Just Another Month

Another day gone.. start of June and then, still nothing. Nothing accomplished at all. Work wise, better not to mention. Still waiting for the promoter job.. but seems that they won't call. Might as well. Still thinking whether to commit or not. Found myself involved in bands again.. WSS Alumni and SWE.. and of coz the newly formed 'Noob' band. Still learning how to play the bass.. haha.. its more interesting than i've imagine. But i lack the professional guidance. Anyway, not intending to make it big.. just for our own entertainment. Had all the key players sought out.. just lack of a lead singer and a keyboardist.. maybe another guitarist would be nice..

So a boring June i suppose. Mostly filled with meetings of FOC and FOD.. ha.. how i wanted to be free.. to do what i want. And of coz.. band pract as well.. mundane as it can be.. on my weekends. Commitments.. how can i work with such a schedule? A case of 'over-commitment'. Yet i don't find that kick i'm looking for.. why? Sort of lacking something in my life.. perhaps love. It is no accident, and it really depends on the originator and the receiving end. Both sides must work to begin with. Its too complex, and finding the light.. and i see none. Perhaps time.

2 plus.. just finished disturbing the village with the bass.. haha.. think i'm obsessed with it. I want to be a competent bassist.. haha.. not pro.. just competent. Swollen fingers.. the strings are much more thicker than i've expected.. compared to my acoustic guitar. Things are much more different, and i'm not used to it.

Still on my plan of gainning weight.. mass, not fats.. well.. maybe fats are welcomed too. So had been eating non-stop. Supper is a must, and then, i'm almost broke eating. Its not cheap at all. 2 days into this regime.. in bid to improve. As i've said.. its a disavantage to be 'light'.. wind might blow me off someday if i'm not careful.. lol..

Endured lots of shit recently.. not saying anything doesn't mean giving in. I might want to try a different role someday. Fell out with a campmate recently over work related issues.. I'm not DUMB.. can feel, can see and can hear. Think twice. Retaliation is not forbidden.