Weekly Journal

Finally got my keyboard le~ 54 keys de wor.. although very plastic and no earphone jack, it does have 99 tones and lots of other functions.. lol.. and, it cost only $47 plus.. wahahaahaa.. of coz, i don't know how long it'll last. Actually from the outside, it seems very chwee.. especially the power point... but then, what more can i ask for?

Now my room looks more like a study room than bedroom... zzz... mj room also.. whahaha.. i still haven't finish the table yet.. maybe one of these days ba. Another addition.. and we no longer need to fight for channels le. But still, i think there is a lack of a wii.. lol.. but i've got no additional money lo.

Paid $2140 last week for school fees.. and really getter poorer by day.. plus the £245 (S$735) paid to UOL.. lol.. no wonder i've never crub for months le. Very tempted to go MOS (FOC martell leh) last saturday.. haha.. but even for the entry (plus transport).. i need to think twice before spending.

Luckily, market had been bullish after the blood-letting of the sub-prime crisis.. Investors are returning and driving up some of the stocks. Said i failed last friday to average out my investment.. and since that week, it rose by more than 8%.... lol.. 8% in a week leh.. where to find? Haha.. but i'm not speculator.. so i look at the long term.. of coz, reason being i have no money to contra in and out for short term profit.. hahaa... so treat it like a deposit ba.. at least, my portfolio is not generating any outflow le.. Of coz, everything is unrealised.. haha.. and which the USD falling leading to complications such as Balance of Payment deficit (and perhaps cost push inflation) and possibility of recession (how i wished i had pay attention during econs)and the list goes on and on.. for the fed part, it seems lowering the rates might just cause something bigger.

Not all eggs are in one basket.. and so the bond paid its 1st coupons.. haha.. which i've already spent much of it.. (its really very little anyway).. but it makes me understand bonds better.. since these are so much needed for my module of Investment Management (IM). Almost a month of schooling, and i can't fit my lifestyle into the new timetable.. haha... i think i have to go hungry every week lo.. Having 2 lessons back to back is quite hectic considering the pace they are going.. i always almost fail to under-tand what ksm is teaching in IM.. and hor, i don't quite under-tand the notes also.. hahaha.. same as all banking modules.. is it me or the notes?

Well.. i think i just need to work harder lo.. haha.. 2 more to go.

That Weekend

For the past weekend..

21/9 Friday:
Intended to stay in school after lessons coz traffic is rather heavy at 6.30pm. The plan was to have dinner in school and then study a bit till around 8pm.. but then, discovered the whole school was crowded even at that kind of time lor.. i think they really need to expand their campus liao la.

With that small small foodcourt and the minibites, i think they really can't support the school population.. and whats more when the "neighbour" kept coming over?

Now they've changed the timetable to 3 slots, meaning more people coming in at the 7pm slot.. and then, yalor.. no place to eat.. hahaa.. like very ke lian alone lor.. and it was a friday late evening.. where to find someone to have dinner with me? LOL.. weekends are precious to people.. and at clementi? lol.

In the end, da bao at "long house" near my place and eat at home.. very hungry liao.. coz went school early to pay for school fees and skipped lunch.. was feeling quite bad la.. and then, saw something on my desk.. was a reminder letter from mindef... lol.. well.. it sure wasn't my day.

22/9 Saturday:
Was out dinning with the villagers less sis.. and we went "The Oasis" for dinner! LOL.. taiwan porridge with a lot of very nice dishes leh.. my favorite too. The reason for going there is that due to the on coming construction of the new national stadium and some water sports facilities, the restaurant was going to be demolished by year end.. so before it goes, must really try it lor.. haha.. and it was very nice la.. wondered where it will move to after this year.

Was wondering why my nano keep running out of battery.. and then i discovered, the click wheel is spoilt.. zzzzzzzzz.. very disappointed leh.. coz it was only with me for 1.5 years.. and then the pod really pok le. So did a search on the problem.. and then realised that it was very common.. so common that nobody knew what or how it happened.. it just suddenly one day decide to stop working.. and that one day is somewhere after the protection.. very nice timing indeed. Repairing one cost about the same as getting a new one! And perhaps due to that, finding one repair shop in sg is not that simple.. Regarding the product and after sales services.. i am.. disappointed. LOL.. i might as well get a new hp/camera/mp3 player and all sorts of functions all bundled in one lor.. and it just cost a bit more only.

23/9 Sunday:
Was out with those 2 from snco.. ktv-ing lor.. lol.. oh ya.. haha.. i don't think i'd like to order peppermint green tea le.. quite a weird taste la. Anyway.. also a long long time didn't go k-ing le.. so it was quite weird to hear myself la.. lol.. i think i sing in the bathroom is quite an achievement for me le...

An "Old Friend" of Mine

And then i got a visit again these two days. (or maybe longer)

It was from, quite an "old friend" of mine la.. haha.. but this time round, i don't know how long it'll stay. LOL.. and what's worse, i got to hide it from the villagers.. and was so much more of a hassle. Perhaps i know why it came about.. but perhaps it wasn't becoz of that.. but it sure was quite unwelcomed.. haha.. oh ya.. i knew it for 8 years lo.. and i was referring to, arthritis.

Forgot when was the visit the previous time, but i sure didn't like that.. haha.. and since i've almost forgotten, i was reminded again. Haha.. and i still didn't like it... especially now much "older" and finding the threshold of pain getting lower.. or was it more painful now? I don't know.. as i've said, i've really forgotten how bad it was the other time, or when it first started.

I think the village chief spotted it the first thing in the morning when i woke up.. haha.. quite difficult to act alright without much practice.. lol.. so i quickly brush up and hid inside my room.

Of coz, i didn't want anyone to worry.. lol.. less the nagging of coz. In their opinion, there must be something i've done wrong (for eg. sleeping late).. so like that lor..

And special thanks to pandol extend.. lol.. i wondered what my acting would be without it.. hahaa...

So i guess, this friend will stay for quite a few more day and hopefully done enough visiting for a while.. and of coz, there might be something on my part as well.

(This entry is done as a medical record for my arthritis)

华文的部落格

在咖啡豆(Coffee Bean) 喝了冷咖啡，所以睡不着。。。咖啡豆的咖啡不便宜。。也不知道为什么在中学时期能每星期喝，而且还喝大杯的。咖啡比酒便宜。。所以没去荷兰村喝。 已经很久没喝酒了。。也好。

今天买了计算机因为老师说不能用有科学功能的计算机。。没办法，得买新的。不过还好，不是很贵。

昨天美国储备局削减利率，所以今天股市在闭市时升了百多点。。好像有点夸张。 经过上次的教训，这次的投资还算不错。(目前为止) 上次真的太冲动了，没了解清楚就行动。。还好那时买的不多。但风险还是有的，因为事情可能还没完没了。信贷问题已经传到英国的北方石头银行 (Northern Rock)。。所以还是要小心。

下午和啪其(Pakki) 玩耍的时候，不小心敲到了头（我的头)。。因为它跑进了床抵，所以我也趴下去。。起来时没看见桌子，就撞了下去。这么撞不知道会不会把我撞笨了。。到现在还会痛。可能因为撞到头，所以今天的部落格用华文写。。哈哈。的确有一点无聊。。但能练习华文。。太久没用会生锈。

这几天一直在听钢琴版的《不能说的秘密》。。有好多好多版本，都很好听，也很想学。。哈哈。。可能，或许，只是说说而已。

头好痛，所以不能对着电脑太久。。要去休息了。

Addition

Due to the upcoming fed adjustments, i've put some stakes on a transportation company.. one which i said i would way long ago, and i regret not having done so earlier. In the meantime, attempts to even out my previous mistake failed.. might as well.. even till now, the direction seems unclear.

Perhaps it'll just happen? I shall see.

Oh ya.. wanted very much to get a musical keyboard wor... but wondered how long it'll last.. i mean.. i've so many instruments at home le lor.. and sometimes i wondered why i bought them in the 1st place.. and selling them away, the depreciation is sometimes so great that i rather keep them at home to collect dust lor.. so.. i'm still undecided.

Back to School~ (Again, Again, Again and Again...4th Year le!)

Yay~ Was back in school today!

The day started off quite badly.. must be that i've eaten something wrong today.. and so had a very bad run.. luckily was able to make it for lessons.. Weather was rather bad too.. 最美的不是下雨天 leh... not when i got to go to school... haha..

SIM was filled with activites today.. coz it was students' week. What used to be the "bamboo court" became a street soccer court.. and there was a match going on. The street soccer was organised by the soccer club and i think the court is just a temporary one.. but.. it was very nicely done.. haha.. must be the effort of the excellent staffs at the Student Care and Services Department.

Fiona and Zhengrong was in the Atrium for the fliming of "Hey! Gorgeous" School was super crowded lor.. lol. A lot of other new things as well... and of coz, a long anticipated ride on the escalators! It was.. erm, a bit slow though.. haha..

If the 3rd year students are called "seniors", i think i can be called "elder" le.. lol.. it was my 4th year in SIM.. a year more than most of them.. Was having lessons from 12.00pm till 6.30pm... super long day with super heavy modules.. whahaa... and as usual, the 2nd half of the day was quite tiring on the brain. Wondered what it would be like to squeeze 3 modules into one day, from 8.30am to 6,30pm! LOL.. i won't be surprised if there are anyone doing it.

FR was quite enlightening.. lol.. and after listening to my lecturer, i had a clearer picture le.. with regards to CPA and ACCA.. and of coz, i'm further convinced that i've made a right choice of persuing a degree in BBF 1st before CPA.. finally my doubts are cleared.

IM was as usual, similar to POB.. haha.. with the same lecturer.. but of coz as usual, with additional information to investment management for personal use.. lol.. though a bit dry, it was something useful in everyday life.

It was reported on the news a few days ago.. now there are more and more graduates from other discipline working in the Banking and Finance sector.. LOL.. so, what is the point of having a BBF? I think i can go eat grass liao.. haha.. but sadly (or thankfully), the prospect of working in bank doesn't appeal to me yet.. lol.. i still look forward to the so called "no-life" life of working as an accountant.. haha.. and so.. ask me.. why did i choose BBF instead? Well.. the flexibility.. plus the comparative advantage perhaps.

I think, i enjoy being a student.. but if i had the choice, i prefer to be a rich student.. whahaha... ya.. ah sia's son. (Not ah tiang hor..)

Now at least my motivation: to study well and graduate well.

NOR

I've received my NOR today.. and so, everything is confirmed.

eCR2 today, and i've changed my timetable.. in fact, there will only be 2 lesson on one single day, making my week rather empty. It will be great to be able to work part time but i felt that i should give my best for the final sem.. haha.. i'm really just short of 2 lower..

So the other day, met up with the warlords.. and i rather envy them.. haha.. coz they can work full time le.. of coz, they too, envy the life of school.. what can i say? The pasture is always greener on the other side. Anyway, i've been thinking, the degree doesn't really help a lot in getting a job in the relevant industry.. coz i have friends studying all kinds of degree (except banking and finance) and in the end, will be working in banks.. lol.. so, i might as well do something different.. perhaps, work as an accountant.

Of coz, something as such was laid long before everything.. from the day i chose commerce instead of science during seconday 3.. haha.. i had all the choice lor. I don't regret my choice.. for that is what i liked.. but then, the whole commerce course was taken off during my 1st year in JC.. leaving me with the Arts or the Science fac.. and so, ended with much of a dread.. lol.. imagine having to study subjects that you don't like. Yet still, i've cleared jc with only a mere pass.. and was already losing focus in what i wanted to do.. While in NS, one of my superior was studying in SIM, and advised a degree in banking instead of accounting.. since i still won't be a CPA after graduating.

After studying, i've almost forgotten why i wanted to study accounting.. it was to serve the chocolate factory.. and its been so my goal since young. Yet the stiuation is always changing.. as with the chocolate business... and then i guess, i was wrong to base it all on a dream. Perhaps it provided me with the direction, but i've since deviate from it. This time round.. the result is very important.. i can't accept being mediocre.. haha.. even though the outcome is already mediocre.. well.. what to do? Play too much liao la..

So finally, will be attending school alone.. hahaa.. of coz, still a lot of friends in the student council ( i think i'll see a lot of them in lectures.. lol) .. but being alone, i think i can nua less.. lol.. coz nothing to do means got to read notes lor.. haha.. if not everytime nua in foodcourt, studybench and SRC room.. lol..

Its been set.. i'll only be in school on fridays.. friday noon somemore.. i know i hate to attend morning classes de.. lol.. and plus, all on one day.. means i might have 5-6 days of free time.. perhaps for working if it doesn't affect my grades. Only thing is.. my schedule is always shifting.. coz there are always events happening.. especially the saturday for band practices (plus performance).. so till now, i'll see how it goes.

I think i can get the "good progress award" for this year liao.. haha.. for my marketing improved 100% and my law of business improved 700%.. lol!

Another week before the start of school.. haha.. time to get new pencil box, bags, and also to start warping my books le.. well.. actually no.. lol.. those are for primary school kids.. haha.. but i think there is a need to expand my 2007/2008 wardrobe le.

AAR 3 - Release of Results

Finally after so long, the result was uploaded on the portal.

It was, as i said, with mixed feelings.. those that i thought i would fail, i didn't.. and those that i thought that i could secure an upper, i didn't as well.. haha.. so ended with passes and lowers instead.

It was, however, quite a relieve to clear those that i attempted.. hah.. especially when retaking per mod can add up to another additional 1k each.. on the other hand, my hope for a 2nd upper was dashed.

I wasn't too sad.. maybe even delighted.. coz it just added some lowers to my inventory.. just a little bit more.. and so i got myself ready for the final sem.. ahhaa.. if i can't get the upper, then i must get the lower wor.. i really couldn't accept being nua anymore.

Actual proof? Yupz.. it sure was.

Meanwhile, i try not to be too happy/sad just yet.. as i've yet receive the official Notification of Result (NOR).. haha.. the portal might be wrong.. who knows? So till then, i'll have the reason for whatever.

AAR 2 - SNCO Performance

A rather unique performance last saturday.

Lost count of how many times we've performed under the name of SNCO, but already, there are changes everywhere. We had players from the former SWE switching sections so as to serve the purpose of the newly formed orchestra, and we had players leaving so as to further their passion for music. The coming performance, we'll have one less violin le.

So last saturday was the 1st time of performing on stage with nestor torres, a jazz flutist and Latin Grammy Award winner.. and he too, was a practioner of Nichiren Buddhism. It was really inspiring to have him to teach us on the performance day itself. Something sank in, especially that about "this moment" that really reflects us. What is it that we can do, and why we are not doing it. I guess, we all have potential.. just what is stopping us, and what is it that at this moment, we are not performing?

Heard a lot, but i think i've forgotten quite a bit too.. i was in a state of daze during the performance, perhaps becoz of the lights. It was a rather minor performance for us, coz we only 客串.. haha.. the management had their intention of letting us to perform with him.. yupz and they told us. So throughout the performance, we sat on stage, and hence was able to watch.. however, due to being on stage (and also observing performers' etiquette), movement was kept to a minimum.. haha.. and so, i sat on lemons.

It was a rather captivating performance by Nestor, and of coz, there are a few songs which i liked very much.. just that i forgot all the titles already. There was one piece that was rather unique, and it incorporated the lotus sutra in the music.

So when we played, i guess most are still quite concerned with other things (myself included) and i think the first time round sounded rather disorientated.. however, when we played "over the rainbow" for the encore, it was really inspring.. (for me at least).. didn't know why.. i recalled what nestor had said earlier, and thought.. ya.. why not. A very nice finale indeed.. coz mostly it wasn't planned. Everything was just impromptu.. it happened when he was talking about the sun, and how it was shining even though we didn't see it.. and how the rainbow would appear when the dark clouds disperse.. and then he took up his flute and started playing.. and just like that, he lead us to "over the rainbow".. it was very very nice lor.. maybe our playing wouldn't change just like that, but i guess the intention was really felt then.

Oh ya, i also liked the piece which Nestor invited us to play with.. "till forever" with his "digital orchestra".. hahaha.. we were playing with the minus one track.. but i think it was a rather special performance for me.

Overall, i don't know whether it was a success for me or not (in terms of everything).. coz it only came towards the end.. so now, is the outcome more important or the process? Or both? By the way, i wasn't alone in the section.. special thanks to zw for coming. I think i really need to brush up on the higher range le... haha.. it was out of tune lor... and it lies with my embouchure.. how do i change it? I think i have found something to work on for the one month break.

Coming month, there won't be any orchestra practice.. and so just the time to get school started. So indeed, they haven't upload the results onto the portal yet.. haha.. i wondered how the eCR2 is going to be completed.

AAR - Back from Chalet

Was back in the noon, and i still think that it was not a very wise idea to go to chalet just like that.

Within 24 hours, notice was issued and before i knew it, i was already at downtown east. Unplanned, and hence i was unprepared. And then it was one of the heaviest rain on the chalet day.. sian until cannot sian liao. Oh ya.. nowsadays cannot play mj at dte le wor.. they don't provide any rental. So, i wondered.. what was i doing there anyway.

A lot of changes, yet it still didn't quite impress me. Haha.. perhaps chevrons was too good le.. lol.. only difference is, cycling and going to the beach.. other than that, i think its better to stay at home.

Weather was rather bad wor.. but at least we get to bbq.. ahaha.. it was by far, the most "exotic" bbq i had..of coz la.. $90 for the food wor.. And i paid "more".. coz i had bitten myself while eating.. hahahaa... too hungry le i guessed. Haiz.. super sian liao la.. told myself time and again that i got to keep myself on form for the coming saturday concert.. in the end lei? Bit myself! What else can i say? I really got quite pek chek at myself lor.. sigh.

So when i got home today, and tried on the embouchure.. and that ulcer was just nice..................... ya, in the path. Sigh.

Some things can go wrong just like that hor? And sian was how everything lead to leads to everything. Argh.

Super frustrated lor.. ahahaa.. arrr.. i hate ulcers.. i hate chalets.

Ok.. i'm done with all the complains.. hahaa.. ok la.. i'm still hopeful about the performance.. can't wait for it to be over.

Confirmed Chalet

And so it was settled.. really chalet leh.. jialat.

Suddenly i don't feel like going le.. haha.. mostly coz i just went for chalet not long ago lor.. lol.. and a repeat.. zz...

Oh ya.. and the amount spent on food for a party of four.. $90+.. wahahaa.. serious leh.. and it excludes any liquors or whatsoever.. (liquor free chalet btw) .. wahaha.. i think i'm in for a premium bbq le.

So i'll be away for the next 2 days lo.. somewhere in Downtown East.

Changes

From our student portal - "UOL will send the Notification of Results (NOR) by courier to the RELC. It will be the week of 3 Sept by the time they receive it, sort it out and send them by mail to students. In the meantime, SIM is due to be given the college copies of the NOR. We will upload our database with the latest results and will inform students once that is done".

Supposed to receive the online version anytime soon ba.. haha.. if not, how are they going to do the eCR2 with one week to spare before the start of the term?

Anyway, i still don't quite get it.. things are being said and changed so often that i really can't plan my week.. ya.. a very busy week in theory. Of all the things are, chalet, orchestra rehearsals, and buffet lunch at the chocolate factory this saturday. The outcome is that i might have to forgo the super nice buffet lunch le.. aww... haha... need to reach tampines at 2.30pm for sound check and all that wor.. instead of 3 pm. In the end, i guess this week is quite free due to the cancellations of a lot of things wor.. haha.. so perhaps, will be at downtown east? I really don't know.. things kept changing.

Meanwhile.. changing the layout of my blog again.. hahaa... seems to do that every year.. so right now, the 3rd skin should be out soon... I just need to do some editing. Also, a "new" sub-blog should be out soon.. i need to try something out.. perhaps in the next 2-3 days or so, when things are "approved".

A lot more "other changes" here and there, making it all so much "interesting".

Over the Rainbow

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high~

Ya.. the notes are rather high too (coz we played a lot of times till i got tired) .. haha.. so again, was making lemonades towards the end. It was so much better le.(i mean my playing, not the lemondade..)

Phew.. finally got things settled at the moment.. actually my brain was rather empty today.. haah.. so were my nerves. Anyway, was getting better le.. and it better be. Performance is just a week away lo. (even though it wasn't our full concert) There is a need to deliver.. especially hor.. people paid for it.

Well, something our conductor said really inspires, that is, to touch people's heart with our music. Well.. i think "over the rainbow" is quite nice. LOL.. Erm.. i really can't feel pavane.. lol.. so don't ask me about that. And of coz, morigasaki is still my favorite.

This coming week, there'll be "extra" practices on wednesday at the moment.. and saturday will be the performance lo.. haha.. finally.

Was actually slacking this week, coz of a terrible flu.. and it developed into a cough.. haha.. i think i'm recovering. At least, felt so much better.. time to eat a lot a lot again.. haha.. i think i've lost weight le lor. So long didn't fall ill le.. haha.. so now that i'm recovering, time to eat chong qing steamboat~!

And that ehow suggest booking chalet so that we can have bbq and steamboat and mj! Wahahaa... just at the "right" time.. if it happens to be at dte, then might as well ^^.. coz the rehearsal is at sscc.. wow.. so near. (nearer than my place anyways)

So next week might be a super busy week.. with the results due to be out.. yay~

Full Blown Flu

And then it came, just as expected.

Got the flu virus finally, thanks to the super late nights i had. Was so bored being "grounded" at home. Nothing much i can do with a running nose and slight fever.. couldn't practice on my baobei horn too.. haha.. so i took my dusty guitar out to try out a "new" sheet of music i found on the net.. lol.. was actually trying out on some of jay's song. Well.. sounds nice, and i think if i got a music keyboard at home, i would have played the piano version (if i could).

Anyway, spent most of today seated in front of the comp, msn-ing, with my guitar on my lap, and newspaper on the cpu desk.. whahaa.. i'm multi-tasking, yet was still bored.. or rather, "sian" coz was feeling unwell. Didn't want to take naps coz yesterday i took an evening nap, ended up couldn't sleep till it was 5.30am. I think the flu just got worse because of this.

It's just beginning to feel terrible lor.. zzz.. i can't even differentiate between "cold" and "hot".

Flu aside.. i think i can be rather dumb at times. Seriously.. the same mistake can happen and happen again.. and i'll never learn. Anyway, anything (whatever).

And with regards to the bumble bee and thunderbird, i think, there was none to begin with.. perhaps, was just another "mistake". If, things done doesn't seems to matter, there is no justification. For that, i rest my case. (Anyway, things done are always almost invisible, while those not done are just like the north star)

8pm now.. i think i can go to sleep le.. feeling super sian for all the illness.. and thanks, but no thanks.

"No Reason"

For "no reason", even staying at home is a drain on my balance sheet.

Counting down, 3 more weeks to the new school term, and another week and a half to the 1st september performance. As such, it'll be quite a "busy" period.. but i guess, it beats staying at home trying to figure out what to do.

Results will be out very very soon.. many are checking the student portal also daily, if not hourly.. haha.. i'm quite interested to know too, but waiting for it to happen shouldn't be a difficult task ba.

And meanwhile, while trying to look forward, i've been feeling quite not ok due to the late nights recently.. plus i got an overdose of instant noodles and "chicken in the biscuit".. hahaa.. i think i finished the 3rd packet in a week. Now feeling feverish with flu.. plus ulcers again. I think i'm leading a very unhealthy lifestyle.

Monday's massive climb of 6% on the STI was cut by half the following day.. and that EPS system is very wols lor.. lol.. if they force sell me.. then i should be very sian le.. haha.. coz i thought that i was on "GIRO".. but was on EPS which i had to click on the i-banking myself.. zzz.. then i only realised it the very day before settlement.. but it was nothing much afterall.. i just don't like the feeling of doing things wrong and then paying for the mistake. (which could be easily avoided). Anyway, things are not to be stable soon i guess, so it's better to wait and see.

Pakki is 9 months old le.. now getting quite naughty.. since he's undergoing some weird stages in his life.. so had been rather lenient with him, though sometimes he really "try to be funny". So today he went MIA in house.. and thought where he hide.. in the end, he was in the toilet playing with the toilet roll lor.. or rather, eating it. Was so angry with him (coz he ate the toilet roll).. toilet roll so tasty meh? Anyway, still 3 months or so before this "naughty boi" grows up.. till then ba.

12.40am now.. i'll go to sleep. Too many things coming up, i can't afford to fall sick.

Pakki~

OO.. pakki just got a new haircut~! Again.. quite botak, and perhaps lighter in weight, he kept jumping around.

Anyway, here are some photos of him taken before he had his haircut..

Orchestra Practice "Alone"

Saturday's orchestra practice hasn't been good either, at least for me. Spent a week practicing on the mozart piece, and in the end, it was taken off. On one hand, was relieved coz that piece was rather difficult.. but on the other hand, felt it was kind of a wasted effort on my part. Should i not care much about the outcome at all, and focus on the process instead? I don't really know..

The piece was replaced by yet another piece, "easier" perhaps, but expose horns way more.. in fact, its the same for the rest of the instruments.. IMO, i don't think this is an easier piece. Well.. like they say.. face up to the challenge ba.

So when they said this was the replacement, i already knew what i'm in for.. though tried hard to cope, but still kena bombed. I'm not waiting for anyone to bail me out, for i already knew i would be alone, alone. So i played, and tio shoot... but of coz, it wasn't nicely done at all. Perhaps, will try to "listen" more, if i could focus less on the rest of the things going on - pitch, tempo, tuning and etc.. so, for the coming week, just try to practice hard on these ba.

Wasn't really feeling good being shot at, and nobody will. Yet it wasn't others at fault, just me, alone. So i'm responsible lor.. so distinct was it. And so meanwhile, i'll still be alone, till reinforcement arrive.. haha.. but i wasn't counting on it.. coz, in the end, its me that i've got to verifiy.

Was actually seeing a piece "over the rainbow" for quite a few times, although a different arranger each time.. but this time it was special, arranged by our own conductor wf. Quite a nice arrangement on the whole, though it featured the horn soli (in this case a solo for me) for a few lines.. personally, i also like the sound of the horn very much.. (i just don't like the shape because its so difficult to carry around) but after a whole half practice of playing the solo on pavane, i think i'm just forcing the notes out.. something like squeezing lemonade like that.. it sounds, just horrible. Haa.. i really need people to help me.. somethings are not meant to be done alone.. i'm not an island anyway.

It wasn't meant to be.. for a "section" to be in 1/5 of its strength.. i just couldn't find enough energy to pull it through.

By the end, was tired le.. really very tired.

And so, there was a "farewell" for some of the members who are going to the US to further their music.. wow.. they had their dream, and went for it.. so.. where's mine? I never had the thought of going professional.. it was, just a hobby to me.. but everything seems so serious now. Joined band because my sis was in the band during my sec school days.. and then stayed coz i thought it was fun. JC, i chose band again coz i was thinking of going for SYF again in JC, but ended without enough players.. so we forfeited. At SIM, they didn't have a band... so didn't know why i ended up in the student council.. but for once, i think not playing in any band doesn't make any difference to me anymore.. so i thought of giving it up, just like many of my bandmates in JC and secondary school. It just isn't something to be awed at.

But i've been saying this.. said i wanted to quit for a long long time.. in the end, it was never realised. It's not what you say it will, then it would. So.. i don't think i want to say anymore.. perhaps if i say i didn't want to quit.. then i might someday.

Well.. i'm not thinking of quitting at this point.. not such a minor setback can do anything.. i've got a job to do here.. so no matter what, it will still be done.

Oh ya.. and then, the "fantastic 4" was reduced to the "fantastic 2". Perhaps, we shall meet again.. and i might be looking forward to it.

Been rather cold these days, but i quite like the weather. (though at times i quite hate it...)

I guess, i could never make up my mind.

Out Pubbing

Was out with friends from SIM.. as usual, the usual ones, and as usual, the usual activity.

Kind of glad that we opened one bottle instead of two.. for i think, its like already a lot.. haha.. i just want to chill.. that's all i want to do.

We were given a special room, to be away from the main hall.. just like singing ktv.. haha.. (its a ktv pub by the way..) The difference is, we get to sing all the songs that those in the hall picked, with our own seperate mic and sound system... haha.. which means, we sing every song. Yet.. this doesn't seems to be a very good idea lor.. hahha.. for one, we kept seeing repeats on a few particular song.

Oh ya.. quite liked the ktv room.. haha.. coz can try out lots of songs that others chose.. Yet, was already not really keen in singing.. haha.. didn't know why, but perhaps, it was just another passing phase for me.

And, soon, all might be off working le.. and me, continuing my studies.. was really glad that this group was there for company during the past 3 years of school life.. haha.. just that, it'll be quite difficult to coordinate another outing of this scale again.

Was super tired, coz woke up super early this morning (before 9am). And last night i slept rather late too.. think around the same time as now. Also, was using up energy practicing on my baobei horn.. hahah.. much effort was needed, especially when the horn was muted. Sadly, i wasn't ready for the practice tomorrow.. felt that a lot of parts was still kind of unreachable.. especially the high A.. plus, tone quality was rather bad.. ar.. felt like that time when i was in secondary one.. haha.. like very noob like that.

Yet, still must attend orchestra practice... coz, the original score is with me.. haha.. but due to insufficient sleep, was being bothered by the flu bug.. been sneezing for the whole day le..

Nothing to do.. so blogging some nonsense.. while waiting for my hair to dry before sleeping..

Impressed with a story that i encountered recently.. very impressive indeed. Anticipated the plot, but was caught too, coz of a minor twist. For one, it swang (is this the past tense of swing? hahaa..) me a full 180. Haha.. that is just me.. trying to act smart, but actually not quite smart myself. Like the recent investment also, thought it couldn't go lower, yet it just fell and fell..

So today CDP sent me a letter regarding my investment.. luckily told the village chief that i've entered.. if not, he might just tear it open and see my foolish mistake.. haha.. so he asked me what i've bought.. i just kept quiet. Wanted it to be my private trading, fund free from any influence.. (FST?) so the chief got a bit pissed.. hahaha.. coz as if i didn't trust him.. well.. not that i didn't trust.. i really want to be independent in this aspect as well.

I guess, its just like everything else.. past can't forcast the future, and being inside and outside of the stituation is a whole different story. And when it became historical, explanations were given.. lol.. But knowing was already too late.. for information are alreay priced in.. but it sure is better to know what is happening rather than investing without knowing. 长痛不如短痛 hor? Hahhaa.. yalor.. but people are really optimistic leh.. haha.. they "hold" when the market signals for them to "sell".. haha.. hold for xmas meh? But i'm being irrational here too.. i held too.. haha.. it was like, really difficult to let go just to cut lost.. in the end, it lost another 15%... ahahahaa... so sad lor... and 很痛.

A piece of good news.. those "investors" that refused to react to the 17 billion injections into the FI are trying to get the fed to cut their rates.. haha.. and they've succeeded.. yay.. finally after so many days.. the fed (with their stubborn strategy) give in by 0.5%.. not much.. but really telling people that credit will not be difficult to obtain after all... wondered are they fuelling another balloon or just trying to keep it from busting.. perhaps it was really an economy boom that is still booming waiting for a big boom? But IMO, i don't really care.. whahaa.. i just want to cash out. With the cut, dow and nasdaq is finally green again.. phew.
(above are just my personal opinion.. and nothing else)

5.50am now.. luckily the market is closed for weekends.. whaha.. if not, i'll wake up at 9 again.. wahaha.. what to do? I'm am unemployed.. no time to work coz schooling starts next month.. might as well be a retail investor.. whaha.. i'm noob i agree.. but i trust my studies of Financial intermediation, Corporated Finance and Economics to be of some help.. if not, i pay $1070 (inclusive of 7% GST) for what? Haha.. i might after all, be in the financial sector when i graduate.. see if it interests me or not. Right now as i've said.. its just a training ground.. haha.. even so, i need all the skills i have to minimise losses and generate positive returns.. haha.. perhaps, also need lady luck to shine on me ba.. haha.. just that day when i entered, the company decided to do a rights issue at a discount.. omg.. people buy at the discount price then sell in the market at the market price, thus with enough people doing it, the price falls.. plus the credit woes.. i think, this is a rather unlucky time to be at.

Got to rest "early".. still got a long day tomorrow..

Insomnia

Slept so much in the afternoon and evening that i can't get to sleep now lor.. and now it's already 4am in the morning.. there is nothing much i can do without waking the village (plus the dog up).

Still another month before school reopens for me.. haha.. i think i quite miss school already.

Was rather unfortunate that i couldn't graduate in 3 years, but i guess, another year for a lot more better years.. it might just worth it.

Zzz.. and that pakki anyhow pee again.. he had forgotten his housebreaking le.. zz.. i think the only one breaking is my mom. Anyway, got to clean in up in the middle of the night before mom sees it in the morning.. haha.. yupz.. i'm covering it up for pakki.. whahah.. coz nobody can scold him as for now.. and i think mom is rather upset with haveing to clean up and pakki not learning.. hmm.. i don't know.. this puppy can be rather stubborn at times.. but i guess, someday, he might learn.

So for the coming month of school vacation, i might need to revise my CF soon.. haha.. there is 80% of me buanging that module.. and for marketing, 70%... i'm getting ready to drop marketing le.. too many stunts in 2 years le.. haha.. i "hate" the examiners. So might be paying a total of $3745 to SIM, $729 to UOL and estimated $2500 at RELC.. totalling to.. 7k. Argh.. what was i doing...

No wonder i couldn't sleep la...

Yet Another Bloodbath...

This is not getting nice in anyway.. STI dropped another 3.7%.. at this rate, its better to keep my money under the pillow.

Given the performance of the US market, the sub-prime loan woes had became part of my woe. But on the positive side, it was, afterall still a minor training ground for me.

Well well.. this is something "only time will tell".

And so now, the US market still have no intention of recovering, with both in the reds at 3 pm US time. Given the extend of the credit woes.. it might be something more sinister.. the remedies given doesn't seems to do much to market sentiments as yet... of coz, there are those trying to make profit out of a "crisis" with their short-selling techniques, thus making this another of those self fulilling prophecy.

Well, it doesn't have to affect all of us, but, it might.. for the underlying conclusion is that, there'll be a tightening in credit.. businesses that requires large amount of capital on the outset might find themselves in trouble. And giving the economy driven by activies of businesses.. it might just make the mark for one of those cycle.

Sure enough, it happend before, and will happen again.. the question is when.

Disclaimer: i take no resposibility for any investment/dis-investment made with reference to this entry. All is done at your own risk!