, Monday (after midnight) i call again then they say that it's Tuesday already? But still nevermind.. i'm craving for pizza.. but when we ordered, he say no more pizza le.. &%^$$^% simi sai.. like that no need to do business le lor..

In the end, when to S11 for mee.. sian... all the stall closed for WC is it? Lol.. got hungry again at holland's half-time.. so this time round, ordered Mac.. heh.. and they came withing 1/2 hour ^^.. though without the flips as advertised.. haha..

And i thought that the netherland match was already amazing with 6 mins added.. lol.. and who thought that italy won the round in the last few seconds with a penalty? Lol.. it must have shattered a lot of hearts.. for those that took 1 from Italy, and for those who were so happy that they didn't lose till they get heart attack. Lol.. the ball is so round.

Saw someone's msn nick.. the world sucks.. that's why we won't fall off.. lol.. i think it really sucks to the core. Someone threw something down from my dad's work place and that something hit the Spaceship 5... tmd.. should be from some red eye monster.. knn.. it shattered the spaceship rear windscreen.. don't know that one call what.. i don't have a car.. haha.. and just say sorry can le? Think must sue him then he will be good. But dad go claim insurance.. so he'll be taking bus.. haha.. don't know he knows where to alight or not.. lol.. that red eye monster.. so zek ark.. i shall curse him till the spaceship 5 is back.

So my achivement for today.. is i've completed the paint job.. haha.. and i've cursed the red eye monster.. haha.. but i didn't maple.. lose sudden interest.. coz ppl xl to me.. lol.. nevermind.. i wait lor.. haha..

A Seh Day

Survived another round without puking.. wahaha.. i'm so impressed with myself. Actually not. Another $70 or so gone, and i don't intend to work.. so don't ask me anything about work.

Quite like going crubbing with a crowd.. coz when they pooled the resources, or rather, the alcohol, i end up taking the lion's share... whahaa.. maybe i suay.. maybe i did it on purpose.. but no matter, it was economical.

But yesterday was rather boring.. wondered why. Perhaps of the on-going match.. or so i presumed. Maybe crubbing is no longer for me? After almost 1 year of regular crubbing.. i think i'm going to stop le.. no mesos to spent liao.. haha..

And still, if i meant to hide anything, this wasn't the best attempt yet. But certain things are there and it wasn't as if nothing has happened before. I don't know whether anyone understands this kind of feeling.. but sure it wasn't very good. Not particularly moody of whatsoever.. just maybe awkard? And after so long.. lol.. it's still the same. Perhaps it's in the personality. I didn't ignore my own feelings.. it's rather irritating. But i can't identify it either. Sure it isn't anything aww-ish i conclude. Not hatred certainly. And perhaps this weird weird feeling will stay with me until i forget to feel..

If you were me, what would you do? The facade? The ignorant? The indifferent? The escapee? or the happy-go-lucky? Sometimes i do not really wish to think about how to face it. And so it turns out.. i do run.. coz i know i won't be able to put on a false front. Coz emotion surge always got the better of me. But no matter which, certain things happened that just couldn't be erased.

Nobody has any rights to judge me. You are not me. Do not tell me what to or not to do. For, you won't understand unless it pricks on you. Of coz, i appreciate all the concerns given.. i'm really ok.. just need a bit more time. They say, time heals.. i agree. It's just a matter of time, at this point in time.

Enough said. I do not wish for anything. Neither do i wish for nothing.

The child in me still haven't grow up... haha.. how i wish i can be deprived of those childish behaviour.. of those lost in control. But i guess not in the next few years.. lol.. someone still refuse to grow up.. haha..

Still haven't finished.. haha.. back to "last night, i was dreaming.." No.. i mean last night. Haha.. Really had too much.. coz of the toopid 5-10 game. Dq too pro le.. and so i had unlimited supply of housepour lor.. hahaa.. don't know want to thank him for it or not. Lol.. But i can say.. they are hao ren lor.. lol.. dq see me drink until seh liao then he "put water".. lol.. my antenna ultra long de.. can sense.. and i thank him for that ^^.

Da ge Dom came rather late.. and when he reached, gq already quite seh le. Still play 5-10 with him.. on long island. Hahaa... my motive is, to "pian jiu"... whahahaaa.. last time when i puked.. it was also 5-10 with da ge. He too li hai le... wahhaa.. after long island still got beer.. wahahaa... i like beer leh.. though the after taste in the morning is yucky.. LOL.. maybe i just like the carbonic acid.. or don't know what la.. chemistry return to teacher le.

And then soon, everyone left.. but i still didn't hear the song i want~!! LoL.. "Love in the 1st Degree".. so i chill out there alone lor ^^ It was very fun being alone in a crub~ Not that i can pian xiao mei mei without my friends seeing la.. haha.. i botak.. cannot pian anyone..and i don't have the capability to pian also lor.. But as i was watching the match at Zouk (they showing the holland match), got 1 guy came to ask me the score.. maybe he seh until cannot see the numbers.. haha.. me too. I don't even know who scored where after staring at the screen for 10 - 20 mins.. lol.. really ultra seh. Before dom went home, he asked me got his number or not.. asked me to message him when i got home.. wah.. really da ge leh.. haha.. so good 1.. lol.. so i felt lucky.. those in my og all hao ren.. lol..

Song came at 3.30am or so... and went home after listening. Still ultra seh... level dropped a lot lor.. lol.. my peak was during 2005 bash.. haha.. now sucks le. The score still 0-0, so i went to bed.. woke up at 10.30am, still seh.. Headache, no voice.. and suddenly i remembered a message i've sent yesterday.. wahahaa.. now got handle le.. die.

Must be the overdose of alcohol.. i've been lao sai-ing from morning till now.. and while blogging this entry, i lao sai-ed 2 times le lor.. haha.. (remind you all.. this is my blog.. don't say i crude or what hor.. don't like then don't see lor.. ^^) Hmm.. remind me to stay away from excess dose of alcohol.

But the poor me.. still got another chionging session to clear with bt and sy they all.. haiyo.. don't know jj and ml can go or not.. heh.. it shall be fun.. and it's open to all ^^ Too many people.. don't know who to call.. so.. see liao just go ba.. lol.. it'll be on a wednesday of coz.. to save mesos for the ladies.. and let the guys eyes eat ice-cream.. wahahaa..

Maybe till then, i shall quit crubbing le.. i perfered a more uncomplex environment.

My "Mo Peng" Cupboard

Did a very stupid thing today.. don't know where has my brain gone. In an attempt to revamp my cupboard, i went to the paint shop nearby to buy a tin of paint. $13 for a small small tin.. And when auntie asked me whether i want it gloss, i nod my head. And then the impatient me.. never wait for the brush to dry before starting.. and now the gloss paint bacame gross paint. 1 patch 1 patch.. and the more i tried to salvage it, the worst it become.. and now i'm very pek chek~

Wondering what to do next.. sometimes didn't really think well before acting.. and as always, screwed up while trying to make something better. Hmm... can't really take off the paint.. they are not meant to be taken off that easily.. haiz.. what to do? A "mo peng" cupboard.. however much layer i applied, it just got worst. Maybe i can try to paste newspaper over it? Lol.. tried on a small area.. it seems to work.. for the moment.. but then again.. i think it'll be the start of a disaster.

Watch SA v Ukraine last night.. and the refree was so funny! Lol.. he crossed the ball to Ukraine lor.. lol.. heng heng score then how? Ukraine supposed can score that.. but since it was from Mr Refree.. i think they paiseh to score also.. haha.. Anyway, they scored back 4 goals.. at least got their pride back from the last 4-0 defeat.

Nowadays cannot bet soccer.. coz police catching bookies le.. and also, the ball is really round. They like to net it at 4 mins or 88 mins.. i wondered why. In any case, see this kind of match will either sian 1/2 from the early goal or die of heart attack from the late goal.

Very funny.. haha.. life is just like a game of football. So long as you win.. who cares how many cards you get? Play until people bleed also nevermind.. so long as you win. But.. people play until others bleed.. and still draw nia.. haiz.. lousy leh. Upset the match somemore.. think a lot of people lose money.. Sometimes people are just like the refree, very bias 1.. the best is, be friends with the refree.. then no bias against... coz he'll paiseh one.. whaha..

Come tomorrow, will be going out early in the morning to TTSH for checkup on arthritis.. don't know want to take the medicine or not... haiz.. medicine = regular blood test.. haiz.. and maybe shop around to get another tin of paint.. this time i think i'll get matt finished.. unless it stands for "mad" ? Then.. hmm.. maybe i'll go tour in town... lol.. but i'm so lazy..

And erm.. i don't know why.. don't ask me again hor.. i really have no idea whatsoever. It's so strange.. i got credited (or discredited) for the things i didn't do.. strange.. maybe someday i really do it then maybe i'll feel better? So strange.. not me lor.. but its always like that. Things are not what they always seems to be.. yet they always like to see things the way they think it would be.. lol.. And more strangly.. things that are there.. so OBVIOUS.. and they failed to see it.. want me to get heart attack is it? IT'S SO DAMN F-ing OBVIOUS.. and i think more than half of the world's population knows it.. so .. please.. open the eyes bigger.. OBSERVE.. and don't give me anymore heart attacks. Lol.. it isn't true actaully. Not many knows. And nobody has antenna i guess.. this is not the first time.. lol.. but then again.. it's pissing me off.. haiz..

Ignore me. I'm just too pek chek from the mo peng cupboard.. but then again.. i might try to paint my desk tomorrow.. wahaha.. and ya.. tomorrow might be going crubbing.. yay? Lol.. who wants to go? Drinks not provided though.

Troubled

Very tired since the end of the exams. Haven't been sleeping and eating well and feeling very irritated by now.

Stayed at punggol for 2 days.. lol.. it was, fun. A birthday celebration that looks like xmas ^^. Too bad.. i didn't have my own transport.. that place was.. far.

Too much to blog till i forgot.. or rather, was pissed by some other things of non- disclosure. Haiz.. i've been bothered too much.. and i don't know..

I don't really like the feeling of not being able to sleep well.. but since last week.. i've been having all sorts of dreams, non which really has a moment to remember.

JJ just told me that SMRT have sent us the challenge email again.. wahaha.. and heard that it'll be 2k prize this time round! Lol.. for me.. i don't know.. but hor.. some of the games are really very paiseh 1.. whahaa.. think it's worst than having to kiss a dinosauric "SP". But.. i got a strange feeling.. we might go take part again.. - -

Playing with my "GPS" enabled phone these days.. whahaa.. it's so fun.. lol.. i'll never get lost again.. well.. not really i guess.

So much of digging, and yet nobody realised. And those who realised, are those whom i've told. And those that i've told, are making a fuss.. till i've lost it. Sigh.. i wished for so much.. and i really don't know what to do now. Making a choice is difficult.. if ever once. I've been so protective.. and maybe secretive.. for i fear losing.. haiz.. someone~ just tell me what should i do..

Oh ya.. I'm going for FOC as an OGL le.. ^^ yay~ xx says i'll tag with pl (our CV 2nd ic).. whoa... haha.. think must be rather zai huh? Lol.. 2 ic leh.. but still.. don't know is confirm 1 or not.. ^^ Looking forward.. yet, i'm really very troubled by some other things..

A Nong Story

And then after so many years, i finally found out the truth.. no, not i found.. i was told.. seems the whole world knew what was happening .. except me. And so it was how this story goes.. that someone was to cross path again. And then things just fall into place.. no wonder the missing link.. now i'm clear.

Congratulations to having an "extension" year in SIM. Nope.. i'm not pessimistic, just being realistic. And for those others who thinks you'll find comfort in finding someone who did worst.. refer to me please. And don't keep telling me that i'll make it.. for, you are not me.. you won't know how well or badly i did.

And please don't make a mountain out of molehill.. fail fail lor.. as if i will kill myself like that.. haha.. just that perhaps, realised that things shouldn't be done in a certain way. Just that.

By now, guess some might already know.. but it's ok.. it's my blog.. so i'll just enter. Those who are free enough.. try to make bukit timah into Mt Everest.. i think the government will thank you for it. Ok.. 1) i walked out of my LBO paper after attempting HALF a question.. totalling about 3/4 of the page. 2) I didn't went for my FI (don't ask me why) 3) Attempted 2 full question ONLY for MKTG (The reason isn't important anymore)

Sometimes.. the reason couldn't be so clear cut.. it was not affected by 1 variable but a multitude of them. And anything after everything is just excusses. I have no wish to say anymore and i DON'T NEED to explain to anyone. Call me anything.. afterall.. it doesn't happen to everyone, i know.

And regarding the WHY.. "why didn't you go?" "at least you'll stand a chance." Yes.. that in theory, is 100% proven. Yet.. this is not to go and then get a chance to pass. It's about the cost incurred. Opportunity cost. I rather stay at home and do other things rather than to go through the trouble of going for a paper that i'll fail. An anticipation itself, can lead to failure. It didn't need anything more.

And about whether i'll have any regrets.. it's not about going or not going for the exam. It's about why i didn't start a bit earlier. And for other things that happend along the way, it was just that it had happened. I don't blame.

While it all ended the day it started, (i mean the exam) i wondered why do i torture myself for the past 5 weeks.. i can just enjoy it at the beginning.. lol.. perhaps, that, was my greatest regret.

On the brighter side.. at least i know which modules i'll be taking (or rather, retaking).. so that leaves me 3 whole months to Pre-emptive the year .. whahahaaa.

Since after the failed attempt.. i concluded:
1) Never work while schooling (you'll pay for more that you get.. if not equal)
2) Never have a botak head during the exams (hair is somehow linked to the brain and memory)
3) Try not to walk out of the exam hall in advance (Stay at home is a better option)

Haha.. just kidding.. yet, regarding work.. i think i'll just have to concentrate on schooling first. And be sure that i remembered. Coz just yesterday, i went through my journal.. and then i discovered the similarities.. hahaha... as what some "come here people" (guo lai ren) says, "some things never change".. and i agree. And while i laughed at my bad english of that time, there are some serious issues to address now based on the past.

While i went on to find an answer in the coming year, i await my 6 modules and plus 1 for an additional year. Anyone free enough.. can join me. Whahaa..

Just that day... woke up to the sound of the horn at my block. Don't know which kuku play the horn at night.. and while half awake.. i can still follow the tune of the song.. haha.. coz i just performed that piece with SWE a few months ago.. haiyo.. bad memories.. and they kept asking me to go back.. but.. i've already lost it.. haiz.. maybe i'll find it back someday.

Noticed something new appearing at the top corner of my 1.5 years handphone.. and it says.. the address of the block next to me! Wah.. so li hai! GPS or something like that.. it shows 3 locations.. one of them, thomson plaza.. wah.. i'm damn impressed! Not that i mountain tortise la.. i saw this thing on yy's (not WYWY) hp long time ago.. but the thing was, it wasn't appearing on my hp.. i thought it didn't had this function, or rather FUNtion..lol. Then suddenly, it appeared out of nowhere.. Whahaa.. perhaps my phone knows that i might be changing it.. sooner or later to the samsung.. still don't know the model number.. haha.. so delightful was the finding of a new toy. Can't wait to test it outside.. in this way, i'll never get lost during bus rides! ^^

And it marks the start of a new year of challenges ahead.. sian but choiceless. Haha.. just "work harder" next year lor.. haha.. now i understand why do we get so much room to improve each year.. is because we didn't the previous year.. whahahaa...

Lost..

Has it failed me? I think so.. this is going to be the worst so far..

This isn't as easy as i thought it would be.

And the consequence isn't what i'm prepared to bear.

Haiz.. what is happening????

A sudden unawareness, and this is what happens... i need to take a break.. i need to rest.. i need to think again.

What is this all about.. what is this all about.. what is this all.. about?

Maybe i know.. for perhaps it's the wrong place again. For now, i'm just tired.. too tired to do anything.

Betting Intermediation

Match between Australia and Japan just ended in a 3 - 1 in favour of the Kangaroos.. and that all happened in the last 10 mins.. i think those that bet Japan will flip in the last 10 mins.. hahaa.. i wonder how the bookies are doing.

But as they are, they do perform the job of matching.. lol.. similar to that of Financial Institutes (eg. Banks) where they match loans and deposits of different interest rates. For the bookies, it'll be matching the odds. As such, i conclude, bookies will make good bankers! Haha.. they also perform the main functions of banks, which includes the collection and analysing of ingformation. They also provides the function of brokerage without altering the nature of the claim. The only thing different.. they don't really alter the claim (or rather, the bet) in any way. In banks, maturity and liquidity is transformed.. for example, a short term liquid depsit to a long term illiquid loan. But for the bookies, in goes money, out comes money.. and the bookie profits from the way they position their odds. (more related to interest rate than intermediation)

Another thing that i've observed.. is that, you could actually hedge your bet! Haha.. but for what reason in betting, is maybe an obsession with hedging (which means no win and no lose).. and maybe in the end, there'll be not much time to source out all the available odds and information.. this, in theory is possible.. but i guess nobody will want to forfeit the profit..

All in all, actually there is still much differences between these two worlds.. if not, all bookies can be bankers liao.. for what be bookie and get caught?

And for me, my obsession is which FI for the moment.. and as such, tried ways to twist an irrelevant subject to something much interesting.. to whatever effects, i don't know.. just hope that i'll pass FI and get into the 2nd round perhaps. That should spare me the agony of a 4th year in school.

And it Keeps On

And the agony keeps on. Weather is either too warm or too cold for studying.. i think i'm going to fall sick soon. Plus the late nights on WC.. i wonder how i'm going to get by. Already feeling feverish.. haha.. slept at 5 am daily becoz of wc... and not studying.. haiz.. come.. let me fail.

And as it keeps on, it's slowly diminishing my will to study. Felt like forfeiting this year.. ARRR... so sian.. so sian.. i don't even know what's happening.. 2 more days and it shall conclude every damn single thing.

Fixed the sound card on my cpu a few days back.. and suddenly my comp got sound! Haha.. which means finally my maple is with sound.. lol.. took the card out a few month's ago.. and finally it's back. Now can enjoy mp3 on my comp le.. yay~ Of coz that means taking "orders filling" some other songs..

WC matches are sometimes so unpredictable.. haiz.. so sian lo.. everyday blog.. until i got nothing to blog.. haha.. maybe i'll rest ba.. time to get back to Iran V Mexico le..

England V Paraguay

The match between England and Paraguay had just ended. Not really that interesting ba.. *yawnz*..

No scores from either sides.. except the own goal by Paraguay in the starting 3 mins.. and that was enough to seal their fate. First half was very boring.. but the 2nd was different. Much more "action' and of coz one very interesting thing.. that the England goalkeeper, or rather, the "Mightly Sir Robinson" kicked the ball so high that it hit the top of the Stadium! O.O

Hahaa.. so li hai! And then today received a call from sim.. haha.. i'm going to be OGL~ ^^ Yay~ Well, that was a "once in a lifetime" experience i guess.. and yupz.. hopefully i won't be the sort who kept down playing on the excos.. like what our batch encountered. My point is, the choice is yours, and you'll have to stand by your choice. For better or worst, they are not supposed to be the tool of the alter ego of others. Which means, respect and support and maybe just keep the mouth shut. Haha.. reign is over and it's time for them to show their power.. Not surprisingly, we are rather confident that day when the list were released.. ^^

And no matter how they fair, it will be their own learning experience.. haha.. not mine anymore.

Next match at 12am.. haha.. think i can fail my FI at this rate.. sianz.

Ecuador in Dreamland

"Ecuador has surprised Poland, and surprised the World".. I think the succeeded in suprising the bookies as well. Whahaa.. sadly, it's a 2-0 in favour of Ecuador. I guessed not everything is that "predictable" huh?

And this marks the first day of WC 2006 with 2 matches down~ And the time slots will be 9 pm, 12 am and 3 am for the rest of the matches.. whoa.. can't wait to watch the rest of the matches. Till the next match, time to go mug just a bit more.. = =

World Cup Update~

Heh.. as expected, Germany won! ^^ 4 - 2 And i think those catching the odds are quite very impressive! How they know it's just a 2 goal win? LOL.. wow... it's not really luck in this sense hor.. i never knew that matches also had probability.. what about probability of pass failing 3 or more mods? Haiz.. haha.. sian hor.. world cup period still must think of exams.. while the rest of the world can enjoy the match with glups of beer.. i can only do it with coffee..

Having FI notes at my side.. and it was accompanied by the occasional glance at the green tv screen decorated with red and whites. And quite difficult for FI to sink in.. especially with all the Gaps Analysis.. argh..

Thanks my friends for the encouragements on the comments there.. yupz.. i saw it ^^ Yet i can't understand what is happening to my second year in SIM. Of coz i'll try my ultimate best in getting by.. But it seems to be too little too late? Whatever the outcome, it'll be.. and may this be the last time.

Definately not going to give up on FI at this point in time.. the rest of the minor worries can wait till.. but then again, what more do i have? It seems that i'm not worth it anymore.

Oh by the way.. tagboard will be back hopefully after exams.. (14th).. coz i need to adjust the colours to suit the temporary new skin.. and i'm lazy to do it.. haha.. as always. Meanwhile, just leave comments for me if you would.. let me know who is there hor.. anonymous is like stalker leh.. haha..

Anyway, after the show on channel U that discussed about blogging and bloggers (and ba cho mee), my mom asked what was the URL of my blog.. wahhaaa.. i think cannot disclose it leh.. if not i paiseh sia.. lol.. who knows? maybe they have a blog of their own? LOL.. but my blog is still feature-less.. not like those of mr brown or xia xue or other famous bloggers.. i think mine isn't attractive enough.. as in, "who cares about what happen to you?" ya.. i know.. i'm nobody leh..

Thought of following podcast.. but found out from our ex exco Di that it wasn't easy at all.. too many software things to do.. and of coz, it isn't what i thought - Podcast doesn't equals to iPod + Casting. Lol.. maybe the constrain is on finding a site to host the mp3 files of the podcasts.. yet, most of them requires maintainance.. and still the issue of IP. Now it seems, even the posting of MP3 as background music is also prohibited.. how boring. Of coz, doing a podcast with no identity is not the way.. haha.. maybe if i had the chance.. i'll post the songs that we jammed? LoL.. maybe not mp3.. maybe use u-tube or something like.. videocast ^^

Poland's match coming up at 3 am.. of coz, Poland shall be the favourite.. aiyo.. think i better go back to FI soon. Now other than studying, everything else i did seems to be wrong.. maybe except watching tv.. lol.. and found another anime after "Gashbell" to follow on SCV.. it's "Heartful Days".. Initially i thought it was very girlish.. whahaa.. (can't imagine i'm watching it now.. lol..) but then it was really very romantic.. lol.. Maybe we all watch too much of these that we thought everything was supposed to be like fairytale.. but they almost always never mention what happened after the "happily ever after".. maybe snowwhite had to go to the market as well? Lol.. but still, i looked forward to a romantic chapter (without the tear-dropping part) in the coming days.. LOL.. think i ki siao liao.. entry getting more and more bo liao.. well.. well.. just to let those who are keen enough to know what is happening in my world ba.. i don't care who is not interested.. if not interested then STAY AWAY! Lol.. this shouldn't be the place for you.. shoo.. go to mr brown.. or xia xue.. or if you don't mind, go to rockson's.. haha.. he'll knnbccb the whole F*** out of you.

But after 2 years, my blog has only 4k of visits.. of which, i think i contributed about 20%.. whahaa.. (but i didn't start the counter at the beginning.. i forgot when..) looking forward for the 10,000 visitor soon.. maybe even got a prize giving! Wahahaa.. just kidding. 2.40 am now.. time to get ready for the next match.. and of coz, the england match at 9 pm.. wah wah.. like this FI confirm CMI.. lol..

Just Another Dream

Had another dream the night before.. haha.. but this time round, it was way much better.. whaha.. wondered what was i thinking? Scary that my brain couldn't get to rest.. yet, as always, i woke up before the story ended.

Perhaps it was because that i woke up that i could recall the dream.. wondered how much have i missed? Maybe in the mist of all that dream was the question for the coming FI exam.. aww..

I had 2 weeks. And now i left 4 days. And i haven't started on my studies yet. I can scrape this year already.. such a waste.. and most probably, i'll graduate a year later.. if i can even make it to that point.

Just a few months' time, i'll be 23.. and still as aimless as usual.. haha.. my life is so free of worries for survival and then my spare capacity i had used it for bo liao things. Maybe soon. One of the village's worker is going off to set up his own company... arrrh.. how can "eat inside crawl outside?" (chi li pa wai..).. later i hoot until his company dou then he know.. But blame it on me.. i had such a good opportunity all the way back to my primary school days.. but i took the village as a playground.. never thought of learning any skills there.. now i don't even have the skill to take on anyone. Village chief facing some problems.. and the workers' pay kept increasing.. and sales kept dropping.. and me? Just online, sleep and eat everyday..

Kind of guilty of taking life easy as it always were.. aimless as it were.. it was as if existence was a mere coincident.

Too stressful i guess.. the exams is really killing me.

Some other things to be joyous. Today is the start of the World Cup! Yay~ Ole Ole~ Go Germany! ( and their beer) Hahaa.. maybe time to bet a bit.. lol..

In the News, oil prices dropped because someone died in an air raid.. = ="" And another piece of old old news.. the ba cho mee and the CCTV.. = =""

Just another bo liao entry.. becoz i had so much boring things to blog.. in a few month's, it'll be the 2nd year of my blogging.. and i had 350+ entries! Haha.. and looking back, it brings memories.. something that will remind me of my phase in time. Just like looking at the stars, i'm just glancing at the past. But there seems to be much changes.. even on the way i blogged.. lol.. style i guess.. whahaa.. but it still revolves around the same theme - The Notebook.. my journal that is.. (not the laptop la.. i bo $ liao).. still thinking whether to move my older written entries online.. But those are during my secondary days.. and haiz.. i'm going to be 23~! Old liao lo.. ah pek liao le.. haha.. but my kuku hair now.. my mom says it looked like i'm 18.. omg... haha.. xiao didi sia.. (i knew where the 5 year difference went to.. )

Well fed and well slept. I'm ready for WC 2006! And when my paper is over, it shall be open house~ ^^ Beer, Food, Mahjong~

Dream Came Untrue

It was supposed, and thought to be a dream come true.. but don't know why.. it seems like a nightmare. Perhaps it was one dream that will never come true.. not now, not in the future.

I mean, i really had a dream last night.. and it left me restless for the rest of the day.. and for no reason too.. i wondered what was the trigger. Perhaps of the alcohol i had too much the night before?

Went double o last night with one of my friends. Reached rather early (don't know for what) and then it was empty.. haha.. but alcohol was cheap.. so i don't really mind. But i guessed my level must have dropped.. i only had 1 glass and 1 jug of housepour.. and i couldn't take it. Based on past "experience".. its reaching the puking level.. haha.. actually wanted to try some other cocktails.. but no spare capacity.. haha.. the feeling of puking sucks.. and i don't wish for it anymore. Perhaps this is what they call "moderate drinking"?

The night ended early becoz my friend ended up puking.. so i reached home early around 2 plus.. couldn't sleep, and didn't want to study. Was having a headache too.. level really dropped drastically. Forgot who told me.. haha.. but someone said it was a good sign.. coz you'll spend less and get "high" faster.. lol.. it's true. Anyway, i spent $70 (including transport) altogether for yesterday's trip.. haiz... i think i'm beginning to like the constrain on my wallet that exams has brought.

So i slept late.. and then i had this dream.. and it was supposed to be just a dream.. but it seems so real.. so real.. why don't they let me dream of the coming exams question instead?

Back to School

Just got back from SIM.. it was... so empty..

Met alan (the current DY-Welfare) to pass him the SRC locker key.. and he can't recognise me too.. = = yay~.. no more access to the freezer.. haha.. kind of missed that place.. and a pity that i can't use it during the exams like the previous year... (the good thing is, i no need to clean it.. wahahaa...)

Mugging for a few hours.. and i couldn't remember.. haiz.. i wonder what my brain is doing. 1 week more before the last paper, i wonder should i feel happy.

Nevertheless, i'll be crubbing down at Double O tomorrow~ Free flow alcohol! (compared to Zouk la..) Oh ya.. i'll bring my partially botak head along.. damn er xin leh.. like NSF like that.. wa liew.. i'm ORD-ed NS-Men lor.. Crubbing in times like this.. Whahaa.. never die before.. i think so too. Maybe just too stressed.. maybe i'm addicted to the kind of high. No matter.. if this is what freedom is about.

Took up something since the past week.. and it adds on to the already alcoholic me.

Suddenly realised that i sing like da bian.. hahaa... no high range 1.. whahaa.. er xin de yao ming.. and i "major" in music.. haha.. maybe i should go do other things.. say, maybe be a chef or something like that? Or a "professional" gamer like those in WCG? Whahaa.. whatever it is, i don't want to remember things.

FI (Financial Intermediation) is so difficult.. i think i have a phobia for qualitative papers.. help me.. if this one also buang.. then i don't know what to do le.. maybe quit school and work as a road sweeper.. or dao da bian 1.. haiz... 1 mod already headache.. 6 mods!! Oh great! Nevermind.. double O comes 1st.. hahaa.. or maybe go Zouk? LoL.. drink? or music?.. it's a tough choice..

The Coming 6 Modules

Heh.. changed the template for a "new" look.. it shall have a major revamp soon.. (after my last paper that is..)

Suprising, i still have the mood to go drinking and clubbing today.. hahaa.. maybe it was just another way to de-stress.. Yesterday.. i really could understand what was meant by blackout.. haha.. suddenly cannot recall anything.. and however hard i tried, i just couldn't summon the strength and motivation to carry on. Anyway, it's all over.. yet this isn't the end. Hopefully, revenge shall be sweet.. hhahaa.. i mean as in retake.

Went to Tattoo Bar at Far East for beer.. whahaa... and the first sip was nice! Haha.. having alcohol in my blood stream.. nice! Sounds like an alcoholic? Erm.. i do agree that i'm one.. sometimes need alcohol to de-stress.. if not very pek chek. I never felt happy failing.. but then again.. it's already a past consideration.. nothing more i can do.. yet nothing less i shall not do.

Nevermind.. i'm very hopeful of the "final" year in school.. 6 mods.. lai la! Not scared.. the most is.. find some place to hide and study lor.. haha..

Although still a bit shocked and sian over LBO.. but was sort of "compensated" by the beer.. haha.. after "beering", went Zouk with ex-vp Geoff.. hahaa.. long long time never go.. suddenly like very happening.. but just that today was a Friday.. the crowd was a bit weird.. especially the guys.. = =

i really need to de-stress.. it was an all time "low" for me this time.. feels like everything going wrong.. so i needed the "artificial high"..

Just another thing that came to my mind.. and then i got more stressed.. haiyo.. but then.. the coming holidays shall be fun! I have no burden from SRC anymore.. nb.. if next semester cmi.. then i don't know what to say le.. haha.. 6 mods.. lai lor~! (just don't let it be 7 mods.. haha.. if not i confirm peng san 1.. coz got to extend 1 more year in SIM.. who wants?)

Sealed

Spectacular.. real spectacular. I knew i wouldn't be able to overcome.. don't ask me why.. why? i don't even know it myself. Didn't know what i'm doing.. now pondering whether i'm in the mood to continue my studies.

Really.. not that i didn't study.. in fact, i started way long.. but coz i'm stubborn, i studied the whole module... with little efficiency. These are just excuses..

What happend was, i actually gave up on the LBO paper. Walked out of the hall within an hour.. suprising myself in the process. I never thought i would do that.. practically giving up in face of threat. In the past, it used be chionging no matter what.. now.. what had gone wrong?

Actually thought of lots of things to include during my trip home.. but then, it didn't matter anymore.. i need to wake up soon.. very soon.

The paper ended the day it started.

HK trip to be called off.. i need the money to retake 2 mods.. might as well.

And soon after, it was back to beering again... just went liquid to have 2 pints.. and my conclusion is, my level dropped. Actually had a bit too much after the long break... and i kind of dislike the overdose of it.

Lady luck wasn't with me.. it seems, for those that i have prepared, the opposite alwasys came true.. i think this the the ride down.. wonder how deep it can get.

Everything is out of control... haiz.. it feels like doomsday now..... someone pull me out please..

It was my responsibility.. and yet i failed...yet i failed. Not that i didn't care... there was nothing i could do.. i reaped what i deserved.. including failure.

6 mods next sem.. will more or less kill me.. well, then..actually i'm sick and tired of this "dark ages"... show me some light...

The implication is so great.. i wondered what am i actually doing.. haiz.. forget it.. it just isn't worthy.

End - Day

And then the day came. As expected.. sloppy work yield sloppy result. I deserve what i will be getting.. for the time being, i can only lament at the little things that lead to this.

Took a tour to memory lane these few days.. yet again. It was like a never ending chapter. There wasn't agony (if agony wasn't too strong a word) anymore.. but i just can't resist those "attraction". Like a black hole.. nothing was able to escape.

A failed attempt in the exam and this is what it triggers. For what i know, my heart was no longer with the papers.. and LBO will not be an easy task. For today's marketing.. i think i wrote too much till i never got time to attempt a 3rd question.. first time in the history of essay writting. 50/100 is the maximum.. and statistically, i could pass with a probability of 68%. But then again.. getting 34 marks in 2 question is no easy feat. Factoring the impression the examiner gets when he sees just 2 questions.. it will be unfair to pass a script like this. I resign to it.. for my mind was blank. I don't wish to think anymore.

Getting weak in my determination.. i felt like giving up. Passing LBO will be difficult... But i wouldn't want to take 6 modules in the final year.. unless..

Still the upcoming paper doesn't have its effects.. the taste of failure wasn't new to me. And it just reminded me, the income for work will be used for this retake. I knew this would happen when i accepted it.. and when i accepted it, it will happen.

Memory lane still exist.. and this is not the case of why. For some, it might be eternal.

And then i pondered.. it was really a waste of time and energy to hold on to something that had ceased to exist.. yet this was the burden. The case of shooting oneself on the foot.. but i'm not void of feelings.. and definately not void of memory. (then why did i forgot the things i studied?) It has nothing to do with maturity.. just character. While others got over so easily.. i wondered, why am i so stubborn. But seeing others that held on more tightly.. i can understand.. it was really a very frustrating process for them and the onlookers. ( i stress on onlookers.. coz i know.. it's really tiring to hear the same old story again and again and again... and what could be said and done will be said and done.. of coz people will feel irritated by the refusal to heed advice.)

Stupid times will get stupid blog entries.. haha.. time to get back to reality. As if the great depression was coming.. hahaa.. well.. do felt a bit sad for failing to achieve what i could and annoyed at how the stituation couldn't be salvage. I'm really too tired to put on a fight.. my determination was long gone.. (didn't they tell me not to hold on?).. haha.. okok.. perhaps wrong application.

Eh.. i need some beer to wake me up now.. hahaa..very tired to have 2 papers in 2 days. (even worst for those with 2 papers on the same day). I think my expectation for myself has dropped drastically.. strangely.. i still couldn't figure out why.. argh.. but then again, will life be better after exams? Haha.. better not to try anything funny.. i had enough memory lanes to handle.. hahaaa..

But as it happens, i'm quite irritated at the feedback i'm getting.. i can't help but learn from BT to think a lot.. (although i think a lot on bo liao things also.. haha.. but he add the analytical function to it.. i just think for fun..) Argh.. what is the outcome? If it wasn't the the rollercoaster, then it really gives me the feeling of the galloping round-about. When will the aww-ish big wheel (mo tian lun) appear?

Too much to pour, yet much processing to be done.

Okok.. in simple words.. I'm very sad because i'm going to fail my Marketing! (and maybe LBO later) but i don't wish to do anything about it anymore. One more year ba.. one more year. Sigh.. i could be so busy next year.. 6 - day week.. (or 6 - day weak?) And what about the economic implications? Another 1k gone.. haiz.. for the coming 1 year.. i think i'll just haiz my way through.

Not that it could never happen to me.. but this time round.. i sort of expected it. The causal factor.. haha.. not that i didn't give much thought to it.. anyway, nothing that i say now will help, so i shall shut up and go back to sleep.

How Much Longer Will It Take?

I can't stand it.. this exam is killing me.. not softly enough. ARGH~~~~ Oh why do i opt to continue my studies... this past 2 days.. had been haiz-ing all day long.. HAIZzzzzzz.

And writting an essay is almost impossible. It took me one whole day to write one.. and with notes and guides too.. writting 4 essays in 3 hours? MI:4.

Argh.. our hero says.. stress must scold "cc plz".. then will feel better.. whahaaa...

Thinking of all the "fun" i'll induldge after the exams.. i can't help but to give up. LoL.. i can't wait to enjoy NOW. But then again.. with 1 more day left to the next two killer essays.. i think i can't make it. The only bet is to, spot the right question and then prepare for it... and i only have time to prepare 3... argh.. and who ask me to take LBO one? Hahaha.. cham liao la.. i haven't start writting yet.. cc plz! C..C.. PLZ!.. This time cham liao la.. cham liao cham liao cham liao.. helpness but then.. i don't feel like studying..

All was lost.. it could mean another 1K to retake.. omg omg.. where to find the money? Haiz.. maybe cancel the hk trip le lor.. hopefully can pass all.. hope ba.. (but then my hopes are all hopeless one.. never did they work for me.. haiz.)

While the rest of the world awaits the world cup.. we are waiting for exams.. where got like that 1? Don't they know that 2006 is world cup year? World cup year must postpone the exams till AFTER the world cup leh...

And in times like this, i still find time to watch tv.. the stupid discovery channel.. keeps talking about "end day".. the day when human ends.. haha.. and i kinda of hope it ends now.. (touch wood!.. anyway my hopes have low success rate.. so no worries..) It was, "not the matter of will it happen.. but when will it happen.." Well.. if it have to happen.. make it before the start of the marketing paper!

Now i really hate marketing.. it's soooooo cc plz difficult! LBO too.. might as well take maths, stats and MM.. hahaa.. my life would be so much easier.

Argh.. sian 3/4 le..

Conspiracy

Living like a zombie these few days.. all i did was, eat sleep and online. Cham liao la.. never prepare for exams.. how? Sian 1/2.

Hope to resume to my life.. i hate exams.. i really hate exams.

I got no mood to study.. too many things to decide these few days, and i can't find a decision. If only they where like marketing.. sigh. I can't assume like they do.

And suddenly, it seems there is much conspiracy going on.. lol.. i mean, people are a rather suspicious lot aren't they? For example, they say the world government is hiding truths about UFOs.. and there is the 9/11 conspiracy theory, and recently, the resurfaced da vinci code.. lol.. what about "reality" tv? lol.. all are conspiracy? Well, maybe for the "reality" tv part.. the rest seems impossible.. at least at the moment.

Counting down, 15 more days to the Kick-off of WC 2006.. wah wah wah~! Lol.. must stock up lots of beers, chips and maybe german sausages.. argh.. i missed the days where i sit around and chill out, drinking beer and eating sausages.. (drooling..).. wah lao eh.. i want to be FREE! I think i'll play until ki siao this coming holidays.. and maybe be prepared to retake some modules le.. sigh.. i don't have the heart to study this time round..

One of the village worker wanted to set up his own stall soon.. and in the process, dragging customers away.. business already so bad.. still come up this kind of da bian.. well, nothing lasts forever.. kan kai yi dian lor.. lol.. nevermind.. if really no business and the stall closes.. then.. then... i go sell a lifetime of bedlinens.. wahahaa... kidding la.. that job... is not a career. And job cannot support a family. Unless i decide to be a bachelor.. wahhaa.. then i only need to support my parents.. 1K per month is not bad actually.

But i'm not so easily contented.. lol.. Anyway, i won't want to be on the salesfloor all my life. i want to open booth also.. maybe F&B.. at least, "trade secrets" are protected. So this coming holidays, i'm going to grandma's house to learn a few dishes.. lol.. and ya.. i'm still trying to find the secret recipe for fried chicken wings.. lol.

Arr.. so sian.. i don't want to write essays.. sian ah..

Creative V Apple

Creative v Apple:
Read in the news that creative sued apple for infringment on one of its patents of the mp3 player zen. Apple responded by counter suing create for breaching 4 of its patents on the iPod!

I'm a iPod user.. so far, there's cognitive dissonance.. iPod and zen was grouped was similar (perceived similarity) such that my buying behaviour was classified "Dissonance Reducing". Which means that companies (marketers) should supply beliefs that the product that i buy is unique and superior. Too bad.. what they said is true. iPod battery is not really that reliable.. And the worst thing is, there isn't an external port for batteries for me.. maybe i should go shopping for 1 ugly external battery pack. Another problem is, iPod relies too much on the CPU for EVERYTHING.. delete, move, copy, recharge.. all has to be done on the computer. Perhaps to those who are undergoing the buying decision process of evaluation, please refer to creative.. lol.. make comparison 1st.

Tio PS (pangseh) by iPod 2 - 3 times already.. they don't give warning of a low batt stituation, and their batt indicator is not accurate 1.. the best part is, even you have a power point, you can't recharge it on the spot.. unless you buy the A/C adaptor.. which i think is quite lame la.. haha..which means hors.. i can't carry it with me abroad. Next time, i think they can bundle iPod with iMac.. haha..

I admit, i bought iPod becoz of its sleek design.. i don't like having "bricks" in my pocket.. i already had one, which is my 1 year old nokia 6260.. now i've shortlisted samsung's new phone, don't know which model number.. but it cost around $600.. again. But i don't know.. muz ask samsung user for their evaluation. I've only used Ericsson, Sony-Ericsson and Nokia. of all, Nokia is the most user friendly.. LoL.. and i'm used to it. But thens, nowsaday, they think "brick" is the in thing.. lol.. look at the sales (or rather the number) of people using Motolora's V3 and you will know the trend. Small, is good. CPU also small, mp3 player also small, hp also small.

V3 wm is carrying.. so i don't want to copy him.. haha.. but so many of them using 6260 too. And my sec 1 cousin is very funny... asked me to pass my 6260 to her if i'm changing my phone.. = ="

Maybe studied too much marketing... keep doing product evaluation.. haha.. but i'm not done yet. Recently, dad juz bought a can of Baygon insecticide. And so far, i've "decommissioned" 2 roaches and 1 bee/hornet/wasp (i don't know the difference).. haha.. but the job of terminating mosquitoes still lies on me.. i'm trained well in my sentry duties in camp.. lol.

The only products that i can't evaluate now - Hair related (except hairgrowth) lol..

Another Botak and Warm Day

Sometimes i feel that i'm really foolish.. really very foolish. I.. really don't know what to say, and i sense something sinister coming.. nope, not the volcano eruption.. but something that i don't wish to confront. Arrr.. help.. i don't really enjoy it leh.. haiz.

Feeling rather grumpy today due to the weather.. and i didn't have enough sleep. But it was rather fun at TS.. lol.. long time never hear the "tiang" sound le.. wahahaa.. but then hors.. the toopid vending machine eat my $1! tmd.. pian qian ah.. and then hors.. "cheat code" at TS failed.. and we ended up "investing" a lot into this machine.. tmd.. what rotten luck.. sian.

Eh.. now i really lost le.. lost the game liao.. it wasn't with me le.. so.. erm.. i also don't know. Perhaps. Perhaps not.

They say "once bitten, twice shy".. i say, "twice bitten, go and die".. now i'm so afraid le lor.. sian.. ah.. help~ argh~.. wah.. i think i going to ki siao soon... maybe cut botak that time.. i've also shaved off part of my brain le..

Today reached home at 5pm.. damn tired coz i didn't sleep for 1 night.. and i could sleep well now.. the weather is still so warm.. fan also no use, aircon also cmi.. aiya.. i think i'm going to be sick le.. already i can feel my forehead getting warmer.. and my throat is sore again. =(

6.15 am

6.15am. 1 night of sleepless night coz the weather is too warm 33 degrees or so.. wah.. can't stand it. Very tired.. really very tired.. haiz.. got to get ready to go to school in a few hours' time.

Marketing notes are hard to read.. it uses too many chim terms like global market, market penetration and all that.. kns..

Now so tired until cannot think le.. so sian ah! And the weather so warm.. and i so botak.. so pek chek.. argh~!

But hors, nowadays i'm so lazy to think le.. i think my brain turning rusty. Can't recall much too.. but the coming world cup seems to ring a bell.. lol.. it was 2 world cups ago.. and i remembered it was during the band camp.. awww.. erm.. kinda scary too.. coz the stories seems to be in the similar form.. haha.. can't i just change the cast?

Nothing much about the past.. it's been so long, and i had used much time and energy.. memories do fade.. and i'm recalling less and less. Perhaps more to think of, perhaps i got over, perhaps i just want to ignore, perhaps it wasn't anymore, perhaps i'm older, perhaps... (perhaps i'm botak le.. T.T) Just thinking of it.. and suddenly i've realised.. i wasn't feeling anything.. and i can't find a reason to continue to think.. maybe just a bit of awkard feeling on why things ended the way they were.. and even so.. given what i had at that point in time, things would still end the way they were.. i was.. too much of a noob then. And, i'm a noob still..

It just doesn't mean anything to anyone anymore.

Maybe someday i shall dig up my journal and post them in my blog..

They say history repeats.. yes they do. And be afraid.. be very afraid. Well, i'm terrified! Lol.. For example, (write essays must give examples 1..) i was botak when i was born.. and then history repeats.. i was botak again when i got enlisted.. and then.. yet again.. and now i'm botak again.. (ok.. that was a bad example.. lol...)

Don't ask why i whine so much about my botak head.. and don't ask me why i did it.. and don't ask me why if i did it again.. (history will repeat...) haha.. very bo liao entry.. but hors.. must write something.. if not people visit liao will sian 1/2.. Don't worry.. for the rest of the 1 1/2 months.. the topic will revolve around me and my botak head.. ^^

To-Dos

While i whine and sigh at this horrendous examinations, i'm actually impressed by those who stuck to their faith in studying. So as an excuse to polish my essay skill, i shall blog once more.. Hopefully that will bring in some life to me and readers in this "darkest" period of the year.

And a few more things to add to my "to-dos after the exams list".. i want to watch the Da Vinci Code.. well, i haven't even read it .. lol.. can't believe it.. what am i doing all these while? Ya.. trying hard to "borrow" the book.. don't want to buy already, or else it'll end up like my lord of the rings.. read halfway, and the rest i left it to the spiders and silverfish to read.

That was one thing .. the other was, to train up on foosball! (or what we call TS in singapore).. waah waah.. i want to own a Table of my own.. but my room is too small.. or should i say, it cost too much? LoL.. what they had was a 3-men goalie.. not like the school 1.. so much different.. and from the foos clip i saw online.. i never knew they could do trickshots too.. whaaa.. (luckily i don't like to play pool.. if not you all might find a pool table in my home..) How come nobody form the Foosball Club in SIM? LoL.. i think i heard them say le.. why not? Since i stepped down from SRC liao.. haha.. i want to find other things to do le.. Heard that Admin Elaine said before, i think a new club need around 20 memebers to form.. i think it shouldn't be a problem.. just add in the foosball figurine lor..

So much to do.. too much to do.. and then got to revamp my blog too.. but heard that cannot upload mp3 le.. aiyo.. like that how to change my "grey grey" music?

Lol.. getting so bo liao till i took a pic of myself with a botak head.. just wondering when i'll post it for a preview.. lol.. kinda regretted it.. coz the whole world don't recognise me le.. haha.. ok.. i think time to mug le.. must work a bit before enjoying.

I'm sooo Sian

AAhhhhh.. i'm sooooo sian ah. Don't know how long i've been at home.. Exams = sian.

The day before, my collegue called and asked whether i want to work for this GSS (Great Singapore Sale).. haha.. very fun one.. but then i think i really really really need a break. I didn't have one since i started schooling. So this june "holiday", i'll be free.. and broke.

I think i can survive with staying at home. Been like that since the start of the "exam mode".. but i really feel like going to crub leh.. crubbing and drinking and wow.. gian liao leh..

Yesterday went dinner with the extended family to celebrate mother's day.. and then there were so many of us.. and the table was so huge.. they ordered quite a lot.. but i only tasted 2 - 3 of the dishes.. coz they were the nearest.. lol. The rest were like so far, even if i stood up, i couldn't reach it. Haha.. in the end, the beer "lady" (or should i say auntie.. =D) came and asked who wants beer.. waaah.. that was it.. i don't care whether was it german beer or local beer or root beer.. haha.. i just want it. But don't know why.. 1 mug down, and no effect.. i think the level still stays.. sigh.. i'm a alcoholic le. (that time "trained" too much until addicted)

After so much.. i think.. i'm still nua as ever.. if not "nua-rer".. think i'll just rot at home ba.. haha.. so sian.. suddenly no energy to do anything.. and my biological clock turned upsidedown. Now i woke up at 12pm and sleep at 5am.. haiz.. this kind of life..

Hopefully, the exams will be over soon.. and i'm looking forward to the coming WC 2006, foodfair (at expo end of may), ITfair (expo again beginning of June), and crubbing and mj sessions.. wow.. so exciting.. hahaa.. (if only i cleared all my papers..)

KSed

Today supposed to be the last day of the kids' exams.. no wonder MS so crowded.. ( i mean maplestory.. not Muhammad Sultan lar... dun club 1).. anyway.. kids are really childish.. and maybe smart too. So today they KSed for nothing and i got involved in a KS war for no reason.. safety in numbers, but not in levels.. i think the conclusion is that we lost.. lol.. but i got my first taste of a ks war with kids. (only they do that)

So for the rest of their holidays, it's better to keep away from MS.. too many kids, and kids meant trouble. Well, at least still have world cup to look forward to.. lol.. kids are noobs.. and this is what i saw in the forum, "Never argue with an idiot. They'll drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience.." whaha... ya lor.. noob experience.. lol..

Aiyo.. so sian.. wasted 2 days.. someone.. anyone.. motivate me please..

POA Aftermath

Sian 1/2. POA didn't finish.. and the balance sheet cannot balance.. tmd.. i thought they going to chute pattern on the P/L.. but i was wrong. P/L was relatively easy.. but not so for variances and the short questions. Too many theories.. but i do admit, i didn't really study for this.. coz i thought "background" can le.. haha.. i think i overestimated myself. So i say bye bye to my 1st chance of getting a combined 2nd upper.. maybe can't get a 2nd lower.. sian. But bo bian la.. i too nua le.

Which means, the remaining 3 essays, i must at least get 60 and above for any one of them.. which is a very difficult task for gq.. coz his ang mor cannot make it wan.. write also dunno wat he write.. chute so much pattern to hide this hide that.. examiner how to pick up points? lol.. can't imagine.. i really got tired of studying till the last few days before POA, i was actually online watching some of the funny video clips online.. lol.. especially those on the kelong goalkeeper.. wahahaa.. see liao want to laugh.. oh ya.. and watched some clips on Maple JMS.. they are so much ahead of MapleSEA and GMS.. lol.. no worries.. after exams chiong again.

That day was at expo trying to act dao.. haha.. coz i botak.. didn't want to scare anyone before the exams.. haha.. but then a few of them saw me.. HZ saw me and asked what happened.. erm.. i also don't know how to answer.. and then Elvin saw me too.. and he touched my head saying heng heng, heng heng.. kns.. haha.. no wonder i cannot balance the balance shit. And yj recognises me.. lol.. and saw sl too.. but it took a while for the realisation. LOL.. soon la.. my hair will grow back.. and i *promise not to do the cutting myself.. lol.. i had enough of it since after ORD.

After POA, i was rather dazed.. been awaked for almost 20 hours and very seh.. wanted to go home ASAP.. but the whole place was crowded.. MRT also crowd, expo also crowd, bus also crowd.. (why didn't i have my own car?).. so i reached home at 7.30 pm, hungry and tired.. i think i still prefer morning paper.

I slept for most of today.. part of the recovery from POA programme. Didn't do any mugging.. and actually juz came back from prata and kopi tarik (again). haiz.. 20 more days to marketing and LBO.. oh.. i need to allocate time le.. haiz.. haiz... so stress.. and i can feel some pimples coming out le..

But i guess i will go back to SRC room for the last part of the choinging.. hopefully the year 1s won't be there.. lol.. then i no need to go to school early.. and also won't be making people angry for no going there early.. lol.. so sorry ah.. gq still the same as ever, 1 nua kia.. ya lor.. i know also.. but hard to change.. but aiya.. i don't know la.

Today wm is driving coz bl's in-laws went overseas.. so he drove me to prata house (which is 5 mins walk from my home.. = =).. and then ate quite a lot.. $6.. whoa.. can gain weight le.. haha.. so we talked about the GE, our (cmi) band, and also the hk trip. He told me he got no money.. then i almost want to humtum him.. haha.. i was so looking forward then he tells me he no moneys? kns..but in the end, still on ba.. hopefully.. maybe he go rob bank or something like that.. maybe in the end go taiwan instead? haha.. better still ^^

Sian ah! think have to start mugging tomorrow.. or else i will regret for the rest of my 3rd year.. haiz.

GE Over

POA paper! Ooo.. i'm so excited.. haha.. not really confident though.. coz my memory is constantly failing me.. and then i forgot so much from the theory aspect.. don't ask me.. i only know how to do.. don't know how to explain. But i won't have high hopes.. as a result of slacking over past weekend.

Was in school last saturday.. and surprised at how many people had "by-pass" me without knowing that i was there.. lol.. all because i was botak. Saw some of the SRC people and Warlordians... and they didn't see me.. Haha.. seems to be the hairstyle of the month due to the exams stress.. lol.. it really saves much time on drying and styling.. (if there is any to be done)... try to spot me in the expo afterwards.. hahaha..

Sunday and JJ and ML came Thomson for visit.. lol.. it was another weight gaining experience.. but then i had eaten too much "heaty" stuffs these few days.. so didn't eat that much prata. Btw, seaweed fries is no longer in sale again.. sigh.. but glad that i had 2 packets at one go the week before.. lol.

Sadly, spurs lost their 4th position.. kind of expected it.. with that kind of injury in the squard.. it'll be difficult to win.. but to lose.. aiyo.. i think they might need to wait another year.

Finally GE is over.. yeah.. erm.. but then the result is just the same as before.. win means win, lose mean lose.. who cares by how much? Too concerned will only "dui si" (hammer until die).. imagine losing by just 50 votes? haha.. heard that the James guy kena arrested or something like that.. whahaa... that was swift.. and suay he didn't win.. or that wouldn't happen. And another trend... it seems like people vote for parties rather than for person.. except in the case of the opposition ward. Coz overall, the percentage is more or less constant throughout.. i can understand why they are disappointed.. and it seems much of the votings are in the hands of the youngsters now.. as the oldies left this world.. less of those that witnessed the hardship of our founders are left. What we had here is those that are sick and tired of this "boring" democracy. And not to mention those few which were affected by certain policies.. of coz they remember to pay back la.. eg. those missed out on certain "benefits" due to age.. or that certain period that disqualifies them.. and not forgetting.. they are the few that will vote the next time round.. lol.

Oppostition ward got "carrots".. what about this GRC? no opposition means no carrot meh? I want carrot lor.. and i pity those in the west.. they won't get a chance to vote.. reason being, the population density.. imagine having to cover such vast piece of land in just 9 days.. lol.. not very possible.. but i can't seems to find the reason for the walk over at my side.. sigh.. why? We don't have a PM as our mp here.. neither do we have Foreign minister as our mp.. and yet nobody wants to challenge.. sigh.. when will i get to vote?

So we were saying.. why don't we have all SMCs? In SMCs, we get to see the popularity one on one.. but then, at SMCs, its easy to lose it.. get enough people buay song only, out you go.. lol.. i won't be surprised to see a 84 member GRC in the future.. wahaha... then everybody gets to vote/not vote together.. like that then is democracy!

But i do agree.. having too many oppositions will hinder decisions.. right and wrong ones.. coz the job of the oppositions is, as their name suggests, to oppose. Hahaa... the point is.. not happy with what we have doesn't mean that the alternative will be better.. as it always is, the pasture SEEMS to be greener on the other side.. seems only.. sometimes not really. But then, GE 2006 is over... not much have changed.. and actually no change.

Anticipating the next GE.. and of coz, the next world cup too! But for them to meet again.. is like 20 years later? LoL.. Just realised that i could be missing out 15 matches from the league tables due to my last paper.. sigh.. anyway, time to go through my notes 1 last time before the POA later.. last time - Good luck to everyone for this coming exam!

I deserved It

I got what i deserved.. was so tempted by the seaweed fries that i went to buy 2 packets at one go after yesterday's study session.. and i ate it within half and hour.. sure it was tasty at first.. but i kinda got sick of the taste by the end of the 2nd.. felt that my throat was quite dry.. and this morning, woke up at 4am and my throat was sore.. and so didn't attend marketing lesson.. again.

But i was in a daze at home.. didn't do much of studying, end up sleeping.. with 4 more days to POA, i think i can start digging already. 1 am now.. time to study soon.

Seems quite happening due to the GE.. come saturday, we will have the results.. LOL.. can't wait to see the outcome.. haha.. since i need not vote.. i shall not have too much to say.. if not will tio pok or kena butter.. haha. But then again.. it seems that GE is about choosing the right people for the job.. true.. can't really choose those "blur" sotongs to be MPs.. but then again, i felt that it should not be concerned with who not to choose.. but rather, it should be, those chosen, what can they do? Ultimately, its for the good of the whole country. But saw a few petty arguments geared at downplaying each others' party.. lol.. i mean.. what about us, the citizens? We don't want to choose because we had no choice.. but then again.. i had no choice.. haha.. if only they would let me choose? (i'm not unhappy with the current MP at my area.. i just want to know if there is any better choice..) I also won't know.. aiyo.. think i blog too much.. later people come after me.. haha.. anyway, CHOICE IS YOURS.. (if you have one that is)

Anyway, i should be more concerned with World Cup.. kept thinking whether i should place any bets for USA or Australia would win the championship or not.. or how long those weird weird teams like Angola or Trinidad & Tobago would last.. lol.. i don't even know where in the map they can be found.. pardon my geography. But i support Germany ^^.. coz i like german beer.. whahaaa! Very likely to last through the tables.. Ok nevermind.. i support the beer then.. haha.

That day my mom went to activate the world cup channel.. unlike wm, i don't have a digital top up box.. so we ended up with 2 added channel for world cup.. this is not the usual sports channel.. so i guess bt house maybe do not have.. wm had the new top up set.. so he can watch 4 world cup channels.. 2 of which shows just that side of each team, ignoring the presence of the ball.. so for the first time.. i might get to know what the keeper is actually doing which the ball was away.. maybe digging nose, plucking grass or sleeping by the pole.. haha.. i shall see.

And then today i forgot to go to my TTSH medical appointment for arthritis.. kns.. i got the letter weeks ago.. and i didn't open it.. till just now.. and then i discovered that today was the appointment.. ahaha.. i had missed it.. i think they should save the stamp and call me instead.

Anyway, time to go liao.. maybe the last post before the 1st paper.. good luck to all taking POA! .. (reminder: the paper is on 9th of May, not 15th.. i always thought it was on the 15th.. lol.. )

Destiny

History repeats? LOL.. i hoped not.

Addicted to studying.. or rather, taking short notes.. but my lousy memory fails to remember anything.. haha.. good huh?

GE coming on 6th May.. *yawn.. i got nothing to do! Hahaa.. well, i can't possibily take part too.. especially on the opposite camp.. i got too many "dark" secrets.. like that time i gek sai gek until i almost fanited in the middle of the road near VCH.. wahaaa... if they publish then i die. And that time where i got slapped by my P6 teacher for not submitting 5 workbooks for MOE to check? Hahaa.. i'm the only one.. And that time where i got caught in the staff toilet in school dying hair? Hahaa.. well.. if i go, i must prepare 13.5k.. lol.. and get ready to be whacked by people. (not forgetting the number of times i copied for spelling?.. lol)

Days like this.. don't ask me. I don't like to discuss.. coz if u tell them, they say you think too much.. and they can't help.. might as well.. leave it to myself. Not saying doesn't mean i've forgotten.. doesn't mean i don't care.. maybe just that i can't. But i've been through this pile.. what's another pile to me? Intensity increases.. yet duration shortens. It might have meant nothing at all in the end.. nothing to anyone. But then again.. something obvious.. am i digging again?.. i don't know.. but now it feels like a cold sauna to me. I also can't identify.. what do you think? Sometimes i really dig too much.. i guess its just personality.

Watched a show on Channel 56 the day before at 3am.. don't know the title.. but it was such a great show.. till i took 2 hours to finish the shortest chapter of marketing. It begins as a coincident... and then to believing in destiny. "each taking a lift.. and choose a floor.. see if we meet".. and then .. writting names and phone numbers on the dollar bill, book.. and see if destiny comes around.. lol.. innovative huh.. haha.. but might end up in the claws of the dinosaurs.. hahaa... and having no signs is a sign? lol.. sometimes i believe in destiny.. but when it comes, i don't think there is.

And by the way.. i don't think the term dinosaur suits them.. haha.. coz they are supposed to be extincted! But look at the streets.. lol.. you get what i mean.. well.. i'm not better myself.. the weight gaining plan fails as exams approaches.. nevermind.. i'll chiong after that..