Think Too Much? Carry On...

Often, things are not what they seem to be. Actually it is rather tiring and difficult to guess others' intention. Yet from young, we are trained to interpret in our own context, from our limited experience in life. More often than not, we read them differently from the intended meaning. As we grow, we became more sensitive to the words and action people convey. We became specialised in picking out things that might be directed at us - good or bad.

Misunderstandings - it happens because of asymmetric information. The originator has 100 percent knowledge of the intention while the receiving end can only guess based on whatever information they can get. People choose to convey their intention in a subtle manner to have that sense of security. And it is this sense of security that forms a barrier - fence that forbids us to speak freely, to express. For fear of being ridicule, being rejected. So, we kept things secret. Yet, part of us needed people to know. Hence only part of the story is told. The rest is up to the creativity and imagination of the receiver. But without the experience, the information is often distorted and far from the intended version.

Which is why people often hear other says, " you think too much liao.." But really.. sometimes i felt it too. Till the day when everything is over, then i'll realise how simple things actually are.. Why complicate it? Give and take.. everything will fall into place <-- i hope.. and i hope my version will be the intended one.. hahaha.. Even as this happens.. people are trying to guess what i mean.. lol.. what can i say? " Think too much liao.." But i guess, maybe it is this hope that will keep people going.. even if it is a false hope. Or should i say.. misuderstood hope?

Too much happened within my mind these days.. coz i'm older already.. haha.. nope.. maybe coz i've seen more. Wondered why the intended bus doesn't come while all others kept coming. . vacant taxis are a rarity when time is running short.. traffic jams, traffic lights, weather... all are against hope. Maybe we know that those adversities are to be a reality.. thats why they happen, and thats why we hope they don't. Also, negative things tend to capture our attention more.. maybe thats why people one fond of usually doesn't reciprocate? - GQoo theory: I feel that it is the combination of both. The false hope syndrome together with the significance of negativity. Meaning - think too much liao.. hahaha. but still, it is these thoughts that motivates.. so.. carry on thinking bah..

Realization hurts while ignorance is a bliss. Being hopeful is to be exposed to devestation. And that explains the irony why the things that made me happy are often the same ones that brings about that bitter feeling. Don't try to read me.. i don't think anyone will understand. Intention will only end up being distorted..