All The Shit

SRC meething today... not the longest meeting i've met yet.. haha.. from 10am to 4pm plus.. (was actually from 9.30am - i was late). So i was late ... and was late again.. and it has become my 'signature'. Ok... enough of being late.. maybe enough of being in SRC. Was no longer in passion.. i don't know why.. felt no urge to contribute.. only to refute.. i've said so.. my purpose.. haha.. pessimist point of view, won't achieve great things.. but won't commit great mistakes. i don't know.. SRC - Excos seems foreign to me. I wonder.. and lots of things to feel awkard about.

Shes a really nice girl.. and everyone should treasure if given the chance. From the first day, she was unique till now. Special as i called it, and special she remains. I don't dare to look into her eyes coz i've wavered too much.. not that this was the reason ( i knew my limitations ), maybe it was not meant to be in the first place. This won't remain, yet it won't go away. perhaps... 'i was used to it'.

By all means: interpret all you can. I have no wish to clarify my stand. Just do not quote me.

I don't wish to know the consequences.. antenna was severed... maybe there won't be one. Lingering.. not. And i knew the reason too well. Too well to face it.. too well i knew where to hide.. too well i knew how to deny. Too well i knew nobody knew what.

Again: interepret all you can. (sort of like eat-all-you-can buffet)

People are not tired guessing intentions.. and they don't like to ask.

Think i lamented too much.. haha.. this was the side effect of too much exposure. (like radiation) It applies to EVERYTHING.. erm.. Excluding ahem D*n*s*u*.. (sorry, but i'm not being impolite.. haha.. just a way i feel.. please check with me your status.. lol..)

Alright... next time if anyone wants to do back-stabbing, make sure the intended party dies ok?

Hahaa... i've got too much to blog.. think i'm going crazy with antenna gone... ok.. move on to work these few days.. well it was a waste of time.. given the situation and the accessibility of facilities.. haha... ya.. i'm pessimistic (thats why i'm TYPE B - will i lose customer this way?.. hahaha..)... but compare to erm... ya..i don't know.. i'm the one doing it anyway.

You will get monkeys if you pay peanuts. (And i am one of them - that reminds me of Madagascar.. haha)

But i've learnt a few things along the way... and the battle is not done yet.. haha... exploited.. i know.. im not DUMB ok.. maybe i did it out of goodwill.. maybe for the sake of this 'Bad' experience.. i still do it anyway. Even if i get all the shit, do it anyway... (something i read on the new paper).. so what do we live for? Not many knew.. perhaps to see how much shit one can take (and pass out) in a lifetime. (mine is spoilt)

Experience - good or bad, is still experience.

So today after Exco meeting, i'm had 'itchy' hand.. called a friend who is in the line of Network Marketing... sometimes referred as MLM (multi level marketing).. or pyramid or cube or whatever you call it. So i chose to attack their reputation first.. (it was tainted ... and it wasn't me who did it.. haha).. was surprised... i think they have good training.. haha.. maybe they just need that chance that people will stop for them. (same as everyone else.. ya.. same for me too).. and at the end of the session... i can't find a reason to whack. And if one wants to argue.. i can say.. everything is actually MLM.. just they do it in a more discreet manner. The classic example of mark up pricing.. or more readily accepted as 'value added'.. if not for this, we all should be eating grass (or cow dungs) now. For all those 'magnetic beds' owners.. please tell me how 'magentic' they are.. from what i presume, it might cause you to lose ur handphones or watches.. actually that magnets are not that powerful to do that.. not even to mention to change any thing in, on, and around your body.. maybe dinos are attracted to magnets. Luckily i don't have any beds in my rooms.. ya.. no more beds. It was given to Salvation Army.. on the account that it can't accomodate my height anymore.. but then.. i had problems 'getting up' of bed now... i don't know why.. 'old friend' (Arthritis) came back... haha.. to remind me not to take things for granted.

Think i had an overdose of caffine. Was blogging since i came back.. and now its going to 4am. And i'm still on the 'ignore' (or maybe entertain) list.. just kidding.. haha.. and i'm not sleepy..

Will be going for band pract tomorrow.. haha.. maybe going early.. maybe will meet X.. maybe will have more stories to tell.. i think i can be scriptwriter for local drama...

Why should one let go of memories? Keep them, but cast off the feelings. The way people feel changes now and then. One might be priceless on one moment and turn 'price-less' the next. Cherish that feel now.. for you might regret that same feeling later.

Anime 'Fullmetal Alchemist' ended. Didn't really followed it.. but watched the final episode. And maybe got to understand the whole theme. It revolves around the assumption that 'for every sacrifice, there will be a return of an equal value'. This implies that you reap what you sow. Yet this wasn't the case as the plot unfolds .. and they conclude that this is only what people say to comfort themselves.. in real life, it doesn't happen either.. (maybe in the karma context of previous life.. no wish to eleborate.. i'm not here to preach).. it help sometimes.. but it can fail. Take for example.. the POB exam that was just over.. It came out the most unlikely question at the expense of a common topic. (which i didn't study also.. haha)... people who worked 70% couldn't get it, while people who speculated 70% could.. i don't know.. maybe speculation is a form of sacrifice.. everything has its price (or opportunity cost). We shall wait for the verdict.

A ton of crap... and it you happen to read all until this point.. congrats! You are officially very 'free' or 'bo liao' as me.. no offence.. but its stabbing in front. Do it the official way.. confront. And don't bookmark .. haha.. its not as interesting as you think. And if by now you are still reading this.. i've already lost my train thoughts... its just nonsense.. pure. Do confront if you have any doubts.

My point:
1. I've lost interest in that council thing. (same goes to band)
2. Someone is special. (and i mean it) (ok.. everyone is special)
3. I'm monkey, but i prefer bananas. (actually i prefer cash)
4. Shit happens, but still have to be cleared. (kio sai)
5. MLM is not that as bad as it seems. (but i heard bad things about them)
6. You don't reap what you sow (weeds might become priceless too)
7. Stab in front and ask for a reward. (you might get stabbed more times in return... who knows?)

Laugh, joke, stab, whatever... JUST DON'T QUOTE ME.. or you might be squashed by erm.. D