In Daze

Home from downtown east, and it's been a long long day.

Woke up late on saturdays as usual, and feeling very tired, as usual. Due to 2 very free days (thurs and fri), i usually got defeated by the Z monster during the early evenings. In the end, i couldn't sleep at night, making my sleeping hours from 4am to 11am the following day.

As such, i'm in a dazed mode on weekends. Not only that, i tend to be late for saturday's FI as well.. coz i watch 'mythbusters' till 1pm, then set off from home, and then i miss the critical bus as well.. haha.. as a result, late. Today i saw 52 just gone before i reached the busstop, so tried to give 74 'another chance'.. haha.. but damn the toopid car that used the bus bay to as a waiting point. One woman driver parked her car soooooooooo darn near the bus stop, and expect the bus drivers to squeeze past her car.. and in the rain somemore, making it very dangerous.. coz the bus driver got to overtake and then move in again.. in the end, most of the buses were quite off the bus shelter.. IN THIS DARN HEAVY RAIN.. eh pleaseeee la, want to park, can don't park so in or not? scared people bang from behind ar? Then not scared bus bang from the side liao la? Kns.. i was so tempted.. so tempted to take the pic of the inconsiderate driver and post them on stomp.. haha.. but then i realised, my lousy 6260 cmi de.. i doubt it can deliver in wet weather.

So i took the ride, pek chek coz i got to get drenched just to get on the bus, and also because the 74 keep stopping.. rainy days, what to do?

Reached school already almost 2pm.. whahaha.. then i missed the critical slides.. in the end, whole lecture don't know what he talking about.. simi long short, short long, hedge here hedge there hedge everywhere. Got out of the LT more blur then i went in.

Then it was off to band at tampines st 82.. super far lor.. haha.. the whole train and bus ride took me around one hour or so.. and so i excused brain once i got on the train. Perhaps daze too much.. i missed the tampines station.. haha.. and reached pasir ris. And then i got off at pasir ris.. smlj la.. hahaha.. supposed to wait inside de lor.. (for those in daze like me, pasir ris is the end of the east-west line.. which means no need to cross the platform to take the reverse direction train back).. haha.. not that i don't know.. but don't know what i'm thinking.. perhaps daze too much le.

Finally reached HQ, and discovered i was late. Zw and jer were already there.. and today, jacomo did the 2 gakai songs. LOL.. i can't make it lor.. the more i played, the more i feel that i better give up music. I couldn't match them in volume, nor in skill. Not that i'm competing.. but i just want to blend.. and then since they are doing music professionally, i am supposed to follow.. but found that i couldn't.. the most i did was buffer. Sian 1/2 and the conductor kept praising the horn section.. and i and perhaps the all of us knew who to give credit. Sigh.. felt so useless for once.. wondered what's my role. Free rider?

Concert coming soon.. finally.. felt so much to leave after the concert, but jh is coming back.. haha.. at least got one more kahkis around.. but maybe i want to take a rest.. maybe the road to professionalism is not the one i want to take. Let them, and leave me alone.

Finally band was over.. and i ended early. So i went to downtown east to celebrate jeremy and syl's bday. Reached white sands and saw sher in 7-11.. haha.. so qiao hor? LOL.. Food was great, heard was the same one from camp D.. but it tasted quite different. Perhaps i was hungry then? But i ate a lot a lot today.. coz hungry usually after band pract. Haha.. eat till i can't sleep now lor.

And as usual, downtown east is so east that i got to run before midnight to catch the last bus 88 back.. reached le still got to walk 15-18 mins before home.. (sorry that i said that walking 15 mins is short distance.. ) .. lol.. reached home very very tired le lor.. and still got the royal edict for tomorrow's dim sum breakfast with grandma.. waaah.. haha.. cannot chute pattern.

But i'm less wilful le la.. cannot means cannot. Play is important.. but other things are important too. I'll learn, and i've leant.

Still got a lot more to accomplish tomorrow.. finally a day to get me out of my house for once other than lessons and band... think i must stop nuaing le.