Sigh

Today was a disappointment. In fact, the rest of the days were too.

Till now, the brasses didn't have even one run-through where everyone is around. How to practice like that? It is kind of unfair. I'm tired, and the feeling of being denied is draining me.

If the body is tired, the mind will too.

Even words failed me at times. Sigh.

Had a dry run today on what was supposed to be our performance the coming week. Had the chance to play at the hall, and really wasn't a good choice for performing. I couldn't hear much of others, and the horn sounded muffled. Disliked it.

I don't know where this is taking me.. it seems the council kept changing directions, and sometimes expectations accelerate faster than improvements.

I do have a choice.