"L"

I get tired easily nowadays.. maybe really "L" le.

Finally got through of the 2 weeks of my 1st CA at the CF.. and it really is draining all my energy away. I've lost weight yet again.. and even the driver said so.

It is really not easy to start a biz.. and as the saying goes.. it is even more difficult to sustain it. Things are being so, and people are being so. Even the whole economic environment is being so. Not something that even if you can, you will. I usually don't like to clear mess.. especially when it is not mine.

But what to do.. there is the Darth Vader.. and i have no wish to see the otherwise.

Was back to boiler at st james on sat again.. and really can feel "L" le.. Another martell was opened, and was roughly the 5th this year. 4 of us finished the whole bottle, as if we were very young like that.. all tah tah tah... "bo tah and you know what"..

Made it a point not to be there on my bday.. lol. Assumed the name of "Mark".. and i don't know how many names i had before. It was solely for use as a means for others to remember my name.. especially when biz is concerned. My CL name is really too difficult to remember le, and the initials, is something else. It is only good for schooling.. coz the lecturer will call those easy easy ones.. hahaha.. but not now. I really need customers to remember my name. In the CF line, most names are either ah simi.. but i doubt they use it in the finance sector.

Slept for less than 3 hours before going for band pract. Audition was on, and so the rest had to self pract. Almost fainted.. lol.. tuning was out, scales were wrong, tempo was off, and rhythm was wrong. I wonder where was the 'inspiring' factor they were talking about. Nevertheless, it was still some work done, and even though however basic. Played "a walk on a scary day", and it was scary indeed. At least, the rhythmic part was on par (less the pitch and tone).. and really can quite see the importance of foundation.

Well, i have no rights anyway.. i am the amateur of the amateur. If it was my section, i would have known what i want. Not when there are more cooks than pots. Still liked the sound of the horn more than the trumpet, but the horn sounds quite horrible when the sense of pitch is missing. That being i don't know what note i'm playing, yet i still want to match that note. I need to polish up my horn playing le.. it is really not an easy instrument at all. With 6 work days, i think i should be too "full of life" to get somemore "life" into my life.

Was so glad to be offered a ride back home by one of the pending new members.. and it was all the way near my place.. wahahahah... and hopefully she get the approval from our band director to join us..

Rested well enough since i reached home early, and had to do my best for work for the coming week. There might be some changes in the coming year at the CF, and i need to learn fast. Might need to get back to the CF on sundays if things go as planned.. that is, loan the kuti R1 and also learn to tend the CF alone. I've already done so during the past 2 weeks.. the whole CF left me alone.. they all went to have lunch/ buy lunch.. and then 3 customers appeared all at the same time.. what to do.. "L" skywalker ma..