Past 2 Days

Kind of being speechless after all that had happened.

Was given a kind of choking feeling last monday morning.. i also didn't see it coming. I wanted to think that, nothing had changed so far, and all was well.. Perhaps, i was wrong.

Can't find the exact words to describe the kind of "emo" that went through.. i really don't know why it was such. Other than that, things were rather clear.

Of coz, it was another piece of 'history' that affected people around.. even till now.. and, it couldn't be contracted out.

Maybe was feeling a bit miserable over what had happened.. but nothing much to be done for they are of past.. just hoped that the whole cloud (of whatever) would disperse. Knowing that was, indirectly caused by me (or whatever).. i have somehow, felt guilty. Yet in such, there is no one particular blame to be pushed.. there are just too many of variables that might just cause things to not work well.

I don't think anyone understands what i'm trying to say here.. coz i also don't know how i shall blog. Maybe just keep it somewhere close ba.

Personally, i have said what i wanted to.. i don't think there is any need for any other one else to know.. i shall give all my blessings to.

Was actually 'stunned' for 2 days.. coz been wanting to blog, yet didn't know how.. but i was glad perhaps some "sense" was being knocked into me.. haha.. though the process of being knocked isn't what one might enjoy.. haha.. nevertheless.. was doing what i always said i wanted to.. yalor.. just "what is stopping me"? Sure ain't easy to keep pushing.. i shall. There are many reason.. and definately it was becoz of.

LOL.. i really think if i had forgotten all about what happened.. when (and if) i revist this entry.. i won't know what the heck i'm blogging about lor.. lol..

Anyway, just to keep things going..

Yesterday, my cousin came over to my place.. lol.. it was quite rare. Ya.. intending to "transfer" my bass guitar over to him at a premium price.. lol.. if not, i'll auction it off le. Haven't been playing the bass for quite some time.. think a year plus le.. so might as well clear the space. Thankfully my cousin was keen in that instrumnent.. if not, it would be a waste to sell off cheaply to the masses.

Went grandma's place in the evening.. lol.. so happy that aunt kam (my cousin's mom) bought some sushi for me.. wahaha.. i was already craving for jap food in the afternoon lor.. and then just like that, it appeared.. whahaa.. must be my good fortune huh?

Pakki was granted his access to most part of the village, including my room.. sigh. But he wasn't given the green light to be outside at night.. coz he too dark to see in the night le.. haha.. scared he camo as a black carpet then we might accidently stepped on him in the dark lor.. haha.. but i'm working to grant him his 'right'. Whahah..

I think my mom loves him very much lor.. this morning, she went to "joy donkey" (it was supposed to be joy doggy.. coz my mom always pronouce things rather interestingly).. to look for a long term solution to pakki's peeing place. Was given a choice of a stainless steel grid that cost $160!!!! Wow.. nowadays the dog huh.. haha.. so xin fu. But no la.. a bit too steep le. So maybe go find some alternative lor.. like the bbq grill or such.. whahaha..

And this morning, pakki learnt how to play dead.. zzz. This was taught by dad. LOL.. Nothing much to teach him le.. haha.. already 7 months old.. i can't wait to watch him grow till the age of 1.. then i shall bring him around my neighbourhood to make new friends.. (for him that is).. i don't think i want to make a lot of auntie friends.. whahaha.. just kidding.