Begining of the End?

Had our first SRC MGM today. Thought that i would be 'hyper' when i see her.. but didn't feel that way when she came in.. maybe because she was with her OG.. maybe because i lingered too long in the 'Grey' area.. haiz.. was told by her friend that i wasn't trying hard enough.. but given the situation, i won't dare to rush things.. Too much was at stake. But i still cared.. just that other people were involved too.. kind of complicated.. I thought it was supposed to be just between the two of us.. but ppl want to make their presence felt.. what can i do? I know it will affect her.. So didn't want to add to her burden by keeping in touch with her less often.. she had quite a number of commitments.. SRC, tutuion, and all the outings.. to make things worse.. our timetable was totally different from each other.. can't even get to see each other in school.. hence i lose the chance to connect with her.. Think some of the Warlords felt it too.. kept asking me what happened between us.. but there's nothing to begin with.. felt it was ending even before we started.. haiz..