Thoughts by Day, Nightmares at Night

Sunday late morning, and i woke up to a nightmare. Hahaa.. i think must be study until "walk fire go demon" liao.

For the past 2 days, i've been in school studying CF from 8 plus to 4. I've gone through the notes once, and marketing also gone through liao. The only concern is FI, which till now, i've been shelving. I didn't attend any of the revison class with regards to this as now, i didn't want to remember any FI. With 3.5 qualitative papers to go, 1 more is a bit too much.

So CF for many days, till i had nightmare. I dreamt that it was sunddenly the day for exams, and i didn't study for that topic.. wahahaaa.. and so i panicked.. till i woke up. Phew.. hahaha.. for a moment, i need to confirm the date i was at. LOL..

Actually there isn't much time left. 10 more days to the commence of my 1st paper.. whoa.. hoped for the best.

Oh Why Can't I?

Ar... give me some spare memory can?? ARGH... hao stress ar.. why oh why can't i get them in my head?

CF is so difficult.. difficult in the maths that is involved.. or actually, the curves involved. Can anyone tell me whether Beta can be negative? Since the formula for beta is covar ab/ var b .. and variance is always positive, but, covar = correlation coefficient of a and b x sigma a sigma b.. and correlation coefficient can be negative.. so by right, it is possible for beta to be negative. But then, why, under the SML, there is no plotting for negative beta? If i keep that kind of attitutde, i would surely fail. The probability of such question coming out is so low that it is not worth pondering about.. the best is, just do the past year question.

I'm beginning to doubt the system of having a writting exam.. was it a task of memorizing past year questions and styles? Too bad i've got STM.. memorizing isn't my forte.. i usually derived from what was given. Who can i blame?.. just suay that i started too late..

Sigh.. and now i chwee until don't know what.. like going to doh liao.. ar.. i just need just that few more weeks..

Am i giving myself too much undue pressure? I don't really know.. but i've slacked for so long le.. time to make things right again.. if i can.

I just don't know why.. this year seems so much different. Hope my results will be different also.

Now i want to sleep also cannot.. coz still lagging behind in my studies. Just online to complain a bit, de-stress a bit.. and then maybe make myself supper and its back to study again. I can't say i did work hard for this exam, yet, it was definately better than the previous. And for that, i felt relieved enough. I know it was too late to amend for anything.. but, given whatever that was left, perhaps, the best was never to give up again.

I guess i have to study until 5am like that.. haha.. just like last night, after i've finish watching champions league. Sian 1/2 lor.. AC lost in the last moment.. Actaully i didn't really watch.. i just listen to the tv. LOL. i wasn't too bored studying.. my 2 hamsters are making a din in their cages by running the wheels, and i got paki sleeping near where i was studying. Hahaha.. that toopid paki.. so naughty lor.. but looks so cute when he's asleep.

I got to go le.. hopefuylly by uploading my thoughts, i've got more free space for CF.. haha.. next chapter is: Derivatives..

I Guess I'm too Tired

Inconsistency in my studies.. i can't seems to concentrate for long periods of time.

These few days, i've been sleeping my time away. Having almost a full week of lessons really burned my brain cells.

Been stressed till outbreak occurs.. ar... but i haven't been burning midnight oil. I guess it must be paki's fault.. haha.. coz every morning, i'll receive his wake up call at 6.30am or 7.00am like that. It doesn't matter what time i sleep, he'll just do his job in the morning.. whahaa.. i makes me wonder.. weather is he actually a rooster in disguise?

Actually we've been wondering what he actually is.. haha.. at times, he hops like a rabbit, other times, he'll grind his cage like a hamster.. better still, he plays his toys like a cat.. whahaha.. it really is very fun watching him grow.

And he will never fail to amaze me with his intelligence. Just too bad that this is the age where all the training must take place.. i really have no time for him, and i think my parents are "spoilling" him.. haha.. so he only barks at my mom to let him out of the crate.

Noticed that paki is quite corrupted de.. haha.. in the sense that he will do what was told if there was a treat involved.. and another thing, he seems very excited when he sees girls lor.. whahahahaa...

So now he's 4 months old.. still more to come till he reach the age of 1. Haha.. i think the "devilish" side is not far from now.. lol.

The mini Schnauzer is a very intelligent dog.. so smart that i don't know what to teach.. whahaha.. and there are friends who suggest that i teach him how to play mahjong.. wahhahaa.. why not? There are dogs which do math.. might as well teach him how to play mj huh?

I guess i really tire myself these few days.. and i start having weird dreams.. i actually dreamt of an answer that i had no wish to answer. LOL.. why don't make me dream of exams question instead? Better still, let me dream of the answer ba. Yet, this was not mere coincident.. i was reminded of something a few days ago, and then it somehow got embedded in my mind. Sigh.. i guess i'm really too tired.

Since Last Saturday

Actually i'm quite excited about this coming exam.. i don't know why, but i just feel that way.

For the past feel days, had been attending UOL lectures, but not in full. I felt that, they are for people who want to score that extra mark, that hard to reach 1-1. But for me, there is too much spare capacity to fill, less that 1-1 or 2-1. So i rather utilize my time to fill in. Such was what the anxiety sets in.. i'm rather paranoid, and sometimes i feel that i will be wasting my time in the LT, coz i won't be listening much.

So i actually opted to skipped partially.. well, full for FI (the last paper, and likely the one that might be superceded by LBO. Well, i did make use of the time while i was "twang-ing".. haha.. i made use of my saturday for mj.. - - and served me right for twanging.. haha.. i actually lost quite a lot for that day. Haha.. next time who wants to win my money.. just come over for mj ba.. siao de, i feel like santa that saturday. Well, i must thank uncle hao for his winning treat, coz i felt rather paiseh.. haha.. people win money liao in the end, the winnings end up in the resturant.

But Sunday, i made up for my guilt. LOL.. i actually went down school to collect my FI notes.. actually was there to study.. but i think my either school is too small, or this batch's student is siao on.. i hoped they solve the over-crowding problem soon. Well, i guess it won't be of use anymore.. TOO LATE. And with the on-going construction, the condition is not for studying. So on sunday, i brough along my lappy for studying, but even on a sunday, i can't find a powerpoint in school.. how suprising. So in the end, i'm lagging in my schedule, by a whole 2 days.

Today was my second LBO lesson, but my brain really cmi by 2.30pm.. so left early to mug LBO outside till 4pm, i'm not guilty.. lalala..

Went TP to shop for my (and i mean my sis or our as in our village)puppy.. OMG.. and i actually spent $60 on his items.. i got a very sophisticated drinking bowl.. whaha.. and 1 metal chain (JIC) and 1 box of treats.. plus a lot of toys.. whahaa.. maciam go toys "r" us like that.. haha.. they got so many variety, until i don't know what to do. Haha..

Today, paki learnt a new command! The easy easy one of "down".. haha.. and within 30 minutes. He's sooooooo smart lor. And this little rascal is getting out of hand... so we borrowed so many books on dog training.. whaha.. and i really think, i can go be a dog trainer after this year (no i won't be graduating this sem).. hahah..

Actually i still don't know his fate.. whether is he going to stay in the village or not.. but while he is here, there isn't a need to think much.

And today, it proved that i'm much a "fast runner".. whaha... so impressed with myself.

Local CF tomorrow.. and another day to chiong (in studies).. huh.. i won't give up liao.

Marketing Plan

2nd entry: Now i don't know why, even blogging seems like making short notes for exams.. haha.. i can't seems to write 2 different subject in 1 entry.

Been going through my marketing notes once again, and i realised, it was marketing all along. It was this paper which started my failing streak.. and the reason was obvious.. my marketing notes was difficult to understand.. and not only that, a lot of things was irrelevant.

The worst part perhaps was, exams question wasn't asked according to topics.. most likely, there are overlaps here and there. Which means, actually there wasn't any chapter i can skip.

Which means, i am running out of time.

So Soon?

Just after a week, paki might have to go le..

Well, that was very typical, too many times, and it was anticipated. Yet, it was quite saddening to think that he might leave soon.

Only a week, and somehow, he managed to wedge himself into my village. Not only me, mom, was already taking care of this puppy. But i guess, afterall, it wasn't up to me.. so we shall see how it goes.

Really, i know i'll miss this puppy.

And that was typical of me too.

Tiring Weekend

Toopid dog woke me up every morning at 8am.. haha.. now i've got to change my habits le.. no more late nights.

Mornings are usually quite boring.. no tv shows and no places to go. But morning is the best time to study.. that is, if i happen to want to study.

Last saturday, i attended band pract again.. and super sian.. i don't know why some pieces are chosen.. i really don't. Either that their choice is wrong, or that my standard is too low. But playing "harry potter".. i think its not something really great to try to sight-read.. ok.. i do agree, my sight-reading is rather poor on this instrument... give me trumpet lor.. haha.. and i can do wonders. (in sight read i mean.. haha..) Siao de leh.. the harmonics so close and with everyone humtum-ing their own notes, i can't really tell the difference. So it was rather sian.. haiz.. perhaps after a full day lecture in school, i don't really have mood to think of music.

Really tiring to attend weekend lectures. Just after 2 days of lectures, i've already drained myself out. Slept for almost 12 hours today.. haha.. really tiring. And this weekend, got to attend another UOL lecture.. plus band pract.. sian diao.

Dog Training

Don't know what the heck things like to happen during the exam period. Maybe i just want to avoid studying.. hahhahahaa..

Been rather 'busy' training my sis's dog, paki - a 5 months old schnauzer. Right now, he's learning about 5-6 words since monday. Now he knows 2 words for sure.. sit and hand.. ahhaa.. next time i teach him how to fly. A few more months, i can qualify for a dog trainer le.. haha..

paki had been quite playful, being a puppy, i really don't understand why he gets jumpy now and then. He jumps when people are near his cage, he also jumps when he's playing with his toy.. and even when he wants to pang sai, he also jump.. - -

Haha.. i would say, he's cute at the moment. Not in appearence, but what he does. He can throw his toy around until it flew out of the cage.. haha.. laugh until i want to peng.

But sadly, his owner doesn't have the time to train him.. so i train lor.. actually, i also don't have much time.. exams coming le leh.. i think i need to go into some siao mode le.. the paranoid mode. Haha.. that type confirm pass de.

Haiz.. here kp also no point.. days still pass, and exams still comes. And even though so, i still need to go band in boonlay... again. ARGH.. and tomorrow got UOL lecture also.. ar...

Morning Call...zzz...

6.30am, i woke up to the barking of mr schnauzer aka paki.. hahaha.. short for pa lai pa ki.. whahahaa... actually he has a name of his own.. but mom prefers to call him paki.

Slept at 1.30am the night before, and 5 hours later, heard paki barking. He seldom barks, and this morning, he barked so many times until i woke up. Discovered that sis wanted to feed him, but mom said don't feed him so early in the morning. In the end, his half-eaten breakfast was taken away.. haha.. no wonder la.. then i think he buay song.. and he make until i buay song.. early in the morning give me morning call. Haha.. but he's still a puppy.. so got to teach him cannot no manners, if not when he grows older, things might get worst.

Funny is how the presence of paki diminishes that of the hamsters.. lol.. i think, my hamsters are more like fishes in a aquarium lor. I only watch, feed and clean their cage, nothing else.. haha. They are untamed till now, and i don't think they'll ever get tamed in their lifetime.

Taught paki a few words.. haha.. next time he can take part in spelling bees le. LOL. Heard that some dogs can do math.. maybe mine can do spelling.. best is write essays.. wahah.. but he knows how to do handshake, for the sake of a few tibits.

Stangely, dad didn't protest too much when sis brought paki home the other day.. i guess either he gave up on nagging my sis le, or maybe he also didn't really mind. Haha.. actually i think he's quite keen too.. everytime ask whether the food is enough for paki or not.. and he even cleared paki's waste. LOL.. heard from my mom that he doesn't help in changing my diapers when i was still a baby.. haha.. how unfair.

But the adorable paki couldn't do much to halt the norm of the papazhao syndrom. Haha.. except me.. i'm too lazy to leave my house.. haha... siao liao lor.. i think i'm going to be classified into 'zai nan' le.. can add a 'leng' in front or not? whahaha... kidding la.

Sianz leh.. i can't remember what i've revised.. argh.. i hate exams.. and then the band pract are starting again.. again, burning my saturday evening... haiiiiiz. I don't hate going to band, but i don't like the idea of getting saturdays burned. I rather my sundays are burned.. no wait.. sunday is for mj de.. so cannot.. haiz.......

Another New Comer

I think my house is going to turn into a pet shop soon..

Today, sis brought home a puppy schnauzer.. hahah.. and plus the two hamsters i've got, i think i can open a pet shop le.. perhaps a zoo also shouldn't be a problem.

Introduced one of my hamster to the schnauzer liao.. haha.. and he seems curious. I wondered what is he thinking.. maybe he thought of eating the hamster? Hahah..

Still haven't got a name for the schnauzer. Waiting for sis to give her a name.

Actually, i used to be afraid of dogs when i was young.. haha.. coz i thought they like to bite people.. but now i think hamsters are more fierce lor.. haaha..


Dog watching the hamster.. lol

Exams leh..

Another month or so to exams.. still not in exam mood as always. Discovered that i don't like exams.. actually, nobody does. But still, i need to prove myself once again.

But perhaps not so soon.. next week hao ma? Hahah... i never change, still as lazy as usual.

Thursday, got up and the usual SOP. LSed coz of the overdose of liquor the previous night.. whahaa.. don't know what's wrong with my digestive system.. so got over the hangover and went to meet up with my jc bandmate. It came as a chance and then discovered that this world is so small. Hahah.. to think that someone actually knew someone. (??) Haha... and to think that things are so easy to guess.

And so since we graduated from jc, we never met up.. suddenly had so much to say, and all about the past. And when someone had too much to say about the past, it means.. yah.. old liao le. Also, found out that my friend was actually from SSA.. haha.. so qiao huh? So i got my friend to get me and my sis beads, coz i thought my sis is going to the US soon.. but in the end, she decided not to go. Might as well.. save my parents and me from worrying. OK.. maybe i won't get to drive the vios ba.. haha.. but nevermind.

Friday, skipped local revision again.. haha... coz i attended before the previous year. Don't know why.. perhaps i'm so confident that i actually started my mugging a year before, i don't actually feel the urgency.. haha.. just don't let this be my downfall.

Since that day at zouk, i've been feeling not ok.. so weak these few days.. take bus also feel giddy, and the whole day kept sleeping.. next time i don't want to drink so much le.. coz too long never train, (and there's no reason why one should) i couldn't hold as well le.. haha.. 1 tiger and not even 1 jug of long island already cmi-ed me.. And been feeling the effects of arthritis.. sian 1/2 lor.. i've already stopped asking why.. haha.. entering the 8th year, and really, the unpredictable condition had much impact on my life. Still it goes on.. yah.. why not?

I still can enjoy.. haha.. Today went K-lunching at kbox plaza.. though its new, but it seems to inherit the service approach from the old kbox near S11 there. Nevertheless, didn't k-lunch for almost a long long time, and i was impressed with the lunch (and the bill too). For $12.50, we get 1 drink plus 1 lunch.. and the serving is quite generous too.. plus 3 hours of K-ing.. $12.50 leh.. such a bargain.

Backed home at 2pm, and actually was jio-ed for mj.. haha.. but luckily not enough kah.. haha.. coz the more i played, the more i felt guilty of not mugging.. sigh.. tian ar.. why are there exams? Why did someone invent such a system... haiz...

KOed by a Tiger

Knew i couldn't.. and after so long, it wouldn't changed. Still can't pit myself against tiger, or anything similiar.

Since the 1st time, it was like this, never able to overcome the potent cocktail. Different system, different reaction, and that was my Achilles' heel. Perhaps the difference was how it was handled. This time round, i had nothing more to say, i just felt tired.. tired for all these while.

So i was sleeping for most of the time, haha.. luckily i got the wall to lean on.. super tired and giddy.. i don't know.. the taste of long island is already enough to scare me off.. what's more, i got 1 whole tiger in my stomach, together with my late dinner.

And as i've expected, i leveled up.. haha.. the 5th time.. and it was beer again. Never doubt, and as usual, regretted. So for the 1st time in 3 months, and it was perhaps another 3 months before i 'forget' this horrifying exeprience. Spare me in the meantime.. i really don't find the utility in crubbing.. this was only for the sake of gathering.

Last time, saw someone dropped her skirt.. and this time, saw Cinderella.. but this cinderella lost 2 of her slippers.. ok.. not really lost, but something else happened to them.. LOL.. i think i had accumulate some bad karma for being 'accomplice'... whahaaha.. wondered how cinderella is going to get home.. lol..

Was again reminded that i wasn't young anymore, therefore there are a lot of options to be made. Sigh.. wondered why i created a path until here.. how am i going to carry on?

After puking, i'm now hungry.. sians.. today wasted another $70 or so.. hahaa.. next time i siam crubbing.. can upgrade my hamsters' home lor.. haha.. actually, i really forgot how to dance those toopid dance le.. haha.. 3 months away from crubs, i guess i really don't have the addiction liao.. coz actually, i was no longer lost. Perhaps the next time is after exams.. whahah.. ya, i'm hinting.

I'm Going HK!

After exams, i'll be going to hongkong! Yay.. haha.. after so long, finally got to make use of my passport liao. 6 years in sg.. the only 'overseas' i went is sentosa lor.. haha. Time to collect another 'chop' liao.. whaha.. the last was to helsinki, and the rest was with my mom's passport.

Was at the NATAS fair the last weekend, and omg.. it was so crowded. So many people lor, and of coz, those giving the leaflet were more than those in simlim. And i guess, unless you intend to go there the next day, it doesn't make a difference if you take or not.. so many of them, how to read?

A lot of promotions, but mostly for offpeak period.. but had to complete my exams 1st.. if not can't really enjoy. Intended to go taiwan initially, but due to budget constraint, the choice was set to hk instead. Not too bad too.. i never went before. But of coz, maybe not to the disneyland this time round ba.. whaha..

JJ they all will be going taiwan for a week wor.. wah.. but with tour de.. and tour the whole taiwan. LOL.. and i chose to tour hk free and easy for 4days.. and the difference is only about $200. Hahaha.. i think i cabbage head liao lo. Actually no la.. coz opted for nice flight and nice hotel mah.. haaha.. so bo bian have to pay more.

Actually can tell hor.. i'm very excited.

And for the not so exciting part, only about 1.5 months to exams.. and still, i'm not studying much. Too many topics to choose le.. and i really don't dare to spot leh.. If suay like last year like that.. spot liao tio pok.. then sian again. Study more also can't remember that much.. the best is choose 5 and hope they come out le. I got 3 essay-based leh.. 5 per module means 15 in total leh.. and 5 is still risky lor.. no.. is very risky. Maybe 7-8 ba.. sian.

Last sunday, we all still got mood for mj.. and we got 5 kah! Wahaha.. and i guess sometimes i really got carried away wor. Anyway, that day bt very suay.. tio cleared. So now i know, luck is really really very important. But still, win a bit only, and not enough to win some pocket money for the hk trip.. haaha.. think i got to win more the next time lor.

Bad Debt Written Off

Whoa.. i'm a bit 'richer' le.. hahaa... but balwant never teach how to write off bad debt.

My friend called the other day, and said he wanted to return me the sum of money he owed me.. and suddenly, it was like getting another cny angbao.. haha.. and like what they say, got lend, got return.. haha.. so happy. But then.. haven't transferred account yet.. haha.. but already very happy le..

Sometimes, i wondered what i'm doing.. most people know where they're heading, but i'm like lost everytime.. ya.. since army days, there are a few in my team that are very keen in doing business.. and 3 years since ord.. they really did.. and not bad too.. but for me, i've been studying since ord.. but the difference is, i didn't do it with determination. Too easily distracted.. but then again, only young once.. so i think it's ok to err. Realised that the cost is higher the older we get. Economically, retaking A levels cost $300.. but retaking 3 modules cost around 3.5k.. and i'm getting older.. and not much opportunity to learn from mistakes le.. Like the other time, we played 10-20 cents.. and i lost $10.. haha.. now we played 20-40 cents.. and i lost $30.. wahahaha.. kidding la.. but it's true. Lesson learnt from mistakes just gets more expensive.

Soon enough, i forgot things that i wanted to forget. Nua until my brain also turned lazy.. haha.. that is, until the internet reminded me that there are things that exist somewhere..

Whatever, more often then not, there are things that even i know, i can't help. And even when i can't help, i thought i could manage. But in reality, i can't. I really ain't that generous.

Ya.. me and my lousy IE again. Hahah.. checked with my entries a year ago.. and my.. people do really change huh.. Next year i check back again.

My hamsters are doing well now.. now growing larger le.. haha.. but they both got differrent personalities. (can it apply to hamsters too?) One is hyper active, and the other is very nua. Haha.. the nua 1 is bacon.. I didn't tame them at all, meaning, they can't be hand-handled. Ya.. they bite. Untamed also meant that they're quite sensitive to their surroundings too.. hiding whenever the light is on. I gave up on teaching them that the light is not sunlight.. haha.. i dunno how to let them know lor.. If i knew how to, i'd like to teach them to play fetch liao lo.. hahah.. kidding.

Feeling guilty over not studying and such.. and so i'm trying to be "good" these days.. whahaa.. but i know it won't last.

Some Peace

Got my wireless replaced finally. In the end, it was a downgrade, coz my older router was no longer in production. Nevertheless, got it done, and finally, restored some order in the village..

Start of Revison Class

Start of revision classes, and i already miscalculated. Hahaa.. and today i saw so many familiar faces. LOL.. and i though i'd be alone.

Weekend lesson is tough.. a full day lesson is more tough. What's more, this lesson is taught by some lecturer with some heavy european accent.. hahaha.. i had a tough trying to understand him, not to mention understanding the subject. But then i realised, he teaches that wasn't mention in the notes nor the subject guide.. ok lor.. win liao lor.

No wonder all wanted to clear their UOL lesson so early. Such time advantage is important.. to those who uses it. Of coz, that wasn't incorporated in my plan.

42 days to my first paper........ kns.. and i felt as if i have lots of time. 1 month nia.. where got enough? Sianz.

Today went to get an unpgrade for my hamster cage.. wahaha.. i think he hao ming liao lor.. house getting bigger.. and i got poorer also..

Today went to the synegry in an attempt to get my router fixed.. but then.. i should have known.. saturday leh.. where got office people work 1? Think is shopping centre meh? Haha.. whats more sad is that, i skipped my lunch just to get it fixed.. and even sadder that i chose the wrong mode of transport and had to walk a long long way.. then after knowing that it was closed, had to waste money on cab again.. Argh.. My mistake leh.. but then i did asked their distributor the day before.. argh.. should have called them directly.. haiz. Well, who asked me.

Sigh.. so sian. I think, this exam period is stressing people.. nobody have mood to do anything.. and me too. And people smsed again.. SNCO band practice resumes on April.. omg.. april fools' joke came early huh?

I'm so tired. Really am.

Happy Bday to Me

Went to get my very belated bday present today.. wahaha.. yah.. adidas jacket! Wahahaha.. although not totally FOC, but heavily subsidised le.. lol. Finally.. got something i really wanted.

Argh.. and my back is hurting so much that i got to rely on painkillers.. sigh.. old problem that just got amplified..

Went out yesterday to study through the night, and well, i was quite impressed.. lol.. coz studied much more than i did the previous year... Of coz, pace was very slow coz the notes are really quite difficult to understand, too concised le..

And i was reminded, the 1st paper is less than 2 months away! OMG.. omg omg omg.. omg.. haha.. but i think next week then start ba.. very tired leh.

But still, i'm free for mj and crubbings.. lol.. subject to financial constraint of coz.. now i've got 2 hamsters to feed.. hahaha..

Too Much COFFEE!

Wondering how come.. i actually start to miss school already.

A few days back, while practically the whole of SIM is busy mugging for mocks, i chose mahjong instead. And for that "mistake", i suffered the worst losses in a single game.. lol.. should be memorable. LOL, and for the 1st time, i hosted mj game at home.. lol.. and i lost with home advantage.. zz.

Even if i won, winnings in the end was transferred to the cab driver.. lol.. but i malu again, coz my 'zha hu' tendency is quite high, haiz.. eyes don't know see what.. and i 'tio bao' again.. for the 3rd time in history.. lol.. and i already realised how stubborn i am.. but why? When people hiong, they don't tio, and when i hiong, confirm become the cannon hand.. haa..

For these few days, i didn't touch any books at all.. i really got to go somewhere to start studying, if not, da bao again.. tio bao is $12.80, da bao is $7000.. lol.. must really study le.

Been stressed over ham and bacon (my hamsters) coz one is too active, while the other is very lazy. Keep waking me up in the middle of the night and early in the morning.. argh.. also, been upgrading their living quarters, until my mom keeps nagging. Today, i made another trip to the local pet stall, and discovered that i can place order for items not on sale there.. wah.. so nice. Modified the old cage (DIY style) to cater to the use of a higher quality waterbottle.. lol.. (the waterbottle cost $4 plus.. =_=)..

Today, i received a sms from wss alumni band.. erm, i won't be joining.. coz till now, things haven't changed much. Weak in playing can be improved by practicing.. yet a flawed management, practice can only make permanent. I don't wish to say anymore.. just take it that i'm petty. But i'm such, for i'm ungenerous with certain things. Sometimes, i liked to be left alone.. haha.. don't bother me too othen. But things change with the change of status. LOL.. it seems that i'm the one bothering other.


I actually regretted a lot of things, and certain things are harder to change then they seems.

Having quite a backache these few days.. until my head got a bit giddy.. zzz.. what is happening.. but even as i complain, it seems that people have their own share of problem.. perhaps, faith might provide the comfort.

Sleepness coz i downed 1 cup of tea and 1 cup of coffee during and after dinner.. argh.. now my brain is hyper active.. couldn't sleep, and had enough of attempting to study..

In the end, i watched whatever show that was shown on the tv screen.. and that includes "my date with a vampire 3".. omg.. what.. that weird show is back again.. zzz. Stock watched with dad again.. and saw the US market red red again.. hah.. i think quite a number of people got caught in the re-adjustment.. too much speculative activity liao lor.. see la... And then dad told me, a local ugrad moved from 70k profit to a 700k loss overnight.. wow.. how unpredictable. But i didn't see the news.. haha.. i only know got one 23 years old girl got her 200k illegal 4D winnings confiscated.. must be a very heart-wrenching feeling to lose so much.

Oh.. this week is holiday week for the schooling kids.. and this maple gave a lot of incentive for people to start playing continuously.. lol.. i already stopped regular mappling for quite a while. Starts to be rather quite meaningless to pursue certain things with real cash.. after all, i prefer things that are tangible. Doesn't mean that i'll quit.. just being less persistant, perhaps less stubborn.

It seems that things that i'm trying to cover are endless.. lol. A few days back, i got myself a haircut.. whahaa.. actually i think that its quite nice leh.. whaha.. well, compared to my botak head a year ago.. lol! I don't think i'll do that again.

Lenghty entry.. coz i don't get to go online that often.. my wireless router spoiled.. and got to take it to jurong for servicing.. well, sis volunteered for that, but it could only been done this weekend coz of her work commitment. But i realised that she's getting rather temperamental already.. haha.. i don't think i can wait till this weekend... lol. I can survive on cable connection.. but i think wireless is better.

There'll be a LBO mock at 8am. But it seems i didn't manage to attend any.. hahaha... really.. certain things are so difficult to change.. hahaha.. haiz..

Haiz.. oh why do i drink so much coffee.. ah kun coffee power sia.. hhahahaaa.... omg.. spare me..

The Day My House Shook

I was using my laptop when suddenly my chair starts to sway... and then i looked at the items on my desks, especially the glass of water.. omg.. i thought the flat was going to collapse or what lor.. haha.

Used to hear that toa payoh and other parts of singapore experiencing the tremors of neighbouring quakes, and used to wonder how it feels like. At 12pm, i felt it once.. it lasted for around 30sec to 60sec.. and as what they said, it really felt giddy.. haha.. Then at 2pm, it happened again. This time, a shorter duration.

Initially, i was quite excited, coz really never felt it before.. but then, i got scared.. haha.. coz i live at 12th storey leh.. if the building comes down.. then i no need to go exams le lor.. hahaa... no la.. really, coz it was really shaking really badly.. haha.. so bad until i got scared.

And yesterday, i didn't go for my mock.. lol.. making a mockery out of the mocks again.. or rather, myself. Sigh.. but this time i felt really bad.. coz i didn't prepare enough.. but it's over le.. say anything also no use.. and i don't want to comment about this friday's paper.. later ponten again.. haha.

And today don't know is becoz of the quake or what, my parcel of examiner's report got delivered to the wrong address.. whahaha.. it went to my neighbour and then the auntie signed for it.. whahaa... but it's ok lo.. coz she delivered to my place in the end.. blame it on the delivery man.

Both my hamsters are getting fatter everyday.. omg.. i must have overfed them le... haha.. and the older they grow, the more they want to fight.. think one of these days, got to seperate them le. I think i rather let them be lonely then getting killed lor.

Been busy these few days trying to get a trojan out of my desktop.. wahaha..must be those mp3 sites.... sians.. it disabled my antivirus and prevents them from clearing the system.. and i've checked.. its a pws (password steal) virus.. waahhahahaa.. heng heng i got no internet banking a/c or brokering a/c.. if not who knows what?

Sian 3/4 liao lor.. and as expected, the stock market kept 're-adjusting' coz of too many speculating activity le.. in the end all tio jia liao la.. haha.. see lar.. when everybody says that its good, then its too good to enter le.. and only when everybody says its bad, then its really damn bad.. which means better days are ahead. Still, i feel that it's not time yet.. a lot of share are overpriced, largely due to speculatations. But been noticing one.. the Starhub.. IPO-ed at $1, and fell to $0.90 after IPO, it is now trading at around $2.80 on the exchange.. lol.. must do somemore homework wor.

Pre-Prelims

Zzz.. this year's angbao draw is shared by 2 winners.. 2! Imagine how much each will get.. 5 mil each! 5mil leh.. put in FD then no need to work le. Yalor, my in my dreams. Haha.. the system 7 didnt work for me as well, just as last year's quick pick. The most i got is 2 numbers.. omg.. what lousy luck i got wor.. haah.. absolutely no luck in betting, gambling and such.

I couldn't sleep, neither could i get CF in.. i really do wish that i'll turn up for CF on monday, even if i don't get back my paper. But still, it seems quite difficult.. it just lack of something.. 3 years studying, and all i've attended was maths prelim.. haha.. the one ever.

Meanwhile, i've got 2 hamsters to take care of - ham and bacon.. LOL.. still now, i still can't tell which breed they are, most likey they're russian dwarf. Haha.. even the pet shop uncle also don't know.. he just get them from the breeder. Right now, they are well, adapting to the new environment. But still very small.. haaha.. till they can't reach the waterbottle.. so i got them a water dish instead.

Ar.. i can't sleep.. but i'm so tired.. and the mocks are coming.. ar.. so stress wor.