Just Let Me Know....

Life seems so full of happenenings.. and it all happened on me! Not something to celebrate though. Can't even say how bad it'll go.. it seems the peak was over again. What could i ask for? Was actually very lucky to have that much. Yet wasn't the type to hold on and to strive for. In fact, things were often done halfway. Maybe i might end halfway someday...

Had too much to cope with.. and i can't adjust my time to everyone. And not everyone can adjust to me. YCF performance coming up soon... and i haven't even attend one practice.. And SRC too.. Was my off day.. yet couldn't help out coz i was sick. (again).. Had been very prone to illness these few years.. wondered what was wrong with me.. wanted to lead a better life.. yet..

Maybe i should let go.. let go of whatever that is bothering me so much...

My day was with mixed feelings. Was tabbing ' 倒带' for the bass part. No feat though.. anyone could do it.. but it needed to be ready.. coz we might be playing it soon. So listened to it for a lot of times.. both versions - Jay's and Jolin's. But i peferred Jay's version. Knew that the lyrics were kind of destructive.. no choice but to listen.

倒带

作词：方文山 作曲：周杰伦

我受够了等待 你所谓的安排
到底多久 多久才来
你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
我想依赖却你 都不在

应该开心的地带 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
我想你应该明白 却一直都进不来
你所给我的伤害 我是真的很难释怀

你总是要我乖 慢慢计划将来
说的未来到底多久才来
过去怎麼安排 你该给的信赖
我的眼泪却一直掉下来

从我脸上的苍白 看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带 只是感觉已经不在
过去你给的期待 被我一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎麼拼凑跟重来

终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
哭著求我留下来

终於看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开

Nice song with great lyrics.. and that feeling... Actually didn't quite notice it.. but a few other songs were just as agonizing on the heart. '瓦解' and '搁浅'. The title alone suggests that something was very tormenting..

Was asked to attend NYP/NTU today.. (as an audience).. and as expected, saw her there. Didn't want to look for her, yet, she came next to my seat. Was looking for someone though.. but i thought it would be impolite not to greet someone i knew.. Yet, was disappointed with the reply. Guess it was my turn.. something i owed her during my concert 4 years ago. Same situation, we were perparing for WMC. And so, the same response. Not too sad i guess.. only disappointed.. From friends to strangers.. what next?

I just don't know.